第9章

类别:其他 作者:Nicholas Sparks字数:10473更新时间:19/01/07 14:33:58
\"Hey!Johnnie!Habgotfish?Fish!Onepeeceefish!Eh?Savee? Fish!Fish——\"Hegaveitupsuddenlytosayinadeferentialtone——\"Can’tmakethemsavagesunderstandanything,sir,\"andwithdrewasifafteracleverfeat。 HassimlookedatLingard。 \"Whydidthelittlewhitemanmakethatoutcry?\"heasked,anxiously。 \"Theirdesireistoeatfish,\"saidLingardinanenragedtone。 Thenbeforetheairofextremesurprisewhichincontinentlyappearedontheother’sface,hecouldnotrestrainashortandhopelesslaugh。 \"Eatfish,\"repeatedHassim,staring。\"Oyouwhitepeople!Oyouwhitepeople!Eatfish!Good!Butwhymakethatnoise?Andwhydidyousendthemherewithoutguns?\"Afterasignificantglancedownupontheslopeofthedeckcausedbythevesselbeingontheground,headdedwithaslightnodatLingard——\"Andwithoutknowledge?\" \"Youshouldnothavecomehere,OHassim,\"saidLingard,testily。 \"Herenooneunderstands。Theytakearajahforafisherman——\" \"Ya—wa!Agreatmistake,for,truly,thechiefoftenfugitiveswithoutacountryismuchlessthantheheadmanofafishingvillage,\"observedHassim,composedly。Immadasighed。\"Butyou,Tuan,atleastknowthetruth,\"hewentonwithquietirony;thenafterapause——\"Wecameherebecauseyouhadforgottentolooktowardus,whohadwaited,sleepinglittleatnight,andinthedaywatchingwithhoteyestheemptywateratthefootoftheskyforyou。\" Immadamurmured,withoutliftingherhead: \"Youneverlookedforus。Never,neveronce。\" \"Therewastoomuchtroubleinmyeyes,\"explainedLingardwiththatpatientgentlenessoftoneandfacewhich,everytimehespoketotheyounggirl,seemedtodisengageitselffromhiswholeperson,envelopinghisfierceness,softeninghisaspect,suchasthedreamymistthatintheearlyradianceofthemorningweavesaveiloftendercharmaboutaruggedrockinmid—ocean。 \"Imustlooknowtotherightandtotheleftasinatimeofsuddendanger,\"headdedafteramomentandshewhisperedanappalled\"Why?\"solowthatitspainfloatedawayinthesilenceofattentivemen,withoutresponse,unheard,ignored,likethepainofanimpalpablethought。 IV D’Alcacer,standingback,surveyedthemallwithaprofoundandalertattention。Lingardseemedunabletotearhimselfawayfromtheyacht,andremained,checked,asitwereintheactofgoing,likeamanwhohasstoppedtothinkoutthelastthingtosay; andthatstillnessofabody,forgottenbythelabouringmind,remindedCarterofthatmomentinthecabin,whenalonehehadseenthismanthuswrestlingwithhisthought,motionlessandlockedinthegripofhisconscience。 Mr。Traversmutteredaudiblythroughhisteeth: \"Howlongisthisperformancegoingtolast?Ihavedesiredyoutogo。\" \"Thinkofthesepoordevils,\"whisperedLingard,withaquickglanceatthecrewhuddledupnearby。 \"YouarethekindofmanIwouldbeleastdisposedtotrust——inanycase,\"saidMr。Travers,incisively,verylow,andwithaninexplicablebutveryapparentsatisfaction。\"Youareonlywastingyourtimehere。\" \"You——You——\"Hestammeredandstared。Hechewedwithgrowlssomeinsultingwordandatlastswalloweditwithaneffort。\"Mytimepaysforyourlife,\"hesaid。 Hebecameawareofasuddenstir,andsawthatMrs。Travershadrisenfromherchair。 Shewalkedimpulsivelytowardthegrouponthequarter—deck,makingstraightforImmada。