\"Yes,itisveryhardtothinkthatIwhowanttotouchyoucannotmakemyselfunderstoodaswellasthey。AndyetIspeakthelanguageofyourchildhood,thelanguageofthemanforwhomthereisnohopebutinyourgenerosity。\"
Heshookhishead。Shegazedathimanxiouslyforamoment。\"Inyourmemoriesthen,\"shesaidandwassurprisedbytheexpressionofprofoundsadnessthatover—spreadhisattentiveface。
\"DoyouknowwhatIremember?\"hesaid。\"Doyouwanttoknow?\"
Shelistenedwithslightlypartedlips。\"Iwilltellyou。
Poverty,hardwork——anddeath,\"hewenton,veryquietly。\"AndnowI’vetoldyou,andyoudon’tknow。That’showitisbetweenus。Youtalktome——Italktoyou——andwedon’tknow。\"
Hereyelidsdropped。
\"WhatcanIfindtosay?\"shewenton。\"WhatcanIdo?Imustn’tgivein。Think!Amongstyourmemoriestheremustbesomeface——somevoice——somename,ifnothingmore。Icannotbelievethatthereisnothingbutbitterness。\"
\"There’snobitterness,\"hemurmured。
\"O!Brother,myheartisfaintwithfear,\"whisperedImmada。
Lingardturnedswiftlytothatwhisper。
\"Then,theyaretobesaved,\"exclaimedMrs。Travers。\"Ah,I
knew……\"
\"Bearthyfearinpatience,\"saidHassim,rapidly,tohissister。
\"Theyaretobesaved。Youhavesaidit,\"Lingardpronouncedaloud,suddenly。Hefeltlikeaswimmerwho,inthemidstofsuperhumaneffortstoreachtheshore,perceivesthattheundertowistakinghimtosea。Hewouldgowiththemysteriouscurrent;hewouldgoswiftly——andseetheend,thefulfilmentbothblissfulandterrible。
Withthisstateofexaltationinwhichhesawhimselfinsomeincomprehensiblewayalwaysvictorious,whatevermightbefall,therewasmingledatenacityofpurpose。Hecouldnotsacrificehisintention,theintentionofyears,theintentionofhislife;
hecouldnomorepartwithitandexistthanhecouldcutouthisheartandlive。Theadventurerheldfasttohisadventurewhichmadehiminhisownsightexactlywhathewas。
Heconsideredtheproblemwithcoolaudacity,backedbyabeliefinhisownpower。Itwasnotthesetwomenhehadtosave;hehadtosavehimself!Andlookeduponinthiswaythesituationappearedfamiliar。
HassimhadtoldhimthetwowhitemenhadbeentakenbytheircaptorstoDaman’scamp。TheyoungRajah,leavinghissisterinthecanoe,hadlandedonthesandandhadcrepttotheveryedgeoflightthrownbythefiresbywhichtheIllanunswerecooking。
Damanwassittingapartbyalargerblaze。Twoprausrodeinshallowwaternearthesandbank;ontheridge,asentrywalkedwatchingthelightsofthebrig;thecampwasfullofquietwhispers。Hassimreturnedtohiscanoe,thenheandhissister,paddlingcautiouslyroundtheanchoredpraus,inwhichwomen’svoicescouldbeheard,approachedtheotherendofthecamp。Thelightofthebigblazetherefellonthewaterandthecanoeskirteditwithoutasplash,keepinginthenight。Hassim,landingforthesecondtime,creptagainclosetothefires。Eachprauhad,accordingtothecustomsoftheIllanunroverswhenonaraidingexpedition,asmallerwar—boatandthesebeinglightandmanageablewerehauleduponthesandnotfarfromthebigblaze;theysathighontheshelvingshorethrowingheavyshadows。Hassimcreptuptowardthelargestofthemandthenstandingontiptoecouldlookatthecampacrossthegunwales。
Theconfusedtalkingofthemenwaslikethebuzzofinsectsinaforest。Achildwailedonboardoneoftheprausandawomanhailedtheshoreshrilly。Hassimunsheathedhiskrisandhelditinhishand。
