第7章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph Conrad字数:31069更新时间:19/01/07 08:53:10
Hewasdisconcertedsomewhatbyherwhite,stillface,thebiglightvioleteyesrestingonhimstonily。Shehadnotutteredasound。Shefacedhim,steadyingherselfonthecornerofthepianowithoneextendedhand。Theotherwentonrubbingwithmechanicalpersistencytheplacehislipshadtouched。 \"What’sthetrouble?\"hesaid,offended。\"Startledyou?Lookhere:don’tletushaveanyofthatnonsense。Youdon’tmeantosayakissfrightensyousomuchasallthat……Iknowbetter……Idon’tmeantobeleftoutinthecold。\" Hehadbeengazingintoherfacewithsuchstrainedintentnessthathecouldnolongerseeitdistinctly。Everythingroundhimwasrathermisty。Heforgottheoverturnedstool,caughthisfootagainstit,andlurchedforwardslightly,sayinginaningratiatingtone: \"I’mnotbadfun,really。Youtryafewkissestobeginwith—\" Hesaidnomore,becausehisheadreceivedaterrificconcussion,accompaniedbyanexplosivesound。Freyahadswungherround,strongarmwithsuchforcethattheimpactofheropenpalmonhisflatcheekturnedhimhalfround。Utteringafaint,hoarseyell,thelieutenantclappedbothhishandstotheleftsideofhisface,whichhadtakenonsuddenlyaduskybrick—redtinge。Freya,veryerect,hervioleteyesdarkened,herpalmstilltinglingfromtheblow,asortofrestraineddeterminedsmileshowingatinygleamofherwhiteteeth,heardherfather’srapid,heavytreadonthepathbelowtheverandah。Herexpressionlostitspugnacityandbecamesincerelyconcerned。Shewassorryforherfather。Shestoopedquicklytopickupthemusic—stool,asifanxioustoobliteratethetraces……Butthatwasnogood。Shehadresumedherattitude,onehandrestinglightlyonthepiano,beforeoldNelsongotuptothetopofthestairs。 Poorfather!Howfurioushewillbe—howupset!Andafterwards,whattremors,whatunhappiness!Whyhadshenotbeenopenwithhimfromthefirst?Hisround,innocentstareofamazementcuthertothequick。Buthewasnotlookingather。HisstarewasdirectedtoHeemskirk,who,withhisbacktohimandwithhishandsstilluptohisface,washissingcursesthroughhisteeth,and(shesawhiminprofile)glaringatherbalefullywithoneblack,evileye。 \"What’sthematter?\"askedoldNelson,verymuchbewildered。 Shedidnotanswerhim。ShethoughtofJasperonthedeckofthebrig,gazingupatthelightedbungalow,andshefeltfrightened。 Itwasamercythatoneofthematleastwasonboardoutoftheway。Sheonlywishedhewereahundredmilesoff。Andyetshewasnotcertainthatshedid。HadJasperbeenmysteriouslymovedthatmomenttoreappearontheverandahshewouldhavethrownherconsistency,herfirmness,herself—possession,tothewinds,andflownintohisarms。 \"Whatisit?Whatisit?\"insistedtheunsuspectingNelson,gettingquiteexcited。\"Onlythisminuteyouwereplayingatune,and—\" Freya,unabletospeakinherapprehensionofwhatwascoming(shewasalsofascinatedbythatblack,evil,glaringeye),onlynoddedslightlyatthelieutenant,asmuchastosay:\"Justlookathim!\" \"Why,yes!\"exclaimedoldNelson。\"Isee。Whatonearth—\" MeantimehehadcautiouslyapproachedHeemskirk,who,burstingintoincoherentimprecations,wasstampingwithbothfeetwherehestood。Theindignityoftheblow,therageofbaffledpurpose,theridiculeoftheexposure,andtheimpossibilityofrevengemaddenedhimtoapointwhenhesimplyfelthemusthowlwithfury。 \"Oh,oh,oh!\"hehowled,stampingacrosstheverandahasthoughhemeanttodrivehisfootthroughthefloorateverystep。 \"Why,ishisfacehurt?\"askedtheastoundedoldNelson。Thetruthdawnedsuddenlyuponhisinnocentmind。\"Dearme!\"hecried,enlightened。\"Getsomebrandy,quick,Freya……Youaresubjecttoit,lieutenant?Fiendish,eh?Iknow,Iknow!Usedtogocrazyallofasuddenmyselfinthetime……Andthelittlebottleoflaudanumfromthemedicine—chest,too,Freya。Looksharp……Don’tyouseehe’sgotatoothache?\" And,indeed,whatotherexplanationcouldhavepresenteditselftotheguilelessoldNelson,beholdingthischeeknursedwithbothhands,thesewildglances,thesestampings,thisdistractedswayingofthebody?Itwouldhavedemandedapreternaturalacutenesstohituponthetruecause。Freyahadnotmoved。ShewatchedHeemskirk’ssavagelyinquiring,blackstaredirectedstealthilyuponherself。\"Aha,youwouldliketobeletoff!\"shesaidtoherself。Shelookedathimunflinchingly,thinkingitout。Thetemptationofmakinganendofitallwithoutfurthertroublewasirresistible。Shegaveanalmostimperceptiblenodofassent,andglidedaway。 \"Hurryupthatbrandy!\"oldNelsonshouted,asshedisappearedinthepassage。 HeemskirkrelievedhisdeeperfeelingsbyasuddenstringofcursesinDutchandEnglishwhichhesentafterher。Heravedtohisheart’scontent,flingingtoandfrotheverandahandkickingchairsoutofhisway;whileNelson(orNielsen),whosesympathywasprofoundlystirredbytheseevidencesofagonisingpain,hoveredroundhisdear(anddreaded)lieutenant,fussinglikeanoldhen。 \"Dearme,dearme!Isitsobad?Iknowwellwhatitis。Iusedtofrightenmypoorwifesometimes。Doyougetitoftenlikethis,lieutenant?\" Heemskirkshoulderedhimviciouslyoutofhisway,withashort,insanelaugh。Buthisstaggeringhosttookitingoodpart;amanbesidehimselfwithexcruciatingtoothacheisnotresponsible。 \"Gointomyroom,lieutenant,\"hesuggestedurgently。\"Throwyourselfonmybed。Wewillgetsomethingtoeaseyouinaminute。\" Heseizedthepoorsuffererbythearmandforcedhimgentlyonwardstotheverybed,onwhichHeemskirk,inarenewedaccessofrage,flunghimselfdownwithsuchforcethathereboundedfromthemattresstotheheightofquiteafoot。 \"Dearme!\"exclaimedthescaredNelson,andincontinentlyranofftohurryupthebrandyandthelaudanum,veryangrythatsolittlealacritywasshowninrelievingthetorturesofhispreciousguest。 Intheendhegotthesethingshimself。 Halfanhourlaterhestoodintheinnerpassageofthehouse,surprisedbyfaint,spasmodicsoundsofamysteriousnature,betweenlaughterandsobs。Hefrowned;thenwentstraighttowardshisdaughter’sroomandknockedatthedoor。 Freya,hergloriousfairhairframingherwhitefaceandripplingdownadark—bluedressing—gown,openeditpartly。 Thelightintheroomwasdim。Antonia,crouchinginacorner,rockedherselfbackwardsandforwards,utteringfeeblemoans。OldNelsonhadnotmuchexperienceinvariouskindsoffemininelaughter,buthewascertaintherehadbeenlaughterthere。 \"Veryunfeeling,veryunfeeling!\"hesaid,withweightydispleasure。\"Whatistheresoamusinginamanbeinginpain?I shouldhavethoughtawoman—ayounggirl—\" \"Hewassofunny,\"murmuredFreya,whoseeyesglistenedstrangelyinthesemi—obscurityofthepassage。\"Andthen,youknow,Idon’tlikehim,\"sheadded,inanunsteadyvoice。 \"Funny!\"repeatedoldNelson,amazedatthisevidenceofcallousnessinonesoyoung。\"Youdon’tlikehim!Doyoumeantosaythat,becauseyoudon’tlikehim,you—Why,it’ssimplycruel! Don’tyouknowit’sabouttheworstsortofpainthereis?Dogshavebeenknowntogomadwithit。\" \"Hecertainlyseemedtohavegonemad,\"Freyasaidwithaneffort,asifshewerestrugglingwithsomehiddenfeeling。 Butherfatherwaslaunched。 \"Andyouknowhowheis。Henoticeseverything。Heisafellowtotakeoffencefortheleastlittlething—regularDutchman—andI wanttokeepfriendlywithhim。It’slikethis,mygirl:ifthatrajahofoursweretodosomethingsilly—andyouknowheisasulky,rebelliousbeggar—andtheauthoritiestookintotheirheadsthatmyinfluenceoverhimwasn’tgood,youwouldfindyourselfwithoutaroofoveryourhead—\" Shecried:\"Whatnonsense,father!\"inanotveryassuredtone,anddiscoveredthathewasangry,angryenoughtoachieveirony; yes,oldNelson(orNielsen),irony!Justagleamofit。 \"Oh,ofcourse,ifyouhavemeansofyourown—amansion,aplantationthatIknownothingof—\"Buthewasnotcapableofsustainedirony。\"Itellyoutheywouldbundlemeoutofhere,\"hewhisperedforcibly;\"withoutcompensation,ofcourse。IknowtheseDutch。Andthelieutenant’sjustthefellowtostartthetroublegoing。Hehastheearofinfluentialofficials。Iwouldn’toffendhimforanything—foranything—onnoconsiderationwhatever……Whatdidyousay?\" Itwasonlyaninarticulateexclamation。Ifsheeverhadahalf— formedintentionoftellinghimeverythingshehadgivenitupnow。 Itwasimpossible,bothoutofregardforhisdignityandforthepeaceofhispoormind。 \"Idon’tcareforhimmyselfverymuch,\"oldNelson’ssubduedundertoneconfessedinasigh。\"He’seasiernow,\"hewenton,afterasilence。\"I’vegivenhimupmybedforthenight。Ishallsleeponmyverandah,inthehammock。