HassimhadsteppedasideandhisdetachedgazeofaMalaygentlemanpassedbyherasifshehadbeeninvisible。 Shewastall,supple,movingfreely。Hercomplexionwassodazzlingintheshadethatitseemedtothrowoutahaloroundherhead。Uponasmoothandwidebrowanabundanceofpalefairhair,fineassilk,undulatinglikethesea,heavylikeahelmet,descendedlowwithoutatraceofgloss,withoutagleaminitscoils,asthoughithadneverbeentouchedbyarayoflight;andathroatwhite,smooth,palpitatingwithlife,aroundneckmodelledwithstrengthanddelicacy,supportedgloriouslythatradiantfaceandthatpalemassofhairunkissedbysunshine。 Shesaidwithanimation: \"Why,it’sagirl!\" Mrs。Traversextortedfromd’Alcacerafreshtributeofcuriosity。Astrongpuffofwindflutteredtheawningsandoneofthescreensblowingoutwideletinuponthequarter—decktheripplingglitteroftheShallows,showingtod’Alcacertheluminousvastnessofthesea,withthelineofthedistanthorizon,darkliketheedgeoftheencompassingnight,drawnattheheightofMrs。Travers’shoulder……Wherewasithehadseenherlast——alongtimebefore,ontheothersideoftheworld?Therewasalsotheglitterofsplendouraroundherthen,andanimpressionofluminousvastness。Theencompassingnight,too,wasthere,thenightthatwaitsforitstimetomoveforwardupontheglitter,thesplendour,themen,thewomen。 Hecouldnotrememberforthemoment,buthebecameconvincedthatofallthewomenheknew,shealoneseemedtobemadeforaction。Everyoneofhermovementshadfirmness,ease,themeaningofavitalfact,themoralbeautyofafearlessexpression。Hersupplefigurewasnotdishonouredbyanyfalteringofoutlinesundertheplaindressofdarkbluestuffmouldingherformwithboldsimplicity。 Shehadonlyveryfewstepstomake,butbeforeshehadstopped,confrontingImmada,d’Alcacerrememberedhersuddenlyashehadseenherlast,outWest,faraway,impossiblydifferent,asifinanotheruniverse,asifpresentedbythefantasyofafeveredmemory。Hesawherinaluminousperspectiveofpalatialdrawingrooms,intherestlesseddyandflowofahumansea,atthefootofwallshighascliffs,underloftyceilingsthatlikeatropicalskyflunglightandheatupontheshallowglitterofuniforms,ofstars,ofdiamonds,ofeyessparklinginthewearyorimpassivefacesofthethrongatanofficialreception。 Outsidehehadfoundtheunavoidabledarknesswithitsaspectofpatientwaiting,acloudyskyholdingbackthedawnofaLondonmorning。Itwasdifficulttobelieve。 Lingard,whohadbeenlookingdangerouslyfierce,slappedhisthighandshowedsignsofagitation。 \"Byheavens,Ihadforgottenallaboutyou!\"hepronouncedindismay。 Mrs。TraversfixedhereyesonImmada。Fairhairedandwhitesheassertedherselfbeforethegirlofolivefaceandravenlockswiththematurityofperfection,withthesuperiorityoftheflowerovertheleaf,ofthephrasethatcontainsathoughtoverthecrythatcanonlyexpressanemotion。Immensespacesandcountlesscenturiesstretchedbetweenthem:andshelookedatheraswhenonelooksintoone’sownheartwithabsorbedcuriosity,withstillwonder,withanimmensecompassion。Lingardmurmured,warningly: \"Don’ttouchher。\" Mrs。Traverslookedathim。 \"DoyouthinkIcouldhurther?\"sheasked,softly,andwassostartledtohearhimmutteragloomy\"Perhaps,\"thatshehesitatedbeforeshesmiled。 \"Almostachild!Andsopretty!Whatadelicateface,\"shesaid,whileanotherdeepsighoftheseabreezeliftedandletfallthescreens,sothatthesound,thewind,andtheglitterseemedtorushintogetherandbearherwordsawayintospace。\"Ihadnoideaofanythingsocharminglygentle,\"shewentoninavoicethatwithouteffortglowed,caressed,andhadamagicpowerofdelighttothesoul。\"Soyoung!Andsheliveshere——doesshe?Onthesea——orwhere?Lives——\"Thenfaintly,asifshehadbeenintheactofspeaking,removedinstantlytoagreatdistance,shewasheardagain:\"Howdoesshelive?\" LingardhadhardlyseenEdithTraverstillthen。HehadseennoonereallybutMr。Travers……Helookedandlistenedwithsomethingofthestuporofanewsensation。 Thenhemadeadistinctefforttocollecthisthoughtsandsaidwitharemnantofanger: \"Whathaveyougottodowithher?Sheknowswar。Doyouknowanythingaboutit?Andhunger,too,andthirst,andunhappiness; thingsyouhaveonlyheardabout。ShehasbeenasneardeathasI amtoyou——andwhatisallthattoanyofyouhere?\" \"Thatchild!\"shesaidinslowwonder。 ImmadaturneduponMrs。Travershereyesblackascoal,sparklingandsoftlikeatropicalnight;andtheglancesofthetwowomen,theirdissimilarandinquiringglancesmet,seemedtotouch,clasp,holdeachotherwiththegripofanintimatecontact。Theyseparated。 \"Whataretheycomefor?Whydidyoushowthemthewaytothisplace?\"askedImmada,faintly。 Lingardshookhisheadindenial。 \"Poorgirl,\"saidMrs。Travers。\"Aretheyallsopretty?\" \"Who—all?\"mumbledLingard。\"Thereisn’tanotheronelikeherifyouweretoransacktheislandsallroundthecompass。\" \"Edith!\"ejaculatedMr。Traversinaremonstrating,acrimoniousvoice,andeveryonegavehimalookofvaguesurprise。 ThenMrs。Traversasked: \"Whoisshe?\" Lingardveryredandgravedeclaredcurtly: \"Aprincess。\" Immediatelyhelookedroundwithsuspicion。Noonesmiled。 D’Alcacer,courteousandnonchalant,loungedupclosetoMrs。 Travers’elbow。 \"Ifsheisaprincess,thenthismanisaknight,\"hemurmuredwithconviction。\"AknightasIlive!Adescendantoftheimmortalhidalgoerrantuponthesea。Itwouldbegoodforustohavehimforafriend。SeriouslyIthinkthatyouought——\" Thetwosteppedasideandspokelowandhurriedly。 \"Yes,youought——\" \"HowcanI?\"sheinterrupted,catchingthemeaninglikeaball。 \"Bysayingsomething。\" \"Isitreallynecessary?\"sheasked,doubtfully。 \"Itwoulddonoharm,\"saidd’Alcacerwithsuddencarelessness; \"afriendisalwaysbetterthananenemy。\" \"Always?\"sherepeated,meaningly。\"ButwhatcouldIsay?\" \"Somewords,\"heanswered;\"Ishouldthinkanywordsinyourvoice——\" \"Mr。d’Alcacer!\" \"Oryoucouldperhapslookathimonceortwiceasthoughhewerenotexactlyarobber,\"hecontinued。 \"Mr。d’Alcacer,areyouafraid?\" \"Extremely,\"hesaid,stoopingtopickupthefanatherfeet。 \"ThatisthereasonIamsoanxioustoconciliate。Andyoumustnotforgetthatoneofyourqueensoncesteppedonthecloakofperhapssuchaman。\" Hereyessparkledandshedroppedthemsuddenly。 \"Iamnotaqueen,\"shesaid,coldly。 \"Unfortunatelynot,\"headmitted;\"butthentheotherwasawomanwithnocharmbuthercrown。\" AtthatmomentLingard,towhomHassimhadbeentalkingearnestly,protestedaloud: \"Ineversawthesepeoplebefore。\" Immadacaughtholdofherbrother’sarm。Mr。Traverssaidharshly: \"Obligemebytakingthesenativesaway。\" \"Neverbefore,\"murmuredImmadaasiflostinecstasy。D’AlcacerglancedatMrs。