\"Didyouseethemboth,Jorgenson?\"askedLingard。
\"Madeoutnobody。Toofar。Toodark。\"
AsamatteroffactJorgensonhadseennothing,aboutanhourbeforedaybreak,butthedistantglareoftorcheswhiletheloudshoutsofanexcitedmultitudehadreachedhimacrossthewateronlylikeafaintandtempestuousmurmur。Presentlythelightswentawayprocessionallythroughthegrovesoftreesintothearmedstockades。Thedistantglarevanishedinthefadingdarknessandthemurmursoftheinvisiblecrowdceasedsuddenlyasifcarriedoffbytheretreatingshadowofthenight。Daylightfollowedswiftly,disclosingtothesleeplessJorgensonthesolitudeoftheshoreandtheghostlyoutlinesofthefamiliarformsofgroupedtreesandscatteredhumanhabitations。Hehadwatchedthevariedcolourscomeoutinthedawn,thewidecultivatedSettlementofmanyshadesofgreen,framedfarawaybythefineblacklinesoftheforest—edgethatwasitslimitanditsprotection。
Mrs。Traversstoodagainsttherailasmotionlessasastatue。
Herfacehadlostallitsmobilityandhercheeksweredeadwhiteasifallthebloodinherbodyhadflowedbackintoherheartandhadremainedthere。Herverylipshadlosttheircolour。
Lingardcaughtholdofherarmroughly。
\"Don’t,Mrs。Travers。Whyareyouterrifyingyourselflikethis?
Ifyoudon’tbelievewhatIsaylistentomeaskingJorgenson……\"
\"Yes,askme,\"mumbledJorgensoninhiswhitemoustache。
\"Speakstraight,Jorgenson。Whatdoyouthink?Arethegentlemenalive?\"
\"Certainly,\"saidJorgensoninasortofdisappointedtoneasthoughhehadexpectedamuchmoredifficultquestion。
\"Istheirlifeinimmediatedanger?\"
\"Ofcoursenot,\"saidJorgenson。
Lingardturnedawayfromtheoracle。\"Youhaveheardhim,Mrs。
Travers。Youmaybelieveeverywordhesays。Thereisn’tathoughtorapurposeinthatSettlement,\"hecontinued,pointingatthedumbsolitudeofthelagoon,\"thatthismandoesn’tknowasiftheywerehisown。\"
\"Iknow。Askme,\"mutteredJorgenson,mechanically。
Mrs。Traverssaidnothingbutmadeaslightmovementandherwholerigidfigureswayeddangerously。LingardputhisarmfirmlyroundherwaistandshedidnotseemawareofittillaftershehadturnedherheadandfoundLingard’sfaceverynearherown。
Buthiseyesfullofconcernlookedsocloseintohersthatshewasobligedtoshutthemlikeawomanabouttofaint。
TheeffectthisproduceduponLingardwassuchthatshefeltthetighteningofhisarmandassheopenedhereyesagainsomeofthecolourreturnedtoherface。Shemetthedeepenedexpressionofhissolicitudewithalooksosteady,withagazethatinspiteofherselfwassoprofoundlyvividthatitsclearnessseemedtoLingardtothrowallhispastlifeintoshade。——\"I
don’tfeelfaint。Itisn’tthatatall,\"shedeclaredinaperfectlycalmvoice。ItseemedtoLingardascoldasice。
\"Verywell,\"heagreedwitharesignedsmile。\"Butyoujustcatchholdofthatrail,please,beforeIletyougo。\"She,too,forcedasmileonherlips。
\"Whatincredulity,\"sheremarked,andforatimemadenottheslightestmovement。Atlast,asifmakingaconcession,sherestedthetipsofherfingersontherail。Lingardgraduallyremovedhisarm。\"Andpraydon’tlookuponmeasaconventional’weakwoman’person,thedelicateladyofyourownconception,\"
shesaid,facingLingard,withherarmextendedtotherail。
