第4章

类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:10467更新时间:19/01/07 14:28:10
mother’sfriend。Theencounter,toDarrow,couldhardlyhavebeenmoreinopportune;itwokeinhimaconfusionoffeelingsofwhichonlytheuppermostwasallayedbyseeingSophyViner,asifinstinctivelywarned,meltbackintotheshadowoftheirbox。 AminutelaterOwenLeathwasathisside。\"Iwassureitwasyou!Suchlucktorunacrossyou!Won’tyoucomeoffwithustosupperafterit’sover?Montmartre,orwhereverelseyouplease。Thosetwochapsovertherearefriendsofmine,attheBeauxArts;bothofthemrathergoodfellows—— andwe’dbesoglad————\" ForhalfasecondDarrowreadinhishospitableeyethetermination\"ifyou’dbringtheladytoo\";thenitdeflectedinto:\"We’dallbesogladifyou’dcome。\" Darrow,excusinghimselfwiththanks,lingeredonforafewminutes’chat,inwhicheveryword,andeverytoneofhiscompanion’svoice,waslikeasharplightflashedintoachingeyes。Hewasgladwhenthebellcalledtheaudiencetotheirseats,andyoungLeathlefthimwiththefriendlyquestion:\"We’llseeyouatGivrelateron?\" WhenherejoinedMissViner,Darrow’sfirstcarewastofindout,byarapidinspectionofthehouse,whetherOwenLeath’sseathadgivenhimaviewoftheirbox。Buttheyoungmanwasnotvisiblefromit,andDarrowconcludedthathehadbeenrecognizedinthecorridorandnotathiscompanion’sside。Hescarcelyknewwhyitseemedtohimsoimportantthatthispointshouldbesettled;certainlyhissenseofreassurancewaslessduetoregardforMissVinerthantothepersistentvisionofgraveoffendedeyes…… DuringthedrivebacktothehotelthisvisionwaspersistentlykeptbeforehimbythethoughtthattheeveningpostmighthavebroughtaletterfromMrs。Leath。Evenifnoletterhadyetcome,hisservantmighthavetelegraphedtosaythatonewasonitsway;andatthethoughthisinterestinthegirlathissideagaincooledtothefraternal,thealmostfatherly。Shewasnomoretohim,afterall,thananappealingyoungcreaturetowhomitwasmildlyagreeabletohaveofferedanevening’sdiversion;andwhen,astheyrolledintotheilluminatedcourtofthehotel,sheturnedwithaquickmovementwhichbroughtherhappyfaceclosetohis,heleanedaway,affectingtobeabsorbedinopeningthedoorofthecab。 Atthedeskthenightporter,afteravainsearchthroughthepigeon—holes,wasdisposedtothinkthataletterortelegramhadinfactbeensentupforthegentleman;andDarrow,attheannouncement,couldhardlywaittoascendtohisroom。Upstairs,heandhiscompanionhadthelongdimly—litcorridortothemselves,andSophypausedonherthreshold,gatheringupinonehandthepalefoldsofhercloak,whilesheheldtheotherouttoDarrow。 \"IfthetelegramcomesearlyIshallbeoffbythefirsttrain;soIsupposethisisgood—bye,\"shesaid,hereyesdimmedbyalittleshadowofregret。 Darrow,witharenewedstartofcontrition,perceivedthathehadagainforgottenherletter;andastheirhandsmethevowedtohimselfthatthemomentshehadlefthimhewoulddashdownstairstopostit。 \"Oh,I’llseeyouinthemorning,ofcourse!\" Atremorofpleasurecrossedherfaceashestoodbeforeher,smilingalittleuncertainly。 \"Atanyrate,\"shesaid,\"Iwanttothankyounowformygoodday。\" Hefeltinherhandthesametremorhehadseeninherface。 \"Butit’sYOU,onthecontrary——\"hebegan,liftingthehandtohislips。 