\"Hey!Johnnie!Habgotfish?Fish!Onepeeceefish!Eh?Savee?
Fish!Fish——\"Hegaveitupsuddenlytosayinadeferentialtone——\"Can’tmakethemsavagesunderstandanything,sir,\"andwithdrewasifafteracleverfeat。
HassimlookedatLingard。
\"Whydidthelittlewhitemanmakethatoutcry?\"heasked,anxiously。
\"Theirdesireistoeatfish,\"saidLingardinanenragedtone。
Thenbeforetheairofextremesurprisewhichincontinentlyappearedontheother’sface,hecouldnotrestrainashortandhopelesslaugh。
\"Eatfish,\"repeatedHassim,staring。\"Oyouwhitepeople!Oyouwhitepeople!Eatfish!Good!Butwhymakethatnoise?Andwhydidyousendthemherewithoutguns?\"Afterasignificantglancedownupontheslopeofthedeckcausedbythevesselbeingontheground,headdedwithaslightnodatLingard——\"Andwithoutknowledge?\"
\"Youshouldnothavecomehere,OHassim,\"saidLingard,testily。
\"Herenooneunderstands。Theytakearajahforafisherman——\"
\"Ya—wa!Agreatmistake,for,truly,thechiefoftenfugitiveswithoutacountryismuchlessthantheheadmanofafishingvillage,\"observedHassim,composedly。Immadasighed。\"Butyou,Tuan,atleastknowthetruth,\"hewentonwithquietirony;thenafterapause——\"Wecameherebecauseyouhadforgottentolooktowardus,whohadwaited,sleepinglittleatnight,andinthedaywatchingwithhoteyestheemptywateratthefootoftheskyforyou。\"
Immadamurmured,withoutliftingherhead:
\"Youneverlookedforus。Never,neveronce。\"
\"Therewastoomuchtroubleinmyeyes,\"explainedLingardwiththatpatientgentlenessoftoneandfacewhich,everytimehespoketotheyounggirl,seemedtodisengageitselffromhiswholeperson,envelopinghisfierceness,softeninghisaspect,suchasthedreamymistthatintheearlyradianceofthemorningweavesaveiloftendercharmaboutaruggedrockinmid—ocean。
\"Imustlooknowtotherightandtotheleftasinatimeofsuddendanger,\"headdedafteramomentandshewhisperedanappalled\"Why?\"solowthatitspainfloatedawayinthesilenceofattentivemen,withoutresponse,unheard,ignored,likethepainofanimpalpablethought。
IV
D’Alcacer,standingback,surveyedthemallwithaprofoundandalertattention。Lingardseemedunabletotearhimselfawayfromtheyacht,andremained,checked,asitwereintheactofgoing,likeamanwhohasstoppedtothinkoutthelastthingtosay;
andthatstillnessofabody,forgottenbythelabouringmind,remindedCarterofthatmomentinthecabin,whenalonehehadseenthismanthuswrestlingwithhisthought,motionlessandlockedinthegripofhisconscience。
Mr。Traversmutteredaudiblythroughhisteeth:
\"Howlongisthisperformancegoingtolast?Ihavedesiredyoutogo。\"
\"Thinkofthesepoordevils,\"whisperedLingard,withaquickglanceatthecrewhuddledupnearby。
\"YouarethekindofmanIwouldbeleastdisposedtotrust——inanycase,\"saidMr。Travers,incisively,verylow,andwithaninexplicablebutveryapparentsatisfaction。\"Youareonlywastingyourtimehere。\"
\"You——You——\"Hestammeredandstared。Hechewedwithgrowlssomeinsultingwordandatlastswalloweditwithaneffort。\"Mytimepaysforyourlife,\"hesaid。
Hebecameawareofasuddenstir,andsawthatMrs。Travershadrisenfromherchair。
