第10章

类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:8923更新时间:19/01/07 14:28:10
\"Poorthing……poorthing!\"hecouldonlygoonsaying;andwiththerepetitionofthewordsthepictureofhimselfasshemustseehimpitiablytookshapeagain。 Heunderstoodthen,forthefirsttime,howvague,incomparisonwithhers,hadbeenhisownvisionoftheparthehadplayedinthebriefepisodeoftheirrelation。Theincidenthadleftinhimasenseofexasperationandself— contempt,butthat,ashenowperceived,waschiefly,ifnotaltogether,asitboreonhispreconceivedidealofhisattitudetowardanotherwoman。Hehadfallenbelowhisownstandardofsentimentalloyalty,andifhethoughtofSophyVineritwasmainlyasthechanceinstrumentofhislapse。 Theseconsiderationswerenotagreeabletohispride,buttheywereforcedonhimbytheexampleofhervaliantcommon—sense。Ifhehadcutasorryfigureinthebusiness,heowedittohernottoclosehiseyestothefactanylonger…… Butwhenheopenedthem,whatdidhesee?Thesituation,detestableatbest,wouldyethavebeenrelativelysimpleifprotectingSophyVinerhadbeentheonlydutyinvolvedinit。Thefactthatthatdutywasparamountdidnotdoawaywiththecontingentobligations。ItwasDarrow’sinstinct,indifficultmoments,togostraighttothebottomofthedifficulty;buthehadneverbeforehadtotakesodarkadiveasthis,andfortheminuteheshiveredonthebrink……Well,hisfirstduty,atanyrate,wastothegirl: hemustletherseethathemeanttofulfillittothelastjot,andthentrytofindouthowtosquarethefulfillmentwiththeotherproblemsalreadyinhispath…… XVI IntheoakroomhefoundMrs。Leath,hermother—in—lawandEffie。Thegroup,ashecametowarditdownthelongdrawing—rooms,composeditselfprettilyaboutthetea—table。 Thelampsandthefirecrossedtheirgleamsonsilverandporcelain,onthebrighthazeofEffie’shairandonthewhitenessofAnna’sforehead,assheleanedbackinherchairbehindthetea—urn。 ShedidnotmoveatDarrow’sapproach,butliftedtohimadeepgazeofpeaceandconfidence。Thelookseemedtothrowabouthimthespellofadivinesecurity:hefeltthejoyofaconvalescentsuddenlywakingtofindthesunlightonhisface。 MadamedeChantelle,acrossherknitting,discoursedoftheirafternoon’sexcursion,withoccasionalpausesinducedbythehypnoticeffectofthefreshair;andEffie,kneeling,onthehearth,softlybutinsistentlysoughttoimplantinherterrier’smindsomenotionoftherelationbetweenaverticalattitudeandsugar。 Darrowtookachairbehindthelittlegirl,sothathemightlookacrossathermother。Itwasalmostanecessityforhim,atthemoment,tolethiseyesrestonAnna’sface,andtomeet,nowandthen,theproudshynessofhergaze。 MadamedeChantellepresentlyenquiredwhathadbecomeofOwen,andamomentlaterthewindowbehindheropened,andhergrandson,guninhand,cameinfromtheterrace。Ashestoodthereinthelamp—light,withdeadleavesandbitsofbrambleclingingtohismud—spatteredclothes,thescentofthenightabouthimanditschillonhispalebrightface,hereallyhadthelookofayoungfaunstrayedinfromtheforest。 Effieabandonedtheterriertoflytohim。\"Oh,Owen,whereintheworldhaveyoubeen?IwalkedmilesandmileswithNurseandcouldn’tfindyou,andwemetJeanandhesaidhedidn’tknowwhereyou’dgone。\" \"NobodyknowswhereIgo,orwhatIseewhenIgetthere—— that’sthebeautyofit!