\"Makethateffortpleaseagainstyourownconceptionofwhatawomanlikemeshouldbe。Iamperhapsasstrongasyouare,CaptainLingard。Imeanitliterally。Inmybody。\"——\"Don’tyouthinkIhaveseenthatlongago?\"sheheardhisdeepvoiceprotesting。——\"Andastomycourage,\"Mrs。Traverscontinued,herexpressioncharminglyundecidedbetweenfrownsandsmiles;
\"didn’tItellyouonlyafewhoursago,onlylastevening,thatIwasnotcapableofthinkingmyselfintoafright;youremember,whenyouwerebeggingmetotrysomethingofthekind。Don’timaginethatIwouldhavebeenashamedtotry。ButIcouldn’thavedoneit。No。Notevenforthesakeofsomebodyelse’skingdom。Doyouunderstandme?\"
\"Godknows,\"saidtheattentiveLingardafteratime,withanunexpectedsigh。\"Youpeopleseemtobemadeofanotherstuff。\"
\"Whathasputthatabsurdnotionintoyourhead?\"
\"Ididn’tmeanbetterorworse。AndIwouldn’tsayitisn’tgoodstuffeither。WhatImeanttosayisthatit’sdifferent。Onefeelsit。Andhereweare。\"
\"Yes,hereweare,\"repeatedMrs。Travers。\"Andastothismomentofemotion,whatprovokeditisnotaconcernforanybodyoranythingoutsidemyself。Ifeltnoterror。Icannotevenfixmyfearsuponanydistinctimage。YouthinkIamshamelesslyheartlessintellingyouthis。\"
Lingardmadenosign。Itdidn’toccurtohimtomakeasign。HesimplyhungonMrs。Travers’wordsasitwereonlyforthesakeofthesound。——\"Iamsimplyfrankwithyou,\"shecontinued。\"WhatdoIknowofsavagery,violence,murder?Ihaveneverseenadeadbodyinmylife。Thelight,thesilence,themysteriousemptinessofthisplacehavesuddenlyaffectedmyimagination,Isuppose。
Whatisthemeaningofthiswonderfulpeaceinwhichwestand——youandIalone?\"
Lingardshookhishead。Hesawthenarrowgleamofthewoman’steethbetweenthepartedlipsofhersmile,asifalltheardourofherconvictionhadbeendissolvedattheendofherspeechintowistfulrecognitionoftheirpartnershipbeforethingsoutsidetheirknowledge。Andhewaswarmedbysomethingalittlehelplessinthatsmile。WithinthreefeetofthemtheshadeofJorgenson,verygauntandneat,staredintospace。
\"Yes。Youarestrong,\"saidLingard。\"Butawholelongnightsittinginasmallboat!Iwonderyouarenottoostifftostand。\"
\"Iamnotstiffintheleast,\"sheinterrupted,stillsmiling。\"I
amreallyaverystrongwoman,\"sheadded,earnestly。\"Whateverhappensyoumayreckononthatfact。\"
Lingardgaveheranadmiringglance。ButtheshadeofJorgenson,perhapscatchinginitsremotenessthesoundofthewordwoman,wassuddenlymovedtobeginscoldingwithallthelibertyofaghost,inaflowofpassionlessindignation。
\"Woman!That’swhatIsay。That’sjustaboutthelasttouch——thatyou,TomLingard,red—eyedTom,KingTom,andallthosefinenames,thatyoushouldleaveyourweaponstwentymilesbehindyou,yourmen,yourguns,yourbrigthatisyourstrength,andcomealongherewithyourmouthfulloffight,bare—handedandwithawomanintow。——Well——well!\"
\"Don’tforget,Jorgenson,thattheladyhearsyou,\"remonstratedLingardinavexedtone……\"Hedoesn’tmeantoberude,\"heremarkedtoMrs。Traversquiteloud,asifindeedJorgensonwerebutanimmaterialandfeelinglessillusion。\"Hehasforgotten。\"
\"Thewomanisnotintheleastoffended。Iaskfornothingbetterthantobetakenonthatfooting。\"
