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类别:其他 作者:Olive Schreiner字数:10620更新时间:19/01/07 15:11:14
HIGH—SCHOOLANDCOLLEGEDAYS TheendoftheCivilWarbroughtfreedomtome,too。Whenpeacewasdeclaredmyfatherandbrothersreturnedtotheclaiminthewildernesswhichwewomenofthefamilyhadlaboredsodes— peratelytoholdwhiletheyweregone。Tous,astoothers,thefinalyearsofthewarhadbroughtmanychanges。MysisterEleanor’splacewasempty。 Mary,asIhavesaid,hadmarriedandgonetoliveinBigRapids,andmymotherandIwerealonewithmybrotherHarry,nowaboyoffourteen。Afterthereturnofourmenitwasnolongernecessarytode— voteeverypennyofmyearningstothemaintenanceofourhome。ForthefirsttimeIcouldbegintosaveaportionofmyincometowardthefulfilmentofmycollegedream,butevenyettherewasalong,aridstretchaheadofmebeforethecollegedoorscameevendistantlyintosight。 ThelargestsalaryIcouldearnbyteachinginourNorthernwoodswasonehundredandfifty—sixdollarsayear,fortwotermsofthirteenweekseach;andfromthis,ofcourse,Ihadtodeductthecostofmyboardandclothing——thesoleexpenditureIallowedmyself。Thedollarsforaneducationaccumulatedvery,veryslowly,untilatlast,indesperation,wearyofseeingtheyearsofmyyouthrushpast,bearingmyhopeswiththem,Itookasuddenandradicalstep。Igaveupteaching,leftourcabininthewoods,andwenttoBigRapidstolivewithmysisterMary,whohadmarriedasuccessfulmanandwhogenerouslyofferedmeahome。There,Ihadde— cided,Iwouldlearnatradeofsomekind,ofanykind;itdidnotgreatlymatterwhatitwas。Thesoleessentialwasthatitshouldbeamoney—makingtrade,offeringwageswhichwouldmakeitpossibletoaddmorerapidlytomysavings。Inthosedays,almostfiftyyearsago,andinasmallpioneertown,thefieldsopentowomenwerefewandunfruitful。 Theneedleatoncepresenteditself,butatfirstI turnedwithloathingfromit。Iwouldhavepre— ferredthediggingofditchesortheshovelingofcoal; buttheneedlealonepersistentlypointedoutmyway,andIwasfinallyforcedtotakeit。 Fate,however,asifwearyatlastofseeingmebetweenherpaws,suddenlyletmeescape。BeforeIhadbeenworkingamonthatmyuncongenialtradeBigRapidswasfavoredbyavisitfromaUniversalistwomanminister,theReverendMariannaThompson,whocametheretopreach。Herser— monwasdeliveredonSundaymorning,andIwas,I think,almosttheearliestarrivalofthegreatcon— gregationwhichfilledthechurch。Itwasawonder— fulmomentwhenIsawmyfirstwomanministerenterherpulpit;andasIlistenedtohersermon,thrilledtothesoul,allmyearlyaspirationstobe— comeaministermyselfstirredinmewithcumulativeforce。AftertheservicesIhungforatimeonthefringeofthegroupthatsurroundedher,andatlast,whenshewasaloneandabouttoleave,Ifoundcouragetointroducemyselfandpourforththetaleofmyambition。Heradvicewasaspromptasifshehadstudiedmyproblemforyears。 ``Mychild,’’shesaid,``giveupyourfoolishideaoflearningatrade,andgotoschool。Youcan’tdoanythinguntilyouhaveaneducation。Getit,andgetitNOW。’’ Hersuggestionwasmuchtomyliking,andIpaidherthecomplimentofactingonitpromptly,forthenextmorningIenteredtheBigRapidsHighSchool,whichwasalsoapreparatoryschoolforcol— lege。ThereIwouldstudy,Idetermined,aslongasmymoneyheldout,andwiththeoptimismofyouthIsucceededinconfiningmyimaginationtothissideofthatcrisis。