InthelowerbunklayLouis,grosslyfatandwarmandsweaty,asleepunfeignedlyandsleepinglaboriously。WhileWolfLarsenheldhiswristhestirreduneasily,bowinghisbodysothatforamomentitrestedonshouldersandheels。Hislipsmoved,andhegavevoicetothisenigmaticutterance:
\"Ashilling’sworthaquarter;butkeepyourlampsoutforthruppennybits,orthepublicans’llshove’emonyouforsixpence。\"
Thenherolledoveronhissidewithaheavy,sobbingsigh,saying:
\"Asixpenceisatanner,andashillingabob;butwhataponyisI
don’tknow。\"
SatisfiedwiththehonestyofhisandtheKanaka’ssleep,WolfLarsenpassedontothenexttwobunksonthestarboardside,occupiedtopandbottom,aswesawinthelightofthesea—lamp,byLeachandJohnson。
AsWolfLarsenbentdowntothelowerbunktotakeJohnson’spulse,I,standingerectandholdingthelamp,sawLeach’sheadraisestealthilyashepeeredoverthesideofhisbunktoseewhatwasgoingon。HemusthavedivinedWolfLarsen’strickandthesurenessofdetection,forthelightwasatoncedashedfrommyhandandtheforecastleleftindarkness。
Hemusthaveleaped,also,atthesameinstant,straightdownonWolfLarsen。
Thefirstsoundswerethoseofaconflictbetweenabullandawolf。
IheardagreatinfuriatedbellowgoupfromWolfLarsen,andfromLeachasnarlingthatwasdesperateandblood—curdling。Johnsonmusthavejoinedhimimmediately,sothathisabjectandgrovellingconductondeckforthepastfewdayshadbeennomorethanplanneddeception。
Iwassoterror—strickenbythisfightinthedarkthatleanedagainsttheladder,tremblingandunabletoascend。Anduponmewasthatoldsicknessatthepitofthestomach,causedalwaysbythespectacleofphysicalviolence。
InthisinstanceIcouldnotsee,butcouldheartheimpactoftheblows——thesoftcrushingsoundmadebyfleshstrikingforciblyagainstflesh。
Thentherewasthecrashingaboutoftheentwinedbodies,thelaboredbreathing,theshort,quickgaspsofsuddenpain。
Theremusthavebeenmoremenintheconspiracytomurderthecaptainandmate,forbythesoundsIknewthatLeachandJohnsonhadbeenquicklyreinforcedbysomeoftheirmates。
\"Getaknife,somebody!\"Leachwasshouting。
\"Poundhimonthehead!Mashhisbrainsout!\"wasJohnson’scry。
Butafterhisfirstbellow,WolfLarsenmadenonoise。Hewasfightinggrimlyandsilentlyforlife。Hewassorebeset。Downattheveryfirst,hehadbeenunabletogainhisfeet,andforallofhistremendousstrengthIfeltthattherewasnohopeforhim。
Theforcewithwhichtheystruggledwasvividlyimpressedonme;forIwasknockeddownbytheirsurgingbodiesandbadlybruised。ButintheconfusionImanagedtocrawlintoanemptylowerbunkoutoftheway。
\"Allhands!We’vegothim!We’vegothim!\"IcouldhearLeachcrying。
\"Who?\"demandedthosewhohadbeenreallyasleep,andwhohadwakenedtotheyknewnotwhat。
\"It’sthebloodymate!\"wasLeach’scraftyanswer,strainedfromhiminasmotheredsortofway。
Thiswasgreetedwithwhoopsofjoy,andfromthenonWolfLarsenhadsevenstrongmenontopofhim,Louis,Ibelieve,takingnopartinit。
Theforecastlewaslikeanangryhiveofbeesarousedbysomemarauder。
\"Whatho!belowthere!\"IheardLatimershoutdownthescuttle,toocautioustodescendintotheinfernoofpassionhecouldhearragingbeneathhiminthedarkness。
\"Won’tsomebodygetaknife?Oh,won’tsomebodygetaknife?\"Leachpleadedinthefirstintervalofcomparativesilence。
