第10章

类别:其他 作者:Nicholas Sparks字数:10099更新时间:19/01/07 14:33:58
Herthoughts,likeafascinatedmoth,wentflutteringtowardthatlight——thatman——thatgirl,whohadknownwar,danger,seendeathnear,hadobtainedevidentlythedevotionofthatman。Theoccurrencesoftheafternoonhadbeenstrangeinthemselves,butwhatstruckherartisticsensewasthevigouroftheirpresentation。Theyoutlinedthemselvesbeforehermemorywiththeclearsimplicityofsomeimmortallegend。Theyweremysterious,butshefeltcertaintheywereabsolutelytrue。Theyembodiedartlessandmasterfulfeelings;such,nodoubt,ashadswayedmankindinthesimplicityofitsyouth。Sheenvied,foramoment,thelotofthathumbleandobscuresister。Nothingstoodbetweenthatgirlandthetruthofhersensations。Shecouldbesincerelycourageous,andtenderandpassionateand——well——ferocious。Whynotferocious?Shecouldknowthetruthofterror——andofaffection,absolutely,withoutartificialtrammels,withoutthepainofrestraint。 ThinkingofwhatsuchlifecouldbeMrs。Traversfeltinvadedbythatinexplicableexaltationwhichtheconsciousnessoftheirphysicalcapacitiessooftengivestointellectualbeings。Sheglowedwithasuddenpersuasionthatshealsocouldbeequaltosuchanexistence;andherheartwasdilatedwithamomentarylongingtoknowthenakedtruthofthings;thenakedtruthoflifeandpassionburiedunderthegrowthofcenturies。 Sheglowedand,suddenly,shequiveredwiththeshockofcomingtoherselfasifshehadfallendownfromastar。Therewasasoundofripplingwaterandashapelessmassglidedoutofthedarkvoidsheconfronted。Avoicebelowherfeetsaid: \"Imadeoutyourshape——onthesky。\"Acryofsurpriseexpiredonherlipsandshecouldonlypeerdownward。Lingard,aloneinthebrig’sdinghy,withanotherstrokesentthelightboatnearlyundertheyacht’scounter,laidhisscullsin,androsefromthethwart。Hisheadandshouldersloomedupalongsideandhehadtheappearanceofstandinguponthesea。InvoluntarilyMrs。Traversmadeamovementofretreat。 \"Stop,\"hesaid,anxiously,\"don’tspeakloud。Noonemustknow。 Wheredoyourpeoplethinkthemselves,Iwonder?Inadockathome?Andyou——\" \"Myhusbandisnotonboard,\"sheinterrupted,hurriedly。 \"Iknow。\" Shebentalittlemoreovertherail。 \"Thenyouarehavinguswatched。Why?\" \"Somebodymustwatch。Yourpeoplekeepsuchagoodlook—out——don’tthey?Yes。Eversincedarkoneofmyboatshasbeendodgingasternhere,inthedeepwater。IsworetomyselfI wouldneverseeoneofyou,neverspeaktooneofyouhere,thatIwouldbedumb,blind,deaf。And——hereIam!\" Mrs。Travers’alarmandmistrustwerereplacedbyanimmensecuriosity,burning,yetquiet,too,asifbeforetheinevitableworkofdestiny。ShelookeddownwardatLingard。Hisheadwasbared,and,withonehandupontheship’sside,heseemedtobethinkingdeeply。 \"Becauseyouhadsomethingmoretotellus,\"Mrs。Traverssuggested,gently。 \"Yes,\"hesaidinalowtoneandwithoutmovingintheleast。 \"Willyoucomeonboardandwait?\"sheasked。 \"Who?I!\"Heliftedhisheadsoquicklyastostartleher。\"I havenothingtosaytohim;andI’llneverputmyfootonboardthiscraft。I’vebeentoldtogo。That’senough。\" \"Heisaccustomedtobeaddresseddeferentially,\"shesaidafterapause,\"andyou——\" \"Whoishe?