\"Yes……?\"sheaccentuatedinterrogatively。
\"Youhavetheawfulnessofthepredestined。You,too,arethepreyofdreams。\"
\"NotoftheMoors,then,\"sheuttered,calmly,beginningtheotherplait。D’Alcacerfollowedtheoperationtotheend。Closeagainsther,herdiaphanousshadowonthemuslinreproducedherslightestmovements。D’Alcacerturnedhiseyesaway。
\"No!Nobarbarianshalltouchyou。BecauseifitcomestothatI
believeHEwouldbecapableofkillingyouhimself。\"
Aminuteelapsedbeforehestoleaglanceinherdirection。Shewasleaningbackagain,herhandshadfallenonherlapandherheadwithaplaitofhaironeachsideofherface,herheadincrediblychangedincharacterandsuggestingsomethingmedieval,ascetic,droopeddreamilyonherbreast。
D’Alcacerwaited,holdinghisbreath。Shedidn’tmove。Inthedimgleamofjewelledclasps,thefaintsheenofgoldembroideriesandtheshimmerofsilks,shewaslikeafigureinafadedpainting。Onlyherneckappeareddazzlinglywhiteinthesmokyrednessofthelight。D’Alcacer’swonderapproachedafeelingofawe。HewasonthepointofmovingawayquietlywhenMrs。
Travers,withoutstirringintheleast,lethimhearthewords:
\"Ihavetoldhimthateverydayseemedmoredifficulttolive。
Don’tyouseehowimpossiblethisis?\"
D’AlcacerglancedrapidlyacrosstheCagewhereMr。Traversseemedtobeasleepallinaheapandpresentingaruffledappearancelikeasickbird。Nothingwasdistinctofhimbutthebaldpatchonthetopofhishead。
\"Yes,\"hemurmured,\"itismostunfortunate……Iunderstandyouranxiety,Mrs。Travers,but……\"
\"Iamfrightened,\"shesaid。
Hereflectedamoment。\"Whatanswerdidyouget?\"heasked,softly。
\"Theanswerwas:’Patience。’\"
D’Alcacerlaughedalittle。——\"Youmaywelllaugh,\"murmuredMrs。
Traversinatoneofanguish。——\"That’swhyIdid,\"hewhispered。
\"Patience!Didn’theseethehorrorofit?\"——\"Idon’tknow。Hewalkedaway,\"saidMrs。Travers。Shelookedimmovablyatherhandsclaspedinherlap,andthenwithaburstofdistress,\"Mr。
d’Alcacer,whatisgoingtohappen?\"——\"Ah,youareaskingyourselfthequestionatlast。THATwillhappenwhichcannotbeavoided;andperhapsyouknowbestwhatitis。\"——\"No。Iamstillaskingmyselfwhathewilldo。\"——\"Ah,thatisnotformetoknow,\"declaredd’Alcacer。\"Ican’ttellyouwhathewilldo,butIknowwhatwillhappentohim。\"——\"Tohim,yousay!Tohim!\"shecried。——\"Hewillbreakhisheart,\"saidd’Alcacer,distinctly,bendingalittleoverthechairwithaslightgaspathisownaudacity——andwaited。
\"Croyez—vous?\"cameatlastfromMrs。Traversinanaccentsocoldlylanguidthatd’Alcacerfeltashudderrundownhisspine。
Wasitpossiblethatshewasthatkindofwoman,heaskedhimself。Didsheseenothingintheworldoutsideherself?Wassheabovethecommonestkindofcompassion?Hecouldn’tsuspectMrs。Traversofstupidity;butshemighthavebeenheartlessand,likesomewomenofherclass,quiteunabletorecognizeanyemotionintheworldexceptherown。D’Alcacerwasshockedandatthesametimehewasrelievedbecauseheconfessedtohimselfthathehadventuredveryfar。However,inherhumanityshewasnotvulgarenoughtobeoffended。Shewasnottheslaveofsmallmeannesses。Thisthoughtpleasedd’Alcacerwhohadschooledhimselfnottoexpecttoomuchfrompeople。Buthedidn’tknowwhattodonext。Afterwhathehadventuredtosayandafterthemannerinwhichshehadmethisaudacitytheonlythingtodowastochangetheconversation。Mrs。Traversremainedperfectlystill。\"IwillpretendthatIthinksheisasleep,\"hethoughttohimself,meditatingaretreatontip—toe。