Shewalkedimpulsivelytowardthegrouponthequarter—deck,makingstraightforImmada。HassimhadsteppedasideandhisdetachedgazeofaMalaygentlemanpassedbyherasifshehadbeeninvisible。
Shewastall,supple,movingfreely。Hercomplexionwassodazzlingintheshadethatitseemedtothrowoutahaloroundherhead。Uponasmoothandwidebrowanabundanceofpalefairhair,fineassilk,undulatinglikethesea,heavylikeahelmet,descendedlowwithoutatraceofgloss,withoutagleaminitscoils,asthoughithadneverbeentouchedbyarayoflight;andathroatwhite,smooth,palpitatingwithlife,aroundneckmodelledwithstrengthanddelicacy,supportedgloriouslythatradiantfaceandthatpalemassofhairunkissedbysunshine。
Shesaidwithanimation:
\"Why,it’sagirl!\"
Mrs。Traversextortedfromd’Alcacerafreshtributeofcuriosity。Astrongpuffofwindflutteredtheawningsandoneofthescreensblowingoutwideletinuponthequarter—decktheripplingglitteroftheShallows,showingtod’Alcacertheluminousvastnessofthesea,withthelineofthedistanthorizon,darkliketheedgeoftheencompassingnight,drawnattheheightofMrs。Travers’shoulder……Wherewasithehadseenherlast——alongtimebefore,ontheothersideoftheworld?Therewasalsotheglitterofsplendouraroundherthen,andanimpressionofluminousvastness。Theencompassingnight,too,wasthere,thenightthatwaitsforitstimetomoveforwardupontheglitter,thesplendour,themen,thewomen。
Hecouldnotrememberforthemoment,buthebecameconvincedthatofallthewomenheknew,shealoneseemedtobemadeforaction。Everyoneofhermovementshadfirmness,ease,themeaningofavitalfact,themoralbeautyofafearlessexpression。Hersupplefigurewasnotdishonouredbyanyfalteringofoutlinesundertheplaindressofdarkbluestuffmouldingherformwithboldsimplicity。
Shehadonlyveryfewstepstomake,butbeforeshehadstopped,confrontingImmada,d’Alcacerrememberedhersuddenlyashehadseenherlast,outWest,faraway,impossiblydifferent,asifinanotheruniverse,asifpresentedbythefantasyofafeveredmemory。Hesawherinaluminousperspectiveofpalatialdrawingrooms,intherestlesseddyandflowofahumansea,atthefootofwallshighascliffs,underloftyceilingsthatlikeatropicalskyflunglightandheatupontheshallowglitterofuniforms,ofstars,ofdiamonds,ofeyessparklinginthewearyorimpassivefacesofthethrongatanofficialreception。
Outsidehehadfoundtheunavoidabledarknesswithitsaspectofpatientwaiting,acloudyskyholdingbackthedawnofaLondonmorning。Itwasdifficulttobelieve。
Lingard,whohadbeenlookingdangerouslyfierce,slappedhisthighandshowedsignsofagitation。
\"Byheavens,Ihadforgottenallaboutyou!\"hepronouncedindismay。
Mrs。TraversfixedhereyesonImmada。Fairhairedandwhitesheassertedherselfbeforethegirlofolivefaceandravenlockswiththematurityofperfection,withthesuperiorityoftheflowerovertheleaf,ofthephrasethatcontainsathoughtoverthecrythatcanonlyexpressanemotion。Immensespacesandcountlesscenturiesstretchedbetweenthem:andshelookedatheraswhenonelooksintoone’sownheartwithabsorbedcuriosity,withstillwonder,withanimmensecompassion。Lingardmurmured,warningly:
\"Don’ttouchher。\"
Mrs。Traverslookedathim。
