Herthoughts,likeafascinatedmoth,wentflutteringtowardthatlight——thatman——thatgirl,whohadknownwar,danger,seendeathnear,hadobtainedevidentlythedevotionofthatman。Theoccurrencesoftheafternoonhadbeenstrangeinthemselves,butwhatstruckherartisticsensewasthevigouroftheirpresentation。Theyoutlinedthemselvesbeforehermemorywiththeclearsimplicityofsomeimmortallegend。Theyweremysterious,butshefeltcertaintheywereabsolutelytrue。Theyembodiedartlessandmasterfulfeelings;such,nodoubt,ashadswayedmankindinthesimplicityofitsyouth。Sheenvied,foramoment,thelotofthathumbleandobscuresister。Nothingstoodbetweenthatgirlandthetruthofhersensations。Shecouldbesincerelycourageous,andtenderandpassionateand——well——ferocious。Whynotferocious?Shecouldknowthetruthofterror——andofaffection,absolutely,withoutartificialtrammels,withoutthepainofrestraint。
ThinkingofwhatsuchlifecouldbeMrs。Traversfeltinvadedbythatinexplicableexaltationwhichtheconsciousnessoftheirphysicalcapacitiessooftengivestointellectualbeings。Sheglowedwithasuddenpersuasionthatshealsocouldbeequaltosuchanexistence;andherheartwasdilatedwithamomentarylongingtoknowthenakedtruthofthings;thenakedtruthoflifeandpassionburiedunderthegrowthofcenturies。
Sheglowedand,suddenly,shequiveredwiththeshockofcomingtoherselfasifshehadfallendownfromastar。Therewasasoundofripplingwaterandashapelessmassglidedoutofthedarkvoidsheconfronted。Avoicebelowherfeetsaid:
\"Imadeoutyourshape——onthesky。\"Acryofsurpriseexpiredonherlipsandshecouldonlypeerdownward。Lingard,aloneinthebrig’sdinghy,withanotherstrokesentthelightboatnearlyundertheyacht’scounter,laidhisscullsin,androsefromthethwart。Hisheadandshouldersloomedupalongsideandhehadtheappearanceofstandinguponthesea。InvoluntarilyMrs。Traversmadeamovementofretreat。
\"Stop,\"hesaid,anxiously,\"don’tspeakloud。Noonemustknow。
Wheredoyourpeoplethinkthemselves,Iwonder?Inadockathome?Andyou——\"
\"Myhusbandisnotonboard,\"sheinterrupted,hurriedly。
\"Iknow。\"
Shebentalittlemoreovertherail。
\"Thenyouarehavinguswatched。Why?\"
\"Somebodymustwatch。Yourpeoplekeepsuchagoodlook—out——don’tthey?Yes。Eversincedarkoneofmyboatshasbeendodgingasternhere,inthedeepwater。IsworetomyselfI
wouldneverseeoneofyou,neverspeaktooneofyouhere,thatIwouldbedumb,blind,deaf。And——hereIam!\"
Mrs。Travers’alarmandmistrustwerereplacedbyanimmensecuriosity,burning,yetquiet,too,asifbeforetheinevitableworkofdestiny。ShelookeddownwardatLingard。Hisheadwasbared,and,withonehandupontheship’sside,heseemedtobethinkingdeeply。
\"Becauseyouhadsomethingmoretotellus,\"Mrs。Traverssuggested,gently。
\"Yes,\"hesaidinalowtoneandwithoutmovingintheleast。
\"Willyoucomeonboardandwait?\"sheasked。
\"Who?I!\"Heliftedhisheadsoquicklyastostartleher。\"I
havenothingtosaytohim;andI’llneverputmyfootonboardthiscraft。I’vebeentoldtogo。That’senough。\"
