第13章

类别:其他 作者:Nathaniel Hawthorne字数:10917更新时间:19/01/07 14:54:06
\"Iwonderifmotherwillaskmewhatitmeans?\"thoughtPearl。 Justthen,sheheardhermother’svoice,andflittingalongaslightlyasoneofthelittlesea—birds,appearedbeforeHesterPrynne,dancing,laughing,andpointingherfingertotheornamentuponherbosom。 \"MylittlePearl,\"saidHester,afteramoment’ssilence,\"thegreenletter,andonthychildishbosom,hasnopurport。Butdostthouknow,mychild,whatthislettermeanswhichthymotherisdoomedtowear?\" \"Yes,mother,\"saidthechild。\"ItisthegreatletterA。Thouhasttaughtmeinthehorn—book。\" Hesterlookedsteadilyintoherlittleface;but,thoughtherewasthatsingularexpressionwhichshehadsooftenremarkedinherblackeyes,shecouldnotsatisfyherselfwhetherPearlreallyattachedanymeaningtothesymbol。Shefeltamorbiddesiretoascertainthepoint。 \"Dostthouknow,child,whereforethymotherwearsthisletter?\" \"TrulydoI!\"answeredPearl,lookingbrightlyintohermother’sface。\"Itisforthesamereasonthattheministerkeepshishandoverhisheart!\" \"Andwhatreasonisthat?\"askedHester,halfsmilingattheabsurdincongruityofthechild’sobservation;but,onsecondthoughts,turningpale。\"Whathasthelettertodowithanyheart,savemine?\" \"Nay,mother,IhavetoldallIknow,\"saidPearl,moreseriouslythanshewaswonttospeak。\"Askyonderoldmanwhomthouhastbeentalkingwith!Itmaybehecantell。Butingoodearnestnow,motherdear,whatdoesthisscarletlettermean?—andwhydostthouwearitonthybosom?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?\" Shetookhermother’shandinbothherown,andgazedintohereyeswithanearnestnessthatwasseldomseeninherwildandcapriciouscharacter。ThethoughtoccurredtoHester,thatthechildmightreallybeseekingtoapproachherwithchildlikeconfidence,anddoingwhatshecould,andasintelligentlyassheknewhow,toestablishameeting—pointofsympathy。ItshowedPearlinanunwontedaspect。Heretofore,themother,whilelovingherchildwiththeintensityofasoulaffection,hadschooledherselftohopeforlittleotherreturnthanthewaywardnessofanAprilbreeze;whichspendsitstimeinairysport,andhasitsgustsofinexplicablepassion,andispetulantinitsbestofmoods,andchillsoftenerthancaressesyou,whenyoutakeittoyourbosom;inrequitalofwhichmisdemeanours,itwillsometimes,ofitsownvaguepurpose,kissyourcheekwithakindofdoubtfultenderness,andplaygentlywithyourhair,andthenbegoneaboutitsotheridlebusiness,leavingadreamypleasureatyourheart。Andthis,moreover,wasamother’sestimateofthechild’sdisposition。Anyotherobservermighthaveseenfewbutunamiabletraits,andhavegiventhemafardarkercolouring。ButnowtheideacamestronglyintoHester’smind,thatPearl,withherremarkableprecocityandacuteness,mightalreadyhaveapproachedtheagewhenshecouldbemadeafriend,andentrustedwithasmuchofhermother’ssorrowsascouldbeimparted,withoutirreverenceeithertotheparentorthechild。InthelittlechaosofPearl’scharacter,theremightbeseenemerging—andcouldhavebeen,fromtheveryfirst—thesteadfastprinciplesofanunflinchingcourage—anuncontrollablewill—asturdypride,whichmightbedisciplinedintoself—respect—andabitterscornofmanythings,which,whenexamined,mightbefoundtohavethetaintoffalsehoodinthem。Shepossessedaffections,too,thoughhithertoacridanddisagreeable,asaretherichestflavoursofunripefruit。 