第26章

类别:其他 作者:Nicholas Sparks字数:10517更新时间:19/01/07 14:33:58
Lingard,leaningback,claspedhishandsroundhisknees。Heseemednottobelisteningandd’Alcacer,pullingacigarettecaseoutofhispocket,lookedforalongtimeatthethreecigarettesitcontained。Itwasthelastoftheprovisionhehadonhimwhencaptured。D’Alcacerhadputhimselfonthestrictestallowance。Acigarettewasonlytobelightedonspecialoccasions;andnowtherewereonlythreeleftandtheyhadtobemadetolasttilltheendoflife。Theycalmed,theysoothed,theygaveanattitude。Andonlythreeleft!Onehadtobekeptforthemorning,tobelightedbeforegoingthroughthegateofdoom——thegateofBelarab’sstockade。Acigarettesoothed,itgaveanattitude。Wasthisthefittingoccasionforoneoftheremainingtwo?D’Alcacer,atrueLatin,wasnotafraidofalittleintrospection。Inthepausehedescendedintotheinnermostdepthsofhisbeing,thenglancedupatthenightsky。 Sportsman,traveller,hehadoftenlookedupatthestarsbeforetoseehowtimewent。Itwasgoingveryslowly。Hetookoutacigarette,snapped—tothecase,bentdowntotheembers。Thenhesatupandblewoutathincloudofsmoke。Themanbyhissidelookedwithhisbowedheadandclaspedkneelikeamasculinerenderingofmournfulmeditation。Suchattitudesaremetwithsometimesonthesculpturesofancienttombs。D’Alcacerbegantospeak: \"Sheisarepresentativewomanandyetoneofthoseofwhomtherearebutveryfewatanytimeintheworld。Notthattheyareveryrarebutthatthereisbutlittleroomontop。Theyaretheiridescentgleamsonahardanddarksurface。Fortheworldishard,CaptainLingard,itishard,bothinwhatitwillrememberandinwhatitwillforget。Itisforsuchwomenthatpeopletoilonthegroundandundergroundandartistsofallsortsinvoketheirinspiration。\" Lingardseemednottohaveheardaword。Hischinrestedonhisbreast。D’Alcacerappraisedtheremaininglengthofhiscigaretteandwentoninanequabletonethroughwhichpiercedacertainsadness: \"No,therearenotmanyofthem。Andyettheyareall。Theydecorateourlifeforus。Theyarethegraciousfiguresonthedrabwallwhichliesonthissideofourcommongrave。Theyleadasortofritualdance,thatmostofushaveagreedtotakeseriously。Itisaverybindingagreementwithwhichsincerityandgoodfaithandhonourhavenothingtodo。Verybinding。Woetohimorherwhobreaksit。Directlytheyleavethepageanttheygetlost。\" Lingardturnedhisheadsharplyanddiscoveredd’Alcacerlookingathimwithprofoundattention。 \"Theygetlostinamaze,\"continuedd’Alcacer,quietly。\"Theywanderinitlamentingoverthemselves。IwouldshudderatthatfateforanythingIloved。Doyouknow,CaptainLingard,howpeoplelostinamazeend?\"hewentonholdingLingardbyasteadfaststare。\"No?……Iwilltellyouthen。Theyendbyhatingtheirveryselves,andtheydieindisillusionanddespair。\" Asifafraidoftheforceofhiswordsd’AlcacerlaidasoothinghandlightlyonLingard’sshoulder。ButLingardcontinuedtolookintotheembersathisfeetandremainedinsensibletothefriendlytouch。Yetd’Alcacercouldnotimaginethathehadnotbeenheard。Hefoldedhisarmsonhisbreast。 \"Idon’tknowwhyIhavebeentellingyouallthis,\"hesaid,apologetically。\"IhopeIhavenotbeenintrudingonyourthoughts。\" \"Icanthinkofnothing,\"Lingarddeclared,unexpectedly。\"Ionlyknowthatyourvoicewasfriendly;andfortherest——\" \"Onemustgetthroughanightlikethissomehow,\"saidd’Alcacer。 \"Theverystarsseemtolagontheirway。It’sacommonbeliefthatadrowningmanisirresistiblycompelledtoreviewhispastexperience。JustnowIfeelquiteoutofmydepth,andwhateverI havesaidhascomefrommyexperience。Iamsureyouwillforgiveme。Allthatitamountstoisthis:thatitisnaturalforustocryforthemoonbutitwouldbeveryfataltohaveourcriesheard。Forwhatcouldanyoneofusdowiththemoonifitweregiventohim?Iamspeakingnowofus——commonmortals。\" Itwasnotimmediatelyafterd’AlcacerhadceasedspeakingbutonlyafteramomentthatLingardunclaspedhisfingers,gotup,andwalkedaway。D’Alcacerfollowedwithaglanceofquietinterestthebig,shadowyformtillitvanishedinthedirectionofanenormousforesttreeleftinthemiddleofthestockade。 ThedeepestshadeofthenightwasspreadoverthegroundofBelarab’sfortifiedcourtyard。Theveryembersofthefireshadturnedblack,showingonlyhereandthereamerespark;andtheformsofthepronesleeperscouldhardlybedistinguishedfromthehardgroundonwhichtheyrested,withtheirarmslyingbesidethemonthemats。PresentlyMrs。Traversappearedquiteclosetod’Alcacer,whoroseinstantly。 \"Martinisasleep,\"saidMrs。Traversinatonethatseemedtohaveborrowedsomethingofthemysteryandquietnessofthenight。 \"Alltheworld’sasleep,\"observedd’Alcacer,solowthatMrs。 Traversbarelycaughtthewords,\"Exceptyouandme,andoneotherwhohasleftmetowanderaboutinthenight。\" \"Washewithyou?Wherehashegone?\" \"Whereit’sdarkestIshouldthink,\"answeredd’Alcacer,secretly。\"It’snousegoingtolookforhim;butifyoukeepperfectlystillandholdyourbreathyoumaypresentlyhearhisfootsteps。\" \"Whatdidhetellyou?\"breathedoutMrs。Travers。 \"Ididn’taskhimanything。Ionlyknowthatsomethinghashappenedwhichhasrobbedhimofhispowerofthinking…… Hadn’tIbettergotothehut?DonMartinoughttohavesomeonewithhimwhenhewakesup。\"Mrs。Traversremainedperfectlystillandevennowandthenheldherbreathwithavaguefearofhearingthosefootstepswanderinginthedark。D’Alcacerhaddisappeared。AgainMrs。Traversheldherbreath。No。Nothing。Notasound。Onlythenighttohereyesseemedtohavegrowndarker。 Wasthatafootstep?\"WherecouldIhidemyself?\"shethought。 Butshedidn’tmove。 Afterleavingd’Alcacer,Lingardthreadinghiswaybetweenthefiresfoundhimselfunderthebigtree,thesametreeagainstwhichDamanhadbeenleaningonthedayofthegreattalkwhenthewhiteprisonershadbeensurrenderedtoLingard’skeepingondefiniteconditions。LingardpassedthroughthedeepobscuritymadebytheoutspreadboughsoftheonlywitnessleftthereofapastthatforendlessageshadseennomankindonthisshoredefendedbytheShallows,aroundthislagoonovershadowedbythejungle。Inthecalmnighttheoldgiant,withoutshuddersormurmursinitsenormouslimbs,sawtherestlessmandriftthroughtheblackshadeintothestarlight。 Inthatdistantpartofthecourtyardtherewereonlyafewsentrieswho,themselvesinvisible,sawLingard’swhitefigurepacetoandfroendlessly。Theyknewwellwhothatwas。Itwasthegreatwhiteman。Averygreatman。Averyrichman。A possessoroffire—arms,whocoulddispensevaluablegiftsanddealdeadlyblows,thefriendoftheirRuler,theenemyofhisenemies,knowntothemforyearsandalwaysmysterious。