Myhome,thankstoMary,wasassured;thewardrobeIhadbroughtfromthewoodscoveredmesufficiently;toonewhohadwalkedfiveandsixmilesadayforyears,walkingtoschoolheldnodiscomfort;andasforpleasure,Ifoundit,likeaheroineoffiction,inmystudies。 Forthefirsttimelifewassmilingatme,andwithallmyyoungheartIsmiledback。 ThepreceptressofthehighschoolwasLucyFoot,acollegegraduateandaremarkablewoman。 Ihadheardmuchofhersympathyandunderstand— ing;andontheeveningfollowingmyfirstdayinschoolIwenttoherandrepeatedtheconfidencesIhadreposedintheReverendMariannaThompson。 Mytrustinherwasjustified。Shetookanimmedi— ateinterestinme,andproveditatoncebyputtingmeintothespeakinganddebatingclasses,whereI wasgiveneveryopportunitytoholdforthtohelp— lessclassmateswhenthespiritofeloquencemovedme。 AsanaidtopublicspeakingIwastaughtto``elo— cute,’’andIrememberineverymournfuldetailtheoccasiononwhichIgavemyfirstrecitation。 Wewerehavingourmonthly``publicexhibitionnight,’’andtheaudienceincludednotonlymyclass— mates,buttheirparentsandfriendsaswell。TheselectionIintendedtorecitewasapoementitled``NoSectsinHeaven,’’butwhenIfacedmyau— dienceIwassoappalledbyitssizeandbythesud— denrealizationofmyowntemeritythatIfaintedduringthedeliveryofthefirstverse。Sympatheticclassmatescarriedmeintoananteroomandrevivedme,afterwhichtheynaturallyassumedthattheentertainmentIfurnishedwasoverfortheevening。 I,however,feltthatifIletthatfailurestandagainstmeIcouldneverafterwardspeakinpublic;andwithintenminutes,notwithstandingtheprotestsofmyfriends,Iwasbackinthehallandbeginningmyrecitationasecondtime。Theaudiencegavemeitseagerattention。Possiblyithopedtoseemetoppleofftheplatformagain,butnothingofthesortoccurred。Iwentthroughtherecitationwithself—possessionandreceivedsomefriendlyapplauseattheend。Strangelyenough,thosefirstsensationsof``stagefright’’havebeenexperienced,inalesserde— gree,inconnectionwitheachofthethousandsofpublicspeechesIhavemadesincethattime。I haveneveragaingonesofarastofaintinthepresenceofanaudience;butIhaveinvariablywalkedoutontheplatformfeelingthesinkingsen— sationatthepitofthestomach,theweaknessoftheknees,thatIfeltinthehourofmydebut。Now,however,thenervousnesspassesafteramomentortwo。 FromthatnightMissFootlostnoopportunityofputtingmeintotheforegroundofourschoolaffairs。 Itookpartinallourdebates,recitedyardsofpoe— trytoanyaudiencewecouldattract,andevenshonemildlyinouramateurtheatricals。ItwasprobablyowingtoallthisactivitythatIattractedthein— terestofthepresidingelderofourdistrict——Dr。 Peck,amanofprogressiveideas。TherewasatthattimeamovementonfoottolicensewomentopreachintheMethodistChurch,andDr。PeckwasambitioustobethefirstpresidingeldertohaveawomanordainedfortheMethodistministry。HehadurgedMissFoottobethispioneer,butherambitionsdidnotturninthatdirection。ThoughshewasaverydevoutMethodist,shehadnowishtobetheshepherdofareligiousflock。Shelovedherschool—work,andaskednothingbetterthantoremaininit。GentlybutpersistentlyshedirectedtheattentionofDr。Pecktome,andimmediatelythingsbegantohappen。 