\"DoyouthinkIcouldhurther?\"sheasked,softly,andwassostartledtohearhimmutteragloomy\"Perhaps,\"thatshehesitatedbeforeshesmiled。
\"Almostachild!Andsopretty!Whatadelicateface,\"shesaid,whileanotherdeepsighoftheseabreezeliftedandletfallthescreens,sothatthesound,thewind,andtheglitterseemedtorushintogetherandbearherwordsawayintospace。\"Ihadnoideaofanythingsocharminglygentle,\"shewentoninavoicethatwithouteffortglowed,caressed,andhadamagicpowerofdelighttothesoul。\"Soyoung!Andsheliveshere——doesshe?Onthesea——orwhere?Lives——\"Thenfaintly,asifshehadbeenintheactofspeaking,removedinstantlytoagreatdistance,shewasheardagain:\"Howdoesshelive?\"
LingardhadhardlyseenEdithTraverstillthen。HehadseennoonereallybutMr。Travers……Helookedandlistenedwithsomethingofthestuporofanewsensation。
Thenhemadeadistinctefforttocollecthisthoughtsandsaidwitharemnantofanger:
\"Whathaveyougottodowithher?Sheknowswar。Doyouknowanythingaboutit?Andhunger,too,andthirst,andunhappiness;
thingsyouhaveonlyheardabout。ShehasbeenasneardeathasI
amtoyou——andwhatisallthattoanyofyouhere?\"
\"Thatchild!\"shesaidinslowwonder。
ImmadaturneduponMrs。Travershereyesblackascoal,sparklingandsoftlikeatropicalnight;andtheglancesofthetwowomen,theirdissimilarandinquiringglancesmet,seemedtotouch,clasp,holdeachotherwiththegripofanintimatecontact。Theyseparated。
\"Whataretheycomefor?Whydidyoushowthemthewaytothisplace?\"askedImmada,faintly。
Lingardshookhisheadindenial。
\"Poorgirl,\"saidMrs。Travers。\"Aretheyallsopretty?\"
\"Who—all?\"mumbledLingard。\"Thereisn’tanotheronelikeherifyouweretoransacktheislandsallroundthecompass。\"
\"Edith!\"ejaculatedMr。Traversinaremonstrating,acrimoniousvoice,andeveryonegavehimalookofvaguesurprise。
ThenMrs。Traversasked:
\"Whoisshe?\"
Lingardveryredandgravedeclaredcurtly:
\"Aprincess。\"
Immediatelyhelookedroundwithsuspicion。Noonesmiled。
D’Alcacer,courteousandnonchalant,loungedupclosetoMrs。
Travers’elbow。
\"Ifsheisaprincess,thenthismanisaknight,\"hemurmuredwithconviction。\"AknightasIlive!Adescendantoftheimmortalhidalgoerrantuponthesea。Itwouldbegoodforustohavehimforafriend。SeriouslyIthinkthatyouought——\"
Thetwosteppedasideandspokelowandhurriedly。
\"Yes,youought——\"
\"HowcanI?\"sheinterrupted,catchingthemeaninglikeaball。
\"Bysayingsomething。\"
\"Isitreallynecessary?\"sheasked,doubtfully。
\"Itwoulddonoharm,\"saidd’Alcacerwithsuddencarelessness;
\"afriendisalwaysbetterthananenemy。\"
\"Always?\"sherepeated,meaningly。\"ButwhatcouldIsay?\"
\"Somewords,\"heanswered;\"Ishouldthinkanywordsinyourvoice——\"
\"Mr。d’Alcacer!\"
\"Oryoucouldperhapslookathimonceortwiceasthoughhewerenotexactlyarobber,\"hecontinued。
\"Mr。d’Alcacer,areyouafraid?\"
\"Extremely,\"hesaid,stoopingtopickupthefanatherfeet。
\"ThatisthereasonIamsoanxioustoconciliate。Andyoumustnotforgetthatoneofyourqueensoncesteppedonthecloakofperhapssuchaman。\"
Hereyessparkledandshedroppedthemsuddenly。
\"Iamnotaqueen,\"shesaid,coldly。
\"Unfortunatelynot,\"headmitted;\"butthentheotherwasawomanwithnocharmbuthercrown。\"