No;Ican’tsayIlikehimeither,butfromthattolaughatamanbecausehe’sdrivencrazywithpainisalongway。You’vesurprisedme,Freya。Thatsideofhisfaceisquiteflushed。\" Hershouldersshookconvulsivelyunderhishands,whichhelaidonherpaternally。Hisstraggly,wirymoustachebrushedherforeheadinagood—nightkiss。Sheclosedthedoor,andwentawayfromittothemiddleoftheroombeforesheallowedherselfatired—outsortoflaugh,withoutbuoyancy。 \"Flushed!Alittleflushed!\"sherepeatedtoherself。\"Ihopeso,indeed!Alittle—\" Hereyelasheswerewet。Antonia,inhercorner,moanedandgiggled,anditwasimpossibletotellwherethemoansendedandthegigglesbegan。 Themistressandthemaidhadbeensomewhathysterical,forFreya,onfleeingintoherroom,hadfoundAntoniathere,andhadtoldhereverything。 \"Ihaveavengedyou,mygirl,\"sheexclaimed。 Andthentheyhadlaughinglycriedandcryinglylaughedwithadmonitions—\"Ssh,notsoloud!Bequiet!\"ononepart,andinterludesof\"Iamsofrightened……He’sanevilman,\"ontheother。 AntoniawasverymuchafraidofHeemskirk。Shewasafraidofhimbecauseofhispersonalappearance:becauseofhiseyesandhiseyebrows,andhismouthandhisnoseandhislimbs。Nothingcouldbemorerational。Andshethoughthimanevilman,because,tohereyes,helookedevil。Nogroundforanopinioncouldbesounder。 Inthedimnessoftheroom,withonlyanightlightburningattheheadofFreya’sbed,thecameristacreptoutofhercornertocrouchatthefeetofhermistress,supplicatinginwhispers: \"There’sthebrig。CaptainAllen。Letusrunawayatonce—oh,letusrunaway!Iamsofrightened。Letus!Letus!\" \"I!Runaway!\"thoughtFreyatoherself,withoutlookingdownatthescaredgirl。\"Never。\" Boththeresolutemistressunderthemosquito—netandthefrightenedmaidlyingcurleduponamatatthefootofthebeddidnotsleepverywellthatnight。ThepersonthatdidnotsleepatallwasLieutenantHeemskirk。Helayonhisbackstaringvindictivelyinthedarkness。Inflamingimagesandhumiliatingreflectionssucceededeachotherinhismind,keepingup,augmentinghisanger。Aprettytalethistogetabout!Butitmustnotbeallowedtogetabout。Theoutragehadtobeswallowedinsilence。Aprettyaffair!Fooled,ledon,andstruckbythegirl—andprobablyfooledbythefather,too。Butno。Nielsenwasbutanothervictimofthatshamelesshussy,thatbrazenminx,thatsly,laughing,kissing,lying…… \"No;hedidnotdeceivemeonpurpose,\"thoughtthetormentedlieutenant。\"ButIshouldliketopayhimoff,allthesame,forbeingsuchanimbecile—\" Well,someday,perhaps。Onethinghewasfirmlyresolvedon:hehadmadeuphismindtostealearlyoutofthehouse。Hedidnotthinkhecouldfacethegirlwithoutgoingoutofhismindwithfury。 \"Fireandperdition!Tenthousanddevils!Ishallchokeherebeforethemorning!\"hemutteredtohimself,lyingrigidonhisbackonoldNelson’sbed,hisbreastheavingforair。 Hearoseatdaylightandstartedcautiouslytoopenthedoor。 Faintsoundsinthepassagealarmedhim,andremainingconcealedhesawFreyacomingout。Thisunexpectedsightdeprivedhimofallpowertomoveawayfromthecrackofthedoor。Itwasthenarrowestcrackpossible,butcommandingtheviewoftheendoftheverandah。Freyamadeforthatendhastilytowatchthebrigpassingthepoint。Sheworeherdarkdressing—gown;herfeetwerebare,because,havingfallenasleeptowardsthemorning,sheranoutheadlonginherfearofbeingtoolate。Heemskirkhadneverseenherlookinglikethis,withherhairdrawnbacksmoothlytotheshapeofherhead,andhanginginoneheavy,fairtressdownherback,andwiththatairofextremeyouth,intensity,andeagerness。Andatfirsthewasamazed,andthenhegnashedhisteeth。Hecouldnotfaceheratall。Hemutteredacurse,andkeptstillbehindthedoor。 Withalow,deep—breathed\"Ah!\"whenshefirstsawthebrigalreadyunderway,shereachedforNelson’slongglassreposingonbracketshighupthewall。Thewidesleeveofthedressing—gownslippedback,uncoveringherwhitearmasfarastheshoulder。Heemskirkgrippingthedoor—handle,asiftocrushit,feltlikeamanjustrisentohisfeetfromadrinkingbout。 AndFreyaknewthathewaswatchingher。Sheknew。Shehadseenthedoormoveasshecameoutofthepassage。Shewasawareofhiseyesbeingonher,withscornfulbitterness,withtriumphantcontempt。 \"Youarethere,\"shethought,levellingthelongglass。\"Oh,well,lookon,then!\" Thegreenisletsappearedlikeblackshadows,theashenseawassmoothasglass,theclearrobeofthecolourlessdawn,inwhicheventhebrigappearedshadowy,hadahemoflightintheeast。 DirectlyFreyahadmadeoutJasperondeck,withhisownlongglassdirectedtothebungalow,shelaidhersdownandraisedbothherbeautifulwhitearmsaboveherhead。Inthatattitudeofsupremecryshestoodstill,glowingwiththeconsciousnessofJasper’sadorationgoingouttoherfigureheldinthefieldofhisglassawaythere,andwarmed,too,bythefeelingofevilpassion,theburning,covetouseyesoftheother,fastenedonherback。Inthefervourofherlove,inthecapriceofhermind,andwiththatmysteriousknowledgeofmasculinenaturewomenseemtobebornto,shethought: \"Youarelookingon—youwill—youmust!Thenyoushallseesomething。\" Shebroughtbothherhandstoherlips,thenflungthemout,sendingakissoverthesea,asifshewantedtothrowherheartalongwithitonthedeckofthebrig。Herfacewasrosy,hereyesshone。Herrepeated,passionategestureseemedtoflingkissesbythehundredagainandagainandagain,whiletheslowlyascendingsunbroughtthegloryofcolourtotheworld,turningtheisletsgreen,theseablue,thebrigbelowherwhite—dazzlinglywhiteinthespreadofherwings—withtheredensignstreaminglikeatinyflamefromthepeak。 Andeachtimeshemurmuredwitharisinginflexion: \"Takethis—andthis—andthis—\"tillsuddenlyherarmsfell。 Shehadseentheensigndippedinresponse,andnextmomentthepointbelowhidthehullofthebrigfromherview。Thensheturnedawayfromthebalustrade,and,passingslowlybeforethedoorofherfather’sroomwithhereyelidslowered,andanenigmaticexpressiononherface,shedisappearedbehindthecurtain。 Butinsteadofgoingalongthepassage,sheremainedconcealedandverystillontheothersidetowatchwhatwouldhappen。Forsometimethebroad,furnishedverandahremainedempty。ThenthedoorofoldNelson’sroomcameopensuddenly,andHeemskirkstaggeredout。Hishairwasrumpled,hiseyesbloodshot,hisunshavenfacelookedverydark。Hegazedwildlyabout,sawhiscaponatable,snatcheditup,andmadeforthestairsquietly,butwithastrange,totteringgait,likethelasteffortofwaningstrength。 Shortlyafterhisheadhadsunkbelowthelevelofthefloor,Freyacameoutfrombehindthecurtain,withcompressed,scheminglips,andnosoftnessatallinherluminouseyes。Hecouldnotbeallowedtosneakoffscotfree。Never—never!Shewasexcited,shetingledallover,shehadtastedblood!Hemustbemadetounderstandthatshehadbeenawareofhavingbeenwatched;hemustknowthathehadbeenseenslinkingoffshamefully。Buttoruntothefrontrailandshoutafterhimwouldhavebeenchildish,crude—undignified。Andtoshout—what?Whatword?Whatphrase?No; itwasimpossible。Thenhow?……Shefrowned,discoveredit,dashedatthepiano,whichhadstoodopenallnight,andmadetherosewoodmonstergrowlsavageryinanirritatedbass。Shestruckchordsasiffiringshotsafterthatstraddling,broadfigureinamplewhitetrousersandadarkuniformjacketwithgoldshoulder— straps,andthenshepursuedhimwiththesamethingshehadplayedtheeveningbefore—amodern,fiercepieceoflovemusicwhichhadbeentriedmorethanonceagainstthethunderstormsofthegroup。 Sheaccentuateditsrhythmwithtriumphantmalice,soabsorbedinherpurposethatshedidnotnoticethepresenceofherfather,who,wearinganoldthreadbareulsterofacheckpatternoverhissleepingsuit,hadrunoutfromthebackverandahtoinquirethereasonofthisuntimelyperformance。Hestaredather。 \"Whatonearth?……Freya!\"Hisvoicewasnearlydrownedbythepiano。\"What’sbecomeofthelieutenant?\"heshouted。 Shelookedupathimasifhersoulwerelostinhermusic,withunseeingeyes。 \"Gone。\" \"Wha—a—t?……Where?\" Sheshookherheadslightly,andwentonplayinglouderthanbefore。OldNelson’sinnocentlyanxiousgazestartingfromtheopendoorofhisroom,exploredthewholeplacehighandlow,asifthelieutenantweresomethingsmallwhichmighthavebeencrawlingonthefloororclingingtoawall。Butashrillwhistlecomingsomewherefrombelowpiercedtheamplevolumeofsoundrollingoutofthepianoingreat,vibratingwaves。Thelieutenantwasdownatthecove,whistlingfortheboattocomeandtakehimofftohisship。