第25章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:10334更新时间:19/01/07 14:46:13
Where’syourship?DoyouthinkI’mgoingtoletyoucomehereandeatyourwifeoutofhouseandhome,andthengivemoneytokeeptheconcerngoing?\" \"JusttheverywordsIsaidwhenhefirstshowedhisfacehere,yist’day。Didn’tI,Z’rilla?\"saidthewoman,eagerlyjoiningintherebukeofherlatebooncompanion。 \"Yougotnobusinesshere,Hen,s’dI。Youcan’tcomeheretoliveonmeandZ’rilla,s’dI。Youwanttogobacktoyourship,s’dI。That’swhatIsaid。\" Thesailormumbled,withasmileoftipsyamiabilityforLapham,somethingaboutthecrewbeingdischarged。 \"Yes,\"thewomanbrokein,\"that’salwaysthewaywiththesecoasters。Whydon’tyougooffonsomethemlongv’y’ges?s’dI。It’sprettyhardwhenMr。WemmelstandsreadytomarryZ’rillaandprovideacomfortablehomeforusboth——Ihain’tgotagreatmanyyearsmoretolive,andISHOULDliketogetsomesatisfactionoutof’em,andnotbebeholdenanddependentallmydays,——tohaveHen,here,blockin’theway。Itellhimthere’dbemoremoneyforhimintheend;buthecan’tseemtomakeuphismindtoit。\" \"Well,now,lookhere,\"saidLapham。\"Idon’tcareanythingaboutallthat。It’syourownbusiness,andI’mnotgoingtomeddlewithit。Butit’smybusinesswholivesoffme; andsoItellyouallthree,I’mwillingtotakecareofZerrilla,andI’mwillingtotakecareofhermother————\" \"Iguessifithadn’tbeenforthatchild’sfather,\" themotherinterpolated,\"youwouldn’tbeenheretotellthetale,ColonelLapham。\" \"Iknowallaboutthat,\"saidLapham。\"ButI’lltellyouwhat,Mr。Dewey,I’mnotgoingtosupportYOU。\" \"Idon’tseewhatHen’sdone,\"saidtheoldwomanimpartially。 \"Hehasn’tdoneanything,andI’mgoingtostopit。 He’sgottogetaship,andhe’sgottogetoutofthis。 AndZerrillaneedn’tcomebacktoworktillhedoes。 I’mdonewithyouall。\" \"Well,Ivow,\"saidthemother,\"ifIeverheardanythinglikeit!Didn’tthatchild’sfatherlaydownhislifeforyou?Hain’tyousaidityourselfahundredtimes? Anddon’tsheworkforhermoney,andslaveforitmornin’,noon,andnight?Youtalkasifwewasbeholdentoyoufortheverybreadinourmouths。Iguessifithadn’tbeenforJim,youwouldn’tbeenherecrowin’ overus。\" \"YoumindwhatIsay。Imeanbusinessthistime,\" saidLapham,turningtothedoor。 Thewomanroseandfollowedhim,withherbottleinherhand。 \"Say,Colonel!whatshouldyouadviseZ’rillatodoaboutMr。Wemmel?Itellherthereain’tanyusegoin’tothetroubletogitadivorcewithoutshe’ssureabouthim。 Don’tyouthinkwe’doughttogithimtosignapaper,orsomething,thathe’llmarryherifshegitsit?Idon’tliketohavethingsgoingatlooseendsthewaytheyare。 Itain’tsense。Itain’tright。\" Laphammadenoanswertothemotheranxiousforherchild’sfuture,andconcernedforthemoralquestionsinvolved。 Hewentoutanddownthestairs,andonthepavementatthelowerdoorhealmoststruckagainstRogers,whohadabaginhishand,andseemedtobehurryingtowardsoneofthedepots。Hehaltedalittle,asiftospeaktoLapham;butLaphamturnedhisbackabruptlyuponhim,andtooktheotherdirection。 Thedaysweregoingbyinamonotonyofadversitytohim,fromwhichhecouldnolongerescape,evenathome。 