Withallthesesterlingattributes,thoughtHester,theevilwhichsheinheritedfromhermothermustbegreatindeed,ifanoblewomandonotgrowoutofthiselfishchild。 Pearl’sinevitabletendencytohoverabouttheenigmaofthescarletletterseemedaninnatequalityofherbeing。Fromtheearliestepochofherconsciouslife,shehadentereduponthisasherappointedmission。HesterhadoftenfanciedthatProvidencehadadesignofjusticeandretribution,inendowingthechildwiththismarkedpropensity;butnever,untilnow,hadshebethoughtherselftoask,whether,linkedwiththatdesign,theremightnotlikewisebeapurposeofmercyandbeneficence。IflittlePearlwereentertainedwithfaithandtrust,asaspiritmessengernolessthananearthlychild,mightitnotbehererrandtosootheawaythesorrowthatlaycoldinhermother’sheart,andconverteditintoatomb?— andtohelphertoovercomethepassion,oncesowild,andevenyetneitherdeadnorasleep,butonlyimprisonedwithinthesametomb—likeheart? SuchweresomeofthethoughtsthatnowstirredinHester’smind,withasmuchvivacityofimpressionasiftheyhadactuallybeenwhisperedintoherear。AndtherewaslittlePearl,allthiswhile,holdinghermother’shandinbothherown,andturningherfaceupward,whilesheputthesesearchingquestions,once,andagain,andstillathirdtime。 \"Whatdoesthelettermean,mother?—andwhydostthouwearit?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?\" \"WhatshallIsay?\"thoughtHestertoherself。\"No!Ifthisbethepriceofthechild’ssympathy,Icannotpayit。\" Thenshespokealoud。 \"SillyPearl,\"saidshe,\"whatquestionsarethese?Therearemanythingsinthisworldthatachildmustnotaskabout。WhatknowIoftheminister’sheart?Andasforthescarletletter,Iwearitforthesakeofitsgoldthread。\" Inallthesevenbygoneyears,HesterPrynnehadneverbeforebeenfalsetothesymbolonherbosom。Itmaybethatitwasthetalismanofasternandsevere,butyetaguardianspirit,whonowforsookher; asrecognisingthat,inspiteofhisstrictwatchoverherheart,somenewevilhadcreptintoit,orsomeoldonehadneverbeenexpelled。 AsforlittlePearl,theearnestnesssoonpassedoutofherface。 Butthechilddidnotseefittoletthematterdrop。Twoorthreetimes,ashermotherandshewenthomeward,andasoftenatsuppertime,andwhileHesterwasputtinghertobed,andonceaftersheseemedtobefairlyasleep,Pearllookedup,withmischiefgleaminginherblackeyes。 \"Mother,\"saidshe,\"whatdoesthescarletlettermean?\" Andthenextmorning,thefirstindicationthechildgaveofbeingawakewasbypoppingupherheadfromthepillow,andmakingthatotherinquiry,whichshehadsounaccountablyconnectedwithherinvestigationsaboutthescarletletter— \"Mother!—mother!—whydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?\" \"Holdthytongue,naughtychild!\"answeredhermother,withanasperitythatshehadneverpermittedtoherselfbefore。\"Donotteaseme;elseIshallshuttheeintothedarkcloset!\" XVI。 AFORESTWALK。 HESTERPRYNNEremainedconstantinherresolvetomakeknowntoMr。Dimmesdale,atwhateverriskofpresentpainorulteriorconsequences,thetruecharacterofthemanwhohadcreptintohisintimacy。Forseveraldays,however,shevainlysoughtanopportunityofaddressinghiminsomeofthemeditativewalkswhichsheknewhimtobeinthehabitoftaking,alongtheshoresofthepeninsula,oronthewoodedhillsoftheneighbouringcountry。