Hedidn’tknowthatMrs。Traverswassimplytryingtorecoverthefullcommandofherfaculties。Hiswordshadgivenheraterribleshock。Aftermanagingtoutterthisdefensive\"croyez—vous\"whichcameoutofherlipscoldandfaintasifinalasteffortofdyingstrength,shefeltherselfturnrigidandspeechless。Shewasthinking,stiffalloverwithemotion:\"D’Alcacerhasseenit!Howmuchmorehashebeenabletosee?\"Shedidn’taskherselfthatquestioninfearorshamebutwitharecklessresignation。Outofthatshockcameasensationofpeace。A
glowingwarmthpassedthroughallherlimbs。Ifd’Alcacerhadpeeredbythatsmokylightintoherfacehemighthaveseenonherlipsafatalisticsmilecomeandgo。Butd’Alcacerwouldnothavedreamedofdoingsuchathing,and,besides,hisattentionjustthenwasdrawninanotherdirection。Hehadheardsubduedexclamations,hadnoticedastironthedecksoftheEmma,andevensomesortofnoiseoutsidetheship。
\"Thesearestrangesounds,\"hesaid。
\"Yes,Ihear,\"Mrs。Traversmurmured,uneasily。
VagueshapesglidedoutsidetheCage,barefooted,almostnoiseless,whisperingMalaywordssecretly。
\"Itseemsasthoughaboathadcomealongside,\"observedd’Alcacer,lendinganattentiveear。\"Iwonderwhatitmeans。Inourposition……\"
\"Itmaymeananything,\"interruptedMrs。Travers。
\"Jaffirishere,\"saidavoiceinthedarknessoftheafterendoftheship。Thenthereweresomemorewordsinwhichd’Alcacer’sattentiveearcaughttheword\"surat。\"
\"Amessageofsomesorthascome,\"hesaid。\"TheywillbecallingCaptainLingard。Iwonderwhatthoughtsorwhatdreamsthiscallwillinterrupt。\"Hespokelightly,lookingnowatMrs。Traverswhohadalteredherpositioninthechair;andbytheirtonesandattitudesthesetwomighthavebeenonboardtheyachtsailingtheseainperfectsafety。\"You,ofcourse,aretheonewhowillbetold。Don’tyoufeelasortofexcitement,Mrs。Travers?\"
\"Ihavebeenlatelyexhortedtopatience,\"shesaidinthesameeasytone。\"IcanwaitandIimagineIshallhavetowaittillthemorning。\"
\"Itcan’tbeverylateyet,\"hesaid。\"Timewithushasbeenstandingstillforeversolong。Andyetthismaybethehouroffate。\"
\"Isthisthefeelingyouhaveatthisparticularmoment?\"
\"Ihavehadthatfeelingforaconsiderablenumberofmomentsalready。Atfirstitwasexciting。NowIamonlymoderatelyanxious。Ihaveemployedmytimeingoingoverallmypastlife。\"
\"Canonereallydothat?\"
\"Yes。Ican’tsayIhavebeenboredtoextinction。Iamstillalive,asyousee;butIhavedonewiththatandIfeelextremelyidle。ThereisonlyonethingIwouldliketodo。Iwanttofindafewwordsthatcouldconveytoyoumygratitudeforallyourfriendlinessinthepast,atthetimewhenyouletmeseesomuchofyouinLondon。IfeltalwaysthatyoutookmeonmyowntermsandthatsokindlythatoftenIfeltinclinedtothinkbetterofmyself。ButIamafraidIamwearyingyou,Mrs。Travers。\"
\"Iassureyouyouhaveneverdonethat——inthepast。AndastothepresentmomentIbegyounottogoaway。Staybymeplease。
Wearenotgoingtopretendthatwearesleepyatthisearlyhour。\"
D’Alcacerbroughtastoolclosetothelongchairandsatdownonit。\"Oh,yes,thepossiblehouroffate,\"hesaid。\"Ihavearequesttomake,Mrs。Travers。Idon’taskyoutobetrayanything。Whatwouldbethegood?Theissuewhenitcomeswillbeplainenough。ButIshouldliketogetawarning,justsomethingthatwouldgivemetimetopullmyselftogether,tocomposemyselfasitwere。Iwantyoutopromisemethatifthebalancetipsagainstusyouwillgivemeasign。Youcould,forinstance,seizetheopportunitywhenIamlookingatyoutoputyourlefthandtoyourforeheadlikethis。ItisagesturethatIhaveneverseenyoumake,andso……\"
