第11章

类别:其他 作者:Olive Schreiner字数:10857更新时间:19/01/07 15:11:14
preachedinaministerialrobe,orderedespeciallyforthatday。ItwasmadeofblackcrepedeChine,withgreatdoubleflowingsleeves,whitesilkunder— sleeves,andawidewhitesilkunderfolddownthefront;andImaymentioncasuallythatitlookedverymuchbetterthanIfelt,forIwasverynervous。 MyfatherhadcomeontoChicagoespeciallytohearmysermon,andhadbeeninvitedtositontheplatform。Evenyethewasnotwhollyreconciledtomypublicwork,buthewasbeginningtotakeadeepinterestinit。IgreatlydesiredtopleasehimandtosatisfyMissAnthony,whowasextremelyanxiousthatonthatdayofalldaysIshoulddomybest。 Igaveanunusualamountoftimeandthoughttothatsermon,andatlastevolvedwhatImodestlybelievedtobeagoodone。Ineverwriteoutasermoninadvance,butIdiditthistime,laboriously,andthenmemorizedtheeffort。ThenightbeforethesermonwastobedeliveredMissAnthonyaskedmeaboutit,andwhenIrealizedhowdeeplyin— terestedshewasIdeliveredittoherthenandthereasarehearsal。Itwasverylate,andIknewwewouldnotbeinterrupted。Asshelistenedherfacegrewlongerandlongerandherlipsdroopedatthecorners。HerdisappointmentwassoobviousthatIhaddifficultyinfinishingmyrecitation;butIfinallygotthroughit,thoughratherweaklytowardtheend,andwaitedtohearwhatshewouldsay,hopingagainsthopethatshehadlikeditbetterthansheseemedto。ButSusanB。Anthonywasthefrankestaswellasthekindestofwomen。Reso— lutelysheshookherhead。 ``It’snogood,Anna,’’shesaid;firmly。``You’llhavetodobetter。You’vepolishedandrepolishedthatsermonuntilthere’snolifeleftinit。It’sdead。 Besides,Idon’tcareforyourtext。’’ ``Thengivemeatext,’’Idemanded,gloomily。 ``Ican’t,’’saidAuntSusan。 Iwastiredandbitterlydisappointed,andbothconditionsshowedinmyreply。 ``Well,’’Iasked,somberly,``ifyoucan’tevensupplyatext,howdoyousupposeI’mgoingtodeliverabrand—newsermonatteno’clockto—morrowmorning?’’ ``Oh,’’declaredAuntSusan,blithely,``you’llfindatext。’’ Isuggestedseveral,butshedidnotlikethem。 AtlastIsaid,``Ihaveit——`Letnomantakethycrown。’’’ ``That’sit!’’exclaimedMissAnthony。``Giveusagoodsermononthattext。’’ Shewenttoherroomtosleepthesleepofthejustandtheuntroubled,butItossedinmybedtherestofthenight,planningthepointsofthenewsermon。AfterIhaddelivereditthenextmorningIwenttomyfathertoassisthimfromtheplatform。 Hewastrembling,andhiseyeswerefulloftears。 Heseizedmyarmandpressedit。 ``NowIamreadytodie,’’wasallhesaid。 IwassotiredthatIfeltreadytodie,too;buthissatisfactionandaglanceatAuntSusan’scon— tentedfacegavemethetonicIneeded。Fatherdiedtwoyearslater,andasIwascampaigninginCaliforniaIwasnotwithhimattheend。Itwasacomforttoremember,however,thatinthetwilightofhislifehehadlearnedtounderstandhismostdifficultdaughter,andtogivehercreditforearnest— nessofpurpose,atleast,infollowingthelifethathadledherawayfromhim。Afterhisdeath,andimme— diatelyuponmyreturnfromCalifornia,Ivisitedmymother,anditwaswellindeedthatIdid,forwithinafewmonthsshefollowedfatherintotheotherworldforwhichallofherunselfishlifehadbeenapreparation。 Ourlastdaystogetherwereperfect。Herattitudewasoneofsereneandcheerfulexpectancy,andI alwaysthinkofherassittingamongtheprimrosesandbluebellssheloved,whichseemedtobloomunceasinglyinthewindowsofherroom。