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类别:其他 作者:Olive Schreiner字数:10618更新时间:19/01/07 15:11:14
conytoseewhereitcamefrom。Whatshesawdoubtlesstouchedthemother—heartinher。Shecaughttheeyeofthetatteredurchinclingingtothepillar,andradiantlysmiledonhim。Then,prob— ablythinkingthattheKingwasabsorbingtheat— tentionofthegreatassemblage,sheindulgedinalittlediversion。Leaningfarforward,shekissedthetipofherlacehandkerchiefandsweptitcaressinglyacrosstheboy’sbrowncheek,smilingdownathimasunconsciouslyasifsheandtheenrapturedyoung— sterwerealonetogetherintheworld。Thenextinstantshehadstraightenedupandflushed,forthewatchfulcrowdhadseentheepisodeandwaswildwithenthusiasm。FortenminutesthepeoplecheeredtheQueenwithoutceasing,andforthenextfewdaystheytalkedoflittlebutthespontaneous,girlishactionwhichhaddelightedthemall。 Onemoresentimentalrecord,andIshallhavereachedanothermile—stone。AsIhavesaid,myfriendMrs。AddyleftmeinherwillfifteenhundreddollarsformyvisittoEurope,andbeforeIsailedherfather,whowasoneofthebestfriendsIhaveeverhad,madeacharacteristicallykindpropositioninconnectionwiththelittlefund。Insteadofgivingmethemoney,hegavemetworailroadbonds,oneforonethousanddollars,theotherforfivehundreddollars,andeachdrawingsevenpercent。interest。 HesuggestedthatIdepositthesebondsinthebankofwhichhewaspresident,andborrowfromthebankthemoneytogoabroad。Then,whenIre— turnedandwentintomynewparish,Icouldusesomeofmysalaryeverymonthtowardrepayingtheloan。Thesemonthlypayments,heexplained,couldbeassmallasIwished,buteachmonththeinterestontheamountIpaidwouldcease。Iglad— lytookhisadviceandborrowedsevenhundreddollars。AfterIreturnedfromEuropeIrepaidtheloaninmonthlyinstalments,andeventuallygotmybonds,whichIstillown。Theywillmaturein1916。 Ihavehadonehundredandfivedollarsayearfromthem,ininterest,eversinceIreceivedthemin1878 ——morethantwiceasmuchinterestastheirfacevalue——andeverytimeIhavegoneabroadIhaveusedthisinteresttowardpayingmypassage。ThusmyfriendhashadashareineachofthemanyvisitsIhavemadetoEurope,andinallofthemhermemoryhasbeenvividlywithme。 WithmyreturnfromEuropemyrealcareerasaministerbegan。TheyearinthepulpitatHing— hamhadbeenmerelytentative,andthoughIhadsucceededinbuildingupthechurchmembershiptofourtimeswhatithadbeenwhenItookcharge,I wasnotreappointed。Ihadpaidoffasmallchurchdebt,andhadhadthebuildingrepaired,painted,andcarpeted。Nowthatitwasoutofitsdifficultiesitofferedsomeadvantagestotheoccupantofitspul— pit,andofthesemysuccessor,aman,receivedthebenefit。I,however,hadsmallgroundforcom— plaint,forIwasatonceofferedandacceptedthepastorateofachurchatEastDennis,CapeCod。 HereIwentinOctober,1878,andhereIspentsevenofthemostinterestingyearsofmylife。 V SHEPHERDOFADIVIDEDFLOCK OnmyreturnfromEurope,asIhavesaid,I tookupimmediatelyandmostbuoyantlytheworkofmynewparish。Mypreviousoccupationofvariouspulpits,whetherlongorshort,hadalwaysbeenintheroleofasubstitute。Now,forthefirsttime,Ihadachurchofmyown,andwastostandorfallbytherecordmadeinit。