Attheirposts,flattenedagainstthestakesnearconvenientloopholes,theycastbackwardglancesandexchangedfaintwhispersfromtimetotime。 Lingardmighthavethoughthimselfalone。Hehadlosttouchwiththeworld。Whathehadsaidtod’Alcacerwasperfectlytrue。Hehadnothought。Hewasinthestateofamanwho,havingcasthiseyesthroughtheopengatesofParadise,isrenderedinsensiblebythatmoment’svisiontoalltheformsandmattersoftheearth;andintheextremityofhisemotionceaseseventolookuponhimselfbutasthesubjectofasublimeexperiencewhichexaltsorunfits,sanctifiesordamns——hedidn’tknowwhich。 Everyshadowythought,everypassingsensationwaslikeabaseintrusiononthatsupremememory。Hecouldn’tbearit。 WhenhehadtriedtoresumehisconversationwithBelarabafterMrs。Travers’arrivalhehaddiscoveredhimselfunabletogoon。 Hehadjustenoughself—controltobreakofftheinterviewinmeasuredterms。Hepointedoutthelatenessofthehour,amostastonishingexcusetopeopletowhomtimeisnothingandwhoselifeandactivitiesarenotruledbytheclock。IndeedLingardhardlyknewwhathewassayingordoingwhenhewentoutagainleavingeverybodydumbwithastonishmentatthechangeinhisaspectandinhisbehaviour。AsuspicioussilencereignedforalongtimeinBelarab’sgreataudienceroomtilltheChiefdismissedeverybodybytwoquietwordsandaslightgesture。 Withherchininherhandintheposeofasybiltryingtoreadthefutureintheglowofdyingembers,Mrs。Travers,withoutholdingherbreath,heardquiteclosetoherthefootstepswhichshehadbeenlisteningforwithmingledalarm,remorse,andhope。 Shedidn’tchangeherattitude。Thedeepredglowlightedherupdimly,herface,thewhitehandhangingbyherside,herfeetintheirsandals。Thedisturbingfootstepsstoppedclosetoher。 \"Wherehaveyoubeenallthistime?\"sheasked,withoutlookinground。 \"Idon’tknow,\"answeredLingard。Hewasspeakingtheexacttruth。Hedidn’tknow。Eversincehehadreleasedthatwomanfromhisarmseverythingbutthevaguestnotionshaddepartedfromhim。Events,necessities,things——hehadlosthisgriponthemall。Andhedidn’tcare。Theywerefutileandimpotent;hehadnopatiencewiththem。TheoffendedandastonishedBelarab,d’Alcacerwithhiskindlytouchandfriendlyvoice,thesleepingmen,themenawake,theSettlementfullofunrestfullifeandtherestlessShallowsofthecoast,wereremovedfromhimintoanimmensityofpityingcontempt。Perhapstheyexisted。Perhapsallthiswaitedforhim。Well,letallthiswait;leteverythingwait,tillto—morrowortotheendoftime,whichcouldnowcomeatanymomentforallhecared——butcertainlytillto—morrow。 \"Ionlyknow,\"hewentonwithanemphasisthatmadeMrs。Traversraiseherhead,\"thatwhereverIgoIshallcarryyouwithme——againstmybreast。\" Mrs。Travers’fineearcaughtthemingledtonesofsuppressedexultationanddawningfear,theardourandthefalteringofthosewords。Shewasfeelingstillthephysicaltruthattherootofthemsostronglythatshecouldn’thelpsayinginadreamywhisper: \"Didyoumeantocrushthelifeoutofme?\" Heansweredinthesametone: \"Icouldnothavedoneit。Youaretoostrong。WasIrough?I didn’tmeantobe。IhavebeenoftentoldIdidn’tknowmyownstrength。YoudidnotseemabletogetthroughthatopeningandsoIcaughtholdofyou。Youcameawayinmyhandsquiteeasily。 SuddenlyIthoughttomyself,’nowIwillmakesure。’\" Hepausedasifhisbreathhadfailedhim。Mrs。