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类别:其他 作者:Elizabeth Gaskell字数:11770更新时间:19/01/07 15:20:26
Mollytooktheletterdownwithoutaword,andbegantocopyitatthewriting—table;oftenreadingoverwhatshewasallowedtoread;oftenpausing,hercheekonherhand,hereyesontheletter,andlettingherimaginationrovetothewriter,andallthescenesinwhichshehadeitherseenhimherself,orinwhichherfancyhadpaintedhim。ShewasstartledfromhermeditationsbyCynthia’ssuddenentranceintothedrawing—room,lookingthepictureofglowingdelight。’Noonehere!Whatablessing!Ah,MissMolly,youaremoreeloquentthanyoubelieveyourself。Lookhere!’holdingupalargefullenvelope,andthenquicklyreplacingitinherpocket,asifshewasafraidofbeingseen。’What’sthematter,sweetone?’comingupandcaressingMolly。’Isitworryingitselfoverthatletter?Why,don’tyouseethesearemyveryownhorribleletters,thatIamgoingtoburndirectly,thatMrPrestonhashadthegracetosendme,thankstoyou,littleMolly—cuishlamachree,pulseofmyheart,—thelettersthathavebeenhangingovermyheadlikesomebody’sswordforthesetwoyears?’ ’Oh,Iamsoglad!’saidMolly,rousingupalittle。’Ineverthoughthewouldhavesentthem。HeisbetterthanIbelievedhim。Andnowitisallover。Iamsoglad。Youquitethinkhemeanstogiveupallclaimoveryoubythis,don’tyou,Cynthia?’ ’Hemayclaim,butIwon’tbeclaimed;andhehasnoproofsnow。Itisthemostcharmingrelief;andIoweitalltoyou,youpreciouslittlelady!Nowthereisonlyonethingmoretobedone;andifyouwouldbutdoitforme——?’(coaxingandcaressingwhilesheaskedthequestion)。 ’Oh,Cynthia,don’taskme;Icannotdoanymore。Youdon’tknowhowsickIgowhenIthinkofyesterday,andMrSheepshanks’look。’ ’Itisonlyaverylittlething。Iwon’tburdenyourconsciencewithtellingyouhowIgetmyletters,butitisnotthroughapersonIcantrustwithmoney;andImustforcehimtotakebackhistwenty—threepoundsoddshillings。Ihaveputittogetherattherateoffivepercent。,andit’ssealedup。Oh,Molly,Ishouldgooffwithsuchalightheartifyouwouldonlytrytogetitsafelytohim。It’sthelastthing;therewouldbenoimmediatehurry,youknow。Youmightmeethimbychanceinashop,inthestreet,evenataparty—andifyouonlyhaditwithyouinyourpocket,therewouldbenothingsoeasy。’ Mollywassilent。’Papawouldgiveittohim。Therewouldbenoharminthat。Iwouldtellhimhemustasknoquestionsastowhatitwas。’ ’Verywell,’saidCynthia,’haveityourownway。Ithinkmywayisthebest;forifanyofthisaffaircomesout——Butyou’vedoneagreatdealformealready,andIwon’tblameyounowfordecliningtodoanymore!’ ’Idosodislikehavingtheseunderhanddealingswithhim,’pleadedMolly。 ’Underhand!justsimplygivinghimaletterfromme!IfIleftanoteforMissBrowning,shouldyoudislikegivingittoher?’ ’Youknowthat’sverydifferent。Icoulddoitopenly。’ ’Andyettheremightbewritinginthat;andtherewouldnotbealinewiththemoney。Itwouldonlybethewinding—up—thehonourable,honestwinding—upofanaffairwhichhasworriedmeforyears!Butdoasyoulike!’ ’Giveitme!’saidMolly。’Iwilltry。’ ’There’sadarling!Youcanbuttry;andifyoucan’tgiveittohiminprivate,withoutgettingyourselfintoascrape,why,keepittillI comebackagain。Heshallhaveitthen,whetherhewillorno!’ Mollylookedforwardtohertê;te—?tê;tetwodayswithMrsGibsonwithverydifferentanticipationstothosewithwhichshehadwelcomedthesimilarintercoursewithherfather。Inthefirstplace,therewasnoaccompanyingthetravellerstotheinnfromwhichthecoachstarted; leave—takinginthemarket—placewasquiteoutoftheboundsofMrsGibson’ssenseofpropriety。