第17章

类别:其他 作者:Nicholas Sparks字数:10763更新时间:19/01/07 14:33:58
\"Icouldneverhaveexpectedtohearsuchaspeechfromyou。AstowhatIdidexpect!……Imusthavebeenverystupid。\" \"No,youareanythingbutthat,\"declaredMr。Travers,conscientiously。\"Itisn’tstupidity。\"Hehesitatedforamoment。 \"It’sakindofwilfulness,Ithink。Ipreferrednottothinkaboutthisgrievousdifferenceinourpointsofview,which,youwilladmit,Icouldnothavepossiblyforeseenbeforewe……\" AsortofsolemnembarrassmenthadcomeoverMr。Travers。Mrs。 Travers,leaningherchinonthepalmofherhand,staredatthebarematchboardsideofthehut。 \"Doyouchargemewithprofoundgirlishduplicity?\"sheasked,verysoftly。 TheinsideofthedeckhousewasfullofstagnantheatperfumedbyaslightscentwhichseemedtoemanatefromtheloosemassofMrs。Travers’hair。Mr。Traversevadedthedirectquestionwhichstruckhimaslackingfinenesseventothepointofimpropriety。 \"ImustsupposethatIwasnotinthecalmpossessionofmyinsightandjudgmentinthosedays,\"hesaid。\"I——Iwasnotinacriticalstateofmindatthetime,\"headmittedfurther;butevenaftergoingsofarhedidnotlookupathiswifeandthereforemissedsomethingliketheghostofasmileonMrs。 Travers’lips。Thatsmilewastingedwithscepticismwhichwastoodeep—seatedforanythingbutthefaintestexpression。 Thereforeshesaidnothing,andMr。Traverswentonasifthinkingaloud: \"Yourconductwas,ofcourse,abovereproach;butyoumadeforyourselfadetestablereputationofmentalsuperiority,expressedironically。Youinspiredmistrustinthebestpeople。Youwereneverpopular。\" \"Iwasbored,\"murmuredMrs。Traversinareminiscenttoneandwithherchinrestinginthehollowofherhand。 Mr。Traversgotupfromtheseaman’schestasunexpectedlyasifhehadbeenstungbyawasp,but,ofcourse,withamuchslowerandmoresolemnmotion。 \"Thematterwithyou,Edith,isthatatheartyouareperfectlyprimitive。\"Mrs。Traversstoodup,too,withasupple,leisurelymovement,andraisingherhandstoherhairturnedhalfawaywithapensiveremark: \"Imperfectlycivilized。\" \"Imperfectlydisciplined,\"correctedMr。Traversafteramomentofdrearymeditation。 Sheletherarmsfallandturnedherhead。 \"No,don’tsaythat,\"sheprotestedwithstrangeearnestness。\"I amthemostseverelydisciplinedpersonintheworld。Iamtemptedtosaythatmydisciplinehasstoppedatnothingshortofkillingmyself。IsupposeyoucanhardlyunderstandwhatImean。\" Mr。Traversmadeaslightgrimaceatthefloor。 \"Ishallnottry,\"hesaid。\"Itsoundslikesomethingthatabarbarian,hatingthedelicatecomplexitiesandtherestraintsofanoblerlife,mighthavesaid。Fromyouitstrikesmeaswilfulbadtaste……Ihaveoftenwonderedatyourtastes。Youhavealwayslikedextremeopinions,exoticcostumes,lawlesscharacters,romanticpersonalities——liked’Alcacer……\" \"PoorMr。d’Alcacer,\"murmuredMrs。Travers。 \"Amanwithoutanyideasofdutyorusefulness,\"saidMr。 Travers,acidly。\"Whatareyoupityinghimfor?\" \"Why!Forfindinghimselfinthispositionoutofmeregood—nature。Hehadnothingtoexpectfromjoiningourvoyage,noadvantageforhispoliticalambitionsoranythingofthekind。I supposeyouaskedhimonboardtobreakourtete—a—tetewhichmusthavegrownwearisometoyou。\" \"Iamneverbored,\"declaredMr。Travers。\"D’Alcacerseemedgladtocome。And,beingaSpaniard,thehorriblewasteoftimecannotmattertohimintheleast。