Withouttellingmetowhatitmightlead,MissFootfinallyarrangedameetingatherhomebyin— vitingDr。Peckandmetodinner。Beinguncon— sciousofanysignificanceintheoccasion,Ichattedlight—heartedlyaboutthelargeissuesoflifeandprobablysettledmostofthemtomypersonalsatis— faction。Dr。Peckdrewmeoutandledmeon,listenedandsmiled。Whentheeveningwasoverandwerosetogo,heturnedtomewithsuddenseriousness: ``MyquarterlymeetingwillbeheldatAshton,’’ heremarked,casually。``Iwouldlikeyoutopreachthequarterlysermon。’’ Foramomenttheearthseemedtoslipawayfrommyfeet。Istaredathiminutterstupefaction。 ThenslowlyIrealizedthat,incredibleasitseemed,themanwasinearnest。 ``Why,’’Istammered,``_I_can’tpreachaser— mon!’’ Dr。Pecksmiledatme。``Haveyouevertried?’’ heasked。 IstartedtoassurehimvehementlythatIneverhad。Then,asifTimehadthrownapictureonascreenbeforeme,Isawmyselfasalittlegirlpreach— ingaloneintheforest,asIhadsooftenpreachedtoacongregationoflisteningtrees。Iqualifiedmyanswer。 ``Never,’’Isaid,``tohumanbeings。’’ Dr。Pecksmiledagain。``Well,’’hetoldme,``thedoorisopen。Enterornot,asyouwish。’’ Heleftthehouse,butIremainedtodiscusshisoverwhelmingpropositionwithMissFoot。Asud— densoberingthoughthadcometome。 ``But,’’Iexclaimed,``I’veneverbeenconverted。 HowcanIpreachtoanyone?’’ Webothhadtheold—timeideaofconversion,whichnowseemssomistaken。WethoughtonehadtostrugglewithsinandwiththeLorduntilatlasttheheartopened,doubtsweredispersed,andthelightpouredin。MissFootcouldonlyadvisemetoputthematterbeforetheLord,towrestleandtopray;andthereafter,forhoursatatime,sheworkedandprayedwithme,alternatelyurging,pleading,instructing,andsendinguppetitionsinmybehalf。 Ourlastsessionwasadramaticone,whichtookuptheentirenight。Longbeforeitwasoverwewerebothwornout;buttowardmorning,eitherfromexhaustionofbodyorexaltationofsoul,Iseemedtoseethelight,anditmademeveryhappy。WithallmyheartIwantedtopreach,andIbelievedthatnowatlastIhadmycall。ThefollowingdaywesentwordtoDr。PeckthatIwouldpreachtheser— monatAshtonashehadasked,butweurgedhimtosaynothingofthematterforthepresent,andMissFootandIalsokeptthesecretlockedinourbreasts。 Iknewonlytoowellwhatviewmyfamilyandmyfriendswouldtakeofsuchastepandofme。Tothemitwouldmeannothingshortofpersonaldis— graceandablottedpageintheShawrecord。 Ihadsixweeksinwhichtopreparemysermon,andIgaveitmostofmywakinghoursaswellasthoseinwhichIshouldhavebeenasleep。Itookformytext:``AndasMoseslifteduptheserpentinthewilderness,evensomusttheSonofManbeliftedup;thatwhosoeverbelievethinHimshouldnotperish,buthaveeternallife。’’ ItwasnotuntilthreedaysbeforeIpreachedthesermonthatIfoundcouragetoconfidemypurposetomysisterMary,andifIhadconfessedmyinten— tiontocommitacapitalcrimeshecouldnothavebeenmoredisturbed。Wetwohadalwaysbeenveryclose,andthedeathofEleanor,towhomwewerebothdevoted,haddrawnusevennearertoeachother。NowMary’stearsandprayerswrungmyheartandshookmyresolution。But,afterall,shewasaskingmetogiveupmywholefuture,toclosemyearstomycall,andIfeltthatIcouldnotdoit。Mydecisioncausedanestrangementbetweenuswhichlastedforyears。