Ashedroppedit,andtheireyesmet,somethingpassedthroughhersthatwaslikealightcarriedrapidlybehindacurtainedwindow。 \"Goodnight;youmustbeawfullytired,\"hesaidwithafriendlyabruptness,turningawaywithoutevenwaitingtoseeherpassintoherroom。Heunlockedhisdoor,andstumblingoverthethresholdgropedinthedarknessfortheelectricbutton。Thelightshowedhimatelegramonthetable,andheforgoteverythingelseashecaughtitup。 \"NoletterfromFrance,\"themessageread。 ItfellfromDarrow’shandtothefloor,andhedroppedintoachairbythetableandsatgazingatthedingydrabandolivepatternofthecarpet。Shehadnotwritten,then;shehadnotwritten,anditwasmanifestnowthatshedidnotmeantowrite。Ifshehadhadanyintentionofexplaininghertelegramshewouldcertainly,withintwenty—fourhours,havefolloweditupbyaletter。Butsheevidentlydidnotintendtoexplainit,andhersilencecouldmeanonlythatshehadnoexplanationtogive,orelsethatshewastooindifferenttobeawarethatonewasneeded。 Darrow,facetofacewiththesealternatives,feltarecrudescenceofboyishmisery。Itwasnolongerhishurtvanitythatcriedout。Hetoldhimselfthathecouldhaveborneanequalamountofpain,ifonlyithadleftMrs。 Leath’simageuntouched;buthecouldnotbeartothinkofherastrivialorinsincere。Thethoughtwassointolerablethathefeltablinddesiretopunishsomeoneelseforthepainitcausedhim。 AshesatmoodilystaringatthecarpetitssillyintricaciesmeltedintoablurfromwhichtheeyesofMrs。 Leathagainlookedoutathim。Hesawthefinesweepofherbrows,andthedeeplookbeneaththemasshehadturnedfromhimontheirlasteveninginLondon。\"Thiswillbegood— bye,then,\"shehadsaid;anditoccurredtohimthatherpartingphrasehadbeenthesameasSophyViner’s。 AtthethoughthejumpedtohisfeetandtookdownfromitshookthecoatinwhichhehadleftMissViner’sletter。Theclockmarkedthethirdquarteraftermidnight,andheknewitwouldmakenodifferenceifhewentdowntothepost—boxnoworearlythenextmorning;buthewantedtoclearhisconscience,andhavingfoundtheletterhewenttothedoor。 Asoundinthenextroommadehimpause。Hehadbecomeconsciousagainthat,afewfeetoff,ontheothersideofathinpartition,asmallkeenflameoflifewasquiveringandagitatingtheair。Sophy’sfacecamehacktohiminsistently。ItwasasvividnowasMrs。Leath’shadbeenamomentearlier。Herecalledwithafaintsmileofretrospectivepleasurethegirl’senjoymentofherevening,andtheinnumerablefinefeelersofsensationshehadthrownouttoitsimpressions。 Itgavehimacuriouslyclosesenseofherpresencetothinkthatatthatmomentshewaslivingoverherenjoymentasintenselyashewaslivingoverhisunhappiness。Hisowncasewasirremediable,butitwaseasyenoughtogiveherafewmorehoursofpleasure。Anddidshenotperhapssecretlyexpectitofhim?Afterall,ifshehadbeenveryanxioustojoinherfriendsshewouldhavetelegraphedthemonreachingParis,insteadofwriting。Hewonderednowthathehadnotbeenstruckatthemomentbysoartlessadevicetogainmoretime。Thefactofherhavingpractiseditdidnotmakehimthinklesswellofher;itmerelystrengthenedtheimpulsetousehisopportunity。Shewasstarving,poorchild,foralittleamusement,alittlepersonallife——whynotgiveherthechanceofanotherdayinParis?Ifhedidso,shouldhenotbemerelyfallinginwithherownhopes? Atthethoughthissympathyforherrevived。