第17章

类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:10143更新时间:19/01/07 14:28:10
\"Imean,becauseIunderstandbetterhowonecantortureone’sselfoverunrealities。\" AsDarrowlistened,thetensionofhisnervesbegantorelax。Hergaze,sograveandyetsosweet,waslikeadeeppoolintowhichhecouldplungeandhidehimselffromthehardglareofhismisery。Asthisecstaticsenseenvelopedhimhefounditmoreandmoredifficulttofollowherwordsandtoframeananswer;butwhatdidanythingmatter,exceptthathervoiceshouldgoon,andthesyllablesfalllikesofttouchesonhistorturedbrain? \"Don’tyouknow,\"shecontinued,\"theblissofwakingfromabaddreaminone’sownquietroom,andgoingslowlyoverallthehorrorwithoutbeingafraidofitanymore?That’swhatI’mdoingnow。Andthat’swhyIunderstandOwen……\"Shebrokeoff,andhefelthertouchonhisarm。\"BECAUSE I’DDREAMEDTHEHORRORTOO!\" Heunderstoodherthen,andstammered:\"You?\" \"Forgiveme!Andletmetellyou!……ItwillhelpyoutounderstandOwen……ThereWERElittlethings……littlesigns……onceIhadbeguntowatchforthem:yourreluctancetospeakabouther……herreservewithyou……asortofconstraintwe’dneverseeninherbefore……\" Shelaughedupathim,andwithherhandsinhishecontrivedtosay:\"NOWyouunderstandwhy?\" \"Oh,Iunderstand;ofcourseIunderstand;andIwantyoutolaughatme——withme!Becausetherewereotherthingstoo……crazierthingsstill……Therewaseven——lastnightontheterrace——herpinkcloak……\" \"Herpinkcloak?\"Nowhehonestlywondered,andasshesawitsheblushed。 \"You’veforgottenaboutthecloak?ThepinkcloakthatOwensawyouwithattheplayinParis?Yes……yes……Iwasmadenoughforthat!……Itdoesmegoodtolaughaboutitnow! ButyououghttoknowthatI’mgoingtobeajealouswoman……aridiculouslyjealouswoman……yououghttobewarnedofitintime……\" Hehaddroppedherhands,andsheleanedcloseandliftedherarmstohisneckwithoneofherraregesturesofsurrender。 \"Idon’tknowwhyitis;butitmakesmehappiernowtohavebeensofoolish!\" Herlipswerepartedinanoiselesslaughandthetremorofherlashesmadetheirshadowmoveonhercheek。Helookedatherthroughamistofpainandsawallherofferedbeautyhelduplikeacuptohislips;butashestoopedtoitadarknessseemedtofallbetweenthem,herarmsslippedfromhisshouldersandshedrewawayfromhimabruptly。 \"ButsheWASwithyou,then?\"sheexclaimed;andthen,ashestaredather:\"Oh,don’tsayno!Onlygoandlookatyoureyes!\" Hestoodspeechless,andshepressedon:\"Don’tdenyit——oh,don’tdenyit!Whatwillbeleftformetoimagineifyoudo?Don’tyouseehoweverysinglethingcriesitout?Owenseesit——hesawitagainjustnow!WhenItoldhimshe’drelented,andwouldseehim,hesaid:’IsthatDarrow’sdoingtoo?’\" Darrowtooktheonslaughtinsilence。Hemighthavespoken,havesummoneduptheusualphrasesofbanteranddenial;hewasnotevencertainthattheymightnot,forthemoment,haveservedtheirpurposeifhecouldhaveutteredthemwithoutbeingseen。ButhewasasconsciousofwhathadhappenedtohisfaceasifhehadobeyedAnna’sbiddingandlookedathimselfintheglass。Heknewhecouldnomorehidefromherwhatwaswrittentherethanhecouldeffacefromhissoulthefieryrecordofwhathehadjustlivedthrough。