\"Jorgenson!\"Lingard’svoicewasheardforwardwherethelightofalanternappearedsuddenly。Then,afterapause,Lingardwasheardagain:\"Here!\"
Thenthesilentminutesbegantogoby。Mrs。Traversreclininginherchairandd’Alcacersittingonthestoolwaitedmotionlesswithoutaword。PresentlythroughthesubduedmurmursandagitationpervadingthedarkdeckoftheEmmaMrs。Traversheardafirmfootstep,and,lanterninhand,Lingardappearedoutsidethemuslincage。
\"Willyoucomeoutandspeaktome?\"hesaid,loudly。\"Notyou。
Thelady,\"headdedinanauthoritativetoneasd’Alcacerrosehastilyfromthestool。\"IwantMrs。Travers。\"
\"Ofcourse,\"mutteredd’AlcacertohimselfandasheopenedthedooroftheCagetoletMrs。Traversslipthroughhewhisperedtoher,\"Thisisthehouroffate。\"
Shebrushedpasthimswiftlywithouttheslightestsignthatshehadheardthewords。OntheafterdeckbetweentheCageandthedeckhouseLingardwaited,lanterninhand。Nobodyelsewasvisibleabout;butd’Alcacerfeltintheairthepresenceofsilentandexcitedbeingshoveringoutsidethecircleoflight。
LingardraisedthelanternasMrs。Traversapproachedandd’Alcacerheardhimsay:
\"Ihavehadnewswhichyououghttoknow。Letusgointothedeckhouse。\"
D’Alcacersawtheirheadslightedupbytheraisedlanternsurroundedbythedepthsofshadowwithaneffectofamarvellousandsymbolicvision。HeheardMrs。Traverssay\"Iwouldrathernothearyournews,\"inatonethatmadethatsensitiveobserverpurseuphislipsinwonder。Hethoughtthatshewasover—wrought,thatthesituationhadgrowntoomuchforhernerves。Butthiswasnotthetoneofafrightenedperson。Itflashedthroughhismindthatshehadbecomeself—conscious,andtherehestoppedinhisspeculation。Thatfriendofwomenremaineddiscreeteveninhisthoughts。HesteppedbackwardfurtherintotheCageandwithoutsurprisesawMrs。TraversfollowLingardintothedeckhouse。
IV
Lingardstoodthelanternonthetable。Itslightwasverypoor。
Hedroppedontothesea—chestheavily。He,too,wasover—wrought。Hisflannelshirtwasopenattheneck。Hehadabroadbeltroundhiswaistandwaswithouthisjacket。Beforehim,Mrs。Travers,straightandtallinthegaysilks,cottons,andmuslinsofheroutlandishdress,withtheendsofthescarfthrownoverherhead,hangingdowninfrontofher,lookeddimlysplendidandwithablackglanceoutofherwhiteface。Hesaid:
\"Doyou,too,wanttothrowmeover?Itellyouyoucan’tdothatnow。\"
\"Iwasn’tthinkingofthrowingyouover,butIdon’tevenknowwhatyoumean。ThereseemtobenoendofthingsIcan’tdo。
Hadn’tyoubettertellmeofsomethingthatIcoulddo?Haveyouanyideayourselfwhatyouwantfromme?\"
\"Youcanletmelookatyou。Youcanlistentome。Youcanspeaktome。\"
\"Frankly,Ihavenevershirkeddoingallthosethings,wheneveryouwantedmeto。Youhaveledme……\"
\"Iledyou!\"criedLingard。
\"Oh!Itwasmyfault,\"shesaid,withoutanger。\"Imusthavedreamedthenthatitwasyouwhocametomeinthedarkwiththetaleofyourimpossiblelife。CouldIhavesentyouaway?\"
\"Iwishyouhad。Whydidn’tyou?\"
\"Doyouwantmetotellyouthatyouwereirresistible?HowcouldIhavesentyouaway?Butyou!Whatmadeyoucomebacktomewithyourveryheartonyourlips?\"
WhenLingardspokeafteratimeitwasinjerkysentences。