Besidesthis,itwasagloomy,rainyevenyoing,andcandleshadtobebroughtinatanunusuallyearlyhour。Therewouldbenobreakforsixhours—nomusic,noreading;butthetwoladieswouldsitattheirworstedwork,patteringawayatsmall—talk,withnoteventheusualbreakofdinner;for,tosuittherequirementsofthosewhowereleaving,theyhadalreadydinedearly。ButMrsGibsonreallymeanttomakeMollyhappy,andtriedtobeanagreeablecompanion,onlyMollywasnotwell,anduneasyaboutmanyapprehendedcaresandtroubles—andatsuchhoursofindispositionasshewasthenpassingthrough,apprehensionstaketheshapeofcertainties,lyingawaitinourpaths。Mollywouldhavegivenagooddealtohaveshakenoffallthesefeelings,unusualenoughtoher; buttheveryhouseandfurniture,andrain—blurredouterlandscape,seemedsteepedwithunpleasantassociations,mostofthemdatingfromthelastfewdays。 ’YouandImustgoonthenextjourney,Ithink,mydear,’saidMrsGibson,almostchiminginwithMolly’swishthatshecouldgetawayfromHollingfordintosomenewairandlife,foraweekortwo。’Wehavebeenstay—at—homesforalongtime,andvarietyofsceneissodesirablefortheyoung!ButIthinkthetravellerswillbewishingthemselvesathomebythisnicebrightfireside。\"There’snoplacelikehome,\"asthepoetsays。’\"MidpleasuresandpalacesalthoughImayroam,\"itbegins,andit’sbothveryprettyandverytrue。It’sagreatblessingtohavesuchadearlittlehomeasthis,isnotit,Molly?’ ’Yes,’saidMolly,ratherdrearily,havingsomethingofthe’Toujoursperdrix’feelingatthemoment。Ifshecouldbuthavegoneawaywithherfather,justfortwodays,howpleasantitwouldhavebeen。 ’Tobesure,love,itwouldbeveryniceforyouandmetogoalittlejourneyallbyourselves。YouandI。Nooneelse。Ifitwerenotsuchmiserableweatherwewouldhavegoneoffonalittleimpromptutour。I’vebeenlongingforsomethingofthekindforsomeweeks;butwelivesucharestrictedkindoflifehere!IdeclaresometimesIgetquitesickoftheverysightofthechairsandtablesthatIknowsowell。Andonemissestheotherstoo!Itseemssoflatanddesertedwithoutthem!’ ’Yes!Weareveryforlornto—night;butIthinkit’spartlyowingtotheweather!’ ’Nonsense,dear。Ican’thaveyougivingintothesillyfancyofbeingaffectedbyweather。PoordearMrKirkpatrickusedtosay,\"acheerfulheartmakesitsownsunshine。\"Hewouldsayittome,inhisprettyway,wheneverIwasalittlelow—forIamacompletebarometer—youmayreallyjudgeofthestateoftheweatherbymyspirits,Ihavealwaysbeensuchasensitivecreature!ItiswellforCynthiathatshedoesnotinheritit;Idon’tthinkhereasilyaffectedinanyway,doyou?’ Mollythoughtforaminuteortwo,andthenreplied,—’No,sheiscertainlynoteasilyaffected—notdeeplyaffectedperhapsIshouldsay。’ ’Manygirls,forinstance,wouldhavebeentouchedbytheadmirationsheexcited—Imaysaytheattentionsshereceivedwhenshewasatheruncle’slastsummer。’ ’AtMrKirkpatrick’s?’ ’Yes。TherewasMrHenderson,thatyounglawyer;that’stosayheisstudyinglaw,buthehasagoodprivatefortuneandislikelytohavemore,sohecan’onlybewhatIcallplayingatlaw。MrHendersonwasoverheadandearsinlovewithher。Itisnotmyfancy,althoughIgrantmothersarepartial;bothMrandMrsKirkpatricknoticedit;andinoneofMrsKirkpatrick’sletters,shesaidthatpoorMrHendersonwasgoingintoSwitzerlandforthelongvacation,’doubtlesstotryandforgetCynthia;butshereallybelievedhewouldfinditonlydraggingateachremovealengtheningchain。 Ithoughtitsucharefinedquotation,andaltogetherwordedsoprettily。 YoumustknowauntKirkpatricksomeday,Molly,mylove:sheiswhatI callawomanofatrulyelegantmind。’ ’Ican’thelpthinkingitwasapitythatCynthiadidnottellthemofherengagement。’ ’Itisnotanengagement,mydear!HowoftenmustItellyouthat?’ ’ButwhatamItocallit?’ ’Idon’tseewhyyouneedtocallitanything。IndeedIdon’tunderstandwhatyoumeanby\"it。\"Youshouldalwaystrytoexpressyourselfintelligibly。 ItreallyisoneofthefirstprinciplesoftheEnglishlanguage。Infact,philosophersmightaskwhatislanguagegivenusforatall,ifitisnotthatwemaymakeourmeaningunderstood?’ ’ButthereissomethingbetweenCynthiaandRoger;theyaremoretoeachotherthanIamtoOsborne,forinstance。WhatamItocallit?’ ’Youshouldnotcoupleyournamewiththatofanyunmarriedyoungman; itissodifficulttoteachyoudelicacy,child。PerhapsonemaysaythereisapeculiarrelationbetweendearCynthiaandRoger,butitisverydifficulttocharacterizeit;Ihavenodoubtthatisthereasonsheshrinksfromspeakingaboutit。For,betweenourselves,Molly,Ireallysometimesthinkitwillcometonothing。Heissolongaway,and,privatelyspeaking,Cynthiaisnotveryveryconstant。Ionceknewherverymuchtakenbefore—thatlittleaffairisquitegoneby;andshewasveryciviltoMrHenderson,inherway;Ifancysheinheritsit,forwhenIwasagirlIwasbesetbylovers,andcouldneverfindinmyhearttoshakethemoff。Youhavenothearddearpapasayanythingoftheoldsquire,ordearOsborne,haveyou?ItseemssolongsincewehaveheardorseenanythingofOsborne。 Buthemustbequitewell,Ithink,orweshouldhaveheardofit。’ ’Ibelieveheisquitewell。Someonesaidtheotherdaythattheyhadmethimriding—itwasMrsGoodenough,nowIremember—andthathewaslookingstrongerthanhehaddoneforyears。’ ’Indeed!Iamtrulygladtohearit。IalwayswasfondofOsborne;and,doyouknow,IneverreallytooktoRoger;Irespectedhimandallthat,ofcourse。ButtocomparehimwithMrHenderson!MrHendersonissohandsomeandwell—bred,andgetsallhisglovesfromHoubigant!’ ItwastruethattheyhadnotseenanythingofOsborneHamleyforalongtime;but,asitoftenhappens,justaftertheyhadbeenspeakingabouthimheappeared。ItwasonthedayfollowingonMrGibson’sdeparturethatMrsGibsonhadreceivedoneofthenotes,notsocommonnowasformerly,fromthefamilyintownaskinghertogoovertotheTowers,andfindabook,oramanuscript,orsomethingorotherthatLadyCumnorwantedwithallaninvalid’simpatience。Itwasjustthekindofemploymentsherequiredforanamusementonagloomyday,anditputherintoagood。humourimmediately。 Therewasacertainconfidentialimportanceaboutit,anditwasavariety,anditgaveherthepleasantdriveinaflyupthenobleavenue,andthesenseofbeingthetemporarymistressofallthegrandroomsoncesofamiliartoher。SheaskedMollytoaccompanyher,outofanaccessofkindness,butwasnotatallsorrywhenMollyexcusedherselfandpreferredstoppingathome。Ateleveno’clockMrsGibsonwasoff,allinherSundaybest(tousetheservant’sexpression,whichsheherselfwouldsohavecontemned),well—dressedinordertoimposeontheservantsattheTowers,fortherewasnooneelsetobeseenortobeseenby。 ’Ishallnotbeathomeuntiltheafternoon,mydear!ButIhopeyouwillnotfinditdull。Idon’tthinkyouwill,foryouaresomethinglikeme,mylove—neverlessalonethanwhenalone,asoneofthegreatauthorshasjustlyexpressedit。’ MollyenjoyedherhousetoherselftothefullasmuchasMrsGibsonwouldenjoyhavingtheTowerstoherself。Sheventuredonhavingherlunchbroughtuponatrayintothedrawing—room,sothatshemightcathersandwicheswhileshewentonwithherbook。Inthemiddle,MrOsborneHamleywasannounced。 Hecamein,lookingwretchedlyillinspiteofpurblindMrsGoodenough’sreportofhishealthyappearance。 ’Thiscallisnotonyou,Molly,’saidhe,afterthefirstgreetingswereover。’