Irecall,too,withgratitude,atriflewhichgaveherapleasureoutofallproportiontowhatIhaddreameditwoulddo。ShehadexpressedalongingforsomeEnglishheather,``notthehot—housevariety,butthekindthatbloomsonthehills,’’andIhadsucceededingettingabunchforherbywritingtoanEnglishfriend。 Itspossessionfilledherwithjoy,andfromthetimeitcameuntilthedayhereyesclosedintheirlastsleepitwasrarelybeyondreachofherhand。 Atherrequest,whenshewasburiedwelaidtheheatheronherheart——theheartofatrueandloyalwoman,who,thoughherchildrenhadnotknownit,musthavelongedwithoutceasingthroughoutherNewWorldlifefortheOldWorldofheryouth。 TheScandinavianspeechwasanevenmorevitalexperiencethantheChicagoone,forinStockholmIdeliveredthefirstsermoneverpreachedbyawomanintheStateChurchofSweden,andtheeventwasprecededbyanamountofpoliticalandjournalisticoppositionwhichgaveitaninternationalimportance。IhadalsobeeninvitedbytheNor— wegianwomentopreachintheStateChurchofNorway,butthereweexperiencedobstacles。BythelawsofNorwaywomenarepermittedtoholdallpublicofficesexceptthoseinthearmy,navy,andchurch——aratherremarkablemilitantandspiritualcombination。Asawoman,therefore,IwasdeniedtheuseofthechurchbytheMinisterofChurchAffairs。 Thedecisioncreatedgreatexcitementandmuchdelvingintothelaw。ItthenappearedthatiftheuseofaStateChurchisdesiredforaministerofaforeigncountrythegovernmentcangivesuchper— mission。ItwasthoughtthatImightslipinthroughthisloophole,andapplicationwasmadetothegovernment。ThereplycamethatpermissioncouldbereceivedonlyfromtheentireCabinet;andwhiletheCabinetgentlemenwerefeverishlydiscussingtheimportantissue,theNorwegianpressbecameactive,pointingoutthattheMinisterofChurchAffairshadarrogantlyassumedtherightoftheentireCabinetindenyingtheapplication。ThechargewastakenupbythepartyopposedtothegovernmentpartyinParliament,andtheMinisterofChurchAffairsswiftlyturnedthewholematterovertohisconferees。 TheCabinetheldasession,andbyavoteoffourtothreedecidedNOTtoallowawomantopreachintheStateChurch。IamhappytoaddthatofthethreewhovotedfavorablyonthequestiononewasthePremierofNorway。Againthenewspapersgraspedtheiropportunity——especiallytheorgansoftheoppositionparty。Myroomswerefilledwithreporters,whiledailytheexcitementgrew。ThequestionwasbroughtupinParliament,andIwasinvitedtoattendandhearthediscussionthere。 BythistimeeverynewspaperinScandinaviawasfororagainstme;andtheresultofthewholematterwasthat,thoughtheStateChurchofNorwaywasnotopenedtome,amostunusualinteresthadbeenarousedinmysermonintheStateChurchofSweden。 WhenIarrivedtheretokeepmyengagement,notonlywasthewonderfulstructurepackedtoitswalls,butthewaitingcrowdsinthestreetweresolargethatthepolicehaddifficultyinopeningawayforourparty。 IshallneverforgetmyimpressionofthechurchitselfwhenIenteredit。ItwillalwaysstandforthinmymemoryasoneofthemostbeautifulchurchesIhaveevervisited。Oneverysideweremonu— mentsofdeadheroesandstatesmen,andthehigh,vaultedbluedomeseemedliketheopenskyaboveourheads。Overuslayalightlikeasofttwilight,andthegreatcongregationfillednotonlyallthepews,buttheaisles,theplatform,andeventhestepsofthepulpit。