AtthatmomentLingard,towhomHassimhadbeentalkingearnestly,protestedaloud:
\"Ineversawthesepeoplebefore。\"
Immadacaughtholdofherbrother’sarm。Mr。Traverssaidharshly:
\"Obligemebytakingthesenativesaway。\"
\"Neverbefore,\"murmuredImmadaasiflostinecstasy。D’AlcacerglancedatMrs。Traversandmadeastepforward。
\"Couldnotthedifficulty,whateveritis,bearranged,Captain?\"
hesaidwithcarefulpoliteness。\"Observethatwearenotonlymenhere——\"
\"Letthemdie!\"criedImmada,triumphantly。
ThoughLingardaloneunderstoodthemeaningofthesewords,allonboardfeltoppressedbytheuneasysilencewhichfollowedhercry。
\"Ah!Heisgoing。Now,Mrs。Travers,\"whisperedd’Alcacer。
\"Ihope!\"saidMrs。Travers,impulsively,andstoppedasifalarmedatthesound。
Lingardstoodstill。
\"Ihope,\"shebeganagain,\"thatthispoorgirlwillknowhappierdays——\"Shehesitated。
Lingardwaited,attentiveandserious。
\"Underyourcare,\"shefinished。\"AndIbelieveyoumeanttobefriendlytous。\"
\"Thankyou,\"saidLingardwithdignity。
\"Youandd’Alcacer,\"observedMr。Travers,austerely,\"areunnecessarilydetainingthis——ah——person,and——ah——friends——ah!\"
\"Ihadforgottenyou——andnow——what?Onemust——itishard——hard——\"wentonLingard,disconnectedly,whilehelookedintoMrs。Travers’violeteyes,andfelthismindoverpoweredandtroubledasifbythecontemplationofvastdistances。\"I——youdon’tknow——I——you——cannot……Ha!It’sallthatman’sdoing,\"
heburstout。
Foratime,asifbesidehimself,heglaredatMrs。Travers,thenflunguponearmandstrodeofftowardthegangway,whereHassimandImmadawaitedforhim,interestedandpatient。Withasingleword\"Come,\"heprecededthemdownintotheboat。Notasoundwasheardontheyacht’sdeck,whilethesethreedisappearedoneafteranotherbelowtherailasiftheyhaddescendedintothesea。
V
Theafternoondraggeditselfoutinsilence。Mrs。Traverssatpensiveandidlewithherfanonherknees。D’Alcacer,whothoughttheincidentshouldhavebeentreatedinaconciliatoryspirit,attemptedtocommunicatehisviewtohishost,butthatgentleman,purposelymisunderstandinghismotive,overwhelmedhimwithsomanyapologiesandexpressionsofregretattheirksomeandperhapsinconvenientdelay\"whichyousufferfromthroughyourgood—naturedacceptanceofourinvitation\"thattheotherwasobligedtorefrainfrompursuingthesubjectfurther。
\"Evenmyregardforyou,mydeard’Alcacer,couldnotinducemetosubmittosuchabare—facedattemptatextortion,\"affirmedMr。Traverswithuncompromisingvirtue。\"Themanwantedtoforcehisservicesuponme,andthenputinaheavyclaimforsalvage。
Thatisthewholesecret——youmaydependonit。Idetectedhimatonce,ofcourse。\"Theeye—glassglitteredperspicuously。\"Heunderratedmyintelligence;andwhataviolentscoundrel!Theexistenceofsuchamaninthetimeweliveinisascandal。\"
D’Alcacerretired,and,fullofvagueforebodings,triedinvainforhourstointeresthimselfinabook。Mr。Traverswalkedupanddownrestlessly,tryingtopersuadehimselfthathisindignationwasbasedonpurelymoralgrounds。Theglaringday,likeamassofwhite—hotironwithdrawnfromthefire,waslosinggraduallyitsheatanditsglareinaricherdeepeningoftone。