TheinkwasbarelydryonmydiplomafromtheBostonTheologicalSchool,and,asithappened,thelittlechurchtowhichIwascalledwasinthehandsoftwowarringfactions,whosebattlesfurnishedthemostfervidinterestoftheCapeCodcommunity。Butmyin— experiencedisturbedmenotatall,andIwasbliss— fullyignorantofthedivisioninthecongregation。 SoIenteredmynewfieldastrustfullyasachildentersagarden;andthoughIwasintroublefromthebeginning,andresignedthreetimesinstartlingsuccession,Iendedbyremainingsevenyears。 Myappointmentdidnotcauseevenalullinthewarfareamongmyparishioners。BeforeIhadcrossedthethresholdofmychurchIwasmadetorealizethatIwasshepherdofadividedflock。 ExactlywhathadcausedtheoriginalbreachIneverlearned;butithadwidenedwithtime,untilitseemedthatnopeacemakercouldbuildabridgelargeenoughtospanit。AssoonasIarrivedinEastDenniseachfactiontriedtopourintomyearsitsbittercriticismsoftheother,butImadeandconsistentlyfollowedthesaferuleofrefusingtolistentoeitherside,IannouncedpubliclythatI wouldhearnoverbalchargeswhatever,butthatifmytwoflockswouldstatetheirtroublesinwritingIwouldcallaboardmeetingtodiscussandpassuponthem。Thistheybothresolutelyrefusedtodo(itwasapparentlythefirsttimetheyhadeveragreedonanypoint);andasIsteadilydeclinedtolistentocomplaints,theydevisedanoriginalmethodofputtingthembeforeme。 DuringtheregularThursday—nightprayer—meet— ing,heldabouttwoweeksaftermyarrival,andatwhich,ofcourse,Ipresided,theyvoicedtheirdiffi— cultiesinpublicprayer,loudlyandurgentlycallingupontheLordtopardonsuchandsuchaliar,men— tioningthegentlemanbyname,andsuchandsuchaslanderer,whosenamewasalsosubmitted。Bythetimetheprayerswereendedtherewerefewun— tarnishedreputationsinthecongregation,andI knew,perforce,whatbothsideshadtosay。 ThefollowingThursdaynighttheydidthesamething,fillingtheirprayerswithintimateandsur— prisingdetailsofoneanother’shistory,andIen— duredthesituationsolelybecauseIdidnotknowhowtomeetit。Iwasstillyoung,andmytheo— logicalcoursehadsetnoguide—postsonroadsasnewasthese。Tointerferewithsoulsintheircom— munionwithGodseemedimpossible;toletthemcontinuetoutterpersonalattacksinchurch,undercoverofprayer,wasequallyimpossible。AnycourseI couldfollowseemedtoleadawayfrommynewparish,yetbothdutyandpridemadepromptactionneces— sary。Bythetimewegatheredforthethirdprayer— meetingIhaddecidedwhattodo,andbeforetheservicesbeganIroseandaddressedmyerringchil— dren。Iexplainedthatthecharacteroftheprayersatourrecentmeetingswasmakingusthelaughing— stockofthecommunity,thatunbelieverswereridiculingourreligion,andthatthedisciplineofthechurchwasbeingwrecked;andIendedwiththesewords,eachofwhichIhadcarefullyweighed: ``Nowoneoftwothingsmusthappen。Eitheryouwillstopthiskindofpraying,oryouwillre— mainawayfromourmeetings。Wewillholdprayer— meetingsonanothernight,andIshallrefusead— missiontoanyamongyouwhobringpersonalcriti— cismsintoyourpublicprayers。’’ AsIhadexpectedittodo,theannouncementcreatedanimmediateuproar。Bothfactionssprangtotheirfeet,tryingtotalkatonce。ThestormrageduntilIdismissedthecongregation,tellingthemembersthattheirconductwasaninsulttotheLord,andthatIwouldnotlistentoeithertheirprotestsortheirprayers。