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类别:其他 作者:Nicholas Sparks字数:10618更新时间:19/01/07 14:33:58
V TheverydaythatTraversandd’AlcacerhadcomeonboardtheEmmaHassimandImmadahaddepartedontheirmission;forLingard,ofcourse,couldnotthinkofleavingthewhitepeoplealonewithJorgenson。Jorgensonwasallright,buthisineradicablehabitofmutteringinhismoustacheabout\"throwingalightedmatchamongstthepowderbarrels\"hadinspiredLingardwithacertainamountofmistrust。And,moreover,hedidnotwanttogoawayfromMrs。Travers。 ItwastheonlycorrectinspirationonCarter’sparttosendJaffirwithhisreporttoLingard。Thatstout—heartedfighter,swimmer,anddevotedfolloweroftheprincelymisfortunesofHassimandImmada,hadlookeduponhismissiontocatchthechiefofficeroftheyacht(whichhehadreceivedfromLingardinCarimata)asatriflingjob。IttookhimalittlelongerthanheexpectedbuthehadgotbacktothebrigjustintimetobesentontoLingardwithCarter’sletterafteracoupleofhours’rest。 HehadthestoryofallthehappeningsfromWasubbeforeheleftandthoughhisfacepreserveditsgraveimpassivity,inhishearthedidnotlikeitatall。 Fearlessandwily,Jaffirwasthemanfordifficultmissionsandabornmessenger——asheexpressedithimself——\"tobearweightywordsbetweengreatmen。\"Withhisunfailingmemoryhewasabletoreproducethemexactly,whethersoftorhard,incouncilorinprivate;forheknewnofear。Withhimtherewasnoneedforwritingwhichmightfallintothehandsoftheenemy。Ifhediedonthewaythemessagewoulddiewithhim。Hehadalsothegiftofgettingatthesenseofanysituationandanobservanteye。Hewasdistinctlyoneofthosemenfromwhomtrustworthyinformationcanbeobtainedbytheleadersofgreatenterprises。Lingarddidputseveralquestionstohim,butinthisinstance,ofcourse,Jaffircouldhaveonlyverylittletosay。OfCarter,whomhecalledthe\"youngone,\"hesaidthathelookedaswhitemenlookwhentheyarepleasedwiththemselves;thenaddedwithoutwaitingforadefinitequestion——\"Theshipsouttherearenowsafeenough,O,RajahLaut!\"Therewasnoelationinhistone。 Lingardlookedathimblankly。WhentheGreatestofWhiteMenremarkedthattherewasyetapricetobepaidforthatsafety,Jaffirassentedbya\"Yes,byAllah!\"withoutlosingforamomenthisgrimcomposure。WhentoldthathewouldberequiredtogoandfindhismasterandtheladyImmadawhoweresomewhereinthebackcountry,inBelarab’stravellingcamp,hedeclaredhimselfreadytoproceedatonce。Hehadeatenhisfillandhadsleptthreehoursonboardthebrigandhewasnottired。Whenhewasyoungheusedtogettiredsometimes;butformanyyearsnowhehadknownnosuchweakness。Hedidnotrequiretheboatwithpaddlersinwhichhehadcomeupintothelagoon。Hewouldgoaloneinasmallcanoe。Thiswasnotime,heremarked,forpublicityandostentation。Hispent—upanxietyburstthroughhislips。\"Itisinmymind,Tuan,thatdeathhasnotbeensonearthemsincethatnightwhenyoucamesailinginablackcloudandtookusalloutofthestockade。\" LingardsaidnothingbuttherewasinJaffirafaithinthatwhitemanwhichwasnoteasilyshaken。 \"Howareyougoingtosavethemthistime,ORajahLaut?\"heasked,simply。 \"Belarabismyfriend,\"murmuredLingard。 InhisanxietyJaffirwasveryoutspoken。\"Amanofpeace!\"heexclaimedinalowtone。\"Whocouldbesafewithamanlikethat?\"heasked,contemptuously。 \"Thereisnowar,\"saidLingard\"Thereissuspicion,dread,andrevenge,andtheangerofarmedmen,\"retortedJaffir。\"Youhavetakenthewhiteprisonersoutoftheirhandsbytheforceofyourwordsalone。Isthatso,Tuan?\" \"Yes,\"saidLingard。 \"Andyouhavethemonboardhere?\"askedJaffir,withaglanceoverhisshoulderatthewhiteandmistystructurewithinwhichbythelightofasmalloilflamed’AlcacerandMrs。Traverswerejustthenconversing。 \"Yes,Ihavethemhere。\" \"Then,RajahLaut,\"whisperedJaffir,\"youcanmakeallsafebygivingthemback。\" \"CanIdothat?\"werethewordsbreathedoutthroughLingard’slipstothefaithfulfollowerofHassimandImmada。 \"Canyoudoanythingelse?\"wasthewhisperedretortofJaffirthemessengeraccustomedtospeakfranklytothegreatoftheearth。\"Youareawhitemanandyoucanhaveonlyoneword。AndnowIgo。\" Asmall,roughdug—outbelongingtotheEmmahadbeenbroughtroundtotheladder。Ashadowycalashhoveringrespectfullyinthedarknessofthedeckhadalreadyclearedhisthroattwiceinawarningmanner。 \"Yes,Jaffir,go,\"saidLingard,\"andbemyfriend。\" \"Iamthefriendofagreatprince,\"saidtheother,sturdily。 \"Butyou,RajahLaut,wereevengreater。Andgreatyouwillremainwhileyouarewithus,peopleofthisseaandofthisland。Butwhatbecomesofthestrengthofyourarmsbeforeyourownwhitepeople?Wheredoesitgoto,Isay?Well,then,wemusttrustinthestrengthofyourheart。\" \"Ihopethatwillneverfail,\"saidLingard,andJaffiremittedagruntofsatisfaction。\"ButGodaloneseesintomen’shearts。\" \"Yes。OurrefugeiswithAllah,\"assentedJaffir,whohadacquiredthehabitofpiousturnsofspeechinthefrequentationofprofessedlyreligiousmen,ofwhomthereweremanyinBelarab’sstockade。Asamatteroffact,hereposedallhistrustinLingardwhohadwithhimtheprestigeofaprovidentialmansentatthehourofneedbyheavenitself。Hewaitedawhile,then:\"WhatisthemessageIamtotake?\"heasked。 \"TellthewholetaletotheRajahHassim,\"saidLingard。\"Andtellhimtomakehiswayherewiththeladyhissistersecretlyandwithspeed。Thetimeofgreattroublehascome。Letus,atleast,betogether。\" \"Right!Right!\"Jaffirapproved,heartily。\"Todiealoneundertheweightofone’senemiesisadreadfulfate。\" Hesteppedbackoutofthesheenofthelampbywhichtheyhadbeentalkingandmakinghiswaydownintothesmallcanoehetookupapaddleandwithoutasplashvanishedonthedarklagoon。 ItwasthenthatMrs。Traversandd’AlcacerheardLingardcallaloudforJorgenson。InstantlythefamiliarshadowstoodatLingard’selbowandlistenedindetachedsilence。Onlyattheendofthetaleitmarvelledaudibly:\"Here’samessforyouifyoulike。\"ButreallynothingintheworldcouldastonishorstartleoldJorgenson。Heturnedawaymutteringinhismoustache。LingardremainedwithhischininhishandandJaffir’slastwordstookgradualpossessionofhismind。ThenbrusquelyhepickedupthelampandwenttoseekMrs。Travers。Hewenttoseekherbecauseheactuallyneededherbodilypresence,thesoundofhervoice,thedark,clearglanceofhereyes。Shecoulddonothingforhim。 OnhiswayhebecameawarethatJorgensonhadturnedoutthefewMalaysonboardtheEmmaandwasdisposingthemaboutthedeckstowatchthelagooninalldirections。OncallingMrs。TraversoutoftheCageLingardwas,inthemidstofhismentalstruggle,consciousofacertainsatisfactionintakingherawayfromd’Alcacer。Hecouldn’tspareanyofherattentiontoanyotherman,nottheleastcrumbofhertime,nottheleastparticleofherthought!Heneededitall。