\"askedLingard,simply。 Thesethreewordsseemedtohertoscatterherpastintheair——likesmoke。Theyrobbedallthemultitudeofmankindofeveryvestigeofimportance。Shewasamazedtofindthatonthisnight,inthisplace,therecouldbenoadequateanswertothesearchingnaivenessofthatquestion。 \"Ididn’taskformuch,\"Lingardbeganagain。\"DidI?Onlythatyouallshouldcomeonboardmybrigforfivedays。That’sall……DoIlooklikealiar?TherearethingsIcouldnottellhim。 Icouldn’texplain——Icouldn’t——nottohim——tonoman——tonomanintheworld——\" Hisvoicedropped。 \"Nottomyself,\"heendedasifinadream。 \"Wehaveremainedunmolestedsolonghere,\"beganMrs。Traversalittleunsteadily,\"thatitmakesitverydifficulttobelieveindanger,now。Wesawnooneallthesedaysexceptthosetwopeoplewhocameforyou。Ifyoumaynotexplain——\" \"Ofcourse,youcan’tbeexpectedtoseethroughawall,\"brokeinLingard。\"Thiscoast’slikeawall,butIknowwhat’sontheotherside……Ayachthere,ofallthingsthatfloat!WhenI seteyesonherIcouldfancyshehadn’tbeenmorethananhourfromhome。Nothingbutthelookofhersparsmademethinkofoldtimes。Andthenthefacesofthechapsonboard。Iseemedtoknowthemall。ItwaslikehomecomingtomewhenIwasn’tthinkingofit。AndIhatedthesightofyouall。\" \"Ifweareexposedtoanyperil,\"shesaidafterapauseduringwhichshetriedtopenetratethesecretofpassionhiddenbehindthatman’swords,\"itneednotaffectyou。OurotherboatisgonetotheStraitsandeffectivehelpissuretocomeverysoon。\" \"Affectme!Isthatpreciouswatchmanofyourscomingaft?I don’twantanybodytoknowIcamehereagainbegging,evenofyou。Ishecomingaft?……Listen!I’vestoppedyourotherboat。\" Hisheadandshouldersdisappearedasthoughhehaddivedintoadenserlayerofobscurityfloatingonthewater。Thewatchman,whohadtheintentiontostretchhimselfinoneofthedeckchairs,catchingsightoftheowner’swife,walkedstraighttothelampthathungundertheridgepoleoftheawning,andafterfumblingwithitforatimewentawayforwardwithanindolentgait。 \"Youdared!\"Mrs。Traverswhispereddowninanintensetone;anddirectly,Lingard’sheademergedagainbelowherwithanupturnedface。 \"Itwasdare——orgiveup。ThehelpfromtheStraitswouldhavebeentoolateanyhowifIhadn’tthepowertokeepyousafe;andifIhadthepowerIcouldseeyouthroughit——alone。Iexpectedtofindareasonablemantotalkto。Ioughttohaveknownbetter。Youcomefromtoofartounderstandthesethings。Well,I dared;I’vesentafteryourotherboatafellowwho,withmeathisback,wouldtrytostopthegovernoroftheStraitshimself。 Hewilldoit。Perhapsit’sdonealready。Youhavenothingtohopefor。ButIamhere。YousaidyoubelievedImeantwell——\" \"Yes,\"shemurmured。 \"That’swhyIthoughtIwouldtellyoueverything。Ihadtobeginwiththisbusinessabouttheboat。Andwhatdoyouthinkofmenow?I’vecutyouofffromtherestoftheearth。Youpeoplewoulddisappearlikeastoneinthewater。Youleftoneforeignportforanother。Who’stheretotroubleaboutwhatbecameofyou?Whowouldknow?Whocouldguess?Itwouldbemonthsbeforetheybegantostir。\" \"Iunderstand,\"shesaid,steadily,\"wearehelpless。\" \"Andalone,\"headded。 Afterapauseshesaidinadeliberate,restrainedvoice: \"Whatdoesthismean?Plunder,captivity?