第6章

类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:10156更新时间:19/01/07 14:28:10
Love,shetoldherself,wouldonedayreleaseherfromthisspellofunreality。Shewaspersuadedthatthesublimepassionwasthekeytotheenigma;butitwasdifficulttorelateherconceptionoflovetotheformsitworeinherexperience。Twoorthreeofthegirlsshehadenviedfortheirsuperioracquaintancewiththeartsoflifehadcontracted,inthecourseoftime,whatwerevariouslydescribedas\"romantic\"or\"foolish\"marriages;oneevenmadearunawaymatch,andlanguishedforawhileunderacloudofsocialreprobation。Here,then,waspassioninaction,romanceconvertedtoreality;yettheheroinesoftheseexploitsreturnedfromthemuntransfigured,andtheirhusbandswereasdullaseverwhenonehadtositnexttothematdinner。 Herowncase,ofcourse,wouldbedifferent。SomedayshewouldfindthemagicbridgebetweenWestFifty—fifthStreetandlife;onceortwiceshehadevenfanciedthatthecluewasinherhand。ThefirsttimewaswhenshehadmetyoungDarrow。Sherecalledevennowthestiroftheencounter。 Buthispassionsweptoverherlikeawindthatshakestheroofoftheforestwithoutreachingitsstillgladesorripplingitshiddenpools。Hewasextraordinarilyintelligentandagreeable,andherheartbeatfasterwhenhewaswithher。Hehadatallfaireasypresenceandamindinwhichthelightsofironyplayedpleasantlythroughtheshadesoffeeling。Shelikedtohearhisvoicealmostasmuchastolistentowhathewassaying,andtolistentowhathewassayingalmostasmuchastofeelthathewaslookingather;buthewantedtokissher,andshewantedtotalktohimaboutbooksandpictures,andhavehiminsinuatetheeternalthemeoftheirloveintoeverysubjecttheydiscussed。 Whenevertheywereapartareactionsetin。Shewonderedhowshecouldhavebeensocold,calledherselfaprudeandanidiot,questionedifanymancouldreallycareforher,andgotupinthedeadofnighttotrynewwaysofdoingherhair。Butassoonashereappearedherheadstraighteneditselfonherslimneckandshespedherlittleshaftsofirony,orflewherlittlekitesoferudition,whilehotandcoldwavessweptoverher,andthethingsshereallywantedtosaychokedinherthroatandburnedthepalmsofherhands。 Oftenshetoldherselfthatanysillygirlwhohadwaltzedthroughaseasonwouldknowbetterthanshehowtoattractamanandholdhim;butwhenshesaid\"aman\"shedidnotreallymeanGeorgeDarrow。 Thenoneday,atadinner,shesawhimsittingnexttooneofthesillygirlsinquestion:theheroineoftheelopementwhichhadshakenWestFifty—fifthStreettoitsbase。Theyoungladyhadcomebackfromheradventurenolesssillythanwhenshewent;andacrossthetablethepartnerofherflight,afatyoungmanwitheye—glasses,satstolidlyeatingterrapinandtalkingaboutpoloandinvestments。 Theyoungwomanwasundoubtedlyassillyasever;yetafterwatchingherforafewminutesMissSummersperceivedthatshehadsomehowgrownluminous,perilous,obscurelymenacingtonicegirlsandtheyoungmentheyintendedeventuallytoaccept。Suddenly,atthesight,arageofpossessorshipawokeinher。ShemustsaveDarrow,assertherrighttohimatanyprice。Prideandreticencewentdowninahurricaneofjealousy。Sheheardhimlaugh,andtherewassomethingnewinhislaugh……Shewatchedhimtalking,talking……Hesatslightlysideways,afaintsmilebeneathhislids,loweringhisvoiceashelowereditwhenhetalkedtoher。Shecaughtthesameinflections,buthiseyesweredifferent。 Itwouldhaveoffendedheronceifhehadlookedatherlikethat。Nowheronethoughtwasthatnonebutshehadarighttobesolookedat。Andthatgirlofallothers!Whatillusionscouldhehaveaboutagirlwho,hardlyayearago,hadmadeafoolofherselfoverthefatyoungmanstolidlyeatingterrapinacrossthetable?Ifthatwaswhereromanceandpassionended,itwasbettertotaketodistrictvisitingoralgebra! Allnightshelayawakeandwondered:\"Whatwasshesayingtohim?HowshallIlearntosaysuchthings?