Traversandmadeastepforward。 \"Couldnotthedifficulty,whateveritis,bearranged,Captain?\" hesaidwithcarefulpoliteness。\"Observethatwearenotonlymenhere——\" \"Letthemdie!\"criedImmada,triumphantly。 ThoughLingardaloneunderstoodthemeaningofthesewords,allonboardfeltoppressedbytheuneasysilencewhichfollowedhercry。 \"Ah!Heisgoing。Now,Mrs。Travers,\"whisperedd’Alcacer。 \"Ihope!\"saidMrs。Travers,impulsively,andstoppedasifalarmedatthesound。 Lingardstoodstill。 \"Ihope,\"shebeganagain,\"thatthispoorgirlwillknowhappierdays——\"Shehesitated。 Lingardwaited,attentiveandserious。 \"Underyourcare,\"shefinished。\"AndIbelieveyoumeanttobefriendlytous。\" \"Thankyou,\"saidLingardwithdignity。 \"Youandd’Alcacer,\"observedMr。Travers,austerely,\"areunnecessarilydetainingthis——ah——person,and——ah——friends——ah!\" \"Ihadforgottenyou——andnow——what?Onemust——itishard——hard——\"wentonLingard,disconnectedly,whilehelookedintoMrs。Travers’violeteyes,andfelthismindoverpoweredandtroubledasifbythecontemplationofvastdistances。\"I——youdon’tknow——I——you——cannot……Ha!It’sallthatman’sdoing,\" heburstout。 Foratime,asifbesidehimself,heglaredatMrs。Travers,thenflunguponearmandstrodeofftowardthegangway,whereHassimandImmadawaitedforhim,interestedandpatient。Withasingleword\"Come,\"heprecededthemdownintotheboat。Notasoundwasheardontheyacht’sdeck,whilethesethreedisappearedoneafteranotherbelowtherailasiftheyhaddescendedintothesea。 V Theafternoondraggeditselfoutinsilence。Mrs。Traverssatpensiveandidlewithherfanonherknees。D’Alcacer,whothoughttheincidentshouldhavebeentreatedinaconciliatoryspirit,attemptedtocommunicatehisviewtohishost,butthatgentleman,purposelymisunderstandinghismotive,overwhelmedhimwithsomanyapologiesandexpressionsofregretattheirksomeandperhapsinconvenientdelay\"whichyousufferfromthroughyourgood—naturedacceptanceofourinvitation\"thattheotherwasobligedtorefrainfrompursuingthesubjectfurther。 \"Evenmyregardforyou,mydeard’Alcacer,couldnotinducemetosubmittosuchabare—facedattemptatextortion,\"affirmedMr。Traverswithuncompromisingvirtue。\"Themanwantedtoforcehisservicesuponme,andthenputinaheavyclaimforsalvage。 Thatisthewholesecret——youmaydependonit。Idetectedhimatonce,ofcourse。\"Theeye—glassglitteredperspicuously。\"Heunderratedmyintelligence;andwhataviolentscoundrel!Theexistenceofsuchamaninthetimeweliveinisascandal。\" D’Alcacerretired,and,fullofvagueforebodings,triedinvainforhourstointeresthimselfinabook。Mr。Traverswalkedupanddownrestlessly,tryingtopersuadehimselfthathisindignationwasbasedonpurelymoralgrounds。Theglaringday,likeamassofwhite—hotironwithdrawnfromthefire,waslosinggraduallyitsheatanditsglareinaricherdeepeningoftone。 Attheusualtimetwoseamen,walkingnoiselesslyaftintheiryachtingshoes,rolledupinsilencethequarter—deckscreens; andthecoast,theshallows,thedarkisletsandthesnowysandbanksuncoveredthusdayafterdaywereseenoncemoreintheiraspectofdumbwatchfulness。Thebrig,swungendonintheforeground,hersquaredyardscrossingheavilythesoaringsymmetryoftherigging,resembledacreatureinstinctwithlife,withthepowerofspringingintoactionlurkinginthelightgraceofitsrepose。 