Therewouldhavebeennoscandal,indeed,norperiltotheholywhitenessoftheclergyman’sgoodfame,hadshevisitedhiminhisownstudy;wheremanyapenitent,erenow,hadconfessedsinsofperhapsasdeepadyeastheonebetokenedbythescarletletter。But,partlythatshedreadedthesecretorundisguisedinterferenceofoldRogerChillingworth,andpartlythatherconsciousheartimputedsuspicionwherenonecouldhavebeenfelt,andpartlythatboththeministerandshewouldneedthewholewideworldtobreathein,whiletheytalkedtogether—forallthesereasons,Hesterneverthoughofmeetinghiminanynarrowerprivacythanbeneaththeopensky。 Atlast,whileattendinginasick—chamber,whithertheReverendMr。 Dimmesdalehadbeensummonedtomakeaprayer,shelearntthathehadgone,thedaybefore,tovisittheApostleEliot,amonghisIndianconverts。Hewouldprobablyreturn,byacertainhour,intheafternoonofthemorrow。Betimes,therefore,thenextday,HestertooklittlePearl—whowasnecessarilythecompanionofallhermother’sexpeditions,howeverinconvenientherpresence—andsetforth。 Theroad,afterthetwowayfarershadcrossedfromthepeninsulatothemainland,wasnootherthanafootpath。Itstraggledonwardintothemysteryoftheprimevalforest。Thishemmeditinsonarrowly,andstoodsoblackanddenseoneitherside,anddisclosedsuchimperfectglimpsesoftheskyabove,that,toHester’smind,itimagednotamissthemoralwildernessinwhichshehadsolongbeenwandering。Thedaywaschillandsombre。Overheadwasagreyexpanseofcloud,slightlystirred,however,byabreeze;sothatagleamofflickeringsunshinemightnowandthenbeseenatitssolitaryplayalongthepath。Thisflittingcheerfulnesswasalwaysatthefartherextremityofsomelongvistathroughtheforest。Thesportivesunlight—feeblysportive,atbest,inthepredominantpensivenessofthedayandscene—withdrewitselfastheycamenigh,andleftthespotswhereithaddancedthedrearier,becausetheyhadhopedtofindthembright。 \"Mother,\"saidlittlePearl,\"thesunshinedoesnotloveyou。Itrunsawayandhidesitself,becauseitisafraidofsomethingonyourbosom。Now,see!Thereitis,playing,agoodwayoff。Standyouhere,andletmerunandcatchit。Iambutachild。Itwillnotfleefromme;forIwearnothingonmybosomyet!\" \"Noreverwill,mychild,Ihope,\"saidHester。 \"Andwhynot,mother?\"askedPearl,stoppingshortjustatthebeginningofherrace。\"Willnotitcomeofitsownaccord,whenI amawomangrown?\" \"Runaway,child,\"answeredhermother,\"andcatchthesunshine! Itwillsoonbegone。\" Pearlsetforth,atagreatpace,and,asHestersmiledtoperceive,didactuallycatchthesunshine,andstoodlaughinginthemidstofit,allbrightenedbyitssplendour,andscintillatingwiththevivacityexcitedbyrapidmotion。Thelightlingeredaboutthelonelychild,asifgladofsuchaplaymate,untilhermotherhaddrawnalmostnighenoughtostepintothemagiccircletoo。 \"Itwillgonow,\"saidPearl,shakingherhead。 \"See!\"answeredHester,smiling。\"NowIcanstretchoutmyhand,andgraspsomeofit。\" Assheattemptedtodoso,thesunshinevanished;or,tojudgefromthebrightexpressionthatwasdancingonPearl’sfeatures,hermothercouldhavefanciedthatthechildhadabsorbeditintoherself,andwouldgiveitforthagain,withagleamaboutherpath,astheyshouldplungeintosomegloomiershade。TherewasnootherattributethatsomuchimpressedherwithasenseofnewanduntransmittedvigourinPearl’snature,asthisnever—failingvivacityofspirits; shehadnotthediseaseofsadness,whichalmostallchildren,intheselatterdays,inherit,withthescrofula,fromthetroublesoftheirancestors。