\" \"Wasteoftime!\"repeatedMrs。Travers,indignantly。 \"Hemayyethavetopayforhisgoodnaturewithhislife。\" Mr。Traverscouldnotconcealamovementofanger。 \"Ah!Iforgotthoseassumptions,\"hesaidbetweenhisclenchedteeth。\"HeisamereSpaniard。Hetakesthisfarcicalconspiracywithperfectnonchalance。Decayedraceshavetheirownphilosophy。\" \"Hetakesitwithadignityofhisown。\" \"Idon’tknowwhatyoucallhisdignity。Ishouldcallitlackofself—respect。\" \"Why?Becauseheisquietandcourteous,andreserveshisjudgment。Andallowmetotellyou,Martin,thatyouarenottakingourtroublesverywell。\" \"Youcan’texpectfrommeallthoseforeignaffectations。Iamnotinthehabitofcompromisingwithmyfeelings。\" Mrs。Traversturnedcompletelyroundandfacedherhusband。\"Yousulk,\"shesaid……Mr。Traversjerkedhisheadbackalittleasiftoletthewordgopast。——\"Iamoutraged,\"hedeclared。 Mrs。Traversrecognizedtheresomethinglikerealsuffering。——\"I assureyou,\"shesaid,seriously(forshewasaccessibletopity),\"IassureyouthatthisstrangeLingardhasnoideaofyourimportance。Hedoesn’tknowanythingofyoursocialandpoliticalpositionandstilllessofyourgreatambitions。\"Mr。 Traverslistenedwithsomeattention。——\"Couldn’tyouhaveenlightenedhim?\"heasked。——\"Itwouldhavebeennouse;hismindisfixeduponhisownpositionanduponhisownsenseofpower。 Heisamanofthelowerclasses……\"——\"Heisabrute,\"saidMr。Travers,obstinately,andforamomentthosetwolookedstraightintoeachother’seyes。——\"Oh,\"saidMrs。Travers,slowly,\"youaredeterminednottocompromisewithyourfeelings!\"Anundertoneofscorncreptintohervoice。\"ButshallItellyouwhatIthink?Ithink,\"andsheadvancedherheadslightlytowardthepale,unshavenfacethatconfrontedherdarkeyes,\"Ithinkthatforallyourblindscornyoujudgethemanwellenoughtofeelthatyoucanindulgeyourindignationwithperfectsafety。Doyouhear?Withperfectsafety!\"Directlyshehadspokensheregrettedthesewords。ReallyitwasunreasonabletotakeMr。Travers’tricksofcharactermorepassionatelyonthisspotoftheEasternArchipelagofullofobscureplotsandwarringmotivesthaninthemoreartificialatmosphereofthetown。Afterallwhatshewantedwassimplytosavehislife,nottomakehimunderstandanything。Mr。Traversopenedhismouthandwithoututteringawordshutitagain。Hiswifeturnedtowardthelooking—glassnailedtothewall。Sheheardhisvoicebehindher。 \"Edith,where’sthetruthinallthis?\" Shedetectedtheanguishofaslowmindwithaninstinctivedreadofobscureplaceswhereinnewdiscoveriescanbemade。Shelookedoverhershouldertosay: \"It’sonthesurface,Iassureyou。Altogetheronthesurface。\" Sheturnedagaintothelooking—glasswhereherownfacemetherwithdarkeyesandafairmistofhairabovethesmoothforehead; butherwordshadproducednosoothingeffect。 \"Butwhatdoesitmean?\"criedMr。Travers。\"Whydoesn’tthefellowapologize?Whyarewekepthere?Arewebeingkepthere? Whydon’twegetaway?Whydoesn’thetakemebackonboardmyyacht?Whatdoeshewantfromme?Howdidheprocureourreleasefromthesepeopleonshorewhohesaysintendedtocutourthroats?Whydidtheygiveusuptohiminstead?\" Mrs。Traversbegantotwistherhaironherhead。 \"Mattersofhighpolicyandoflocalpolitics。Conflictofpersonalinterests,mistrustbetweentheparties,intriguesofindividuals——yououghttoknowhowthatsortofthingworks。