Verysoon——hesaid——hesawthetwowhitemenwalkingamongstthefires。Theywavedtheirarmsandtalkedtogether,stoppingfromtimetotime;theyapproachedDaman;andtheshortmanwiththehaironhisfaceaddressedhimearnestlyandatgreatlength。
DamansatcrossleggeduponalittlecarpetwithanopenKoranonhiskneesandchantedtheversetsswayingtoandfrowithhiseyesshut。
TheIllanunchiefsrecliningwrappedincloaksonthegroundraisedthemselvesontheirelbowstolookatthewhites。Whentheshortwhitemanfinishedspeakinghegazeddownatthemforawhile,thenstampedhisfoot。Helookedangrybecausenooneunderstoodhim。Thensuddenlyhelookedverysad;hecoveredhisfacewithhishands;thetallmanputhishandontheshortman’sshoulderandwhisperedintohisear。Thedrywoodofthefirescrackled,theIllanunsslept,cooked,talked,butwiththeirweaponsathand。Anarmedmanortwocameuptostareattheprisonersandthenreturnedtotheirfire。ThetwowhitessankdowninthesandinfrontofDaman。Theirclothesweresoiled,therewassandintheirhair。Thetallmanhadlosthishat;theglassintheeyeoftheshortmanglitteredverymuch;hisbackwasmuddyandonesleeveofhiscoattornuptotheelbow。
AllthisHassimsawandthenretreatedundetectedtothatpartoftheshorewhereImmadawaitedforhim,keepingthecanoeafloat。
TheIllanuns,trustingtothesea,keptverybadwatchontheirprisoners,andhadhebeenabletospeakwiththemHassimthoughtanescapecouldhavebeeneffected。Buttheycouldnothaveunderstoodhissignsandstilllesshiswords。Heconsultedwithhissister。Immadamurmuredsadly;attheirfeettheripplebrokewithamournfulsoundnolouderthantheirvoices。
Hassim’sloyaltywasunshaken,butnowitledhimonnotinthebrightlightofhopesbutinthedeepenedshadowofdoubt。Hewantedtoobtaininformationforhisfriendwhowassopowerfulandwhoperhapswouldknowhowtobeconstant。WhenfollowedbyImmadaheapproachedthecampagain——thistimeopenly——theirappearancedidnotexcitemuchsurprise。ItwaswellknowntotheChiefsoftheIllanunsthattheRajahforwhomtheyweretofight——ifGodsowilled——wasupontheshoalslookingoutforthecomingofthewhitemanwhohadmuchwealthandastoreofweaponsandwhowashisservant。Daman,whoaloneunderstoodtheexactrelation,welcomedthemwithimpenetrablegravity。Hassimtookhisseatonthecarpetathisrighthand。Aconsultationwasbeingheldhalf—aloudinshortandapparentlycarelesssentences,withlongintervalsofsilencebetween。Immada,nestlingclosetoherbrother,leanedonearmonhisshoulderandlistenedwithseriousattentionandwithoutwardcalmasbecameaprincessofWajoaccustomedtoconsortwithwarriorsandstatesmeninmomentsofdangerandinthehoursofdeliberation。Herheartwasbeatingrapidly,andfacingherthesilentwhitemenstaredatthesetwoknownfaces,asifacrossagulf。FourIllanunchiefssatinarow。Theiramplecloaksfellfromtheirshoulders,andlaybehindthemonthesandinwhichtheirfourlonglanceswereplantedupright,eachsupportingasmalloblongshieldofwood,carvedontheedgesandstainedadullpurple。Damanstretchedouthisarmandpointedattheprisoners。Thefacesofthewhitemenwereveryquiet。Damanlookedatthemmutelyandardently,asifconsumedbyanunspeakablelonging。
