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类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:9489更新时间:19/01/07 14:46:13
Hesentoutwordbyhisoffice—boythathewouldliketoseeMr。Coreyforafewminutesafterclosing。 Thetype—writergirlhadlingeredtoo,asifshewishedtospeakwithhim,andCoreystoodinabeyanceasshewenttowardLapham’sdoor。 \"Can’tseeyouto—night,Zerrilla,\"hesaidbluffly,butnotunkindly。\"PerhapsI’llcallatthehouse,ifit’simportant。\" \"Itis,\"saidthegirl,withaspoiledairofinsistence。 \"Well,\"saidLapham,and,noddingtoCoreytoenter,heclosedthedooruponher。Thenheturnedtotheyoung,mananddemanded:\"WasIdrunklastnight?\" XV。 LAPHAM’Sstrenuousfacewasbrokenupwiththeemotionsthathadforcedhimtothisquestion:shame,fearofthethingsthatmusthavebeenthoughtofhim,mixedwithafainthopethathemightbemistaken,whichdiedoutattheshockedandpityinglookinCorey’seyes。 \"WasIdrunk?\"herepeated。\"Iaskyou,becauseIwasnevertouchedbydrinkinmylifebefore,andIdon’tknow。\" Hestoodwithhishugehandstremblingonthebackofhischair,andhisdrylipsapart,ashestaredatCorey。 \"Thatiswhateveryoneunderstood,ColonelLapham,\" saidtheyoungman。\"Everyonesawhowitwas。 Don’t————\" \"DidtheytalkitoverafterIleft?\"askedLaphamvulgarly。 \"Excuseme,\"saidCorey,blushing,\"myfatherdoesn’ttalkhisguestsoverwithoneanother。\"Headded,withyouthfulsuperfluity,\"Youwereamonggentlemen。\" \"Iwastheonlyonethatwasn’tagentlemanthere!\" lamentedLapham。\"Idisgracedyou!Idisgracedmyfamily!I mortifiedyourfatherbeforehisfriends!\"Hisheaddropped。 \"IshowedthatIwasn’tfittogowithyou。I’mnotfitforanydecentplace。WhatdidIsay?WhatdidIdo?\" heasked,suddenlyliftinghisheadandconfrontingCorey。 \"Outwithit!Ifyoucouldbeartoseeitandhearit,Ihadoughttobeartoknowit!\" \"Therewasnothing——reallynothing,\"saidCorey。 \"Beyondthefactthatyouwerenotquiteyourself,therewasnothingwhatever。MyfatherDIDspeakofittome,\"heconfessed,\"whenwewerealone。Hesaidthathewasafraidwehadnotbeenthoughtfulofyou,ifyouwereinthehabitoftakingonlywater;ItoldhimIhadnotseenwineatyourtable。Theotherssaidnothingaboutyou。\" \"Ah,butwhatdidtheythink?\" \"Probablywhatwedid:thatitwaspurelyamisfortune—— anaccident。\" \"Iwasn’tfittobethere,\"persistedLapham。\"Doyouwanttoleave?\"heasked,withsavageabruptness。 \"Leave?\"falteredtheyoungman。 \"Yes;quitthebusiness?Cutthewholeconnection?\" \"Ihaven’ttheremotestideaofit!\"criedCoreyinamazement。 \"WhyintheworldshouldI?\"\"Becauseyou’reagentleman,andI’mnot,anditain’trightIshouldbeoveryou。 Ifyouwanttogo,Iknowsomepartiesthatwouldbegladtogetyou。Iwillgiveyouupifyouwanttogobeforeanythingworsehappens,andIshan’tblameyou。 IcanhelpyoutosomethingbetterthanIcanofferyouhere,andIwill。\" \"There’snoquestionofmygoing,unlessyouwishit,\" saidCorey。\"Ifyoudo————\" \"Willyoutellyourfather,\"interruptedLapham,\"thatIhadanotionallthetimethatIwasactingthedrunkenblackguard,andthatI’vesufferedforitallday?WillyoutellhimIdon’twanthimtonoticemeifweevermeet,andthatIknowI’mnotfittoassociatewithgentlemeninanythingbutabusinessway,ifIamthat?\" \"CertainlyIshalldonothingofthekind,\"retortedCorey。 \"Ican’tlistentoyouanylonger。Whatyousayisshockingtome——shockinginawayyoucan’tthink。\" \"Why,man!\"exclaimedLapham,withastonishment;\"ifI canstandit,YOUcan!\" \"No,\"saidCorey,withasicklook,\"thatdoesn’tfollow。 