\"Heisaccustomedtobeaddresseddeferentially,\"shesaidafterapause,\"andyou——\"
\"Whoishe?\"askedLingard,simply。
Thesethreewordsseemedtohertoscatterherpastintheair——likesmoke。Theyrobbedallthemultitudeofmankindofeveryvestigeofimportance。Shewasamazedtofindthatonthisnight,inthisplace,therecouldbenoadequateanswertothesearchingnaivenessofthatquestion。
\"Ididn’taskformuch,\"Lingardbeganagain。\"DidI?Onlythatyouallshouldcomeonboardmybrigforfivedays。That’sall……DoIlooklikealiar?TherearethingsIcouldnottellhim。
Icouldn’texplain——Icouldn’t——nottohim——tonoman——tonomanintheworld——\"
Hisvoicedropped。
\"Nottomyself,\"heendedasifinadream。
\"Wehaveremainedunmolestedsolonghere,\"beganMrs。Traversalittleunsteadily,\"thatitmakesitverydifficulttobelieveindanger,now。Wesawnooneallthesedaysexceptthosetwopeoplewhocameforyou。Ifyoumaynotexplain——\"
\"Ofcourse,youcan’tbeexpectedtoseethroughawall,\"brokeinLingard。\"Thiscoast’slikeawall,butIknowwhat’sontheotherside……Ayachthere,ofallthingsthatfloat!WhenI
seteyesonherIcouldfancyshehadn’tbeenmorethananhourfromhome。Nothingbutthelookofhersparsmademethinkofoldtimes。Andthenthefacesofthechapsonboard。Iseemedtoknowthemall。ItwaslikehomecomingtomewhenIwasn’tthinkingofit。AndIhatedthesightofyouall。\"
\"Ifweareexposedtoanyperil,\"shesaidafterapauseduringwhichshetriedtopenetratethesecretofpassionhiddenbehindthatman’swords,\"itneednotaffectyou。OurotherboatisgonetotheStraitsandeffectivehelpissuretocomeverysoon。\"
\"Affectme!Isthatpreciouswatchmanofyourscomingaft?I
don’twantanybodytoknowIcamehereagainbegging,evenofyou。Ishecomingaft?……Listen!I’vestoppedyourotherboat。\"
Hisheadandshouldersdisappearedasthoughhehaddivedintoadenserlayerofobscurityfloatingonthewater。Thewatchman,whohadtheintentiontostretchhimselfinoneofthedeckchairs,catchingsightoftheowner’swife,walkedstraighttothelampthathungundertheridgepoleoftheawning,andafterfumblingwithitforatimewentawayforwardwithanindolentgait。
\"Youdared!\"Mrs。Traverswhispereddowninanintensetone;anddirectly,Lingard’sheademergedagainbelowherwithanupturnedface。
\"Itwasdare——orgiveup。ThehelpfromtheStraitswouldhavebeentoolateanyhowifIhadn’tthepowertokeepyousafe;andifIhadthepowerIcouldseeyouthroughit——alone。Iexpectedtofindareasonablemantotalkto。Ioughttohaveknownbetter。Youcomefromtoofartounderstandthesethings。Well,I
dared;I’vesentafteryourotherboatafellowwho,withmeathisback,wouldtrytostopthegovernoroftheStraitshimself。
Hewilldoit。Perhapsit’sdonealready。Youhavenothingtohopefor。ButIamhere。YousaidyoubelievedImeantwell——\"
\"Yes,\"shemurmured。
\"That’swhyIthoughtIwouldtellyoueverything。Ihadtobeginwiththisbusinessabouttheboat。Andwhatdoyouthinkofmenow?I’vecutyouofffromtherestoftheearth。Youpeoplewoulddisappearlikeastoneinthewater。Youleftoneforeignportforanother。Who’stheretotroubleaboutwhatbecameofyou?Whowouldknow?Whocouldguess?Itwouldbemonthsbeforetheybegantostir。\"