\"helaughedbackather。\"Butifyou’regood,\"headded,\"I’lltellyouaboutitoneofthesedays。\" \"Oh,now,Owen,now!Idon’treallybelieveI’lleverbemuchbetterthanIamnow。\" \"LetOwenhavehisteafirst,\"hermothersuggested;buttheyoungman,decliningtheoffer,proppedhisgunagainstthewall,and,lightingacigarette,begantopaceupanddowntheroominawaythatremindedDarrowofhisowncagedwanderings。Effiepursuedhimwithherblandishments,andforawhilehepouredouttoheralow—voicedstreamofnonsense;thenhesatdownbesidehisstep—motherandleanedovertohelphimselftotea。 \"Where’sMissViner?\"heasked,asEffieclimbeduponhim。 \"Whyisn’tsheheretochainupthisungovernableinfant?\" \"PoorMissVinerhasaheadache。Effiesaysshewenttoherroomassoonaslessonswereover,andsentwordthatshewouldn’tbedownfortea。\" \"Ah,\"saidOwen,abruptlysettingdownhiscup。Hestoodup,litanothercigarette,andwanderedawaytothepianointheroombeyond。 Fromthetwilightwherehesatalonelymusic,borneonfantasticchords,floatedtothegroupaboutthetea—table。 UnderitsinfluenceMadamedeChantelle’smeditativepausesincreasedinlengthandfrequency,andEffiestretchedherselfonthehearth,herdrowsyheadagainstthedog。 Presentlyhernurseappeared,andAnnaroseatthesametime。\"Stopaminuteinmysitting—roomonyourwayup,\" shepausedtosaytoDarrowasshewent。 Afewhoursearlier,herrequestwouldhavebroughthiminstantlytohisfeet。Shehadgivenhim,onthedayofhisarrival,aninvitingglimpseofthespaciousbook—linedroomabovestairsinwhichshehadgatheredtogetherallthetokensofherpersonaltastes:theretreatinwhich,asonemightfancy,AnnaLeathhadhiddentherestlessghostofAnnaSummers;andthethoughtofatalkwithhertherehadbeeninhismindeversince。Butnowhesatmotionless,asifspell—boundbytheplayofMadamedeChantelle’sneedlesandthepulsationsofOwen’sfitfulmusic。 \"Shewillwanttoaskmeaboutthegirl,\"herepeatedtohimself,withafreshsenseoftheinsidioustaintthatembitteredallhisthoughts;thehandoftheslender— columnedclockonthemantel—piecehadspannedahalf—hourbeforeshameathisownindecisionfinallydrewhimtohisfeet。 Fromherwriting—table,whereshesatoverapileofletters,Annaliftedherhappysmile。Theimpulsetopresshislipstoitmadehimcomecloseanddrawherupward。Shethrewherheadback,asifsurprisedattheabruptnessofthegesture;thenherfaceleanedtohiswiththeslowdroopofaflower。Hefeltagainthesweepofthesecrettides,andallhisfearswentdowninthem。 Shesatdowninthesofa—cornerbythefireandhedrewanarmchairclosetoher。Hisgazeroamedpeacefullyaboutthequietroom。 \"It’sjustlikeyou——itisyou,\"hesaid,ashiseyescamebacktoher。 \"It’sagoodplacetobealonein——Idon’tthinkI’veeverbeforecaredtotalkwithanyonehere。\" \"Let’sbequiet,then:it’sthebestwayoftalking。\" \"Yes;butwemustsaveituptilllater。TherearethingsI wanttosaytoyounow。\" Heleanedbackinhischair。\"Saythem,then,andI’lllisten。\" \"Oh,no。IwantyoutotellmeaboutMissViner。\" \"AboutMissViner?\"Hesummonedupalookoffaintinterrogation。 Hethoughtsheseemedsurprisedathissurprise。\"It’simportant,naturally,\"sheexplained,\"thatIshouldfindoutallIcanaboutherbeforeIleave。\" \"ImportantonEffie’saccount?\" \"OnEffie’saccount——ofcourse。