Toseeitwithdrawnfromhimforthemerestinstantwasirritating——seemedadisaster。 D’Alcacer,leftalone,wonderedattheimperioustoneofLingard’scall。Tothisobserverofshadesthefactseemedconsiderable。\"Sheernerves,\"heconcluded,tohimself。\"Themanisoverstrung。Hemusthavehadsomesortofshock。\"Butwhatcoulditbe——hewonderedtohimself。Inthetensestagnationofthosedaysofwaitingtheslightesttremorhadanenormousimportance。D’Alcacerdidnotseekhiscampbedstead。Hedidn’tevensitdown。Withthepalmsofhishandsagainsttheedgeofthetableheleanedbackagainstit。InthatnegligentattitudehepreservedanalertmindwhichforamomentwonderedwhetherMrs。TravershadnotspoiledLingardalittle。Yetinthesuddennessoftheforcedassociation,where,too,d’Alcacerwassuretherewassomemoralprobleminthebackground,herecognizedtheextremedifficultyofweighingaccuratelytheimperiousdemandsagainstthenecessaryreservations,theexactproportionsofboldnessandcaution。Andd’AlcaceradmireduponthewholeMrs。Travers’cleverness。 Therecouldbenodoubtthatshehadthesituationinherhands。 That,ofcourse,didnotmeansafety。Shehaditinherhandsasonemayholdsomehighlyexplosiveanduncertaincompound。 D’Alcacerthoughtofherwithprofoundsympathyandwithaquiteunselfishinterest。Sometimesinastreetwecrossthepathofpersonalitiescompellingsympathyandwonderbutforallthatwedon’tfollowthemhome。D’AlcacerrefrainedfromfollowingMrs。 Traversanyfurther。HehadbecomesuddenlyawarethatMr。 Traverswassittinguponhiscampbedstead。Hemusthavedoneitverysuddenly。Onlyamomentbeforehehadappearedplungedinthedeepestslumber,andthestillnessforalongtimenowhadbeenperfectlyunbroken。D’AlcacerwasstartledenoughforanexclamationandMr。Traversturnedhisheadslowlyinhisdirection。D’Alcacerapproachedthebedsteadwithacertainreluctance。 \"Awake?\"hesaid。 \"Asuddenchill,\"saidMr。Travers。\"ButIdon’tfeelcoldnow。 Strange!Ihadtheimpressionofanicyblast。\" \"Ah!\"saidd’Alcacer。 \"Impossible,ofcourse!\"wentonMr。Travers。\"Thisstagnatingairnevermoves。Itclingsodiouslytoone。Whattimeisit?\" \"Really,Idon’tknow。\" \"Theglassofmywatchwassmashedonthatnightwhenweweresotreacherouslyassailedbythesavagesonthesandbank,\"grumbledMr。Travers。 \"ImustsayIwasneversosurprisedinmylife,\"confessedd’Alcacer。\"WehadstoppedandIwaslightingacigar,youmayremember。\" \"No,\"saidMr。Travers。\"Ihadjustthenpulledoutmywatch。Ofcourseitflewoutofmyhandbutithungbythechain。Somebodytrampledonit。Thehandsarebrokenoffshort。ItkeepsontickingbutIcan’ttellthetime。It’sabsurd。Mostprovoking。\" \"Doyoumeantosay,\"askedd’Alcacer,\"thatyouhavebeenwindingitupeveryevening?\" Mr。Traverslookedupfromhisbedsteadandhealsoseemedsurprised。\"Why!IsupposeIhave。\"Hekeptsilentforawhile。 \"Itisn’tsomuchblindhabitasyoumaythink。Myhabitsaretheoutcomeofstrictmethod。Ihadtoordermylifemethodically。 Youknowverywell,mydeard’Alcacer,thatwithoutstrictmethodIwouldnothavebeenabletogetthroughmyworkandwouldhavehadnotimeatallforsocialduties,which,ofcourse,areofverygreatimportance。Imaysaythat,materially,methodhasbeenthefoundationofmysuccessinpubliclife。Therewereneveranyemptymomentsinmyday。Andnowthis!