\"Iunderstand,\"shesaid,steadily,\"wearehelpless。\"
\"Andalone,\"headded。
Afterapauseshesaidinadeliberate,restrainedvoice:
\"Whatdoesthismean?Plunder,captivity?\"
\"ItwouldhavemeantdeathifIhadn’tbeenhere,\"heanswered。
\"Butyouhavethepowerto——\"
\"\"Why,doyouthink,youarealiveyet?\"hecried。\"Jorgensonhasbeenarguingwiththemonshore,\"hewenton,morecalmly,withaswingofhisarmtowardwherethenightseemeddarkest。\"Doyouthinkhewouldhavekeptthembackiftheyhadn’texpectedmeeveryday?Hiswordswouldhavebeennothingwithoutmyfist。\"
Sheheardadullblowstruckonthesideoftheyachtandconcealedinthesamedarknessthatwrappedtheunconcernoftheearthandsea,thefuryandthepainofhearts;shesmiledabovehishead,fascinatedbythesimplicityofimagesandexpressions。
Lingardmadeabrusquemovement,thelivelylittleboatbeingunsteadyunderhisfeet,andshespokeslowly,absently,asifherthoughthadbeenlostinthevaguenessofhersensations。
\"Andthis——this——Jorgenson,yousaid?Whoishe?\"
\"Aman,\"heanswered,\"amanlikemyself。\"
\"Likeyourself?\"
\"Justlikemyself,\"hesaidwithstrangereluctance,asifadmittingapainfultruth。\"Moresense,perhaps,butlessluck。
Though,sinceyouryachthasturneduphere,Ibegintothinkthatmyluckisnothingmuchtoboastofeither。\"
\"Isourpresenceheresofatal?\"
\"Itmaybedeathtosome。Itmaybeworsethandeathtome。Anditrestswithyouinaway。Thinkofthat!Icanneverfindsuchanotherchanceagain。Butthat’snothing!AmanwhohassavedmylifeonceandthatIpassedmywordtowouldthinkIhadthrownhimover。Butthat’snothing!Listen!AstrueasIstandhereinmyboattalkingtoyou,Ibelievethegirlwoulddieofgrief。\"
\"Youloveher,\"shesaid,softly。
\"Likemyowndaughter,\"hecried,low。
Mrs。Traverssaid,\"Oh!\"faintly,andforamomenttherewasasilence,thenhebeganagain:
\"Lookhere。WhenIwasaboyinatrawler,andlookedatyouyachtpeople,intheChannelports,youwereasstrangetomeastheMalaysherearestrangetoyou。Ilefthomesixteenyearsagoandfoughtmywayallroundtheearth。IhadthetimetoforgetwhereIbegan。Whatareyoutomeagainstthesetwo?IfIwastodiehereonthespotwouldyoucare?Noonewouldcareathome。
Nooneinthewholeworld——butthesetwo。\"
\"WhatcanIdo?\"sheasked,andwaited,leaningover。
Heseemedtoreflect,thenliftinghishead,spokegently:
\"Doyouunderstandthedangeryouarein?Areyouafraid?\"
\"Iunderstandtheexpressionyouused,ofcourse。Understandthedanger?\"shewenton。\"No——decidedlyno。And——honestly——Iamnotafraid。\"
\"Aren’tyou?\"hesaidinadisappointedvoice。\"Perhapsyoudon’tbelieveme?Ibelievedyou,though,whenyousaidyouweresureI
meantwell。Itrustedyouenoughtocomehereaskingforyourhelp——tellingyouwhatnooneknows。\"
\"Youmistakeme,\"shesaidwithimpulsiveearnestness。\"Thisissoextraordinarilyunusual——sudden——outsidemyexperience。\"
\"Aye!\"hemurmured,\"whatwouldyouknowofdangerandtrouble?