Youmaydenounceyourself,ifyouwill;butIhavemyreasonsforrefusingtohearyou——myreasonswhyICAN’Thearyou。 IfyousayanotherwordImustgoaway。\" \"Idon’tunderstandyou,\"falteredLapham,inbewilderment,whichabsorbedevenhisshame。 \"Youexaggeratetheeffectofwhathashappened,\" saidtheyoungman。\"It’senough,morethanenough,foryoutohavementionedthemattertome,andIthinkit’sunbecominginmetohearyou。\" Hemadeamovementtowardthedoor,butLaphamstoppedhimwiththetragichumilityofhisappeal。\"Don’tgoyet!Ican’tletyou。I’vedisgustedyou,——Iseethat; butIdidn’tmeanto。I——Itakeitback。\" \"Oh,there’snothingtotakeback,\"saidCorey,witharepressedshudderfortheabasementwhichhehadseen。 \"Butletussaynomoreaboutit——thinknomore。 Therewasn’toneofthegentlemenpresentlastnightwhodidn’tunderstandthematterpreciselyasmyfatherandIdid,andthatfactmustenditbetweenustwo。\" Hewentoutintothelargerofficebeyond,leavingLaphamhelplesstopreventhisgoing。IthadbecomeavitalnecessitywithhimtothinkthebestofLapham,buthismindwasinawhirlofwhateverthoughtsweremostinjurious。 Hethoughtofhimthenightbeforeinthecompanyofthoseladiesandgentlemen,andhequiveredinresentmentofhisvulgar,braggart,uncouthnature。Herecognisedhisownallegiancetotheexclusivenesstowhichhewasbornandbred,asamanperceiveshisdutytohiscountrywhenherrightsareinvaded。Hiseyefellontheportergoingaboutinhisshirt—sleevestomaketheplacefastforthenight,andhesaidtohimselfthatDenniswasnotmoreplebeianthanhismaster;thatthegrossappetites,thebluntsense,thepurblindambition,thestupidarrogancewerethesameinboth,andthedifferencewasinabrutewillthatprobablylefttheporterthegentlermanofthetwo。 TheveryinnocenceofLapham’slifeinthedirectioninwhichhehaderredwroughtagainsthimintheyoungman’smood:itcontainedtheinsultofclownishinexperience。 Amidstthestingsandflashesofhiswoundedpride,allthesocialtraditions,allthehabitsoffeeling,whichhehadsilencedmoreandmorebyforceofwillduringthepastmonths,assertedtheirnaturalsway,andheriotedinhiscontemptoftheoffensiveboor,whowasevenmoreoffensiveinhisshamethaninhistrespass。 HesaidtohimselfthathewasaCorey,asifthatweresomewhat;yetheknewthatatthebottomofhisheartallthetimewasthatwhichmustcontrolhimatlast,andwhichseemedsweetlytobesufferinghisrebellion,secureofhissubmissionintheend。Itwasalmostwiththegirl’svoicethatitseemedtopleadwithhim,toundoinhim,effectbyeffect,theworkofhisindignantresentment,tosetallthingsinanotherandfairerlight,togivehimhopes,tosuggestpalliations,toprotestagainstinjustices。ItWASinLapham’sfavourthathewassoguiltlessinthepast,andnowCoreyaskedhimselfifitwerethefirsttimehecouldhavewishedaguestathisfather’stabletohavetakenlesswine; whetherLaphamwasnotrathertobehonouredfornotknowinghowtocontainhisfollywhereaveterantransgressormighthaveheldhistongue。Heaskedhimself,withathrillofsuddenremorse,whether,whenLaphamhumbledhimselfinthedustsoshockingly,hehadshownhimthesympathytowhichsuchABANDONhadtheright;andhehadtoownthathehadmethimonthegentlemanlyground,sparinghimselfandassertingthesuperiorityofhissort,andnotrecognisingthatLapham’shumiliationcamefromthesenseofwrong,whichhehadhelpedtoaccumulateuponhimbysuperfinelystandingaloofandrefusingtotouchhim。 Heshuthisdeskandhurriedoutintotheearlynight,nottogoanywhere,buttowalkupanddown,totrytofindhiswayoutofthechaos,whichnowseemedruin,andnowthematerialsoutofwhichfineactionsandahappylifemightbeshaped。