\"Ididn’tstoptothink。Ihadbeenhurt。Ididn’tthinkofyoupeopleasladiesandgentlemen。IthoughtofyouaspeoplewhoselivesIheldinmyhand。Howwasitpossibletoforgetyouinmytrouble?ItisyourfacethatIbroughtbackwithmeonboardmybrig。Idon’tknowwhy。Ididn’tlookatyoumorethanatanybodyelse。Ittookmeallmytimetokeepmytemperdownlestitshouldburnyouallup。Ididn’twanttoberudetoyoupeople,butIfounditwasn’tveryeasybecausethreatsweretheonlyargumentIhad。WasIveryoffensive,Mrs。Travers?\"
Shehadlistenedtenseandveryattentive,almoststern。Anditwaswithouttheslightestchangeofexpressionthatshesaid:
\"IthinkthatyouboreyourselfappropriatelytothestateoflifetowhichithaspleasedGodtocallyou。\"
\"Whatstate?\"mutteredLingardtohimself。\"IamwhatIam。TheycallmeRajahLaut,KingTom,andsuchlike。Ithinkitamusedyoutohearit,butIcantellyouitisnojoketohavesuchnamesfastenedonone,eveninfun。Andthoseverynameshaveinthemsomethingwhichmakesallthisaffairherenosmallmattertoanybody。\"
Shestoodbeforehimwithaset,severeface。——\"Didyoucallmeoutinthisalarmingmanneronlytoquarrelwithme?\"——\"No,butwhydoyouchoosethistimetotellmethatmycomingforhelptoyouwasnothingbutimpudenceinyoursight?Well,Ibegyourpardonforintrudingonyourdignity。\"——\"Youmisunderstoodme,\"
saidMrs。Travers,withoutrelaxingforamomenthercontemplativeseverity。\"Suchaflatteringthinghadneverhappenedtomebeforeanditwillneverhappentomeagain。Butbelieveme,KingTom,youdidmetoomuchhonour。Jorgensonisperfectlyrightinbeingangrywithyouforhavingtakenawomanintow。\"——\"Hedidn’tmeantoberude,\"protestedLingard,earnestly。Mrs。Traversdidn’tevensmileatthisintrusionofapointofmannersintotheatmosphereofanguishandsuspensethatseemedalwaystoarisebetweenherandthismanwho,sittingonthesea—chest,hadraisedhiseyestoherwithanairofextremecandourandseemedunabletotakethemoffagain。Shecontinuedtolookathimsternlybyatremendouseffortofwill。
\"Howchangedyouare,\"hemurmured。
Hewaslostinthedepthsofthesimplestwonder。Sheappearedtohimvengefulandasifturnedforeverintostonebeforehisbewilderedremorse。Forever。SuddenlyMrs。Traverslookedroundandsatdowninthechair。Herstrengthfailedherbutsheremainedausterewithherhandsrestingonthearmsofherseat。
Lingardsigheddeeplyanddroppedhiseyes。Shedidnotdarerelaxhermusclesforfearofbreakingdownaltogetherandbetrayingarecklessimpulsewhichlurkedatthebottomofherdismay,toseizetheheadofd’Alcacer’sManofFate,pressittoherbreastonce,flingitfaraway,andvanishherself,vanishoutoflifelikeawraith。TheManofFatesatsilentandbowed,yetwithasuggestionofstrengthinhisdejection。\"IfIdon’tspeak,\"Mrs。Traverssaidtoherself,withgreatinwardcalmness,\"Ishallburstintotears。\"Shesaidaloud,\"Whatcouldhavehappened?Whathaveyoudraggedmeinherefor?Whydon’tyoutellmeyournews?\"
\"Ithoughtyoudidn’twanttohear。Ibelieveyoureallydon’twantto。Whatisallthistoyou?Ibelievethatyoudon’tcareanythingaboutwhatIfeel,aboutwhatIdoandhowIend。I
verilybelievethatyoudon’tcarehowyouendyourself。I
believeyounevercaredforyourownoranybody’sfeelings。I
don’tthinkitisbecauseyouarehard,Ithinkitisbecauseyoudon’tknow,anddon’twanttoknow,andareangrywithlife。\"
Heflourishedanarmrecklessly,andMrs。Traversnoticedforthefirsttimethatheheldasheetofpaperinhishand。
\"Isthatyournewsthere?\"sheasked,significantly。\"It’sdifficulttoimaginethatinthiswildernesswritingcanhaveanysignificance。Andwhoonearthherecouldsendyounewsonpaper?