You!Butperhapsbythinkingitover——\"
\"Youwantmetothinkmyselfintoafright!\"Mrs。Traverslaughedlightly,andinthegloomofhisthoughtthisflashofjoyoussoundwasincongruousandalmostterrible。Nextmomentthenightappearedbrilliantasday,warmassunshine;butwhensheceasedthereturningdarknessgavehimpainasifithadstruckheavilyagainsthisbreast。\"Idon’tthinkIcoulddothat,\"shefinishedinaserioustone。
\"Couldn’tyou?\"Hehesitated,perplexed。\"Thingsarebadenoughtomakeitnoshame。Itellyou,\"hesaid,rapidly,\"andIamnotatimidman,Imaynotbeabletodomuchifyoupeopledon’thelpme。\"
\"YouwantmetopretendIamalarmed?\"sheasked,quickly。
\"Aye,topretend——aswellyoumay。It’salottoaskofyou——whoperhapsneverhadtomake—believeathinginyourlife——isn’tit?\"
\"Itis,\"shesaidafteratime。
TheunexpectedbitternessofhertonestruckLingardwithdismay。
\"Don’tbeoffended,\"heentreated。\"I’vegottoplanawayoutofthismess。It’snoplayeither。Couldyoupretend?\"
\"Perhaps,ifItriedveryhard。Buttowhatend?\"
\"Youmustallshiftaboardthebrig,\"hebegan,speakingquickly,\"andthenwemaygetoverthistroublewithoutcomingtoblows。
Now,ifyouweretosaythatyouwishit;thatyoufeelunsafeintheyacht——don’tyousee?\"
\"Isee,\"shepronounced,thoughtfully。
\"Thebrigissmallbutthecuddyisfitforalady,\"wentonLingardwithanimation。
\"Hasitnotalreadyshelteredaprincess?\"shecommented,coolly。
\"AndIshallnotintrude。\"
\"Thisisaninducement。\"
\"Nobodywilldaretointrude。Youneedn’tevenseeme。\"
\"Thisisalmostdecisive,only——\"
\"Iknowmyplace。\"
\"Only,Imightnothavetheinfluence,\"shefinished。
\"ThatIcannotbelieve,\"hesaid,roughly。\"Thelongandtheshortofitisyoudon’ttrustmebecauseyouthinkthatonlypeopleofyourownconditionspeakthetruthalways。\"
\"Evidently,\"shemurmured。
\"Yousaytoyourself——here’safellowdeepinwithpirates,thieves,niggers——\"
\"Tobesure——\"
\"AmanIneversawthelikebefore,\"wentonLingard,headlong,\"a——ruffian。\"
Hecheckedhimself,fullofconfusion。Afteratimeheheardhersaying,calmly:
\"Youarelikeothermeninthis,thatyougetangrywhenyoucannothaveyourwayatonce。\"
\"Iangry!\"heexclaimedindeadenedvoice。\"Youdonotunderstand。Iamthinkingofyoualso——itishardonme——\"
\"Imistrustnotyou,butmyownpower。YouhaveproducedanunfortunateimpressiononMr。Travers。\"
\"Unfortunateimpression!HetreatedmeasifIhadbeenalong—shoreloafer。Nevermindthat。Heisyourhusband。Fearinthoseyoucareforishardtobearforanyman。Andso,he——\"
\"WhatMachiavellism!\"
\"Eh,whatdidyousay?\"
\"Ionlywonderedwhereyouhadobservedthat。Onthesea?\"
\"Observedwhat?\"hesaid,absently。Thenpursuinghisidea——\"Onewordfromyououghttobeenough。\"
\"Youthinkso?\"
\"Iamsureofit。Why,evenI,myself——\"
\"Ofcourse,\"sheinterrupted。\"Butdon’tyouthinkthatafterpartingwithyouonsuch——such——inimicalterms,therewouldbeadifficultyinresumingrelations?\"
\"Amanlikemewoulddoanythingformoney——don’tyousee?\"
Afterapausesheasked:
\"Andwouldyoucareforthatargumenttobeused?\"
\"Aslongasyouknowbetter!\"
Hisvoicevibrated——shedrewbackdisturbed,asifunexpectedlyhehadtouchedher。
\"Whatcantherebeatstake?\"shebegan,wonderingly。
\"Akingdom,\"saidLingard。
Mrs。Traversleanedfarovertherail,staring,andtheirfaces,oneabovetheother,cameveryclosetogether。
\"Notforyourself?\"shewhispered。
Hefeltthetouchofherbreathonhisforeheadandremainedstillforamoment,perfectlystillasifhedidnotintendtomoveorspeakanymore。