\"Forgotnothing!\"mumbledJorgensonwithasortofghostlyassertivenessandasitwereforhisownsatisfaction。\"What’stheworldcomingto?\"
\"ItwasIwhoinsistedoncomingwithCaptainLingard,\"saidMrs。
Travers,treatingJorgensontoafascinatingsweetnessoftone。
\"That’swhatIsay!Whatistheworldcomingto?Hasn’tKingTomamindofhisown?Whathascomeoverhim?He’smad!Leavinghisbrigwithahundredandtwentybornandbredpiratesoftheworstkindintwoprausontheothersideofasandbank。Didyouinsistonthat,too?Hasheputhimselfinthehandsofastrangewoman?\"
Jorgensonseemedtobeaskingthosequestionsofhimself。Mrs。
Traversobservedtheemptystare,theself—communingvoice,hisunearthlylackofanimation。Somehowitmadeitveryeasytospeakthewholetruthtohim。
\"No,\"shesaid,\"itisIwhoamaltogetherinhishands。\"
NobodywouldhaveguessedthatJorgensonhadheardasinglewordofthatemphaticdeclarationifhehadnotaddressedhimselftoLingardwiththequestionneithermorenorlessabstractedthanallhisotherspeeches。
\"Whythendidyoubringheralong?\"
\"Youdon’tunderstand。Itwasonlyrightandproper。Oneofthegentlemenisthelady’shusband。\"
\"Oh,yes,\"mutteredJorgenson。\"Who’stheother?\"
\"Youhavebeentold。Afriend。\"
\"PoorMr。d’Alcacer,\"saidMrs。Travers。\"Whatbadluckforhimtohaveacceptedourinvitation。Butheisreallyamereacquaintance。\"
\"Ihardlynoticedhim,\"observedLingard,gloomily。\"HewastalkingtoyouoverthebackofyourchairwhenIcameaboardtheyachtasifhehadbeenaverygoodfriend。\"
\"Wealwaysunderstoodeachotherverywell,\"saidMrs。Travers,pickingupfromtherailthelongglassthatwaslyingthere。\"I
alwayslikedhim,thefranknessofhismind,andhisgreatloyalty。\"
\"Whatdidhedo?\"askedLingard。
\"Heloved,\"saidMrs。Travers,lightly。\"Butthat’sanoldstory。\"Sheraisedtheglasstohereyes,onearmextendedfullytosustainthelongtube,andLingardforgotd’Alcacerinadmiringthefirmnessofherposeandtheabsolutesteadinessoftheheavyglass。Shewasasfirmasarockafterallthoseemotionsandallthatfatigue。
Mrs。Traversdirectedtheglassinstinctivelytowardtheentranceofthelagoon。Thesmoothwaterthereshonelikeapieceofsilverinthedarkframeoftheforest。Ablackspecksweptacrossthefieldofhervision。Itwassometimebeforeshecouldfinditagainandthenshesaw,apparentlysonearastobewithinreachofthevoice,asmallcanoewithtwopeopleinit。
Shesawthewetpaddlesrisinganddippingwithaflashinthesunlight。ShemadeoutplainlythefaceofImmada,whoseemedtobelookingstraightintothebigendofthetelescope。Thechiefandhissister,afterrestingunderthebankforacoupleofhoursinthemiddleofthenight,hadenteredthelagoonandweremakingstraightforthehulk。Theywerealreadynearenoughtobeperfectlydistinguishabletothenakedeyeiftherehadbeenanybodyonboardtoglancethatway。Butnobodywaseventhinkingofthem。TheymightnothaveexistedexceptperhapsinthememoryofoldJorgenson。Butthatwasmostlybusywithallthemysterioussecretsofhislatetomb。
Mrs。Traversloweredtheglasssuddenly。Lingardcameoutfromasortoftranceandsaid:
\"Mr。d’Alcacer。Loved!Whyshouldn’the?\"