\" \"ItwouldhavemeantdeathifIhadn’tbeenhere,\"heanswered。 \"Butyouhavethepowerto——\" \"\"Why,doyouthink,youarealiveyet?\"hecried。\"Jorgensonhasbeenarguingwiththemonshore,\"hewenton,morecalmly,withaswingofhisarmtowardwherethenightseemeddarkest。\"Doyouthinkhewouldhavekeptthembackiftheyhadn’texpectedmeeveryday?Hiswordswouldhavebeennothingwithoutmyfist。\" Sheheardadullblowstruckonthesideoftheyachtandconcealedinthesamedarknessthatwrappedtheunconcernoftheearthandsea,thefuryandthepainofhearts;shesmiledabovehishead,fascinatedbythesimplicityofimagesandexpressions。 Lingardmadeabrusquemovement,thelivelylittleboatbeingunsteadyunderhisfeet,andshespokeslowly,absently,asifherthoughthadbeenlostinthevaguenessofhersensations。 \"Andthis——this——Jorgenson,yousaid?Whoishe?\" \"Aman,\"heanswered,\"amanlikemyself。\" \"Likeyourself?\" \"Justlikemyself,\"hesaidwithstrangereluctance,asifadmittingapainfultruth。\"Moresense,perhaps,butlessluck。 Though,sinceyouryachthasturneduphere,Ibegintothinkthatmyluckisnothingmuchtoboastofeither。\" \"Isourpresenceheresofatal?\" \"Itmaybedeathtosome。Itmaybeworsethandeathtome。Anditrestswithyouinaway。Thinkofthat!Icanneverfindsuchanotherchanceagain。Butthat’snothing!AmanwhohassavedmylifeonceandthatIpassedmywordtowouldthinkIhadthrownhimover。Butthat’snothing!Listen!AstrueasIstandhereinmyboattalkingtoyou,Ibelievethegirlwoulddieofgrief。\" \"Youloveher,\"shesaid,softly。 \"Likemyowndaughter,\"hecried,low。 Mrs。Traverssaid,\"Oh!\"faintly,andforamomenttherewasasilence,thenhebeganagain: \"Lookhere。WhenIwasaboyinatrawler,andlookedatyouyachtpeople,intheChannelports,youwereasstrangetomeastheMalaysherearestrangetoyou。Ilefthomesixteenyearsagoandfoughtmywayallroundtheearth。IhadthetimetoforgetwhereIbegan。Whatareyoutomeagainstthesetwo?IfIwastodiehereonthespotwouldyoucare?Noonewouldcareathome。 Nooneinthewholeworld——butthesetwo。\" \"WhatcanIdo?\"sheasked,andwaited,leaningover。 Heseemedtoreflect,thenliftinghishead,spokegently: \"Doyouunderstandthedangeryouarein?Areyouafraid?\" \"Iunderstandtheexpressionyouused,ofcourse。Understandthedanger?\"shewenton。\"No——decidedlyno。And——honestly——Iamnotafraid。\" \"Aren’tyou?\"hesaidinadisappointedvoice。\"Perhapsyoudon’tbelieveme?Ibelievedyou,though,whenyousaidyouweresureI meantwell。Itrustedyouenoughtocomehereaskingforyourhelp——tellingyouwhatnooneknows。\" \"Youmistakeme,\"shesaidwithimpulsiveearnestness。\"Thisissoextraordinarilyunusual——sudden——outsidemyexperience。\" \"Aye!\"hemurmured,\"whatwouldyouknowofdangerandtrouble? You!Butperhapsbythinkingitover——\" \"Youwantmetothinkmyselfintoafright!\"Mrs。Traverslaughedlightly,andinthegloomofhisthoughtthisflashofjoyoussoundwasincongruousandalmostterrible。Nextmomentthenightappearedbrilliantasday,warmassunshine;butwhensheceasedthereturningdarknessgavehimpainasifithadstruckheavilyagainsthisbreast。\"Idon’tthinkIcoulddothat,\"shefinishedinaserioustone。 \"Couldn’tyou?\"Hehesitated,perplexed。