TheusherswereyoungwomenfromtheUniversityofUpsala,wearingwhiteuni— versitycapswithblackvizors,andsashesintheuniversitycolors。Theanthemwascomposedes— peciallyfortheoccasionbythefirstwomancathe— dralorganistinSweden——theorganistofthecathe— dralinGothenburg——andshehadbroughtwithherthirtymembersofherchoir,allofthemremarkablesingers。 Thewholeoccasionwasindescribablyimpressive,andIrealizedineveryfiberthenecessityofbeingworthyofit。Also,IexperiencedasensationsuchasIhadneverknownbefore,andwhichIcanonlydescribeasaseemingcompleteseparationofmyphysicalselffrommyspiritualself。Itwasasifmybodystoodasideandwatchedmysoulenterthatpulpit。Therewasnouncertainty,nonervousness,thoughusuallyIamverynervouswhenIbegintospeak;andwhenIhadfinishedIknewthatIhaddonemybest。 ButallthisisalongwayfromtheearlydaysI wasdiscussing,whenIwasmakingmyfirstdiffidentbowstolectureaudiencesandlearningthelessonsofthepioneerinthelecture—field。Iwassoontolearnmore,forin1888MissAnthonypersuadedmetodropmytemperanceworkandconcentratemyenergiesonthesuffragecause。ForalongtimeI hesitated。IwasveryhappyinmyconnectionwiththeWoman’sChristianTemperanceUnion,andIknewthatMissWillardwasdependingonmetocontinueit。ButMissAnthony’sargumentswereirrefutable,andshewasherself,asalways,irresistible。 ``Youcan’twintwocausesatonce,’’sheremindedme。``You’remerelyscatteringyourenergies。Be— ginatthebeginning。Winsuffrageforwomen,andtherestwillfollow。’’Asanaddedargument,shetookmewithheronherKansascampaign,andafterthatnofurtherargumentswereneeded。Fromthenuntilherdeath,eighteenyearslater,MissAnthonyandIworkedshouldertoshoulder。 ThemostinterestinglectureepisodeofourfirstKansascampaignwasmydebatewithSenatorJohnJ。Ingalls。Beforethis,however,onourarrivalatAtchison,Mrs。IngallsgavealuncheonforMissAnthony,andRachelFosterAveryandIwerealsoinvited。MissAnthonysatattherightofSenatorIngalls,andIathisleft,whileMrs。Ingalls,ofcourse,adornedtheoppositeendofhertable。Mrs。AveryandIhadjustbeenentertainedforseveraldaysatthehomeofavegetarianfriendwhodidnotknowhowtocookvegetables,andwewerebothhalfstarved。WhenwewereinvitedtotheIngallshomewehadutteredinunisonajoyouscry,``Nowweshallhavesomethingtoeat!’’Attheluncheon,however,SenatorIngallskeptMissAnthonyandmetalkingsteadily。Hewasnotinfavorofsuffrageforwomen,buthewishedtoknowallsortsofthingsabouttheCause,andwewereanxioustohavehimknowthem。 TheresultwasthatIhadtimeforonlyanoccasionalmouthful,whiledownattheendofthetableMrs。 Averyateandate,pausingonlytosendmeglancesofheartfeltsympathy。Also,whenevershehadanespeciallytoothsomemorselontheendofherforkshewickedlysucceededincatchingmyeyeandthusaddingthelastsybaritictouchtoherenjoyment。 Notwithstandingthewealthofknowledgewehadbestoweduponhim,orperhapsbecauseofit,thefollowingnightSenatorIngallsmadehisfamousspeechagainstsuffrage,anditfelltomylottoanswerhim。Inthecourseofhisremarksheaskedthisquestion:``WouldyouliketoaddthreemillionilliteratevoterstothelargebodyofilliteratevoterswehaveinAmericato—day?’’Theaudienceap— plaudedlight—heartedly,butIwasdisturbedbythesophistryofthequestion。OneofSenatorIngalls’smostdiscussedpersonalpeculiaritieswasthepartingofhishairinthemiddle。