Mrs。TraverslookedfranklyintoLingard’sgloomyeyes。\"Itisn’tthatalone,ofcourse,\"shesaid。\"Firstofallheknewhowtoloveandthen……Youdon’tknowhowartificialandbarrencertainkindsoflifecanbe。ButMr。d’Alcacer’slifewasnotthat。Hisdevotionwasworthhaving。\"
\"Youseemtoknowalotabouthim,’\"saidLingard,enviously。
\"Whydoyousmile?\"Shecontinuedtosmileathimforalittlewhile。Thelongbrasstubeoverhershouldershonelikegoldagainstthepalefairnessofherbarehead。——\"Atathought,\"sheanswered,preservingthelowtoneoftheconversationintowhichtheyhadfallenasiftheirwordscouldhavedisturbedtheself—absorptionofCaptainH。C。Jorgenson。\"AtthethoughtthatforallmylongacquaintancewithMr。d’AlcacerIdon’tknowhalfasmuchabouthimasIknowaboutyou。\"
\"Ah,that’simpossible,\"contradictedLingard。\"SpaniardornoSpaniard,heisoneofyourkind。\"
\"Tarredwiththesamebrush,\"murmuredMrs。Travers,withonlyahalf—amusedirony。ButLingardcontinued:
\"Hewastryingtomakeitupbetweenmeandyourhusband,wasn’the?Iwastooangrytopaymuchattention,butIlikedhimwellenough。Whatpleasedmemostwasthewayinwhichhegaveitup。
Thatwasdonelikeagentleman。DoyouunderstandwhatImean,Mrs。Travers?\"
\"Iquiteunderstand。\"
\"Yes,youwould,\"hecommented,simply。\"ButjustthenIwastooangrytotalktoanybody。AndsoIclearedoutonboardmyownshipandstayedthere,notknowingwhattodoandwishingyouallatthebottomofthesea。Don’tmistakeme,Mrs。Travers;it’syou,thepeopleaft,thatIwishedatthebottomofthesea。I
hadnothingagainstthepoordevilsonboard,Theywouldhavetrustedmequickenough。SoIfumedtheretill——till……\"
\"Tillnineo’clockoralittleafter,\"suggestedMrs。Travers,impenetrably。
\"No。TillIrememberedyou,\"saidLingardwiththeutmostinnocence。
\"Doyoumeantosaythatyouforgotmyexistencesocompletelytillthen?Youhadspokentomeonboardtheyacht,youknow。\"
\"DidI?IthoughtIdid。WhatdidIsay?\"
\"Youtoldmenottotouchaduskyprincess,\"answeredMrs。
Traverswithashortlaugh。Thenwithavisiblechangeofmoodasifshehadsuddenlyoutofalightheartbeenrecalledtothesenseofthetruesituation:\"ButindeedImeantnoharmtothisfigureofyourdream。And,lookoverthere。Sheispursuingyou。\"
Lingardglancedtowardthenorthshoreandsuppressedanexclamationofremorse。ForthesecondtimehediscoveredthathehadforgottentheexistenceofHassimandImmada。ThecanoewasnownearenoughforitsoccupantstodistinguishplainlytheheadsofthreepeopleabovethelowbulwarkoftheEmma。Immadaletherpaddletrailsuddenlyinthewater,withtheexclamation,\"Iseethewhitewomanthere。\"Herbrotherlookedoverhisshoulderandthecanoefloated,arrestedasifbythesuddenpowerofaspell。——\"Theyarenodreamtome,\"mutteredLingard,sturdily。Mrs。Traversturnedabruptlyawaytolookatthefurthershore。Itwasstillandemptytothenakedeyeandseemedtoquiverinthesunshinelikeanimmensepaintedcurtainloweredupontheunknown。
\"Here’sRajahHassimcoming,Jorgenson。Ihadanideahewouldperhapsstayoutside。\"Mrs。TraversheardLingard’svoiceatherbackandtheansweringgruntofJorgenson。Sheraiseddeliberatelythelongglasstohereye,pointingitattheshore。