Shebecameofabsorbinginteresttohimasanescapefromhimselfandanobjectaboutwhichhisthwartedactivitiescouldcluster。 Hefeltlessdrearilyalonebecauseofherbeingthere,ontheothersideofthedoor,andinhisgratitudetoherforgivinghimthisreliefhebegan,withindolentamusement,toplannewwaysofdetainingher。Hedroppedbackintohischair,litacigar,andsmiledalittleattheimageofhersmilingface。Hetriedtoimaginewhatincidentofthedayshewaslikelytoberecallingatthatparticularmoment,andwhatpartheprobablyplayedinit。Thatitwasnotasmallparthewascertain,andtheknowledgewasundeniablypleasant。 Nowandthenasoundfromherroombroughtbeforehimmorevividlytherealityofthesituationandthestrangenessofthevastswarmingsolitudeinwhichheandsheweremomentarilyisolated,amidlonglinesofroomseachholdingitsseparatesecret。ThenearnessofalltheseothermysteriesenclosingtheirsgaveDarrowamoreintimatesenseofthegirl’spresence,andthroughthefumesofhiscigarhisimaginationcontinuedtofollowhertoandfro,tracedthecurveofherslimyoungarmsassheraisedthemtoundoherhair,picturedtheslidingdownofherdresstothewaistandthentotheknees,andthewhitenessofherfeetassheslippedacrossthefloortobed…… Hestoodupandshookhimselfwithayawn,throwingawaytheendofhiscigar。Hisglance,infollowingit,litonthetelegramwhichhaddroppedtothefloor。Thesoundsinthenextroomhadceased,andoncemorehefeltaloneandunhappy。 Openingthewindow,hefoldedhisarmsonthesillandlookedoutonthevastlight—spangledmassofthecity,andthenupatthedarksky,inwhichthemorningplanetstood。 VI AttheTheatreFrancais,thenextafternoon,Darrowyawnedandfidgetedinhisseat。 Thedaywaswarm,thetheatrecrowdedandairless,andtheperformance,itseemedtohim,intolerablybad。Hestoleaglanceathiscompanion,wonderingifshesharedhisfeelings。Herraptprofilebetrayednounrest,butpolitenessmighthavecausedhertofeignaninterestthatshedidnotfeel。Heleanedbackimpatiently,stiflinganotheryawn,andtryingtofixhisattentiononthestage。 Greatthingsweregoingforwardthere,andhewasnotinsensibletothesternbeautiesoftheancientdrama。Buttheinterpretationoftheplayseemedtohimasairlessandlifelessastheatmosphereofthetheatre。Theplayerswerethesamewhomhehadoftenapplaudedinthoseveryparts,andperhapsthatfactaddedtotheimpressionofstalenessandconventionalityproducedbytheirperformance。Surelyitwastimetoinfusenewbloodintotheveinsofthemoribundart。HehadtheimpressionthattheghostsofactorsweregivingaspectralperformanceontheshoresofStyx。 Certainlyitwasnotthemostprofitablewayforayoungmanwithaprettycompaniontopassthegoldenhoursofaspringafternoon。Thefreshnessofthefaceathisside,reflectingthefreshnessoftheseason,suggesteddapplingsofsunlightthroughnewleaves,thesoundofabrookinthegrass,therippleoftree—shadowsoverbreezymeadows…… Whenatlengththefatefulmarchofthecothurnswasstayedbythesinglepauseintheplay,andDarrowhadledMissVineroutonthebalconyoverhangingthesquarebeforethetheatre,heturnedtoseeifshesharedhisfeelings。Buttherapturouslookshegavehimcheckedthedepreciationonhislips。 \"Oh,whydidyoubringmeouthere?Oneoughttocreepawayandsitinthedarktillitbeginsagain!\" \"IsTHATthewaytheymadeyoufeel?