Andheseemedtobeinaterrifichurry,too,forhewhistledagainalmostdirectly,waitedforamoment,andthensentoutalong,interminable,shrillcallasdistressfultohearasthoughhehadshriekedwithoutdrawingbreath。Freyaceasedplayingsuddenly。 \"Goingonboard,\"saidoldNelson,perturbedbytheevent。\"Whatcouldhavemadehimclearoutsoearly?Queerchap。Devilishlytouchy,too!Ishouldn’twonderifitwasyourconductlastnightthathurthisfeelings?Inoticedyou,Freya。Youaswellaslaughedinhisface,whilehewassufferingagoniesfromneuralgia。 Itisn’tthewaytogetyourselfliked。He’soffendedwithyou。\" Freya’shandsnowreposedpassiveonthekeys;shebowedherfairhead,feelingasuddendiscontent,anervouslassitude,asthoughshehadpassedthroughsomeexhaustingcrisis。OldNelson(orNielsen),lookingaggrieved,wasrevolvingmattersofpolicyinhisbaldhead。 \"Ithinkitwouldberightformetogoonboardjusttoinquire,sometimethismorning,\"hedeclaredfussily。\"Whydon’ttheybringmemymorningtea?Doyouhear,Freya?Youhaveastonishedme,Imustsay。Ididn’tthinkayounggirlcouldbesounfeeling。 Andthelieutenantthinkshimselfafriendofours,too!What? No?Well,hecallshimselfafriend,andthat’ssomethingtoapersoninmyposition。Certainly!Oh,yes,Imustgoonboard。\" \"Mustyou?\"murmuredFreyalistlessly;thenadded,inherthought: \"Poorman!\" CHAPTERV Inrespectofthenextsevenweeks,allthatisnecessarytosayis,first,thatoldNelson(orNielsen)failedinpayinghispoliticcall。TheNeptungunboatofH。M。theKingoftheNetherlands,commandedbyanoutragedandinfuriatedlieutenant,leftthecoveatanunexpectedlyearlyhour。WhenFreya’sfathercamedowntotheshore,afterseeinghispreciouscropoftobaccospreadoutproperlyinthesun,shewasalreadysteamingroundthepoint。OldNelsonregrettedthecircumstanceformanydays。 \"Now,Idon’tknowinwhatdispositionthemanwentaway,\"helamentedtohisharddaughter。Hewasamazedatherhardness。Hewasalmostfrightenedbyherindifference。 Next,itmustberecordedthatthesamedaythegunboatNeptun,steeringeast,passedthebrigBonitobecalmedinsightofCarimata,withherheadtotheeastward,too。Hercaptain,JasperAllen,givinghimselfupconsciouslytoatender,possessivereverieofhisFreya,didnotgetoutofhislongchaironthepooptolookattheNeptunwhichpassedsoclosethatthesmokebelchingoutsuddenlyfromhershortblackfunnelrolledbetweenthemastsoftheBonito,obscuringforamomentthesunlitwhitenessofhersails,consecratedtotheserviceoflove。Jasperdidnoteventurnhisheadforaglance。ButHeemskirk,onthebridge,hadgazedlongandearnestlyatthebrigfromthedistance,grippinghardthebrassrailinfrontofhim,till,thetwoshipsclosing,helostallconfidenceinhimself,andretreatingtothechartroom,pulledthedoortowithacrash。There,hisbrowsknitted,hismouthdrawnononesideinsardonicmeditation,hesatthroughmanystillhours—asortofPrometheusinthebondsofunholydesire,havinghisveryvitalstornbythebeakandclawsofhumiliatedpassion。 Thatspeciesoffowlisnottobeshooedoffaseasilyasachicken。Fooled,cheated,deceived,ledon,outraged,mockedat— beakandclaws!Asinisterbird!ThelieutenanthadnomindtobecomethetalkoftheArchipelago,asthenavalofficerwhohadhadhisfaceslappedbyagirl。Wasitpossiblethatshereallylovedthatrascallytrader?Hetriednottothink,but,worsethanthoughts,definiteimpressionsbesethiminhisretreat。Hesawher—avisionplain,closeto,detailed,plastic,coloured,lightedup—hesawherhangingroundtheneckofthatfellow。Andheshuthiseyes,onlytodiscoverthatthiswasnoremedy。Thenapianobegantoplaynearby,veryplainly;andheputhisfingerstohisearswithnobettereffect。Itwasnottobeborne—notinsolitude。Heboltedoutofthechartroom,andtalkedofindifferentthingssomewhatwildlywiththeofficerofthewatchonthebridge,tothemockingaccompanimentofaghostlypiano。 ThelastthingtoberecordedisthatLieutenantHeemskirkinsteadofpursuinghiscoursetowardsTernate,wherehewasexpected,wentoutofhiswaytocallatMakassar,wherenoonewaslookingforhisarrival。Oncethere,hegavecertainexplanationsandlaidacertainproposalbeforethegovernor,orsomeotherauthority,andobtainedpermissiontodowhathethoughtfitinthesematters。 ThereupontheNeptun,givingupTernatealtogether,steamednorthinviewofthemountainouscoastofCelebes,andthencrossingthebroadstraitstookupherstationonthelowcoastofvirginforests,inviolateandmute,inwatersphosphorescentatnight; deepblueindaytimewithgleaminggreenpatchesoverthesubmergedreefs。FordaystheNeptuncouldbeseenmovingsmoothlyupanddownthesombrefaceoftheshore,orhangingaboutwithawatchfulairnearthesilverybreaksofbroadestuaries,underthegreatluminousskyneversoftened,neverveiled,andfloodingtheearthwiththeeverlastingsunshineofthetropics—thatsunshinewhich,initsunbrokensplendour,oppressesthesoulwithaninexpressiblemelancholymoreintimate,morepenetrating,moreprofoundthanthegreysadnessofthenorthernmists。 ThetradingbrigBonitoappearedglidingroundasombreforest—cladpointoflandonthesilveryestuaryofagreatriver。Thebreathofairthatgavehermotionwouldnothaveflutteredtheflameofatorch。Shestoleoutintotheopenfrombehindaveilofunstirringleaves,mysteriouslysilent,ghostlywhite,andsolemnlystealthyinherimperceptibleprogress;andJasper,hiselbowinthemainrigging,andhisheadleaningagainsthishand,thoughtofFreya。Everythingintheworldremindedhimofher。ThebeautyofthelovedwomanexistsinthebeautiesofNature。Theswellingoutlinesofthehills,thecurvesofacoast,thefreesinuositiesofariverarelesssuavethantheharmoniouslinesofherbody,andwhenshemoves,glidinglightly,thegraceofherprogresssuggeststhepowerofoccultforceswhichrulethefascinatingaspectsofthevisibleworld。 Dependentonthingsasallmenare,Jasperlovedhisvessel—thehouseofhisdreams。HelenttohersomethingofFreya’ssoul。 Herdeckwasthefootholdoftheirlove。Thepossessionofhisbrigappeasedhispassioninasoothingcertitudeofhappinessalreadyconquered。 Thefullmoonwassomewayup,perfectandserene,floatinginairascalmandlimpidastheglanceofFreya’seyes。Therewasnotasoundinthebrig。 \"Heresheshallstand,bymyside,oneveningslikethis,\"hethought,withrapture。 Anditwasatthatmoment,inthispeace,inthisserenity,underthefull,benigngazeofthemoonpropitioustolovers,onaseawithoutawrinkle,underaskywithoutacloud,asifallNaturehadassumeditsmostclementmoodinaspiritofmockery,thatthegunboatNeptun,detachingherselffromthedarkcoastunderwhichshehadbeenlyinginvisible,steamedouttointerceptthetradingbrigBonitostandingouttosea。 Directlythegunboathadbeenmadeoutemergingfromherambush,Schultz,ofthefascinatingvoice,hadgivensignsofstrangeagitation。Allthatday,eversinceleavingtheMalaytownuptheriver,hehadshownahaggardface,goingabouthisdutieslikeamanwithsomethingweighingonhismind。Jasperhadnoticedit,butthemate,turningaway,asthoughhehadnotlikedbeinglookedat,hadmutteredshamefacedlyofaheadacheandatouchoffever。 Hemusthavehaditverybadlywhen,dodgingbehindhiscaptainhewonderedaloud:\"Whatcanthatfellowwantwithus?\"……Anakedmanstandinginafreezingblastandtryingnottoshivercouldnothavespokenwithamoreharshlyuncertainintonation。Butitmighthavebeenfever—acoldfit。 \"Hewantstomakehimselfdisagreeable,simply,\"saidJasper,withperfectgoodhumour。\"Hehastrieditonmebefore。However,weshallsoonsee。\" And,indeed,beforelongthetwovesselslayabreastwithineasyhail。Thebrig,withherfinelinesandherwhitesails,lookedvaporousandsylph—likeinthemoonlight。Thegunboat,short,squat,withherstumpydarksparsnakedlikedeadtrees,raisedagainsttheluminousskyofthatresplendentnight,threwaheavyshadowonthelaneofwaterbetweenthetwoships。 Freyahauntedthembothlikeanubiquitousspirit,andasifsheweretheonlywomanintheworld。Jasperrememberedherearnestrecommendationtobeguardedandcautiousinallhisactsandwordswhilehewasawayfromher。Inthisquiteunforeseenencounterhefeltonhiseartheverybreathofthesehurriedadmonitionscustomarytothelastmomentoftheirpartings,heardthehalf— jestingfinalwhisperofthe\"Mind,kid,I’dneverforgiveyou!\" withaquickpressureonhisarm,whichheansweredbyaquiet,confidentsmile。Heemskirkwashauntedinanotherfashion。Therewerenowhispersinit;itwasmorelikevisions。Hesawthatgirlhangingroundtheneckofalowvagabond—thatvagabond,thevagabondwhohadjustansweredhishail。