Thenumberoftheassailantswasacauseofconfusion。Theyblockedtheirownefforts,whileWolfLarsen,withbutasinglepurpose,achievedhis。Thiswastofighthiswayacrossthefloortotheladder。Thoughintotaldarkness,Ifollowedhisprogressbyitssound。Nomanlessthanagiantcouldhavedonewhathedid,oncehehadgainedthefootoftheladder。Stepbystep,bythemightofhisarms,thewholepackofmenstrivingtodraghimbackanddown,hedrewhisbodyupfromthefloortillhestooderect。Andthen,stepbystep,handandfoot,heslowlystruggleduptheladder。
Theverylastofall,Isaw。ForLatimer,havingfinallygoneforalantern,helditsothatitslightshonedownthescuttle。WolfLarsenwasnearlytothetop,thoughIcouldnotseehim。Allthatwasvisiblewasthemassofmenfasteneduponhim。Itsquirmedabout,likesomehugemany—leggedspider,andswayedbackandforthtotheregularrollofthevessel。Andstill,stepbystep,withlongintervalsbetween,themassascended。Onceittottered,abouttofallback,butthebrokenholdwasregainedanditstillwentup。
\"Whoisit?\"Latimercried。
IntheraysofthelanternIcouldseehisperplexedfacepeeringdown。
\"Larsen,\"Iheardamuffledvoicefromwithinthemass。
Latimerreacheddownwithhisfreehand。Isawahandshootuptoclasphis。Latimerpulled,andthenextcoupleofstepsweremadewitharush。
ThenWolfLarsen’sotherhandreachedupandclutchedtheedgeofthescuttle。
Themassswungclearoftheladder,themenstillclingingtotheirescapingfoe。Theybegantodropoff,tobebrushedoffagainstthesharpedgeofthescuttle,tobeknockedoffbythelegswhichwerenowkickingpowerfully。
Leachwasthelasttogo,fallingsheerbackfromthetopofthescuttleandstrikingonheadandshouldersuponhissprawlingmatesbeneath。WolfLarsenandthelanterndisappeared,andwewereleftindarkness。TheSeaWolf:Chapter15CHAPTER15
Therewasadealofcursingandgroaningasthemenatthebottomoftheladdercrawledtotheirfeet。
\"Somebodystrikealight,mythumb’soutofjoint,\"saidoneofthemen,Parsons,aswarthy,saturnineman,boat—steererinStandish’sboat,inwhichHarrisonwaspuller。
\"You’llfinditknockin’aboutbythebitts,\"Leachsaid,sittingdownontheedgeofthebunkinwhichIwasconcealed。
Therewasafumblingandascratchingofmatches,andthesea—lampflaredup,dimandsmoky,andinitsweirdlightbare—leggedmenmovedabout,nursingtheirbruisesandcaringfortheirhurts。Oofty—OoftylaidholdofParsons’sthumb,pullingitoutstoutlyandsnappingitbackintoplace。InoticedatthesametimethattheKanaka’sknuckleswerelaidopenclearacrossandtothebone。Heexhibitedthem,exposingbeautifulwhiteteethinagrinashedidsoandexplainingthatthewoundshadcomefromstrikingWolfLarseninthemouth。
\"Soitwasyou,wasit,youblackbeggar?\"belligerentlydemandedone,Kelly,anIrish—Americanandalongshoreman,makinghisfirsttriptosea,andboat—pullerforKerfoot。
AshemadethedemandhespatoutamouthfulofbloodandteethandshovedhispugnaciousfaceclosetoOofty—Oofty。TheKanakaleapedbackwardtohisbunk,toreturnwithasecondleap,flourishingalongknife。
\"Aw,golaydown,youmakemetired,\"Leachinterfered。Hewasevidently,forallofhisyouthandinexperience,cockoftheforecastle。\"G’wan,youKelly。YouleaveOoftyalone。Howinhelldidheknowitwasyouinthedark?\"
Kellysubsidedwithsomemuttering,andtheKanakaflashedhiswhiteteethinagratefulsmile。Hewasabeautifulcreature,almostfeminineinthepleasinglinesofhisfigure,andtherewasasoftnessanddreaminessinhislargeeyeswhichseemedtocontradicthiswell—earnedreputationforstrifeandaction。
\"Howdidhegetaway?\"Johnsonasked。