Therebeforehim,staringhimintheeyes,andreflectingitselfinallhislineaments,wastheoverwhelmingfactofSophyViner’spassionandoftheactbywhichshehadattestedit。 Annawastalkingagain,hurriedly,feverishly,andhissoulwaswrungbytheanguishinhervoice。\"Dospeakatlast—— youmustspeak!Idon’twanttoaskyoutoharmthegirl; butyoumustseethatyoursilenceisdoinghermoreharmthanyouransweringmyquestionscould。You’releavingmeonlytheworstthingstothinkofher……she’dseethatherselfifshewerehere。Whatworseinjurycanyoudoherthantomakemehateher——tomakemefeelshe’splottedwithyoutodeceiveus?\" \"Oh,notthat!\"Darrowheardhisownvoicebeforehewasawarethathemeanttospeak。\"Yes;IdidseeherinParis,\"hewentonafterapause;\"butIwasboundtorespectherreasonfornotwantingitknown。\" Annapaled。\"Itwassheatthetheatrethatnight?\" \"Iwaswithheratthetheatreonenight。\" \"Whyshouldshehaveaskedyounottosayso?\" \"Shedidn’twishitknownthatI’dmether。\" \"Whyshouldn’tshehavewisheditknown?\" \"ShehadquarrelledwithMrs。MurrettandcomeoversuddenlytoParis,andshedidn’twanttheFarlowstohearofit。I cameacrossherbyaccident,andsheaskedmenottospeakofhavingseenher。\" \"Becauseofherquarrel?Becauseshewasashamedofherpartinit?\" \"Oh,no。Therewasnothingforhertobeashamedof。ButtheFarlowshadfoundtheplaceforher,andshedidn’twantthemtoknowhowsuddenlyshe’dhadtoleave,andhowbadlyMrs。Murretthadbehaved。Shewasinaterribleplight——thewomanhadevenkeptbackhermonth’ssalary。SheknewtheFarlowswouldbeawfullyupset,andshewantedmoretimetopreparethem。\" Darrowheardhimselfspeakasthoughthewordshadproceededfromotherlips。Hisexplanationsoundedplausibleenough,andhehalf—fanciedAnna’slookgrewlighter。Shewaitedamoment,asthoughtobesurehehadnomoretoadd;thenshesaid:\"ButtheFarlowsDIDknow;theytoldmeallaboutitwhentheysenthertome。\" Heflushedasifshehadlaidadeliberatetrapforhim。 \"TheymayknowNOW;theydidn’tthen————\" \"That’snoreasonforhercontinuingnowtomakeamysteryofhavingmetyou。\" \"It’stheonlyreasonIcangiveyou。\" \"ThenI’llgoandaskherforonemyself。\"Sheturnedandtookafewstepstowardthedoor。 \"Anna!\"Hestartedtofollowher,andthencheckedhimself。 \"Don’tdothat!\" \"Whynot?\" \"It’snotlikeyou……notgenerous……\" Shestoodbeforehimstraightandpale,butunderherrigidfacehesawthetumultofherdoubtandmisery。 \"Idon’twanttobeungenerous;Idon’twanttopryintohersecrets。Butthingscan’tbeleftlikethis。Wouldn’titbebetterformetogotoher?Surelyshe’llunderstand——she’llexplain……Itmaybesomemeretrifleshe’sconcealing: somethingthatwouldhorrifytheFarlows,butthatI shouldn’tseeanyharmin……\"Shepaused,hereyessearchinghisface。\"Aloveaffair,Isuppose……that’sit? Youmetherwithsomemanatthetheatre——andshewasfrightenedandbeggedyoutofibaboutit?Thosepooryoungthingsthathavetogoaboutamonguslikemachines——oh,ifyouknewhowIpitythem!\" \"Ifyoupityher,whynotlethergo?\" Shestared。\"Lethergo——goforgood,youmean?Isthatthebestyoucansayforher?\" \"Letthingstaketheircourse。Afterall,it’sbetweenherselfandOwen。\" \"Andyouandme——andEffie,ifOwenmarriesher,andIleavemychildwiththem!Don’tyouseetheimpossibilityofwhatyou’reasking?We’reallboundtogetherinthiscoil。