\"Turnthehandsup,\"Icriedthroughthedoor。\"I’llbeondeckdirectly。\"
Iwasgoingouttomaketheacquaintanceofmyship。BeforeIleftthecabinoureyesmet—theeyesoftheonlytwostrangersonboard。Ipointedtotherecessedpartwherethelittlecamp—stoolawaitedhimandlaidmyfingeronmylips。Hemadeagesture—
somewhatvague—alittlemysterious,accompaniedbyafaintsmile,asifofregret。
Thisisnottheplacetoenlargeuponthesensationsofamanwhofeelsforthefirsttimeashipmoveunderhisfeettohisownindependentword。Inmycasetheywerenotunalloyed。Iwasnotwhollyalonewithmycommand;fortherewasthatstrangerinmycabin。Orrather,Iwasnotcompletelyandwhollywithher。Partofmewasabsent。Thatmentalfeelingofbeingintwoplacesatonceaffectedmephysicallyasifthemoodofsecrecyhadpenetratedmyverysoul。Beforeanhourhadelapsedsincetheshiphadbeguntomove,havingoccasiontoaskthemate(hestoodbymyside)totakeacompassbearingofthePagoda,Icaughtmyselfreachinguptohisearinwhispers。IsayIcaughtmyself,butenoughhadescapedtostartletheman。Ican’tdescribeitotherwisethanbysayingthatheshied。Agrave,preoccupiedmanner,asthoughhewereinpossessionofsomeperplexingintelligence,didnotleavehimhenceforth。AlittlelaterImovedawayfromtherailtolookatthecompasswithsuchastealthygaitthatthehelmsmannoticedit—andIcouldnothelpnoticingtheunusualroundnessofhiseyes。Thesearetriflinginstances,thoughit’stonocommander’sadvantagetobesuspectedofludicrouseccentricities。ButIwasalsomoreseriouslyaffected。
Therearetoaseamancertainwords,gestures,thatshouldingivenconditionscomeasnaturally,asinstinctivelyasthewinkingofamenacedeye。Acertainordershouldspringontohislipswithoutthinking;acertainsignshouldgetitselfmade,sotospeak,withoutreflection。Butallunconsciousalertnesshadabandonedme。Ihadtomakeaneffortofwilltorecallmyselfback(fromthecabin)totheconditionsofthemoment。IfeltthatIwasappearinganirresolutecommandertothosepeoplewhowerewatchingmemoreorlesscritically。
And,besides,therewerethescares。Ontheseconddayout,forinstance,comingoffthedeckintheafternoon(Ihadstrawslippersonmybarefeet)Istoppedattheopenpantrydoorandspoketothesteward。Hewasdoingsomethingtherewithhisbacktome。Atthesoundofmyvoicehenearlyjumpedoutofhisskin,asthesayingis,andincidentallybrokeacup。
\"Whatonearth’sthematterwithyou?\"Iasked,astonished。
Hewasextremelyconfused。\"Begyourpardon,sir。Imadesureyouwereinyourcabin。\"
\"YouseeIwasn’t。\"
\"No,sir。IcouldhaveswornIhadheardyoumovingintherenotamomentago。It’smostextraordinary……verysorry,sir。\"
Ipassedonwithaninwardshudder。IwassoidentifiedwithmysecretdoublethatIdidnotevenmentionthefactinthosescanty,fearfulwhispersweexchanged。Isupposehehadmadesomeslightnoiseofsomekindorother。Itwouldhavebeenmiraculousifhehadn’tatonetimeoranother。Andyet,haggardasheappeared,helookedalwaysperfectlyself—controlled,morethancalm—almostinvulnerable。Onmysuggestionheremainedalmostentirelyinthebathroom,which,uponthewhole,wasthesafestplace。Therecouldbereallynoshadowofanexcuseforanyoneeverwantingtogointhere,oncethestewardhaddonewithit。Itwasaverytinyplace。Sometimeshereclinedonthefloor,hislegsbent,hisheadsustainedononeelbow。AtothersIwouldfindhimonthecamp—