Heattemptedonceortwicetotalkofhistroublestohiswife,butsherepulsedhimsharply;sheseemedtodespiseandhatehim;buthesethimselfdoggedlytomakeaconfessiontoher,andhestoppedheronenight,asshecameintotheroomwherehesat——hastilyuponsomeerrandthatwastotakeherdirectlyawayagain。 \"Persis,there’ssomethingI’vegottotellyou。\" Shestoodstill,asiffixedagainstherwill,tolisten。 \"Iguessyouknowsomethingaboutitalready,andIguessitsetyouagainstme。\" \"Oh,Iguessnot,ColonelLapham。Yougoyourway,andIgomine。That’sall。\" Shewaitedforhimtospeak,listeningwithacold,hardsmileonherface。 \"Idon’tsayittomakefavourwithyou,becauseIdon’twantyoutospareme,andIdon’taskyou;butIgotintoitthroughMiltonK。Rogers。\" \"Oh!\"saidMrs。Laphamcontemptuously。 \"IalwaysfeltthewayIsaidaboutit——thatitwa’n’tanybetterthangambling,andIsaysonow。It’slikebettingontheturnofacard;andIgiveyoumywordofhonour,Persis,thatIneverwasinitatalltillthatscoundrelbegantoloadmeupwiththosewild—catsecuritiesofhis。 ThenitseemedtomeasifIoughttotrytodosomethingtogetsomewhereeven。Iknowit’snoexcuse;butwatchingthemarkettoseewhattheinfernalthingswereworthfromdaytoday,andseeingitgoup,andseeingitgodown,wastoomuchforme;and,tomakealongstoryshort,Ibegantobuyandsellonamargin——justwhatItoldyouIneverwoulddo。Iseemedtomakesomething——I didmakesomething;andI’dhavestopped,Idobelieve,ifIcouldhavereachedthefigureI’dsetinmyownmindtostartwith;butIcouldn’tfetchit。Ibegantolose,andthenIbegantothrowgoodmoneyafterbad,justasIalwaysdidwitheverythingthatRogersevercamewithinamileof。Well,what’stheuse?Ilostthemoneythatwouldhavecarriedmeoutofthis,andIshouldn’thavehadtoshutdowntheWorks,orsellthehouse,or————\" Laphamstopped。Hiswife,whoatfirsthadlistenedwithmystification,andthendawningincredulity,changingintoalookofreliefthatwasalmosttriumph,lapsedagainintoseverity。\"SilasLapham,ifyouwastodiethenextminute,isthiswhatyoustartedtotellme?\" \"Why,ofcourseitis。WhatdidyousupposeIstartedtotellyou?\" \"And——lookmeintheeyes!——youhaven’tgotanythingelseonyourmindnow?\" \"No!There’stroubleenough,theLordknows; butthere’snothingelsetotellyou。IsupposePengaveyouahintaboutit。Idroppedsomethingtoher。 I’vebeenfeelingbadaboutit,Persis,agoodwhile,butIhain’thadthehearttospeakofit。Ican’texpectyoutosayyoulikeit。I’vebeenafool,I’llallow,andI’vebeensomethingworse,ifyouchoosetosayso; butthat’sall。Ihaven’thurtanybodybutmyself——andyouandthechildren。\" Mrs。Laphamroseandsaid,withherfacefromhim,assheturnedtowardsthedoor,\"It’sallright,Silas。 Ishan’teverbringitupagainstyou。\" Shefledoutoftheroom,butallthateveningshewasverysweetwithhim,andseemedtowishinalltacitwaystoatoneforherpastunkindness。 Shemadehimtalkofhisbusiness,andhetoldherofCorey’soffer,andwhathehaddoneaboutit。 Shedidnotseemtocareforhispartinit,however; atwhichLaphamwassilentlydisappointedalittle,forhewouldhavelikedhertopraisehim。 \"HediditonaccountofPen!\" \"Well,hedidn’tinsistuponit,anyway,\"saidLapham,whomusthaveobscurelyexpectedthatCoreywouldrecognisehisownmagnanimitybyrepeatinghisoffer。 