ShedistinguishedplainlynowthecoloursintheflutterofthestreamersabovethebrownroofsofthelargeSettlement,thestirofpalmgroves,theblackshadowsinlandandthedazzlingwhitebeachofcoralsandallablazeinitsformidablemystery。Shesweptthewholerangeoftheviewandwasgoingtolowertheglasswhenfrombehindthemassiveangleofthestockadetheresteppedoutintothebrilliantimmobilityofthelandscapeamaninalongwhitegownandwithanenormousblackturbansurmountingadarkface。Slowandgravehepacedthebeachominouslyinthesunshine,anenigmaticalfigureinanOrientaltalewithsomethingweirdandmenacinginitssuddenemergenceandlonelyprogress。
WithaninvoluntarygaspMrs。Traversloweredtheglass。Allatoncebehindherbacksheheardalowmusicalvoicebeginningtopouroutincomprehensiblewordsinatoneofpassionatepleading。
HassimandImmadahadcomeonboardandhadapproachedLingard。
Yes!Itwasintolerabletofeelthatthisflowofsoftspeechwhichhadnomeaningforhercouldmakeitswaystraightintothatman’sheart。
PARTV。THEPOINTOFHONOURANDTHEPOINTOFPASSION
I
\"MayIcomein?\"
\"Yes,\"saidavoicewithin。\"Thedoorisopen。\"Ithadawoodenlatch。Mr。Traverslifteditwhilethevoiceofhiswifecontinuedasheentered。\"DidyouimagineIhadlockedmyselfin?
Didyoueverknowmelockmyselfin?\"
Mr。Traversclosedthedoorbehindhim。\"No,ithasnevercometothat,\"hesaidinatonethatwasnotconciliatory。Inthatplacewhichwasaroominawoodenhutandhadasquareopeningwithoutglassbutwithahalf—closedshutterhecouldnotdistinguishhiswifeverywellatonce。Shewassittinginanarmchairandwhathecouldseebestwasherfairhairalllooseoverthebackofthechair。Therewasamomentofsilence。Themeasuredfootstepsoftwomenpacingathwartthequarter—deckofthedeadshipEmmacommandedbythederelictshadeofJorgensoncouldbeheardoutside。
Jorgenson,ontakinguphisdeadcommand,hadahouseofthinboardsbuiltontheafterdeckforhisownaccommodationandthatofLingardduringhisflyingvisitstotheShoreofRefuge。A
narrowpassagedivideditintwoandLingard’ssidewasfurnishedwithacampbedstead,aroughdesk,andarattanarmchair。OnoneofhisvisitsLingardhadbroughtwithhimablackseaman’schestandleftitthere。Apartfromtheseobjectsandasmalllooking—glassworthabouthalfacrownandnailedtothewalltherewasnothingelseintherewhatever。WhatwasonJorgenson’ssideofthedeckhousenoonehadseen,butfromexternalevidenceonecouldinfertheexistenceofasetofrazors。
Theerectionofthatprimitivedeckhousewasamatterofproprietyratherthanofnecessity。Itwasproperthatthewhitemenshouldhaveaplacetothemselvesonboard,butLingardwasperfectlyaccuratewhenhetoldMrs。Traversthathehadneversleptthereonce。Hispracticewastosleepondeck。AstoJorgenson,ifhedidsleepatallhesleptverylittle。ItmighthavebeensaidthathehauntedratherthancommandedtheEmma。
Hiswhiteformflittedhereandthereinthenightorstoodforhours,silent,contemplatingthesombreglimmerofthelagoon。
Mr。Travers’eyesaccustomedgraduallytotheduskoftheplacecouldnowdistinguishmoreofhiswife’spersonthanthegreatmassofhoney—colouredhair。Hesawherface,thedarkeyebrowsandhereyesthatseemedprofoundlyblackinthehalflight。Hesaid:
\"Youcouldn’thavedonesohere。Thereisneitherlocknorbolt。\"
\"Isn’tthere?Ididn’tnotice。Iwouldknowhowtoprotectmyselfwithoutlocksandbolts。\"