\"Thingsarebadenoughtomakeitnoshame。Itellyou,\"hesaid,rapidly,\"andIamnotatimidman,Imaynotbeabletodomuchifyoupeopledon’thelpme。\" \"YouwantmetopretendIamalarmed?\"sheasked,quickly。 \"Aye,topretend——aswellyoumay。It’salottoaskofyou——whoperhapsneverhadtomake—believeathinginyourlife——isn’tit?\" \"Itis,\"shesaidafteratime。 TheunexpectedbitternessofhertonestruckLingardwithdismay。 \"Don’tbeoffended,\"heentreated。\"I’vegottoplanawayoutofthismess。It’snoplayeither。Couldyoupretend?\" \"Perhaps,ifItriedveryhard。Buttowhatend?\" \"Youmustallshiftaboardthebrig,\"hebegan,speakingquickly,\"andthenwemaygetoverthistroublewithoutcomingtoblows。 Now,ifyouweretosaythatyouwishit;thatyoufeelunsafeintheyacht——don’tyousee?\" \"Isee,\"shepronounced,thoughtfully。 \"Thebrigissmallbutthecuddyisfitforalady,\"wentonLingardwithanimation。 \"Hasitnotalreadyshelteredaprincess?\"shecommented,coolly。 \"AndIshallnotintrude。\" \"Thisisaninducement。\" \"Nobodywilldaretointrude。Youneedn’tevenseeme。\" \"Thisisalmostdecisive,only——\" \"Iknowmyplace。\" \"Only,Imightnothavetheinfluence,\"shefinished。 \"ThatIcannotbelieve,\"hesaid,roughly。\"Thelongandtheshortofitisyoudon’ttrustmebecauseyouthinkthatonlypeopleofyourownconditionspeakthetruthalways。\" \"Evidently,\"shemurmured。 \"Yousaytoyourself——here’safellowdeepinwithpirates,thieves,niggers——\" \"Tobesure——\" \"AmanIneversawthelikebefore,\"wentonLingard,headlong,\"a——ruffian。\" Hecheckedhimself,fullofconfusion。Afteratimeheheardhersaying,calmly: \"Youarelikeothermeninthis,thatyougetangrywhenyoucannothaveyourwayatonce。\" \"Iangry!\"heexclaimedindeadenedvoice。\"Youdonotunderstand。Iamthinkingofyoualso——itishardonme——\" \"Imistrustnotyou,butmyownpower。YouhaveproducedanunfortunateimpressiononMr。Travers。\" \"Unfortunateimpression!HetreatedmeasifIhadbeenalong—shoreloafer。Nevermindthat。Heisyourhusband。Fearinthoseyoucareforishardtobearforanyman。Andso,he——\" \"WhatMachiavellism!\" \"Eh,whatdidyousay?\" \"Ionlywonderedwhereyouhadobservedthat。Onthesea?\" \"Observedwhat?\"hesaid,absently。Thenpursuinghisidea——\"Onewordfromyououghttobeenough。\" \"Youthinkso?\" \"Iamsureofit。Why,evenI,myself——\" \"Ofcourse,\"sheinterrupted。\"Butdon’tyouthinkthatafterpartingwithyouonsuch——such——inimicalterms,therewouldbeadifficultyinresumingrelations?\" \"Amanlikemewoulddoanythingformoney——don’tyousee?\" Afterapausesheasked: \"Andwouldyoucareforthatargumenttobeused?\" \"Aslongasyouknowbetter!\" Hisvoicevibrated——shedrewbackdisturbed,asifunexpectedlyhehadtouchedher。 \"Whatcantherebeatstake?\"shebegan,wonderingly。 \"Akingdom,\"saidLingard。 Mrs。Traversleanedfarovertherail,staring,andtheirfaces,oneabovetheother,cameveryclosetogether。 \"Notforyourself?\"shewhispered。 Hefeltthetouchofherbreathonhisforeheadandremainedstillforamoment,perfectlystillasifhedidnotintendtomoveorspeakanymore。 \"Thosethings,\"hebegan,suddenly,\"comeinyourway,whenyoudon’tthink,andtheygetallroundyoubeforeyouknowwhatyoumeantodo。