Ifthedoubtthatfollowsaself—devotedaction——thequestionwhetheritwasnotafterallaneedlessfolly——ismixed,asitwasinLapham’scase,withthevaguebeliefthatwemighthavedoneourselvesagoodturnwithoutgreatriskofhurtinganyoneelsebybeingalittlelessunselfish,itbecomesaregretthatishardtobear。SinceCoreyspoketohim,somethingshadhappenedthatgaveLaphamhopeagain。 \"I’mgoingtotellheraboutit,\"saidhiswife,andsheshowedherselfimpatienttomakeupforthetimeshehadlost。\"Whydidn’tyoutellmebefore,Silas?\" \"Ididn’tknowwewereonspeakingtermsbefore,\" saidLaphamsadly。 \"Yes,that’strue,\"sheadmitted,withaconsciousflush。 \"Ihopehewon’tthinkPen’sknownaboutitallthiswhile。\" XXIV。 THATeveningJamesBellinghamcametoseeCoreyafterdinner,andwenttofindhiminhisownroom。 \"I’vecomeattheinstanceofColonelLapham,\"saidtheuncle。 \"Hewasatmyofficeto—day,andIhadalongtalkwithhim。 Didyouknowthathewasindifficulties?\" \"Ifanciedthathewasinsomesortoftrouble。 AndIhadthebook—keeper’sconjectures——hedoesn’treallyknowmuchaboutit。\" \"Well,hethinksittime——onallaccounts——thatyoushouldknowhowhestands,andwhyhedeclinedthatpropositionofyours。Imustsayhehasbehavedverywell——likeagentleman。\" \"I’mnotsurprised。\" \"Iam。It’shardtobehavelikeagentlemanwhereyourinterestisvitallyconcerned。AndLaphamdoesn’tstrikemeasamanwho’sinthehabitofactingfromthebestinhimalways。\" \"Doanyofus?\"askedCorey。 \"Notallofus,atanyrate,\"saidBellingham。\"Itmusthavecosthimsomethingtosaynotoyou,forhe’sjustinthatstatewhenhebelievesthatthisorthatchance,howeversmall,wouldsavehim。\" Coreywassilent。\"Ishereallyinsuchabadway?\" \"It’shardtotelljustwherehestands。Isuspectthatahopefultemperamentandfondnessforroundnumbershavealwayscausedhimtosethisfiguresbeyondhisactualworth。Idon’tsaythathe’sbeendishonestaboutit,buthe’shadaloosewayofestimatinghisassets;he’sreckonedhiswealthonthebasisofhiscapital,andsomeofhiscapitalisborrowed。 He’slostheavilybysomeoftherecentfailures,andthere’sbeenaterribleshrinkageinhisvalues。 Idon’tmeanmerelyinthestockofpaintonhand,butinakindofcompetitionwhichhasbecomeverythreatening。 YouknowaboutthatWestVirginianpaint?\" Coreynodded。 \"Well,hetellsmethatthey’vestruckaveinofnaturalgasouttherewhichwillenablethemtomakeasgoodapaintashisownatacostofmanufacturingsolowthattheycanundersellhimeverywhere。Ifthisprovestobethecase,itwillnotonlydrivehispaintoutofthemarket,butwillreducethevalueofhisWorks——thewholeplant——atLaphamtoamerelynominalfigure。\" \"Isee,\"saidCoreydejectedly。\"I’veunderstoodthathehadputagreatdealofmoneyintohisWorks。\" \"Yes,andheestimatedhisminethereatahighfigure。 OfcourseitwillbeworthlittleornothingiftheWestVirginiapaintdriveshisout。Then,besides,Laphamhasbeenintoseveralthingsoutsideofhisownbusiness,and,likeagoodmanyothermenwhotryoutsidethings,he’skeptaccountofthemhimself;andhe’sallmixedupaboutthem。He’saskedmetolookintohisaffairswithhim,andI’vepromisedtodoso。Whetherhecanbetidedoverhisdifficultiesremainstobeseen。 I’mafraiditwilltakeagooddealofmoneytodoit——agreatdealmorethanhethinks,atleast。Hebelievescomparativelylittlewoulddoit。Ithinkdifferently。 