IwasinhopesImighthavefoundyourfatherathome;Ithoughtlunch—timewasthebesthour。’Hehadsatedown,asifthoroughlygladoftherest,andfallenintoalanguidstoopingposition,asifithadbecomesonaturaltohimthatnosenseofwhatwereconsideredgoodmannerssufficedtorestrainhimnow。 ’Ihopeyoudidnotwanttoseehimprofessionally?’saidMolly,wonderingifshewaswiseinalludingtohishealth,yeturgedtoitbyherrealanxiety。 ’Yes,Idid。IsupposeImayhelpmyselftoabiscuitandaglassofwine?No,don’tringformore。Icouldnoteatitifitwashere。ButI justwantamouthful;thisisquiteenough,thankyou。Whenwillyourfatherbeback?’ ’HewassummoneduptoLondon。LadyCumnorisworse。Ifancythereissomeoperationgoingon;butIdon’tknow。Hewillbebackto—morrownight。’ ’Verywell。ThenImustwait。PerhapsIshallbebetterbythattime。 Ithinkit’shalffancy;butIshouldlikeyourfathertotellmeso。Hewilllaughatme,Idaresay;butIdon’tthinkIshallmindthat。Healwaysissevereonfancifulpatients,isnothe,Molly?’ MollythoughtthatifhesawOsborne’slooksjustnowhewouldhardlythinkhimfanciful,orbeinclinedtobesevere。Butsheonlysaid,—’Papaenjoysajokeateverything,youknow。Itisareliefafterallthesorrowhesees。’ ’Verytrue。Thereisagreatdealofsorrowintheworld。Idon’tthinkit’saveryhappyplaceafterall。SoCynthiaisgonetoLondon,’headded,afterapause,’IthinkIshouldliketohaveseenheragain。PooroldRoger!Helovesherverydearly,Molly,’hesaid。Mollyhardlyknewhowtoanswerhiminallthis;shewassostruckbythechangeinbothvoiceandmanner。 ’MammahasgonetotheTowers,’shebegan,atlength。’LadyCumnorwantedseveralthingsthatmammaonlycanfind。Shewillbesorrytomissyou。 Wewerespeakingofyouonlyyesterday,andshesaidhowlongitwassincewehadseenyou。’ ’IthinkI’vegrowncareless;IhaveoftenfeltsowearyandillthatitwasallIcoulddotokeepupabravefacebeforemyfather。’ ’Whydidyounotcomeandseepapa?’saidMolly;’orwritetohim?’ ’Icannottell。Idriftedonsometimesbetter,andsometimesworse,tillto—dayImustereduppluck,andcametohearwhatyourfatherhasgottotellme:andallfornouseitseems。’ ’Iamverysorry。Butitisonlyfortwodays。Heshallgoandseeyouassoonaseverhereturns。’ ’Hemustnotalarmmyfather,remember,Molly,’saidOsborne,liftinghimselfbythearmsofhischairintoanuprightpositionandspeakingeagerlyforthemoment。’IwishtoGodRogerwasathome,’saidhe,fallingbackintotheoldposture。 ’Ican’thelpunderstandingyou,’saidMolly。’Youthinkyourselfveryill;butisnotitthatyouaretiredjustnow?’Shewasnotsureifsheoughttohaveunderstoodwhatwaspassinginhismind;butasshedid,shecouldnothelpspeakingatruereply。 ’Well,sometimesIdothinkI’mveryill;andthen,again,Ithinkit’sonlythemopinglifesetsmefancyingandexaggerating。’Hewassilentforsometime。Then,asifhehadtakenasuddenresolution,hespokeagain。 ’Youseethereareothersdependinguponme—uponmyhealth。Youhavenotforgottenwhatyouheardthatdayinthelibraryathome?No,Iknowyouhavenot。Ihaveseenthethoughtofitinyoureyesoftensincethen。 Ididnotknowyouatthattime。IthinkIdonow。’ ’Don’tgoontalkingsofast,’saidMolly。’Rest。Noonewillinterruptus;Iwillgoonwithmysewing;whenyouwanttosayanythingmoreIshallbelistening。’Forshehadbeenalarmedatthestrangepallorthathadcomeoverhisface。 ’Thankyou。’Afteratimeherousedhimself,andbegantospeakveryquietly,asifonanindifferentmatteroffact。 ’ThenameofmywifeisAimé;e。Aimé;eHamleyofcourse。 ShelivesatBishopsfield,avillagenearWinchester。Writeitdown,butkeepittoyourself。SheisaFrenchwoman,aRomanCatholic,andwasaservant。