Perhapsthistoowasadisease,andbutthereflexofthewildenergywithwhichHesterhadfoughtagainsthersorrows,beforePearl’sbirth。Itwascertainlyadoubtfulcharm,impartingahard,metalliclustretothechild’scharacter。Shewanted—whatsomepeoplewantthroughoutlife—agriefthatshoulddeeplytouchher,andthushumaniseandmakehercapableofsympathy。ButtherewastimeenoughyetforlittlePearl。 \"Come,mychild!\"saidHester,lookingaboutherfromthespotwherePearlhadstoodstillinthesunshine。\"Wewillsitdownalittlewaywithinthewood,andrestourselves。\" \"Iamnotaweary,mother,\"repliedthelittlegirl。\"Butyoumaysitdown,ifyouwilltellmeastorymeanwhile。\" \"Astory,child!\"saidHester。\"Andaboutwhat?\" \"Oh,astoryabouttheBlackMan,\"answeredPearl,takingholdofhermother’sgown,andlookingup,halfearnestly,halfmischievously,intoherface。\"Howhehauntsthisforest,andcarriesabookwithhim—abig,heavybook,withironclasps;andhowthisuglyBlackManoffershisbookandanironpentoeverybodythatmeetshimhereamongthetrees;andtheyaretowritetheirnameswiththeirownblood。Andthenhesetshismarkontheirbosoms!DidstthouevermeettheBlackMan,mother?\" \"Andwhotoldyouthisstory,Pearl?\"askedhermother,recognisingacommonsuperstitionoftheperiod。 \"Itwastheolddameinthechimney—corner,atthehousewhereyouwatchedlastnight,\"saidthechild。\"Butshefanciedmeasleepwhileshewastalkingofit。Shesaidthatathousandandathousandpeoplehadmethimhere,andhadwritteninhisbook,andhavehismarkonthem。Andthatugly—temperedlady,oldMistressHibbins,wasone。And,mother,theolddamesaidthatthisscarletletterwastheBlackMan’smarkonthee,andthatitglowslikearedflamewhenthoumeetesthimatmidnight,hereinthedarkwood。Isittrue,mother? Anddostthougotomeethiminthenight—time?\" \"Didstthoueverawake,andfindthymothergone?\"askedHester。 \"NotthatIremember,\"saidthechild。\"Ifthoufearesttoleavemeinourcottage,thoumightesttakemealongwiththee。Iwouldverygladlygo!But,mother,tellmenow!IstheresuchaBlackMan?Anddidstthouevermeethim?Andisthishismark?\" \"WiltthouletmebeatpeaceifIoncetellthee?\"askedhermother。 \"Yes,ifthoutellestmeall,\"answeredPearl。 \"OnceinmylifeImettheBlackMan!\"saidhermother。\"Thisscarletletterishismark!\" Thusconversing,theyenteredsufficientlydeepintothewoodtosecurethemselvesfromtheobservationofanycasualpassengeralongtheforesttrack。Heretheysatdownonaluxuriantheapofmoss; which,atsomeepochoftheprecedingcentury,hadbeenagiganticpine,withitsrootsandtrunkinthedarksomeshade,anditsheadaloftintheupperatmosphere。Itwasalittledellwheretheyhadseatedthemselves,withaleaf—strewnbankrisinggentlyoneitherside,andabrookflowingthroughthemidst,overabedoffallenanddrownedleaves。Thetreesimpendingoverithadflungdowngreatbranches,fromtimetotime,whichchokedupthecurrent,andcompelledittoformeddiesandblackdepthsatsomepoints;while,initsswifterandlivelierpassages,thereappearedachannel—wayofpebbles,andbrown,sparklingsand。Lettingtheeyesfollowalongthecourseofthestream,theycouldcatchthereflectedlightfromitswater,atsomeshortdistancewithintheforest,butsoonlostalltracesofitamidthebewildermentoftree—trunksandunderbrush,andhereandthereahugerockcoveredoverwithgreylichens。