Ithinkthatanythinglessthanagreatdealwouldbethrownawayonhim。Ifitweremerelyaquestionofacertainsum——evenalargesum——tokeephimgoing,itmightbemanaged;butit’smuchmorecomplicated。 And,asIsay,itmusthavebeenatrialtohimtorefuseyouroffer。\" ThisdidnotseemtobethewayinwhichBellinghamhadmeanttoconclude。Buthesaidnomore;andCoreymadehimnoresponse。 Heremainedponderingthecase,nowhopefully,nowdoubtfully,andwondering,whateverhismoodwas,whetherPenelopeknewanythingofthefactwithwhichhermotherwentnearlyatthesamemomenttoacquainther。 \"Ofcourse,he’sdoneitonyouraccount,\"Mrs。Laphamcouldnothelpsaying。 \"Thenhewasverysilly。DoeshethinkIwouldlethimgivefathermoney?Andiffatherlostitforhim,doeshesupposeitwouldmakeitanyeasierforme?I thinkfatheractedtwiceaswell。Itwasverysilly。\" Inrepeatingthecensure,herlookwasnotsosevereashertone;sheevensmiledalittle,andhermotherreportedtoherfatherthatsheactedmorelikeherselfthanshehadyetsinceCorey’soffer。 \"Ithink,ifhewastorepeathisoffer,shewouldhavehimnow,\"saidMrs。Lapham。 \"Well,I’llletherknowifhedoes,\"saidtheColonel。 \"Iguesshewon’tdoittoyou!\"shecried。 \"Whoelsewillhedoitto?\"hedemanded。 Theyperceivedthattheyhadeachbeentalkingofadifferentoffer。 AfterLaphamwenttohisbusinessinthemorningthepostmanbroughtanotherletterfromIrene,whichwasfullofpleasantthingsthatwerehappeningtoher;therewasagreatdealabouthercousinWill,asshecalledhim。 Attheendshehadwritten,\"TellPenIdon’twantsheshouldbefoolish。\"\"There!\"saidMrs。Lapham。\"Iguessit’sgoingtocomeoutright,allround;\"anditseemedasifeventheColonel’sdifficultieswerepast。\"Whenyourfathergetsthroughthis,Pen,\"sheaskedimpulsively,\"whatshallyoudo?\" \"WhathaveyoubeentellingIreneaboutme?\" \"Nothingmuch。Whatshouldyoudo?\" \"ItwouldbeagooddealeasiertosaywhatIshoulddoiffatherdidn’t,\"saidthegirl。 \"Iknowyouthinkitwasniceinhimtomakeyourfatherthatoffer,\"urgedthemother。 \"Itwasnice,yes;butitwassilly,\"saidthegirl。 \"Mostnicethingsaresilly,Isuppose,\"sheadded。 Shewenttoherroomandwrotealetter。Itwasverylong,andverycarefullywritten;andwhenshereaditover,shetoreitintosmallpieces。Shewroteanotherone,shortandhurried,andtorethatuptoo。Thenshewentbacktohermother,inthefamilyroom,andaskedtoseeIrene’sletter,andreaditovertoherself。 \"Yes,sheseemstobehavingagoodtime,\"shesighed。 \"Mother,doyouthinkIoughttoletMr。CoreyknowthatIknowaboutit?\" \"Well,Ishouldthinkitwouldbeapleasuretohim,\" saidMrs。Laphamjudicially。 \"I’mnotsosureofthatthewayIshouldhavetotellhim。 Ishouldbeginbygivinghimascolding。Ofcourse,hemeantwellbyit,butcan’tyouseethatitwasn’tveryflattering!Howdidheexpectitwouldchangeme?\" \"Idon’tbelieveheeverthoughtofthat。\" \"Don’tyou?Why?\" \"Becauseyoucanseethatheisn’toneofthatkind。 Hemightwanttopleaseyouwithoutwantingtochangeyoubywhathedid。\" \"Yes。Hemusthaveknownthatnothingwouldchangeme,——atleast,nothingthathecoulddo。Ithoughtofthat。 Ishouldn’tlikehimtofeelthatIcouldn’tappreciateit,evenifIdidthinkitwassilly。Shouldyouwritetohim?\" \"Idon’tseewhynot。\" \"Itwouldbetoopointed。No,Ishalljustletitgo。 