\" \"Ofcourse……Butyou’veeveryreasontobesatisfied,haven’tyou?\" \"Everyapparentreason。Wealllikeher。Effie’sveryfondofher,andsheseemstohaveadelightfulinfluenceonthechild。Butweknowsolittle,afterall——aboutherantecedents,Imean,andherpasthistory。That’swhyI wantyoutotryandrecalleverythingyouheardaboutherwhenyouusedtoseeherinLondon。\" \"Oh,onthatscoreI’mafraidIsha’n’tbeofmuchuse。AsI toldyou,shewasamereshadowinthebackgroundofthehouseIsawherin——andthatwasfourorfiveyearsago……\" \"WhenshewaswithaMrs。Murrett?\" \"Yes;anappallingwomanwhorunsaroaringdinner—factorythatusednowandthentocatchmeinitswheels。Iescapedfromthemlongago;butinmytimethereusedtobehalfadozenfagged’hands’totendthemachine,andMissVinerwasoneofthem。I’mgladshe’soutofit,poorgirl!\" \"Thenyouneverreallysawanythingofherthere?\" \"Ineverhadthechance。Mrs。Murrettdiscouragedanycompetitiononthepartofhersubordinates。\" \"Especiallysuchprettyones,Isuppose?\"Darrowmadenocomment,andshecontinued:\"AndMrs。Murrett’sownopinion——ifshe’dofferedyouone——probablywouldn’thavebeenofmuchvalue?\" \"Onlyinsofarasherdisapprovalwould,ongeneralprinciples,havebeenagoodmarkforMissViner。Butsurely,\"hewentonafterapause,\"youcouldhavefoundoutaboutherfromthepeoplethroughwhomyoufirstheardofher?\" Annasmiled。\"Oh,weheardofherthroughAdelaidePainter——;\"andinreplytohisglanceofinterrogationsheexplainedthattheladyinquestionwasaspinsterofSouthBraintree,Massachusetts,who,havingcometoParissomethirtyyearsearlier,tonurseabrotherthroughanillness,hadeversinceprotestinglyandprovisionallycampedthereinastateofcontemptuousprotestationoddlymanifestedbyhernevertakingtheslip—coversoffherdrawing—roomchairs。HerlongresidenceonGallicsoilhadnotmitigatedherhostilitytowardthecreedandcustomsoftherace,butthoughshealwaysreferredtotheCatholicChurchastheScarletWomanandtookthedarkestviewsofFrenchprivatelife,MadamedeChantelleplacedgreatrelianceonherjudgmentandexperience,andineverydomesticcrisistheirreducibleAdelaidewasimmediatelysummonedtoGivre。 \"It’salltheodderbecausemymother—in—law,sincehersecondmarriage,haslivedsomuchinthecountrythatshe’spracticallylostsightofallherotherAmericanfriends。 Besideswhich,youcanseehowcompletelyshehasidentifiedherselfwithMonsieurdeChantelle’snationalityandadoptedFrenchhabitsandprejudices。YetwhenanythinggoeswrongshealwayssendsforAdelaidePainter,who’smoreAmericanthantheStarsandStripes,andmighthaveleftSouthBraintreeyesterday,ifshehadn’t,rather,broughtitoverwithherinhertrunk。\" Darrowlaughed。\"Well,then,ifSouthBraintreevouchesforMissViner————\" \"Oh,butonlyindirectly。WhenwehadthatodiousadventurewithMademoiselleGrumeau,who’dbeensohighlyrecommendedbyMonsieurdeChantelle’saunt,theChanoinesse,Adelaidewasofcoursesentfor,andshesaidatonce:’I’mnottheleastbitsurprised。I’vealwaystoldyouthatwhatyouwantedforEffiewasasweetAmericangirl,andnotoneofthesenastyforeigners。’Unluckilyshecouldn’t,atthemoment,putherhandonasweetAmerican;butshepresentlyheardofMissVinerthroughtheFarlows,anexcellentcouplewholiveintheQuartierLatinandwriteaboutFrenchlifefortheAmericanpapers。