Cartoonistsandnews— paperwritersalwaysmademuchofthis,sowhenI rosetoreplyIfeltjustifiedinmentioningit。 ``SenatorIngalls,’’Ibegan,``partshishairinthemiddle,asweallknow,buthemakesupforitbypartinghisfiguresononeside。Lastnighthegaveyoutheshortsideofhisfigures。AtthepresenttimethereareintheUnitedStatesabouteighteenmillionwomenofvotingage。WhentheSenatoraskedwhetheryouwantedthreemillionadditionalilliteratewomenvoters,heforgottoaskalsoifyoudidn’twantfifteenmillionadditionalintelligentwomenvoters! Wewillgrantthatitwilltakethevotesofthreemillionintelligentwomentowipeoutthevotesofthreemillionilliteratewomen。Butdon’tforgetthatthatwouldstillleaveustwelvemillionintelligentvotestothegood!’’ Theaudienceapplaudedasgailyasithadap— plaudedSenatorIngallswhenhespokeontheotherside,andIcontinued: ``Nowwomenhavealwaysbeengeneroustomen。 Soofourtwelvemillionintelligentvoterswewillofferfourmilliontooffsetthevotesofthefourmillionilliteratemeninthiscountry——andthenwewillstillhaveeightmillionintelligentvotestoaddtotheotherintelligentvoteswhicharecast。’’ Theaudienceseemedtoenjoythis。 ``Theanti—suffragistsarefairlysafe,’’Iended,``aslongastheyremainontheplaneofprophecy。 Butassoonastheytacklemathematicstheygetintotrouble!’’ MissAnthonywasmuchpleasedbythewidepublicitygiventothisdebate,butSenatorIngallsfailedtoshareherenthusiasm。 ItwasshortlyafterthisencounterthatIhadtwotravelingexperienceswhichnearlycostmemylife。OneofthemoccurredinOhioatthetimeofaspringfreshet。IknowofnostatethatcancoveritselfwithwaterascompletelyasOhiocan,andfornoapparentreason。Onthisoccasionitwasbreak— ingitsownrecord。Wehaddriventwentymilesacrosscountryinabuggywhichwasbarelyoutofthewater,andbehindhorsesthatattimeswerealmostforcedtoswim,andwhenwegotnearthetownwhereIwastolecture,thoughstillontheoppositesideoftheriverfromit,wediscoveredthatthebridgewasgone。Wehadagoodviewofthetown,situatedhighanddryonasteepbank;buttheriverwhichrolledbetweenusandthattownwasaroaring,boilingstream,andtheonlypossiblewaytocrossit,Ifound,wastowalkoverarailroadtrestle,alreadytremblingundertheforceofthewater。 Therewerehundredsofmenontheriver—bankwatchingtheflood,andwhentheysawmestartoutontheemptytrestletheysetupacheerthatnearlythrewmeoff。Theriverwaswideandthetiesfarapart,andtheroarofthestreambelowwasfarfromreassuring;butinsomewayIreachedtheotherside,andwastherehelpedoffthetrestlebywhatthenewspaperscalled``strongandwillinghands。’’ Anothertime,inadesperateresolvetomeetalectureengagement,IwalkedacrosstherailroadtrestleatElmira,NewYork,andwhenIwashalf— wayoverIheardshoutsofwarningtoturnback,asatrainwascoming。Thetrestlewasveryhighatthatpoint,andIrealizedthatifIturnedandfacedanoncomingtrainIwouldundoubtedlylosemynerveandfall。SoIkepton,asrapidlyasIcould,accompaniedbytheshrieksofthosewhoobjectedtowitnessingaviolentdeath,andIreachedtheendofthetrestlejustasanexpress—trainthunderedonthebeginningofit。ThenextinstantapolicemanhadmebytheshouldersandwasshakingmeasifIhadbeenabadchild。 ``Ifyoueverdosuchathingagain,’’hethundered,``I’lllockyouup!’’ AssoonasIcouldspeakIassuredhimferventlythatIneverwould;onesuchexperiencewasallI desired。 