Iwishhehadn’tdoneit。\" \"Well,hehasdoneit。\"\"AndI’vetriedtowritetohimaboutit——twoletters:onesohumbleandgratefulthatitcouldn’tstanduponitsedge,andtheothersopertandflippant。Mother,Iwishyoucouldhaveseenthosetwoletters!IwishIhadkeptthemtolookatifIevergottothinkingIhadanysenseagain。 Theywouldtaketheconceitoutofme。\" \"What’sthereasonhedon’tcomehereanymore?\" \"Doesn’thecome?\"askedPenelopeinturn,asifitweresomethingshehadnotnoticedparticularly。 \"You’doughttoknow。\" \"Yes。\"Shesatsilentawhile。\"Ifhedoesn’tcome,Isupposeit’sbecausehe’soffendedatsomethingIdid。\" \"Whatdidyoudo?\" \"Nothing。I——wrotetohim——alittlewhileago。Isupposeitwasveryblunt,butIdidn’tbelievehewouldbeangryatit。Butthis——thisthathe’sdoneshowshewasangry,andthathewasn’tjustseizingthefirstchancetogetoutofit。\" \"Whathaveyoudone,Pen?\"demandedhermothersharply。 \"Oh,Idon’tknow。Allthemischiefintheworld,Isuppose。 I’lltellyou。Whenyoufirsttoldmethatfatherwasintroublewithhisbusiness,IwrotetohimnottocomeanymoretillIlethim。IsaidIcouldn’ttellhimwhy,andhehasn’tbeenheresince。I’msureIdon’tknowwhatitmeans。\" Hermotherlookedatherwithangryseverity。 \"Well,PenelopeLapham!Forasensiblechild,youARE thegreatestgooseIeversaw。DidyouthinkhewouldcomehereandSEEifyouwouldn’tlethimcome?\" \"Hemighthavewritten,\"urgedthegirl。 Hermothermadethatdespairing\"Tchk!\"withhertongue,andfellbackinherchair。\"IshouldhaveDESPISED himifhehadwritten。He’sactedjustexactlyright,andyou——you’veacted——Idon’tknowHOWyou’veacted。 I’mashamedofyou。Agirlthatcouldbesosensibleforhersister,andalwayssayanddojusttherightthing,andthenwhenitcomestoherselftobesuchaDISGUSTING simpleton!\" \"IthoughtIoughttobreakwithhimatonce,andnotlethimsupposethattherewasanyhopeforhimormeiffatherwaspoor。Itwasmyonechance,inthiswholebusiness,todoanythingheroic,andIjumpedatit。 Youmustn’tthink,becauseIcanlaughatitnow,thatI wasn’tinearnest,mother!IWAS——dead!ButtheColonelhasgonetoruinsogradually,thathe’sspoilteverything。 Iexpectedthathewouldbebankruptthenextday,andthatthenHEwouldunderstandwhatImeant。 Buttohaveitdragalongforafortnightseemstotakealltheheroismoutofit,andleaveitasflat!\"Shelookedathermotherwithasmilethatshonethroughhertears,andapathosthatquiveredroundherjestinglips。 \"It’seasyenoughtobesensibleforotherpeople。 Butwhenitcomestomyself,thereIam!Especially,whenIwanttodowhatIoughtn’tsomuchthatitseemsasifdoingwhatIdidn’twanttodoMUSTbedoingwhatI ought!Butit’sbeenagreatsuccessoneway,mother。 It’shelpedmetokeepupbeforetheColonel。Ifithadn’tbeenforMr。Corey’sstayingaway,andmyfeelingsoindignantwithhimforhavingbeenbadlytreatedbyme,Ishouldn’thavebeenworthanythingatall。\" Thetearsstarteddownhercheeks,buthermothersaid,\"Well,now,goalong,andwritetohim。Itdon’tmatterwhatyousay,much;anddon’tbesoveryparticular。\" Herthirdattemptataletterpleasedherscarcelybetterthantherest,butshesentit,thoughitseemedsobluntandawkward。Shewrote:—— DEARFRIEND,——IexpectedwhenIsentyouthatnote,thatyouwouldunderstand,almostthenextday,whyI couldnotseeyouanymore。