OnthedayprecedingthedeliveryofmysermonIleftforAshtonontheafternoontrain;andinthesamecar,butasfarawayfrommeasshecouldget,Marysataloneandweptthroughoutthejourney。Shewasgoingtomymother,butshedidnotspeaktome;andI,formypart,facingbothalienationfromherandtheordealbeforeme,foundmyonecomfortinLucyFoot’spresenceandunderstandingsympathy。 TherewasnochurchinAshton,soIpreachedmysermoninitsonelittleschool—house,whichwasfilledwithacuriouscrowd,eagertolookatandhearthegirlwhowasdefyingallconventionsbygettingoutofthepewandintothepulpit。TherewasmuchwhisperingandsuppressedexcitementbeforeIbegan,butwhenIgaveoutmytextsilencefellupontheroom,andfromthatmomentuntilIhadfinishedmyhearerslistenedquietly。Akerosene— lampstoodonastandatmyelbow,andasIpreachedItrembledsoviolentlythattheoilshookinitsglassglobe;butIfinishedwithoutbreakingdown,andattheendDr。Peck,whohadhisownreasonsfornervousness,handsomelyassuredmethatmyfirstsermonwasbetterthanhismaidenefforthadbeen。 Itwasevidentlynotafailure,forthenextdayheinvitedmetofollowhimaroundinhiscircuit,whichincludedthirty—sixappointments;hewishedmetopreachineachofthethirty—sixplaces,asitwasde— sirabletoletthevariousministershearandknowmebeforeIappliedformylicenseasalocalpreacher。 Thesermonalsohadanotherresult,lessgratify— ing。Itbroughtout,onthefollowingmorning,thefirstnoticeofmeeverprintedinanewspaper。 Thiswasinstigatedbymybrother—in—law,anditwasbriefbutpointed。Itread: AyounggirlnamedAnnaShaw,seventeenyearsold,[1] preachedatAshtonyesterday。Herrealfriendsdeprecatethecoursesheispursuing。 [1]Amisstatementbythebrother—in—law。Dr。Shawwasatthistimetwenty—threeyearsold。——E。J。 Thelittlenoticehadsomethingoftheeffectofalightedmatchappliedtogunpowder。Anex— plosionofpublicsentimentfollowedit,theentirecommunityaroseinconsternation,andIbecameaboneofcontentionoverwhichfriendsandstrangersalikewrangleduntiltheyworethemselvesout。 Themembersofmyfamily,meetinginsolemncouncil,sentforme,andIresponded。Theyhadapropositiontomake,andtheylostnotimeinput— tingitbeforeme。IfIgaveupmypreachingtheywouldsendmetocollegeandpayformyentirecourse。TheysuggestedAnnArbor,andAnnArbortemptedmesorely;buttodescendfromthepulpitIhadatlastentered——thepulpitIhadvisualizedinallmychildishdreams——wasnottobeconsidered。 Wehadalongeveningtogether,anditwasaveryunhappyone。AttheendofitIwasgiventwenty— fourhoursinwhichtodecidewhetherIwouldchoosemypeopleandcollege,ormypulpitandthearcticlonelinessofalifethatheldnofamily—circle。Itdidnotrequiretwenty—fourhoursofreflectiontoconvincemethatImustgomysolitaryway。 ThatyearIpreachedthirty—sixtimes,ateachofthepresidingelder’sappointments;andthefollow— ingspring,attheannualMethodistConferenceofourdistrict,heldatBigRapids,mynamewaspre— sentedtotheassembledministersasthatofacan— didateforalicensetopreach。Therewasunusualinterestintheresult,andmyfatherwasamongthosewhocametotheConferencetoseethevotetaken。 DuringtheseConferencesaministervotedaffirma— tivelyonaquestionbyholdinguphishand,andnegativelybyfailingtodoso。Whenthequestionofmylicensecameupthemajorityoftheministersvotedbyraisingbothhands,andinthepleasantexcitementwhichfollowedmyfatherslippedaway。 