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类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:11420更新时间:19/01/07 14:28:10
Darrowhadalreadyguessedhertobeapersonwhowouldinstinctivelyopposeanysuggestedchanges,andthen,afteronehadexhaustedone’smainarguments,unexpectedlyyieldtosomesmallincidentalreason,andadheredoggedlytohernewposition。Sheboastedofherold—fashionedprejudices,talkedagooddealofbeingagrandmother,andmadeashowofreachinguptotapOwen’sshoulder,thoughhisheightwaslittlemorethanhers。 ShewasfullofasmallpaleprattleaboutthepeopleshehadseenatOuchy,astowhomshehadtheminutestatisticalinformationofagazetteer,withoutanyapparentsenseofpersonaldifferences。ShesaidtoDarrow:\"TheytellmethingsareverymuchchangedinAmerica……OfcourseinmyyouththereWASaSociety\"……Shehadnodesiretoreturnthereshewassurethestandardsmustbesodifferent。 \"Therearecharmingpeopleeverywhere……andonemustalwayslookonthebestside……butwhenonehaslivedamongTraditionsit’sdifficulttoadaptone’sselftothenewideas……Thesedreadfulviewsofmarriage……it’ssohardtoexplainthemtomyFrenchrelations……I’mthankfultosayI don’tpretendtounderstandthemmyself!ButYOU’REanEverard——ItoldAnnalastspringinLondonthatoneseesthatinstantly\"…… ShewanderedofftothecookingandtheserviceofthehotelatOuchy。Sheattachedgreatimportancetogastronomicdetailsandtothemannersofhotelservants。There,too,therewasafallingoff,shesaid。\"Idontknow,ofcourse;butpeoplesayit’sowingtotheAmericans。 Certainlymywaiterhadawayofslappingdownthedishes……theytellmethatmanyofthemareAnarchists……belongtoUnions,youknow。\"SheappealedtoDarrow’sreportedknowledgeofeconomicconditionstoconfirmthisominousrumour。 AfterdinnerOwenLeathwanderedintothenextroom,wherethepianostood,andbegantoplayamongtheshadows。Hisstep—motherpresentlyjoinedhim,andDarrowsatalonewithMadamedeChantelle。 Shetookupthethreadofhermildchatandcarrieditonatthesamepaceasherknitting。Herconversationresembledthelargeloose—strandedwebbetweenherfingers:nowandthenshedroppedastitch,andwentonregardlessofthegapinthepattern。 Darrowlistenedwithalazysenseofwell—being。Inthementallulloftheafter—dinnerhour,withharmoniousmemoriesmurmuringthroughhismind,andthesofttintsandshadowyspacesofthefineoldroomcharminghiseyestoindolence,MadamedeChantelle’sdiscourseseemednotoutofplace。Hecouldunderstandthat,inthelongrun,theatmosphereofGivremightbesuffocating;butinhispresentmooditsverylimitationshadagrace。 Presentlyhefoundthechancetosayawordinhisownbehalf;andthereuponmeasuredtheadvantage,neverbeforeparticularlyapparenttohim,ofbeingrelatedtotheEverardsofAlbany。MadamedeChantelle’sconceptionofhernativecountry——towhichshehadnotreturnedsincehertwentiethyear——remindedhimofanancientgeographer’smapoftheHyperboreanregions。Itwasallafoggyblank,fromwhichonlyoneortwofixedoutlinesemerged;andoneofthesebelongedtotheEverardsofAlbany。 Thefactthattheyofferedsuchfirmfooting——formed,sotospeak,afriendlyterritoryonwhichtheopposingpowerscouldmeetandtreat——helpedhimthroughthetaskofexplainingandjustifyinghimselfasthesuccessorofFraserLeath。MadamedeChantellecouldnotresistsuchincontestableclaims。Sheseemedtofeelherson’shoveringanddiscriminatingpresence,andshegaveDarrowthesensethathewasbeingtestedandapprovedasalastadditiontotheLeathCollection。 Shealsomadehimawareoftheimmenseadvantagehepossessedinbelongingtothediplomaticprofession。