\" Darrowturnedawaywithagroan。\"Oh,lethergo——lethergo。\" \"ThenthereISsomething——somethingreallybad?SheWASwithsomeonewhenyoumether?Someonewithwhomshewas————\"Shebrokeoff,andhesawherstrugglingwithnewthoughts。\"Ifit’sTHAT,ofcourse……Oh,don’tyousee,\"shedesperatelyappealedtohim,\"thatImustfindout,andthatit’stoolatenowforyounottospeak?Don’tbeafraidthatI’llbetrayyou……I’llnever,neverletasoulsuspect。ButImustknowthetruth,andsurelyit’sbestforherthatIshouldfinditoutfromyou。\" Darrowwaitedamoment;thenhesaidslowly:\"Whatyouimagine’smeremadness。Shewasatthetheatrewithme。\" \"Withyou?\"Hesawatremorpassthroughher,butshecontrolleditinstantlyandfacedhimstraightandmotionlessasawoundedcreatureinthemomentbeforeitfeelsitswound。\"Whyshouldyoubothhavemadeamysteryofthat?\" \"I’vetoldyoutheideawasnotmine。\"Hecastabout。\"ShemayhavebeenafraidthatOwen————\" \"Butthatwasnotareasonforheraskingyoutotellmethatyouhardlyknewher——thatyouhadn’tevenseenherforyears。\"Shebrokeoffandthebloodrosetoherfaceandforehead。\"EvenifSHEhadotherreasons,therecouldbeonlyonereasonforyourobeyingher————\" Silencefellbetweenthem,asilenceinwhichtheroomseemedtobecomesuddenlyresonantwithvoices。Darrow’sgazewanderedtothewindowandhenoticedthatthegaleoftwodaysbeforehadnearlystrippedthetopsofthelime— treesinthecourt。Annahadmovedawayandwasrestingherelbowsagainstthemantel—piece,herheadinherhands。Asshestoodtherehetookinwithanewintensityofvisionlittledetailsofherappearancethathiseyeshadoftencherished:thebranchingblueveinsinthebacksofherhands,thewarmshadowthatherhaircastonherear,andthecolourofthehairitself,dullblackwithatawnyunder—surface,likethewingsofcertainbirds。Hefeltittobeuselesstospeak。 Afterawhilesheliftedherheadandsaid:\"Ishallnotseeheragainbeforeshegoes。\" Hemadenoanswer,andturningtohimsheadded:\"Thatiswhyshe’sgoing,Isuppose?Becauseshelovesyouandwon’tgiveyouup?\" Darrowwaited。Thepaltrinessofconventionaldenialwassoapparenttohimthatevenifitcouldhavedelayeddiscoveryhecouldnolongerhaveresortedtoit。Underallhisotherfearswasthedreadofdishonouringthehour。 \"SheHASgivenmeup,\"hesaidatlast。 XXVIII WhenhehadgoneoutoftheroomAnnastoodwherehehadlefther。\"Imustbelievehim!Imustbelievehim!\"shesaid。 Amomentbefore,atthemomentwhenshehadliftedherarmstohisneck,shehadbeenwrappedinasenseofcompletesecurity。Allthespiritsofdoubthadbeenexorcised,andherlovewasoncemoretheclearhabitationinwhicheverythoughtandfeelingcouldmoveinblissfulfreedom。Andthen,assheraisedherfacetoDarrow’sandmethiseyes,shehadseemedtolookintotheveryruinsofhissoul。 Thatwastheonlywayshecouldexpressit。Itwasasthoughheandshehadbeenlookingattwosidesofthesamething,andthesideshehadseenhadbeenalllightandlife,andhisaplaceofgraves…… Shedidn’tnowrecallwhohadspokenfirst,oreven,veryclearly,whathadbeensaid。Itseemedtoheronlyamomentlaterthatshehadfoundherselfstandingattheotherendoftheroom——theroomwhichhadsuddenlygrownsosmallthat,evenwithitslengthbetweenthem,shefeltasifhetouchedher——cryingouttohim\"ItISbecauseofyoushe’sgoing!