Hewassittingonthesideofhisbunk,thewholeposeofhisfigureindicatingutterdejectionandhopelessness。Hewasstillbreathingheavilyfromtheexertionhehadmade。Hisshirthadbeenrippedentirelyfromhiminthestruggle,andbloodfromagashinthecheekwasflowingdownhisnakedchest,markingaredpathacrosshiswhitethighanddrippingtothefloor。
\"Becauseheisthedevil,asItoldyoubefore,\"wasLeach’sanswer;
andthereathewasonhisfeetandraginghisdisappointmentwithtearsinhiseyes。
\"Andnotoneofyoutogetaknife!\"washisunceasinglament。
Buttherestofthehandshadalivelyfearofconsequencestocomeandgavenoheedtohim。
\"How’llheknowwhichwaswhich?\"Kellyasked,andashewentonhelookedmurderouslyabouthim——\"unlessoneofuspeaches。\"
\"He’llknowassoonaseverheclapseyesonus,\"Parsonsreplied。\"Onelookatyou’dbeenough。\"
\"Tellhimthedeckfloppedupandgougedyerteethoutivyerjaw,\"
Louisgrinned。Hewastheonlymanwhowasnotoutofhisbunk,andhewasjubilantinthathepossessednobruisestoadvertisethathehadhadahandinthenight’swork。\"Justwaittillhegetsaglimpseivyermugsto—morrow,thegangivye,\"hechuckled。
\"We’llsaywethoughtitwasthemate,\"saidone。Andanother,\"IknowwhatI’llsay——thatIheeredarow,jumpedoutofmybunk,gotajollygoodcrackonthejawformypainsandsailedinmyself。Couldn’ttellwhoorwhatitwasinthedarkandjusthitout。\"
\"An’’twasmeyouhit,ofcourse,\"Kellyseconded,hisfacebrighteningforthemoment。
LeachandJohnsontooknopartinthediscussion,anditwasplaintoseethattheirmateslookeduponthemasmenforwhomtheworstwasinevitable,whowerebeyondhopeandalreadydead。Leachstoodtheirfearsandreproachesforsometime。Thenhebrokeout:
\"Youmakemetired!Anicelotofgazabasyouare!Ifyoutalkedlesswithyermouthanddidsomethingwithyerhands,he’da—bendonewithbynow。Whycouldn’toneofyou,justoneofyou,getmeaknifewhenIsungout?Youmakemesick!A—beefin’andbellerin’’round,asthoughhe’dkillyouwhenhegetsyou!Youknowdamnwellhewon’t。Can’taffordto。Noshippingmastersorbeachcombersoverhere,andhewantsyerinhisbusiness,andhewantsyerbad。Who’stopullorsteerorsailshipifhelosesyer?
It’smeandJohnsonhavetofacethemusic。Getintoyerbunks,now,andshutyerfaces;Iwanttogetsomesleep。\"
\"That’sallrightallright,\"Parsonsspokeup。\"Mebbehewon’tdoforus,butmarkmywords,hell’llbeaniceboxtothisshipfromnowon。\"
AllthewhileIhadbeenapprehensiveconcerningmyownpredicament。
Whatwouldhappentomewhenthesemendiscoveredmypresence?IcouldneverfightmywayoutasWolfLarsenhaddone。AndatthismomentLatimercalleddownthescuttles:
\"Hump!Theoldmanwantsyou!\"
\"Heain’tdownhere!\"Parsonscalledback。
\"Yesheis,\"Isaid,slidingoutofthebunkandstrivingmyhardesttokeepmyvoicesteadyandbold。
Thesailorslookedatmeinconsternation。Fearwasstrongintheirfaces,andthedevilishnesswhichcomesoffear。
\"I’mcoming!\"IshouteduptoLatimer。
\"Noyoudon’t!\"Kellycried,steppingbetweenmeandtheladder,hisrighthandshapedintoaveritablestrangler’sclutch。\"Youdamnlittlesneak!I’llshutyermouth!\"
\"Lethimgo,\"Leachcommanded。
\"Notonyerlife,\"wastheangryretort。
Leachneverchangedhispositionontheedgeofthebunk。\"Lethimgo,Isay,\"herepeated;butthistimehisvoicewasgrittyandmetallic。
TheIrishmanwavered。Imadetostepbyhim,andhestoodaside。WhenIhadgainedtheladder,Iturnedtothecircleofbrutalandmalignantfacespeeringatmethroughthesemi—darkness。Asuddenanddeepsympathywelledupinme。IrememberedtheCockney’swayofputtingit。HowGodmusthavehatedthemthattheyshouldbetorturedso!