\"andshedecidedthatherheartwouldtellher——thatthenexttimetheywerealonetogethertheirresistiblewordwouldspringtoherlips。Hecamethenextday,andtheywerealone,andallshefoundwas:\"Ididn’tknowthatyouandKittyMayneweresuchfriends。\" Heansweredwithindifferencethathedidn’tknowiteither,andinthereactionofreliefshedeclared:\"She’scertainlyeversomuchprettierthanshewas……\" \"She’srathergoodfun,\"headmitted,asthoughhehadnotnoticedherotheradvantages;andsuddenlyAnnasawinhiseyesthelookshehadseentherethepreviousevening。 Shefeltasifhewereleaguesandleaguesawayfromher。 Allherhopesdissolved,andshewasconsciousofsittingrigidly,withhighheadandstraightlips,whiletheirresistiblewordfledwithalastwing—beatintothegoldenmistofherillusions…… ShewasstillquiveringwiththepainandbewildermentofthisadventurewhenFraserLeathappeared。ShemethimfirstinItaly,whereshewastravellingwithherparents; andthefollowingwinterhecametoNewYork。InItalyhehadseemedinteresting:inNewYorkhebecameremarkable。 HeseldomspokeofhislifeinEurope,andletdropbutthemostincidentalallusionstothefriends,thetastes,thepursuitswhichfilledhiscosmopolitandays;butintheatmosphereofWestFifty—fifthStreetheseemedtheembodimentofastoriedpast。HepresentedMissSummerswithaprettily—boundanthologyoftheoldFrenchpoetsand,whensheshowedadiscriminatingpleasureinthegift,observedwithhisgravesmile:\"Ididn’tsupposeIshouldfindanyoneherewhowouldfeelaboutthesethingsasI do。\"Onanotheroccasionheaskedheracceptanceofahalf— effacedeighteenthcenturypastelwhichhehadsurprisinglypickedupinaNewYorkauction—room。\"Iknownoonebutyouwhowouldreallyappreciateit,\"heexplained。 Hepermittedhimselfnoothercomments,buttheseconveyedwithsufficientdirectnessthathethoughtherworthyofadifferentsetting。Thatsheshouldbesoregardedbyamanlivinginanatmosphereofartandbeauty,andesteemingthemthevitalelementsoflife,madeherfeelforthefirsttimethatshewasunderstood。Herewassomeonewhosescaleofvalueswasthesameashers,andwhothoughtheropinionworthhearingontheverymatterswhichtheybothconsideredofsupremeimportance。Thediscoveryrestoredherself— confidence,andsherevealedherselftoMr。LeathasshehadneverknownhowtorevealherselftoDarrow。 Asthecourtshipprogressed,andtheygrewmoreconfidential,hersuitorsurprisedanddelightedherbylittleexplosionsofrevolutionarysentiment。Hesaid: \"Shallyoumind,Iwonder,ifItellyouthatyouliveinadread—fullyconventionalatmosphere?\"and,seeingthatshemanifestlydidnotmind:\"OfcourseIshallsaythingsnowandthenthatwillhorrifyyourdeardelightfulparents——I shallshockthemawfully,Iwarnyou。\" Inconfirmationofthiswarninghepermittedhimselfanoccasionalplayfulflingattheregularchurch—goingofMr。 andMrs。Summers,attheinnocuouscharacteroftheliteratureintheirlibrary,andattheirguilelessappreciationsinart。HeevenventuredtobanterMrs。 SummersonherrefusaltoreceivetheirrepressibleKittyMaynewho,afterarapidpassagewithGeorgeDarrow,wasnowinvolvedinanotherandmoreflagrantadventure。 \"InEurope,youknow,thehusbandisregardedastheonlyjudgeinsuchmatters。Aslongasheacceptsthesituation——\"Mr。LeathexplainedtoAnna,whotookhisviewthemoreemphaticallyinordertoconvinceherselfthat,personally,shehadnonebutthemosttolerantsentimentstowardthelady。 ThesubversivenessofMr。Leath’sopinionswasenhancedbythedistinctionofhisappearanceandthereserveofhismanners。Hewasliketheanarchistwithagardeniainhisbuttonholewhofiguresinthehighermelodrama。