\"Iamgladtohearit,\"saidMr。Traversinasullentoneandfellsilentagainsurveyingthewomaninthechair。\"Indulgingyourtasteforfancydress,\"hewentonwithfaintirony。
Mrs。Traversclaspedherhandsbehindherhead。Thewidesleevesslippingbackbaredherarmstohershoulders。ShewaswearingaMalaythincottonjacket,cutlowintheneckwithoutacollarandfastenedwithwroughtsilverclaspsfromthethroatdownward。
Shehadreplacedheryachtingskirtbyabluechecksarongembroideredwiththreadsofgold。Mr。Travers’eyestravellingslowlydownattachedthemselvestothegleaminginstepofanagitatedfootfromwhichhungalightleathersandal。
\"IhadnoclotheswithmebutwhatIstoodin,\"saidMrs。
Travers。\"Ifoundmyyachtingcostumetooheavy。Itwasintolerable。IwassoakedindewwhenIarrived。Sowhenthesethingswereproducedformyinspection……\"
\"Byenchantment,\"mutteredMr。Traversinatonetooheavyforsarcasm。
\"No。Outofthatchest。Thereareveryfinestuffsthere。\"
\"Nodoubt,\"saidMr。Travers。\"Themanwouldn’tbeaboveplunderingthenatives……\"Hesatdownheavilyonthechest。
\"Amostappropriatecostumeforthisfarce,\"hecontinued。\"Butdoyoumeantowearitinopendaylightaboutthedecks?\"
\"IndeedIdo,\"saidMrs。Travers。\"D’Alcacerhasseenmealreadyandhedidn’tseemshocked。\"
\"Youshould,\"saidMr。Travers,\"trytogetyourselfpresentedwithsomebanglesforyouranklessothatyoumayjingleasyouwalk。\"
\"Banglesarenotnecessities,\"saidMrs。Traversinawearytoneandwiththefixedupwardlookofapersonunwillingtorelinquishherdream。Mr。Traversdroppedthesubjecttoask:
\"Andhowlongisthisfarcegoingtolast?\"
Mrs。Traversunclaspedherhands,loweredherglance,andchangedherwholeposeinamoment。
\"Whatdoyoumeanbyfarce?Whatfarce?\"
\"Theonewhichisbeingplayedatmyexpense。\"
\"Youbelievethat?\"
\"Notonlybelieve。Ifeeldeeplythatitisso。Atmyexpense。
It’samostsinisterthing,\"Mr。Traverspursued,stillwithdowncasteyesandinanunforgivingtone。\"ImusttellyouthatwhenIsawyouinthatcourtyardinacrowdofnativesandleaningonthatman’sarm,itgavemequiteashock。\"
\"DidI,too,looksinister?\"saidMrs。Travers,turningherheadslightlytowardherhusband。\"AndyetIassureyouthatIwasglad,profoundlyglad,toseeyousafefromdangerforatimeatleast。Togaintimeiseverything……\"
\"Iaskmyself,\"Mr。Traversmeditatedaloud,\"wasIeverindanger?AmIsafenow?Idon’tknow。Ican’ttell。No!Allthisseemsanabominablefarce。\"
Therewasthatinhistonewhichmadehiswifecontinuetolookathimwithawakenedinterest。Itwasobviousthathesufferedfromadistresswhichwasnottheeffectoffear;andMrs。
Travers’faceexpressedrealconcerntillheaddedinafreezingmanner:\"Thequestion,however,isastoyourdiscretion。\"
Sheleanedbackagaininthechairandletherhandsrestquietlyinherlap。\"Wouldyouhavepreferredmetoremainoutside,intheyacht,inthenearneighbourhoodofthesewildmenwhocapturedyou?Ordoyouthinkthatthey,too,weregotuptocarryonafarce?\"
\"Mostdecidedly。\"Mr。Traversraisedhishead,thoughofcoursenothisvoice。\"Yououghttohaveremainedintheyachtamongstwhitemen,yourservants,thesailing—master,thecrewwhosedutyitwasto……Whowouldhavebeenreadytodieforyou。\"