Hisdiplomacymadeuseofallthat。Thefirstthingtodowasnottoliberateyoubuttogetyouintohiskeeping。Heisaverygreatmanhereandletmetellyouthatyoursafetydependsonhisdexterityintheuseofhisprestigeratherthanonhispowerwhichhecannotuse。IfyouwouldlethimtalktoyouIamsurehewouldtellyouasmuchasitispossibleforhimtodisclose。\" \"Idon’twanttobetoldaboutanyofhisrascalities。Buthaven’tyoubeentakenintohisconfidence?\" \"Completely,\"admittedMrs。Travers,peeringintothesmalllooking—glass。 \"Whatistheinfluenceyoubroughttobearuponthisman?Itlookstomeasifourfatewereinyourhands。\" \"Yourfateisnotinmyhands。Itisnoteveninhishands。Thereisamoralsituationherewhichmustbesolved。\" \"Ethicsofblackmail,\"commentedMr。Traverswithunexpectedsarcasm。Itflashedthroughhiswife’smindthatperhapsshedidn’tknowhimsowellasshehadsupposed。Itwasasifthepolishedandsolemncrustofhardproprietieshadcrackedslightly,hereandthere,underthestrain,disclosingthemerewrongheadednessofacommonmortal。Butitwasonlymannerthathadcrackedalittle;themarvellousstupidityofhisconceitremainedthesame。Shethoughtthatthisdiscussionwasperfectlyuseless,andasshefinishedputtingupherhairshesaid:\"I thinkwehadbettergoondecknow。\" \"Youproposetogooutondecklikethis?\"mutteredMr。Traverswithdowncasteyes。 \"Likethis?Certainly。It’snolongeranovelty。Whoisgoingtobeshocked?\" Mr。Traversmadenoreply。Whatshehadsaidofhisattitudewasverytrue。Hesulkedattheenormousoffensivenessofmen,things,andevents;ofwordsandevenofglanceswhichheseemedtofeelphysicallyrestingonhisskinlikeapain,likeadegradingcontact。Hemanagednottowince。Buthesulked。Hiswifecontinued,\"Andletmetellyouthatthoseclothesarefitforaprincess——Imeantheyareofthequality,materialandstylecustomprescribesforthehighestintheland,afar—distantlandwhereIaminformedwomenruleasmuchasthemen。Infacttheyweremeanttobepresentedtoanactualprincessinduecourse。TheywereselectedwiththegreatestcareforthatchildImmada。CaptainLingard……\" Mr。Traversmadeaninarticulatenoisepartakingofagroanandagrunt。 \"Well,ImustcallhimbysomenameandthisIthoughtwouldbetheleastoffensiveforyoutohear。Afterall,themanexists。 Butheisknownalsoonacertainportionoftheearth’ssurfaceasKingTom。D’Alcacerisgreatlytakenbythatname。Itseemstohimwonderfullywelladaptedtotheman,initsfamiliarityanddeference。Andifyouprefer……\" \"Iwouldprefertohearnothing,\"saidMr。Travers,distinctly。 \"Notasingleword。Notevenfromyou,tillIamafreeagentagain。Butwordsdon’ttouchme。Nothingcantouchme;neitheryoursinisterwarningsnorthemoodsoflevitywhichyouthinkpropertodisplaybeforeamanwhoselife,accordingtoyou,hangsonathread。\" \"Ineverforgetitforamoment,\"saidMrs。Travers。\"AndInotonlyknowthatitdoesbutIalsoknowthestrengthofthethread。Itisawonderfulthread。Youmaysayifyoulikeithasbeenspunbythesamefatewhichmadeyouwhatyouare。\" Mr。Traversfeltawfullyoffended。Hehadneverheardanybody,letalonehisownself,addressedinsuchterms。Thetoneseemedtoquestionhisveryquality。Hereflectedwithshockedamazementthathehadlivedwiththatwomanforeightyears!Andhesaidtohergloomily: \"Youtalklikeapagan。\" ItwasaverystrongcondemnationwhichapparentlyMrs。