ShespokeofthishumdrumcallingasaCareer,andgaveDarrowtounderstandthatshesupposedhimtohavebeenseducingDuchesseswhenhewasnotnegotiatingTreaties。Heheardagainquaintphraseswhichromanticoldladieshadusedinhisyouth:\"Brilliantdiplomaticsociety……socialadvantages……theentreeeverywhere……nothingelseFORMSayoungmaninthesameway……\"andshesighinglyaddedthatshecouldhavewishedhergrandsonhadchosenthesamepathtoglory。 Darrowprudentlysuppressedhisownviewoftheprofession,aswellasthefactthathehadadopteditprovisionally,andforreasonslesssocialthansociological;andthetalkpresentlypassedontothesubjectofhisfutureplans。 Hereagain,MadamedeChantelle’saweoftheCareermadeheradmitthenecessityofAnna’sconsentingtoanearlymarriage。ThefactthatDarrowwas\"ordered\"toSouthAmericaseemedtoputhimintheromanticlightofayoungsoldierchargedtoleadaforlornhope:shesighedandsaid: \"Atsuchmomentsawife’sdutyisatherhusband’sside。\" TheproblemofEffie’sfuturemighthavedisturbedher,sheadded;butsinceAnna,foratime,consentedtoleavethelittlegirlwithher,thatproblemwasatanyratedeferred。 Shespokeplaintivelyoftheresponsibilityoflookingafterhergranddaughter,butDarrowdivinedthatsheenjoyedtheflavourofthewordmorethanshefelttheweightofthefact。 \"Effie’saperfectchild。She’smorelikemyson,perhaps,thandearOwen。She’llneverintentionallygivemetheleasttrouble。Butofcoursetheresponsibilitywillbegreat……I’mnotsureIshoulddaretoundertakeitifitwerenotforherhavingsuchatreasureofagoverness。HasAnnatoldyouaboutourlittlegoverness?Afteralltheworrywehadlastyear,withoneimpossiblecreatureafteranother,itseemsprovidential,justnow,tohavefoundher。 Atfirstwewereafraidshewastooyoung;butnowwe’vethegreatestconfidenceinher。Socleverandamusing——andSUCHalady!Idon’tsayhereducation’sallitmightbe……nodrawingorsinging……butonecan’thaveeverything; andshespeaksItalian……\" MadamedeChantelle’sfondinsistenceonthelikenessbetweenEffieLeathandherfather,ifnotparticularlygratifyingtoDarrow,hadatleastincreasedhisdesiretoseethelittlegirl。ItgavehimanoddfeelingofdiscomforttothinkthatsheshouldhaveanyofthecharacteristicsofthelateFraserLeath:hehad,somehow,fantasticallypicturedherasthemysticaloffspringoftheearlytendernessbetweenhimselfandAnnaSummers。 HisencounterwithEffietookplacethenextmorning,onthelawnbelowtheterrace,wherehefoundher,intheearlysunshine,knockingaboutgolfballswithherbrother。 Almostatonce,andwithinfiniterelief,hesawthattheresemblanceofwhichMadamedeChantelleboastedwasmainlyexternal。Eventhatdiscoverywasslightlydistasteful,thoughDarrowwasforcedtoownthatFraserLeath’sstraight—featuredfairnesshadlentitselftotheproductionofapeculiarlyfinishedimageofchildishpurity。ButitwasevidentthatotherelementshadalsogonetothemakingofEffie,andthatanotherspiritsatinhereyes。Herserioushandshake,her\"pretty\"greeting,wereworthyoftheLeathtradition,andheguessedhertobemoremalleablethanOwen,moresubjecttotheinfluencesofGivre;buttheshoutwithwhichshereturnedtoherromphadinitthenoteofhermother’semancipation。 Hehadbeggedaholidayforher,andwhenMrs。Leathappearedheandsheandthelittlegirlwentoffforaramble。AnnawishedherdaughtertohavetimetomakefriendswithDarrowbeforelearninginwhatrelationhewastostandtoher;andthethreeroamedthewoodsandfieldstillthedistantchimeofthestable—clockmadethemturnbackforluncheon。 