Theywentunwillingly,buttheywent;andtheexcitementthenextdayraisedthesickfromtheirbedstotalkofit,andsweptthelengthandbreadthofCapeCod。ThefollowingSundaythelittlechurchheldthelargestattendanceinitshistory。Seemingly,everymanandwomanintownhadcometohearwhatmoreIwouldsayaboutthetrouble,butIignoredthewholematter。IpreachedthesermonIhadpre— pared,thesubjectofwhichwasasremotefromchurchquarrelsasouratmospherewasremotefrompeace,andmycongregationdispersedwithexpres— sionsofsuchartlessdisappointmentthatitwasallIcoulddotopreserveadignifiedgravity。 Thatnight,however,thewarwasbroughtintomycamp。Attheeveningmeetingtheleaderofoneofthefactionsrosetohisfeetwiththeobviouspur— poseofstartingtrouble。Hewasaretiredsea—cap— tain,oftheruthlesstypethatknocksamandownwithabelaying—pin,andhemadehisattackonmeinacharacteristically``straightfromtheshoulder’’ fashion。Hebeganwiththepropositionthatmymorningsermonhadbeen``entirelycontrarytotheScriptures,’’andfortenminuteshequotedandmis— quotedme,hammeringinhispoints。Ilethimgoonwithoutinterruption。Thenheadded: ``Andthisgalcomestothischurchandunder— takestotellushowweshallpray。That’sahigh— handedmeasure,andI,forone,ain’tgoin’tostandit。IwanttosayrightherethatIshallprayasI like,whenIlike,andwhereIlike。Ihaveprayedinthisheavenlywayforfiftyyearsbeforethatgalwasborn,andshecan’tdictatetomenow!’’ Bythistimethewholecongregationwasaroused,andcriesof``Sitdown!’’``Sitdown!’’camefromeverysideofthechurch。Itwasahardmoment,butIwasabletorisewithsomeshowofdignity。 Iwashurtthroughandthrough,butmyfightingbloodwasstirring。 ``No,’’Isaid,``CaptainSearshasthefloor。Lethimsaynowallhewishestosay,foritisthelasttimehewilleverspeakatoneofourmeetings。’’ CaptainSears,whoseexertionshadalreadymadehimapoplectic,turnedadarkerpurple。``What’sthat?’’heshouted。``Whatd’yemean?’’ ``Imean,’’Ireplied,``thatIdonotintendtoallowyouoranybodyelsetointerferewithmymeetings。Youareasea—captain。WhatwouldyoudotomeifIcameonboardyourshipandstartedamutinyinyourcrew,ortriedtogiveyouorders?’’ CaptainSearsdidnotreply。Hestoodstill,withhislegsfarapartandbraced,ashealwaysstoodwhentalking,buthiseyesshiftedalittle。Iansweredmyownquestion。 ``Youwouldputmeashoreorinirons,’’Ire— mindedhim。``Now,CaptainSears,Iintendtoputyouashore。Iamthemasterofthisship。I havesetmycourse,andImeantofollowit。Ifyourebel,eitheryouwillgetoutorIwill。Butuntiltheboardasksformyresignation,Iamincommand。’’ Asithappened,Ihadputmyultimatumintheoneformtheoldmancouldunderstand。Hesatdownwithoutawordandstaredatme。WesangtheDoxology,andIdismissedthemeeting。Againwehadomittedprayers。ThenextdayCaptainSearssentmealetterrecallinghissubscriptiontow— ardthesupportofthechurch;andforweeksheremainedawayfromourservices,returningunderconditionsIwillmentionlater。Evenatthetime,however,hisattackhelpedratherthanhurtme。 AttheregularmeetingthefollowingThursdaynightnopersonalcriticismswereincludedintheprayers,andeventuallywehadpeace。Butmanybattleswerelostandwonbeforethathappydayarrived。 CaptainSears’svacantplaceamonguswaspromptlytakenbyanothercaptaininEastDennis,whosenamewasalsoSears。