Attheusualtimetwoseamen,walkingnoiselesslyaftintheiryachtingshoes,rolledupinsilencethequarter—deckscreens;
andthecoast,theshallows,thedarkisletsandthesnowysandbanksuncoveredthusdayafterdaywereseenoncemoreintheiraspectofdumbwatchfulness。Thebrig,swungendonintheforeground,hersquaredyardscrossingheavilythesoaringsymmetryoftherigging,resembledacreatureinstinctwithlife,withthepowerofspringingintoactionlurkinginthelightgraceofitsrepose。
Apairofstewardsinwhitejacketswithbrassbuttonsappearedondeckandbegantoflitaboutwithoutasound,layingthetablefordinnerontheflattopofthecabinskylight。Thesun,driftingawaytowardotherlands,towardotherseas,towardothermen;thesun,allredinacloudlessskyrakedtheyachtwithapartingsalvoofcrimsonraysthatshatteredthemselvesintosparksoffireuponthecrystalandsilverofthedinner—service,putashortflameintothebladesofknives,andspreadarosytintoverthewhiteofplates。Atrailofpurple,likeasmearofbloodonablueshield,layoverthesea。
OnsittingdownMr。Traversalludedinavexedtonetothenecessityoflivingonpreserves,allthestockoffreshprovisionsforthepassagetoBataviahavingbeenalreadyconsumed。Itwasdistinctlyunpleasant。
\"Idon’ttravelformypleasure,however,\"headded;\"andthebeliefthatthesacrificeofmytimeandcomfortwillbeproductiveofsomegoodtotheworldatlargewouldmakeupforanyamountofprivations。\"
Mrs。Traversandd’Alcacerseemedunabletoshakeoffastrongaversiontotalk,andtheconversation,likeanexpiringbreeze,keptondyingoutrepeatedlyaftereachlanguidgust。Thelargesilenceofthehorizon,theprofoundreposeofallthingsvisible,envelopingthebodiesandpenetratingthesoulswiththeirquietinginfluence,stilledthoughtaswellasvoice。Foralongtimenoonespoke。Behindthetaciturnityofthemasterstheservantshoveredwithoutnoise。
Suddenly,Mr。Travers,asifconcludingatrainofthought,mutteredaloud:
\"IownwithregretIdidinameasurelosemytemper;butthenyouwilladmitthattheexistenceofsuchamanisadisgracetocivilization。\"
Thisremarkwasnottakenupandhereturnedforatimetothenursingofhisindignation,atthebottomofwhich,likeamonsterinafog,creptabizarrefeelingofrancour。Hewavedawayanoffereddish。
\"Thiscoast,\"hebeganagain,\"hasbeenplacedunderthesoleprotectionofHollandbytheTreatyof1820。TheTreatyof1820
createsspecialrightsandobligations……\"
Bothhishearersfeltvividlytheurgentnecessitytohearnomore。D’Alcacer,uncomfortableonacampstool,satstiffandstaredattheglassstopperofacarafe。Mrs。Traversturnedalittlesidewaysandleaningonherelbowrestedherheadonthepalmofherhandlikeonethinkingaboutmattersofprofoundimport。Mr。Traverstalked;hetalkedinflexibly,inaharshblankvoice,asifreadingaproclamation。Theothertwo,asifinastateofincompletetrance,hadtheirearsassailedbyfragmentsofofficialverbiage。
\"Aninternationalunderstanding——thedutytocivilize——failedtocarryout——compact——Canning——\"D’Alcacerbecameattentiveforamoment。\"——notthatthisattempt,almostamusinginitsimpudence,influencesmyopinion。Iwon’tadmitthepossibilityofanyviolencebeingofferedtopeopleofourposition。ItisthesocialaspectofsuchanincidentIamdesirousofcriticising。\"