\"andreadingtheavowalinhisface。 Thatwashissecret,then,THEIRsecret:hehadmetthegirlinParisandhelpedherinherstraits——lenthermoney,Annavaguelyconjectured——andshehadfalleninlovewithhim,andonmeetinghimagainhadbeensuddenlyovermasteredbyherpassion。Anna,droppingbackintohersofa—corner,satstaringthesefactsintheface。 Thegirlhadbeeninadesperateplight——frightened,penniless,outragedbywhathadhappened,andnotknowing(withawomanlikeMrs。Murrett)whatfreshinjurymightimpend;andDarrow,meetingherinthisdistractedhour,hadpitied,counselled,beenkindtoher,withthefatal,theinevitableresult。TherewerethefactsasAnnamadethemout:that,atleast,wastheirexternalaspect,wasasmuchofthemasshehadbeensufferedtosee;andintothesecretintricaciestheymightcovershedarednotyetprojectherthoughts。 \"Imustbelievehim……Imustbelievehim……\"Shekeptonrepeatingthewordslikeatalisman。Itwasnatural,afterall,thatheshouldhavebehavedashehad:defendedthegirl’spiteoussecrettothelast。Shetoobegantofeelthecontagionofhispity——thestir,inherbreast,offeelingsdeeperandmorenativetoherthanthepainsofjealousy。 Fromthesecurityofherblessednessshelongedtoleanoverwithcompassionatehands……ButOwen?WhatwasOwen’sparttobe?Sheowedherselffirsttohim——shewasboundtoprotecthimnotonlyfromallknowledgeofthesecretshehadsurprised,butalso——andchiefly!——fromitsconsequences。 Yes:thegirlmustgo——therecouldbenodoubtofit——Darrowhimselfhadseenitfromthefirst;andatthethoughtshehadawildrevulsionofrelief,asthoughshehadbeentryingtocreateinherheartthedelusionofagenerosityshecouldnotfeel…… TheonefactonwhichshecouldstayhermindwasthatSophywasleavingimmediately;wouldbeoutofthehousewithinanhour。Onceshewasgone,itwouldbeeasiertobringOwentothepointofunderstandingthatthebreakwasfinal;ifnecessary,toworkuponthegirltomakehimseeit。Butthat,Annawassure,wouldnotbenecessary。ItwasclearthatSophyVinerwasleavingGivrewithnothoughtofeverseeingitagain…… Suddenly,asshetriedtoputsomeorderinherthoughts,sheheardOwen’scallatthedoor:\"Mother!————\"anameheseldomgaveher。Therewasanewnoteinhisvoice:thenoteofajoyousimpatience。Itmadeherturnhastilytotheglasstoseewhatfaceshewasabouttoshowhim;butbeforeshehadhadtimetocomposeithewasintheroomandshewascaughtinaschool—boyhug。 \"It’sallright!It’sallright!Andit’sallyourdoing!I wanttodotheworstkindofpenance——bellandcandleandtherest。I’vebeenthroughitwithHER,andnowshehandsmeontoyou,andyou’retocallmeanynamesyouplease。\"Hefreedherwithhishappylaugh。\"I’mtobestoodinthecornertillnextweek,andthenI’mtogouptoseeher。AndshesaysIoweitalltoyou!\" \"Tome?\"Itwasthefirstphraseshefoundtoclutchatasshetriedtosteadyherselfintheeddiesofhisjoy。 \"Yes:youweresopatient,andsodeartoher;andyousawatoncewhatadamnedassI’dbeen!\"Shetriedasmile,anditseemedtopassmusterwithhim,forhesentitbackinabroadbeam。\"That’snotsodifficulttosee?No,Iadmititdoesn’ttakeamicroscope。Butyouweresowiseandwonderful——youalwaysare。