ThreehourslaterhestoodatLapham’sdoor。 Attimeswhathenowwishedtodohadseemedforeverimpossible,andagainithadseemedasifhecouldnotwaitamomentlonger。 Hehadnotbeencareless,butverymindfulofwhatheknewmustbethefeelingsofhisownfamilyinregardtotheLaphams,andhehadnotconcealedfromhimselfthathisfamilyhadgreatreasonandjusticeontheirsideinnotwishinghimtoalienatehimselffromtheircommonlifeandassociations。Themostthathecouldurgetohimselfwasthattheyhadnotallthereasonandjustice; buthehadhesitatedanddelayedbecausetheyhadsomuch。 Oftenhecouldnotmakeitappearrightthatheshouldmerelypleasehimselfinwhatchieflyconcernedhimself。 HeperceivedhowfarapartinalltheirexperiencesandidealstheLaphamgirlsandhissisterswere;howdifferentMrs。Laphamwasfromhismother;howgrotesquelyunlikewerehisfatherandLapham;andthedisparityhadnotalwaysamusedhim。 Hehadoftentakenitveryseriously,andsometimeshesaidthathemustforegothehopeonwhichhisheartwasset。 Therehadbeenmanytimesinthepastmonthswhenhehadsaidthathemustgonofurther,andasoftenashehadtakenthisstandhehadyieldedit,uponthisorthatexcuse,whichhewasawareoftrumpingup。Itwaspartofthecomplicationthatheshouldheunconsciousoftheinjuryhemightbedoingtosomeonebesideshisfamilyandhimself; thiswasthedefectofhisdiffidence;andithadcometohiminapangforthefirsttimewhenhismothersaidthatshewouldnothavetheLaphamsthinkshewishedtomakemoreoftheacquaintancethanhedid;andthenithadcometoolate。Sincethathehadsufferedquiteasmuchfromthefearthatitmightnotbeasthatitmightbeso;andnow,inthemood,romanticandexalted,inwhichhefoundhimselfconcerningLapham,hewasasfarasmightbefromvainconfidence。Heendedthequestioninhisownmindbyaffirmingtohimselfthathewasthere,firstofall,toseeLaphamandgivehimanultimateproofofhisownperfectfaithandunabatedrespect,andtoofferhimwhatreparationthisinvolvedforthatwantofsympathy——ofhumanity——whichhehadshown。 XVI。 THENovaScotiasecond—girlwhoansweredCorey’sringsaidthatLaphamhadnotcomehomeyet。 \"Oh,\"saidtheyoungman,hesitatingontheouterstep。 \"Iguessyoubettercomein,\"saidthegirl,\"I’llgoandseewhenthey’reexpectinghim。\" Coreywasinthemoodtobeswayedbyanychance。 Heobeyedthesuggestionofthesecond—girl’spatronisingfriendliness,andlethershuthimintothedrawing—room,whileshewentupstairstoannouncehimtoPenelope。 \"Didyoutellhimfatherwasn’tathome?\" \"Yes。Heseemedsokindofdisappointed,Itoldhimtocomein,andI’dseewhenheWOULDbein,\"saidthegirl,withthehumaninterestwhichsometimesreplacesintheAmericandomestictheserviledeferenceofothercountries。 AgleamofamusementpassedoverPenelope’sface,assheglancedatherselfintheglass。\"Well,\"shecriedfinally,droppingfromhershouldersthelightshawlinwhichshehadbeenhuddledoverabookwhenCoreyrang,\"Iwillgodown。\" \"Allright,\"saidthegirl,andPenelopebeganhastilytoamendthedisarrayofherhair,whichshetumbledintoamassonthetopofherlittlehead,settingoffthepaledarkofhercomplexionwithaflashofcrimsonribbonatherthroat。Shemovedacrossthecarpetonceortwicewiththequaintgracethatbelongedtohersmallfigure,madeadissatisfiedgrimaceatitintheglass,caughtahandkerchiefoutofadrawerandsliditintoherpocket,andthendescendedtoCorey。 