Hesawherstealingbare— footedacrossaverandahwithgreat,clear,wide—open,eagereyestolookatabrig—thatbrig。Ifshehadshrieked,scolded,callednames!……Butshehadsimplytriumphedoverhim。Thatwasall。Ledon(hefirmlybelievedit),fooled,deceived,outraged,struck,mockedat……Beakandclaws!Thetwomen,sodifferentlyhauntedbyFreyaoftheSevenIsles,werenotequallymatched。 Intheintensestillness,asofsleep,whichhadfallenuponthetwovessels,inaworldthatitselfseemedbutadelicatedream,aboatpulledbyJavanesesailorscrossingthedarklaneofwatercamealongsidethebrig。Thewhitewarrantofficerinher,perhapsthegunner,climbedaboard。Hewasashortman,witharotundstomachandawheezyvoice。Hisimmovablefatfacelookedlifelessinthemoonlight,andhewalkedwithhisthickarmshangingawayfromhisbodyasthoughhehadbeenstuffed。Hiscunninglittleeyesglitteredlikebitsofmica。HeconveyedtoJasper,inbrokenEnglish,arequesttocomeonboardtheNeptun。 Jasperhadnotexpectedanythingsounusual。Butafterashortreflectionhedecidedtoshowneitherannoyance,norevensurprise。 Theriverfromwhichhehadcomehadbeenpoliticallydisturbedforacoupleofyears,andhewasawarethathisvisitstherewerelookeduponwithsomesuspicion。Buthedidnotmindmuchthedispleasureoftheauthorities,soterrifyingtooldNelson。Hepreparedtoleavethebrig,andSchultzfollowedhimtotherailasiftosaysomething,butintheendstoodbyinsilence。Jaspergettingovertheside,noticedhisghastlyface。Theeyesofthemanwhohadfoundsalvationinthebrigfromtheeffectsofhispeculiarpsychologylookedathimwithadumb,beseechingexpression。 \"What’sthematter?\"Jasperasked。 \"Iwonderhowthiswillend?\"saidheofthebeautifulvoice,whichhadevenfascinatedthesteadyFreyaherself。Butwherewasitscharmingtimbrenow?Thesewordshadsoundedlikearaven’scroak。 \"Youareill,\"saidJasperpositively。 \"IwishIweredead!\"wasthestartlingstatementutteredbySchultztalkingtohimselfintheextremityofsomemysterioustrouble。Jaspergavehimakeenglance,butthiswasnotthetimetoinvestigatethemorbidoutbreakofafeverishman。Hedidnotlookasthoughhewereactuallydelirious,andthatforthemomentmustsuffice。Schultzmadeadartforward。 \"Thatfellowmeansharm!\"hesaiddesperately。\"Hemeansharmtoyou,CaptainAllen。Ifeelit,andI—\" Hechokedwithinexplicableemotion。 \"Allright,Schultz。Iwon’tgivehimanopening。\"Jaspercuthimshortandswunghimselfintotheboat。 OnboardtheNeptunHeemskirk,standingstraddle—legsinthefloodofmoonlight,hisinkyshadowfallingrightacrossthequarter— deck,madenosignathisapproach,butsecretlyhefeltsomethingliketheheaveoftheseainhischestatthesightofthatman。 Jasperwaitedbeforehiminsilence。 Broughtfacetofaceindirectpersonalcontact,theyfellatonceintothemanneroftheircasualmeetingsinoldNelson’sbungalow。 Theyignoredeachother’sexistence—Heemskirkmoodily;Jasper,withaperfectlycolourlessquietness。 \"What’sgoingoninthatriveryou’vejustcomeoutof?\"askedthelieutenantstraightaway。 \"Iknownothingofthetroubles,ifyoumeanthat,\"Jasperanswered。\"I’velandedtherehalfacargoofrice,forwhichIgotnothinginexchange,andwentaway。There’snotradetherenow,buttheywouldhavebeenstarvinginanotherweek—ifIhadn’tturnedup。\" \"Meddling!Englishmeddling!Andsupposetherascalsdon’tdeserveanythingbetterthantostarve,eh?\" \"Therearewomenandchildrenthere,youknow,\"observedJasper,inhiseventone。 \"Oh,yes!WhenanEnglishmantalksofwomenandchildren,youmaybesurethere’ssomethingfishyaboutthebusiness。Yourdoingswillhavetobeinvestigated。\" Theyspokeinturn,asthoughtheyhadbeendisembodiedspirits— merevoicesinemptyair;fortheylookedateachotherasiftherehadbeennothingthere,or,atmost,withasmuchrecognitionasonegivestoaninanimateobject,andnomore。Butnowasilencefell。Heemskirkhadthought,allatonce:\"Shewilltellhimallaboutit。Shewilltellhimwhileshehangsroundhisnecklaughing。\"AndthesuddendesiretoannihilateJasperonthespotalmostdeprivedhimofhissensesbyitsvehemence。Helostthepowerofspeech,ofvision。Foramomentheabsolutelycouldn’tseeJasper。Butheheardhiminquiring,asoftheworldatlarge: \"AmI,then,toconcludethatthebrigisdetained?\" Heemskirkmadearecoveryinaflushofmalignantsatisfaction。 \"Sheis。IamgoingtotakehertoMakassarintow。\" \"Thecourtswillhavetodecideonthelegalityofthis,\"saidJasper,awarethatthematterwasbecomingserious,butwithassumedindifference。 \"Oh,yes,thecourts!Certainly。Andastoyou,Ishallkeepyouonboardhere。\" Jasper’sdismayatbeingpartedfromhisshipwasbetrayedbyastonyimmobility。Itlastedbutaninstant。Thenheturnedawayandhailedthebrig。Mr。Schultzanswered: \"Yes,sir。\" \"Getreadytoreceiveatow—ropefromthegunboat!WearegoingtobetakentoMakassar。\" \"GoodGod!What’sthatfor,sir?\"cameananxiouscryfaintly。 \"Kindness,Isuppose,\"Jasper,ironical,shoutedwithgreatdeliberation。\"Wemighthavebeen—becalmedinhere—fordays。 Andhospitality。Iaminvitedtostay—onboardhere。\" Theanswertothisinformationwasaloudejaculationofdistress。 Jasperthoughtanxiously:\"Why,thefellow’snerve’sgonetopieces;\"andwithanawkwarduneasinessofanewsort,lookedintentlyatthebrig。Thethoughtthathewaspartedfromher— forthefirsttimesincetheycametogether—shooktheapparentlycarelessfortitudeofhischaractertoitsveryfoundations,whichweredeep。AllthattimeneitherHeemskirknorevenhisinkyshadowhadstirredintheleast。 \"Iamgoingtosendaboat’screwandanofficeronboardyourvessel,\"heannouncedtonooneinparticular。Jasper,tearinghimselfawayfromtheabsorbedcontemplationofthebrig,turnedround,and,withoutpassion,almostwithoutexpressioninhisvoice,enteredhisprotestagainstthewholeoftheproceedings。 Whathewasthinkingofwasthedelay。Hecountedthedays。 Makassarwasactuallyonhisway;andtobetowedtherereallysavedtime。Ontheotherhand,therewouldbesomevexingformalitiestogothrough。Butthethingwastooabsurd。\"Thebeetle’sgonemad,\"hethought。\"I’llbereleasedatonce。Andifnot,Mesmanmustenterintoabondforme。\"MesmanwasaDutchmerchantwithwhomJasperhadhadmanydealings,aconsiderablepersoninMakassar。 \"Youprotest?H’m!\"Heemskirkmuttered,andforalittlelongerremainedmotionless,hislegsplantedwellapart,andhisheadloweredasthoughhewerestudyinghisowncomical,deeply—splitshadow。Thenhemadeasigntotherotundgunner,whohadkeptathand,motionless,likeavilely—stuffedspecimenofafatman,withalifelessfaceandglitteringlittleeyes。Thefellowapproached,andstoodatattention。 \"Youwillboardthebrigwithaboat’screw!\" \"Ya,mynherr!\" \"Youwillhaveoneofyourmentosteerherallthetime,\"wentonHeemskirk,givinghisordersinEnglish,apparentlyforJasper’sedification。\"Youhear?\" \"Ya,mynherr。\" \"Youwillremainondeckandinchargeallthetime。\" \"Ya,mynherr。\" Jasperfeltasif,togetherwiththecommandofthebrig,hisveryheartwerebeingtakenoutofhisbreast。Heemskirkasked,withachangeoftone: \"Whatweaponshaveyouonboard?\" AtonetimealltheshipstradingintheChinaSeashadalicencetocarryacertainquantityoffirearmsforpurposesofdefence。 Jasperanswered: \"Eighteenrifleswiththeirbayonets,whichwereonboardwhenI boughther,fouryearsago。Theyhavebeendeclared。\" \"Wherearetheykept?\" \"Fore—cabin。Matehasthekey。\" \"Youwilltakepossessionofthem,\"saidHeemskirktothegunner。 \"Ya,mynherr。\" \"Whatisthisfor?Whatdoyoumeantoimply?\"criedoutJasper; thenbithislip。\"It’smonstrous!\"hemuttered。 Heemskirkraisedforamomentaheavy,asifsuffering,glance。 \"Youmaygo,\"hesaidtohisgunner。Thefatmansaluted,anddeparted。 Duringthenextthirtyhoursthesteadytowingwasinterruptedonce。Atasignalfromthebrig,madebywavingaflagontheforecastle,thegunboatwasstopped。Thebadly—stuffedspecimenofawarrant—officer,gettingintohisboat,arrivedonboardtheNeptunandhurriedstraightintohiscommander’scabin,hisexcitementatsomethinghehadtocommunicatebeingbetrayedbytheblinkingofhissmalleyes。Thesetwowereclosetedtogetherforsometime,whileJasperatthetaffrailtriedtomakeoutifanythingoutofthecommonhadoccurredonboardthebrig。 Butnothingseemedtobeamissonboard。However,hekeptalook— outforthegunner;and,thoughhehadavoidedspeakingtoanybodysincehehadfinishedwithHeemskirk,hestoppedthatmanwhenhecameoutondeckagaintoaskhowhismatewas。 \"HewasfeelingnotverywellwhenIleft,\"heexplained。 Thefatwarrant—officer,holdinghimselfasthoughtheeffortofcarryinghisbigstomachinfrontofhimdemandedarigidcarriage,understoodwithdifficulty。Notasingleoneofhisfeaturesshowedtheslightestanimation,buthislittleeyesblinkedrapidlyatlast。 \"Oh,ya!Themate。Ya,ya!Heisverywell。But,meinGott,heisoneveryfunnyman!\" Jaspercouldgetnoexplanationofthatremark,becausetheDutchmangotintotheboathurriedly,andwentbackonboardthebrig。Butheconsoledhimselfwiththethoughtthatverysoonallthisunpleasantandratherabsurdexperiencewouldbeover。TheroadsteadofMakassarwasinsightalready。Heemskirkpassedbyhimgoingonthebridge。ForthefirsttimethelieutenantlookedatJasperwithmarkedintention;andthestrangerollofhiseyeswassofunny—ithadbeenlongagreedbyJasperandFreyathatthelieutenantwasfunny—soecstaticallygratified,asthoughhewererollingatastymorselonhistongue,thatJaspercouldnothelpabroadsmile。Andthenheturnedtohisbrigagain。 Toseeher,hischerishedpossession,animatedbysomethingofhisFreya’ssoul,theonlyfootholdoftwolivesonthewideearth,thesecurityofhispassion,thecompanionofadventure,thepowertosnatchthecalm,adorableFreyatohisbreast,andcarryherofftotheendoftheworld;toseethisbeautifulthingembodyingworthilyhisprideandhislove,toseehercaptiveattheendofatow—ropewasnotindeedapleasantexperience。Ithadsomethingnightmarishinit,as,forinstance,thedreamofawildsea—birdloadedwithchains。 Yetwhatelsecouldhewanttolookat?Herbeautywouldsometimescometohisheartwiththeforceofaspell,sothathewouldforgetwherehewas。And,besides,thatsenseofsuperioritywhichthecertitudeofbeinglovedgivestoayoungman,thatillusionofbeingsetabovetheFatesbyatenderlookinawoman’seyes,helpedhim,thefirstshockover,togothroughtheseexperienceswithanamusedself—confidence。ForwhatevilcouldtouchtheelectofFreya? Itwasnowafternoon,thesunbeingbehindthetwovesselsastheyheadedfortheharbour。\"Thebeetle’slittlejokeshallsoonbeover,\"thoughtJasper,withoutanygreatanimosity。Asaseamanwellacquaintedwiththatpartoftheworld,acasualglancewasenoughtotellhimwhatwasbeingdone。\"Hallo,\"hethought,\"heisgoingthroughSpermondePassage。WeshallberoundingTamissareefpresently。\"Andagainhereturnedtothecontemplationofhisbrig,thatmain—stayofhismaterialandemotionalexistencewhichwouldbesooninhishandsagain。Onasea,calmlikeamillpond,aheavysmoothrippleundulatedandstreamedawayfromherbows,forthepowerfulNeptunwastowingatgreatspeed,asifforawager。TheDutchgunnerappearedontheforecastleoftheBonito,andwithhimacoupleofmen。Theystoodlookingatthecoast,andJasperlosthimselfinaloverliketrance。 Thedeep—tonedblastofthegunboat’ssteam—whistlemadehimshudderbyitsunexpectedness。Slowlyhelookedabout。Swiftaslightningheleapedfromwherehestood,boundingforwardalongthedeck。 \"YouwillbeonTamissareef!\"heyelled。 HighuponthebridgeHeemskirklookedbackoverhisshoulderheavily;twoseamenwerespinningthewheelround,andtheNeptunwasalreadyswingingrapidlyawayfromtheedgeofthepalewateroverthedanger。Ha!justintime。Jasperturnedaboutinstantlytowatchhisbrig;and,evenbeforeherealisedthat—inobedience,itappears,toHeemskirk’sordersgivenbeforehandtothegunner—thetow—ropehadbeenletgoattheblastofthewhistle,beforehehadtimetocryoutortomovealimb,hesawhercastadriftandshootingacrossthegunboat’ssternwiththeimpetusofherspeed。Hefollowedherfine,glidingformwitheyesgrowingbigwithincredulity,wildwithhorror。Thecriesonboardofhercametohimonlyasadreadfulandconfusedmurmurthroughtheloudthumpingofbloodinhisears,whilesheheldon。Sheranuprightinaterribledisplayofhergiftofspeed,withanincomparableairoflifeandgrace。Sheranontillthesmoothlevelofwaterinfrontofherbowsseemedtosinkdownsuddenlyasifsuckedaway;and,withastrange,violenttremorofhermast— headsshestopped,inclinedherloftysparsalittle,andlaystill。Shelaystillonthereef,whiletheNeptun,fetchingawidecircle,continuedatfullspeedupSpermondePassage,headingforthetown。Shelaystill,perfectlystill,withsomethingill— omenedandunnaturalinherattitude。Inaninstantthesubtlemelancholyofthingstouchedbydecayhadfallenonherinthesunshine;shewasbutaspeckinthebrilliantemptinessofspace,alreadylonely,alreadydesolate。 \"Holdhim!\"yelledavoicefromthebridge。 Jasperhadstartedtoruntohisbrigwithaheadlongimpulse,asamandashesforwardtopullawaywithhishandsaliving,breathing,lovedcreaturefromthebrinkofdestruction。\"Holdhim!Sticktohim!\"vociferatedthelieutenantatthetopofthebridge—ladder,whileJasperstruggledmadlywithoutaword,onlyhisheademergingfromtheheavingcrowdoftheNeptun’sseamen,whohadflungthemselvesuponhimobediently。\"Hold—Iwouldnothavethatfellowdrownhimselfforanythingnow!\" Jasperceasedstruggling。 Onebyonetheyletgoofhim;theyfellbackgraduallyfartherandfarther,inattentivesilence,leavinghimstandingunsupportedinawidened,clearspace,asiftogivehimplentyofroomtofallafterthestruggle。Hedidnotevenswayperceptibly。Halfanhourlater,whentheNeptunanchoredinfrontofthetown,hehadnotstirredyet,hadmovedneitherheadnorlimbasmuchasahair’sbreadth。Directlytherumbleofthegunboat’scablehadceased,Heemskirkcamedownheavilyfromthebridge。 \"Callasampan\"hesaid,inagloomytone,ashepassedthesentryatthegangway,andthenmovedonslowlytowardsthespotwhereJasper,theobjectofmanyawedglances,stoodlookingatthedeck,asiflostinabrownstudy。Heemskirkcameupclose,andstaredathimthoughtfully,withhisfingersoverhislips。Herehewas,thefavouredvagabond,theonlymantowhomthatinfernalgirlwaslikelytotellthestory。Buthewouldnotfinditfunny。ThestoryhowLieutenantHeemskirk—No,hewouldnotlaughatit。Helookedasthoughhewouldneverlaughatanythinginhislife。 SuddenlyJasperlookedup。Hiseyes,withoutanyotherexpressionbutbewilderment,metthoseofHeemskirk,observantandsombre。 \"Goneonthereef!\"hesaid,inalow,astoundedtone。\"On—the— reef!\"herepeatedstilllower,andasifattendinginwardlytothebirthofsomeawfulandamazingsensation。 \"Ontheverytopofhigh—water,springtides,\"Heemskirkstruckin,withavindictive,exultingviolencewhichflashedandexpired。Hepaused,asifweary,fixinguponJasperhisarroganteyes,overwhichsecretdisenchantment,theunavoidableshadowofallpassion,seemedtopasslikeasaddeningcloud。\"Ontheverytop,\"herepeated,rousinghimselfinfiercereactiontosnatchhislacedcapoffhisheadwithahorizontal,derisiveflourishtowardsthegangway。\"Andnowyoumaygoashoretothecourts,youdamnedEnglishman!\"hesaid。 CHAPTERVI TheaffairofthebrigBonitowasboundtocauseasensationinMakassar,theprettiest,andperhapsthecleanest—lookingofallthetownsintheIslands;whichhoweverknowsfewoccasionsforexcitement。The\"front,\"withitsspecialpopulation,wassoonawarethatsomethinghadhappened。Asteamertowingasailingvesselhadbeenobservedfarouttoseaforsometime,andwhenthesteamercameinalone,leavingtheotheroutside,attentionwasaroused。Whywasthat?Hermastsonlycouldbeseen—withfurledsails—remaininginthesameplacetothesouthward。AndsoontherumourranallalongthecrowdedseashorestreetthattherewasashiponTamissareef。Thatcrowdinterpretedtheappearancecorrectly。Itscausewasbeyondtheirpenetration,forwhocouldassociateagirlninehundredmilesawaywiththestrandingofashiponTamissareef,orlookfortheremotefiliationofthateventinthepsychologyofatleastthreepeople,evenifoneofthem,LieutenantHeemskirk,wasatthatverymomentpassingamongstthemonhiswaytomakehisverbalreport? No;themindsonthe\"front\"werenotcompetentforthatsortofinvestigation,butmanyhandsthere—brownhands,yellowhands,whitehands—wereraisedtoshadetheeyesgazingouttosea。Therumourspreadquickly。Chineseshopkeeperscametotheirdoors,morethanonewhitemerchant,even,rosefromhisdesktogotothewindow。Afterall,ashiponTamissawasnotaneverydayoccurrence。Andpresentlytherumourtookamoredefiniteshape。 AnEnglishtrader—detainedonsuspicionatseabytheNeptun— Heemskirkwastowinghimintotestacase,andbysomestrangeaccident— Lateronthenamecameout。\"TheBonito—what!Impossible!Yes—yes,theBonito。Look!Youcanseefromhere;onlytwomasts。 