AfewdaysaftermyencounterwiththefirstcaptainImetthesecondonthestreet。Hehadnevercometochurch,andI stoppedandinvitedhimtodoso。Herepliedwithsimplecandor。 ``Iain’tcomin’,’’hetoldme。``Thereain’tnogalthatcanteachmenothin’。’’ ``Perhapsyouarewrong,CaptainSears,’’Ire— plied。``Imightteachyousomething。’’ ``What?’’demandedthecaptain,withchillingdistrust。 ``Oh,’’Isaid,cheerfully,``letussaytolerance,foronething。’’ ``Humph!’’mutteredtheoldman。``TheLorddon’twantnoneofyourtolerance,andneitherdoI。’’ Ilaughed。``Hedoesn’tobjecttotolerance,’’I said。``Cometochurch。Youcantalk,too;andtheLordwilllistentousboth。’’ Tomysurprise,thecaptaincamethefollowingSunday,andduringthesevenyearsIremainedinthechurchhewasoneofmystrongestsupportersandfriends。Ineededfriends,formysecondbattlewasnotslowinfollowingmyfirst。Therewas,in— deed,barelytimebetweeninwhichtocareforthewounded。 WehadinEastDenniswhatwasknownasthe``FreeReligiousGroup,’’andwhensomeofthemembersofmycongregationwerenotwranglingamongthemselves,theywereusuallylockinghornswiththisgroup。Foryears,Iwastold,oneoftheprimediversionsofthe``FreeReligious’’factionwastohaveadanceinourtownhallonthenightwhenwewereusingitforourannualchurchfair。 Therulesofthechurchpositivelyprohibiteddanc— ing,sotheworldlygrouptookpeculiarpleasureinattendingthefair,andduringtheeveningingettingupadanceandwhirlingaboutamongus,tothehorrorofourmembers。Thentheyspentthere— mainderoftheyearboastingoftheachievement。 ItcametomyearsthattheyhaddecidedtofollowthispleasingprogrammeatourChristmaschurchcelebration,soIcalledthechurchtrusteestogetherandputthesituationtothem。 ``Wemusteitherenforceourdiscipline,’’Isaid,``orgiveitup。PersonallyIdonotobjecttodanc— ing,but,asthechurchhasruledagainstit,Iintendtoupholdthechurch。Toallowthesepeopletomakeusridiculousyearafteryearisimpossible。 Letuseithertellthemthattheymaydanceorthattheymaynotdance;butwhateverwetellthem,letusmakethemobeyourruling。’’ Thetrusteeswereshockedatthemeresuggestionoflettingthemdance。 ``Verywell,’’Iended。``Thentheyshallnotdance。Thatisunderstood。’’ CaptainCrowell,thefatherofmydeadfriendMrs。Addy,andhimselfmybestmanfriend,wasastrongsupporteroftheFreeReligiousGroup。 WhenitsmembersracedtohimwiththenewsthatIhadsaidtheycouldnotdanceatthechurch’sChristmasparty,CaptainCrowelllaughedgood— humoredlyandtoldthemtodanceasmuchastheypleased,cheerfullyaddingthathewouldgetthemoutofanytroubletheygotinto。Knowingmyfriendshipforhim,andthatIevenowedmychurchappointmenttohim,theFreeReligiouspeoplewerecertainthatIwouldnevertakeissuewithhimondancingoronanyotherpoint。Theymadealltheirpreparationsforthedance,therefore,withentireconfidence,andboastedthattheaffairwouldbethegayesttheyhadeverarranged。Mypeoplebegantolookatmewithsympathy,andforatimeIfeltverysorryformyself。Itseemedsufficientlyclearthat``thegal’’wastohavemoretrouble。 Onthenightofthepartythingswentbadlyfromthefirst。TherewasanevidentintentionamongtheworstoftheFreeReligiousGrouptoembarrassusateveryturn。WeopenedtheexerciseswiththeLord’sPrayer,whichthiselementloudlyapplauded。 