Sheisathoroughlygoodwoman。Imustnotsayhowdearsheistome。Idarenot。Imean。toncetohavetoldCynthia,butshedidnotseemquitetoconsidermeasabrother。Perhapsshewasshyofanewrelation,butyou’llgivemylovetoher,allthesame。Itisarelieftothinkthatsomeoneelsehasmysecret;andyouarelikeoneofus,Molly。IcantrustyoualmostasIcantrustRoger。IfeelbetteralreadynowIfeelthatsomeoneelseknowsthewhereaboutsofmywifeandchild。’ ’Child!’saidMolly,surprised。Butbeforehecouldreply,Mariahadannounced,— ’MissPhoebeBrowning。’ ’Foldupthatpaper,’saidhe,quickly,puttingsomethingintoherhands。 ’Itisonlyforyourself。’ chapter46 CHAPTERXLVIHOLLINGFORDGOSSIPS ’MYdearMolly,whydidn’tyoucomeanddinewithus?IsaidtosisterIwouldcomeandscoldyouwell。Oh,MrOsborneHamley,isthatyou?’andalookofmistakenintelligenceatthetê;te—?tê;teshehaddisturbedcamesoperceptiblyoverMissPhoebe’sfacethatMollyruscaughtOsborne’ssympatheticeye,andbothsmiledatthenotion。 ’I’msureI—well!onemustsometimes—Iseeourdinnerwouldhavebeen—’Thensherecoveredherselfintoaconnectedsentence。’WeonlyjustheardofMrsGibson’shavingaflyfromthe\"George,\"becausesistersentourNancytopayforacoupleofrabbitsTomOstlerhadsnared(I hopeweshan’tbetakenupforpoachers,MrOsborne—snaringdoesn’trequirealicence,Ibelieve?),andsheheardhewasgoneoffwiththeflytotheTowerswithyourdearmamma;forCoxewhodrivestheflyingeneralhassprainedhisankle。Wehadjustfinisheddinner,butwhenNancysaidTomOstlerwouldnotbebacktillnightIsaid,\"Why,there’sthatpoordeargirlleftallalonebyherself,andhermothersuchafriendofours,\" —whenshewasalive,Imean,ButI’msureI’mgladI’mmistaken。’ Osbornesaid,—’IcametospeaktoMrGibson,notknowinghehadgonetoLondon,andMissGibsonkindlygavemesomeofherlunch。Imustgonow。’ ’Ohdear!Iamsosorry,’flutteredoutMissPhoebe,’Idisturbedyou; butitwaswiththebestintentions。Ialwayswasmal—à;proposfromachild。’ButOsbornewasgonebeforeshehadfinishedherapologies。Beforeheleft,hiseyesmetMolly’swithastrangelookofyearningfarewellthatstruckheratthetime,andthatsherememberedstronglyafterwards。 ’Suchanicesuitablething,andIcameinthemidst,andspoiltitall。 Iamsureyou’reverykind,mydear,considering—’t’Consideringwhat,mydearMissPhoebe?IfyouareconjecturingaloveaffairbetweenMrOsborneHamleyandme,youneverweremoremistakeninyourlife。IthinkItoldyousooncebefore。Pleasedobelieveme。’ ’Oh,yes!Iremember。AndsomehowsistergotitintoherheaditwasMrPreston,Irecollect。’ ’Oneguessisjustaswrongastheother,’saidMolly,smiling,andtryingtolookperfectlyindifferent,butgoingextremelyredfromannoyanceatthementionofMrPreston’sname。Itwasverydifficultforhertokeepupanyconversation,forherheartwasfullofOsborne—hischangedappearance,hismelancholywordsofforeboding,andhisconfidencesabouthiswife—French,Catholic,servant。Mollycouldnothelptryingtopiecethesestrangefactstogetherbyimaginationsofherown,andfounditveryhardworktoattendtokindMissPhoebe’sunceasingpatter。Shecameuptothepoint,however,whenthevoiceceased;andcouldrecall,inamechanicalmanner,theechoofthelastwords,whichfrombothMissPhoebe’slook,andthedyingaccentthatlingeredinMolly’sear,sheperceivedtobeaquestion。MissPhoebewasaskingherifshewouldgooutwithher?ShewasgoingtoGrinstead’s,thebooksellerofHollingford;who,inadditiontohisregularbusiness,wastheagentfortheHollingfordBookSociety,receivedtheirsubscriptions,kepttheiraccounts,orderedtheirbooksfromLondon,and,onpaymentofasmallsalary,allowedtheSocietytokeeptheirvolumesonshelvesinhisshop。