……\"HelookedallroundtheCage……\"Where’smywife?\"heasked。 \"Iwastalkingtoheronlyamomentago,\"answeredd’Alcacer。\"I don’tknowthetime。Mywatchisonboardtheyacht;butitisn’tlate,youknow。\" Mr。Traversflungoffwithunwontedbrisknessthelightcottonsheetwhichcoveredhim。Hebuttonedhastilythetunicwhichhehadunfastenedbeforelyingdown,andjustasd’Alcacerwasexpectinghimtoswinghisfeettothedeckimpetuously,helaydownagainonthepillowandremainedperfectlystill。 D’AlcacerwaitedawhileandthenbegantopacetheCage。Afteracoupleofturnshestoppedandsaid,gently: \"Iamafraid,Travers,youarenotverywell。\" \"Idon’tknowwhatillnessis,\"answeredthevoicefromthepillowtothegreatreliefofd’Alcacerwhoreallyhadnotexpectedananswer。\"Goodhealthisagreatassetinpubliclife。 Illnessmaymakeyoumissauniqueopportunity。Iwasneverill。\" Allthiscameoutdeadenedintone,asifthespeaker’sfacehadbeenburiedinthepillow。D’Alcacerresumedhispacing。 \"IthinkIaskedyouwheremywifewas,\"saidthemuffledvoice。 Withgreatpresenceofmindd’AlcacerkeptonpacingtheCageasifhehadnotheard。——\"Youknow,Ithinksheismad,\"wentonthemuffledvoice。\"UnlessIam。\" Againd’Alcacermanagednottointerrupthisregularpacing。\"DoyouknowwhatIthink?\"hesaid,abruptly。\"Ithink,Travers,thatyoudon’twanttotalkabouther。Ithinkthatyoudon’twanttotalkaboutanything。AndtotellyouthetruthIdon’twantto,either。\" D’Alcacercaughtafaintsighfromthepillowandatthesametimesawasmall,dimflameappearoutsidetheCage。Andstillhekeptonhispacing。Mrs。TraversandLingardcomingoutofthedeckhousestoppedjustoutsidethedoorandLingardstoodthedeck—lamponitsroof。Theyweretoofarfromd’Alcacertobeheard,buthecouldmakethemout:Mrs。Travers,asstraightasanarrow,andtheheavybulkofthemanwhofacedherwithaloweredhead。Hesawitinprofileagainstthelightandasifdeferentialinitsslightdroop。Theywerelookingstraightateachother。Neitherofthemmadetheslightestgesture。 \"Thereisthatinme,\"Lingardmurmured,deeply,\"whichwouldsetmyheartharderthanastone。IamKingTom,RajahLaut,andfittolookanymanhereaboutsintheface。Ihavemynametotakecareof。Everythingrestsonthat。\" \"Mr。d’Alcacerwouldexpressthisbysayingthateverythingrestedonhonour,\"commentedMrs。Traverswithlipsthatdidnottremble,thoughfromtimetotimeshecouldfeeltheacceleratedbeatingofherheart。 \"Callitwhatyoulike。It’ssomethingthatamanneedstodrawafreebreath。Andlook!——asyouseemestandingbeforeyouhereI careforitnolonger。\" \"ButIdocareforit,\"retortedMrs。Travers。\"Asyouseemestandinghere——Idocare。Thisissomethingthatisyourveryown。Youhavearighttoit。AndIrepeatIdocareforit。\" \"Careforsomethingofmyown,\"murmuredLingard,veryclosetoherface。\"Whyshouldyoucareformyrights?\" \"Because,\"shesaid,holdinghergroundthoughtheirforeheadswerenearlytouching,\"becauseifIevergetbacktomylifeI don’twanttomakeitmoreabsurdbyrealremorse。\" HertonewassoftandLingardreceivedthebreathofthosewordslikeacaressonhisface。D’Alcacer,intheCage,madestillanotherefforttokeepuphispacing。Hedidn’twanttogiveMr。 Traverstheslightestexcuseforsittingupagainandlookinground。 \"ThatIshouldlivetohearanybodysaytheycaredanythingforwhatwasmine!\"whisperedLingard。\"Andthatitshouldbeyou——you,whohavetakenallhardnessoutofme。