Hered’AlcacerlosthimselfagainintherecollectionofMrs。
TraversandImmadalookingateachother——thebeginningandtheend,theflowerandtheleaf,thephraseandthecry。Mr。
Travers’voicewentondogmaticandobstinateforalongtime。
Theendcamewithacertainvehemence。
\"Andiftheinferiorracemustperish,itisagain,asteptowardtheperfectingofsocietywhichistheaimofprogress。\"
Heceased。Thesparksofsunsetincrystalandsilverhadgoneout,andaroundtheyachttheexpanseofcoastandShallowsseemedtoawait,unmoved,thecomingofutterdarkness。Thedinnerwasoveralongtimeagoandthepatientstewardshadbeenwaiting,stoicalinthedownpourofwordslikesentriesunderashower。
Mrs。Traversrosenervouslyandgoingaftbegantogazeatthecoast。Behindherthesun,sunkalready,seemedtoforcethroughthemassofwaterstheglowofanunextinguishablefire,andbelowherfeet,oneachsideoftheyacht,thelustroussea,asifreflectingthecolourofhereyes,wastingedasombreviolethue。
D’Alcacercameuptoherwithquietfootstepsandforsometimetheyleanedsidebysideovertherailinsilence。Thenhesaid——\"Howquietitis!\"andsheseemedtoperceivethatthequietnessofthateveningwasmoreprofoundandmoresignificantthaneverbefore。Almostwithoutknowingitshemurmured——\"It’slikeadream。\"Anotherlongsilenceensued;thetranquillityoftheuniversehadsuchanAugustamplenessthatthesoundsremainedonthelipsasifcheckedbythefearofprofanation。
Theskywaslimpidlikeadiamond,andunderthelastgleamsofsunsetthenightwasspreadingitsveilovertheearth。Therewassomethingpreciousandsoothinginthebeautifullysereneendofthatexpiringday,ofthedayvibrating,glitteringandardent,anddyingnowininfinitepeace,withoutastir,withoutatremor,withoutasigh——inthecertitudeofresurrection。
Thenallatoncetheshadowdeepenedswiftly,thestarscameoutinacrowd,scatteringarainofpalesparksupontheblacknessofthewater,whilethecoaststretchedlowdown,adarkbeltwithoutagleam。Aboveitthetop—hamperofthebrigloomedindistinctandhigh。
Mrs。Traversspokefirst。
\"Howunnaturallyquiet!Itislikeadesertoflandandwaterwithoutalivingsoul。\"
\"Onemanatleastdwellsinit,\"saidd’Alcacer,lightly,\"andifheistobebelievedthereareothermen,fullofevilintentions。\"
\"Doyouthinkitistrue?\"Mrs。Traversasked。
Beforeansweringd’Alcacertriedtoseetheexpressionofherfacebuttheobscuritywastooprofoundalready。
\"Howcanoneseeadarktruthonsuchadarknight?\"hesaid,evasively。\"Butitiseasytobelieveinevil,hereoranywhereelse。\"
Sheseemedtobelostinthoughtforawhile。
\"Andthatmanhimself?\"sheasked。
Aftersometimed’Alcacerbegantospeakslowly。\"Rough,uncommon,decidedlyuncommonofhiskind。NotatallwhatDonMartinthinkshimtobe。Fortherest——mysterioustome。HeisYOURcountrymanafterall——\"
Sheseemedquitesurprisedbythatview。
\"Yes,\"shesaid,slowly。\"Butyouknow,Icannot——whatshallI
say?——imaginehimatall。HehasnothingincommonwiththemankindIknow。Thereisnothingtobeginupon。Howdoessuchamanlive?Whatarehisthoughts?Hisactions?Hisaffections?