Travershadfailedtohearforshepursuedwithanimation: \"Butreally,youcan’texpectmetomeditateonitallthetimeorshutmyselfuphereandmournthecircumstancesfrommorningtonight。Itwouldbemorbid。Letusgoondeck。\" \"Andyoulooksimplyheathenishinthiscostume,\"Mr。Traverswentonasthoughhehadnotbeeninterrupted,andwithanaccentofdeliberatedisgust。 Herheartwasheavybuteverythinghesaidseemedtoforcethetoneoflevityontoherlips。\"AslongasIdon’tlooklikeaguy,\"sheremarked,negligently,andthencaughtthedirectionofhisluridstarewhichasamatteroffactwasfastenedonherbarefeet。Shecheckedherself,\"Oh,yes,ifyoupreferitIwillputonmystockings。ButyouknowImustbeverycarefulofthem。 It’stheonlypairIhavehere。Ihavewashedthemthismorninginthatbathroomwhichisbuiltoverthestern。Theyarenowdryingovertherailjustoutside。Perhapsyouwillbegoodenoughtopassthemtomewhenyougoondeck。\" Mr。Traversspunroundandwentondeckwithoutaword。AssoonasshewasaloneMrs。Traverspressedherhandstohertemples,agestureofdistresswhichrelievedherbyitssincerity。Themeasuredfootstepsoftwomencametoherplainlyfromthedeck,rhythmicanddoublewithasuggestionoftranquilandfriendlyintercourse。Shedistinguishedparticularlythefootfallsofthemanwhoselife’sorbitwasmostremotefromherown。Andyettheorbitshadcut!Afewdaysagoshecouldnothaveevenconceivedofhisexistence,andnowhewasthemanwhosefootsteps,itseemedtoher,herearscouldsingleunerringlyinthetrampofacrowd。Itwas,indeed,afabulousthing。Inthehalflightofherover—heatedsheltersheletanirresolute,frightenedsmilepassoffherlipsbeforeshe,too,wentondeck。 II AningeniouslyconstructedframeworkoflightpostsandthinlathsoccupiedthegreaterpartofthedeckamidshipsoftheEmma。Thefourwallsofthatairystructureweremadeofmuslin。 Itwascomparativelylofty。Adoor—likearrangementoflightbattensfilledwithcalicowasfurtherprotectedbyasystemofcurtainscalculatedtobafflethepursuitofmosquitoesthathauntedtheshoresofthelagooningreatsingingcloudsfromsunsettillsunrise。AlotoffinematscoveredthedeckspacewithinthetransparentshelterdevisedbyLingardandJorgensontomakeMrs。Travers’existencepossibleduringthetimewhenthefateofthetwomen,andindeedprobablyofeverybodyelseonboardtheEmma,hadtohanginthebalance。VerysoonLingard’sunbiddenandfatalguestshadlearnedthetrickofsteppinginandoutoftheplacequickly。Mr。d’Alcacerperformedthefeatwithoutapparenthaste,almostnonchalantly,yetaswellasanybody。Itwasgenerallyconcededthathehadneverletamosquitointogetherwithhimself。Mr。Traversdodgedinandoutwithoutgraceandwasobviouslymuchirritatedatthenecessity。 Mrs。Traversdiditinamannerallherown,withmarkedclevernessandanunconsciousair。TherewasanimprovisedtableinthereandsomewickerarmchairswhichJorgensonhadproducedfromsomewhereinthedepthsoftheship。ItwashardtosaywhattheinsideoftheEmmadidnotcontain。Itwascrammedwithallsortsofgoodslikeageneralstore。Thatoldhulkwasthearsenalandthewar—chestofLingard’spoliticalaction;shewasstockedwithmusketsandgunpowder,withbalesoflongcloth,ofcottonprints,ofsilks;withbagsofriceandcurrencybrassguns。Shecontainedeverythingnecessaryfordealingdeathanddistributingbribes,toactonthecupidityanduponthefearsofmen,tomarchandtoorganize,tofeedthefriendsandtocombattheenemiesofthecause。