TheKoran,inasilkcover,hungonhisbreastbyacrimsoncord。
Itrestedoverhisheartand,justbelow,theplainbuffalo—hornhandleofakris,stuckintothetwistofhissarong,protrudedreadytohishand。Thecloudsthickeningoverthecampmadethedarknesspressheavilyontheglowofscatteredfires。\"Thereisbloodbetweenmeandthewhites,\"hepronounced,violently。TheIllanunchiefsremainedimpassive。Therewasbloodbetweenthemandallmankind。Hassimremarkeddispassionatelythattherewasonewhitemanwithwhomitwouldbewisetoremainfriendly;andbesides,wasnotDamanhisfriendalready?Damansmiledwithhalf—closedeyes。Hewasthatwhiteman’sfriend,nothisslave。
TheIllanunsplayingwiththeirsword—handlesgruntedassent。
Why,askedDaman,didthesestrangewhitestravelsofarfromtheircountry?Thegreatwhitemanwhomtheyallknewdidnotwantthem。Noonewantedthem。Evilwouldfollowintheirfootsteps。Theyweresuchmenasaresentbyrulerstoexaminetheaspectsoffar—offcountriesandtalkofpeaceandmaketreaties。Suchisthebeginningofgreatsorrows。TheIllanunswerefarfromtheircountry,wherenowhitemandaredtocome,andthereforetheywerefreetoseektheirenemiesupontheopenwaters。Theyhadfoundthesetwowhohadcometosee。Heaskedwhattheyhadcometosee?Wastherenothingtolookatintheirowncountry?
Hetalkedinanironicandsubduedtone。Thescatteredheapsofembersglowedadeeperred;thebigblazeofthechief’sfiresanklowandgrewdimbeforeheceased。Straight—limbedfiguresrose,sank,moved,whisperedonthebeach。Hereandthereaspear—bladecaughtaredgleamabovetheblackshapeofahead。
\"TheIllanunsseekbootyonthesea,\"criedDaman。\"Theirfathersandthefathersoftheirfathershavedonethesame,beingfearlesslikethosewhoembracedeathclosely。\"
Alowlaughwasheard。\"Westrikeandgo,\"saidanexultingvoice。\"Weliveanddiewithourweaponsinourhands。\"TheIllanunsleapedtotheirfeet。Theystampedonthesand,flourishingnakedbladesovertheheadsoftheirprisoners。A
tumultarose。
WhenitsubsidedDamanstoodupinacloakthatwrappedhimtohisfeetandspokeagaingivingadvice。
Thewhitemensatonthesandandturnedtheireyesfromfacetofaceasiftryingtounderstand。Itwasagreedtosendtheprisonersintothelagoonwheretheirfatewouldbedecidedbytheruleroftheland。TheIllanunsonlywantedtoplundertheship。Theydidnotcarewhatbecameofthemen。\"ButDamancares,\"remarkedHassimtoLingard,whenrelatingwhattookplace。\"Hecares,OTuan!\"
HassimhadlearnedalsothattheSettlementwasinastateofunrestasifontheeveofwar。Belarabwithhisfollowerswasencampedbyhisfather’stombinthehollowbeyondthecultivatedfields。Hisstockadewasshutupandnooneappearedontheverandahsofthehouseswithin。Youcouldtelltherewerepeopleinsideonlybythesmokeofthecookingfires。Tengga’sfollowersmeantimeswaggeredabouttheSettlementbehavingtyrannicallytothosewhowerepeaceable。Agreatmadnesshaddescendeduponthepeople,amadnessstrongasthemadnessoflove,themadnessofbattle,thedesiretospillblood。Astrangefearalsohadmadethemwild。ThebigsmokeseenthatmorningabovetheforestsofthecoastwassomeagreedsignalfromTenggatoDamanbutwhatitmeantHassimhadbeenunabletofindout。HefearedforJorgenson’ssafety。Hesaidthatwhileoneofthewar—boatswasbeingmadereadytotakethecaptivesintothelagoon,heandhissisterleftthecampquietlyandgotawayintheircanoe。Theflaresofthebrig,reflectedinafaintloomupontheclouds,enabledthemtomakestraightforthevesselacrossthebanks。