Willyouletmeseeit?CouldIunderstandit?IsitinEnglish?
Come,KingTom,don’tlookatmeinthisawfulway。\"
Shegotupsuddenly,notinindignation,butasifattheendofherendurance。Thejewelledclasps,thegoldembroideries,gleamedelusivelyamongstthefoldsofherdraperieswhichemittedamysteriousrustle。
\"Ican’tstandthis,\"shecried。\"Ican’tstandbeinglookedatlikethis。Nowomancouldstandit。Nowomanhaseverbeenlookedatlikethis。Whatcanyousee?HatredIcouldunderstand。Whatisityouthinkmecapableof?\"
\"Youareveryextraordinary,\"murmuredLingard,whohadregainedhisself—possessionbeforethatoutburst。
\"Verywell,andyouareextraordinary,too。That’sunderstood——herewearebothunderthatcurseandhavingtofacetogetherwhatevermayturnup。Butwhoonearthcouldhavesentyouthiswriting?\"
\"Who?\"repeatedLingard。\"Why,thatyoungfellowthatblunderedonmybriginthedark,bringingaboatloadoftroublealongsideonthatquietnightinCarimataStraits。ThedarkestnightIhaveeverknown。Anaccursednight。\"
Mrs。Traversbitherlip,waitedalittle,thenaskedquietly:
\"Whatdifficultyhashegotintonow?\"
\"Difficulty!\"criedLingard。\"Heisimmenselypleasedwithhimself,theyoungfool。Youknow,whenyousenthimtotalktomethateveningyoulefttheyacht,hecamewithaloadedpistolinhispocket。Andnowhehasgoneanddoneit。\"
\"Doneit?\"repeatedMrs。Traversblankly。\"Donewhat?\"
ShesnatchedfromLingard’sunresistingpalmthesheetofpaper。
WhileshewassmoothingitLingardmovedroundandstoodcloseatherelbow。Sheranquicklyoverthefirstlines,thenhereyessteadied。AttheendshedrewaquickbreathandlookedupatLingard。TheirfaceshadneverbeensoclosetogetherbeforeandMrs。Travershadasurprisingsecondofaperfectlynewsensation。Shelookedaway。——\"Doyouunderstandwhatthisnewsmeans?\"hemurmured。Mrs。Traversletherhandfallbyherside。
\"Yes,\"shesaidinalowtone。\"Thecompactisbroken。\"
Carterhadbegunhisletterwithoutanypreliminaries:
Youclearedoutinthemiddleofthenightandtooktheladyawaywithyou。Youleftmenoproperorders。ButasasailormanI
lookeduponmyselfasleftinchargeoftwoshipswhilewithinhalfamileonthatsandbankthereweremorethanahundredpiraticalcut—throatswatchingmeascloselyassomanytigersabouttoleap。Dayswentbywithoutawordofyouorthelady。Toleavetheshipsoutsideandgoinlandtolookforyouwasnottobethoughtofwithallthosepirateswithinspringingdistance。
Putyourselfinmyplace。Can’tyouimaginemyanxiety,mysleeplessnights?Eachnightworsethanthenightbefore。Andstillnowordfromyou。Icouldn’tsitstillandworrymyheadoffaboutthingsIcouldn’tunderstand。Iamasailorman。Myfirstdutywastotheships。IhadtoputanendtothisimpossiblesituationandIhopeyouwillagreethatIhavedoneitinaseamanlikeway。OnemistymorningImovedthebrignearerthesandbankanddirectlythemistclearedIopenedfireontheprausofthosesavageswhichwereanchoredinthechannel。Weaimedwideatfirsttogivethosevagabondsthatwereonboardachancetoclearoutandjointheirfriendscampedonthesands。I