It’sabrig。Didn’tthinkthatmanwouldeverlethimselfbecaught。Heemskirk’sprettysmart,too。Theysayshe’sfittedoutinhercabinlikeagentleman’syacht。ThatAllenisasortofgentlemantoo。Anextravagantbeggar。\" AyoungmanenteredsmartlyMessrs。MesmanBrothers’officeonthe\"front,\"bubblingwithsomefurtherinformation。 \"Oh,yes;that’stheBonitoforcertain!Butyoudon’tknowthestoryI’veheardjustnow。Thefellowmusthavebeenfeedingthatriverwithfirearmsforthelastyearortwo。Well,itseemshehasgrownsorecklessfromlongimpunitythathehasactuallydaredtoselltheveryship’sriflesthistime。It’safact。Theriflesarenotonboard。Whatimpudence!Only,hedidn’tknowthattherewasoneofourwarshipsonthecoast。ButthoseEnglishmenaresoimpudentthatperhapshethoughtthatnothingwouldbedonetohimforit。Ourcourtsdoletoffthesefellowstoooften,onsomemiserableexcuseorother。But,atanyrate,there’sanendofthefamousBonito。Ihavejustheardintheharbour—officethatshemusthavegoneonattheverytopofhigh—water;andsheisinballast,too。Nohumanpower,theythink,canmoveherfromwheresheis。Ionlyhopeitisso。ItwouldbefinetohavethenotoriousBonitostuckupthereasawarningtoothers。\" Mr。J。Mesman,acolonial—bornDutchman,akind,paternaloldfellow,withaclean—shaven,quiet,handsomefade,andaheadoffineiron—greyhaircurlingalittleonhiscollar,didnotsayawordindefenceofJasperandtheBonito。Herosefromhisarm— chairsuddenly。Hisfacewasvisiblytroubled。Ithadsohappenedthatonce,fromabusinesstalkofwaysandmeans,islandtrade,moneymatters,andsoon,JasperhadbeenledtoopenhimselftohimonthesubjectofFreya;andtheexcellentman,whohadknownoldNelsonyearsbeforeandevenrememberedsomethingofFreya,wasmuchastonishedandamusedbytheunfoldingofthetale。 \"Well,well,well!Nelson!Yes;ofcourse。Averyhonestsortofman。Andalittlechildwithveryfairhair。Oh,yes!Ihaveadistinctrecollection。Andsoshehasgrownintosuchafinegirl,soverydetermined,sovery—\"Andhelaughedalmostboisterously。\"Mind,whenyouhavehappilyelopedwithyourfuturewife,CaptainAllen,youmustcomealongthisway,andweshallwelcomeherhere。Alittlefair—headedchild!Iremember。I remember。\" Itwasthatknowledgewhichhadbroughttroubletohisfaceatthefirstnewsofthewreck。Hetookuphishat。 \"Whereareyougoing,Mr。Mesman?\" \"IamgoingtolookforAllen。Ithinkhemustbeashore。Doesanybodyknow?\" Nooneofthosepresentknew。AndMr。Mesmanwentoutonthe\"front\"tomakeinquiries。 Theotherpartofthetown,thepartnearthechurchandthefort,gotitsinformationinanotherway。ThefirstthingdisclosedtoitwasJasperhimself,walkingrapidly,asthoughhewerepursued。 And,asamatteroffact,aChinaman,obviouslyasampanman,wasfollowinghimatthesameheadlongpace。Suddenly,whilepassingOrangeHouse,Jasperswervedandwentin,or,rather,rushedin,startlingGomez,thehotelclerk,verymuch。ButaChinamanbeginningtomakeanunseemlynoiseatthedoorclaimedtheimmediateattentionofGomez。Hisgrievancewasthatthewhitemanwhomhehadbroughtonshorefromthegunboathadnotpaidhimhisboat—fare。Hehadpursuedhimsofar,askingforitalltheway。 Butthewhitemanhadtakennonoticewhateverofhisjustclaim。 Gomezsatisfiedthecooliewithafewcoppers,andthenwenttolookforJasper,whomheknewverywell。Hefoundhimstandingstifflybyalittleroundtable。Attheotherendoftheverandahafewmensittingtherehadstoppedtalking,andwerelookingathiminsilence。Twobilliard—players,withcuesintheirhands,hadcometothedoorofthebilliard—roomandstared,too。 OnGomezcominguptohim,Jasperraisedonehandtopointathisownthroat。Gomeznotedthesomewhatsoiledstateofhiswhiteclothes,thentookonelookathisface,andfledawaytoorderthedrinkforwhichJasperseemedtobeasking。 Wherehewantedtogo—orwhatpurpose—wherehe,perhaps,onlyimaginedhimselftobegoing,whenasuddenimpulseorthesightofafamiliarplacehadmadehimturnintoOrangeHouse—itisimpossibletosay。Hewassteadyinghimselflightlywiththetipsofhisfingersonthelittletable。Therewereonthatverandahtwomenwhomheknewwellpersonally,buthisgazeroamingincessantlyasthoughhewerelookingforawayofescape,passedandrepassedoverthemwithoutasignofrecognition。They,ontheirside,lookingathim,doubtedtheevidenceoftheirowneyes。 Itwasnotthathisfacewasdistorted。Onthecontrary,itwasstill,itwasset。Butitsexpression,somehow,wasunrecognisable。Canthatbehim?theywonderedwithawe。 Inhisheadtherewasawildchaosofclearthoughts。Perfectlyclear。Itwasthisclearnesswhichwassoterribleinconjunctionwiththeutterinabilitytolayholdofanysingleoneofthemall。 Hewassayingtohimself,ortothem:\"Steady,steady。\"AChinaboyappearedbeforehimwithaglassonatray。Hepouredthedrinkdownhisthroat,andrushedout。Hisdisappearanceremovedthespellofwonderfromthebeholders。Oneofthemenjumpedupandmovedquicklytothatsideoftheverandahfromwhichalmostthewholeoftheroadsteadcouldbeseen。AttheverymomentwhenJasper,issuingfromthedooroftheOrangeHouse,waspassingunderhiminthestreetbelow,hecriedtotheothersexcitedly: \"ThatwasAllenrightenough!Butwhereishisbrig?\" Jasperheardthesewordswithextraordinaryloudness。Theheavensrangwiththem,asifcallinghimtoaccount;forthoseweretheverywordsFreyawouldhavetouse。Itwasanannihilatingquestion;itstruckhisconsciousnesslikeathunderboltandbroughtasuddennightuponthechaosofhisthoughtsevenashewalked。Hedidnotcheckhispace。Hewentoninthedarknessforanotherthreestrides,andthenfell。 ThegoodMesmanhadtopushonasfarasthehospitalbeforehefoundhim。Thedoctortheretalkedofaslightheatstroke。 Nothingverymuch。Outinthreedays……Itmustbeadmittedthatthedoctorwasright。Inthreedays,JasperAllencameoutofthehospitalandbecamevisibletothetown—veryvisibleindeed— andremainedsoforquitealongtime;longenoughtobecomealmostoneofthesightsoftheplace;longenoughtobecomedisregardedatlast;longenoughforthetaleofhishauntingvisibilitytoberememberedintheislandstothisday。 Thetalkonthe\"front\"andJasper’sappearanceintheOrangeHousestandatthebeginningofthefamousBonitocase,andgiveaviewofitstwoaspects—thepracticalandthepsychological。Thecaseforthecourtsandthecaseforcompassion;thatlastterriblyevidentandyetobscure。 Ithas,youmustunderstand,remainedobscureevenforthatfriendofminewhowrotemethelettermentionedintheveryfirstlinesofthisnarrative。HewasoneofthoseinMr。Mesman’soffice,andaccompaniedthatgentlemaninhissearchforJasper。Hisletterdescribedtomethetwoaspectsandsomeoftheepisodesofthecase。Heemskirk’sattitudewasthatofdeepthankfulnessfornothavinglosthisownship,andthatwasall。HazeoverthelandwashisexplanationofhavinggotsoclosetoTamissareef。Hesavedhisship,andfortheresthedidnotcare。Astothefatgunner,hedeposedsimplythathethoughtatthetimethathewasactingforthebestbylettinggothetow—rope,butadmittedthathewasgreatlyconfusedbythesuddennessoftheemergency。 Asamatteroffact,hehadactedonverypreciseinstructionsfromHeemskirk,towhomthroughseveralyears’servicetogetherintheEasthehadbecomeasortofdevotedhenchman。WhatwasmostamazinginthedetentionoftheBonitowashisstoryhow,proceedingtotakepossessionofthefirearmsasordered,hediscoveredthattherewerenofirearmsonboard。Allhefoundinthefore—cabinwasanemptyrackforthepropernumberofeighteenrifles,butoftheriflesthemselvesneverasingleoneanywhereintheship。Themateofthebrig,wholookedratherillandbehavedexcitedly,asthoughhewereperhapsalunatic,wantedhimtobelievethatCaptainAllenknewnothingofthis;thatitwashe,themate,whohadrecentlysoldtheseriflesinthedeadofnighttoacertainpersonuptheriver。Inproofofthisstoryheproducedabagofsilverdollarsandpresseditonhis,thegunner’s,acceptance。Then,suddenlyflingingitdownonthedeck,hebeathisownheadwithbothhisfistsandstartedheapingshockingcursesuponhisownsoulforanungratefulwretchnotfittolive。 Allthisthegunnerreportedatoncetohiscommandingofficer。 WhatHeemskirkintendedbytakinguponhimselftodetaintheBonitoitisdifficulttosay,exceptthathemeanttobringsometroubleintothelifeofthemanfavouredbyFreya。HehadbeenlookingatJasperwithadesiretostrikethatmanofkissesandembracestotheearth。Thequestionwas:Howcouldhedoitwithoutgivinghimselfaway?Butthereportofthegunnercreatedaseriouscaseenough。