Beforetheyhadgonehalfwaytheseflameswentoutandthedarknessseemeddenserthananyhehadknownbefore。Butitwasnogreaterthanthedarknessofhismind——headded。Hehadlookeduponthewhitemensittingunmovedandsilentundertheedgeofswords;hehadlookedatDaman,hehadheardbitterwordsspoken;
hewaslookingnowathiswhitefriend——andtheissueofeventshecouldnotsee。Onecanseemen’sfacesbuttheirfate,whichiswrittenontheirforeheads,onecannotsee。Hehadnomoretosay,andwhathehadspokenwastrueineveryword。
IV
LingardrepeateditalltoMrs。Travers。Hercourage,herintelligence,thequicknessofherapprehension,thecolourofhereyesandtheintrepidityofherglanceevokedinhimanadmiringenthusiasm。Shestoodbyhisside!Everymomentthatfatalillusionclungclosertohissoul——likeagarmentoflight——likeanarmouroffire。
Hewasunwillingtofacethefacts。Allhislife——tillthatday——hadbeenawrestlewitheventsinthedaylightofthisworld,butnowhecouldnotbringhismindtotheconsiderationofhisposition。ItwasMrs。Traverswho,afterwaitingawhile,forcedonhimthepainofthoughtbywantingtoknowwhatbearingHassim’snewshaduponthesituation。
LingardhadnottheslightestdoubtDamanwantedhimtoknowwhathadbeendonewiththeprisoners。ThatiswhyDamanhadwelcomedHassim,andlethimhearthedecisionandhadallowedhimtoleavethecamponthesandbank。Therecouldbeonlyoneobjectinthis;tolethim,Lingard,knowthattheprisonershadbeenputoutofhisreachaslongasheremainedinhisbrig。Nowthisbrigwashisstrength。Tomakehimleavehisbrigwaslikeremovinghishandfromhissword。
\"DoyouunderstandwhatImean,Mrs。Travers?\"heasked。\"TheyareafraidofmebecauseIknowhowtofightthisbrig。TheyfearthebrigbecausewhenIamonboardher,thebrigandIareone。
Anarmedman——don’tyousee?WithoutthebrigIamdisarmed,withoutmeshecan’tstrike。SoDamanthinks。Hedoesnotknoweverythingbutheisnotfaroffthetruth。HesaystohimselfthatifImantheboatstogoafterthesewhitesintothelagoonthenhisIllanunswillgettheyachtforsure——andperhapsthebrigaswell。IfIstopherewithmybrigheholdsthetwowhitemenandcantalkasbigashepleases。Belarabbelievesinmenodoubt,butDamantrustsnomanonearth。Hesimplydoesnotknowhowtotrustanyone,becauseheisalwaysplottinghimself。HecametohelpmeandassoonashefoundIwasnottherehebegantoplotwithTengga。Nowhehasmadeamove——aclevermove;acleverermovethanhethinks。Why?I’lltellyouwhy。BecauseI,TomLingard,haven’tasinglewhitemanaboardthisbrigIcantrust。Notone。Ionlyjustdiscoveredmymate’sgotthenotionI
amsomekindofpirate。Andallyouryachtpeoplethinkthesame。
Itisasthoughyouhadbroughtacurseonmeinyouryacht。
Nobodybelievesme。GoodGod!WhathaveIcometo!Eventhosetwo——lookatthem——Isaylookatthem!Byallthestarstheydoubtme!Me!……\"
HepointedatHassimandImmada。Thegirlseemedfrightened。
Hassimlookedoncalmandintelligentwithinexhaustiblepatience。Lingard’svoicefellsuddenly。
\"Andbyheavenstheymayberight。Whoknows?You?Doyouknow?