TheLaphamdrawing—roominNankeenSquarewasintheparti—colouredpaintwhichtheColonelhadhopedtorepeatinhisnewhouse:thetrimofthedoorsandwindowswasinlightgreenandthepanelsinsalmon;thewallswereaplaintintofFrenchgreypaper,dividedbygiltmouldingsintobroadpanelswithawidestripeofredvelvetpaperrunningupthecorners;thechandelierwasofmassiveimitationbronze;themirroroverthemantelrestedonafringedmantel—coverofgreenreps,andheavycurtainsofthatstuffhungfromgiltlambrequinframesatthewindow;thecarpetwasofasmallpatternincrudegreen,which,atthetimeMrs。Laphamboughtit,coveredhalfthenewfloorsinBoston。Inthepanelledspacesonthewallsweresomestone—colouredlandscapes,representingthemountainsandcanyonsoftheWest,whichtheColonelandhiswifehadvisitedononeoftheearlyofficialrailroadexcursions。InfrontofthelongwindowslookingintotheSquarewerestatues,kneelingfigureswhichturnedtheirbacksuponthecompanywithin—doors,andrepresentedallegoriesofFaithandPrayertopeoplewithout。Awhitemarblegroupofseveralfigures,expressinganItalianconceptionofLincolnFreeingtheSlaves,——aLatinnegroandhiswife,——withourEagleflappinghiswingsinapproval,atLincoln’sfeet,occupiedonecorner,andbalancedthewhat—notofanearlierperiodinanother。Thesephantasmsaddedtheirchilltothatimpartedbythetoneofthewalls,thelandscapes,andthecarpets,andcontributedtotheviolenceofthecontrastwhenthechandelierwaslightedupfullglare,andtheheatofthewholefurnacewelledupfromtheregistersintothequiveringatmosphereononeoftherareoccasionswhentheLaphamsinvitedcompany。 Coreyhadnotbeeninthisroombefore;thefamilyhadalwaysreceivedhiminwhattheycalledthesitting—room。 Penelopelookedintothisfirst,andthenshelookedintotheparlour,withasmilethatbrokeintoalaughasshediscoveredhimstandingunderthesingleburnerwhichthesecond—girlhadlightedforhiminthechandelier。 \"Idon’tunderstandhowyoucametobeputinthere,\" shesaid,assheledthewaytothecozierplace,\"unlessitwasbecauseAlicethoughtyouwereonlyhereonprobation,anyway。Fatherhasn’tgothomeyet,butI’mexpectinghimeverymoment;Idon’tknowwhat’skeepinghim。DidthegirltellyouthatmotherandIrenewereout?\" \"No,shedidn’tsay。It’sverygoodofyoutoseeme。\" Shehadnotseentheexaltationwhichhehadbeenfeeling,heperceivedwithhalfasigh;itmustallbeuponthislowerlevel;perhapsitwasbestso。\"TherewassomethingIwishedtosaytoyourfather————Ihope,\"hebrokeoff,\"you’rebetterto—night。\" \"Ohyes,thankyou,\"saidPenelope,rememberingthatshehadnotbeenwellenoughtogotodinnerthenightbefore。 \"Weallmissedyouverymuch。\" \"Oh,thankyou!I’mafraidyouwouldn’thavemissedmeifIhadbeenthere。\" \"Ohyes,weshould,\"saidCorey,\"Iassureyou。\" Theylookedateachother。 \"IreallythinkIbelievedIwassayingsomething,\" saidthegirl。 \"AndsodidI,\"repliedtheyoungman。Theylaughedratherwildly,andthentheybothbecamerathergrave。 Hetookthechairshegavehim,andlookedacrossather,whereshesatontheothersideofthehearth,inachairlowerthanhis,withherhandsdroppedinherlap,andthebackofherheadonhershouldersasshelookedupathim。 Thesoft—coalfireinthegratepurredandflickered; thedrop—lightcastamellowradianceonherface。 Shelethereyesfall,andthenliftedthemforanirrelevantglanceattheclockonthemantel。 \"MotherandIrenehavegonetotheSpanishStudents’concert。\" \"Oh,havethey?\"askedCorey;andheputhishat,whichhehadbeenholdinginhishand,onthefloorbesidehischair。 Shelookeddownatitfornoreason,andthenlookedupathisfacefornoother,andturnedalittlered。 Coreyturnedalittleredhimself。Shewhohadalwaysbeensoeasywithhimnowbecamealittleconstrained。 \"Doyouknowhowwarmitisout—of—doors?\"heasked。 \"No,isitwarm?Ihaven’tbeenoutallday。\" \"It’slikeasummernight。\" Sheturnedherfacetowardsthefire,andthenstartedabruptly。\"Perhapsit’stoowarmforyouhere?\" \"Ohno,it’sverycomfortable。\" \"Isupposeit’sthecoldofthelastfewdaysthat’sstillinthehouse。Iwasreadingwithashawlonwhenyoucame。\" \"Iinterruptedyou。\" \"Ohno。Ihadfinishedthebook。Iwasjustlookingoveritagain。\" \"Doyouliketoreadbooksover?\" \"Yes;booksthatIlikeatall。\" \"Thatwasit?\"askedCorey。 Thegirlhesitated。\"Ithasratherasentimentalname。 Didyoueverreadit?——Tears,IdleTears。\" \"Ohyes;theyweretalkingofthatlastnight;it’safamousbookwithladies。Theybreaktheirheartsoverit。 Diditmakeyoucry?\" \"Oh,it’sprettyeasytocryoverabook,\"saidPenelope,laughing;\"andthatoneisverynaturaltillyoucometothemainpoint。Thenthenaturalnessofalltherestmakesthatseemnaturaltoo;butIguessit’sratherforced。\" \"Hergivinghimuptotheotherone?\" \"Yes;simplybecauseshehappenedtoknowthattheotheronehadcaredforhimfirst。Whyshouldshehavedoneit?Whatrighthadshe?\" \"Idon’tknow。Isupposethattheself—sacrifice————\" \"ButitWASN’Tself—sacrifice——ornotself—sacrificealone。 Shewassacrificinghimtoo;andforsomeonewhocouldn’tappreciatehimhalfasmuchasshecould。 I’mprovokedwithmyselfwhenIthinkhowIcriedoverthatbook——forIdidcry。It’ssilly——it’swickedforanyonetodowhatthatgirldid。Whycan’ttheyletpeoplehaveachancetobehavereasonablyinstories?\" \"Perhapstheycouldn’tmakeitsoattractive,\" suggestedCorey,withasmile。 \"Itwouldbenovel,atanyrate,\"saidthegirl。 \"Butsoitwouldinreallife,Isuppose,\"sheadded。 \"Idon’tknow。Whyshouldn’tpeopleinlovebehavesensibly?\" \"That’saveryseriousquestion,\"saidPenelopegravely。 \"Icouldn’tanswerit,\"andshelefthimtheembarrassmentofsupportinganinquirywhichshehadcertainlyinstigatedherself。Sheseemedtohavefinallyrecoveredherowneaseindoingthis。\"Doyouadmireourautumnaldisplay,Mr。Corey?\" \"Yourdisplay?\" \"ThetreesintheSquare。WEthinkit’squiteequaltoanopeningatJordan&Marsh’s。\" \"Ah,I’mafraidyouwouldn’tletmebeseriousevenaboutyourmaples。\" \"Ohyes,Ishould——ifyouliketobeserious。\" \"Don’tyou?\" \"Wellnotaboutseriousmatters。That’sthereasonthatbookmademecry。\" \"Youmakefunofeverything。MissIrenewastellingmelastnightaboutyou。\" \"Thenit’snouseformetodenyitsosoon。ImustgiveIreneatalkingto。\" \"Ihopeyouwon’tforbidhertotalkaboutyou!\" Shehadtakenupafanfromthetable,andheldit,nowbetweenherfaceandthefire,andnowbetweenherfaceandhim。Herlittlevisage,withthatarch,lazylookinit,toppedbyitsmassofduskyhair,anddwindlingfromthefullcheekstothesmallchin,hadaJapaneseeffectinthesubduedlight,andithadthecharmwhichcomestoanywomanwithhappiness。 Itwouldbehardtosayhowmuchofthissheperceivedthathefelt。Theytalkedaboutotherthingsawhile,andthenshecamebacktowhathehadsaid。Sheglancedathimobliquelyroundherfan,andstoppedmovingit。 \"DoesIrenetalkaboutme?\"sheasked。\"Ithinkso——yes。 Perhapsit’sonlyIwhotalkaboutyou。Youmustblamemeifit’swrong,\"hereturned。 \"Oh,Ididn’tsayitwaswrong,\"shereplied。\"ButI hopeifyousaidanythingverybadofmeyou’llletmeknowwhatitwas,sothatIcanreform————\" \"No,don’tchange,please!\"criedtheyoungman。 Penelopecaughtherbreath,butwentonresolutely,—— \"orrebukeyouforspeakingevilofdignities。\" Shelookeddownatthefan,nowflatinherlap,andtriedtogovernherhead,butittrembled,andsheremainedlookingdown。