WhenIwentintothatbayinNewGuineaIneverguessedwherethatcoursewouldtakemeto。Icouldtellyouastory。Youwouldunderstand!You!You!\" Hestammered,hesitated,andsuddenlyspoke,liberatingthevisionsoftwoyearsintothenightwhereMrs。Traverscouldfollowthemasifoutlinedinwordsoffire。 VII Histalewasasstartlingasthediscoveryofanewworld。Shewasbeingtakenalongtheboundaryofanexcitingexistence,andshelookedintoitthroughtheguilelessenthusiasmofthenarrator。Theheroicqualityofthefeelingsconcealedwhatwasdisproportionateandabsurdinthatgratitude,inthatfriendship,inthatinexplicabledevotion。Theheadlongfiercenessofpurposeinvestedhisobscuredesignofconquestwiththeproportionsofagreatenterprise。Itwasclearthatnovisionofasubjugatedworldcouldhavebeenmoreinspiringtothemostfamousadventurerofhistory。 Fromtimetotimeheinterruptedhimselftoask,confidently,asifhehadbeenspeakingtoanoldfriend,\"Whatwouldyouhavedone?\"andhurriedonwithoutpausingforapproval。 Itstruckherthattherewasagreatpassioninallthis,thebeautyofanimplantedfacultyofaffectionthathadfounditself,itsimmediateneedofanobjectandthewayofexpansion; atendernessexpressedviolently;atendernessthatcouldonlybesatisfiedbybackinghumanbeingsagainsttheirowndestiny。 Perhapsherhatredofconvention,trammellingthefranknessofherownimpulses,hadrenderedhermorealerttoperceivewhatisintrinsicallygreatandprofoundwithintheformsofhumanfolly,sosimpleandsoinfinitelyvariedaccordingtotheregionoftheearthandtothemomentoftime。 Whatofitthatthenarratorwasonlyarovingseaman;thekingdomofthejungle,themenoftheforest,thelivesobscure! Thatsimplesoulwaspossessedbythegreatnessoftheidea; therewasnothingsordidinitsflamingimpulses。Whensheonceunderstoodthat,thestoryappealedtotheaudacityofherthoughts,andshebecamesocharmedwithwhatsheheardthatsheforgotwhereshewas。Sheforgotthatshewaspersonallyclosetothattalewhichshesawdetached,farawayfromher,truthorfiction,presentedinpicturesquespeech,realonlybytheresponseofheremotion。 Lingardpaused。Inthecessationoftheimpassionedmurmurshebegantoreflect。Andatfirstitwasonlyanoppressivenotionoftherebeingsomesignificancethatreallymatteredinthisman’sstory。Thatmatteredtoher。Forthefirsttimetheshadowofdangeranddeathcrossedhermind。Wasthatthesignificance? Suddenly,inaflashofacutediscernment,shesawherselfinvolvedhelplesslyinthatstory,asoneisinvolvedinanaturalcataclysm。 Hewasspeakingagain。Hehadnotbeensilentmorethanaminute。 ItseemedtoMrs。Traversthatyearshadelapsed,sodifferentnowwastheeffectofhiswords。Hermindwasagitatedasifhiscomingtospeakandconfideinherhadbeenatremendousoccurrence。Itwasafactofherownexistence;itwaspartofthestoryalso。Thiswasthedisturbingthought。Sheheardhimpronounceseveralnames:Belarab,Daman,Tengga,Ningrat。Thesebelongednowtoherlifeandshewasappalledtofindshewasunabletoconnectthesenameswithanyhumanappearance。Theystoodoutalone,asifwrittenonthenight;theytookonasymbolicshape;theyimposedthemselvesuponhersenses。