His——\"
\"Hisconventions,\"suggestedd’Alcacer。\"Thatwouldincludeeverything。\"
Mr。Traversappearedsuddenlybehindthemwithaglowingcigarinhisteeth。Hetookitbetweenhisfingerstodeclarewithpersistentacrimonythatnoamountof\"scoundrellyintimidation\"
wouldpreventhimfromhavinghisusualwalk。Therewasaboutthreehundredyardstothesouthwardoftheyachtasandbanknearlyamilelong,gleamingasilverywhiteinthedarkness,plumettedinthecentrewithathicketofdrybushesthatrustledveryloudintheslighteststiroftheheavynightair。Thedayafterthestrandingtheyhadlandedonit\"tostretchtheirlegsabit,\"asthesailing—masterdefinedit,andeveryeveningsince,asifexercisingaprivilegeorperformingaduty,thethreepacedthereforanhourbackwardandforwardlostinduskyimmensity,threadingattheedgeofwaterthebeltofdampsand,smooth,level,elastictothetouchlikelivingfleshandsweatingalittleunderthepressureoftheirfeet。
Thistimed’AlcaceralonefollowedMr。Travers。Mrs。Traversheardthemgetintotheyacht’ssmallestboat,andthenight—watchman,tuggingatapairofsculls,pulledthemofftothenearestpoint。Thenthemanreturned。Hecameuptheladderandsheheardhimsaytosomeoneondeck:
\"Orderstogobackinanhour。\"
Hisfootstepsdiedoutforward,andasomnolent,unbreathingreposetookpossessionofthestrandedyacht。
VI
AfteratimethisabsolutesilencewhichshealmostcouldfeelpressinguponheronallsidesinducedinMrs。Traversastateofhallucination。Shesawherselfstandingalone,attheendoftime,onthebrinkofdays。Allwasunmovingasifthedawnwouldnevercome,thestarswouldneverfade,thesunwouldneverriseanymore;allwasmute,still,dead——asiftheshadowoftheouterdarkness,theshadowoftheuninterrupted,oftheeverlastingnightthatfillstheuniverse,theshadowofthenightsoprofoundandsovastthattheblazingsunslostinitareonlylikesparks,likepin—pointsoffire,therestlessshadowthatlikeasuspicionofaneviltruthdarkenseverythingupontheearthonitspassage,hadenvelopedher,hadstoodarrestedasiftoremainwithherforever。
Andtherewassuchafinalityinthatillusion,suchanaccordwiththetrendofherthoughtthatwhenshemurmuredintothedarknessafaint\"sobeit\"sheseemedtohavespokenoneofthosesentencesthatresumeandclosealife。
Asayounggirl,oftenreprovedforherromanticideas,shehaddreamswherethesincerityofagreatpassionappearedliketheidealfulfilmentandtheonlytruthoflife。Enteringtheworldshediscoveredthatidealtobeunattainablebecausetheworldistooprudenttobesincere。Thenshehopedthatshecouldfindthetruthoflifeanambitionwhichsheunderstoodasalifelongdevotiontosomeunselfishideal。Mr。Travers’namewasonmen’slips;heseemedcapableofenthusiasmandofdevotion;heimpressedherimaginationbyhisimpenetrability。Shemarriedhim,foundhimenthusiasticallydevotedtothenursingofhisowncareer,andhadnothingtohopefornow。
Thatherhusbandshouldbebewilderedbythecuriousmisunderstandingwhichhadtakenplaceandalsopermanentlygrievedbyherdisloyaltytohisrespectableidealswasonlynatural。Hewas,however,perfectlysatisfiedwithherbeauty,herbrilliance,andherusefulconnections。Shewasadmired,shewasenvied;shewassurroundedbysplendourandadulation;thedayswentonrapid,brilliant,uniform,withoutaglimpseofsincerityortruepassion,withoutasingletrueemotion——noteventhatofagreatsorrow。Andswiftlyandstealthilytheyhadledheronandon,tothisevening,tothiscoast,tothissea,tothismomentoftimeandtothisspotontheearth’ssurfacewhereshefeltunerringlythatthemovingshadowoftheunbrokennighthadstoodstilltoremainwithherforever。
\"Sobeit!\"shemurmured,resignedanddefiant,atthemuteandsmoothobscuritythathungbeforehereyesinablackcurtainwithoutafold;andasifinanswertothatwhisperalanternwasrunuptotheforeyard—armofthebrig。Shesawitascendswingingfora。shortspace,andsuddenlyremainmotionlessintheair,piercingthedensenightbetweenthetwovesselsbyitsglanceofflamethatstrongandsteadyseemed,fromafar,tofalluponheralone。