Effie,whowasattendedbyashaggyterrier,hadpickeduptwoorthreesubordinatedogsatthestable;andasshetrottedonaheadwithheryappingescort,AnnahungbacktothrowalookatDarrow。 \"Yes,\"heansweredit,\"she’sexquisite……Oh,IseewhatI’maskingofyou!Butshe’llbequitehappyhere,won’tshe? Andyoumustrememberitwon’tbeforlong……\" Annasighedheracquiescence。\"Oh,she’llbehappyhere。 It’shernaturetobehappy。She’llapplyherselftoit,conscientiously,asshedoestoherlessons,andtowhatshecalls’beinggood’……Inaway,yousee,that’sjustwhatworriesme。Herideaof’beinggood’istopleasethepersonshe’swith——sheputsherwholedearlittlemindonit!Andso,ifevershe’swiththewrongperson————\" \"Butsurelythere’snodangerofthatjustnow?MadamedeChantelletellsmethatyou’veatlastputyourhandonaperfectgoverness————\" Anna,withoutanswering,glancedawayfromhimtowardherdaughter。 \"It’slucky,atanyrate,\"Darrowcontinued,\"thatMadamedeChantellethinksherso。\" \"Oh,Ithinkveryhighlyofhertoo。\" \"HighlyenoughtofeelquitesatisfiedtoleaveherwithEffie?\" \"Yes。She’sjustthepersonforEffie。Only,ofcourse,oneneverknows……She’syoung,andshemighttakeitintoherheadtoleaveus……\"Afterapausesheadded:\"I’mnaturallyanxioustoknowwhatyouthinkofher。\" Whentheyenteredthehousethehandsofthehallclockstoodwithinafewminutesoftheluncheonhour。AnnaledEffieofftohaveherhairsmoothedandDarrowwanderedintotheoaksitting—room,whichhefounduntenanted。Thesunlaypleasantlyonitsbrownwalls,onthescatteredbooksandtheflowersinoldporcelainvases。Inhiseyeslingeredthevisionofthedark—hairedmothermountingthestairswithherlittlefairdaughter。Thecontrastbetweenthemseemedalasttouchofgraceinthecomplexharmonyofthings。Hestoodinthewindow,lookingoutatthepark,andbroodinginwardlyuponhishappiness…… HewasrousedbyEffie’svoiceandthescamperofherfeetdownthelongfloorsbehindhim。 \"Hereheis!Hereheis!\"shecried,flyingoverthethreshold。 Heturnedandstoopedtoherwithasmile,andasshecaughthishandheperceivedthatshewastryingtodrawhimtowardsomeonewhohadpausedbehindherinthedoorway,andwhomhesupposedtobehermother。 \"HEREheis!\"Effierepeated,withhersweetimpatience。 ThefigureinthedoorwaycameforwardandDarrow,lookingup,foundhimselffacetofacewithSophyViner。Theystoodstill,ayardortwoapart,andlookedateachotherwithoutspeaking。 Astheypausedthere,ashadowfellacrossoneoftheterracewindows,andOwenLeathsteppedwhistlingintotheroom。Inhisroughshootingclothes,withtheglowofexerciseunderhisfairskin,helookedextraordinarilylight—heartedandhappy。Darrow,withaquickside—glance,noticedthis,andperceivedalsothattheglowontheyouth’scheekhaddeepenedsuddenlytored。Hetoostoppedshort,andthethreestoodtheremotionlessforabarelyperceptiblebeatoftime。Duringitslapse,Darrow’seyeshadturnedbackfromOwen’sfacetothatofthegirlbetweenthem。Hehadthesensethat,whateverwasdone,itwashewhomustdoit,andthatitmustbedoneimmediately。Hewentforwardandheldouthishand。 \"Howdoyoudo,MissViner?\" Sheanswered:\"Howdoyoudo?\"inavoicethatsoundedclearandnatural;andthenextmomentheagainbecameawareofstepsbehindhim,andknewthatMrs。Leathwasintheroom。 TohisstrainedsensesthereseemedtobeanotherjustmeasurablepausebeforeAnnasaid,lookinggailyaboutthelittlegroup:\"HasOwenintroducedyou?ThisisEffie’sfriend,MissViner。\" Effie,stillhangingonhergoverness’sarm,pressedherselfcloserwithalittlegestureofappropriation;andMissVinerlaidherhandonherpupil’shair。 DarrowfeltthatAnna’seyeshadturnedtohim。 \"IthinkMissVinerandIhavemetalready——severalyearsagoinLondon。\" \"Iremember,\"saidSophyViner,inthesameclearvoice。 \"Howcharming!Thenwe’reallfriends。Butluncheonmustbeready,\"saidMrs。Leath。 Sheturnedbacktothedoor,andthelittleprocessionmoveddownthetwolongdrawing—rooms,withEffiewaltzingonahead。 XV MadamedeChantelleandAnnahadplanned,fortheafternoon,avisittoaremotelysituatedacquaintancewhomtheintroductionofthemotorhadtransformedintoaneighbour。 Effiewastopayforhermorning’sholidaybyanhourortwointheschool—room,andOwensuggestedthatheandDarrowshouldbetakethemselvestoadistantcovertinthedesultoryquestforpheasants。 Darrowwasnotanardentsportsman,butanypretextforphysicalactivitywouldhavebeenacceptableatthemoment; andhewasgladbothtogetawayfromthehouseandnottobelefttohimself。 Whenhecamedownstairsthemotorwasatthedoor,andAnnastoodbeforethehallmirror,swathingherhatinveils。 Sheturnedatthesoundofhisstepandsmiledathimforalongfullmoment。 \"I’dnoideayouknewMissViner,\"shesaid,ashehelpedherintoherlongcoat。 \"Itcamebacktome,luckily,thatI’dseenhertwoorthreetimesinLondon,severalyearsago。Shewassecretary,orsomethingofthesort,inthebackgroundofahousewhereI usedtodine。\" Heloathedtheslightingindifferenceofthephrase,buthehaduttereditdeliberately,hadbeensecretlypractisingitallthroughtheinterminablehourattheluncheon—table。 Nowthatitwasspoken,heshiveredatitsnoteofcondescension。Insuchcasesonewasalmostsuretooverdo……ButAnnaseemedtonoticenothingunusual。 \"Wasshereally?Youmusttellmeallaboutit——tellmeexactlyhowshestruckyou。I’msogladitturnsoutthatyouknowher。\" \"’Know’isratherexaggerated:weusedtopasseachotheronthestairs。\" MadamedeChantelleandOwenappearedtogetherashespoke,andAnna,gatheringupherwraps,said:\"You’lltellmeaboutthat,then。Tryandremembereverythingyoucan。\" Ashetrampedthroughthewoodsathisyounghost’sside,Darrowfeltthepartialrelieffromthoughtproducedbyexerciseandtheobligationtotalk。Littleashecaredforshooting,hehadthehabitofconcentrationwhichmakesitnaturalforamantothrowhimselfwhollyintowhateverbusinesshehasinhand,andthereweremomentsoftheafternoonwhenasuddenwhirrintheundergrowth,avividergleamagainstthehazybrownsandgreysofthewoods,wasenoughtofilltheforegroundofhisattention。Butallthewhile,behindthesevoluntarilyemphasizedsensations,hissecretconsciousnesscontinuedtorevolveonaloudwheelofthought。Foratimeitseemedtobesweepinghimthroughdeepgulfsofdarkness。Hissensationsweretooswiftandswarmingtobedisentangled。Hehadanalmostphysicalsenseofstrugglingforair,ofbattlinghelplesslywithmaterialobstructions,asthoughtherussetcovertthroughwhichhetrudgedweretheheartofamaleficentjungle…… Snatchesofhiscompanion’stalkdriftedtohimintermittentlythroughtheconfusionofhisthoughts。Hecaughteagerself—revealingphrases,andunderstoodthatOwenwassayingthingsabouthimself,perhapshintingindirectlyatthehopesforwhichDarrowhadbeenpreparedbyAnna’sconfidences。Hehadalreadybecomeawarethattheladlikedhim,andhadmeanttotakethefirstopportunityofshowingthathereciprocatedthefeeling。ButtheeffortoffixinghisattentiononOwen’swordswassogreatthatitleftnopowerformorethanthebriefestandmostinexpressivereplies。 YoungLeath,itappeared,feltthathehadreachedaturning—pointinhiscareer,aheightfromwhichhecouldimpartiallysurveyhispastprogressandprojectedendeavour。