Theyhavewaitedforyears。Look。Theyarewaitingwithheavyhearts。DoyouthinkthatIdon’tcare?OughtItohavekeptitallin——toldnoone——noone——notevenyou?Aretheywaitingforwhatwillnevercomenow?\"
Mrs。Traversroseandmovedquicklyroundthetable。\"Canwegiveanythingtothis——thisDamanortheseothermen?Wecouldgivethemmorethantheycouldthinkofasking。I——myhusband……\"
\"Don’ttalktomeofyourhusband,\"hesaid,roughly。\"Youdon’tknowwhatyouaredoing。\"Sheconfrontedthesombreangerofhiseyes——\"ButImust,\"sheassertedwithheat。——\"Must,\"hemused,noticingthatshewasonlyhalfaheadlesstallthanhimself。
\"Must!Oh,yes。Ofcourse,youmust。Must!Yes。ButIdon’twanttohear。Give!Whatcanyougive?YoumayhaveallthetreasuresoftheworldforallIknow。No!Youcan’tgiveanything……\"
\"IwasthinkingofyourdifficultywhenIspoke,\"sheinterrupted。Hiseyeswandereddownwardfollowingthelineofhershoulder。——\"Ofme——ofme!\"herepeated。
Allthiswassaidalmostinwhispers。Thesoundofslowfootstepswasheardondeckabovetheirheads。Lingardturnedhisfacetotheopenskylight。
\"Ondeckthere!Anywind?\"
Allwasstillforamoment。Somebodyaboveansweredinaleisurelytone:
\"Asteadylittledraughtfromthenorthward。\"
Thenafterapauseaddedinamutter:
\"Pitchdark。\"
\"Aye,darkenough,\"murmuredLingard。Hemustdosomething。Now。
Atonce。Theworldwaswaiting。Theworldfullofhopesandfear。
Whatshouldhedo?Insteadofansweringthatquestionhetracedtheungleamingcoilsofhertwistedhairandbecamefascinatedbyastraylockatherneck。Whatshouldhedo?Noonetoleavehisbrigto。ThevoicethathadansweredhisquestionwasCarter’svoice。\"Heishangingaboutkeepinghiseyeonme,\"hesaidtoMrs。Travers。Sheshookherheadandtriedtosmile。Themanabovecougheddiscreetly。\"No,\"saidLingard,\"youmustunderstandthatyouhavenothingtogive。\"
Themanondeckwhoseemedtohavelingeredbytheskylightwasheardsayingquietly,\"Iamathandifyouwantme,Mrs。
Travers。\"HassimandImmadalookedup。\"Yousee,\"exclaimedLingard。\"WhatdidItellyou?He’skeepinghiseyeonme!Onboardmyownship。AmIdreaming?AmIinafever?Tellhimtocomedown,\"hesaidafterapause。Mrs。TraversdidsoandLingardthoughthervoiceverycommandingandverysweet。
\"There’snothingintheworldIlovesomuchasthisbrig,\"hewenton。\"Nothingintheworld。IfIlostherIwouldhavenostandingroomontheearthformyfeet。Youdon’tunderstandthis。Youcan’t。\"
Cartercameinandshutthecabindoorcarefully。Helookedwithserenityateveryoneinturn。
\"Allquiet?\"askedLingard。
\"Quietenoughifyouliketocallitso,\"heanswered。\"Butifyouonlyputyourheadoutsidethedooryou’llhearthemallonthequarter—decksnoringagainsteachother,asiftherewerenowivesathomeandnopiratesatsea。\"
\"Lookhere,\"saidLingard。\"IfoundoutthatIcan’ttrustmymate。\"
\"Can’tyou?\"drawledCarter。\"Iamnotexactlysurprised。ImustsayHEdoesnotsnorebutIbelieveitisbecauseheistoocrazytosleep。Hewaylaidmeonthepoopjustnowandsaidsomethingaboutevilcommunicationscorruptinggoodmanners。SeemstomeI’veheardthatbefore。Queerthingtosay。Hetriedtomakeitoutsomehowthatifhewasn’tcorruptitwasn’tyourfault。Asifthiswasanyconcernofmine。He’sasmadashe’sfat——orelseheputsiton。\"Carterlaughedalittleandleanedhisshouldersagainstabulkhead。
LingardgazedatthewomanwhoexpectedsomuchfromhimandinthelightsheseemedtoshedhesawhimselfleadingacolumnofarmedboatstotheattackoftheSettlement。Hecouldburnthewholeplacetothegroundanddriveeverysoulofthemintothebush。Hecould!Andtherewasasurprise,ashock,avaguehorroratthethoughtofthedestructivepowerofhiswill。Hecouldgivehereversomanylives。Hehadseenheryesterday,anditseemedtohimhehadbeenallhislifewaitingforhertomakeasign。Shewasverystill。Heponderedaplanofattack。Hesawsmokeandflame——andnextmomenthesawhimselfaloneamongstshapelessruinswiththewhispers,withthesighandmoanoftheShallowsinhisears。Heshuddered,andshakinghishand:
\"No!Icannotgiveyouallthoselives!\"hecried。
Then,beforeMrs。Traverscouldguessthemeaningofthisoutburst,hedeclaredthatasthetwocaptivesmustbesavedhewouldgoaloneintothelagoon。Hecouldnotthinkofusingforce。\"Youunderstandwhy,\"hesaidtoMrs。Traversandshewhisperedafaint\"Yes。\"Hewouldruntheriskalone。HishopewasinBelarabbeingabletoseewherehistrueinterestlay。\"IfIcanonlygetathimIwouldsoonmakehimsee,\"hemusedaloud。
\"Haven’tIkepthispowerupforthesetwoyearspast?Andheknowsit,too。Hefeelsit。\"WhetherhewouldbeallowedtoreachBelarabwasanothermatter。Lingardlosthimselfindeepthought。
\"Hewouldnotdare,\"heburstout。Mrs。Traverslistenedwithpartedlips。Carterdidnotmoveamuscleofhisyouthfulandself—possessedface;onlywhenLingard,turningsuddenly,cameupclosetohimandaskedwitharedflashofeyesandinaloweredvoice,\"Couldyoufightthisbrig?\"somethinglikeasmilemadeastiramongstthehairsofhislittlefairmoustache。
\"’CouldI?\"hesaid。\"Icouldtry,anyhow。\"Hepaused,andaddedhardlyabovehisbreath,\"Forthelady——ofcourse。\"
Lingardseemedstaggeredasthoughhehadbeenhitinthechest。
\"Iwasthinkingofthebrig,\"hesaid,gently。
\"Mrs。Traverswouldbeonboard,\"retortedCarter。
\"What!onboard。Ahyes;onboard。Whereelse?\"stammeredLingard。
Carterlookedathiminamazement。\"Fight!Youask!\"hesaid,slowly。\"Youjusttryme。\"
\"Ishall,\"ejaculatedLingard。Heleftthecabincallingout\"serang!\"Athincrackedvoicewasheardimmediatelyanswering,\"Tuan!\"andthedoorslammedto。
\"Youtrusthim,Mrs。Travers?\"askedCarter,rapidly。
\"Youdonot——why?\"sheanswered。
\"Ican’tmakehimout。IfhewasanotherkindofmanIwouldsayhewasdrunk,\"saidCarter。\"Whyishehereatall——he,andthisbrigofhis?Excusemyboldness——buthaveyoupromisedhimanything?\"
\"I——Ipromised!\"exclaimedMrs。TraversinabittertonewhichsilencedCarterforamoment。
\"Somuchthebetter,\"hesaidatlast。\"Lethimshowwhathecandofirstand……\"
\"Here!Takethis,\"saidLingard,whore—enteredthecabinfumblingabouthisneck。Cartermechanicallyextendedhishand。
\"What’sthisfor?\"heasked,lookingatasmallbrasskeyattachedtoathinchain。