Traversdarednotmaketheslightestmovement。Stillintheposeofoneinquestofhiddentruthshemurmured,\"Makesure?\" \"Yes。AndnowIamsure。Youarehere——here!BeforeIcouldn’ttell。\" \"Oh,youcouldn’ttellbefore,\"shesaid。 \"No。\" \"Soitwasrealitythatyouwereseeking。\" Herepeatedasifspeakingtohimself:\"AndnowIamsure。\" Hersandalledfoot,allrosyintheglow,feltthewarmthoftheembers。Thetepidnighthadenvelopedherbody;andstillundertheimpressionofhisstrengthshegaveherselfuptoamomentaryfeelingofquietudethatcameaboutherheartassoftasthenightairpenetratedbythefeebleclearnessofthestars。\"Thisisalimpidsoul,\"shethought。 \"YouknowIalwaysbelievedinyou,\"hebeganagain。\"YouknowI did。Well。IneverbelievedinyousomuchasIdonow,asyousitthere,justasyouare,andwithhardlyenoughlighttomakeyououtby。\" Itoccurredtoherthatshehadneverheardavoiceshelikedsowell——exceptone。Butthathadbeenagreatactor’svoice; whereasthismanwasnothingintheworldbuthisveryownself。 Hepersuaded,hemoved,hedisturbed,hesoothedbyhisinherenttruth。Hehadwantedtomakesureandhehadmadesureapparently;andtoowearytoresistthewaywardnessofherthoughtsMrs。Traversreflectedwithasortofamusementthatapparentlyhehadnotbeendisappointed。Shethought,\"Hebelievesinme。Whatamazingwords。OfallthepeoplethatmighthavebelievedinmeIhadtofindthisonehere。Hebelievesinmemorethaninhimself。\"Agustofsuddenremorsetoreheroutfromherquietness,madehercryouttohim: \"CaptainLingard,weforgethowwehavemet,weforgetwhatisgoingon。Wemustn’t。Iwon’tsaythatyouplacedyourbeliefwronglybutIhavetoconfesssomethingtoyou。ImusttellyouhowIcamehereto—night。Jorgenson……\" Heinterruptedherforciblybutwithoutraisinghisvoice。 \"Jorgenson。Who’sJorgenson?Youcametomebecauseyoucouldn’thelpyourself。\" Thistookherbreathaway。\"ButImusttellyou。Thereissomethinginmycomingwhichisnotcleartome。\" \"YoucantellmenothingthatIdon’tknowalready,\"hesaidinapleadingtone。\"Saynothing。Sitstill。Timeenoughto—morrow。 To—morrow!ThenightisdrawingtoanendandIcarefornothingintheworldbutyou。Letmebe。Givemetherestthatisinyou。\" Shehadneverheardsuchaccentsonhislipsandshefeltforhimagreatandtenderpity。Whynothumourthismoodinwhichhewantedtopreservethemomentsthatwouldnevercometohimagainonthisearth?Shehesitatedinsilence。Shesawhimstirinthedarknessasifhecouldnotmakeuphismindtositdownonthebench。Butsuddenlyhescatteredtheemberswithhisfootandsankonthegroundagainstherfeet,andshewasnotstartledintheleasttofeeltheweightofhisheadonherknee。Mrs。 Traverswasnotstartledbutshefeltprofoundlymoved。Whyshouldshetormenthimwithallthosequestionsoffreedomandcaptivity,ofviolenceandintrigue,oflifeanddeath?Hewasnotinastatetobetoldanythinganditseemedtoherthatshedidnotwanttospeak,thatinthegreatnessofhercompassionshesimplycouldnotspeak。Allshecoulddoforhimwastorestherhandlightlyonhisheadandrespondsilentlytotheslightmovementshefelt,sighorsob,butamovementwhichsuddenlyimmobilizedherinananxiousemotion。 AboutthesametimeontheothersideofthelagoonJorgenson,raisinghiseyes,notedthestarsandsaidtohimselfthatthenightwouldnotlastlongnow。Hewishedfordaylight。HehopedthatLingardhadalreadydonesomething。