\"Ihaveseenandheardnothing,believeme,\"Isaidquietly。
\"Itellyer,he’sallright,\"IcouldhearLeachsayingaswentuptheladder。\"Hedon’tliketheoldmannomorenoryouorme。\"
IfoundWolfLarseninthecabin,strippedandbloody,waitingforme。
Hegreetedmewithoneofhiswhimsicalsmiles。
\"Come,gettowork,Doctor。Thesignsarefavorableforanextensivepracticethisvoyage。Idon’tknowwhattheGhostwouldhavebeenwithoutyou,andifIcouldonlycherishsuchnoblesentimentsIwouldtellyouhermasterisdeeplygrateful。\"
Iknewtherunofthesimplemedicine—chesttheGhostcarried,andwhileIwasheatingwateronthecabinstoveandgettingthethingsreadyfordressinghiswounds,hemovedabout,laughingandchatting,andexamininghishurtswithacalculatingeye。Ihadneverbeforeseenhimstripped,andthesightofhisbodyquitetookmybreathaway。Ithasneverbeenmyweaknesstoexalttheflesh——farfromit;butthereisenoughoftheartistinmetoappreciateitswonder。
ImustsaythatIwasfascinatedbytheperfectlinesofWolfLarsen’sfigure,andbywhatImaytermtheterriblebeautyofit。hadnotedthemenintheforecastle。Powerfullymuscledthoughsomeofthemwere,therehadbeensomethingwrongwithallofthem,aninsufficientdevelopmenthere,anunduedevelopmentthere,atwistoracrookthatdestroyedsymmetry,legstooshortortoolong,ortoomuchsineworboneexposed,ortoolittle。
Oofty—Ooftyhadbeentheonlyonewhoselineswereatallpleasing,while,insofarastheypleased,thatfarhadtheybeenwhatIshouldcallfeminine。
ButWolfLarsenwastheman—type,themasculine,andalmostagodinhisperfectness。Ashemovedaboutorraisedhisarmsthegreatmusclesleaptandmovedunderthesatinyskin。Ihaveforgottentosaythatthebronzeendedwithhisface。Hisbody,thankstohisScandinavianstock,wasfairasthefairestwoman’s。Irememberhisputtinghishanduptofeelofthewoundonhishead,andmywatchingthebicepsmovelikealivingthingunderitswhitesheath。Itwasthebicepsthathadnearlycrushedoutmylifeonce,thatIhadseenstrikesomanykillingblows。Icouldnottakemyeyesfromhim。stoodmotionless,arollofantisepticcottoninmyhandunwindingandspillingitselfdowntothefloor。
Henoticedme,andIbecameconsciousthatIwasstaringathim。
\"Godmadeyouwell,\"Isaid。
\"Didhe?\"heanswered。\"Ihaveoftenthoughtsomyself,andwonderedwhy。\"
\"Purpose——\"Ibegan。
\"Utility,\"heinterrupted。\"Thisbodywasmadeforuse。Thesemusclesweremadetogrip,andtear,anddestroylivingthingsthatgetbetweenmeandlife。Buthaveyouthoughtoftheotherlivingthings?They,too,havemuscles,ofonekindandanother,madetogrip,andtear,anddestroy;
andwhentheycomebetweenmeandlife,Ioutgripthem,outtearthem,outdestroythem。Purposedoesnotexplainthat。Utilitydoes。\"
\"Itisnotbeautiful,\"Iprotested。
\"Lifeisn’t,youmean,\"hesmiled。\"YetyousayIwasmadewell。Doyouseethis?\"
Hebracedhislegsandfeet,pressingthecabinfloorwithhistoesinaclutchingsortofway。Knotsandridgesandmoundsofmuscleswrithedandbunchedundertheskin。
\"Feelthem,\"hecommanded。