\" \"Didn’ttheyYOU?……Asifthegodswerethereallthewhile,justbehindthem,pullingthestrings?\"Herhandswerepressedagainsttherailing,herfaceshininganddarkeningunderthewing—beatsofsuccessiveimpressions。 Darrowsmiledinenjoymentofherpleasure。Afterall,hehadfeltallthat,longago;perhapsitwashisownfault,ratherthanthatoftheactors,thatthepoetryoftheplayseemedtohaveevaporated……Butno,hehadbeenrightinjudgingtheperformancetobedullandstale:itwassimplyhiscompanion’sinexperience,herlackofoccasionstocompareandestimate,thatmadeherthinkitbrilliant。 \"Iwasafraidyouwereboredandwantedtocomeaway。\" \"BORED?\"Shemadealittleaggrievedgrimace。\"Youmeanyouthoughtmetooignorantandstupidtoappreciateit?\" \"No;notthat。\"Thehandnearesthimstilllayontherailingofthebalcony,andhecovereditforamomentwithhis。Ashedidsohesawthecolourriseandtrembleinhercheek。 \"Tellmejustwhatyouthink,\"hesaid,bendinghisheadalittle,andonlyhalf—awareofhiswords。 Shedidnotturnherfacetohis,butbegantotalkrapidly,tryingtoconveysomethingofwhatshefelt。Butshewasevidentlyunusedtoanalyzingheraestheticemotions,andthetumultuousrushofthedramaseemedtohaveleftherinastateofpantingwonder,asthoughithadbeenastormorsomeothernaturalcataclysm。Shehadnoliteraryorhistoricassociationstowhichtoattachherimpressions: hereducationhadevidentlynotcomprisedacourseinGreekliterature。Butshefeltwhatwouldprobablyhavebeenunperceivedbymanyayoungladywhohadtakenafirstinclassics:theineluctablefatalityofthetale,thedreadswayinitofthesamemysterious\"luck\"whichpulledthethreadsofherownsmalldestiny。Itwasnotliteraturetoher,itwasfact:asactual,asnearby,aswhatwashappeningtoheratthemomentandwhatthenexthourheldinstore。Seeninthislight,theplayregainedforDarrowitssupremeandpoignantreality。Hepiercedtotheheartofitssignificancethroughalltheartificialaccretionswithwhichhistheoriesofartandtheconventionsofthestagehadclothedit,andsawitashehadneverseenit:aslife。 Afterthistherecouldbenoquestionofflight,andhetookherbacktothetheatre,contenttoreceivehisownsensationsthroughthemediumofhers。Butwiththecontinuationoftheplay,andtheoppressionoftheheavyair,hisattentionagainbegantowander,strayingbackovertheincidentsofthemorning。 HehadbeenwithSophyVinerallday,andhewassurprisedtofindhowquicklythetimehadgone。Shehadhardlyattempted,asthehourspassed,toconcealhersatisfactiononfindingthatnotelegramcamefromtheFarlows。\"They’llhavewritten,\"shehadsimplysaid;andhermindhadatonceflownontothegoldenprospectofanafternoonatthetheatre。Theinterveninghourshadbeendisposedofinastrollthroughthelivelystreets,andarepast,luxuriouslylingeredover,underthechestnut—boughsofarestaurantintheChampsElysees。Everythingentertainedandinterestedher,andDarrowremarked,withanamuseddetachment,thatshewasnotinsensibletotheimpressionhercharmsproduced。Yettherewasnohardedgeofvanityinhersenseofherprettiness:sheseemedsimplytobeawareofitasanoteinthegeneralharmony,andtoenjoysoundingthenoteasasingerenjoyssinging。 Afterluncheon,astheysatovertheircoffee,shehadagainaskedanimmensenumberofquestionsanddeliveredherselfofaremarkablevarietyofopinions。