TheblazeinTengga’scompoundhadbeenre—lighted。Tom’spowerwasunbounded,practicallyunbounded。Andhewasinvulnerable。 Jorgensonlethisoldeyeswanderamongstthegleamsandshadowsofthegreatsheetofwaterbetweenhimandthathostileshoreandfanciedhecoulddetectafloatingshadowhavingthecharacteristicshapeofamaninasmallcanoe。 \"O!Ya!Man!\"hehailed。\"Whatdoyouwant?\"Othereyes,too,haddetectedthatshadow。LowmurmursaroseonthedeckoftheEmma。 \"Ifyoudon’tspeakatonceIshallfire,\"shoutedJorgenson,fiercely。 \"No,whiteman,\"returnedthefloatingshapeinasolemndrawl。 \"Iamthebeareroffriendlywords。Achief’swords。IcomefromTengga。\" \"Therewasabulletthatcameonboardnotalongtimeago——alsofromTengga,\"saidJorgenson。 \"Thatwasanaccident,\"protestedthevoicefromthelagoon。 \"Whatelsecoulditbe?IstherewarbetweenyouandTengga?No,no,Owhiteman!AllTenggadesiresisalongtalk。Hehassentmetoaskyoutocomeashore。\" AtthesewordsJorgenson’sheartsankalittle。ThisinvitationmeantthatLingardhadmadenomove。WasTomasleeporaltogethermad? \"Thetalkwouldbeofpeace,\"declaredimpressivelytheshadowwhichhaddriftedmuchclosertothehulknow。 \"Itisn’tformetotalkwithgreatchiefs,\"Jorgensonreturned,cautiously。 \"ButTenggaisafriend,\"arguedthenocturnalmessenger。\"Andbythatfirethereareotherfriends——yourfriends,theRajahHassimandtheladyImmada,whosendyoutheirgreetingsandwhoexpecttheireyestorestonyoubeforesunrise。\" \"That’salie,\"remarkedJorgenson,perfunctorily,andfellintothought,whiletheshadowybearerofwordspreservedascandalizedsilence,though,ofcourse,hehadnotexpectedtobebelievedforamoment。Butonecouldnevertellwhatawhitemanwouldbelieve。HehadwantedtoproducetheimpressionthatHassimandImmadawerethehonouredguestsofTengga。ItoccurredtohimsuddenlythatperhapsJorgensondidn’tknowanythingofthecapture。Andhepersisted。 \"Mywordsarealltrue,Tuan。TheRajahofWajoandhissisterarewithmymaster。IleftthemsittingbythefireonTengga’srighthand。Willyoucomeashoretobewelcomedamongstfriends?\" Jorgensonhadbeenreflectingprofoundly。HisobjectwastogainasmuchtimeaspossibleforLingard’sinterferencewhichindeedcouldnotfailtobeeffective。ButhehadnottheslightestwishtoentrusthimselftoTengga’sfriendliness。Notthathemindedtherisk;buthedidnotseetheuseoftakingit。 \"No!\"hesaid,\"Ican’tgoashore。WewhitemenhavewaysofourownandIamchiefofthishulk。AndmychiefistheRajahLaut,awhitemanlikemyself。 AllthewordsthatmatterareinhimandifTenggaissuchagreatchieflethimasktheRajahLautforatalk。Yes,that’stheproperthingforTenggatodoifheissuchagreatchiefashesays。\" \"TheRajahLauthasmadehischoice。HedwellswithBelarab,andwiththewhitepeoplewhoarehuddledtogetherliketrappeddeerinBelarab’sstockade。Whyshouldn’tyoumeantimegooverwhereeverythingislightedupandopenandtalkinfriendshipwithTengga’sfriends,whoseheartshavebeenmadesickbymanydoubts;RajahHassimandtheladyImmadaandDaman,thechiefofthemenofthesea,whodonotknownowwhomtheycantrustunlessitbeyou,Tuan,thekeeperofmuchwealth?\" Thediplomatistinthesmalldugoutpausedforamomenttogivespecialweighttothefinalargument: \"Whichyouhavenomeanstodefend。Weknowhowmanyarmedmentherearewithyou。