Thosewhosawhimtoldmehelookedpleased;buthesentmenomessageshowingachangeofview— point,andthegulfbetweenthefamilyanditsblacksheepremainedunbridged。ThoughthewarmthofMary’sloveformehadbecomeamemory,thewarmthofherhearthstonewasstillofferedme。I acceptedit,perforce,andwelivedtogetherlikeshadowsofwhatwehadbeen。TwofriendsaloneofallIhadmadestoodbymewithoutqualification——MissFootandClaraOsborn,thelattermy``chum’’atBigRapidsandadwellerinmyhearttothisday。 Inthemeantimemypreachinghadnotinter— feredwithmystudies。Iwasworkingdayandnight,butlifewasverydifficult;foramongmyschool— mates,too,thereweredoubtsandmuchhead—shakingoverthischoiceofacareer。Ineededthesoundoffriendlyvoices,forIwasverylonely;andsuddenly,whenthepressurefromallsideswasstrongestandIwasgoingdownphysicallyunderit,avoicewasraisedthatIhadneverdaredtodreamwouldspeakforme。MaryA。LivermorecametoBigRapids,andasshewasthenattheheightofhercareer,theentirecountrysidepouredintohearher。FarbackinthecrowdedhallIsataloneandlistenedtoher,thrilledbythelectureandtremulouswiththehopeofmeetingthelecturer。WhenshehadfinishedspeakingIjoinedthethrongthatsurgedforwardfromthebodyofthehall,andasIreachedherandfeltthegraspofherfriendlyhandIhadasuddenconvictionthatthemeetingwasanepochinmylife。 Iwasright。SomeoneinthecirclearoundustoldherthatIwantedtopreach,andthatIwasmeetingtremendousopposition。Shewasinterestedatonce。 Shelookedatmewithquickeningsympathy,andthen,suddenlyputtinganarmaroundme,drewmeclosetoherside。 ``Mydear,’’shesaid,quietly,``ifyouwanttopreach,goonandpreach。Don’tletanybodystopyou。Nomatterwhatpeoplesay,don’tletthemstopyou!’’ ForamomentIwastooovercometoanswerher。 Thesewerealmostmyfirstencouragingwords,andthemorningstarssingingtogethercouldnothavemadesweetermusicformyears。BeforeIcouldrecoverawomanwithinhearingspokeup。 ``Oh,Mrs。Livermore,’’sheexclaimed,``don’tsaythattoher!We’realltryingtostopher。Herpeo— plearewretchedoverthewholething。Anddon’tyouseehowillsheis?Shehasonefootinthegraveandtheotheralmostthere!’’ Mrs。Livermoreturneduponmealonganddeeplythoughtfullook。``Yes,’’shesaidatlast,``Iseeshehas。Butitisbetterthatsheshoulddiedoingthethingshewantstodothanthatsheshoulddiebecauseshecan’tdoit。’’ Herwordswereatonicwhichrestoredmyvoice。 ``SotheythinkI’mgoingtodie!’’Icried。``Well,I’mnot!I’mgoingtoliveandpreach!’’ IhavealwaysfeltsincethenthatwithouttheinspirationofMrs。Livermore’sencouragementI mightnothavecontinuedmyfight。Hersanctionwasashield,however,fromwhichthecriticismsoftheworldfellback。Fate’smorefriendlyinterestinmyaffairsthatyearwasshownbythefactthatshesentMrs。LivermoreintomylifebeforeIhadmetAnnaDickinson。MissDickinsoncametoustowardspringandlecturedonJoanofArc。NeverbeforeorsincehaveIbeenmoredeeplymovedbyaspeaker。WhenshehadfinishedheraddressImademyhappywaytothefrontofthehallwiththeotherswhowishedtomeetthedistinguishedguest。Itwasourlocalmanagerwhointroducedme,andhesaid,``ThisisourAnnaShaw。Sheisgoingtobealecturer,too。’’ IlookedupatthebrilliantMissDickinsonwiththetrustfulnessofyouthinmyeyes。