Everyword,everyallusion,everynoteofhisagreeably—modulatedvoice,gaveAnnaaglimpseofasocietyatoncefreerandfiner,whichobservedthetraditionalformsbuthaddiscardedtheunderlyingprejudices;whereastheworldsheknewhaddiscardedmanyoftheformsandkeptalmostalltheprejudices。 Insuchanatmosphereashisaneageryoungwoman,curiousastoallthemanifestationsoflife,yetinstinctivelydesiringthattheyshouldcometoherintermsofbeautyandfinefeeling,mustsurelyfindthelargestscopeforself— expression。Study,travel,thecontactoftheworld,thecomradeshipofapolishedandenlightenedmind,wouldcombinetoenrichherdaysandformhercharacter;anditwasonlyintheraremomentswhenMr。Leath’ssymmetricalblondmaskbentoverhers,andhiskissdroppedonherlikeacoldsmoothpebble,thatshequestionedthecompletenessofthejoysheoffered。 Therehadbeenatimewhenthewallsonwhichhergazenowrestedhadshedaglareofironyontheseearlydreams。InthefirstyearsofhermarriagethesobersymmetryofGivrehadsuggestedonlyherhusband’sneatly—balancedmind。Itwasamind,shesoonlearned,contentedlyabsorbedinformulatingtheconventionsoftheunconventional。WestFifty—fifthStreetwasnomoreconscientiouslyconcernedthanGivrewiththemomentousquestionof\"whatpeopledid\"; itwasonlythetypeofdeedinvestigatedthatwasdifferent。Mr。Leathcollectedhissocialinstanceswiththesameseriousnessandpatienceashissnuff—boxes。Heexactedarigidconformitytohisrulesofnon—conformityandhisscepticismhadtheabsoluteaccentofadogma。Heevencherishedcertainexceptionstohisrulesasthebook— collectorprizesa\"defective\"firstedition。TheProtestantchurch—goingofAnna’sparentshadprovokedhisgentlesarcasm;buthepridedhimselfonhismother’sdevoutness,becauseMadamedeChantelle,inembracinghersecondhusband’screed,hadbecomepartofasocietywhichstillobservestheoutwardritesofpiety。 Anna,infact,haddiscoveredinheramiableandelegantmother—in—lawanunexpectedembodimentoftheWestFifty— fifthStreetideal。Mrs。SummersandMadamedeChantelle,howeverstronglytheywouldhavedisagreedastotheauthorizedsourceofChristiandogma,wouldhavefoundthemselvescompletelyinaccordonallthemomentousminutiaeofdrawing—roomconduct;yetMr。Leathtreatedhismother’sfoibleswitharespectwhichAnna’sexperienceofhimforbadehertoattributewhollytofilialaffection。 Intheearlydays,whenshewasstillquestioningtheSphinxinsteadoftryingtofindananswertoit,sheventuredtotaxherhusbandwithhisinconsistency。 \"Yousayyourmotherwon’tlikeitifIcallonthatamusinglittlewomanwhocameheretheotherday,andwasletinbymistake;butMadamedeChantelletellsmesheliveswithherhusband,andwhenmotherrefusedtovisitKittyMayneyousaid————\" Mr。Leath’ssmilearrestedher。\"Mydearchild,Idon’tpretendtoapplytheprinciplesoflogictomypoormother’sprejudices。\" \"ButifyouadmitthattheyAREprejudices————?\" \"Thereareprejudicesandprejudices。Mymother,ofcourse,gothersfromMonsieurdeChantelle,andtheyseemtomeasmuchintheirplaceinthishouseasthepot—pourriinyourhawthornjar。TheypreserveasocialtraditionofwhichI shouldbesorrytolosetheleastperfume。OfcourseI don’texpectyou,justatfirst,tofeelthedifference,toseethenuance。InthecaseoflittleMadamedeVireville,forinstance:youpointoutthatshe’sstillunderherhusband’sroof。Verytrue;andifsheweremerelyaParisacquaintance——especiallyifyouhadmether,asonestillmight,intheRIGHTKINDofhouseinParis——I shouldbethelasttoobjecttoyourvisitingher。Butinthecountryit’sdifferent。Eventhebestprovincialsocietyiswhatyouwouldcallnarrow:Idon’tdenyit;andifsomeofourfriendsmetMadamedeVirevilleatGivre—— well,itwouldproduceabadimpression。