Theywerehardasiron。AndIobserved,also,thathiswholebodyhadunconsciouslydrawnitselftogether,tenseandalert;thatmusclesweresoftlycrawlingandshapingaboutthehips,alongtheback,andacrosstheshoulders;thatthearmswereslightlylifted,theirmusclescontracting,thefingerscrookingtillthehandswereliketalons;andthateventheeyeshadchangedexpressionandintothemwerecomingwatchfulnessandmeasurementandalightnoneotherthanofbattle。
\"Stability,equilibrium,\"hesaid,relaxingontheinstantandsinkinghisbodybackintorepose。\"Feetwithwhichtoclutchtheground,legstostandonandtohelpwithstand,whilewitharmsandhands,teethandnails,Istruggletokillandtobenotkilled。Purpose?Utilityisthebetterword。\"
Ididnotargue。Ihadseenthemechanismoftheprimitivefightingbeast,andIwasasstronglyimpressedasifIhadseentheenginesofagreatbattleshiporAtlanticliner。
Iwassurprised,consideringthefiercestruggleintheforecastle,atthesuperficialityofhishurts,andIpridemyselfthatIdressedthemdexterously。Withtheexceptionofseveralbadwounds,therestweremerelyseverebruisesandlacerations。Theblowwhichhehadreceivedbeforegoingoverboardhadlaidhisscalpopenseveralinches。This,underhisdirection,Icleansedandsewedtogether,havingfirstshavedtheedgesofthewound。
Thenthecalfofhislegwasbadlylaceratedandlookedasthoughithadbeenmangledbyabulldog。Somesailor,hetoldme,hadlaidholdofitbyhisteeth,atthebeginningofthefight,andhungonandbeendraggedtothetopoftheforecastleladder,whenhewaskickedloose。
\"Bytheway,Hump,asIhaveremarked,youareahandyman,\"WolfLarsenbegan,whenmyworkwasdone。\"Asyouknow,we’reshortamate。Hereafteryoushallstandwatches,receiveseventy—fivedollarspermonth,andbeaddressedforeandaftasMr。VanWeyden。\"
\"I——Idon’tunderstandnavigation,youknow,\"Igasped。
\"Notnecessaryatall。\"
\"Ireallydonotcaretositinthehighplaces,\"Iobjected。\"Ifindlifeprecariousenoughinmypresenthumblesituation。Ihavenoexperience。
Mediocrity,yousee,hasitscompensations。\"
Hesmiledasthoughitwereallsettled。
\"Iwon’tbemateonthishell—ship!\"Icrieddefiantly。
Isawhisfacegrowhardandthemercilessglittercomeintohiseyes。
Hewalkedtothedoorofhisroom,saying:
\"Andnow,Mr。VanWeyden,goodnight。\"
\"Goodnight,Mr。Larsen,\"Iansweredweakly。TheSeaWolf:Chapter16CHAPTER16
Icannotsaythatthepositionofmatecarriedwithitanythingmorejoyfulthanthattherewerenomoredishestowash。Iwasignorantofthesimplestdutiesofmate,andwouldhavefaredbadlyindeedhadthesailorsnotsympathizedwithme。Iknewnothingoftheminutiaeofropesandrigging,ofthetrimmingandsettingofsails;butthesailorstookpainstoputmetorights,——Louisprovinganespeciallygoodteacher,——andIhadlittletroublewiththoseunderme。
Withthehuntersitwasotherwise。Familiarinvaryingdegreewiththesea,theytookmeasasortofjoke。Intruth,itwasajoketome,thatI,theveriestlandsman,shouldbefillingtheofficeofmate;buttobetakenasajokebyotherswasadifferentmatter。madenocomplaint,butWolfLarsendemandedthemostpunctiliousseaetiquetteinmycase,——
farmorethanpoorJohansenhadeverreceived;andattheexpenseofseveralrows,threats,andmuchgrumbling,hebroughtthehunterstotime。Iwas\"Mr。VanWeyden\"foreandaft,anditwasonlyunofficiallythatWolfLarsenhimselfeveraddressedmeas\"Hump。\"