Occasionallyaflashofhumor,consciousorun— conscious,litupthegloomofatryingsituation。 Thus,inParkersburg,WestVirginia,thetrainI wasonranintoacoal—car。Iwassittinginasleep— er,leaningbackcomfortablywithmyfeetontheseatinfrontofme,andtheforceofthecollisionliftedmeup,turnedmecompletelyover,anddepositedme,headfirst,twoseatsbeyond。OneverysideI heardcriesandthecrashofhumanbodiesagainstunyieldingsubstancesasmyfellow—passengersflewthroughtheair,whilehighandclearabovethetumultrangthevoiceoftheconductor: ``Keepyourseats!’’heyelled。``KEEPYOURSEATS!’’ Nobodyinourcarwasseriouslyhurt;but,sogreatisthepowerofvestedauthority,noonesmiledoverthatorderbutme。 Manytimesmymedicalexperiencewasuseful。 OnceIwasonatrainwhichranintoabuggyandkilledthewomaninit。Herlittledaughter,whowaswithher,wasbadlyhurt,andwhenthetrainhadstoppedthecrewliftedthedeadwomanandtheinjuredchildonboard,totakethemtothenextstation。AsIwastheonlydoctoramongthepas— sengers,thechildwasturnedovertome。Imadeupabedontheseatsandputthelittlepatientthere,butnowomaninthecarwasabletoassistme。Thetragedyhadmadethemhysterical,andoneverysidetheywereweepingandnerveless。Themenwerewillingbutinefficient,withtheexceptionofoneun— couthwoodsmanwhosetrousersweretuckedintohisbootsandwhosehandswerephenomenallybigandawkward。Buttheywerealsoverygentle,asIrealizedwhenhebegantohelpme。IknewatoncethathewasthemanIneeded,notwithstandinghisunkempthair,hisgeneralungainliness,thehatheworeonthebackofhishead,andthepinkcarnationinhisbuttonhole,which,byitsveryin— congruity,addedthefinalaccenttohisunprepossess— ingappearance。Togetherweworkedoverthechild,makingitascomfortableaswecould。Itwashard— lynecessarytotellmyaidewhatIwanteddone; heseemedtoknowandeventoanticipatemyefforts。 Whenwereachedthenextstationthedeadwomanwastakenoutandlaidontheplatform,andanurseanddoctorwhohadbeentelegraphedforwerewait— ingtocareforthelittlegirl。Shewasconsciousbythistime,andwiththemostexquisitegentlenessmyrusticBayardliftedherinhisarmstocarryheroffthetrain。QuiteunnecessarilyImotionedtohimnottoletherseeherdeadmother。Hewasnotthesortwhoneededthatwarning;hehadalreadyturnedherfacetohisshoulder,and,withheadbentlowaboveher,wassafelyskirtingthespotwherethelong,coveredfigurelay。 Evidentlythestationwashisdestination,too,forheremainedthere;butjustasthetrainpulledouthecamehurryingtomywindow,tookthecar— nationfromhisbuttonhole,andwithoutawordhandedittome。AndafterthetragichourinwhichIhadlearnedtoknowhimthecrushedflower,fromthatman,seemedthebestfeeIhadeverreceived。 IX ``AUNTSUSAN’’ InTheLifeofSusanB。Anthonyitismentionedthat1888wasayearofspecialrecognitionofourgreatleader’swork,butthatitwasalsotheyearinwhichmanyofherclosestfriendsandstrongestsupportersweretakenfromherbydeath。A。Bron— sonAlcottwasamongthese,andLouisaM。Alcott,aswellasDr。Lozier;andspecialstressislaidonMissAnthony’ssenseoflossinthediminishingcircleofherfriends——alosswhichnewfriendsandworkerscameforward,eagertosupply。 ``Chiefamongthese,’’addstherecord,``wasAnnaShaw,who,fromthetimeoftheInternationalCoun— cilin’88,gavehertruestallegiancetoMissAn— thony。’’ ItistruethatfromthatyearuntilMissAnthony’sdeathin1906wetwowererarelyseparated;andIneverreadtheparagraphIhavejustquotedwith— outseeing,asinavision,thefigureof``AuntSusan’’ assheslippedintomyhotelroominChicagolateonenightafteraneveningmeetingoftheInter— nationalCouncil。Ihadgonetobed——indeed,Iwasalmostasleepwhenshecame,forthedayhadbeenasexhaustingasitwasinteresting。Butnotwith— standingthelatenessofthehour,``AuntSusan,’’ thennearingseventy,wasstillasfreshandasfullofenthusiasmasayounggirl。Shehadagreatdealtosay,shedeclared,andsheproceededtosayit—— sittinginabigeasy—chairnearthebed,witharugaroundherknees,whileIproppedmyselfupwithpillowsandlistened。 Hourspassedandthedawnpeeredwanlythroughthewindows,butstillMissAnthonytalkedoftheCausealwaysoftheCause——andofwhatwetwomustdoforit。Thepreviouseveningshehadbeentoobusytoeatanydinner,andIgreatlydoubtwhethershehadeatenanyluncheonatnoon。Shehadbeenonherfeetforhoursatatime,andshehadheldnumerousdiscussionswithotherwomenshewishedtoinspiretospecialeffort。Yet,afteritall,hereshewaslayingoutourcampaignsforyearsahead,foreseeingeverything,forgettingnothing,andsweepingmewithherinherflighttowardourcom— mongoal,untilI,whoamnoteasilycarriedoffmyfeet,experiencedanalmostdizzysenseofexhilara— tion。 Suddenlyshestopped,lookedatthegas—jetspalinginthemorninglightthatfilledtheroom,andforafleetinginstantseemedsurprised。Inthenextshehaddismissedfromhermindtherealizationthatwehadtalkedallnight。Whyshouldwenottalkallnight?Itwaspartofourwork。Shethrewofftheenvelopingrugandrose。 ``Imustdressnow,’’shesaid,briskly。``I’vecalledacommitteemeetingbeforethemorningsession。’’ Onherwaytothedoornaturesmoteherwithararereminder,buteventhenshedidnotrealizethatitwaspersonal。``Perhaps,’’sheremarked,tenta— tively,``yououghttohaveacupofcoffee。’’ Thatwas``AuntSusan。’’AndintheeighteenyearswhichfollowedIhaddailyillustrationsofhersuperioritytopurelyhumanweaknesses。Toherthehardshipsweunderwentlater,inourWesterncampaignsforwomansuffrage,wereastheairiesttrifles。Likeatruesoldier,shecouldsnatchamo— mentofsleeporamouthfuloffoodwhereshefoundit,andifeitherwasnotforthcomingshedidnotmissit。Tomeshewasanunceasinginspira— tion——thetorchthatilluminedmylife。Wewentthroughsomedifficultyearstogether——yearswhenwefoughthardforeachinchofheadwaywegained——butIfoundfullcompensationforeveryeffortinthegloryofworkingwithherfortheCausethatwasfirstinbothourhearts,andinthehappinessofbeingherfriend。LaterIshalldescribeinmoredetailthesuffragecampaignsandtheNationalandInter— nationalcouncilsinwhichwetookpart;nowitisofherIwishtowrite——ofherbigness,hermany— sidedness,herhumor,hercourage,herquickness,hersympathy,herunderstanding,herforce,hersupremecommon—sense,herselflessness;inshort,oftherarebeautyofhernatureasIlearnedtoknowit。 Likemostgreatleaders,shetookone’sbestworkforgranted,andwascharywithherpraise;andevenwhenpraisewasgivenitusuallycamebyindirectroutes。Irecallwithamusementthatthehighestcomplimentsheeverpaidmeinpublicinvolvedherinatanglefromwhich,later,onlyherquickwitextricatedher。WewerelecturinginanespeciallypioustownwhichIshallcallB————,andjustbeforeIwentontheplatformMissAnthonyremarked,peacefully: ``ThesepeoplehavealwaysclaimedthatIamir— religious。