\"Powdermagazine。Trapdoorunderthetable。ThemanwhohasthiskeycommandsthebrigwhileIamaway。Theserangunderstands。
Youhaveherverylifeinyourhandthere。\"
Carterlookedatthesmallkeylyinginhishalf—openpalm。
\"IwasjusttellingMrs。TraversIdidn’ttrustyou——notaltogether……\"
\"Iknowallaboutit,\"interruptedLingard,contemptuously。\"Youcarryablamedpistolinyourpockettoblowmybrainsout——don’tyou?What’sthattome?Iamthinkingofthebrig。IthinkIknowyoursort。Youwilldo。\"
\"Well,perhapsImight,\"mumbledCarter,modestly。
\"Don’tberash,\"saidLingard,anxiously。\"Ifyou’vegottofightuseyourheadaswellasyourhands。Ifthere’sabreezefightunderway。Iftheyshouldtrytoboardinacalm,trusttothesmallarmstoholdthemoff。Keepyourheadand——\"HelookedintenselyintoCarter’seyes;hislipsworkedwithoutasoundasthoughhehadbeensuddenlystruckdumb。\"Don’tthinkaboutme。
What’sthattoyouwhoIam?Thinkoftheship,\"heburstout。
\"Don’tlethergo!——Don’tlethergo!\"Thepassioninhisvoiceimpressedhishearerswhoforatimepreservedaprofoundsilence。
\"Allright,\"saidCarteratlast。\"Iwillsticktoyourbrigasthoughsheweremyown;butIwouldliketoseeclearthroughallthis。Lookhere——youaregoingoffsomewhere?Alone,yousaid?\"
\"Yes。Alone。\"
\"Verywell。Mind,then,thatyoudon’tcomebackwithacrowdofthosebrownfriendsofyours——orbytheHeavensaboveusIwon’tletyoucomewithinhailofyourownship。AmItokeepthiskey?\"
\"CaptainLingard,\"saidMrs。Traverssuddenly。\"Woulditnotbebettertotellhimeverything?\"
\"Tellhimeverything?\"repeatedLingard。\"Everything!Yesterdayitmighthavebeendone。Onlyyesterday!Yesterday,didIsay?
Onlysixhoursago——onlysixhoursagoIhadsomethingtotell。
Youheardit。Andnowit’sgone。Tellhim!There’snothingtotellanymore。\"Heremainedforatimewithbowedhead,whilebeforehimMrs。Travers,whohadbegunagestureofprotest,droppedherarmssuddenly。Inamomenthelookedupagain。
\"Keepthekey,\"hesaid,calmly,\"andwhenthetimecomesstepforwardandtakecharge。Iamsatisfied。\"
\"Iwouldliketoseeclearthroughallthisthough,\"mutteredCarteragain。\"Andforhowlongareyouleavingus,Captain?\"
Lingardmadenoanswer。Carterwaitedawhile。\"Come,sir,\"heurged。\"Ioughttohavesomenotion。Whatisit?Two,threedays?\"Lingardstarted。
\"Days,\"herepeated。\"Ah,days。Whatisityouwanttoknow?Two……three——whatdidtheoldfellowsay——perhapsforlife。\"ThiswasspokensolowthatnoonebutCarterheardthelastwords。——\"Doyoumeanit?\"hemurmured。Lingardnodded。——\"Waitaslongasyoucan——thengo,\"hesaidinthesamehardlyaudiblevoice。\"Gowhere?\"——\"Whereyoulike,nearestport,anyport。\"——\"Verygood。That’ssomethingplainatanyrate,\"
commentedtheyoungmanwithimperturbablegoodhumour。
\"Igo,OHassim!\"beganLingardandtheMalaymadeaslowinclinationoftheheadwhichhedidnotraiseagaintillLingardhadceasedspeaking。HebetrayedneithersurprisenoranyotheremotionwhileLingardinafewconciseandsharpsentencesmadehimacquaintedwithhispurposetobringaboutsinglehandedthereleaseoftheprisoners。WhenLingardhadendedwiththewords:
\"Andyoumustfindawaytohelpmeinthetimeoftrouble,O
RajahHassim,\"helookedupandsaid:
\"Good。Youneveraskedmeforanythingbefore。\"
Hesmiledathiswhitefriend。Therewassomethingsubtleinthesmileandafterwardanaddedfirmnessinthereposeofthelips。
Immadamovedastepforward。ShelookedatLingardwithterrorinherblackanddilatedeyes。Sheexclaimedinavoicewhosevibrationstartledtheheartsofallthehearerswithanindefinablesenseofalarm,\"Hewillperish,Hassim!Hewillperishalone!\"
\"No,\"saidHassim。\"Thyfearisasvainto—nightasitwasatsunrise。Heshallnotperishalone。\"
Hereyelidsdroppedslowly。Fromherveiledeyesthetearsfell,vanishinginthesilence。Lingard’sforeheadbecamefurrowedbyfoldsthatseemedtocontainaninfinityofsombrethoughts。
\"Remember,OHassim,thatwhenIpromisedyoutotakeyoubacktoyourcountryyoupromisedmetobeafriendtoallwhitemen。A
friendtoallwhiteswhoareofmypeople,forever。\"
\"Mymemoryisgood,OTuan,\"saidHassim;\"Iamnotyetbackinmycountry,butisnoteveryonetherulerofhisownheart?
Promisesmadebyamanofnoblebirthliveaslongasthespeakerendures。\"
\"Good—bye,\"saidLingardtoMrs。Travers。\"Youwillbesafehere。\"Helookedallaroundthecabin。\"Ileaveyou,\"hebeganagainandstoppedshort。Mrs。Travers’hand,restinglightlyontheedgeofthetable,begantotremble。\"It’sforyou……Yes。
Foryoualone……anditseemsitcan’tbe……\"
Itseemedtohimthathewassayinggood—byetoalltheworld,thathewastakingalastleaveofhisownself。Mrs。Traversdidnotsayaword,butImmadathrewherselfbetweenthemandcried:
\"Youareacruelwoman!Youaredrivinghimawayfromwherehisstrengthis。Youputmadnessintohisheart,O!Blind——withoutpity——withoutshame!……\"
\"Immada,\"saidHassim’scalmvoice。Nobodymoved。
\"Whatdidshesaytome?\"falteredMrs。Traversandagainrepeatedinavoicethatsoundedhard,\"Whatdidshesay?\"
\"Forgiveher,\"saidLingard。\"Herfearsareforme……\"——\"It’saboutyourgoing?\"Mrs。Traversinterrupted,swiftly。
\"Yes,itis——andyoumustforgiveher。\"Hehadturnedawayhiseyeswithsomethingthatresembledembarrassmentbutsuddenlyhewasassailedbyanirresistiblelongingtolookagainatthatwoman。Atthemomentofpartingheclungtoherwithhisglanceasamanholdswithhishandsapricelessanddisputedpossession。ThefaintblushthatoverspreadgraduallyMrs。
Travers’featuresgaveherfaceanairofextraordinaryandstartlinganimation。
\"Thedangeryourun?\"sheasked,eagerly。Herepelledthesuggestionbyaslightinggestureofthehand。——\"Nothingworthlookingattwice。Don’tgiveitathought,\"hesaid。\"I’vebeenintighterplaces。\"Heclappedhishandsandwaitedtillheheardthecabindooropenbehindhisback。\"Steward,mypistols。\"Themulattoinslippers,apronedtothechin,glidedthroughthecabinwithunseeingeyesasthoughforhimnoonetherehadexisted……——\"Isitmyheartthatachesso?\"Mrs。Traversaskedherself,contemplatingLingard’smotionlessfigure。\"Howlongwillthissensationofdullpainlast?Willitlastforever。