AlivekittenwashunghighontheChristmastree,whereitsqualledmournfullybeyondreachofrescue,andtheyoungmenoftheoutsidegroupthrewcakeatoneanotheracrossthehall。Finallytiringoftheseinnocentdiversions,theybegantopreparefortheirdance,andIprotested。Thespokesmanofthegroupwavedmetooneside。 ``CaptainCrowellsaidwecould,’’heremarked,airily。 ``CaptainCrowell,’’Ireplied,``hasnoauthoritywhateverinthismatter。Thechurchtrusteeshavedecidedthatyoucannotdancehere,andIintendtoenforcetheirruling。’’ Itwasinterestingtoobservehowrapidlythemenofmycongregationdisappearedfromthathall。 Likeshadowstheycreptalongthewallsandvanishedthroughthedoors。Butthepreparationsforthedancewentmerrilyon。Iwalkedtothemiddleoftheroomandraisedmyvoice。Iwasalwayslistenedto,formyhearersalwayshadthehope,usuallyrealized,thatIwasabouttogetintomoretrouble。 ``Youaredeterminedtodance,’’Ibegan。``I cannotkeepyoufromdoingso。ButIcanandwillmakeyouregretthatyouhavedoneso。ThelawoftheStateofMassachusettsisverydefiniteinre— gardtoreligiousmeetingsandreligiousgatherings。 ThishallwasengagedandpaidforbytheWesleyanMethodistChurch,ofwhichIampastor,andwehavefullcontrolofitto—night。Everymanandwomanwhointerruptsourexercisesbyattemptingtodance,orbycreatingadisturbanceofanykind,willbearrestedto—morrowmorning。’’ Surpriseatfirst,thenconsternation,sweptthroughtheranksoftheFreeReligiousGroup。TheydeniedtheexistenceofsuchalawasIhadmentioned,andIpromptlyreaditaloudtothem。Theleaderswentoffintoacornerandconsulted。Bythistimenotonemaninmyparishwasleftinthehall。Asaresultoftheconsultationinthecorner,acommitteeofthewould—bedancerscametomeandsuggestedacompromise。 ``Willyouagreetoarrestthemenonly?’’theywantedtoknow。 ``No,’’Ideclared。``Onthecontrary,Ishallhavethewomenarrestedfirst!Forthewomenoughttobestandingwithmenowinthesupportoflawandorder,insteadofsidingwiththehoodlumelementyourepresent。’’ Thatsettledit。Nogirlorwomandaredtogoonthedancing—floor,andnomancaredtorevolvemerrilybyhimself。Awhisperwentround,how— ever,thatthedancewouldbeginwhenIhadleft。 Whentheclockstrucktwelve,atwhichhour,ac— cordingtothetownrule,thehallhadtobeclosed,Iwasthelastpersontoleaveit。ThenIlockedthedoormyself,andcarriedthekeyawaywithme。 TherehadbeennoFreeReligiousdancethatnight。 OnthefollowingSundaymorningtheattendanceatmychurchbrokeallpreviousrecords。Everyseatwasoccupiedandeveryaislewasfilled。Menandwomencamefromsurroundingtowns,andstrangehorsesweretiedtoallthefencesinEastDennis。Everypersoninthatchurchwaslookingforexcitement,andthistimemycongregationgotwhatitexpected。BeforeIbeganmysermonI readmyresignation,totakeeffectatthediscretionofthetrustees。Then,asitwaspresumablymylastchancetotellthepeopleandtheplacewhatI thoughtofthem,Ispentanhourandahalfinfer— vidlydoingso。InmystudyofEnglishIhadac— quiredafairlylargevocabulary。IthinkIuseditallthatmorning——certainlyItriedto。Ifeveranerringcongregationandcommunitysawthemselvesastheyreallywere,minedidonthatoccasion。I washeartsick,discouraged,andfullofresentmentandindignation,whichuntilthenhadbeenpentup。Underthearraignmentmypeoplewrithedandsquirmed。