I’vebeenmadtheselastdays,simplymad——youandshemightwellhavewashedyourhandsofme!Andinstead,it’sallright——allright!\" Shedrewbackalittle,tryingtokeepthesmileonherlipsandnotlethimgettheleastglimpseofwhatithid。Nowifever,indeed,itbehovedhertobewiseandwonderful! \"I’msoglad,dear;soglad。Ifonlyyou’llalwaysfeellikethataboutme……\"Shestopped,hardlyknowingwhatshesaid,andaghastattheideathatherownhandsshouldhaveretiedtheknotsheimaginedtobebroken。Butshesawhehadsomethingmoretosay;somethinghardtogetout,butabsolutelynecessarytoexpress。Hecaughtherhands,pulledherclose,and,withhisforeheaddrawnintoitswhimsicalsmilingwrinkles,\"Lookhere,\"hecried,\"ifDarrowwantstocallmeadamnedasstooyou’renottostophim!\" Itbroughtherbacktoasharpersenseofhercentralperil: ofthesecrettobekeptfromhimatwhatevercosttoherrackednerves。 \"Oh,youknow,hedoesn’talwayswaitfororders!\"Onthewholeitsoundedbetterthanshe’dfeared。 \"Youmeanhe’scalledmeonealready?\"Heacceptedthefactwithhisgayestlaugh。\"Well,thatsavesalotoftrouble; nowwecanpasstotheorderoftheday————\"hebrokeoffandglancedattheclock——\"whichis,youknow,dear,thatshe’sstartinginaboutanhour;sheandAdelaidemustalreadybesnatchingahastysandwich。You’llcomedowntobidthemgood—bye?\" \"Yes——ofcourse。\" Therehad,infact,grownuponherwhilehespoketheurgencyofseeingSophyVineragainbeforesheleft。Thethoughtwasdeeplydistasteful:Annashrankfromencounteringthegirltillshehadclearedawaythroughherownperplexities。Butitwasobviousthatsincetheyhadseparated,barelyanhourearlier,thesituationhadtakenanewshape。SophyVinerhadapparentlyreconsideredherdecisiontobreakamicablybutdefinitelywithOwen,andstoodagainintheirpath,amenaceandamystery;andconfusedimpulsesofresistancestirredinAnna’smind。 ShefeltOwen’stouchonherarm。\"Areyoucoming?\" \"Yes……yes……presently。\" \"What’sthematter?Youlooksostrange。\" \"Whatdoyoumeanbystrange?\" \"Idon’tknow:startled——surprised\"Shereadwhatherlookmustbebyitssuddenreflectioninhisface。 \"DoI?Nowonder!You’vegivenusallanexcitingmorning。\" Heheldtohispoint。\"You’remoreexcitednowthatthere’snocauseforit。WhatonearthhashappenedsinceIsawyou?\" Helookedabouttheroom,asifseekingthecluetoheragitation,andinherdreadofwhathemightguesssheanswered:\"WhathashappenedissimplythatI’mrathertired。WillyouaskSophytocomeupandseemehere?\" Whileshewaitedshetriedtothinkwhatsheshouldsaywhenthegirlappeared;butshehadneverbeenmoreconsciousofherinabilitytodealwiththeobliqueandthetortuous。 Shehadlackedthehardteachingsofexperience,andaninstinctivedisdainforwhateverwaslessclearandopenthanherownconsciencehadkeptherfromlearninganythingoftheintricaciesandcontradictionsofotherhearts。Shesaidtoherself:\"Imustfindout————\"yeteverythinginherrecoiledfromthemeansbywhichshefeltitmustbedone…… SophyVinerappearedalmostimmediately,dressedfordeparture,herlittlebagonherarm。Shewasstillpaletothepointofhaggardness,butwithalightuponherthatstruckAnnawithsurprise。