Apairofstewardsinwhitejacketswithbrassbuttonsappearedondeckandbegantoflitaboutwithoutasound,layingthetablefordinnerontheflattopofthecabinskylight。Thesun,driftingawaytowardotherlands,towardotherseas,towardothermen;thesun,allredinacloudlessskyrakedtheyachtwithapartingsalvoofcrimsonraysthatshatteredthemselvesintosparksoffireuponthecrystalandsilverofthedinner—service,putashortflameintothebladesofknives,andspreadarosytintoverthewhiteofplates。Atrailofpurple,likeasmearofbloodonablueshield,layoverthesea。 OnsittingdownMr。Traversalludedinavexedtonetothenecessityoflivingonpreserves,allthestockoffreshprovisionsforthepassagetoBataviahavingbeenalreadyconsumed。Itwasdistinctlyunpleasant。 \"Idon’ttravelformypleasure,however,\"headded;\"andthebeliefthatthesacrificeofmytimeandcomfortwillbeproductiveofsomegoodtotheworldatlargewouldmakeupforanyamountofprivations。\" Mrs。Traversandd’Alcacerseemedunabletoshakeoffastrongaversiontotalk,andtheconversation,likeanexpiringbreeze,keptondyingoutrepeatedlyaftereachlanguidgust。Thelargesilenceofthehorizon,theprofoundreposeofallthingsvisible,envelopingthebodiesandpenetratingthesoulswiththeirquietinginfluence,stilledthoughtaswellasvoice。Foralongtimenoonespoke。Behindthetaciturnityofthemasterstheservantshoveredwithoutnoise。 Suddenly,Mr。Travers,asifconcludingatrainofthought,mutteredaloud: \"IownwithregretIdidinameasurelosemytemper;butthenyouwilladmitthattheexistenceofsuchamanisadisgracetocivilization。\" Thisremarkwasnottakenupandhereturnedforatimetothenursingofhisindignation,atthebottomofwhich,likeamonsterinafog,creptabizarrefeelingofrancour。Hewavedawayanoffereddish。 \"Thiscoast,\"hebeganagain,\"hasbeenplacedunderthesoleprotectionofHollandbytheTreatyof1820。TheTreatyof1820 createsspecialrightsandobligations……\" Bothhishearersfeltvividlytheurgentnecessitytohearnomore。D’Alcacer,uncomfortableonacampstool,satstiffandstaredattheglassstopperofacarafe。Mrs。Traversturnedalittlesidewaysandleaningonherelbowrestedherheadonthepalmofherhandlikeonethinkingaboutmattersofprofoundimport。Mr。Traverstalked;hetalkedinflexibly,inaharshblankvoice,asifreadingaproclamation。Theothertwo,asifinastateofincompletetrance,hadtheirearsassailedbyfragmentsofofficialverbiage。 \"Aninternationalunderstanding——thedutytocivilize——failedtocarryout——compact——Canning——\"D’Alcacerbecameattentiveforamoment。\"——notthatthisattempt,almostamusinginitsimpudence,influencesmyopinion。Iwon’tadmitthepossibilityofanyviolencebeingofferedtopeopleofourposition。ItisthesocialaspectofsuchanincidentIamdesirousofcriticising。\" Hered’AlcacerlosthimselfagainintherecollectionofMrs。 TraversandImmadalookingateachother——thebeginningandtheend,theflowerandtheleaf,thephraseandthecry。Mr。 Travers’voicewentondogmaticandobstinateforalongtime。 Theendcamewithacertainvehemence。 \"Andiftheinferiorracemustperish,itisagain,asteptowardtheperfectingofsocietywhichistheaimofprogress。\" Heceased。Thesparksofsunsetincrystalandsilverhadgoneout,andaroundtheyachttheexpanseofcoastandShallowsseemedtoawait,unmoved,thecomingofutterdarkness。