\" \"Idon’twantyourhearttobemadehard。Iwantittobemadefirm。\" \"Youcouldn’thavesaidanythingbetterthanwhatyouhavesaidjustnowtomakeitsteady,\"flowedthemurmurofLingard’svoicewithsomethingtenderinitsdepth。\"Hasanybodyeverhadafriendlikethis?\"heexclaimed,raisinghisheadasiftakingthestarrynighttowitness。 \"AndIaskmyselfisitpossiblethatthereshouldbeanothermanonearththatIcouldtrustasItrustyou。Isaytoyou:Yes!Goandsavewhatyouhavearighttoanddon’tforgettobemerciful。Iwillnotremindyouofourperfectinnocence。Theearthmustbesmallindeedthatweshouldhaveblunderedlikethisintoyourlife。It’senoughtomakeonebelieveinfatality。 ButIcan’tfinditinmetobehavelikeafatalist,tositdownwithfoldedhands。HadyoubeenanotherkindofmanImighthavebeentoohopelessortoodisdainful。DoyouknowwhatMr。 d’Alcacercallsyou?\" InsidetheCaged’Alcacer,castingcuriousglancesintheirdirection,sawLingardshakehisheadandthoughtwithslightuneasiness:\"Heisrefusinghersomething。\" \"Mr。d’Alcacer’snameforyouisthe’ManofFate’,\"saidMrs。 Travers,alittlebreathlessly。 \"Amouthful。Nevermind,heisagentleman。It’swhatyou……\" \"IcallyouallbutbyyourChristianname,\"saidMrs。Travers,hastily。\"Believeme,Mr。d’Alcacerunderstandsyou。\" \"Heisallright,\"interjectedLingard。 \"Andheisinnocent。Irememberwhatyouhavesaid——thattheinnocentmusttaketheirchance。Well,then,dowhatisright。\" \"Youthinkitwouldberight?Youbelieveit?Youfeelit?\" \"Atthistime,inthisplace,fromamanlikeyou——Yes,itisright。\" Lingardthoughtthatwomanwonderfullytruetohimandwonderfullyfearlesswithherself。Thenecessitytotakebackthetwocaptivestothestockadewassoclearandunavoidablenow,thathebelievednothingonearthcouldhavestoppedhimfromdoingso,butwherewasthereanotherwomanintheworldwhowouldhavetakenitlikethis?Andhereflectedthatintruthandcouragethereisfoundwisdom。ItseemedtohimthattillMrs。 Traverscametostandbyhissidehehadneverknownwhattruthandcourageandwisdomwere。Withhiseyesonherfaceandhavingbeentoldthatinhereyesheappearedworthyofbeingbothcommandedandentreated,hefeltaninstantofcompletecontent,amomentof,asitwere,perfectemotionalrepose。 DuringthesilenceMrs。Traverswithaquicksideglancenoticedd’Alcacerasoneseesamaninamist,hismeredarkshapearrestedclosetothemuslinscreen。Shehadnodoubtthathewaslookingintheirdirectionandthathecouldseethemmuchmoreplainlythanshecouldseehim。Mrs。Traversthoughtsuddenlyhowanxioushemustbe;andsherememberedthathehadbeggedherforsomesign,forsomewarning,beforehand,atthemomentofcrisis。 Shehadunderstoodverywellhishintedrequestfortimetogetprepared。Ifhewastogetmorethanafewminutes,THISwasthemomenttomakehimasign——thesignhehadsuggestedhimself。 Mrs。Traversmovedbacktheleastbitsoastoletthelightfallinfrontofherandwithaslow,distinctmovementsheputherlefthandtoherforehead。 \"Well,then,\"sheheardLingard’sforciblemurmur,\"well,then,Mrs。Travers,itmustbedoneto—night。\" Onemaybetrue,fearless,andwise,andyetcatchone’sbreathbeforethesimplefinalityofaction。Mrs。Traverscaughtherbreath:\"To—night!To—night!\"shewhispered。D’Alcacer’sdarkandmistysilhouettebecamemoreblurred。HehadseenhersignandhadretreateddeeperwithintheCage。 \"Yes,to—night,\"affirmedLingard。\"Now,atonce,withinthehour,thismoment,\"hemurmured,fiercely,followingMrs。Traversinherrecoilingmovement。Shefeltherarmbeingseizedswiftly。 \"Don’tyouseethatifitistodoanygood,thatiftheyarenottobedeliveredtomereslaughter,itmustbedonewhileallisdarkashore,beforeanarmedmobinboatscomesclamouringalongside?Yes。Beforethenightisanhourolder,sothatImaybehammeringatBelarab’sgatewhilealltheSettlementisstillasleep。\" Mrs。Traversdidn’tdreamofprotesting。Forthemomentshewasunabletospeak。Thismanwasveryfierceandjustassuddenlyasithadbeengripped(makingherthinkincongruouslyinthemidstofheragitationthattherewouldbecertainlyabruisethereinthemorning)shefeltherarmreleasedandapenitentialtonecomeintoLingard’smurmuringvoice。 \"Andevennowit’snearlytoolate!Theroadwasplain,butIsawyouonitandmyheartfailedme。IwastherelikeanemptymanandIdarednotfaceyou。Youmustforgiveme。No,Ihadnorighttodoubtyouforamoment。IfeelasifIoughttogoonmykneesandbegyourpardonforforgettingwhatyouare,fordaringtoforget。\" \"Why,KingTom,whatisit?\" \"ItseemsasifIhadsinned,\"sheheardhimsay。Heseizedherbytheshoulders,turnedherabout,movedherforwardasteportwo。Hishandswereheavy,hisforceirresistible,thoughhehimselfimaginedhewashandlinghergently。\"Lookstraightbeforeyou,\"hegrowledintoherear。\"Doyouseeanything?\"Mrs。 Travers,passivebetweentherigidarms,couldseenothingbut,faroff,themassed,featurelessshadowsoftheshore。 \"No,Iseenothing,\"shesaid。 \"Youcan’tbelookingtherightway,\"sheheardhimbehindher。 AndnowshefeltherheadbetweenLingard’shands。Hemovedittheleastbittotheright。\"There!Seeit?\" \"No。WhatamItolookfor?\" \"Agleamoflight,\"saidLingard,takingawayhishandssuddenly。 \"Agleamthatwillgrowintoablazebeforeourboatcangethalfwayacrossthelagoon。\" EvenasLingardspokeMrs。Traverscaughtsightofaredsparkfaraway。ShehadlookedoftenenoughattheSettlement,asonthefaceofapaintingonacurtain,tohaveitsconfigurationfixedinhermind,toknowthatitwasonthebeachatitsendfurthestfromBelarab’sstockade。 \"Thebrushwoodiscatching,\"murmuredLingardinherear。\"Iftheyhadsomedrygrassthewholepilewouldbeblazingbynow。\" \"Andthismeans……\" \"Itmeansthatthenewshasspread。AnditisbeforeTengga’senclosureonhisendofthebeach。That’swhereallthebrainsoftheSettlementare。Itmeanstalkandexcitementandplentyofcraftywords。Tengga’sfire!Itellyou,Mrs。Travers,thatbeforehalfanhourhaspassedDamanwillbetheretomakefriendswiththefatTengga,whoisreadytosaytohim,’Itoldyouso’。\" \"Isee,\"murmuredMrs。Travers。Lingarddrewhergentlytotherail。 \"Andnowlookoverthereattheotherendofthebeachwheretheshadowsareheaviest。ThatisBelarab’sfort,hishouses,histreasure,hisdependents。That’swherethestrengthoftheSettlementis。Ikeptitup。Imadeitlast。Butwhatisitnow? It’slikeaweaponinthehandofadeadman。Andyetit’sallwehavetolookto,ifindeedthereisstilltime。IsweartoyouI wouldn’tdarelandthemindaylightforfeartheyshouldbeslaughteredonthebeach。\" \"Thereisnotimetolose,\"whisperedMrs。Travers,andLingard,too,spokeverylow。 \"No,notifI,too,amtokeepwhatismyright。It’syouwhohavesaidit。\" \"Yes,Ihavesaidit,\"shewhispered,withoutliftingherhead。 