Iended: ``WhatIamsayinghurtsyou,butinyourheartsyouknowyoudeserveeverywordofit。Itishightimeyousawyourselvesasyouare——adisgracetothereligionyouprofessandtothecommunityyoulivein。’’ Iwasnotsurethecongregationwouldletmefinish,butitdid。Myhearersseemedtornbyconflictingsentiments,inwhichangerandcurios— ityledopposingsides。Manyofthemleftthechurchinawhitefury,butothers——morethanIhadexpected——remainedtospeaktomeandassuremeoftheirsympathy。Onceonthestreets,differentgroupsformedandmingled,andalldaythelittletownrockedwithargumentsforandagainst``thegal。’’ Nightbroughtanothersurprisinglylargeattend— ance。Iexpectedmoretrouble,andIfaceditwithdifficulty,forIwasverytired。JustasItookmyplaceinthepulpit,CaptainSearsenteredthechurchandwalkeddowntheaisle——theCaptainSearswhohadleftusatmyinvitationsomeweeksbeforeandhadnotsinceattendedachurchservice。IwassurehewastheretomakeanotherattackonmewhileIwasdown,and,expectingtheworst,I wearilygavehimhisopportunity。Thebigoldfel— lowstoodup,bracedhimselfonlegsfarapart,asifhewerestandingonaslipperydeckduringahighsea,andgavethecongregationitsbiggestsurpriseoftheyear。 Hesaidhehadcometomakeaconfession。Hehadbeenangrywith``thegal’’inthepast,astheyallknew。Buthehadheardaboutthesermonshehadpreachedthatmorning,andthistimeshewasright。Itwashightimequarrelingandbackbitingwerestopped。Theyhadbeengoingontoolong,andnogoodcouldcomeofthem。Moreover,inalltheyearshehadbeenamemberofthatcongre— gationhehadneveruntilnowseenthepulpitoc— cupiedbyaministerwithenoughbackbonetoup— holdthedisciplineofthechurch。``I’vecomeheretosayI’mwiththegal,’’heended。``Putmedownformyoriginalsubscriptionandtendollarsextra!’’ Sowehadtheoldmanbackagain。Hewasatowerofstrength,andhestoodbymefaithfullyuntilhedied。Thetrusteeswouldnotacceptmyresignation(indeed,theyrefusedtoconsideritatall),andthecongregation,whenithadthoughtthingsover,apparentlydecidedthattheremightbeworsethingsinthepulpitthan``thegal。’’Itwasevenknowntobragofwhatitcalledmy``spunk,’’andperhapsitwasthisquality,ratherthananyother,whichImostneededinthatparticularparishatthattime。Asforme,whenthefightwasoverI droppeditfrommymind,andithadnotenteredmythoughtsforyears,untilIbegantosummonthesememories。 AttheendofmyfirstsixmonthsinEastDennisIwasaskedtotakeon,also,thetemporarychargeoftheCongregationalChurchatDennis,twomilesandahalfaway。Iagreedtodothisuntilaper— manentpastorcouldbefound,onconditionthatI shouldpreachatDennisonSundayafternoons,usingthesamesermonIpreachedinmyownpulpitinthemorning。Thearrangementworkedsowellthatitlastedforsixandahalfyears——untilIresignedfrommyEastDennischurch。Duringthatperiod,more— over,Inotonlycarriedthetwochurchesonmyshoulders,holdingthreemeetingseachSunday,butIentereduponandcompletedacourseintheBostonMedicalSchool,winningmyM。D。in1885,andIalsolecturedseveraltimesamonthduringthewinterseasons。Thesewere,therefore,amongthemoststrenuousaswellasthemostinterestingyearsofmyexistence,andImentionthestrainofthemonlytoprovemylife—longcontention,thatcongenialwork,nomatterhowmuchthereisofit,hasneveryetkilledanyone! AftermybattlewiththeFreeReligiousGroupthingsmovedmuchmoresmoothlyintheparish。 