Allthesegianttreesandbouldersofgraniteseemedintentonmakingamysteryofthecourseofthissmallbrook;fearing,perhaps,that,withitsnever—ceasingloquacity,itshouldwhispertalesoutoftheheartoftheoldforestwhenceitflowed,ormirroritsrevelationsonthesmoothsurfaceofapool。Continually,indeed,asitstoleonward,thestreamletkeptupababble,kind,quiet,soothing,butmelancholy,likethevoiceofayoungchildthatwasspendingitsinfancywithoutplayfulness,andknewnothowtobemerryamongsadacquaintanceandeventsofsombrehue。 \"Obrook!Ofoolishandtiresomelittlebrook!\"criedPearl,afterlisteningawhiletoitstalk。\"Whyartthousosad?Pluckupaspirit,anddonotbeallthetimesighingandmurmuring!\" Butthebrook,inthecourseofitslittlelifetimeamongtheforest—trees,hadgonethroughsosolemnanexperiencethatitcouldnothelptalkingaboutit,andseemedtohavenothingelsetosay。 Pearlresembledthebrookinasmuchasthecurrentofherlifegushedfromawell—springasmysterious,andhadflowedthroughscenesshadowedasheavilywithgloom。But,unlikethelittlestream,shedancedandsparkled,andprattledairilyalonghercourse。 \"Whatdoesthissadlittlebrooksay,mother?\"inquiredshe。 \"Ifthouhadstasorrowofthineown,thebrookmighttelltheeofit,\"answeredhermother,\"evenasitistellingmeofmine!Butnow,Pearl,Ihearafootstepalongthepath,andthenoiseofoneputtingasidethebranches。Iwouldhavetheebetakethyselftoplay,andleavemetospeakwithhimthatcomesyonder。\" \"IsittheBlackMan?\"askedPearl。 \"Wiltthougoandplay,child?\"repeatedhermother。\"Butdonotstrayfarintothewood。Andtakeheedthatthoucomeatmyfirstcall。\" \"Yes,mother,\"answeredPearl。\"ButifitbetheBlackMan,wiltthounotletmestayamoment,andlookathim,withhisbigbookunderhisarm?\" \"Go,sillychild!\"saidhermotherimpatiently。\"ItisnoBlackMan! Thoucanstseehimnow,throughthetrees。Itistheminister!\" \"Andsoitis!\"saidthechild。\"And,mother,hehashishandoverhisheart!Isitbecause,whentheministerwrotehisnameinthebook,theBlackMansethismarkinthatplace?Butwhydoeshenotwearitoutsidehisbosom,asthoudost,mother?\" \"Gonow,child,andthoushaltteasemeasthouwiltanothertime,\"criedHesterPrynne。\"Butdonotstrayfar。Keepwherethoucansthearthebabbleofthebrook。\" Thechildwentsingingaway,followingupthecurrentofthebrook,andstrivingtomingleamorelightsomecadencewithitsmelancholyvoice。Butthelittlestreamwouldnotbecomforted,andstillkepttellingitsunintelligiblesecretofsomeverymournfulmysterythathadhappened—ormakingapropheticlamentationaboutsomethingthatwasyettohappen—withinthevergeofthedismalforest。SoPearl,whohadenoughofshadowinherownlittlelife,chosetobreakoffallacquaintancewiththisrepiningbrook。Shesetherself,therefore,togatheringvioletsandwood—anemones,andsomescarletcolumbinesthatshefoundgrowinginthecrevicesofahighrock。 Whenherelf—childhaddeparted,HesterPrynnemadeasteportwotowardsthetrackthatledthroughtheforest,butstillremainedunderthedeepshadowofthetrees。Shebeheldtheministeradvancingalongthepath,entirelyalone,andleaningonastaffwhichhehadcutbythewayside。Helookedhaggardandfeeble,andbetrayedanervelessdespondencyinhisair,whichhadneversoremarkablycharacterisedhiminhiswalksaboutthesettlement,norinanyothersituationwherehedeemedhimselfliabletonotice。