Thedinnerwasoveralongtimeagoandthepatientstewardshadbeenwaiting,stoicalinthedownpourofwordslikesentriesunderashower。 Mrs。Traversrosenervouslyandgoingaftbegantogazeatthecoast。Behindherthesun,sunkalready,seemedtoforcethroughthemassofwaterstheglowofanunextinguishablefire,andbelowherfeet,oneachsideoftheyacht,thelustroussea,asifreflectingthecolourofhereyes,wastingedasombreviolethue。 D’Alcacercameuptoherwithquietfootstepsandforsometimetheyleanedsidebysideovertherailinsilence。Thenhesaid——\"Howquietitis!\"andsheseemedtoperceivethatthequietnessofthateveningwasmoreprofoundandmoresignificantthaneverbefore。Almostwithoutknowingitshemurmured——\"It’slikeadream。\"Anotherlongsilenceensued;thetranquillityoftheuniversehadsuchanAugustamplenessthatthesoundsremainedonthelipsasifcheckedbythefearofprofanation。 Theskywaslimpidlikeadiamond,andunderthelastgleamsofsunsetthenightwasspreadingitsveilovertheearth。Therewassomethingpreciousandsoothinginthebeautifullysereneendofthatexpiringday,ofthedayvibrating,glitteringandardent,anddyingnowininfinitepeace,withoutastir,withoutatremor,withoutasigh——inthecertitudeofresurrection。 Thenallatoncetheshadowdeepenedswiftly,thestarscameoutinacrowd,scatteringarainofpalesparksupontheblacknessofthewater,whilethecoaststretchedlowdown,adarkbeltwithoutagleam。Aboveitthetop—hamperofthebrigloomedindistinctandhigh。 Mrs。Traversspokefirst。 \"Howunnaturallyquiet!Itislikeadesertoflandandwaterwithoutalivingsoul。\" \"Onemanatleastdwellsinit,\"saidd’Alcacer,lightly,\"andifheistobebelievedthereareothermen,fullofevilintentions。\" \"Doyouthinkitistrue?\"Mrs。Traversasked。 Beforeansweringd’Alcacertriedtoseetheexpressionofherfacebuttheobscuritywastooprofoundalready。 \"Howcanoneseeadarktruthonsuchadarknight?\"hesaid,evasively。\"Butitiseasytobelieveinevil,hereoranywhereelse。\" Sheseemedtobelostinthoughtforawhile。 \"Andthatmanhimself?\"sheasked。 Aftersometimed’Alcacerbegantospeakslowly。\"Rough,uncommon,decidedlyuncommonofhiskind。NotatallwhatDonMartinthinkshimtobe。Fortherest——mysterioustome。HeisYOURcountrymanafterall——\" Sheseemedquitesurprisedbythatview。 \"Yes,\"shesaid,slowly。\"Butyouknow,Icannot——whatshallI say?——imaginehimatall。HehasnothingincommonwiththemankindIknow。Thereisnothingtobeginupon。Howdoessuchamanlive?Whatarehisthoughts?Hisactions?Hisaffections? His——\" \"Hisconventions,\"suggestedd’Alcacer。\"Thatwouldincludeeverything。\" Mr。Traversappearedsuddenlybehindthemwithaglowingcigarinhisteeth。Hetookitbetweenhisfingerstodeclarewithpersistentacrimonythatnoamountof\"scoundrellyintimidation\" wouldpreventhimfromhavinghisusualwalk。Therewasaboutthreehundredyardstothesouthwardoftheyachtasandbanknearlyamilelong,gleamingasilverywhiteinthedarkness,plumettedinthecentrewithathicketofdrybushesthatrustledveryloudintheslighteststiroftheheavynightair。