\"Iwonderwhytheyshouldhave——andwhyIshouldhaveaskedthemforthatsacrifice。However,Ihavenodoubttheywouldhavedied。Orwouldyouhavepreferredmetotakeupmyquartersonboardthatman’sbrig?Wewereallfairlysafethere。TherealreasonwhyIinsistedoncominginherewastobenearertoyou——toseeformyselfwhatcouldbeorwasbeingdone……ButreallyifyouwantmetoexplainmymotivesthenImayjustaswellsaynothing。Icouldn’tremainoutsidefordayswithoutnews,inastateofhorribledoubt。Wecouldn’teventellwhetheryouandd’Alcacerwerestillalivetillwearrivedhere。Youmighthavebeenactuallymurderedonthesandbank,afterRajahHassimandthatgirlhadgoneaway;orkilledwhilegoinguptheriver。AndIwantedtoknowatonce,assoonaspossible。Itwasamatterofimpulse。IwentoffinwhatIstoodinwithoutdelayingamoment。\"
\"Yes,\"saidMr。Travers。\"Andwithouteventhinkingofhavingafewthingsputupformeinabag。Nodoubtyouwereinastateofexcitement。Unlessyoutooksuchatragicviewthatitseemedtoyouhardlyworthwhiletobotheraboutmyclothes。\"
\"Itwasabsolutelytheimpulseofthemoment。Icouldhavedonenothingelse。Won’tyougivemecreditforit?\"
Mr。Traversraisedhiseyesagaintohiswife’sface。Hesawitcalm,herattitudereposeful。Tillthenhistonehadbeenresentful,dull,withoutsarcasm。Butnowhebecameslightlypompous。
\"No。Asamatteroffact,asamatterofexperience,Ican’tcredityouwiththepossessionoffeelingsappropriatetoyourorigin,socialposition,andtheideasoftheclasstowhichyoubelong。Itwastheheaviestdisappointmentofmylife。IhadmadeupmymindnottomentionitaslongasIlived。This,however,seemsanoccasionwhichyouhaveprovokedyourself。Itisn’tatallasolemnoccasion。Idon’tlookuponitassolemnatall。
It’sverydisagreeableandhumiliating。Butithaspresenteditself。Youhavenevertakenaseriousinterestintheactivitiesofmylifewhichofcourseareitsdistinctionanditsvalue。AndwhyyoushouldbecarriedawaysuddenlybyafeelingtowardthemeremanIdon’tunderstand。\"
\"Thereforeyoudon’tapprove,\"Mrs。Traverscommentedinaneventone。\"ButIassureyou,youmaysafely。Myfeelingwasofthemostconventionalnature,exactlyasifthewholeworldwerelookingon。Afterall,wearehusbandandwife。It’seminentlyfittingthatIshouldbeconcernedaboutyourfate。Eventhemanyoudistrustanddislikesomuch(thewarmestfeeling,letmetellyou,thatIeversawyoudisplay)eventhatmanfoundmyconductperfectlyproper。Hisownword。Proper。Soeminentlyproperthatitaltogethersilencedhisobjections。\"
Mr。Traversshifteduneasilyonhisseat。
\"It’smybelief,Edith,thatifyouhadbeenamanyouwouldhaveledamostirregularlife。Youwouldhavebeenafrankadventurer。Imeanmorally。Ithasbeenagreatgrieftome。Youhaveascorninyoufortheserioussideoflife,fortheideasandtheambitionsofthesocialspheretowhichyoubelong。\"
Hestoppedbecausehiswifehadclaspedagainherhandsbehindherheadandwasnolongerlookingathim。
\"It’sperfectlyobvious,\"hebeganagain。\"Wehavebeenlivingamongstmostdistinguishedmenandwomenandyourattitudetothemhasbeenalwaysso——sonegative!Youwouldneverrecognizetheimportanceofachievements,ofacquiredpositions。Idon’trememberyoueveradmiringfranklyanypoliticalorsocialsuccess。Iaskmyselfwhatafterallyoucouldpossiblyhaveexpectedfromlife。\"