stool,sittinginhisgreysleeping—suitandwithhiscroppeddarkhairlikeapatient,unmovedconvict。AtnightIwouldsmugglehimintomybed—place,andwewouldwhispertogether,withtheregularfootfallsoftheofficerofthewatchpassingandrepassingoverourheads。Itwasaninfinitelymiserabletime。Itwasluckythatsometinsoffinepreserveswerestowedinalockerinmystateroom;hardbreadIcouldalwaysgetholdof;andsohelivedonstewedchicken,patedefoiegras,asparagus,cookedoysters,sardines—onallsortsofabominableshamdelicaciesoutoftins。
Myearlymorningcoffeehealwaysdrank;anditwasallIdareddoforhiminthatrespect。
Everydaytherewasthehorriblemanoeuvringtogothroughsothatmyroomandthenthebath—roomshouldbedoneintheusualway。I
cametohatethesightofthesteward,toabhorthevoiceofthatharmlessman。Ifeltthatitwashewhowouldbringonthedisasterofdiscovery。Ithunglikeaswordoverourheads。
Thefourthdayout,Ithink(wewerethenworkingdowntheeastsideoftheGulfofSiam,tackfortack,inlightwindsandsmoothwater)—thefourthday,Isay,ofthismiserablejugglingwiththeunavoidable,aswesatatoureveningmeal,thatman,whoseslightestmovementIdreaded,afterputtingdownthedishesranupondeckbusily。Thiscouldnotbedangerous。Presentlyhecamedownagain;andthenitappearedthathehadrememberedacoatofminewhichIhadthrownoverarailtodryafterhavingbeenwettedinashowerwhichhadpassedovertheshipintheafternoon。
SittingstolidlyattheheadofthetableIbecameterrifiedatthesightofthegarmentonhisarm。Ofcoursehemadeformydoor。
Therewasnotimetolose。
\"Steward,\"Ithundered。MynervesweresoshakenthatIcouldnotgovernmyvoiceandconcealmyagitation。Thiswasthesortofthingthatmademyterrificallywhiskeredmatetaphisforeheadwithhisforefinger。Ihaddetectedhimusingthatgesturewhiletalkingondeckwithaconfidentialairtothecarpenter。Itwastoofartohearaword,butIhadnodoubtthatthispantomimecouldonlyrefertothestrangenewcaptain。
\"Yes,sir,\"thepale—facedstewardturnedresignedlytome。Itwasthismaddeningcourseofbeingshoutedat,checkedwithoutrhymeorreason,arbitrarilychasedoutofmycabin,suddenlycalledintoit,sentflyingoutofhispantryonincomprehensibleerrands,thataccountedforthegrowingwretchednessofhisexpression。
\"Whereareyougoingwiththatcoat?\"
\"Toyourroom,sir。\"
\"Isthereanothershowercoming?\"
\"I’msureIdon’tknow,sir。ShallIgoupagainandsee,sir?\"
\"No!nevermind。\"
Myobjectwasattained,asofcoursemyotherselfintherewouldhaveheardeverythingthatpassed。Duringthisinterludemytwoofficersneverraisedtheireyesofftheirrespectiveplates;butthelipofthatconfoundedcub,thesecondmate,quiveredvisibly。
Iexpectedthestewardtohookmycoatonandcomeoutatonce。Hewasveryslowaboutit;butIdominatedmynervousnesssufficientlynottoshoutafterhim。SuddenlyIbecameaware(itcouldbeheardplainlyenough)thatthefellowforsomereasonorotherwasopeningthedoorofthebath—room。Itwastheend。Theplacewasliterallynotbigenoughtoswingacatin。MyvoicediedinmythroatandIwentstonyallover。Iexpectedtohearayellofsurpriseandterror,andmadeamovement,buthadnotthestrengthtogetonmylegs。Everythingremainedstill。Hadmysecondselftakenthepoorwretchbythethroat?Idon’tknowwhatIwouldhavedonenextmomentifIhadnotseenthestewardcomeoutofmyroom,closethedoor,andthenstandquietlybythesideboard。
\"Saved,\"Ithought。\"But,no!Lost!Gone!Hewasgone!\"
Ilaidmyknifeandforkdownandleanedbackinmychair。Myheadswam。Afterawhile,whensufficientlyrecoveredtospeakinasteadyvoice,Iinstructedmymatetoputtheshiproundateighto’clockhimself。
\"Iwon’tcomeondeck,\"Iwenton。\"IthinkI’llturnin,andunlessthewindshiftsIdon’twanttobedisturbedbeforemidnight。Ifeelabitseedy。\"