Atonetimehehadhadmusicalandliteraryyearnings,visionsofdesultoryartisticindulgence;butthesehadoflatebeensupersededbytheresolutedeterminationtoplungeintopracticallife。 \"Idon’twant,yousee,\"Darrowheardhimexplaining,\"todriftintowhatmygrandmother,poordear,istryingtomakeofme:anadjunctofGivre。Idon’twant——hangitall!——toslipintocollectingsensationsasmyfathercollectedsnuff—boxes。IwantEffietohaveGivre——it’smygrandmother’s,youknow,todoasshelikeswith;andI’veunderstoodlatelythatifitbelongedtomeitwouldgraduallygobblemeup。Iwanttogetoutofit,intoalifethat’sbiganduglyandstruggling。IfIcanextractbeautyoutofTHAT,somuchthebetter:that’llprovemyvocation。ButIwanttoMAKEbeauty,notbedrownedintheready—made,likeabeeinapotofhoney。\" Darrowknewthathewasbeingappealedtoforcorroborationoftheseviewsandforencouragementinthecoursetowhichtheypointed。Tohisownearshisanswerssoundednowcurt,nowirrelevant:atonemomentheseemedchillinglyindifferent,atanotherheheardhimselflaunchingoutonafloodofhazydiscursiveness。HedarednotlookatOwen,forfearofdetectingthelad’ssurpriseatthesesenselesstransitions。Andthroughtheconfusionofhisinwardstrugglesandoutwardloquacityheheardtheceaselesstrip— hammerbeatofthequestion:\"WhatinGod’snameshallI do?\"…… TogetbacktothehousebeforeAnna’sreturnseemedhismostpressingnecessity。Hedidnotclearlyknowwhy:hesimplyfeltthatheoughttobethere。AtonemomentitoccurredtohimthatMissVinermightwanttospeaktohimalone——andagain,inthesameflash,thatitwouldprobablybethelastthingshewouldwant……Atanyrate,hefeltheoughttotrytospeaktoHER;oratleastbepreparedtodoso,ifthechanceshouldoccur…… Finally,towardfour,hetoldhiscompanionthathehadsomelettersonhismindandmustgetbacktothehouseanddespatchthembeforetheladiesreturned。HeleftOwenwiththebeaterandwalkedontotheedgeofthecovert。Attheparkgateshestruckobliquelythroughthetrees,followingagrassavenueattheendofwhichhehadcaughtaglimpseoftheroofofthechapel。Agreyhazehadblottedoutthesunandthestillairclungabouthimtepidly。Atlengththehouse—frontraisedbeforehimitsexpanseofdamp— silveredbrick,andhewasstruckafreshbythehighdecorumofitscalmlinesandsoberlymassedsurfaces。Itmadehimfeel,intheturbidcoilofhisfearsandpassions,likeamuddytrampforcinghiswayintosomepuresequesteredshrine…… Byandbye,heknew,heshouldhavetothinkthecomplexhorrorout,slowly,systematically,bitbybit;butforthemomentitwaswhirlinghimaboutsofastthathecouldjustclutchatitssharpspikesandbetossedoffagain。Onlyonedefiniteimmediatefactstuckinhisquiveringgrasp。 Hemustgivethegirleverychance——mustholdhimselfpassivetillshehadtakenthem…… InthecourtEffieranuptohimwithherleapingterrier。 \"Iwascomingouttomeetyou——youandOwen。MissVinerwascoming,too,andthenshecouldn’tbecauseshe’sgotsuchaheadache。I’mafraidIgaveittoherbecauseIdidmydivisionsodisgracefully。It’stoobad,isn’tit?Butwon’tyouwalkbackwithme?Nursewon’tmindtheleastbit; she’dsomuchrathergointotea。\" Darrowexcusedhimselflaughingly,onthepleathathehadletterstowrite,whichwasmuchworsethanhavingaheadache,andnotinfrequentlyresultedinone。 \"Oh,thenyoucangoandwritetheminOwen’sstudy。That’swheregentlemenalwayswritetheirletters。\" SheflewonwithherdogandDarrowpursuedhiswaytothehouse。Effie’ssuggestionstruckhimasuseful。