\"Thosethings,\"hebegan,suddenly,\"comeinyourway,whenyoudon’tthink,andtheygetallroundyoubeforeyouknowwhatyoumeantodo。WhenIwentintothatbayinNewGuineaIneverguessedwherethatcoursewouldtakemeto。Icouldtellyouastory。Youwouldunderstand!You!You!\"
Hestammered,hesitated,andsuddenlyspoke,liberatingthevisionsoftwoyearsintothenightwhereMrs。Traverscouldfollowthemasifoutlinedinwordsoffire。
VII
Histalewasasstartlingasthediscoveryofanewworld。Shewasbeingtakenalongtheboundaryofanexcitingexistence,andshelookedintoitthroughtheguilelessenthusiasmofthenarrator。Theheroicqualityofthefeelingsconcealedwhatwasdisproportionateandabsurdinthatgratitude,inthatfriendship,inthatinexplicabledevotion。Theheadlongfiercenessofpurposeinvestedhisobscuredesignofconquestwiththeproportionsofagreatenterprise。Itwasclearthatnovisionofasubjugatedworldcouldhavebeenmoreinspiringtothemostfamousadventurerofhistory。
Fromtimetotimeheinterruptedhimselftoask,confidently,asifhehadbeenspeakingtoanoldfriend,\"Whatwouldyouhavedone?\"andhurriedonwithoutpausingforapproval。
Itstruckherthattherewasagreatpassioninallthis,thebeautyofanimplantedfacultyofaffectionthathadfounditself,itsimmediateneedofanobjectandthewayofexpansion;
atendernessexpressedviolently;atendernessthatcouldonlybesatisfiedbybackinghumanbeingsagainsttheirowndestiny。
Perhapsherhatredofconvention,trammellingthefranknessofherownimpulses,hadrenderedhermorealerttoperceivewhatisintrinsicallygreatandprofoundwithintheformsofhumanfolly,sosimpleandsoinfinitelyvariedaccordingtotheregionoftheearthandtothemomentoftime。
Whatofitthatthenarratorwasonlyarovingseaman;thekingdomofthejungle,themenoftheforest,thelivesobscure!
Thatsimplesoulwaspossessedbythegreatnessoftheidea;
therewasnothingsordidinitsflamingimpulses。Whensheonceunderstoodthat,thestoryappealedtotheaudacityofherthoughts,andshebecamesocharmedwithwhatsheheardthatsheforgotwhereshewas。Sheforgotthatshewaspersonallyclosetothattalewhichshesawdetached,farawayfromher,truthorfiction,presentedinpicturesquespeech,realonlybytheresponseofheremotion。
Lingardpaused。Inthecessationoftheimpassionedmurmurshebegantoreflect。Andatfirstitwasonlyanoppressivenotionoftherebeingsomesignificancethatreallymatteredinthisman’sstory。Thatmatteredtoher。Forthefirsttimetheshadowofdangeranddeathcrossedhermind。Wasthatthesignificance?
Suddenly,inaflashofacutediscernment,shesawherselfinvolvedhelplesslyinthatstory,asoneisinvolvedinanaturalcataclysm。
Hewasspeakingagain。Hehadnotbeensilentmorethanaminute。
ItseemedtoMrs。Traversthatyearshadelapsed,sodifferentnowwastheeffectofhiswords。Hermindwasagitatedasifhiscomingtospeakandconfideinherhadbeenatremendousoccurrence。Itwasafactofherownexistence;itwaspartofthestoryalso。Thiswasthedisturbingthought。Sheheardhimpronounceseveralnames:Belarab,Daman,Tengga,Ningrat。Thesebelongednowtoherlifeandshewasappalledtofindshewasunabletoconnectthesenameswithanyhumanappearance。Theystoodoutalone,asifwrittenonthenight;theytookonasymbolicshape;theyimposedthemselvesuponhersenses。Shewhisperedasifpondering:\"Belarab,Daman,Ningrat,\"andthesebarbaroussoundsseemedtopossessanexceptionalenergy,afatalaspect,thesavourofmadness。
\"Notoneofthembuthasaheavyscoretosettlewiththewhites。
What’sthattome!Ihadsomehowtogetmenwhowouldfight。I
riskedmylifetogetthatlot。ImadethempromiseswhichI
shallkeep——or——!CanyouseenowwhyIdaredtostopyourboat?