Iremem— beredMrs。LivermoreandIthoughtallgreatwom— enwerelikeher,butIwasnowtoexperienceabitterdisillusionment。MissDickinsonbarelytouchedthetipsofmyfingersasshelookedindifferentlypastthesideofmyface。``Ah,’’shesaid,icily,andturnedaway。InlateryearsIlearnedhowimpossibleitisforapublicspeakertoleaveagraciousimpressiononeverylifethatforamomenttouchesherown;butIhaveneverceasedtobethankfulthatImetMrs。LivermorebeforeImetMissDickinsonatthecrisisinmycareer。 Intheautumnof1873IenteredAlbionCollege,inAlbion,Michigan。Iwastwenty—fiveyearsofage,butIlookedmuchyounger——probablynotmorethaneighteentothecasualglance。ThoughIhadmadeeveryefforttosavemoney,Ihadnotbeensuccessful,formyexpensesconstantlyoutranmylittleincome,andmypositionaspreachermadeitnecessaryformetohaveasuitablewardrobe。 WhenthetimecametoentercollegeIhadexactlyeighteendollarsintheworld,andIstartedforAlbionwiththisamountinmypurseandwithouttheslightestnotionofhowIwastoaddtoit。Themoneyproblemsopresseduponme,infact,thatwhenIreachedmydestinationatmidnightanddis— coveredthatitwouldcostfiftycentstoridefromthestationtothecollege,Isavedthatamountbywalkingtheentiredistanceontherailroadtracks,whilemyimaginationbusieditselfpleasantlywithpicturesoftheenginethatmightbethunderinguponmeintherear。IhadchosenAlbionbecauseMissFoothadbeeneducatedthere,andIwasencouragedbyanincidentthathappenedthemorningaftermyarrival。Iwasonthecampus,walkingtowardthemainbuilding,whenIsawabigcopperpennylyingontheground,and,onpickingitup,Idiscoveredthatitboretheyearofmybirth。Thatseemedagoodomen,anditwasemphaticallyunderlinedbythefindingoftwoexactlysimilarpennieswithinaweek。ThoughtherehavebeendayssincethenwhenIwassorelytemptedtospendthem,Ihavethosethreepenniesstill,andIconfesstoacertaincomfortintheirpossession! AsIhadnotcompletedmyhigh—schoolcourse,myfirstdaysatAlbionwerespentinstrenuousprep— arationfortheentranceexaminations;andonemorn— ing,asIwascrossingthecampuswithaHistoryoftheUnitedStatestuckedcoylyundermyarm,Imetthepresidentofthecollege,Dr。Josclyn。Hestoppedforawordofgreeting,duringwhichIbe— trayedthefactthatIhadneverstudiedUnitedStateshistory。Dr。Josclynatonceinvitedmeintohisofficewith,Iamquitesure,thepurposeofex— plainingaskindlyashecouldthatmypreparationforcollegewasinsufficient。Asanopeningtothesubjecthebegantotalkofhistory,andwetalkedandtalkedon,whileunheededhourswerebornanddied。WediscussedthehistoryoftheUnitedStates,thegovernmentsoftheworld,thecauseswhichledtotheinfluenceofonenationonanother,thephilo— sophicalbasisofthedifferentnationalmovementswestward,andthelike。ItwasthelongestandbyfarthemostinterestingtalkIhaveeverhadwithahighlyeducatedman,andduringitIcouldactuallyfeelmybrainexpand。WhenIrosetogoPresidentJosclynstoppedme。 ``Ihavesomethingtogiveyou,’’hesaid,andhewroteafewwordsonaslipofpaperandhandedthesliptome。When,onreachingthedormitory,Iopenedit,Ifoundthatthepresidenthadpassedmeinthehistoryoftheentirecollegecourse!This,moreover,wasnottheonlypleasantresultofourinterview,forwithinafewweeksPresidentandMrs。 