YetAllenhadfriends—andwhocouldtellwhetherhewouldn’tsomehowsucceedinwrigglingoutofit?Theideaofsimplytowingthebrigsomuchcompromisedontothereefcametohimwhilehewaslisteningtothefatgunnerinhiscabin。Therewasbutlittleriskofbeingdisapprovednow。Anditshouldbemadetoappearanaccident。 Goingoutondeckhehadgloateduponhisunconsciousvictimwithsuchasinisterrollofhiseyes,suchaqueerlypursedmouth,thatJaspercouldnothelpsmiling。Andthelieutenanthadgoneonthebridge,sayingtohimself: \"Youwait!Ishallspoilthetasteofthosesweetkissesforyou。 WhenyouhearofLieutenantHeemskirkinthefuturethatnamewon’tbringasmileonyourlips,Iswear。Youaredeliveredintomyhands。\" Andthispossibilityhadcomeaboutwithoutanyplanning,onecouldalmostsaynaturally,asifeventshadmysteriouslyshapedthemselvestofitthepurposesofadarkpassion。ThemostastuteschemingcouldnothaveservedHeemskirkbetter。Itwasgiventohimtotasteatranscendental,anincredibleperfectionofvengeance;tostrikeadeadlyblowintothathatedperson’sheart,andtowatchhimafterwardswalkingaboutwiththedaggerinhisbreast。 ForthatiswhatthestateofJasperamountedto。Hemoved,acted,weary—eyed,keen—faced,lankandrestless,withbrusquemovementsandfiercegestures;hetalkedincessantlyinafrenziedandfatiguedvoice,butwithinhimselfheknewthatnothingwouldevergivehimbackthebrig,justasnothingcanhealapiercedheart。 Hissoul,keptquietinthestressoflovebytheunflinchingFreya’sinfluence,waslikeastillbutoverwoundstring。Theshockhadstarteditvibrating,andthestringhadsnapped。Hehadwaitedfortwoyearsinaperfectlyintoxicatedconfidenceforadaythatnowwouldnevercometoamandisarmedforlifebythelossofthebrig,and,itseemedtohim,madeunfitforlovetowhichhehadnofootholdtooffer。 Dayafterdayhewouldtraversethelengthofthetown,followthecoast,and,reachingthepointoflandoppositethatpartofthereefonwhichhisbriglaystranded,looksteadilyacrossthewateratherbelovedform,oncethehomeofanexultinghope,andnow,inherinclined,desolatedimmobility,toweringabovethelonelysea— horizon,asymbolofdespair。 Thecrewhadleftherinduecourseinherownboatswhichdirectlytheyreachedthetownweresequestratedbytheharbourauthorities。 Thevessel,too,wassequestratedpendingproceedings;butthesesameauthoritiesdidnottakethetroubletosetaguardonboard。 For,indeed,whatcouldmoveherfromthere?Nothing,unlessamiracle;nothing,unlessJasper’seyes,fastenedonhertenselyforhourstogether,asthoughhehopedbythemerepowerofvisiontodrawhertohisbreast。 Allthisstory,readinmyfriend’sverychattyletter,dismayedmenotalittle。ButitwasreallyappallingtoreadhisrelationofhowSchultz,themate,wentabouteverywhereaffirmingwithdesperatepertinacitythatitwashealonewhohadsoldtherifles。 \"Istolethem,\"heprotested。Ofcourse,noonewouldbelievehim。 Myfriendhimselfdidnotbelievehim,thoughhe,ofcourse,admiredthisself—sacrifice。Butagoodmanypeoplethoughtitwasgoingtoofartomakeoneselfoutathiefforthesakeofafriend。 Only,itwassuchanobviouslie,too,thatitdidnotmatter,perhaps。 I,who,inviewofSchultz’spsychology,knewhowtruethatmustbe,admitthatIwasappalled。Sothiswashowaperfidiousdestinytookadvantageofagenerousimpulse!AndIfeltasthoughIwereanaccompliceinthisperfidy,sinceIdidtoacertainextentencourageJasper。YetIhadwarnedhimaswell。 \"Themanseemedtohavegonecrazyonthispoint,\"wrotemyfriend。 \"HewenttoMesmanwithhisstory。Hesaysthatsomerascallywhitemanlivingamongstthenativesupthatrivermadehimdrunkwithsomeginoneevening,andthenjeeredathimforneverhavinganymoney。Thenhe,protestingtousthathewasanhonestmanandmustbebelieved,describedhimselfasbeingathiefwheneverhetookadroptoomuch,andtoldusthathewentonboardandpassedtheriflesonebyonewithouttheslightestcompunctiontoacanoewhichcamealongsidethatnight,receivingtendollarsapieceforthem。 \"Nextdayhewasillwithshameandgrief,buthadnotthecouragetoconfesshislapsetohisbenefactor。Whenthegunboatstoppedthebrighefeltreadytodiewiththeapprehensionoftheconsequences,andwouldhavediedhappily,ifhecouldhavebeenabletobringtheriflesbackbythesacrificeofhislife。HesaidnothingtoJasper,hopingthatthebrigwouldbereleasedpresently。Whenitturnedoutotherwiseandhiscaptainwasdetainedonboardthegunboat,hewasreadytocommitsuicidefromdespair;onlyhethoughtithisdutytoliveinordertoletthetruthbeknown。’Iamanhonestman!Iamanhonestman!’herepeated,inavoicethatbroughttearstooureyes。’YoumustbelievemewhenItellyouthatIamathief—avile,low,cunning,sneakingthiefassoonasI’vehadaglassortwo。TakemesomewherewhereImaytellthetruthonoath。’ \"WhenwehadatlastconvincedhimthathisstorycouldbeofnousetoJasper—forwhatDutchcourt,havingoncegotholdofanEnglishtrader,wouldacceptsuchanexplanation;and,indeed,how,when,wherecouldonehopetofindproofsofsuchatale?—hemadeasiftotearhishairinhandfuls,but,calmingdown,said: ’Good—bye,then,gentlemen,’andwentoutoftheroomsocrushedthatheseemedhardlyabletoputonefootbeforetheother。Thatverynighthecommittedsuicidebycuttinghisthroatinthehouseofahalf—castewithwhomhehadbeenlodgingsincehecameashorefromthewreck。\" Thatthroat,Ithoughtwithashudder,whichcouldproducethetender,persuasive,manly,butfascinatingvoicewhichhadarousedJasper’sreadycompassionandhadsecuredFreya’ssympathy!Whocouldeverhavesupposedsuchanendinstorefortheimpossible,gentleSchultz,withhisidiosyncrasyofnaivepilfering,soabsurdlystraightforwardthat,eveninthepeoplewhohadsufferedfromit,itarousednothingmorethanasortofamusedexasperation?Hewasreallyimpossible。Hislotevidentlyshouldhavebeenahalf—starved,mysterious,butbynomeanstragicexistenceasamild—eyed,inoffensivebeachcomberonthefringeofnativelife。Thereareoccasionswhentheironyoffate,whichsomepeopleprofesstodiscoverintheworkingoutofourlives,wearstheaspectofcrudeandsavagejesting。 IshookmyheadoverthemanesofSchultz,andwentonwithmyfriend’sletter。Ittoldmehowthebrigonthereef,lootedbythenativesfromthecoastvillages,acquiredgraduallythelamentableaspect,thegreyghastlinessofawreck;whileJasper,fadingdailyintoamereshadowofaman,strodebrusquelyallalongthe\"front\"withhorriblylivelyeyesandafaint,fixedsmileonhislips,tospendthedayonalonelyspitofsandlookingeagerlyather,asthoughhehadexpectedsomeshapeonboardtoriseupandmakesomesortofsigntohimoverthedecayingbulwarks。TheMesmansweretakingcareofhimasfarasitwaspossible。TheBonitocasehadbeenreferredtoBatavia,wherenodoubtitwouldfadeawayinafogofofficialpapers……Itwasheartrendingtoreadallthis。Thatactiveandzealousofficer,LieutenantHeemskirk,hisairofsullen,darkly—painedself—importancenotlightenedbytheapprovalofhisactionconveyedtohimunofficially,hadgoneontotakeuphisstationintheMoluccas…… Then,attheendofthebulky,kindly—meantepistle,dealingwiththeislandnewsofhalfayearatleast,myfriendwrote:\"A coupleofmonthsagooldNelsonturneduphere,arrivingbythemail—boatfromJava。CametoseeMesman,itseems。Arathermysteriousvisit,andextraordinarilyshort,aftercomingallthatway。HestayedjustfourdaysattheOrangeHouse,withapparentlynothinginparticulartodo,andthencaughtthesouth—goingsteamerfortheStraits。IrememberpeoplesayingatonetimethatAllenwasrathersweetonoldNelson’sdaughter,thegirlthatwasbroughtupbyMrs。HarleyandthenwenttolivewithhimattheSevenIslesgroup。SurelyyourememberoldNelson—\" RememberoldNelson!Rather! TheletterwentontoinformmefurtherthatoldNelson,atleast,rememberedme,sincesometimeafterhisflyingvisittoMakassarhehadwrittentotheMesmansaskingformyaddressinLondon。 ThatoldNelson(orNielsen),thenoteofwhosepersonalitywasaprofound,echolessirresponsivenesstoeverythingaroundhim,shouldwishtowrite,orfindanythingtowriteabouttoanybody,wasinitselfacausefornosmallwonder。Andtome,ofallpeople!Iwaitedwithuneasyimpatienceforwhateverdisclosurecouldcomefromthatnaturallybenightedintelligence,butmyimpatiencehadtimetowearoutbeforemyeyesbeheldoldNelson’strembling,painfully—formedhandwriting,senileandchildishatthesametime,onanenvelopebearingapennystampandthepostalmarkoftheNottingHilloffice。Idelayedopeningitinordertopaythetributeofastonishmentduetotheeventbyflingingmyhandsabovemyhead。