IaminsodeepthatIcarefornoSirJohnintheworld。WhenI
lookattheworkaheadIcarefornothing。Igaveyouonechance——onegoodchance。ThatIhadtodo。No!IsupposeIdidn’tlookenoughofagentleman。Yes!Yes!That’sit。YetIknowwhatagentlemanis。Ilivedwiththemforyears。Ichummedwiththem—
—yes——ongold—fieldsandinotherplaceswhereamanhasgottoshowthestuffthat’sinhim。Someofthemwritefromhometomehere——suchasyouseeme,becauseI——nevermind!AndIknowwhatagentlemanwoulddo。Come!Wouldn’thetreatastrangerfairly?
Wouldn’therememberthatnomanisaliartillyouprovehimso?
Wouldn’thekeephiswordwherevergiven?Well,Iamgoingtodothat。NotahairofyourheadshallbetouchedaslongasI
live!\"
Shehadregainedmuchofhercomposurebutatthesewordsshefeltthatstaggeringsenseofutterinsecuritywhichisgivenonebythefirsttremorofanearthquake。Itwasfollowedbyanexpectantstillnessofsensations。Sheremainedsilent。Hethoughtshedidnotbelievehim。
\"Come!Whatonearthdoyouthinkbroughtmehere——to——to——talklikethistoyou?TherewasHassim——RajahTulla,Ishouldsay——whowasaskingmethisafternoon:’Whatwillyoudonowwiththese,yourpeople?’IbelievehethinksyetIfetchedyouhereforsomereason。Youcan’ttellwhatcrookednotiontheywillgetintotheirthickheads。It’senoughtomakeoneswear。\"Heswore。
\"Mypeople!Areyou?Howmuch?Say——howmuch?You’renomoreminethanIamyours。Wouldanyofyoufinefolksathomefaceblackruintosaveafishingsmack’screwfromgettingdrowned?\"
Notwithstandingthatsenseofinsecuritywhichlingeredfaintlyinhermindshehadnoimageofdeathbeforeher。Shefeltintenselyalive。Shefeltaliveinaflushofstrength,withanimpressionofnoveltyasthoughlifehadbeenthegiftofthisverymoment。Thedangerhiddeninthenightgavenosigntoawakenherterror,buttheworkingsofahumansoul,simpleandviolent,werelaidbarebeforeherandhadthedisturbingcharmofanunheard—ofexperience。Shewaslisteningtoamanwhoconcealednothing。Shesaid,interrogatively:
\"Andyetyouhavecome?\"
\"Yes,\"heanswered,\"toyou——andforyouonly。\"
Thefloodtiderunningstrongoverthebanksmadeaplacidtricklingsoundabouttheyacht’srudder。
\"Iwouldnotbesavedalone。\"
\"Thenyoumustbringthemoveryourself,\"hesaidinasombretone。\"There’sthebrig。Youhaveme——mymen——myguns。Youknowwhattodo。
\"Iwilltry,\"shesaid。
\"Verywell。Iamsorryforthepoordevilsforwardthereifyoufail。Butofcourseyouwon’t。Watchthatlightonthebrig。I
hadithoistedonpurpose。Thetroublemaybenearerthanwethink。Twoofmyboatsaregonescoutingandifthenewstheybringmeisbadthelightwillbelowered。Thinkwhatthatmeans。
AndI’vetoldyouwhatIhavetoldnobody。Thinkofmyfeelingsalso。ItoldyoubecauseI——becauseIhadto。\"
Hegaveashoveagainsttheyacht’ssideandglidedawayfromunderhereyes。Aripplingsounddiedout。
Shewalkedawayfromtherail。Thelampandtheskylightsshonefaintlyalongthedarkstretchofthedecks。Thiseveningwaslikethelast——likealltheeveningsbefore。
\"IsallthisIhaveheardpossible?\"sheaskedherself。\"No——butitistrue。\"