Herquestionstestifiedtoawholesomeandcomprehensivehumancuriosity,andhercommentsshowed,likeherfaceandherwholeattitude,anoddminglingofprecociouswisdomanddisarmingignorance。 Whenshetalkedtohimabout\"life\"——thewordwasoftenonherlips——sheseemedtohimlikeachildplayingwithatiger’scub;andhesaidtohimselfthatsomedaythechildwouldgrowup——andsowouldthetiger。Meanwhile,suchexpertnessqualifiedbysuchcandourmadeitimpossibletoguesstheextentofherpersonalexperience,ortoestimateitseffectonhercharacter。Shemightbeanyoneofadozendefinabletypes,orshemight——moredisconcertinglytohercompanionandmoreperilouslytoherself——beashiftinganduncrystallizedmixtureofthemall。 Hertalk,asusual,hadpromptlyrevertedtothestage。Shewaseagertolearnabouteveryformofdramaticexpressionwhichthemetropolisofthingstheatricalhadtooffer,andhercuriosityrangedfromtheofficialtemplesofthearttoitslesshallowedhaunts。Hersearchingenquiriesaboutaplaywhoseproduction,ononeofthelatterscenes,hadprovokedaconsiderableamountofscandal,ledDarrowtothrowoutlaughingly:\"ToseeTHATyou’llhavetowaittillyou’remarried!\"andhisanswerhadsentheroffatatangent。 \"Oh,Inevermeantomarry,\"shehadrejoinedinatoneofyouthfulfinality。 \"Iseemtohaveheardthatbefore!\" \"Yes;fromgirlswho’veonlygottochoose!\"Hereyeshadgrownsuddenlyalmostold。\"I’dlikeyoutoseetheonlymenwho’veeverwantedtomarryme!Onewasthedoctoronthesteamer,whenIcameabroadwiththeHokes:he’dbeencashieredfromthenavyfordrunkenness。Theotherwasadeafwidowerwiththreegrown—updaughters,whokeptaclock—shopinBayswater!——Besides,\"sherambledon,\"I’mnotsosurethatIbelieveinmarriage。YouseeI’mallforself—developmentandthechancetoliveone’slife。I’mawfullymodern,youknow。\" Itwasjustwhensheproclaimedherselfmostawfullymodernthatshestruckhimasmosthelplesslybackward;yetthemomentafter,withoutanybravado,orapparentdesiretoassumeanattitude,shewouldpropoundsomesocialaxiomwhichcouldhavebeengatheredonlyinthebittersoilofexperience。 Allthesethingscamebacktohimashesatbesideherinthetheatreandwatchedheringenuousabsorption。Itwason\"thestory\"thathermindwasfixed,andinlifealso,hesuspected,itwouldalwaysbe\"thestory\",ratherthanitsremoterimaginativeissues,thatwouldholdher。Hedidnotbelievetherewereeveranyechoesinhersoul…… Therewasnoquestion,however,thatwhatshefeltwasfeltwithintensity:totheactual,theimmediate,shespreadvibratingstrings。Whentheplaywasover,andtheycameoutoncemoreintothesunlight,Darrowlookeddownatherwithasmile。 \"Well?\"heasked。 Shemadenoanswer。Herdarkgazeseemedtorestonhimwithoutseeinghim。Hercheeksandlipswerepale,andtheloosehairunderherhat—brimclungtoherforeheadindamprings。Shelookedlikeayoungpriestessstilldazedbythefumesofthecavern。 \"Youpoorchild——it’sbeenalmosttoomuchforyou!\" Sheshookherheadwithavaguesmile。 \"Come,\"hewenton,puttinghishandonherarm,\"let’sjumpintoataxiandgetsomeairandsunshine。Look,therearehoursofdaylightleft;andseewhatanightit’sgoingtobe!\" Hepointedovertheirheads,towhereawhitemoonhunginthemistyblueabovetheroofsoftheruedeRivoli。 