Shewhisperedasifpondering:\"Belarab,Daman,Ningrat,\"andthesebarbaroussoundsseemedtopossessanexceptionalenergy,afatalaspect,thesavourofmadness。 \"Notoneofthembuthasaheavyscoretosettlewiththewhites。 What’sthattome!Ihadsomehowtogetmenwhowouldfight。I riskedmylifetogetthatlot。ImadethempromiseswhichI shallkeep——or——!CanyouseenowwhyIdaredtostopyourboat? IaminsodeepthatIcarefornoSirJohnintheworld。WhenI lookattheworkaheadIcarefornothing。Igaveyouonechance——onegoodchance。ThatIhadtodo。No!IsupposeIdidn’tlookenoughofagentleman。Yes!Yes!That’sit。YetIknowwhatagentlemanis。Ilivedwiththemforyears。Ichummedwiththem— —yes——ongold—fieldsandinotherplaceswhereamanhasgottoshowthestuffthat’sinhim。Someofthemwritefromhometomehere——suchasyouseeme,becauseI——nevermind!AndIknowwhatagentlemanwoulddo。Come!Wouldn’thetreatastrangerfairly? Wouldn’therememberthatnomanisaliartillyouprovehimso? Wouldn’thekeephiswordwherevergiven?Well,Iamgoingtodothat。NotahairofyourheadshallbetouchedaslongasI live!\" Shehadregainedmuchofhercomposurebutatthesewordsshefeltthatstaggeringsenseofutterinsecuritywhichisgivenonebythefirsttremorofanearthquake。Itwasfollowedbyanexpectantstillnessofsensations。Sheremainedsilent。Hethoughtshedidnotbelievehim。 \"Come!Whatonearthdoyouthinkbroughtmehere——to——to——talklikethistoyou?TherewasHassim——RajahTulla,Ishouldsay——whowasaskingmethisafternoon:’Whatwillyoudonowwiththese,yourpeople?’IbelievehethinksyetIfetchedyouhereforsomereason。Youcan’ttellwhatcrookednotiontheywillgetintotheirthickheads。It’senoughtomakeoneswear。\"Heswore。 \"Mypeople!Areyou?Howmuch?Say——howmuch?You’renomoreminethanIamyours。Wouldanyofyoufinefolksathomefaceblackruintosaveafishingsmack’screwfromgettingdrowned?\" Notwithstandingthatsenseofinsecuritywhichlingeredfaintlyinhermindshehadnoimageofdeathbeforeher。Shefeltintenselyalive。Shefeltaliveinaflushofstrength,withanimpressionofnoveltyasthoughlifehadbeenthegiftofthisverymoment。Thedangerhiddeninthenightgavenosigntoawakenherterror,buttheworkingsofahumansoul,simpleandviolent,werelaidbarebeforeherandhadthedisturbingcharmofanunheard—ofexperience。Shewaslisteningtoamanwhoconcealednothing。Shesaid,interrogatively: \"Andyetyouhavecome?\" \"Yes,\"heanswered,\"toyou——andforyouonly。\" Thefloodtiderunningstrongoverthebanksmadeaplacidtricklingsoundabouttheyacht’srudder。 \"Iwouldnotbesavedalone。\" \"Thenyoumustbringthemoveryourself,\"hesaidinasombretone。\"There’sthebrig。Youhaveme——mymen——myguns。Youknowwhattodo。 \"Iwilltry,\"shesaid。 \"Verywell。Iamsorryforthepoordevilsforwardthereifyoufail。Butofcourseyouwon’t。Watchthatlightonthebrig。I hadithoistedonpurpose。Thetroublemaybenearerthanwethink。Twoofmyboatsaregonescoutingandifthenewstheybringmeisbadthelightwillbelowered。Thinkwhatthatmeans。 AndI’vetoldyouwhatIhavetoldnobody。Thinkofmyfeelingsalso。ItoldyoubecauseI——becauseIhadto。\" Hegaveashoveagainsttheyacht’ssideandglidedawayfromunderhereyes。Aripplingsounddiedout。 Shewalkedawayfromtherail。Thelampandtheskylightsshonefaintlyalongthedarkstretchofthedecks。