Shesatdowninadeckchairtothinkandfoundshecouldonlyremember。Shejumpedup。Shewassuresomebodywashailingtheyachtfaintly。Wasthatmanhailing?Shelistened,andhearingnothingwasannoyedwithherselfforbeinghauntedbyavoice。
\"Hesaidhecouldtrustme。Now,whatisthisdanger?Whatisdanger?\"shemeditated。
Footstepswerecomingfromforward。Thefigureofthewatchmanflittedvaguelyoverthegangway。Hewaswhistlingsoftlyandvanished。Hollowsoundsintheboatweresucceededbyasplashofoars。Thenightswallowedtheseslightnoises。Mrs。Traverssatdownagainandfoundherselfmuchcalmer。
Shehadthefacultyofbeingabletothinkherownthoughts——andthecourage。Shecouldtakenoactionofanykindtillherhusband’sreturn。Lingard’swarningswerenotwhathadimpressedhermost。Thismanhadpresentedhisinnermostselfunclothedbyanysubterfuge。Therewereinplainsighthisdesires,hisperplexities,affections,doubts,hisviolence,hisfolly;andtheexistencetheymadeupwaslawlessbutnotvile。Shehadtoomuchelevationofmindtolookuponhimfromanyotherbutastrictlyhumanstandpoint。Ifhetrustedher(howstrange;whyshouldhe?Washewrong?)sheacceptedthetrustwithscrupulousfairness。Andwhenitdawneduponherthatofallthemenintheworldthisunquestionablywastheonesheknewbest,shehadamomentofwonderfollowedbyanimpressionofprofoundsadness。
Itseemedanunfortunatematterthatconcernedheralone。
Herthoughtwassuspendedwhileshelistenedattentivelyforthereturnoftheyacht’sboat。Shewasdismayedatthetaskbeforeher。Notasoundbrokethestillnessandshefeltasifshewerelostinemptyspace。Thensuddenlysomeoneamidshipsyawnedimmenselyandsaid:\"Oh,dear!Oh,dear!\"Avoiceasked:\"Ain’ttheybackyet?\"Anegativegruntanswered。
Mrs。TraversfoundthatLingardwastouching,becausehecouldbeunderstood。Howsimplewaslife,shereflected。Shewasfrankwithherself。Sheconsideredhimapartfromsocialorganization。
Shediscoveredhehadnoplaceinit。Howdelightful!Herewasahumanbeingandthenakedtruthofthingswasnotsoveryfarfromhernotwithstandingthegrowthofcenturies。Thenitoccurredtoherthatthismanbyhisactionstrippedheratonceofherposition,ofherwealth,ofherrank,ofherpast。\"Iamhelpless。Whatremains?\"sheaskedherself。Nothing!Anybodytheremighthavesuggested:\"Yourpresence。\"Shewastooartificialyettothinkofherbeauty;andyetthepowerofpersonalityispartofthenakedtruthofthings。
Shelookedoverhershoulder,andsawthelightatthebrig’sforeyard—armburningwithastrong,calmflameinthedustofstarlightsuspendedabovethecoast。Sheheardtheheavybumpasofaboatrunheadlongagainsttheladder。Theywereback!Sheroseinsuddenandextremeagitation。Whatshouldshesay?Howmuch?Howtobegin?Whysayanything?Itwouldbeabsurd,liketalkingseriouslyaboutadream。Shewouldnotdare!Inamomentshewasdrivenintoastateofmindborderingondistraction。Sheheardsomebodyrunupthegangwaysteps。Withtheideaofgainingtimeshewalkedrapidlyafttothetaffrail。Thelightofthebrigfacedherwithoutaflicker,enormousamongstthesunsscatteredintheimmensityofthenight。