Againtheyletthetalkstray,andthenitwashewhobroughtitbacktothemselves,asifithadnotleftthem。 \"IhavetotalkOFyou,\"saidCorey,\"becauseIgettotalkTOyousoseldom。\" \"YoumeanthatIdoallthetalkingwhenwe’re——together?\" Sheglancedsidewiseathim;butshereddenedafterspeakingthelastword。 \"We’resoseldomtogether,\"hepursued。 \"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean————\" \"SometimesI’vethought——I’vebeenafraidthatyouavoidedme。\" \"Avoidedyou?\" \"Yes!Triednottobealonewithme。\" Shemighthavetoldhimthattherewasnoreasonwhysheshouldbealonewithhim,andthatitwasverystrangeheshouldmakethiscomplaintofher。Butshedidnot。 Shekeptlookingdownatthefan,andthensheliftedherburningfaceandlookedattheclockagain。 \"MotherandIrenewillbesorrytomissyou,\"shegasped。 Heinstantlyroseandcametowardsher。Sherosetoo,andmechanicallyputoutherhand。Hetookitasiftosaygood—night。\"Ididn’tmeantosendyouaway,\" shebesoughthim。 \"Oh,I’mnotgoing,\"heansweredsimply。\"Iwantedtosay——tosaythatit’sIwhomakehertalkaboutyou。 TosayI————ThereissomethingIwanttosaytoyou; I’vesaiditsooftentomyselfthatIfeelasifyoumustknowit。\"Shestoodquitestill,lettinghimkeepherhand,andquestioninghisfacewithabewilderedgaze。\"YouMUST know——shemusthavetoldyou——shemusthaveguessed————\" Penelopeturnedwhite,butoutwardlyquelledthepanicthatsentthebloodtoherheart。\"I——Ididn’texpect——I hopedtohaveseenyourfather——butImustspeaknow,whatever————Iloveyou!\" Shefreedherhandfrombothofthosehehadcloseduponit,andwentbackfromhimacrosstheroomwithasinuousspring。 \"ME!\"Whateverpotentialcomplicityhadlurkedinherheart,hiswordsbroughtheronlyimmeasurabledismay。 Hecametowardsheragain。\"Yes,you。Whoelse?\" Shefendedhimoffwithanimploringgesture。 \"Ithought——I——itwas————\" Sheshutherlipstight,andstoodlookingathimwhereheremainedinsilentamaze。Thenherwordscameagain,shudderingly。\"Oh,whathaveyoudone?\" \"Uponmysoul,\"hesaid,withavaguesmile,\"Idon’tknow。 Ihopenoharm?\" \"Oh,don’tlaugh!\"shecried,laughinghystericallyherself。 \"Unlessyouwantmetothinkyouthegreatestwretchintheworld!\" \"I?\"heresponded。\"Forheaven’ssaketellmewhatyoumean!\" \"YouknowIcan’ttellyou。Canyousay——canyouputyourhandonyourheartandsaythat——you——sayyounevermeant——thatyoumeantme——allalong?\" \"Yes!——yes!Whoelse?Icameheretoseeyourfather,andtotellhimthatIwishedtotellyouthis——toaskhim————Butwhatdoesitmatter?Youmusthaveknownit——youmusthaveseen——andit’sforyoutoanswerme。 I’vebeenabrupt,Iknow,andI’vestartledyou;butifyouloveme,youcanforgivethattomylovingyousolongbeforeIspoke。\" Shegazedathimwithpartedlips。 \"Oh,mercy!WhatshallIdo?Ifit’strue——whatyousay——youmustgo!\"shesaid。\"Andyoumustnevercomeanymore。 Doyoupromisethat?\" \"Certainlynot,\"saidtheyoungman。\"WhyshouldI promisesuchathing——soabominablywrong?Icouldobeyifyoudidn’tloveme————\" \"Oh,Idon’t!IndeedIdon’t!Nowwillyouobey。\" \"No。Idon’tbelieveyou。\"\"Oh!\" Hepossessedhimselfofherhandagain。 \"Mylove——mydearest!Whatisthistrouble,thatyoucan’ttellit?Itcan’tbeanythingaboutyourself。 Ifitisanythingaboutanyoneelse,itwouldn’tmaketheleastdifferenceintheworld,nomatterwhatitwas。 IwouldbeonlytoogladtoshowbyanyactordeedIcouldthatnothingcouldchangemetowardsyou。\" \"Oh,youdon’tunderstand!\" \"No,Idon’t。Youmusttellme。\" \"Iwillneverdothat。\"