SohehadcomehometoEngland,tobedefinitelyNelson;orelsewasonhiswayhometoDenmark,wherehewouldrevertforevertohisoriginalNielsen!ButoldNelson(orNielsen)outofthetropicsseemedunthinkable。Andyethewasthere,askingmetocall。 Hisaddresswasataboarding—houseinoneofthoseBayswatersquares,onceofleisure,whichnowadaysarereducedtoearningtheirliving。Somebodyhadrecommendedhimthere。IstartedtocallonhimononeofthoseJanuarydaysinLondon,oneofthosewintrydayscomposedofthefourdevilishelements,cold,wet,mud,andgrime,combinedwithaparticularstickinessofatmospherethatclingslikeanuncleangarmenttoone’sverysoul。YetonapproachinghisabodeIsaw,likeaflickerfarbehindthesoiledveilofthefourelements,thewearisomeandsplendidglitterofablueseawiththeSevenIsletslikeminutespecksswimminginmyeye,thehighredroofofthebungalowcrowningtheverysmallestofthemall。Thisvisualreminiscencewasprofoundlydisturbing。 Iknockedatthedoorwithafalteringhand。 OldNelson(orNielsen)gotupfromthetableatwhichhewassittingwithashabbypocket—bookfullofpapersbeforehim。Hetookoffhisspectaclesbeforeshakinghands。Foramomentneitherofussaidaword;then,noticingmelookingroundsomewhatexpectantly,hemurmuredsomewords,ofwhichIcaughtonly\"daughter\"and\"HongKong,\"casthiseyesdown,andsighed。 Hismoustache,stickingallwaysout,asofyore,wasquitewhitenow。Hisoldcheeksweresoftlyrounded,withsomecolourinthem; strangelyenough,thatsomethingchildlikealwaysnoticeableinthegeneralcontourofhisphysiognomyhadbecomemuchmoremarked。 Likehishandwriting,helookedchildishandsenile。Heshowedhisagemostinhisunintelligentlyfurrowed,anxiousforeheadandinhisround,innocenteyes,whichappearedtomeweakandblinkingandwatery;orwasitthattheywerefulloftears?…… TodiscoveroldNelsonfullyinformeduponanymatterwhateverwasanewexperience。Andafterthefirstawkwardnesshadwornoffhetalkedfreely,with,nowandthen,aquestiontostarthimgoingwheneverhelapsedintosilence,whichhewoulddosuddenly,claspinghishandsonhiswaistcoatinanattitudewhichwouldrecalltometheeastverandah,whereheusedtosittalkingquietlyandpuffingouthischeeksinwhatseemednowold,veryolddays。Hetalkedinareasonablesomewhatanxioustone。 \"No,no。Wedidnotknowanythingforweeks。Outofthewaylikethat,wecouldn’t,ofcourse。NomailservicetotheSevenIsles。 ButonedayIranovertoBankainmybigsailing—boattoseewhethertherewereanyletters,andsawaDutchpaper。Butitlookedonlylikeabitofmarinenews:EnglishbrigBonitogoneashoreoutsideMakassarroads。Thatwasall。Itookthepaperhomewithmeandshowedittoher。’Iwillneverforgivehim!’shecrieswithheroldspirit。’Mydear,’Isaid,’youareasensiblegirl。Thebestmanmayloseaship。Butwhataboutyourhealth?’ Iwasbeginningtobefrightenedatherlooks。ShewouldnotletmetalkevenofgoingtoSingaporebefore。But,really,suchasensiblegirlcouldn’tkeeponobjectingforever。’Dowhatyoulike,papa,’shesays。Ratherajob,that。Hadtocatchasteameratsea,butIgotheroverallright。There,doctors,ofcourse。 Fever。Anaemia。Puthertobed。Twoorthreewomenverykindtoher。Naturallyinourpapersthewholestorycameoutbeforelong。 Shereadsittotheend,lyingonthecouch;thenhandsthenewspaperbacktome,whispers’Heemskirk,’andgoesoffintoafaint。\" Heblinkedatmeforquitealongtime,hiseyesrunningfulloftearsagain。 \"Nextday,\"hebegan,withoutanyemotioninhisvoice,\"shefeltstronger,andwehadalongtalk。Shetoldmeeverything。\" HereoldNelson,withhiseyescastdown,gavemethewholestoryoftheHeemskirkepisodeinFreya’swords;thenwentoninhisratherjerkyutterance,andlookingupinnocently: \"’Mydear,’Isaid,’youhavebehavedinthemainlikeasensiblegirl。’’Ihavebeenhorrid,’shecries,’andheisbreakinghisheartoverthere。’Well,shewastoosensiblenottoseeshewasn’tinastatetotravel。ButIwent。Shetoldmetogo。Shewasbeinglookedafterverywell。Anaemia。Gettingbetter,theysaid。\" Hepaused。 \"Youdidseehim?\"Imurmured。 \"Oh,yes;Ididseehim,\"hestartedagain,talkinginthatreasonablevoiceasthoughhewerearguingapoint。\"Ididseehim。Icameuponhim。Eyessunkaninchintohishead;nothingbutskinonthebonesofhisface,askeletonindirtywhiteclothes。That’swhathelookedlike。HowFreya……Butsheneverdid—notreally。Hewassittingthere,theonlylivethingformilesalongthatcoast,onadrift—logwashedupontheshore。 Theyhadclippedhishairinthehospital,andithadnotgrownagain。Hestared,holdinghischininhishand,andwithnothingontheseabetweenhimandtheskybutthatwreck。WhenIcameuptohimhejustmovedhisheadabit。’Isthatyou,oldman?’sayshe—likethat。 \"IfyouhadseenhimyouwouldhaveunderstoodatoncehowimpossibleitwasforFreyatohaveeverlovedthatman。Well,well。Idon’tsay。Shemighthave—something。Shewaslonely,youknow。Butreallytogoawaywithhim!Never!Madness。Shewastoosensible……Ibegantoreproachhimgently。Andbyandbyheturnsonme。’Writetoyou!Whatabout?Cometoher!Whatwith?IfIhadbeenamanIwouldhavecarriedheroff,butshemadeachild,ahappychild,ofme。TellherthatthedaytheonlythingIhadbelongingtomeintheworldperishedonthisreefI discoveredthatIhadnopoweroverher……Hasshecomeherewithyou?’heshouts,blazingatmesuddenlywithhisholloweyes。I shookmyhead。Comewithme,indeed!Anaemia!’Aha!Yousee? Goaway,then,oldman,andleavemealoneherewiththatghost,’ hesays,jerkinghisheadatthewreckofhisbrig。 \"Mad!Itwasgettingdusk。Ididnotcaretostopanylongerallbymyselfwiththatmaninthatlonelyplace。IwasnotgoingtotellhimofFreya’sillness。Anaemia!Whatwasthegood?Mad! Andwhatsortofhusbandwouldhehavemade,anyhow,forasensiblegirllikeFreya?Why,evenmylittlepropertyIcouldnothaveleftthem。TheDutchauthoritieswouldneverhaveallowedanEnglishmantosettlethere。Itwasnotsoldthen。MymanMahmat,youknow,waslookingafteritforme。LateronIletitgoforatenthofitsvaluetoaDutchhalf—caste。Butnevermind。Itwasnothingtomethen。Yes;Iwentawayfromhim。Icaughtthereturnmail—boat。ItoldeverythingtoFreya。’He’smad,’Isaid; ’and,mydear,theonlythinghelovedwashisbrig。’ \"’Perhaps,’shesaystoherself,lookingstraightaway—hereyeswerenearlyashollowashis—’perhapsitistrue。Yes!Iwouldneverallowhimanypoweroverme。’\" OldNelsonpaused。Isatfascinated,andfeelingalittlecoldinthatroomwithablazingfire。 \"Soyousee,\"hecontinued,\"sheneverreallycaredforhim。Muchtoosensible。ItookherawaytoHongKong。Changeofclimate,theysaid。Oh,thesedoctors!MyGod!Wintertime!Therecametendaysofcoldmistsandwindandrain。Pneumonia。Butlookhere!Wetalkedalottogether。Daysandevenings。Whoelsehadshe?……Shetalkedalottome,myowngirl。Sometimesshewouldlaughalittle。Lookatmeandlaughalittle—\" Ishuddered。Helookedupvaguely,withachildish,puzzledmoodiness。 \"Shewouldsay:’Ididnotreallymeantobeabaddaughtertoyou,papa。’AndIwouldsay:’Ofcourse,mydear。Youcouldnothavemeantit。’Shewouldliequietandthensay:’Iwonder?’ Andsometimes,’I’vebeenreallyacoward,’shewouldtellme。Youknow,sickpeopletheysaythings。Andsoshewouldsaytoo: ’I’vebeenconceited,headstrong,capricious。Isoughtmyowngratification。Iwasselfishorafraid。’……Butsickpeople,youknow,theysayanything。Andonce,afterlyingsilentalmostallday,shesaid:’Yes;perhaps,whenthedaycameIwouldnothavegone。Perhaps!Idon’tknow,’shecried。’Drawthecurtain,papa。Shuttheseaout。Itreproachesmewithmyfolly。’\"Hegaspedandpaused。 \"Soyousee,\"hewentoninamurmur。\"Veryill,veryillindeed。 Pneumonia。Verysudden。\"Hepointedhisfingeratthecarpet,whilethethoughtofthepoorgirl,vanquishedinherstrugglewiththreemen’sabsurdities,andcomingatlasttodoubtherownself,heldmeinaveryanguishofpity。 \"Youseeyourself,\"hebeganagaininadowncastmanner。\"Shecouldnothavereally……Shementionedyouseveraltimes。Goodfriend。Sensibleman。SoIwantedtotellyoumyself—letyouknowthetruth。Afellowlikethat!Howcoulditbe?Shewaslonely。Andperhapsforawhile……Merenothing。TherecouldneverhavebeenaquestionofloveformyFreya—suchasensiblegirl—\" \"Man!\"Icried,risinguponhimwrathfully,\"don’tyouseethatshediedofit?\" Hegotuptoo。\"No!no!\"hestammered,asifangry。\"Thedoctors! Pneumonia。Lowstate。Theinflammationofthe……Theytoldme。 Pneu—\" Hedidnotfinishtheword。Itendedinasob。Heflunghisarmsoutinagestureofdespair,givinguphisghastlypretencewithalow,heartrendingcry: \"AndIthoughtthatshewassosensible!\"