Itwasamusing。Perhapsthewindwouldhaulafewpointswhilewewereatdinner,andasIleftthetablehewouldsay,\"Mr。VanWeyden,willyoukindlyputaboutontheporttack。\"AndIwouldgoondeck,beckonLouistome,andlearnfromhimwhatwastobedone。Then,afewminuteslater,havingdigestedhisinstructionsandthoroughlymasteredtheman渦vre,Iwouldproceedtoissuemyorders。Irememberanearlyinstanceofthiskind,whenWolfLarsenappearedonthescenejustasIhadbeguntogiveorders。Hesmokedhiscigarandlookedonquietlytillthethingwasaccomplished,andthenpacedaftbymysidealongtheweatherpoop。
\"Hump,\"hesaid,\"Ibegpardon,Mr。VanWeyden,Icongratulateyou。
Ithinkyoucannowfireyourfather’slegsbackintothegravetohim。
You’vediscoveredyourownandlearnedtostandonthem。Alittlerope—work,sail—making,andexperiencewithstormsandsuchthings,andbytheendofthevoyageyoucouldshiponanycoastingschooner。\"
Itwasduringthisperiod,betweenthedeathofJohansenandthearrivalonthesealinggrounds,thatIpassedmypleasantesthoursontheGhost。
WolfLarsenwasquiteconsiderate,thesailorshelpedme,andIwasnolongerinirritatingcontactwithThomasMugridge。AndImadefreetosay,asthedayswentby,thatIfoundIwastakingacertainsecretprideinmyself。Fantasticasthesituationwas,——alandlubbersecondincommand,——Iwas,nevertheless,carryingitoffwell;andduringthatbrieftimeIwasproudofmyself,andIgrewtolovetheheaveandrolloftheGhostundermyfeetasshewallowednorthandwestthroughthetropicseatotheisletwherewefilledourwater—casks。
Butmyhappinesswasnotunalloyed。Itwascomparative,aperiodoflessmiseryslippedinbetweenapastofgreatmiseriesandafutureofgreatmiseries。FortheGhost,sofarastheseamenwereconcerned,wasahell—shipoftheworsedescription。Theyneverhadamoment’srestorpeace。WolfLarsentreasuredagainstthemtheattemptonhislifeandthedrubbinghehadreceivedintheforecastle;andmorning,noon,andnight,andallnightaswell,hedevotedhimselftomakinglifeunlivableforthem。
Heknewwellthepsychologyofthelittlething,anditwasthelittlethingsbywhichhekeptthecrewworkeduptothevergeofmadness。IhaveseenHarrisoncalledfromhisbunktoputproperlyawayamisplacedpaint—brush,andthetwowatchesbelowhaledfromtheirtiredsleeptoaccompanyhimandseehimdoit。Alittlething,truly,butwhenmultipliedbythethousandingeniousdevicesofsuchamind,thementalstateofthemenintheforecastlemaybeslightlycomprehended。
Ofcoursemuchgrumblingwenton,andlittleoutburstswerecontinuallyoccurring。Blowswerestruck,andtherewerealwaystwoorthreemennursinginjuriesatthehandsofthehumanbeastwhowastheirmaster。Concertedactionwasimpossibleinfaceoftheheavyarsenalofweaponscarriedinthesteerageandcabin。LeachandJohnsonwerethetwoparticularvictimsofWolfLarsen’sdiabolictemper,andthelookofprofoundmelancholywhichhadsettledonJohnson’sfaceandinhiseyesmademyheartbleed。
WithLeachitwasdifferent。Therewastoomuchofthefightingbeastinhim。Heseemedpossessedbyaninsatiablefurywhichgavenotimeforgrief。Hislipshadbecomedistortedintoapermanentsnarl,which,atmeresightofWolfLarsen,brokeoutinsound,horribleandmenacing,and,Idobelieve,unconsciously。IhaveseenhimfollowWolfLarsenaboutwithhiseyes,likeananimalitskeeper,thewhiletheanimal—likesnarlsoundeddeepinhisthroatandvibratedforthbetweenhisteeth。