Hereitwaswoefullyvisible,inthisintenseseclusionoftheforest,whichofitselfwouldhavebeenaheavytrialtothespirits。Therewasalistlessnessinhisgait;asifhesawnoreasonfortakingonestepfarther,norfeltanydesiretodoso,butwouldhavebeenglad,couldhebegladofanything,toflinghimselfdownattherootofthenearesttree,andlietherepassive,forevermore。Theleavesmightbestrewhim,andthesoilgraduallyaccumulateandformalittlehillockoverhisframe,nomatterwhethertherewerelifeinitorno。Deathwastoodefiniteanobjecttobewishedfor,oravoided。 ToHester’seye,theReverendMr。Dimmesdaleexhibitednosymptomofpositiveandvivacioussuffering,exceptthat,aslittlePearlhadremarked,hekepthishandoverhisheart。 XVII。 THEPASTORANDHISPARISHIONER。 SLOWLYastheministerwalked,hehadalmostgoneby,beforeHesterPrynnecouldgathervoiceenoughtoattracthisobservation。Atlength,shesucceeded。 \"ArthurDimmesdale!\"shesaid,faintlyatfirst;thenlouder,buthoarsely:\"ArthurDimmesdale!\" \"Whospeaks?\"answeredtheminister。 Gatheringhimselfquicklyup,hestoodmoreerect,likeamantakenbysurpriseinamoodtowhichhewasreluctanttohavewitnesses。Throwinghiseyesanxiouslyinthedirectionofthevoice,heindistinctlybeheldaformunderthetrees,cladingarmentsso,sombre,andsolittlerelievedfromthegreytwilightintowhichthecloudedskyandtheheavyfoliagehaddarkenedthenoontide,thatheknewnotwhetheritwereawomanorashadow。Itmaybe,thathispathwaythroughlifewashauntedthus,byaspectrethathadstolenoutfromamonghisthoughts。 Hemadeastepnigher,anddiscoveredthescarletletter。 \"Hester!HesterPrynne!\"saidhe。\"Isitthou?Artthouinlife?\" \"Evenso!\"sheanswered。\"Insuchlifeashasbeenminethesesevenyearspast!Andthou,ArthurDimmesdale,dostthouyetlive?\" Itwasnowonderthattheythusquestionedoneanother’sactualandbodilyexistence,andevendoubtedoftheirown。Sostrangelydidtheymeet,inthedimwood,thatitwaslikethefirstencounter,intheworldbeyondthegrave,oftwospiritswhohadbeenintimatelyconnectedintheirformerlife,butnowstoodcoldlyshuddering,inmutualdread;asnotyetfamiliarwiththeirstate,norwontedtothecompanionshipofdisembodiedbeings。Eachaghost,andawe—strickenattheotherghost!Theywereawe—strickenlikewiseatthemselves;becausethecrisisflungbacktothemtheirconsciousness,andrevealedtoeachheartitshistoryandexperience,aslifeneverdoes,exceptatsuchbreathlessepochs。Thesoulbehelditsfeaturesinthemirrorofthepassingmoment。Itwaswithfear,andtremulously,and,asitwere,byaslow,reluctantnecessity,thatArthurDimmesdaleputforthhishand,chillasdeath,andtouchedthechillhandofHesterPrynne。Thegrasp,coldasitwas,tookawaywhatwasdreariestintheinterview。Theynowfeltthemselves,atleast,inhabitantsofthesamesphere。 Withoutawordmorespoken—neitherhenorsheassumingtheguidance,butwithanunexpressedconsent—theyglidedbackintotheshadowofthewoods,whenceHesterhademerged,andsatdownontheheapofmosswheresheandPearlhadbeforebeensitting。Whentheyfoundvoicetospeak,itwas,atfirst,onlytoutterremarksandinquiriessuchasanytwoacquaintancesmighthavemade,aboutthegloomysky,thethreateningstorm,and,next,thehealthofeach。Thustheywentonward,notboldly,butstepbystep,intothethemesthatwerebroodingdeepestintheirhearts。Solongestrangedbyfateandcircumstances,theyneededsomethingslightandcasualtorunbefore,andthrowopenthedoorsofintercourse,sothattheirrealthoughtsmightbeledacrossthethreshold。 