didn’twanttokillpeople。Thenwegotthelongguntobearandinaboutanhourwehadthebottomknockedoutofthetwopraus。
Thesavagesonthebankhowledandscreamedateveryshot。TheyaremightyangrybutIdon’tcarefortheirangernow,forbysinkingtheirprausIhavemadethemasharmlessasaflockoflambs。Theyneedn’tstarveontheirsandbankbecausetheyhavetwoorthreedugoutshauleduponthesandandtheymayferrythemselvesandtheirwomentothemainlandwhenevertheylike。
IfancyIhaveactedasaseamanandasaseamanIintendtogoonacting。NowIhavemadetheshipssafeIshallsetaboutwithoutlossoftimetryingtogettheyachtoffthemud。Whenthat’sdoneIshallarmtheboatsandproceedinshoretolookforyouandtheyacht’sgentry,andshan’tresttillIknowwhetheranyorallofyouareabovetheearthyet。
Ihopethesewordswillreachyou。JustaswehaddonethebusinessofthoseprausthemanyousentoffthatnightinCarimatatostopourchiefofficercamesailinginfromthewestwithourfirstgigintowandtheboat’screwallwell。YourserangtellsmeheisamosttrustworthymessengerandthathisnameisJaffir。Heseemsonlytooanxioustotrytogettoyouassoonaspossible。Irepeat,shipsandmenhavebeenmadesafeandIdon’tmeantogiveyouupdeadoralive。
\"Youarequickintakingthepoint,\"saidLingardinadullvoice,whileMrs。Travers,withthesheetofpapergrippedinherhand,lookedintohisfacewithanxiouseyes。\"Hehasbeensmartandnomistake。\"
\"Hedidn’tknow,\"murmuredMrs。Travers。
\"No,hedidn’tknow。ButcouldItakeeverybodyintomyconfidence?\"protestedLingardinthesamelowtone。\"AndyetwhoelsecouldItrust?Itseemedtomethathemusthaveunderstoodwithoutbeingtold。Butheistooyoung。Hemaywellbeproudaccordingtohislights。Hehasdonethatjoboutsideverysmartly——damnhissmartness!Andherewearewithallourlivesdependingonmyword——whichisbrokennow,Mrs。Travers。Itisbroken。\"
Mrs。Traversnoddedathimslightly。
\"Theywouldsoonerhaveexpectedtoseethesunandthemoonfalloutofthesky,\"Lingardcontinuedwithrepressedfire。NextmomentitseemedtohavegoneoutofhimandMrs。Traversheardhimmutteradisconnectedphrase……\"Theworlddownaboutmyears。\"
\"Whatwillyoudo?\"shewhispered。
\"WhatwillIdo?\"repeatedLingard,gently。\"Oh,yes——do。Mrs。
Travers,doyouseethatIamnothingnow?Justnothing。\"
Hehadlosthimselfinthecontemplationofherfaceturnedtohimwithanexpressionofawedcuriosity。TheshockoftheworldcomingdownabouthisearsinconsequenceofCarter’ssmartnesswassoterrificthatithaddulledhissensibilitiesinthemannerofagreatpainorofagreatcatastrophe。Whatwastheretolookatbutthatwoman’sface,inaworldwhichhadlostitsconsistency,itsshape,anditspromisesinamoment?