\" \"Theyaregreatfighters,\"Jorgensonobserved,unconcernedly,spreadinghiselbowsontherailandlookingoveratthefloatingblackpatchofcharacteristicshapewhenceproceededthevoiceofthewilyenvoyofTengga。\"EachmanofthemisworthtenofsuchasyoucanfindintheSettlement。\" \"Yes,byAllah。Evenworthtwentyofthesecommonpeople。Indeed,youhaveenoughwithyoutomakeagreatfightbutnotenoughforvictory。\" \"Godalonegivesvictory,\"saidsuddenlythevoiceofJaffir,who,verystillatJorgenson’selbow,hadbeenlisteningtotheconversation。 \"Verytrue,\"wastheanswerinanextremelyconventionaltone。 \"Willyoucomeashore,Owhiteman;andbetheleaderofchiefs?\" \"Ihavebeenthatbefore,\"saidJorgenson,withgreatdignity,\"andnowallIwantispeace。ButIwon’tcomeashoreamongstpeoplewhosemindsaresomuchtroubled,tillRajahHassimandhissisterreturnonboardthisshipandtellmethetaleoftheirnewfriendshipwithTengga。\" Hisheartwassinkingwitheveryminute,theveryairwasgrowingheavierwiththesenseofoncomingdisaster,onthatnightthatwasneitherwarnorpeaceandwhoseonlyvoicewasthevoiceofTengga’senvoy,insinuatingintonethoughmenacinginwords。 \"No,thatcannotbe,\"saidthatvoice。\"But,Tuan,verilyTenggahimselfisreadytocomeonboardheretotalkwithyou。Heisveryreadytocomeandindeed,Tuan,hemeanstocomeonboardherebeforeverylong。\" \"Yes,withfiftywar—canoesfilledwiththeferociousrabbleoftheShoreofRefuge,\"Jaffirwasheardcommenting,sarcastically,overtherail;andasinistermuttered\"Itmaybeso,\"ascendedalongsidefromtheblackwater。 Jorgensonkeptsilentasifwaitingforasupremeinspirationandsuddenlyhespokeinhisother—worldvoice:\"TellTenggafrommethataslongashebringswithhimRajahHassimandtheRajah’ssister,heandhischiefmenwillbewelcomeondeckhere,nomatterhowmanyboatscomealongwiththem。ForthatIdonotcare。Youmaygonow。\" Aprofoundsilencesucceeded。Itwasclearthattheenvoywasgone,keepingintheshadowoftheshore。JorgensonturnedtoJaffir。 \"Deathamongstfriendsisbutafestival,\"hequoted,mumblinginhismoustache。 \"Itis,byAllah,\"assentedJaffirwithsombrefervour。 VI Thirty—sixhourslaterCarter,alonewithLingardinthecabinofthebrig,couldalmostfeelduringapauseinhistalktheoppressive,thebreathlesspeaceoftheShallowsawaitinganothersunset。 \"Ineverexpectedtoseeanyofyoualive,\"Carterbeganinhiseasytone,butwithmuchlesscarelessnessinhisbearingasthoughhisdaysofresponsibilityamongsttheShoalsoftheShoreofRefugehadmaturedhisviewoftheexternalworldandofhisownplacetherein。 \"Ofcoursenot,\"mutteredLingard。 ThelistlessnessofthatmanwhomhehadalwaysseenactingunderthestressofasecretpassionseemedperfectlyappallingtoCarter’syouthfulanddeliberateenergy。EversincehehadfoundhimselfagainfacetofacewithLingardhehadtriedtoconcealtheshockingimpressionwithadelicacywhichowednothingtotrainingbutwasasintuitiveasachild’s。 WhilejustifyingtoLingardhismannerofdealingwiththesituationontheShoreofRefuge,hecouldnotforthelifeofhimhelpaskinghimselfwhatwasthisnewmystery。Hewasalsoyoungenoughtolongforawordofcommendation。 \"Come,Captain,\"heargued;\"howwouldyouhavelikedtocomeoutandfindnothingbuttwohalf—burntwrecksstuckonthesands——perhaps?