Afterawhile,theministerfixedhiseyesonHesterPrynne’s。 \"Hester,\"saidhe,\"hastthoufoundpeace?\" Shesmileddrearily,lookingdownuponherbosom。 \"Hastthou?\"sheasked。 \"None!—nothingbutdespair!\"heanswered。\"WhatelsecouldIlookfor,beingwhatIam,andleadingsuchalifeasmine?WereIanatheist—amandevoidofconscience—awretchwithcoarseandbrutalinstincts—Imighthavefoundpeace,longerenow。Nay,Inevershouldhavelostit!But,asmattersstandwithmysoul,whateverofgoodcapacitythereoriginallywasinme,allofGod’sgiftsthatwerethechoicesthavebecometheministersofspiritualtorment。Hester,I ammostmiserable。\" \"Thepeoplereverencethee,\"saidHester。\"Andsurelythouworkestgoodamongthem!Doththisbringtheenocomfort?\" \"Moremisery,Hester!—onlythemoremisery!\"answeredtheclergyman,withabittersmile。\"AsconcernsthegoodwhichImayappeartodo,Ihavenofaithinit。Itmustneedsbeadelusion。Whatcanaruinedsoul,likemine,effecttowardstheredemptionofothersouls?—orapollutedsoul,towardstheirpurification?Andasforthepeople’sreverence,wouldthatitwereturnedtoscornandhatred! Canstthoudeemit,Hester,aconsolation,thatImuststandupinmypulpit,andmeetsomanyeyesturnedupwardtomyface,asifthelightofheavenwerebeamingfromit!—mustseemyflockhungryforthetruth,andlisteningtomywordsasifatongueofPentecostwerespeaking!—andthenlookinward,anddiscerntheblackrealityofwhattheyidolise?Ihavelaughed,inbitternessandagonyofheart,atthecontrastbetweenwhatIseemandwhatIam!AndSatanlaughsatit!\" \"Youwrongyourselfinthis,\"saidHestergently。\"Youhavedeeplyandsorelyrepented。Yoursinisleftbehindyou,inthedayslongpast。Yourpresentlifeisnotlessholy,inverytruth,thanitseemsinpeople’seyes。Istherenorealityinthepenitencethussealedandwitnessedbygoodworks?Andwhereforeshoulditnotbringyoupeace?\" \"No,Hester,no!\"repliedtheclergyman。\"Thereisnosubstanceinit!Itiscoldanddead,andcandonothingforme!Ofpenance,Ihavehadenough!Ofpenitence,therehasbeennone!Else,Ishouldlongagohavethrownoffthesegarmentsofmockholiness,andhaveshownmyselftomankindastheywillseemeatthejudgment—seat。Happyareyou,Hester,thatwearthescarletletteropenlyuponyourbosom!Mineburnsinsecret!Thoulittleknowestwhatareliefitis,afterthetormentofasevenyears’cheat,tolookintoaneyethatrecognisesmeforwhatIam!HadIonefriend—orwereitmyworstenemy!—towhom,whensickenedwiththepraisesofallothermen,Icoulddailybetakemyself,andbeknownasthevilestofallsinners,methinksmysoulmightkeepitselfalivethereby。Eventhusmuchoftruthwouldsaveme!But,now,itisallfalsehood!—allemptiness!—alldeath!\" HesterPrynnelookedintohisface,buthesitatedtospeak。Yet,utteringhislong—restrainedemotionssovehementlyashedid,hiswordshereofferedhertheverypointofcircumstancesinwhichtointerposewhatshecametosay。Sheconqueredherfears,andspoke。 \"Suchafriendasthouhastevennowwishedfor,\"saidshe,\"withwhomtoweepoverthysin,thouhasinme,thepartnerofit!\"Againshehesitated,butbroughtoutthewordswithaneffort,\"Thouhastlonghadsuchanenemy,anddwellestwithhim,underthesameroof!\" Theministerstartedtohisfeet,gaspingforbreath,andclutchingathisheart,asifhewouldhavetornitoutofhisbosom。 \"Ha!Whatsayestthou!\"criedhe。\"Anenemy!Andundermineownroof!Whatmeanyou?\"