Hehadpicturedhimselfasvaguelydriftingaboutthedrawing— rooms,andhadperceivedthedifficultyofMissViner’shavingtoseekhimthere;butthestudy,asmallroomontherightofthehall,wasineasysightfromthestaircase,andsosituatedthattherewouldbenothingmarkedinhisbeingfoundthereintalkwithher。 Hewentin,leavingthedooropen,andsatdownatthewriting—table。Theroomwasafriendlyheterogeneousplace,theonerepository,inthewell—orderedandamply—servantedhouse,ofallitsunclassifiedoddsandends:Effie’scroquet—boxandfishingrods,Owen’sgunsandgolf—sticksandracquets,hisstep—mother’sflower—basketsandgardeningimplements,evenMadamedeChantelle’sembroideryframe,andthebacknumbersoftheCatholicWeekly。Theearlytwilighthadbeguntofall,andpresentlyaslantingrayacrossthedeskshowedDarrowthataservantwascomingacrossthehallwithalamp。Hepulledoutasheetofnote—paperandbegantowriteatrandom,whiletheman,entering,putthelampathiselbowandvaguely\"straightened\"theheapofnewspaperstossedonthedivan。ThenhisstepsdiedawayandDarrowsatleaninghisheadonhislockedhands。 Presentlyanotherstepsoundedonthestairs,waveredamomentandthenmovedpastthethresholdofthestudy。 Darrowgotupandwalkedintothehall,whichwasstillunlighted。InthedimnesshesawSophyVinerstandingbythehalldoorinherhatandjacket。Shestoppedatsightofhim,herhandonthedoor—bolt,andtheystoodforasecondwithoutspeaking。 \"HaveyouseenEffie?\"shesuddenlyasked。\"Shewentouttomeetyou。\" \"SheDIDmeetme,justnow,inthecourt。She’sgoneontojoinherbrother。\" Darrowspokeasnaturallyashecould,buthisvoicesoundedtohisownearslikeanamateuractor’sina\"light\"part。 MissViner,withoutanswering,drewbackthebolt。Hewatchedherinsilenceasthedoorswungopen;thenhesaid: \"Shehashernursewithher。Shewon’tbelong。\" Shestoodirresolute,andheadded:\"Iwaswritinginthere——won’tyoucomeandhavealittletalk?Everyone’sout。\" Thelastwordsstruckhimasnotwell—chosen,buttherewasnotimetochoose。Shepausedasecondlongerandthencrossedthethresholdofthestudy。Atluncheonshehadsatwithherbacktothewindow,andbeyondnotingthatshehadgrownalittlethinner,andhadlesscolourandvivacity,hehadseennochangeinher;butnow,asthelamplightfellonherface,itswhitenessstartledhim。 \"Poorthing……poorthing……whatinheaven’snamecanshesuppose?\"hewondered。 \"Dositdown——Iwanttotalktoyou,\"hesaidandpushedachairtowardher。 Shedidnotseemtoseeit,or,ifshedid,shedeliberatelychoseanotherseat。Hecamebacktohisownchairandleanedhiselbowsontheblotter。Shefacedhimfromthefarthersideofthetable。 \"Youpromisedtoletmehearfromyounowandthen,\"hebeganawkwardly,andwithasharpsenseofhisawkwardness。 Afaintsmilemadeherfacemoretragic。\"DidI?Therewasnothingtotell。I’vehadnohistory——likethehappycountries……\" Hewaitedamomentbeforeasking:\"YouAREhappyhere?\" \"IWAS,\"shesaidwithafaintemphasis。 \"Whydoyousay’was’?You’resurelynotthinkingofgoing? Therecan’tbekinderpeopleanywhere。\"Darrowhardlyknewwhathewassaying;butheranswercametohimwithdeadlydefiniteness。 \"IsupposeitdependsonyouwhetherIgoorstay。\" \"Onme?\"HestaredatheracrossOwen’sscatteredpapers。 \"GoodGod!Whatcanyouthinkofme,tosaythat?\" Themockeryofthequestionflashedbackathimfromherwretchedface。Shestoodup,wanderedaway,andleanedaninstantinthedarkeningwindow—frame。Fromtheresheturnedtoflingbackathim:\"Don’timagineI’mtheleastbitsorryforanything!\" Hesteadiedhiselbowsonthetableandhidhisfaceinhishands。Itwasharder,oh,damnablyharder,thanhehadexpected!Arguments,expedients,palliations,evasions,allseemedtobeslippingawayfromhim:hewasleftfacetofacewiththemeregracelessfactofhisinferiority。