Thedayafterthestrandingtheyhadlandedonit\"tostretchtheirlegsabit,\"asthesailing—masterdefinedit,andeveryeveningsince,asifexercisingaprivilegeorperformingaduty,thethreepacedthereforanhourbackwardandforwardlostinduskyimmensity,threadingattheedgeofwaterthebeltofdampsand,smooth,level,elastictothetouchlikelivingfleshandsweatingalittleunderthepressureoftheirfeet。 Thistimed’AlcaceralonefollowedMr。Travers。Mrs。Traversheardthemgetintotheyacht’ssmallestboat,andthenight—watchman,tuggingatapairofsculls,pulledthemofftothenearestpoint。Thenthemanreturned。Hecameuptheladderandsheheardhimsaytosomeoneondeck: \"Orderstogobackinanhour。\" Hisfootstepsdiedoutforward,andasomnolent,unbreathingreposetookpossessionofthestrandedyacht。 VI AfteratimethisabsolutesilencewhichshealmostcouldfeelpressinguponheronallsidesinducedinMrs。Traversastateofhallucination。Shesawherselfstandingalone,attheendoftime,onthebrinkofdays。Allwasunmovingasifthedawnwouldnevercome,thestarswouldneverfade,thesunwouldneverriseanymore;allwasmute,still,dead——asiftheshadowoftheouterdarkness,theshadowoftheuninterrupted,oftheeverlastingnightthatfillstheuniverse,theshadowofthenightsoprofoundandsovastthattheblazingsunslostinitareonlylikesparks,likepin—pointsoffire,therestlessshadowthatlikeasuspicionofaneviltruthdarkenseverythingupontheearthonitspassage,hadenvelopedher,hadstoodarrestedasiftoremainwithherforever。 Andtherewassuchafinalityinthatillusion,suchanaccordwiththetrendofherthoughtthatwhenshemurmuredintothedarknessafaint\"sobeit\"sheseemedtohavespokenoneofthosesentencesthatresumeandclosealife。 Asayounggirl,oftenreprovedforherromanticideas,shehaddreamswherethesincerityofagreatpassionappearedliketheidealfulfilmentandtheonlytruthoflife。Enteringtheworldshediscoveredthatidealtobeunattainablebecausetheworldistooprudenttobesincere。Thenshehopedthatshecouldfindthetruthoflifeanambitionwhichsheunderstoodasalifelongdevotiontosomeunselfishideal。Mr。Travers’namewasonmen’slips;heseemedcapableofenthusiasmandofdevotion;heimpressedherimaginationbyhisimpenetrability。Shemarriedhim,foundhimenthusiasticallydevotedtothenursingofhisowncareer,andhadnothingtohopefornow。 Thatherhusbandshouldbebewilderedbythecuriousmisunderstandingwhichhadtakenplaceandalsopermanentlygrievedbyherdisloyaltytohisrespectableidealswasonlynatural。Hewas,however,perfectlysatisfiedwithherbeauty,herbrilliance,andherusefulconnections。Shewasadmired,shewasenvied;shewassurroundedbysplendourandadulation;thedayswentonrapid,brilliant,uniform,withoutaglimpseofsincerityortruepassion,withoutasingletrueemotion——noteventhatofagreatsorrow。Andswiftlyandstealthilytheyhadledheronandon,tothisevening,tothiscoast,tothissea,tothismomentoftimeandtothisspotontheearth’ssurfacewhereshefeltunerringlythatthemovingshadowoftheunbrokennighthadstoodstilltoremainwithherforever。 \"Sobeit!\"shemurmured,resignedanddefiant,atthemuteandsmoothobscuritythathungbeforehereyesinablackcurtainwithoutafold;andasifinanswertothatwhisperalanternwasrunuptotheforeyard—armofthebrig。Shesawitascendswingingfora。shortspace,andsuddenlyremainmotionlessintheair,piercingthedensenightbetweenthetwovesselsbyitsglanceofflamethatstrongandsteadyseemed,fromafar,tofalluponheralone。