TheywillnotacceptthefactthatIamaQuaker——or,rather,theyseemtothinkaQuakerisaninfidel。IamgladyouareaMethodist,fornowtheycannotclaimthatwearenotorthodox。’’ Shewasstillenvelopedinthecomfortofthisre— flectionwhensheintroducedmetoouraudience,andtoimpressmyqualificationsuponmyhearersshemadeherintroductioninthesewords: ``ItisapleasuretointroduceMissShaw,whoisaMethodistminister。Andsheisnotonlyortho— doxoftheorthodox,butsheisalsomyrightbower!’’ Therewasagaspfromthepiousaudience,andthenaroaroflaughterfromirreverentmen,inwhich,Imustconfess,Ilight—heartedlyjoined。ForonceinherlifeMissAnthonylostherpresenceofmind;shedidnotknowhowtomeetthesituation,forshehadnoideawhathadcausedthelaughter。 Itbubbledforthagainandagainduringtheeve— ning,andeachtimeMissAnthonyreceivedthedem— onstrationwiththesameairofpuzzledsurprise。 WhenwehadreturnedtoourhotelroomsIexplainedthemattertoher。IdonotremembernowwhereIhadacquiredmyownsinfulknowledge,butthatnightIfaced``AuntSusan’’fromthepedestalofasophisticatedworldling。 ``Don’tyouknowwhatarightboweris?’’Ide— manded,sternly。 ``OfcourseIdo,’’insisted``AuntSusan。’’``It’saright—handman——thekindonecan’tdowithout。’’ ``Itisacard,’’Itoldher,firmly——``aleadingcardinagamecalledeuchre。’’ ``AuntSusan’’wasdazed。``Ididn’tknowithadanythingtodowithcards,’’shemused,mournfully。 ``Whatmusttheythinkofme?’’ Whattheythoughtbecamequiteevident。Thenewspapersmadecountlessjokesatourexpense,andthereweresignificantsmilesonthefacesintheaudiencethatawaitedusthenextnight。WhenMissAnthonywalkedupontheplatformsheatonceproceededtoclearherselfofthetacitchargeagainsther。 ``WhenIcametoyourtown,’’shebegan,cheer— fully,``Ihadbeenwarnedthatyouwereaveryreligiouslotofpeople。IwantedtoimpressuponyouthefactthatMissShawandIarereligious,too。 ButIadmitthatwhenItoldyoushewasmyrightbowerIdidnotknowwhatarightbowerwas。I havelearnedthat,sincelastnight。’’ Shewaiteduntilthehappychortlesofherhearershadsubsided,andthenwenton。 ``Itinterestsmeverymuch,however,’’shecon— cluded,``torealizethateveryoneofyouseemedtoknowallaboutarightbower,andthatIhadtocometoyourgood,orthodoxtowntogettheinforma— tion。’’ Thattimethejokewasontheaudience。 MissAnthony’shomewasinRochester,NewYork,anditwassaidbyourfriendsthatontherareoccasionswhenwewerenottogether,andIwaslecturingindependently,``allreturnroadsledthroughRochester。’’Iinvariablyfoundsomeex— cusetogothereandreporttoher。TogetherwemusthavewornoutmanyRochesterpavements,for``AuntSusan’s’’petrecreationwaswalking,andsheusedtowalkmeroundandroundthecitysquares,farintothenight,andatapacethatmadepolicemengapeatusasweflewby。Somedis— respectfulyouthonceremarkedthatontheseoc— casionswesuggestedaracebetweenarulerandarubberball——forshewasverytallandthin,whileIamshortandplump。TokeepupwithherI literallyboundedatherside。 Acertainamountofindependentlecturingwasnecessaryforme,forIhadtoearnmyliving。TheNationalAmericanWomanSuffrageAssociationhasneverpaidsalariestoitsofficers,so,whenIbe— camevice—presidentandeventually,in1904,presi— dentoftheassociation,Icontinuedtoworkgratui—