Orwasit,perhaps,thatshewaslookingatthegirlwithneweyes:seeingher,forthefirsttime,notasEffie’sgoverness,notasOwen’sbride,butastheembodimentofthatunknownperillurkinginthebackgroundofeverywoman’sthoughtsaboutherlover?Anna,atanyrate,withasuddensenseofestrangement,notedinhergracesandsnaresneverbeforeperceived。Itwasonlytheflashofaprimitiveinstinct,butitlastedlongenoughtomakeherashamedofthedarknessesitlitupinherheart…… ShesignedtoSophytositdownonthesofabesideher。\"I askedyoutocomeuptomebecauseIwantedtosaygood—byequietly,\"sheexplained,feelingherlipstremble,buttryingtospeakinatoneoffriendlynaturalness。 Thegirl’sonlyanswerwasafaintsmileofacquiescence,andAnna,disconcertedbyhersilence,wenton:\"You’vedecided,then,nottobreakyourengagement?\" SophyVinerraisedherheadwithalookofsurprise。 Evidentlythequestion,thusabruptlyput,musthavesoundedstrangelyonthelipsofsoardentapartisanasMrs。Leath! \"Ithoughtthatwaswhatyouwished,\"shesaid。 \"WhatIwished?\"Anna’sheartshookagainstherside。\"I wish,ofcourse,whateverseemsbestforOwen……It’snatural,youmustunderstand,thatthatconsiderationshouldcomefirstwithme……\" Sophywaslookingathersteadily。\"Isupposeditwastheonlyonethatcountedwithyou。\" ThecurtnessofretortrousedAnna’slatentantagonism。\"Itis,\"shesaid,inahardvoicethatstartledherassheheardit。Hadsheeverspokensotoanyonebefore?Shefeltfrightened,asthoughherverynaturehadchangedwithoutherknowingit……Feelingthegirl’sastonishedgazestillonher,shecontinued:\"Thesuddennessofthechangehasnaturallysurprisedme。WhenIleftyouitwasunderstoodthatyouweretoreserveyourdecision————\" \"Yes。\" \"Andnow————?\"Annawaitedforareplythatdidnotcome。 Shedidnotunderstandthegirl’sattitude,theedgeofironyinhershortsyllables,theplainlypremeditateddeterminationtolaytheburdenofproofonherinterlocutor。Annafeltthesuddenneedtolifttheirintercourseabovethismeanlevelofdefianceanddistrust。 ShelookedappealinglyatSophy。 \"Isn’titbestthatweshouldspeakquitefrankly?It’sthischangeonyourpartthatperplexesme。Youcanhardlybesurprisedatthat。It’strue,IaskedyounottobreakwithOwentooabruptly——andIaskedit,believeme,asmuchforyoursakeasforhis:Iwantedyoutotaketimetothinkoverthedifficultythatseemstohavearisenbetweenyou。 Thefactthatyoufeltitrequiredthinkingoverseemedtoshowyouwouldn’ttakethefinalsteplightly——wouldn’t,I mean,acceptofOwenmorethanyoucouldgivehim。ButyourchangeofmindobligesmetoaskthequestionIthoughtyouwouldhaveaskedyourself。Isthereanyreasonwhyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen?\" Shestoppedalittlebreathlessly,hereyesonSophyViner’sburningface。\"Anyreason————?Whatdoyoumeanbyareason?\" Annacontinuedtolookathergravely。\"Doyoulovesomeoneelse?\"sheasked。 Sophy’sfirstlookwasoneofwonderandafaintrelief; thenshegavebacktheother’sscrutinyinaglanceofindescribablereproach。\"Ah,youmighthavewaited!\"sheexclaimed。 \"Waited?\" \"TillI’dgone:tillIwasoutofthehouse。Youmighthaveknown……youmighthaveguessed……\"SheturnedhereyesagainonAnna。\"Ionlymeanttolethimhopealittlelonger,sothatheshouldn’tsuspectanything;ofcourseI can’tmarryhim,\"shesaid。 