Irememberonce,ondeck,inbrightday,touchinghimontheshoulderaspreliminarytogivinganorder。Hisbackwastowardme,andatthefirstfeelofmyhandheleapeduprightintheairandawayfromme,snarlingandturninghisheadasheleaped。Hehadforthemomentmistakenmeforthemanhehated。
BothheandJohnsonwouldhavekilledWolfLarsenattheslightestopportunity,buttheopportunitynevercame。WolfLarsenwastoowiseforthat,and,besides,theyhadnoadequateweapons。Withtheirfistsalonetheyhadnochancewhatever。TimeandagainhefoughtitoutwithLeach,whofoughtback,always,likeawildcat,toothandnailandfist,untilstretched,exhaustedorunconscious,onthedeck。Andhewasneveraversetoanotherencounter。AllthedevilthatwasinhimchallengedthedevilinWolfLarsen。
Theyhadbuttoappearondeckatthesametime,whentheywouldbeatit,cursing,snarling,striking;andIhaveseenLeachflinghimselfuponWolfLarsenwithoutwarningorprovocation。Oncehethrewhisheavysheath—knife,missingWolfLarsen’sthroatbyaninch。Anothertimehedroppedasteelmarlinspikefromthemizzencrosstree。Itwasadifficultcasttomakeonarollingship,butthesharppointofthespike,whistlingseventy—fivefeetthroughtheair,barelymissedWolfLarsen’sheadasheemergedfromthecabincompanionwayanddroveitslengthtwoinchesandoverintothesoliddeck—planking。Stillanothertime,hestoleintothesteerage,possessedhimselfofaloadedshot—gun,andwasmakingarushforthedeckwithitwhencaughtbyKerfootanddisarmed。
IoftenwonderedwhyWolfLarsendidnotkillhimandmakeanendofit。Butheonlylaughedandseemedtoenjoyit。Thereseemedacertainspiceaboutit,suchasmenmustfeelwhotakedelightinmakingpetsofferociousanimals。
\"Itgivesathrilltolife,\"heexplainedtome,\"whenlifeiscarriedinone’shand。Manisanaturalgambler,andlifeisthebiggeststakehecanlay。Thegreatertheodds,thegreaterthethrill。WhyshouldI
denymyselfthejoyofexcitingLeach’ssoultofever—pitch?Forthatmatter,Idohimakindness。Thegreatnessofsensationismutual。Heislivingmoreroyallythananymanfor’ard,thoughhedoesnotknowit。Forhehaswhattheyhavenot——purpose,somethingtodoandbedone,anall—absorbingendtostrivetoattain,thedesiretokillme,thehopethathemaykillme。Really,Hump,heislivingdeepandhigh。Idoubtthathehaseverlivedsoswiftlyandkeenlybefore,andIhonestlyenvyhim,sometimes,whenIseehimragingatthesummitofpassionandsensibility。\"
\"Ah,butitiscowardly,cowardly!\"Icried。\"Youhavealltheadvantage。\"
\"Ofthetwoofus,youandI,whoisthegreatercoward?\"heaskedseriously。
\"Ifthesituationisunpleasing,youcompromisewithyourconsciencewhenyoumakeyourselfapartytoit。Ifyouwerereallygreat,reallytruetoyourself,youwouldjoinforceswithLeachandJohnson。Butyouareafraid,youareafraid。Youwanttolive。Thelifethatisinyoucriesoutthatitmustlive,nomatterwhatthecost;soyouliveignominiously,untruetothebestyoudreamof,sinningagainstyourwholepitifullittlecode,and,iftherewereahell,headingyoursoulstraightforit。Bah!
Iplaythebraverpart。Idonosin,forIamtruetothepromptingsofthelifethatisinme。Iamsincerewithmysoulatleast,andthatiswhatyouarenot。\"