\" Hewaitedforamoment,theninsheercompassionturnedawayhiseyesfromthatfixedgaze,fromthatharassedfacewithsunkcheeks,fromthatfigureofindomitablestrengthrobbedofitsfire。Hesaidtohimself:\"Hedoesn’thearme,\"andraisedhisvoicewithoutalteringitsself—containedtone: \"Iwasbelowyesterdaymorningwhenwefelttheshock,butthenoisecametousonlyasadeeprumble。ImadeonejumpforthecompanionbutthatpreciousShawwasbeforemeyelling,’Earthquake!Earthquake!’andIamhangedifhedidn’tmisshisfootingandlanddownonhisheadatthebottomofthestairs。I hadtostoptopickhimupbutIgotondeckintimetoseeamightyblackcloudthatseemedalmostsolidpopupfrombehindtheforestlikeaballoon。Itstayedthereforquitealongtime。 SomeofourCalashesondecksworetomethattheyhadseenaredflashabovethetree—tops。Butthat’shardtobelieve。Iguessedatoncethatsomethinghadblownuponshore。MyfirstthoughtwasthatIwouldneverseeyouanymoreandImadeupmymindatoncetofindoutallthetruthyouhavebeenkeepingawayfromme。No,sir!Don’tyoumakeamistake!Iwasn’tgoingtogiveyouup,deadoralive。\" HelookedhardatLingardwhilesayingthesewordsandsawthefirstsignofanimationpassoverthatravagedface。Hesawevenitslipsmoveslightly;buttherewasnosound,andCarterlookedawayagain。 \"Perhapsyouwouldhavedonebetterbytellingmeeverything;butyouleftmebehindonmyowntobeyourmanhere。IputmyhandtotheworkIcouldseebeforeme。Iamasailor。Thereweretwoshipstolookafter。Andheretheyarebothforyou,fittogoortostay,tofightortorun,asyouchoose。\"HewatchedwithbatedbreaththeeffortLingardhadtomaketoutterthetwowordsofthedesiredcommendation: \"Welldone!\" \"AndIamyourmanstill,\"Carteradded,impulsively,andhastenedtolookawayfromLingard,whohadtriedtosmileathimandhadfailed。Carterdidn’tknowwhattodonext,remaininthecabinorleavethatunsupportedstrongmantohimself。Withashynesscompletelyforeigntohischaracterandwhichhecouldnotunderstandhimself,hesuggestedinanengagingmurmurandwithanembarrassedassumptionofhisrighttogiveadvice: \"Whynotliedownforabit,sir?Icanattendtoanythingthatmayturnup。Youseemdoneup,sir。\" HewasfacingLingard,whostoodontheothersideofthetableinaleaningforwardattitudeproppeduponrigidarmsandstaredfixedlyathim——perhaps?Carterfeltonthevergeofdespair。 Thiscouldn’tlast。HewasrelievedtoseeLingardshakehisheadslightly。 \"No,Mr。Carter。IthinkIwillgoondeck,\"saidtheCaptainofthefamousbrigLightning,whilehiseyesroamedalloverthecabin。Carterstoodasideatonce,butitwassomelittletimebeforeLingardmadeamove。 Thesunhadsunkalready,leavingthateveningnotraceofitsgloryonaskyclearascrystalandonthewaterswithoutaripple。Allcolourseemedtohavegoneoutoftheworld。Theoncomingshadowroseassubtleasaperfumefromtheblackcoastlyingathwarttheeasternsemicircle;andsuchwasthesilencewithinthehorizonthatonemighthavefanciedoneselfcometotheendoftime。Blackandtoylikeinthecleardepthsandthefinalstillnessoftheeveningthebrigandtheschoonerlayanchoredinthemiddleofthemainchannelwiththeirheadsswungthesameway。Lingard,withhischinonhisbreastandhisarmsfolded,movedslowlyhereandthereaboutthepoop。Closeandmutelikehisshadow,Carter,athiselbow,followedhismovements。Hefeltananxioussolicitude