You’reinclinedtoridiculesuchconsiderations,butgraduallyyou’llcometoseetheirimportance;andmeanwhile,dotrustmewhenIaskyoutobeguidedbymymother。ItisalwayswellforastrangerinanoldsocietytoerralittleonthesideofwhatyoucallitsprejudicesbutIshouldratherdescribeasitstraditions。\" Afterthatshenolongertriedtolaughorargueherhusbandoutofhisconvictions。TheyWEREconvictions,andthereforeunassailable。Norwasanyinsincerityimpliedinthefactthattheysometimesseemedtocoincidewithhers。 Therewereoccasionswhenhereallydidlookatthingsasshedid;butforreasonssodifferentastomakethedistancebetweenthemallthegreater。Life,toMr。Leath,waslikeawalkthroughacarefullyclassifiedmuseum,where,inmomentsofdoubt,onehadonlytolookatthenumberandrefertoone’scatalogue;tohiswifeitwaslikegropingaboutinahugedarklumber—roomwheretheexploringrayofcuriositylitupnowsomeshapeofbreathingbeautyandnowamummy’sgrin。 Inthefirstbewildermentofhernewstatethesediscoverieshadhadtheeffectofdroppinganotherlayerofgauzebetweenherselfandreality。Sheseemedfartherthaneverremovedfromthestrongjoysandpangsforwhichshefeltherselfmade。Shedidnotadoptherhusband’sviews,butinsensiblyshebegantolivehislife。Shetriedtothrowacompensatingardourintothesecretexcursionsofherspirit,andthustheoldviciousdistinctionbetweenromanceandrealitywasre—establishedforher,andsheresignedherselfagaintothebeliefthat\"reallife\"wasneitherrealnoralive。 Thebirthofherlittlegirlsweptawaythisdelusion。Atlastshefeltherselfincontactwiththeactualbusinessofliving:buteventhisimpressionwasnotenduring。 Everythingbuttheirreduciblecrudefactofchild—bearingassumed,intheLeathhousehold,thesameghostlytingeofunreality。Herhusband,atthetime,wasallthathisownidealofahusbandrequired。Hewasattentive,andevensuitablymoved:butashesatbyherbedside,andthoughtfullyprofferedtoherthelistofpeoplewhohad\"calledtoenquire\",shelookedfirstathim,andthenatthechildbetweenthem,andwonderedattheblunderingalchemyofNature…… Withtheexceptionofthelittlegirlherself,everythingconnectedwiththattimehadgrowncuriouslyremoteandunimportant。Thedaysthathadmovedsoslowlyastheypassedseemednowtohaveplungeddownhead—longsteepsoftime;andasshesatintheautumnsun,withDarrow’sletterinherhand,thehistoryofAnnaLeathappearedtoitsheroinelikesomegreyshadowytalethatshemighthavereadinanoldbook,onenightasshewasfallingasleep…… X Twobrownblursemergingfromthefartherendofthewood— vistagraduallydefinedthemselvesasherstep—sonandanattendantgame—keeper。Theygrewslowlyuponthebluishbackground,withoccasionaldelaysandre—effacements,andshesatstill,waitingtilltheyshouldreachthegateattheendofthedrive,wherethekeeperwouldturnofftohiscottageandOwencontinueontothehouse。 Shewatchedhisapproachwithasmile。Fromthefirstdaysofhermarriageshehadbeendrawntotheboy,butitwasnotuntilafterEffie’sbirththatshehadreallybeguntoknowhim。TheeagerobservationofherownchildhadshownherhowmuchshehadstilltolearnabouttheslightfairboywhomtheholidaysperiodicallyrestoredtoGivre。Owen,eventhen,bothphysicallyandmorally,furnishedherwiththeoddestofcommentariesonhisfather’smienandmind。 Hewouldnever,thefamilysighinglyrecognized,benearlyashandsomeasMr。Leath;buthisrathercharminglyunbalancedface,withitsbroodingforeheadandpetulantboyishsmile,suggestedtoAnnawhathisfather’scountenancemighthavebeencouldonehavepictureditsneatfeaturesdisorderedbyarattlingbreeze。Sheevenpushedtheanalogyfarther,anddescriedinherstep—son’smindaquaintly—twistedreflectionofherhusband’s。