Shemadenoanswer,andhesignedtoamotor—cab,callingouttothedriver:\"TotheBois!\" AsthecarriageturnedtowardtheTuileriessherousedherself。\"Imustgofirsttothehotel。Theremaybeamessage——atanyrateImustdecideonsomething。\" Darrowsawthattherealityofthesituationhadsuddenlyforceditselfuponher。\"IMUSTdecideonsomething,\" sherepeated。 Hewouldhavelikedtopostponethereturn,topersuadehertodrivedirectlytotheBoisfordinner。ItwouldhavebeeneasyenoughtoremindherthatshecouldnotstartforJoignythatevening,andthatthereforeitwasofnomomentwhethershereceivedtheFarlows’answerthenorafewhourslater;butforsomereasonhehesitatedtousethisargument,whichhadcomesonaturallytohimthedaybefore。 Afterall,heknewshewouldfindnothingatthehotel——sowhatdiditmatteriftheywentthere? Theporter,interrogated,wasnotsure。Hehimselfhadreceivednothingforthelady,butinhisabsencehissubordinatemighthavesentaletterupstairs。 DarrowandSophymountedtogetherinthelift,andtheyoungman,whileshewentintoherroom,unlockedhisowndoorandglancedattheemptytable。Forhimatleastnomessagehadcome;andonherthreshold,amomentlater,shemethimwiththeexpected:\"No——there’snothing!\" Hefeignedanunregretfulsurprise。\"Somuchthebetter! Andnow,shallwedriveoutsomewhere?OrwouldyourathertakeaboattoBellevue?Haveyoueverdinedthere,ontheterrace,bymoonlight?It’snotatallbad。Andthere’snoearthlyuseinsittingherewaiting。\" Shestoodbeforehiminperplexity。 \"ButwhenIwroteyesterdayIaskedthemtotelegraph。I supposethey’rehorriblyhardup,thepoordears,andtheythoughtaletterwoulddoaswellasatelegram。\"Thecolourhadrisentoherface。\"That’swhyIwroteinsteadoftelegraphing;Ihaven’tapennytosparemyself!\" Nothingshecouldhavesaidcouldhavefilledherlistenerwithadeepercontrition。Hefelttheredinhisownfaceasherecalledthemotivewithwhichhehadcreditedherinhismidnightmusings。Butthatmotive,afterall,hadsimplybeentrumpeduptojustifyhisowndisloyalty:hehadneverreallybelievedinit。Thereflectiondeepenedhisconfusion,andhewouldhavelikedtotakeherhandinhisandconfesstheinjusticehehaddoneher。 Shemayhaveinterpretedhischangeofcolourasaninvoluntaryprotestatbeinginitiatedintosuchshabbydetails,forshewentonwithalaugh:\"Isupposeyoucanhardlyunderstandwhatitmeanstohavetostopandthinkwhetheronecanaffordatelegram?ButI’vealwayshadtoconsidersuchthings。AndImustn’tstayhereanylongernow——ImusttrytogetanighttrainforJoigny。EveniftheFarlowscan’ttakemein,Icangotothehotel:itwillcostlessthanstayinghere。\"Shepausedagainandthenexclaimed:\"Ioughttohavethoughtofthatsooner;Ioughttohavetelegraphedyesterday!ButIwassureIshouldhearfromthemtoday;andIwanted——oh,IDIDsoawfullywanttostay!\"ShethrewatroubledlookatDarrow。\"Doyouhappentoremember,\"sheasked,\"whattimeitwaswhenyoupostedmyletter?\" VII Darrowwasstillstandingonherthreshold。Assheputthequestionheenteredtheroomandclosedthedoorbehindhim。 Hisheartwasbeatingalittlefasterthanusualandhehadnoclearideaofwhathewasabouttodoorsay,beyondthedefiniteconvictionthat,whateverpassingimpulseofexpiationmovedhim,hewouldnotbefoolenoughtotellherthathehadnotsentherletter。