Youmustknownow,andyoumustnotthinkthatifanythinghappenedtomyfather,Ishouldwishyoutohelphim。ButthatisnoreasonwhyIshouldnotthankyou,andIdothankyou,foroffering。 Itwaslikeyou,Iwillsaythat。 Yourssincerely,PENELOPELAPHAM。 Shepostedherletter,andhesenthisreplyintheevening,byhand:—— DEAREST,——WhatIdidwasnothing,tillyoupraisedit。 EverythingIhaveandamisyours。Won’tyousendalinebythebearer,tosaythatImaycometoseeyou?Iknowhowyoufeel;butlamsurethatIcanmakeyouthinkdifferently。YoumustconsiderthatIlovedyouwithoutathoughtofyourfather’scircumstances,andalwaysshall。 T。C。 Thegenerouswordswereblurredtohereyesbythetearsthatsprangintothem。Butshecouldonlywriteinanswer:—— \"Pleasedonotcome;Ihavemadeupmymind。Aslongasthistroubleishangingoverus,Icannotseeyou。 Andiffatherisunfortunate,allisoverbetweenus。\" Shebroughthislettertohermother,andtoldherwhatshehadwritteninreply。Hermotherwasthoughtfulawhilebeforeshesaid,withasigh,\"Well,Ihopeyou’vebegunasyoucancarryout,Pen。\" \"Oh,Ishallnothavetocarryoutatall。Ishallnothavetodoanything。That’sonecomfort——theonlycomfort。\"Shewentawaytoherownroom,andwhenMrs。Laphamtoldherhusbandoftheaffair,hewassilentatfirst,asshehadbeen。Thenhesaid,\"Idon’tknowasIshouldhavewantedhertodonedifferently; Idon’tknowasshecould。IfIevercomerightagain,shewon’thaveanythingtofeelmeechingabout;andifI don’t,Idon’twantsheshouldbebeholdentoanybody。 AndIguessthat’sthewayshefeels。\" TheCoreysintheirturnsatinjudgmentonthefactwhichtheirsonfeltboundtobringtotheirknowledge。 \"Shehasbehavedverywell,\"saidMrs。Corey,towhomhersonhadspoken。 \"Mydear,\"saidherhusband,withhislaugh,\"shehasbehavedTOOwell。Ifshehadstudiedthewholesituationwiththemostartfuleyetoitsmastery,shecouldnotpossiblyhavebehavedbetter。\" TheprocessofLapham’sfinancialdisintegrationwaslikethecourseofsomechronicdisorder,whichhasfasteneditselfupontheconstitution,butadvanceswithcontinualreliefs,withapparentamelioration,andattimesseemsnottoadvanceatall,whenitgiveshopeoffinalrecoverynotonlytothesufferer,buttotheeyeofscienceitself。ThereweremomentswhenJamesBellingham,seeingLaphampassthiscrisisandthat,begantofancythathemightpullthroughaltogether; andatthesemoments,whenhisadvisercouldnotopposeanythingbutexperienceandprobabilitytotheevidenceofthefact,Laphamwasbuoyantwithcourage,andimpartedhishopefulnesstohishousehold。Ourtheoryofdisaster,ofsorrow,ofaffliction,borrowedfromthepoetsandnovelists,isthatitisincessant;buteverypassageinourownlivesandinthelivesofothers,sofaraswehavewitnessedthem,teachesusthatthisisfalse。 Thehouseofmourningisdecorouslydarkenedtotheworld,butwithinitselfitisalsothehouseoflaughing。 Burstsofgaiety,asheartfeltasitsgrief,relievethegloom,andthestrickensurvivorshavetheirjeststogether,inwhichthethoughtofthedeadistenderlyinvolved,andafondsense,notcrazierthanmanyothers,ofsympathyandenjoymentbeyondthesilence,justifiesthesunniermoodbeforesorrowrushesback,deploringanddespairing,andmakingitallupagainwiththeconventionalfitnessofthings。