Lingardmadeabrusquemovementatherelbowandbenthisheadclosetohershoulder。 \"AndIwhomistrustedyou!LikeArabsdototheirgreatmen,I oughttokissthehemofyourrobeinrepentanceforhavingdoubtedthegreatnessofyourheart。\" \"Oh!myheart!\"saidMrs。Travers,lightly,stillgazingatthefire,whichhadsuddenlyshotuptoatallblaze。\"Icanassureyouithasbeenofverylittleaccountintheworld。\"Shepausedforamomenttosteadyhervoice,thensaid,firmly,\"Let’sgetthisover。\" \"Totellyouthetruththeboathasbeenreadyforsometime。\" \"Well,then……\" \"Mrs。Travers,\"saidLingardwithaneffort,\"theyarepeopleofyourownkind。\"Andsuddenlyheburstout:\"Icannottakethemashoreboundhandandfoot。\" \"Mr。d’Alcacerknows。Youwillfindhimready。Eversincethebeginninghehasbeenpreparedforwhatevermighthappen。\" \"Heisaman,\"saidLingardwithconviction。\"Butit’softheotherthatIamthinking。\" \"Ah,theother,\"sherepeated。\"Then,whataboutmythoughts? LuckilywehaveMr。d’Alcacer。Ishallspeaktohimfirst。\" SheturnedawayfromtherailandmovedtowardtheCage。 \"Jorgenson,\"thevoiceofLingardresoundedallalongthedeck,\"getalightonthegangway。\"ThenhefollowedMrs。Traversslowly。 VI D’Alcacer,afterreceivinghiswarning,steppedbackandleanedagainsttheedgeofthetable。Hecouldnotignoreinhimselfacertainemotion。Andindeed,whenhehadaskedMrs。Traversforasignheexpectedtobemoved——buthehadnotexpectedthesigntocomesosoon。Heexpectedthisnighttopasslikeothernights,inbrokenslumbers,bodilydiscomfort,andtheunrestofdisconnectedthinking。Atthesametimehewassurprisedathisownemotion。Hehadflatteredhimselfonthepossessionofmorephilosophy。Hethoughtthatthisfamoussenseofself—preservationwasaqueerthing,apurelyanimalthing。\"For,asathinkingman,\"hereflected,\"Ireallyoughtnottocare。\" Itwasprobablytheunusualthataffectedhim。Clearly。Ifhehadbeenlyingseriouslyillinaroominahotelandhadoverheardsomeominouswhispershewouldnothavecaredintheleast。Ah,butthenhewouldhavebeenill——andinillnessonegrowssoindifferent。Illnessisagreathelptounemotionalbehaviour,whichofcourseisthecorrectbehaviourforamanoftheworld。 Healmostregrettedhewasnotveryill。But,then,Mr。Traverswasobviouslyillanditdidnotseemtohelphimmuch。D’AlcacerglancedatthebedsteadwhereMr。Traverspreservedanimmobilitywhichstruckd’Alcacerasobviouslyaffected。Hemistrustedit。 GenerallyhemistrustedMr。Travers。Onecouldn’ttellwhathewoulddonext。Notthathecoulddomuchonewayoranother,butthatsomehowhethreatenedtorobthesituationofwhateverdignityitmayhavehadasastrokeoffate,asacalloncourage。Mr。d’Alcacer,acutelyobservantandalertfortheslightesthints,preferredtolookuponhimselfasthevictimnotofaswindlebutofaroughmannaivelyengagedinacontestwithheaven’sinjustice。D’Alcacerdidnotexaminehisheart,butsomelinesofaFrenchpoetcameintohismind,totheeffectthatinalltimesthosewhofoughtwithanunjustheavenhadpossessedthesecretadmirationandloveofmen。Hedidn’tgosofaraslovebuthecouldnotdenytohimselfthathisfeelingtowardLingardwassecretlyfriendlyand——well,appreciative。Mr。 Traverssatupsuddenly。Whatahorriblenuisance,thoughtd’Alcacer,fixinghiseyesonthetipsofhisshoeswiththehopethatperhapstheotherwouldliedownagain。Mr。Traversspoke。 \"Stillup,d’Alcacer?\"