Sheheldwealthandpowerinherflanks,thatgroundedshipthatwouldswimnomore,withoutmastsandwiththebestpartofherdeckcumberedbythetwostructuresofthinboardsandoftransparentmuslin。 WithinthelatterlivedtheEuropeans,visibleinthedaytimetothefewMalaysonboardasifthroughawhitehaze。Intheeveningthelightingofthehurricanelampsinsideturnedthemintodarkphantomssurroundedbyashiningmist,againstwhichtheinsectworldrushinginitsmillionsoutoftheforestonthebankwasbaffledmysteriouslyinitsassault。Rigidlyenclosedbytransparentwalls,likecaptivesofanenchantedcobweb,theymovedabout,sat,gesticulated,conversedpubliclyduringtheday;andatnightwhenallthelanternsbutonewereextinguished,theirslumberingshapescoveredalloverbywhitecottonsheetsonthecampbedsteads,whichwerebroughtineveryevening,conveyedthegruesomesuggestionofdeadbodiesreposingonstretchers。Thefood,suchasitwas,wasservedwithinthatglorifiedmosquitonetwhicheverybodycalledthe\"Cage\"withoutanyhumorousintention。AtmealtimesthepartyfromtheyachthadthecompanyofLingardwhoattachedtothisordealasenseofdutyperformedatthealtarofcivilityandconciliation。HecouldhavenoconceptionhowmuchhispresenceaddedtotheexasperationofMr。TraversbecauseMr。Travers’mannerwastoointenselyconsistenttopresentanyshades。Itwasdeterminedbyanineradicableconvictionthathewasavictimheldtoransomonsomeincomprehensibletermsbyanextraordinaryandoutrageousbandit。Thisconviction,strungtothehighestpitch,neverlefthimforamoment,beingtheobjectofindignantmeditationtohismind,andevenclinging,asitwere,tohisverybody。Itlurkedinhiseyes,inhisgestures,inhisungraciousmutters,andinhissinistersilences。TheshocktohismoralbeinghadendedbyaffectingMr。Travers’physicalmachine。Hewasawareofhepaticpains,sufferedfromaccessesofsomnolenceandsuppressedgustsoffurywhichfrightenedhimsecretly。Hiscomplexionhadacquiredayellowtinge,whilehisheavyeyeshadbecomebloodshotbecauseofthesmokeoftheopenwoodfiresduringhisthreedays’detentioninsideBelarab’sstockade。Hiseyeshadbeenalwaysverysensitivetooutwardconditions。D’Alcacer’sfineblackeyesweremoreenduringandhisappearancedidnotdifferverymuchfromhisordinaryappearanceonboardtheyacht。 HehadacceptedwithsmilingthankstheofferofathinblueflanneltunicfromJorgenson。Thosetwomenweremuchofthesamebuild,thoughofcoursed’Alcacer,quietlyaliveandspirituallywatchful,didnotresembleJorgenson,who,withoutbeingexactlymacabre,behavedmorelikeanindifferentbutrestlesscorpse。 Thosetwocouldnotbesaidtohaveeverconversedtogether。 ConversationwithJorgensonwasanimpossiblething。EvenLingardneverattemptedthefeat。HepropoundedquestionstoJorgensonmuchasamagicianwouldinterrogateanevokedshade,orgavehimcurtdirectionsasonewouldmakeuseofsomemarvellousautomaton。AndthatwasapparentlythewayinwhichJorgensonpreferredtobetreated。Lingard’srealcompanyonboardtheEmmawasd’Alcacer。D’AlcacerhadmetLingardontheeasytermsofamanaccustomedallhislifetogoodsocietyinwhichtheveryaffectationsmustbecarriedonwithouteffort。Whetheraffectation,ornature,orinspireddiscretion,d’Alcacerneverlettheslightestcuriositypiercethesmoothnessofhislevel,gravecourtesylightenedfrequentlybyslightsmileswhichoftenhadnotmuchconnectionwiththewordsheuttered,exceptthatsomehowtheymadethemsoundkindlyandasitweretactful。