Annastoodmotionless,silencedbytheshockoftheavowal。 Shetoowastrembling,lesswithangerthanwithaconfusedcompassion。Butthefeelingwassoblentwithothers,lessgenerousandmoreobscure,thatshefoundnowordstoexpressit,andthetwowomenfacedeachotherwithoutspeaking。 \"I’dbettergo,\"Sophymurmuredatlengthwithloweredhead。 ThewordsrousedinAnnaalatentimpulseofcompunction。 Thegirllookedsoyoung,soexposedanddesolate!Andwhatthoughtsmustshebehidinginherheart!Itwasimpossiblethattheyshouldpartinsuchaspirit。 \"Iwantyoutoknowthatnoonesaidanything……ItwasI who……\" Sophylookedather。\"YoumeanthatMr。Darrowdidn’ttellyou?Ofcoursenot:doyousupposeIthoughthedid?Youfounditout,that’sall——Iknewyouwould。InyourplaceI shouldhaveguesseditsooner。\" Thewordswerespokensimply,withoutironyoremphasis;buttheywentthroughAnnalikeasword。Yes,thegirlwouldhavehaddivinations,promptingsthatshehadnothad!Shefelthalfenviousofsuchasadprecocityofwisdom。 \"I’msosorry……sosorry……\"shemurmured。 \"Thingshappenthatway。NowI’dbettergo。I’dliketosaygood—byetoEffie。\" \"Oh————\"itbrokeinacryfromEffie’smother。\"Notlikethis——youmustn’t!Ifeel——youmakemefeeltoohorribly:asifIweredrivingyouaway……\"Thewordshadrushedupfromthedepthsofherbewilderedpity。 \"Nooneisdrivingmeaway:Ihadtogo,\"sheheardthegirlreply。 Therewasanothersilence,duringwhichpassionateimpulsesofmagnanimitywarredinAnnawithherdoubtsanddreads。 Atlength,hereyesonSophy’sface:\"Yes,youmustgonow,\" shebegan;\"butlateron……afterawhile,whenallthisisover……ifthere’snoreasonwhyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen———— \"shepausedamomentonthewords——\"Ishouldn’twantyoutothinkIstoodbetweenyou……\" \"You?\"Sophyflushedagain,andthengrewpale。Sheseemedtotrytospeak,butnowordscame。 \"Yes!ItwasnottruewhenIsaidjustnowthatIwasthinkingonlyofOwen。I’msorry——oh,sosorry!——foryoutoo。Yourlife——Iknowhowhardit’sbeen;andmine……mine’ssofull……Happywomenunderstandbest!\"Annadrewnearandtouchedthegirl’shand;thenshebeganagain,pouringallhersoulintothebrokenphrases:\"It’sterriblenow……youseenofuture;butif,byandbye……youknowbest……butyou’resoyoung……andatyouragethingsDO pass。Ifthere’snoreason,norealreason,whyyoushouldn’tmarryOwen,IWANThimtohope,I’llhelphimtohope……ifyousayso……\" WiththeurgencyofherpleadingherclasptightenedonSophy’shand,butitwarmedtonoresponsivetremor:thegirlseemednumb,andAnnawasfrightenedbythestonysilenceofherlook。\"IsupposeI’mnotmorethanhalfawoman,\"shemused,\"forIdon’twantmyhappinesstohurther;\"andaloudsherepeated:\"Ifonlyyou’lltellmethere’snoreason————\" Thegirldidnotspeak;butsuddenly,likeasnappedbranch,shebent,stoopeddowntothehandthatclaspedher,andlaidherlipsuponitinastreamofweeping。Shecriedsilently,continuously,abundantly,asthoughAnna’stouchhadreleasedthewatersofsomedeepspringofpain;then,asAnna,movedandhalfafraid,leanedoverherwithasoundofpity,shestoodupandturnedaway。 \"You’regoing,then——forgood——likethis?\"Annamovedtowardherandstopped。Sophystoppedtoo,witheyesthatshrankfromher。