CaptainCrowell,insteadofresentingmydefianceofhisruling,helpedtoreconcilethedividedfactionsinthechurch;andthough,asIhavesaid,twiceafterwardIsubmittedmyresignation,ineachcasethefightIwasmakingwasforacausewhichI firmlybelievedinandeventuallywon。MysecondresignationwasbroughtaboutbytheunwillingnessofthechurchtohavemeexchangepulpitswiththeoneministeronCapeCodbroad—mindedenoughtoinvitemetopreachinhispulpit。Ihaddoneso,andhadthensenthimareturninvitation。Hewasagentlemanandascholar,buthewasalsoaUni— tarian;andthoughmypeoplewerewillingtoletmepreachinhischurch,theywereloathtolethimpreachinmine。Afterasurprisingamountofdis— cussionmyresignationputadifferentaspectonthematter;italsoledtothesatisfactoryrulingthatIcouldexchangepulpitsnotonlywiththisminister,butwithanyotheringoodstandinginhisownchurch。 MythirdresignationwentbeforethetrusteesinconsequenceofmyprotestfromthepulpitagainstasmalldrinkingandgamblingsalooninEastDennis; whichwasrapidlydemoralizingourboys。Theo— retically,only``softdrinks’’weresold,butthegamblingwasopen,andtheresortwasconstantlyfilledwithboysofallages。Therewereinfluencesbackofthisplacewhichtriedtoprotectit,anditsownerwasverypopularinthetown。AftermyfirstsermonIwaswaiteduponbyacommittee,thatwarmlyadvisedmeto``letEastDennisalone’’andconfinemycriticisms``tosaloonsinBostonandotherbigtowns。’’AsIhadnothingtodowithBoston,andmuchtodowithEastDennis,IpreachedonthatplacethreeSundaysinsuccession,andfeelingbecamesointensethatIhandedinmyresig— nationandpreparedtodepart。Thenmyfriendsralliedandtheresortwassuppressed。 Thatwasmylastbigstruggle。Duringthere— mainingfiveyearsofmypastorateonCapeCodtherelationsbetweenmypeopleandmyselfwerewhollyharmoniousandbeautiful。IfIhaveseemedtodwelltoomuchonthesesmallvictories,itmustberememberedthatIfindinthemsuchcomfortasIcan。Ihavenotyetwonthegreatandvitalfightofmylife,towhichIhavegivenmyself,heartandsoul,forthepastthirtyyears——thecampaignforwomansuffrage。Ihaveseenvictorieshereandthere,andshallseemore。Butwhentheultimatetriumphcomes——whenAmericanwomenineverystatecasttheirballotsasnaturallyastheirhusbandsdo——Imaynotbeinthisworldtorejoiceoverit。 ItisinterestingtorememberthatduringthestrenuousperiodofthefirstfewmonthsinEastDennis,andnotwithstandingthedivisioninthecongregation,wewomenofthechurchgottogetherandrepaintedandrefurnishedthebuilding,raisingallthemoneyanddoingmuchoftheworkourselves,astheexpenseofhavingitdonewasprohibitive。Wepaintedthechurch,andevencutdownandmod— ernizedthepulpit。Thetotalcostofmaterialandfurniturewasnothalfsogreatastheoriginalesti— matehadindicated,andwehadlearnedavaluablelesson。Afterthiswespentverylittlemoneyforlabor,butdidourowncleaning,carpet—laying,andthelike;andourlittlechurch,ifImaybeallowedtosayso,wasamodelofneatnessandgoodtaste。 Ihavesaidthatattheendoftwoyearsfromthetimeofmyappointmentthelong—continuedwar— fareinthechurchwasended。Iwasnotimmediate— lyallowed,however,tobaskinanatmosphereofharmony,forinOctober,1880,thecelebratedcon—