Josclyn,whosedaughterhadrecentlydied,invitedmetoboardwiththem,andImademyhomewiththemduringmyfirstyearatAlbion。 MytriumphinhistorywasfollowedbytheswiftandchasteningdiscoverythatIwasbehindmyas— sociatesinseveralotherbranches。Owingtomyfather’searlyhelp,Iwaswellupinmathematics,butIhadmuchtolearnofphilosophyandthelanguages,andtotheseIdevotedmanymidnightcandles。 Naturally,Isoonplungedintospeaking,andmyfirstpublicspeechatcollegewasadefenseofXan— tippe。Ihavealwaysfeltthatthepoorladywasgreatlyabused,andthatSocratesdeservedallhereceivedfromher,andmore。Iwasgladtoputmyselfonrecordasherchampion,andmyfellow— studentsmustsoonhavefeltthatmyadmirationforXantippewasbasedonsimilaritiesoftempera— ment,forwithinafewmonthsIwasleadingthefirstcollegerevoltagainsttheauthorityofthemenstudents。 Albionwasacoeducationalinstitution,andthebrightestjewelsinitscrownwereitsthreeliterarysocieties——thefirstcomposedofmenalone,thesec— ondofwomenalone,andthethirdofmenandwomentogether。Eachofthesocietiesmadefriend— lyadvancestonewstudents,andforsometimeI hesitatedonthebrinkofthenewjoystheyoffered,uncertainwhichtochoose。Arepresentativeofthemixedsociety,whowasputtingitsclaimsbeforeme,unconsciouslyhelpedmetomakeupmymind。 ``Women,’’hepompouslyassuredme,``needtobeassociatedwithmen,becausetheydon’tknowhowtomanagemeetings。’’ Ontheinstanttheneedleofdecisionswungaroundtothewomen’ssocietyandremainedthere,fixed。 ``Iftheydon’t,’’Itoldthepompousyoungman,``it’shightimetheylearned。Ishalljointhewomen,andwe’llmastertheart。’’ Ididjointhewomen’ssociety,andIhadnotbeenamemberverylongbeforeIdiscoveredthatwhentherewasanadvantageofanykindtobesecuredthemeninvariablygotit。WhileIwasbroodingsomberlyuponthiswronganopportunitycametomakeaformalandeffectiveprotestagainstthemen’shigh—handedmethods。TheQuinquennialre— unionofallthesocietieswasabouttobeheld,andthespecialfeatureofthisfestivitywasalwaysanoration。Thesimplemethodofselectingtheoratorwhichhadformerlyprevailedhadbeenfortheyoungmentodecideuponthespeakerandthenan— nouncehisnametothewomen,whohumblycon— firmedit。Onthisoccasion,however,whenthenamecameintous,Isentamessagetoourbrothersocietytotheeffectthatwe,too,intendedtomakeanominationandtosendinaname。 Atsuchunprecedentedbehaviortheentirestu— dentbodyaroseinexcitement,which,amongthegirls,wascombinedwithequalpartsofexhilarationandawe。Themenrefusedtoconsiderournominee,andasafriendlycompromisewesuggestedthatwehaveajointmeetingofallthesocietiesandelectthespeakeratthisgathering;butthisplanalsothemenatfirstrefused,givinginonlyafterweeksofargument,duringwhichnoonehadtimeforthecalmerpleasuresofstudy。Whenthejointmeetingwasfinallyheld,nothingwasaccomplished; wegirlshadonemorememberthantheboyshad,andwepromptlyre—electedourcandidate,whowasaspromptlydeclinedbytheboys。Twoofourgirlswereengagedtotwooftheboys,anditwassecretlyplannedbyourbrothersocietythatduringasecondjointmeetingthesetwomenshouldtakethegirlsoutforadriveandthenslipbacktovote,leavingthegirlsatsomepointsufficientlyremotefromcol— lege。Wediscoveredtheplot,however,intimetothwartit,andatlast,whennothingbuttheun—