Heknewthatmostwrongdoingworks,onthewhole,lessmischiefthanitsuselessconfession;andthiswasclearlyacasewhereapassingfollymightbeturned,byavowal,intoaseriousoffense。 \"I’msosorry——sosorry;butyoumustletmehelpyou……Youwillletmehelpyou?\"hesaid。 Hetookherhandsandpressedthemtogetherbetweenhis,countingonafriendlytouchtohelpouttheinsufficiencyofwords。Hefeltheryieldslightlytohisclasp,andhurriedonwithoutgivinghertimetoanswer。 \"Isn’titapitytospoilourgoodtimetogetherbyregrettinganythingyoumighthavedonetopreventourhavingit?\" Shedrewback,freeingherhands。Herface,losingitslookofappealingconfidence,wassuddenlysharpenedbydistrust。 \"Youdidn’tforgettopostmyletter?\" Darrowstoodbeforeher,constrainedandashamed,andevermorekeenlyawarethatthebetrayalofhisdistressmustbeagreateroffensethanitsconcealment。 \"Whataninsinuation!\"hecried,throwingouthishandswithalaugh。 Herfaceinstantlymeltedtolaughter。\"Well,then——I WON’Tbesorry;Iwon’tregretanythingexceptthatourgoodtimeisover!\" Thewordsweresounexpectedthattheyroutedallhisresolves。Ifshehadgoneondoubtinghimhecouldprobablyhavegoneondeceivingher;butherunhesitatingacceptanceofhiswordmadehimhatetheparthewasplaying。Atthesamemomentadoubtshotupitsserpentheadinhisownbosom。Wasitnotheratherthanshewhowaschildishlytrustful?Wasshenotalmosttooreadytotakehisword,anddismissonceforallthetiresomequestionoftheletter? Consideringwhatherexperiencesmusthavebeen,suchtrustfulnessseemedopentosuspicion。Butthemomenthiseyesfellonherhewasashamedofthethought,andknewitforwhatitreallywas:anotherpretexttolessenhisowndelinquency。 \"Whyshouldourgoodtimebeover?\"heasked。\"Whyshouldn’titlastalittlelonger?\" Shelookedup,herlipspartedinsurprise;butbeforeshecouldspeakhewenton:\"Iwantyoutostaywithme——Iwantyou,justforafewdays,tohaveallthethingsyou’veneverhad。It’snotalwaysMayandParis——whynotmakethemostofthemnow?Youknowme——we’renotstrangers——whyshouldn’tyoutreatmelikeafriend?\" Whilehespokeshehaddrawnawayalittle,butherhandstilllayinhis。Shewaspale,andhereyeswerefixedonhiminagazeinwhichtherewasneitherdistrustorresentment,butonlyaningenuouswonder。Hewasextraordinarilytouchedbyherexpression。 \"Oh,do!Youmust。Listen:toprovethatI’msincereI’lltellyou……I’lltellyouIdidn’tpostyourletter……I didn’tpostitbecauseIwantedsomuchtogiveyouafewgoodhours……andbecauseIcouldn’tbeartohaveyougo。\" Hehadthefeelingthatthewordswerebeingutteredinspiteofhimbysomemaliciouswitnessofthescene,andyetthathewasnotsorrytohavethemspoken。 Thegirlhadlistenedtohiminsilence。Sheremainedmotionlessforamomentafterhehadceasedtospeak;thenshesnatchedawayherhand。 \"Youdidn’tpostmyletter?Youkeptitbackonpurpose?AndyoutellmesoNOW,toprovetomethatI’dbetterputmyselfunderyourprotection?\"SheburstintoalaughthathadinitallthepiercingechoesofherMurrettpast,andherface,atthesamemoment,underwentthesamechange,shrinkingintoasmallmalevolentwhitemaskinwhichtheeyesburnedblack。\"Thankyou——thankyoumostawfullyfortellingme!Andforallyourotherkindintentions!Theplan’sdelightful——reallyquitedelightful,andI’mextremelyflatteredandobliged。\"