Intheircharacter,however,thosewordswerestrictlyneutral。 TheonlytimewhenLingardhaddetectedsomethingofadeepercomprehensionind’AlcacerwasthedayafterthelongnegotiationsinsideBelarab’sstockadeforthetemporarysurrenderoftheprisoners。Thatmovehadbeensuggestedtohim,exactlyasMrs。Travershadtoldherhusband,bytherivalriesofthepartiesandthestateofpublicopinionintheSettlementdeprivedofthepresenceofthemanwho,theoreticallyatleast,wasthegreatestpowerandthevisibleruleroftheShoreofRefuge。Belarabstilllingeredathisfather’stomb。Whetherthatmanoftheembitteredandpacifichearthadwithdrawntheretomeditateupontheunrulinessofmankindandthethanklessnatureofhistask;orwhetherhehadgonetheresimplytobatheinaparticularlyclearpoolwhichwasafeatureoftheplace,givehimselfuptotheenjoymentofacertainfruitwhichgrewinprofusionthereandindulgeforatimeinascrupulousperformanceofreligiousexercises,hisabsencefromtheSettlementwasafactoftheutmostgravity。Itistruethattheprestigeofalong—unquestionedrulershipandthelong—settledmentalhabitsofthepeoplehadcausedthecaptivestobetakenstraighttoBelarab’sstockadeasamatterofcourse。Belarab,atadistance,couldstilloutweighthepoweronthespotofTengga,whosesecretpurposeswerenobetterknown,whowasjovial,talkative,outspokenandpugnacious;butwhowasnotaprofessedservantofGodfamedformanycharitiesandascrupulousperformanceofpiouspractices,andwhoalsohadnofatherwhohadachievedalocalsaintship。ButBelarab,withhisglamourofasceticismandmelancholytogetherwithareputationforseverity(foramansopiouswouldbenaturallyruthless),wasnotonthespot。Theonlyfavourablepointinhisabsencewasthefactthathehadtakenwithhimhislatestwife,thesameladywhomJorgensonhadmentionedinhislettertoLingardasanxioustobringaboutbattle,murder,andthelootingoftheyacht,notbecauseofinbornwickednessofheartbutfromasimpledesireforsilks,jewelsandotherobjectsofpersonaladornment,quitenaturalinagirlsoyoungandelevatedtosuchahighposition。 BelarabhadselectedhertobethecompanionofhisretirementandLingardwasgladofit。HewasnotafraidofherinfluenceoverBelarab。Heknewhisman。Nowords,noblandishments,nosulks,scoldings,orwhisperingsofafavouritecouldaffecteithertheresolvesortheirresolutionsofthatArabwhoseactioneverseemedtohanginmysticsuspensebetweenthecontradictoryspeculationsandjudgmentsdisputingthepossessionofhiswill。ItwasnotwhatBelarabwouldeithersuddenlydoorleisurelydetermineuponthatLingardwasafraidof。Thedangerwasthatinhistaciturnhesitation,whichhadsomethinghopelesslygodlikeinitsremotecalmness,themanwoulddonothingandleavehiswhitefriendfacetofacewithunrulyimpulsesagainstwhichLingardhadnomeansofactionbutforcewhichhedarednotusesinceitwouldmeanthedestructionofhisplansandthedownfallofhishopes;andworsestillwouldwearanaspectoftreacherytoHassimandImmada,thosefugitiveswhomhehadsnatchedawayfromthejawsofdeathonanightofstormandhadpromisedtoleadbackintriumphtotheirowncountryhehadseenbutonce,sleepingunmovedunderthewrathandfireofheaven。 OntheafternoonoftheverydayhehadarrivedwithheronboardtheEmma——totheinfinitedisgustofJorgenson——LingardheldwithMrs。