Itwasthecentreofnewsandgossip,theclub,asitwere,ofthelittletown。Everybodywhopretendedtogentilityintheplacebelongedtoit,Itwasatestofgentility,indeed,ratherthanofeducationoraloveofliterature。Noshopkeeperwouldhavethoughtofofferinghimselfasamember,howevergreathisgeneralintelligenceandloveofreading;whileitboasteduponthelistofsubscribersmostofthecountyfamiliesintheneighbourhood,someofwhomsubscribedtotheHollingfordBookSocietyasasortofdutybelongingtotheirstation,withoutoftenusingtheirprivilegeofreadingthebooks:whiletherewereresidentsinthelittletown,suchasMrsGoodenough,whoprivatelythoughtreadingagreatwasteoftime,thatmightbemuchbetteremployedinsewing,andknitting,andpastry—making,butwhoneverthelessbelongedtoitasamarkofstation,justasthesegood,motherlywomenwouldhavethoughtitaterriblecome—downintheworldiftheyhadnothadaprettyyoungservant—maidtofetchthemhomefromthetea—partiesatnight。Atanyrate,Grinstead’swasaveryconvenientplaceforalounge。InthatviewoftheBookSocietyeveryoneagreed。MollywentupstairstogetreadytoaccompanyMissPhoebe;andonopeningoneofherdrawersshesawCynthia’senvelope,containingthenotessheowedtoMrPreston,carefullysealeduplikealetter。ThiswaswhatMollyhadsounwillinglypromisedtodeliver—thelastfinalstroketotheaffair。Mollytookitup,hatingit。Foratimeshehadforgottenit;andnowitwashere,facingher,andshemusttryandgetridofit。Sheputitintoherpocketforthechancesofthewalkandtheday,andfortuneforonceseemedtobefriendher;for,ontheirenteringGrinstead’sshop,inwhichtwoorthreepeoplewerenow,asalways,congregated,makingplayofexaminingthebooks,orbusinessofwritingdownthetitlesofnewworksintheorder—book,therewasMrPreston。Hebowedastheycamein。Hecouldnothelpthat;but,atthesightofMolly,helookedasill—temperedandoutofhumourasamanwellcoulddo。Shewasconnectedinhismindwithdefeatandmortification;andbesides,thesightofhercalledupwhathedesirednowaboveallthingstoforget; namely,thedeepconvictionreceivedthroughMolly’ssimpleearnestness,ofCynthia’sdisliketohim,IfMissPhoebehadseenthescowluponhishandsomeface,shemighthaveundeceivedhersisterinhersuppositionsabouthimandMolly。ButMissPhoebe,whodidnotconsideritquitemaidenlytogoandstandclosetoMrPreston,andsurveytheshelvesofbooksinsuchcloseproximitytoagentleman,foundherselfanerrandattheotherendoftheshop,andoccupiedherselfinbuyingwriting—paper。Mollyfingeredhervaluableletter,asitlayinherpocket;didshedaretocrossovertoMrPreston,andgiveittohim,ornot?Whileshewasstillundecided,shrinkingalwaysjustatthemomentwhenshethoughtshehadgothercourageupforaction,MissPhoebe,havingfinishedherpurchase,turnedround,andafterlookingalittlepatheticallyatMrPreston’sback,saidtoMollyinawhisper,—’Ithinkwe’llgotoJohnson’snow,andcomebackforthebooksinalittlewhile。’SoacrossthestreettoJohnson’stheywent; butnosoonerhadtheyenteredthedraper’sshop,thanMolly’sconsciencesmoteherforhercowardice,andlossofagoodopportunity。’I’llbebackdirectly,’saidshe,assoonasMissPhoebewasengagedwithherpurchases; andMollyranacrosstoGrinstead’s,withoutlookingeithertotherightortheleft;shehadbeenwatchingthedoor,andsheknewthatnoMrPrestonhadissuedforth。Sheranin;hewasatthecounternow,talkingtoGrinsteadhimself,Mollyputtheletterintohishand,tohissurprise,andalmostagainsthiswill,andturnedroundtogobacktoMissPhoebe。