Iwasonlytoothankfultofindanyonewhowasvouchedforbydecentpeople;andsofarI’vehadnocausetoregretmychoice。ButIknow,afterall,verylittleaboutMissViner;andthereareallkindsofreasonswhyIwant,assoonaspossible,tofindoutmore—— tofindoutallIcan。\" \"Sinceyou’vegottoleaveEffieIunderstandyourfeelinginthatway。Butisthere,insuchacase,anyrecommendationworthhalfasmuchasyourowndirectexperience?\" \"No;andit’sbeensofavourablethatIwasreadytoacceptitasconclusive。Only,naturally,whenIfoundyou’dknownherinLondonIwasinhopesyou’dgivemesomemorespecificreasonsforlikingherasmuchasIdo。\" \"I’mafraidIcangiveyounothingmorespecificthanmygeneralvagueimpressionthatsheseemsverypluckyandextremelynice。\" \"Youdon’t,atanyrate,knowanythingspecifictothecontrary?\" \"Tothecontrary?HowshouldI?I’mnotconsciousofeverhavingheardanyonesaytwowordsabouther。IonlyinferthatshemusthavepluckandcharactertohavestuckitoutsolongatMrs。Murrett’s。\" \"Yes,poorthing!Shehaspluck,certainly;andpride,too; whichmusthavemadeitalltheharder。\"Annarosetoherfeet。\"Youdon’tknowhowgladIamthatyourimpression’sonthewholesogood。Iparticularlywantedyoutolikeher。\" Hedrewhertohimwithasmile。\"OnthatconditionI’mpreparedtoloveevenAdelaidePainter。\" \"Ialmosthopeyouwonthavethechanceto——poorAdelaide! Herappearanceherealwayscoincideswithacatastrophe。\" \"Oh,thenImustmanagetomeetherelsewhere。\"HeheldAnnacloser,sayingtohimself,ashesmoothedbackthehairfromherforehead:\"WhatdoesanythingmatterbutjustTHIS? ——MustIgonow?\"headdedaloud。 Sheansweredabsently:\"Itmustbetimetodress\";thenshedrewbackalittleandlaidherhandsonhisshoulders。\"Mylove——oh,mydearlove!\"shesaid。 Itcametohimthattheywerethefirstwordsofendearmenthehadheardherspeak,andtheirrarenessgavethemamagicqualityofreassurance,asthoughnodangercouldstrikethroughsuchashield。 Aknockonthedoormadethemdrawapart。AnnaliftedherhandtoherhairandDarrowstoopedtoexamineaphotographofEffieonthewriting—table。 \"Comein!\"Annasaid。 ThedooropenedandSophyVinerentered。SeeingDarrow,shedrewback。 \"Docomein,MissViner,\"Annarepeated,lookingatherkindly。 Thegirl,aquickredinhercheeks,stillhesitatedonthethreshold。 \"I’msosorry;butEffiehasmislaidherLatingrammar,andIthoughtshemighthaveleftithere。Ineedittopreparefortomorrow’slesson。\" \"Isthisit?\"Darrowasked,pickingupabookfromthetable。 \"Oh,thankyou!\" Hehelditouttoherandshetookitandmovedtothedoor。 \"Waitaminute,please,MissViner,\"Annasaid;andasthegirlturnedback,shewentonwithherquietsmile:\"Effietoldusyou’dgonetoyourroomwithaheadache。Youmustn’tsitupovertomorrow’slessonsifyoudon’tfeelwell。\" Sophy’sblushdeepened。\"ButyouseeIhaveto。Latin’soneofmyweakpoints,andthere’sgenerallyonlyonepageofthisbookbetweenmeandEffie。\"Shethrewthewordsoffwithahalf—ironicsmile。\"Doexcusemydisturbingyou,\" sheadded。 \"Youdidn’tdisturbme,\"Annaanswered。Darrowperceivedthatshewaslookingintentlyatthegirl,asthoughstruckbysomethingtenseandtremulousinherface,hervoice,herwholemienandattitude。\"YouDOlooktired。You’dmuchbettergostraighttobed。