Heliftedhisheadtoaskatrandom:\"You’vebeenhere,then,eversince?\" \"SinceJune;yes。ItturnedoutthattheFarlowswerehuntingforme——allthewhile——forthis。\" Shestoodfacinghim,herbacktothewindow,evidentlyimpatienttobegone,yetwithsomethingstilltosay,orthatsheexpectedtohearhimsay。Thesenseofherexpectancybenumbedhim。Whatinheaven’snamecouldhesaytoherthatwasnotanoffenseoramockery? \"Yourideaofthetheatre——yougavethatupatonce,then?\" \"Oh,thetheatre!\"Shegavealittlelaugh。\"Icouldn’twaitforthetheatre。Ihadtotakethefirstthingthatoffered;Itookthis。\" Hepushedonhaltingly:\"I’mglad——extremelyglad——you’rehappyhere……I’dcountedonyourlettingmeknowiftherewasanythingIcoulddo……Thetheatre,now——ifyoustillregretit——ifyou’renotcontentedhere……IknowpeopleinthatlineinLondon——I’mcertainIcanmanageitforyouwhenIgetback————\" Shemoveduptothetableandleanedoverittoask,inavoicethatwashardlyaboveawhisper:\"ThenyouDOwantmetoleave?Isthatit?\" Hedroppedhisarmswithagroan。\"Goodheavens!Howcanyouthinksuchthings?Atthetime,youknow,IbeggedyoutoletmedowhatIcould,butyouwouldn’thearofit……andeversinceI’vebeenwantingtobeofuse——todosomething,anything,tohelpyou……\" Sheheardhimthrough,motionless,withoutaquiveroftheclaspedhandssherestedontheedgeofthetable。 \"Ifyouwanttohelpme,then——youcanhelpmetostayhere,\"shebroughtoutwithlow—tonedintensity。 Throughthestillnessofthepausewhichfollowed,thebrayofamotor—hornsoundedfardownthedrive。Instantlysheturned,withalastwhitelookathim,andfledfromtheroomandupthestairs。Hestoodmotionless,benumbedbytheshockofherlastwords。Shewasafraid,then——afraidofhim——sickwithfearofhim!Thediscoverybeathimdowntoalowerdepth…… Themotor—hornsoundedagain,closeathand,andheturnedandwentuptohisroom。Hisletter—writingwasasufficientpretextfornotimmediatelyjoiningthepartyaboutthetea—table,andhewantedtobealoneandtrytoputalittleorderintohistumultuousthinking。 Upstairs,theroomheldouttheintimatewelcomeofitslampandfire。Everythinginitexhaledthesamesenseofpeaceandstabilitywhich,twoeveningsbefore,hadlulledhimtocomplacentmeditation。Hisarmchairagaininvitedhimfromthehearth,buthewastooagitatedtositstill,andwithsunkheadandhandsclaspedbehindhisbackhebegantowanderupanddowntheroom。 HisfiveminuteswithSophyVinerhadflashedstrangelightsintotheshadowycornersofhisconsciousness。Thegirl’sabsolutecandour,herhardardenthonesty,wasforthemomentthevividestpointinhisthoughts。Hewonderedanew,ashehadwonderedbefore,atthewayinwhichtheharshdisciplineoflifehadstrippedheroffalsesentimentwithoutlayingtheleasttouchonherpride。Whentheyhadparted,fivemonthsbefore,shehadquietlybutdecidedlyrejectedallhisoffersofhelp,eventothesuggestionofhistryingtofurtherhertheatricalaims:shehadmadeitclearthatshewishedtheirbriefalliancetoleavenotraceontheirlivessavethatofitsownsmilingmemory。Butnowthattheywereunexpectedlyconfrontedinasituationwhichseemed,toherterrifiedfancy,toputherathismercy,herfirstimpulsewastodefendherrighttotheplaceshehadwon,andtolearnasquicklyaspossibleifhemeanttodisputeit。Whilehehadpicturedherasshrinkingawayfromhiminatremorofself—effacementshehadwatchedhismovements,madesureofheropportunity,andcomestraightdownto\"haveitout\"withhim。Hewassostruckbythefranknessandenergyoftheproceedingthatforamomenthelostsightoftheviewofhisowncharacterimpliedinit。