Mrs。Traverslookedaway。SheunderstoodthatshehadputtoLingardanimpossiblequestion。Whatwaspresentingitselftoherasaproblemwastothatmanacrisisoffeeling。ObviouslyCarter’sactionhadbrokenthecompactenteredintowithDaman,andshewasintelligentenoughtounderstandthatitwasthesortofthingthatcouldnotbeexplainedaway。Itwasn’thorrorthatshefelt,butasortofconsternation,somethinglikethediscomfitureofpeoplewhohavejustmissedtheirtrain。Itwasonlymoreintense。Therealdismayhadyettomakeitswayintohercomprehension。ToLingarditwasablowstruckstraightathisheart。
HewasnotangrywithCarter。Thefellowhadactedlikeaseaman。
Carter’sconcernwasfortheships。InthisfatalityCarterwasamereincident。Therealcauseofthedisasterwassomewhereelse,wasother,andmoreremote。AndatthesametimeLingardcouldnotdefendhimselffromafeelingthatitwasinhimself,too,somewhereintheunexploreddepthsofhisnature,somethingfatalandunavoidable。Hemutteredtohimself:
\"No。Iamnotaluckyman。\"
Thiswasbutafeebleexpressionofthediscoveryofthetruththatsuddenlyhadcomehometohimasifdrivenintohisbreastbyarevealingpowerwhichhaddecidedthatthiswastobetheendofhisfling。Buthewasnotthemantogivehimselfuptotheexaminationofhisownsensations。Hisnaturalimpulsewastograpplewiththecircumstancesandthatwaswhathewastryingtodo;buthemissednowthatsenseofmasterywhichishalfthebattle。Conflictofsomesortwastheveryessenceofhislife。
Butthiswassomethinghehadneverknownbefore。Thiswasaconflictwithinhimself。Hehadtofaceunsuspectedpowers,foesthathecouldnotgoouttomeetatthegate。Theywerewithin,asthoughhehadbeenbetrayedbysomebody,bysomesecretenemy。
Hewasreadytolookroundforthatsubtletraitor。Asortofblanknessfellonhismindandhesuddenlythought:\"Why!It’smyself。\"
Immediatelyafterwardhehadaclear,mercilessrecollectionofHassimandImmada。Hesawthemfaroffbeyondtheforests。Oh,yes,theyexisted——withinhisbreast!
\"Thatwasanight!\"hemuttered,lookingstraightatMrs。
Travers。Hehadbeenlookingatherallthetime。Hisglancehadheldherunderaspell,butforawholeinterminableminutehehadnotbeenawareofheratall。Atthemurmurofhiswordsshemadeaslightmovementandhesawheragain。——\"Whatnight?\"shewhispered,timidly,likeanintruder。Shewasastonishedtoseehimsmile。——\"Notlikethisone,\"hesaid。\"Youmademenoticehowquietandstillitwas。Yes。Listenhowstillitis。\"
Bothmovedtheirheadsslightlyandseemedtolendanear。Therewasnotamurmur,sigh,rustle,splash,orfootfall。Nowhispers,notremors,notasoundofanykind。TheymighthavebeenaloneonboardtheEmma,abandonedevenbytheghostofCaptainJorgensondepartedtorejointheBarqueWildRoseontheshoreoftheCimmeriansea。——\"It’slikethestillnessoftheend,\"saidMrs。Traversinalow,equablevoice。——\"Yes,butthat,too,isfalse,\"saidLingardinthesametone。——\"Idon’tunderstand,\"
Mrs。Traversbegan,hurriedly,afterashortsilence。\"Butdon’tusethatword。Don’tuseit,KingTom!Itfrightensmebyitsmeresound。\"
Lingardmadenosign。HisthoughtswerebackwithHassimandImmada。TheyoungchiefandhissisterhadgoneupcountryonavoluntarymissiontopersuadeBelarabtoreturntohisstockadeandtotakeupagainthedirectionofaffairs。TheycarriedurgentmessagesfromLingard,whoforBelarabwastheveryembodimentoftruthandforce,thatunquestionedforcewhichhadpermittedBelarabtoindulgeinallhismelancholyhesitations。
Butthosetwoyoungpeoplehadalsosomepersonalprestige。TheywereLingard’sheart’sfriends。Theywerelikehischildren。Butbesidethat,theirhighbirth,theirwarlikestory,theirwanderings,adventures,andprospectshadgiventhemaglamouroftheirown。