Withhisburstsofdoor—slammingactivity,hisfitsofbookishindolence,hiscruderevolutionarydogmatizingandhisflashesofprecociousirony,theboywasnotunlikeaboisterousembodimentofhisfather’stheories。ItwasasthoughFraserLeath’sideas,accustomedtohanglikemarionettesontheirpegs,shouldsuddenlycomedownandwalk。Thereweremoments,indeed,whenOwen’shumoursmusthavesuggestedtohisprogenitorthegambolsofaninfantFrankenstein;buttoAnnatheywerethevoiceofhersecretrebellions,andhertendernesstoherstep—sonwaspartlybasedonherseveritytowardherself。Ashehadthecourageshehadlacked,soshemeanthimtohavethechancesshehadmissed;andeveryeffortshemadeforhimhelpedtokeepherownhopesalive。 HerinterestinOwenledhertothinkmoreoftenofhismother,andsometimesshewouldslipawayandstandalonebeforeherpredecessor’sportrait。SinceherarrivalatGivrethepicture——a\"full—length\"byaoncefashionableartist——hadundergonethesuccessivedisplacementsofanexiledconsortremovedfartherandfartherfromthethrone; andAnnacouldnothelpnotingthatthesestagescoincidedwiththegradualdeclineoftheartist’sfame。ShehadafancythatifhiscredithadbeenintheascendantthefirstMrs。Leathmighthavecontinuedtothroneoverthedrawing— roommantel—piece,eventotheexclusionofhersuccessor’seffigy。Insteadofthis,herperegrinationshadfinallylandedherintheshroudedsolitudeofthebilliard—room,anapartmentwhichnooneeverentered,butwhereitwasunderstoodthat\"thelightwasbetter,\"ormighthavebeeniftheshuttershadnotbeenalwaysclosed。 Herethepoorlady,elegantlydressed,andseatedinthemiddleofalargelonelycanvas,intheblankcontemplationofagiltconsole,hadalwaysseemedtoAnnatobewaitingforvisitorswhonevercame。 \"Ofcoursetheynevercame,youpoorthing!Iwonderhowlongittookyoutofindoutthattheyneverwould?\"Annahadmorethanonceapostrophizedher,withaderisionaddressedrathertoherselfthantothedead;butitwasonlyafterEffie’sbirththatitoccurredtohertostudymorecloselythefaceinthepicture,andspeculateonthekindofvisitorsthatOwen’smothermighthavehopedfor。 \"Shecertainlydoesn’tlookasiftheywouldhavebeenthesamekindasmine:butthere’snotelling,fromaportraitthatwassoobviouslydone’topleasethefamily’,andthatleavesOwensounaccountedfor。Well,theynevercame,thevisitors;theynevercame;andshediedofit。Shediedofitlongbeforetheyburiedher:I’mcertainofthat。Thosearestone—deadeyesinthepicture……Thelonelinessmusthavebeenawful,ifevenOwencouldn’tkeepherfromdyingofit。AndtofeelitsoshemusthaveHADfeelings—— realliveones,thekindthattwitchandtug。Andallshehadtolookatallherlifewasagiltconsole——yes,that’sit,agiltconsolescrewedtothewall!That’sexactlyandabsolutelywhatheis!\" Shedidnotmean,ifshecouldhelpit,thateitherEffieorOwenshouldknowthatloneliness,orletherknowitagain。 Theywerethree,now,tokeepeachotherwarm,andsheembracedbothchildreninthesamepassionofmotherhood,asthoughonewerenotenoughtoshieldherfromherpredecessor’sfate。 SometimesshefanciedthatOwenLeath’sresponsewaswarmerthanthatofherownchild。ButthenEffiewasstillhardlymorethanababy,andOwen,fromthefirst,hadbeenalmost\"oldenoughtounderstand\":certainlyDIDunderstandnow,inatacitwaythatyetperpetuallyspoketoher。Thissenseofhisunderstandingwasthedeepestelementintheirfeelingforeachother。Thereweresomanythingsbetweenthemthatwereneverspokenof,orevenindirectlyalludedto,yetthat,evenintheiroccasionaldiscussionsanddifferences,formedtheunadducedargumentsmakingforfinalagreement…… Musingonthis,shecontinuedtowatchhisapproach;andherheartbegantobeatalittlefasteratthethoughtofwhatshehadtosaytohim。