Effiewon’tbesorrytoskipherLatin。\" \"Thankyou——butI’mreallyallright,\"murmuredSophyViner。 Herglance,makingaswiftcircuitoftheroom,dweltforanappreciableinstantontheintimatepropinquityofarm—chairandsofa—corner;thensheturnedbacktothedoor。 BOOKIII XVII AtdinnerthateveningMadamedeChantelle’sslendermonologuewasthrownoutovergulfsofsilence。OwenwasstillinthesamestateofmoodyabstractionaswhenDarrowhadlefthimatthepiano;andevenAnna’sface,toherfriend’svigilanteye,revealednot,perhaps,apersonalpreoccupation,butavaguesenseofimpendingdisturbance。 Shesmiled,sheboreapartinthetalk,hereyesdweltonDarrow’swiththeirusualdeepreliance;butbeneaththesurfaceofherserenityhistenseperceptionsdetectedahiddenstir。 Hewassufficientlyself—possessedtotellhimselfthatitwasdoubtlessduetocauseswithwhichhewasnotdirectlyconcerned。HeknewthequestionofOwen’smarriagewassoontoberaised,andtheabruptalterationintheyoungman’smoodmadeitseemprobablethathewashimselfthecentreoftheatmosphericdisturbance,ForamomentitoccurredtoDarrowthatAnnamighthaveemployedherafternooninpreparingMadamedeChantelleforhergrandson’simpendingannouncement;butaglanceattheelderlady’suncloudedbrowshowedthathemustseekelsewherethecluetoOwen’staciturnityandhisstep—mother’sconcern。PossiblyAnnahadfoundreasontochangeherownattitudeinthematter,andhadmadethechangeknowntoOwen。Butthis,again,wasnegativedbythefactthat,duringtheafternoon’sshooting,youngLeathhadbeeninamoodofalmostextravagantexpansiveness,andthat,fromthemomentofhislatereturntothehousetilljustbeforedinner,therehadbeen,toDarrow’scertainknowledge,nopossibilityofaprivatetalkbetweenhimselfandhisstep—mother。 Thisobscured,ifitnarrowed,thefieldofconjecture;andDarrow’sgropingsthrewhimbackontheconclusionthathewasprobablyreadingtoomuchsignificanceintothemoodsofaladhehardlyknew,andwhohadbeendescribedtohimassubjecttosuddenchangesofhumour。AstoAnna’sfanciedperturbation,itmightsimplybeduetothefactthatshehaddecidedtopleadOwen’scausethenextday,andhadperhapsalreadyhadaglimpseofthedifficultiesawaitingher。ButDarrowknewthathewastoodeepinhisownperplexitiestojudgethementalstateofthoseabouthim。 Itmightbe,afterall,thatthevariationshefeltinthecurrentsofcommunicationwerecausedbyhisowninwardtremor。 Such,atanyrate,wastheconclusionhehadreachedwhen,shortlyafterthetwoladiesleftthedrawing—room,hebadeOwengood—nightandwentuptohisroom。Eversincetherapidself—colloquywhichhadfollowedonhisfirstsightofSophyViner,hehadknowntherewereotherquestionstobefacedbehindtheoneimmediatelyconfrontinghim。Onthescoreofthatone,atleast,hismind,ifnoteasy,wasrelieved。Hehaddonewhatwaspossibletoreassurethegirl,andshehadapparentlyrecognizedthesincerityofhisintention。Hehadpatchedupasdecentaconclusionashecouldtoanincidentthatshouldobviouslyhavehadnosequel;buthehadknownallalongthatwiththesecuringofMissViner’speaceofmindonlyapartofhisobligationwasdischarged,andthatwiththatparthisremainingdutywasinconflict。Ithadbeenhisfirstbusinesstoconvincethegirlthattheirsecretwassafewithhim;butitwasfarfromeasytosquarethiswiththeequallyurgentobligationofsafe—guardingAnna’sresponsibilitytowardherchild。 