Lapham’sadversityhadthisqualityincommonwithbereavement。Itwasnotalwaysliketheadversitywefigureinallegory;ithaditsmomentsofbeinglikeprosperity,andifuponthewholeitwascontinual,itwasnotincessant。Sometimestherewasaweekofrepeatedreverses,whenhehadtokeephisteethsetandtoholdonhardtoallhishopefulness;andthendayscameofnegativeresultorslightsuccess,whenhewasfullofhisjokesatthetea—table,andwantedtogotothetheatre,ortodosomethingtocheerPenelopeup。 Insomemiraculousway,bysomeenormousstrokeofsuccesswhichshouldeclipsethebrightestofhispastprosperity,heexpectedtodowhatwouldreconcilealldifficulties,notonlyinhisownaffairs,butinherstoo。\"You’llsee,\" hesaidtohiswife;\"it’sgoingtocomeoutallright。 Irene’llfixitupwithBill’sboy,andthenshe’llbeoffPen’smind;andifthingsgoonasthey’vebeengoingforthelasttwodays,I’mgoingtobeinapositiontodothefavoursmyself,andPencanfeelthatSHE’Smakin’ asacrifice,andthenIguessmaybeshe’lldoit。 IfthingsturnoutasIexpectnow,andtimesevergogetanybettergenerally,IcanshowCoreythatIappreciatehisoffer。Icanofferhimthepartnershipmyselfthen。\" Evenintheothermoods,whichcamewheneverythinghadbeengoingwrong,andthereseemednowayoutofthenet,therewerepointsofconsolationtoLaphamandhiswife。 TheyrejoicedthatIrenewassafebeyondtherangeoftheiranxieties,andtheyhadaproudsatisfactionthattherehadbeennoengagementbetweenCoreyandPenelope,andthatitwasshewhohadforbiddenit。Intheclosenessofinterestandsympathyinwhichtheirtroubleshadreunitedthem,theyconfessedtoeachotherthatnothingwouldhavebeenmoregallingtotheirpridethantheideathatLaphamshouldnothavebeenabletodoeverythingforhisdaughterthattheCoreysmighthaveexpected。 Whateverhappenednow,theCoreyscouldnothaveittosaythattheLaphamshadtriedtobringanysuchthingabout。 BellinghamhadlatelysuggestedanassignmenttoLapham,asthebestwayoutofhisdifficulties。Itwasevidentthathehadnotthemoneytomeethisliabilitiesatpresent,andthathecouldnotraiseitwithoutruinoussacrifices,thatmightstillendinruinafterall。Ifhemadetheassignment,Bellinghamargued,hecouldgaintimeandmaketerms;thestateofthingsgenerallywouldprobablyimprove,sinceitcouldnotbeworse,andthemarket,whichhehadgluttedwithhispaint,mightrecoverandhecouldstartagain。Laphamhadnotagreedwithhim。 Whenhisreversesfirstbeganithadseemedeasyforhimtogiveupeverything,toletthepeopleheowedtakeall,soonlytheywouldlethimgooutwithcleanhands;andhehaddramatisedthisfeelinginhistalkwithhiswife,whentheyspoketogetherofthemillsontheG。L。& P。Buteversincethenithadbeengrowingharder,andhecouldnotconsenteventoseemtodoitnowintheproposedassignment。Hehadnotfoundothermensoveryliberalorfaithfulwithhim;agoodmanyofthemappearedtohavecombinedtohunthimdown;asenseofenmitytowardsallhiscreditorsasserteditselfinhim; heaskedhimselfwhytheyshouldnotsufferalittletoo。 Aboveall,heshrankfromthepublicityoftheassignment。 Itwasopenconfessionthathehadbeenafoolinsomeway; hecouldnotbeartohavehisfamily——hisbrotherthejudge,especially,towhomhehadalwaysappearedthesoulofbusinesswisdom——thinkhimimprudentorstupid。