Thiseveningwaslikethelast——likealltheeveningsbefore。 \"IsallthisIhaveheardpossible?\"sheaskedherself。\"No——butitistrue。\" Shesatdowninadeckchairtothinkandfoundshecouldonlyremember。Shejumpedup。Shewassuresomebodywashailingtheyachtfaintly。Wasthatmanhailing?Shelistened,andhearingnothingwasannoyedwithherselfforbeinghauntedbyavoice。 \"Hesaidhecouldtrustme。Now,whatisthisdanger?Whatisdanger?\"shemeditated。 Footstepswerecomingfromforward。Thefigureofthewatchmanflittedvaguelyoverthegangway。Hewaswhistlingsoftlyandvanished。Hollowsoundsintheboatweresucceededbyasplashofoars。Thenightswallowedtheseslightnoises。Mrs。Traverssatdownagainandfoundherselfmuchcalmer。 Shehadthefacultyofbeingabletothinkherownthoughts——andthecourage。Shecouldtakenoactionofanykindtillherhusband’sreturn。Lingard’swarningswerenotwhathadimpressedhermost。Thismanhadpresentedhisinnermostselfunclothedbyanysubterfuge。Therewereinplainsighthisdesires,hisperplexities,affections,doubts,hisviolence,hisfolly;andtheexistencetheymadeupwaslawlessbutnotvile。Shehadtoomuchelevationofmindtolookuponhimfromanyotherbutastrictlyhumanstandpoint。Ifhetrustedher(howstrange;whyshouldhe?Washewrong?)sheacceptedthetrustwithscrupulousfairness。Andwhenitdawneduponherthatofallthemenintheworldthisunquestionablywastheonesheknewbest,shehadamomentofwonderfollowedbyanimpressionofprofoundsadness。 Itseemedanunfortunatematterthatconcernedheralone。 Herthoughtwassuspendedwhileshelistenedattentivelyforthereturnoftheyacht’sboat。Shewasdismayedatthetaskbeforeher。Notasoundbrokethestillnessandshefeltasifshewerelostinemptyspace。Thensuddenlysomeoneamidshipsyawnedimmenselyandsaid:\"Oh,dear!Oh,dear!\"Avoiceasked:\"Ain’ttheybackyet?\"Anegativegruntanswered。 Mrs。TraversfoundthatLingardwastouching,becausehecouldbeunderstood。Howsimplewaslife,shereflected。Shewasfrankwithherself。Sheconsideredhimapartfromsocialorganization。 Shediscoveredhehadnoplaceinit。Howdelightful!Herewasahumanbeingandthenakedtruthofthingswasnotsoveryfarfromhernotwithstandingthegrowthofcenturies。Thenitoccurredtoherthatthismanbyhisactionstrippedheratonceofherposition,ofherwealth,ofherrank,ofherpast。\"Iamhelpless。Whatremains?\"sheaskedherself。Nothing!Anybodytheremighthavesuggested:\"Yourpresence。\"Shewastooartificialyettothinkofherbeauty;andyetthepowerofpersonalityispartofthenakedtruthofthings。 Shelookedoverhershoulder,andsawthelightatthebrig’sforeyard—armburningwithastrong,calmflameinthedustofstarlightsuspendedabovethecoast。Sheheardtheheavybumpasofaboatrunheadlongagainsttheladder。Theywereback!Sheroseinsuddenandextremeagitation。Whatshouldshesay?Howmuch?Howtobegin?Whysayanything?Itwouldbeabsurd,liketalkingseriouslyaboutadream。Shewouldnotdare!Inamomentshewasdrivenintoastateofmindborderingondistraction。Sheheardsomebodyrunupthegangwaysteps。Withtheideaofgainingtimeshewalkedrapidlyafttothetaffrail。Thelightofthebrigfacedherwithoutaflicker,enormousamongstthesunsscatteredintheimmensityofthenight。