Darrowwasnotmuchafraidofaccidentaldisclosures。BothheandSophyVinerhadtoomuchatstakenottobeontheirguard。Thefearthatbesethimwasofanotherkind,andhadaprofoundersource。Hewantedtodoallhecouldforthegirl,butthefactofhavinghadtourgeAnnatoconfideEffietoherwaspeculiarlyrepugnanttohim。HisownideasaboutSophyVinerweretoomixedandindeterminateforhimnottofeeltheriskofsuchanexperiment;yethefoundhimselfintheintolerablepositionofappearingtopressitonthewomanhedesiredaboveallotherstoprotect…… Tilllateinthenighthisthoughtsrevolvedinaturmoilofindecision。HispridewashumbledbythediscrepancybetweenwhatSophyVinerhadbeentohimandwhathehadthoughtofher。Thisdiscrepancy,whichatthetimehadseemedtosimplifytheincident,nowturnedouttobeitsmostgallingcomplication。Thebaretruth,indeed,wasthathehadhardlythoughtofheratall,eitheratthetimeorsince,andthathewasashamedtobasehisjudgementofheronhismeagrememoryoftheiradventure。 Theessentialcheapnessofthewholeaffair——asfarashisshareinitwasconcerned——camehometohimwithhumiliatingdistinctness。Hewouldhavelikedtobeabletofeelthat,atthetimeatleast,hehadstakedsomethingmoreonit,andhadsomehow,inthesequel,hadamorepalpablelosstoshow。Buttheplainfactwasthathehadn’tspentapennyonit;whichwasnodoubtthereasonoftheprodigiousscoreithadsincebeenrollingup。Atanyrate,beataboutthecaseashewould,itwasclearthatheowedittoAnna——andincidentallytohisownpeaceofmind——tofindsomewayofsecuringSophyViner’sfuturewithoutleavingherinstalledatGivrewhenheandhiswifeshoulddepartfortheirnewpost。 Thenightbroughtnoaidtothesolvingofthisproblem;butitgavehim,atanyrate,theclearconvictionthatnotimewastobelost。HisfirststepmustbetoobtainfromMissVinerthechanceofanotherandcalmertalk;andheresolvedtoseekitattheearliesthour。 HehadgatheredthatEffie’slessonswereprecededbyanearlyscamperinthepark,andconjecturingthathergovernessmightbewithherhebetookhimselfthenextmorningtotheterrace,whencehewanderedontothegardensandthewalksbeyond。 Theatmospherewasstillandpale。Themuffledsunlightgleamedlikegoldtissuethroughgreygauze,andthebeechalleystaperedawaytoabluehazeblentofskyandforest。 Itwasoneofthoseelusivedayswhenthefamiliarformsofthingsseemabouttodissolveinaprismaticshimmer。 Thestillnesswaspresentlybrokenbyjoyfulbarks,andDarrow,trackingthesound,overtookEffieflyingdownoneofthelongalleysattheheadofherpack。BeyondherhesawMissVinerseatednearthestone—rimmedbasinbesidewhichheandAnnahadpausedontheirfirstwalktotheriver。 Thegirl,comingforwardathisapproach,returnedhisgreetingalmostgaily。Hisfirstglanceshowedhimthatshehadregainedhercomposure,andthechangeinherappearancegavehimthemeasureofherfears。ForthefirsttimehesawinheragainthesidelonggracethathadcharmedhiseyesinParis;buthesawitnowasinapaintedpicture。 \"Shallwesitdownaminute?\"heasked,asEffietrottedoff。 Thegirllookedawayfromhim。\"I’mafraidthere’snotmuchtime;wemustbebackatlessonsathalf—pastnine。\" \"Butit’sbarelytenminutespast。Let’satleastwalkalittlewaytowardtheriver。\"