Butwhenhereachedthegateshesawhimpause,andafteramomentheturnedasideasiftogainacross—roadthroughthepark。 Shestartedupandwavedhersunshade,buthedidnotseeher。Nodoubthemeanttogobackwiththegamekeeper,perhapstothekennels,toseearetrieverwhohadhurthisleg。Suddenlyshewasseizedbythewhimtoovertakehim。 Shethrewdowntheparasol,thrustherletterintoherbodice,andcatchingupherskirtsbegantorun。 Shewasslightandlight,withanaturaleaseandquicknessofgait,butshecouldnotrecallhavingrunayardsinceshehadrompedwithOweninhisschool—days;nordidsheknowwhatimpulsemovedhernow。Sheonlyknewthatrunshemust,thatnoothermotion,shortofflight,wouldhavebeenbuoyantenoughforherhumour。Sheseemedtobekeepingpacewithsomeinwardrhythm,seekingtogivebodilyexpressiontothelyricrushofherthoughts。Theearthalwaysfeltelasticunderher,andshehadaconsciousjoyintreadingit;butneverhaditbeenassoftandspringyastoday。Itseemedactuallytoriseandmeetherasshewent,sothatshehadthefeeling,whichsometimescametoherindreams,ofskimmingmiraculouslyovershortbrightwaves。 Theair,too,seemedtobreakinwavesagainsther,sweepingbyonitscurrentalltheslantedlightsandmoistsharpperfumesofthefailingday。Shepantedtoherself:\"Thisisnonsense!\"herbloodhummedback:\"Butit’sglorious!\" andshespedontillshesawthatOwenhadcaughtsightofherandwasstridingbackinherdirection。 Thenshestoppedandwaited,flushedandlaughing,herhandsclaspedagainsttheletterinherbreast。 \"No,I’mnotmad,\"shecalledout;\"butthere’ssomethingintheairtoday——don’tyoufeelit?——AndIwantedtohavealittletalkwithyou,\"sheaddedashecameuptoher,smilingathimandlinkingherarminhis。 Hesmiledback,butabovethesmileshesawtheshadeofanxietywhich,forthelasttwomonths,hadkeptitsfixedlinebetweenhishandsomeeyes。 \"Owen,don’tlooklikethat!Idon’twantyouto!\"shesaidimperiously。 Helaughed。\"YousaidthatexactlylikeEffie。Whatdoyouwantmetodo?ToracewithyouasIdoEffie?ButI shouldn’thaveashow!\"heprotested,stillwiththelittlefrownbetweenhiseyes。 \"Whereareyougoing?\"sheasked。 \"Tothekennels。Butthere’snottheleastneed。ThevethasseenGarryandhe’sallright。Ifthere’sanythingyouwantedtotellme————\" \"DidIsaytherewas?Ijustcameouttomeetyou——Iwantedtoknowifyou’dhadgoodsport。\" Theshadowdroppedonhimagain。\"Noneatall。ThefactisIdidn’ttry。JeanandIhavejustbeenknockingaboutinthewoods。Iwasn’tinasanguinarymood。\" Theywalkedonwiththesamelightgait,sonearlyofaheightthatkeepingstepcameasnaturallytothemasbreathing。Annastoleanotherlookattheyoungfaceonalevelwithherown。 \"YouDIDsaytherewassomethingyouwantedtotellme,\" herstep—sonbeganafterapause。 \"Well,thereis。\"Sheslackenedherpaceinvoluntarily,andtheycametoapauseandstoodfacingeachotherunderthelimes。 \"IsDarrowcoming?\"heasked。 Sheseldomblushed,butatthequestionasuddenheatsuffusedher。Sheheldherheadhigh。 \"Yes:he’scoming。I’vejustheard。Hearrivesto—morrow。 Butthat’snot————\"Shesawherblunderandtriedtorectifyit。\"Orrather,yes,inawayitismyreasonforwantingtospeaktoyou————\" \"Becausehe’scoming?\" \"Becausehe’snotyethere。\" \"It’sabouthim,then?\" Helookedatherkindly,half—humourously,analmostfraternalwisdominhissmile。 \"About————?No,no:ImeantthatIwantedtospeaktodaybecauseit’sourlastdayalonetogether。\" \"Oh,Isee。\"Hehadslippedhishandsintothepocketsofhistweedshootingjacketandloungedalongatherside,hiseyesbentonthemoistrutsofthedrive,asthoughthematterhadlostallinterestforhim。 \"Owen————\" Hestoppedagainandfacedher。\"Lookhere,mydear,it’snosortofuse。\" \"What’snouse?\"