Travers(aftershehadhadacoupleofhours’rest)along,fiery,andperplexedconversation。Fromthenatureoftheproblemitcouldnotbeexhaustive;buttowardtheendofittheywerebothfeelingthoroughlyexhausted。Mrs。Travershadnolongertobeinstructedastofactsandpossibilities。Shewasawareofthemonlytoowellanditwasnotherparttoadviseorargue。Shewasnotcalledupontodecideortoplead。Thesituationwasfarbeyondthat。Butshewaswornoutwithwatchingthepassionateconflictwithinthemanwhowasbothsodesperatelyrecklessandsorigidlyrestrainedintheveryardourofhisheartandthegreatnessofhissoul。Itwasaspectaclethatmadeherforgettheactualquestionsatissue。Thiswasnostageplay;andyetshehadcaughtherselflookingathimwithbatedbreathasatagreatactoronadarkenedstageinsomesimpleandtremendousdrama。Heextortedfromheraresponsetotheforcesthatseemedtotearathissingle—mindedbrain,athisguilelessbreast。Heshookherwithhisownstruggles,hepossessedherwithhisemotionsandimposedhispersonalityasifitstragedyweretheonlythingworthconsideringinthismatter。 Andyetwhathadshetodowithallthoseobscureandbarbarousthings?Obviouslynothing。Unluckilyshehadbeentakenintotheconfidenceofthatman’spassionateperplexity,aconfidenceprovokedapparentlybynothingbutthepowerofherpersonality。 Shewasflattered,andevenmore,shewastouchedbyit;shewasawareofsomethingthatresembledgratitudeandprovokedasortofemotionalreturnasbetweenequalswhohadsecretlyrecognizedeachother’svalue。Yetatthesametimesheregrettednothavingbeenleftinthedark;asmuchinthedarkasMr。Travershimselford’Alcacer,thoughastothelatteritwasimpossibletosayhowmuchprecise,unaccountable,intuitiveknowledgewasburiedunderhisunruffledmanner。 D’Alcacerwasthesortofmanwhomitwouldbemucheasiertosuspectofanythingintheworldthanignorance——orstupidity。 Naturallyhecouldn’tknowanythingdefiniteorevenguessatthebareoutlineofthefactsbutsomehowhemusthavescentedthesituationinthosefewdaysofcontactwithLingard。HewasanacuteandsympatheticobserverinallhissecretaloofnessfromthelifeofmenwhichwassoverydifferentfromJorgenson’ssecretdivorcefromthepassionsofthisearth。Mrs。Traverswouldhavelikedtosharewithd’Alcacertheburden(foritwasaburden)ofLingard’sstory。Afterall,shehadnotprovokedthoseconfidences,neitherhadthatunexpectedadventurerfromthesealaidonheranobligationofsecrecy。No,notevenbyimplication。HehadneversaidtoherthatshewastheONLY personwhomhewishedtoknowthatstory。 No。WhathehadsaidwasthatshewastheonlypersontowhomheCOULDtellthetalehimself,asifnooneelseonearthhadthepowertodrawitfromhim。Thatwasthesenseandnothingmore。 Yes,itwouldhavebeenarelieftotelld’Alcacer。ItwouldhavebeenarelieftoherfeelingofbeingshutofffromtheworldalonewithLingardasifwithinthefourwallsofaromanticpalaceandinanexoticatmosphere。Yes,thatreliefandalsoanother:thatofsharingtheresponsibilitywithsomebodyfittounderstand。Yetsheshrankfromit,withunaccountablereserve,asifbytalkingofLingardwithd’Alcacershewasboundtogivehimaninsightintoherself。Itwasavagueuneasinessandyetsopersistentthatshefeltit,too,whenshehadtoapproachandtalktoLingardunderd’Alcacer’seyes。NotthatMr。d’Alcacerwouldeverdreamofstaringorevencastingglances。Butwasheavertinghiseyesonpurpose?Thatwouldbeevenmoreoffensive。