AtthedooroftheshopstoodMrsGoodenough,arrestedintheactofentering,staring,withherroundeyes,madestillrounderandmoreowl—likebyspectacles,toseeMollyGibsongivingMrPrestonaletter,whichhe,consciousofbeingwatched,andfavouringunderhandpracticeshabitually,putquicklyintohispocket,unopened。Perhaps,ifhehadhadtimeforreflectionhewouldnothavescrupledtoputMollytoopenshame,byrejectingwhatshesoeagerlyforceduponhim。 TherewasanotherlongeveningtobegotthroughwithMrsGibson;butonthisoccasiontherewasthepleasantoccupationofdinner,whichtookupatleastanhour;foritwasoneofMrsGibson’sfancies—onewhichMollychafedagainst—tohaveeveryceremonialgonethroughinthesamestatelymannerfortwoasfortwenty。So,althoughMollyknewfullwell,andherstepmotherknewfullwell,andMariaknewfullwell,thatneitherMrsGibsonnorMollytoucheddessert,itwassetonthetablewithasmuchformasifCynthiahadbeenathome,whodelightedinalmondsandraisins; orMrGibsonbeenthere,whonevercouldresistdates,althoughhealwaysprotestedagainst’personsintheirstationoflifehavingaformaldessertsetoutbeforethemeveryday。’ AndMrsGibsonherselfapologizedasitweretoMollyto—day,inthesamewordsshehadoftenusedtoMrGibson,—’It’snoextravagance,forweneednoteatit—Ineverdo。Butitlookswell,andmakesMariaunderstandwhatisrequiredinthedailylifeofeveryfamilyofposition。’ AllthroughtheeveningMolly’sthoughtswanderedfarandwide,thoughshemanagedtokeepupashowofattentiontowhatMrsGibsonwassaying。 ShewasthinkingofOsborne,andhisabrupt,half—finishedconfidence,hisill—looks;shewaswonderingwhenRogerwouldcomehome,andlongingforhisreturn,asmuch(shesaidtoherself)forOsborne’ssakeasforherown。Andthenshecheckedherself。WhathadshetodowithRoger?Whyshouldshelongforhisreturn?ItwasCynthiawhowasdoingthis;onlysomehowhewassuchatruefriendtoMolly,thatshecouldnothelpthinkingofhimasastaffandastayinthetroubloustimeswhichappearedtolienotfaraheadthisevening。ThenMrPrestonandherlittleadventurewithhimcameuppermost。Howangryhelooked!HowcouldCynthiahavelikedhimevenenoughtogetintothisabominablescrape,whichwas,however,allovernow!Andsosheranoninherfanciesandimaginations,littledreamingthatthatverynightmuchtalkwasgoingonnothalf—a—milefromwhereshesatesewing,thatwouldprovethatthe’scrape’(asshecalledit,inhergirlishphraseology)wasnotallover。 Scandalsleepsinthesummer,comparativelyspeaking。Itsnatureisthereverseofthatofthedormouse。Warmambientair,loiteringsabroad,gardenings,flowerstotalkabout,andpreservestomake,soothedthewickedimptoslumberintheparishofHollingfordinsummer—time。Butwheneveningsgrewshort,andpeoplegatheredroundthefires,andputtheirfeetinacircle—notonthefenders,thatwasnotallowed—thenwasthetimeforconfidentialconversation!Orinthepausesallowedforthetea—traystocirculateamongthecard—tables—whenthosewhowerepeaceablyinclinedtriedtostopthewarmdiscussionsabout’theoddtrick,’andtheratherwearisomefemininewayof’shoulderingthecrutch,andshowinghowfieldswerewon’—smallcrumbsandscrapsofdailynewscameuptothesurface,suchas’Martindalehasraisedthepriceofhisbestjointsahalfpennyinthepound;’or’it’sashameofSirHarrytoorderinanotherbookonfarrieryintotheBookSociety;PhoebeandItriedtoreadit,butreallythereisnogeneralinterestinit;’or,’IwonderwhatMrAshtonwilldo,nowNancyisgoingtobemarried!Why,shehasbeenwithhimtheseseventeenyears!It’saveryfoolishthingforawomanofheragetobethinkingofmatrimony;andsoItoldher,whenImetherinthemarket—placethismorning!’