\"Youdidlookmiddlingbadalittlewhileago,\"thechiefmateremarkedwithoutshowinganygreatconcern。
Theybothwentout,andIstaredatthestewardclearingthetable。
Therewasnothingtobereadonthatwretchedman’sface。ButwhydidheavoidmyeyesIaskedmyself。ThenIthoughtIshouldliketohearthesoundofhisvoice。
\"Steward!\"
\"Sir!\"Startledasusual。
\"Wheredidyouhangupthatcoat?\"
\"Inthebath—room,sir。\"Theusualanxioustone。\"It’snotquitedryyet,sir。\"
ForsometimelongerIsatinthecuddy。Hadmydoublevanishedashehadcome?Butofhiscomingtherewasanexplanation,whereashisdisappearancewouldbeinexplicable……Iwentslowlyintomydarkroom,shutthedoor,lightedthelamp,andforatimedarednotturnround。WhenatlastIdidIsawhimstandingbolt—uprightinthenarrowrecessedpart。ItwouldnotbetruetosayIhadashock,butanirresistibledoubtofhisbodilyexistenceflittedthroughmymind。Canitbe,Iaskedmyself,thatheisnotvisibletoothereyesthanmine?Itwaslikebeinghaunted。Motionless,withagraveface,heraisedhishandsslightlyatmeinagesturewhichmeantclearly,\"Heavens!whatanarrowescape!\"Narrowindeed。IthinkIhadcomecreepingquietlyasnearinsanityasanymanwhohasnotactuallygoneovertheborder。Thatgesturerestrainedme,sotospeak。
Thematewiththeterrificwhiskerswasnowputtingtheshipontheothertack。InthemomentofprofoundsilencewhichfollowsuponthehandsgoingtotheirstationsIheardonthepoophisraisedvoice:\"Hardalee!\"andthedistantshoutoftheorderrepeatedonthemaindeck。Thesails,inthatlightbreeze,madebutafaintflutteringnoise。Itceased。Theshipwascomingroundslowly;I
heldmybreathintherenewedstillnessofexpectation;onewouldn’thavethoughtthattherewasasinglelivingsoulonherdecks。Asuddenbriskshout,\"Mainsailhaul!\"brokethespell,andinthenoisycriesandrushoverheadofthemenrunningawaywiththemain—bracewetwo,downinmycabin,cametogetherinourusualpositionbythebed—place。
Hedidnotwaitformyquestion。\"Iheardhimfumblinghereandjustmanagedtosquatmyselfdowninthebath,\"hewhisperedtome。
\"Thefellowonlyopenedthedoorandputhisarmintohangthecoatup。Allthesame—\"
\"Ineverthoughtofthat,\"Iwhisperedback,evenmoreappalledthanbeforeattheclosenessoftheshave,andmarvellingatthatsomethingunyieldinginhischaracterwhichwascarryinghimthroughsofinely。Therewasnoagitationinhiswhisper。Whoeverwasbeingdrivendistracted,itwasnothe。Hewassane。Andtheproofofhissanitywascontinuedwhenhetookupthewhisperingagain。
\"Itwouldneverdoformetocometolifeagain。\"
Itwassomethingthataghostmighthavesaid。Butwhathewasalludingtowashisoldcaptain’sreluctantadmissionofthetheoryofsuicide。Itwouldobviouslyservehisturn—ifIhadunderstoodatalltheviewwhichseemedtogoverntheunalterablepurposeofhisaction。
\"YoumustmaroonmeassoonaseveryoucangetamongsttheseislandsofftheCambodjeshore,\"hewenton。
\"Maroonyou!Wearenotlivinginaboy’sadventuretale,\"I
protested。Hisscornfulwhisperingtookmeup。
\"Wearen’tindeed!There’snothingofaboy’staleinthis。Butthere’snothingelseforit。Iwantnomore。Youdon’tsupposeI
amafraidofwhatcanbedonetome?Prisonorgallowsorwhatevertheymayplease。Butyoudon’tseemecomingbacktoexplainsuchthingstoanoldfellowinawigandtwelverespectabletradesmen,doyou?WhatcantheyknowwhetherIamguiltyornot—orofWHAT
Iamguilty,either?That’smyaffair。WhatdoestheBiblesay?
’Drivenoffthefaceoftheearth。’Verywell。Iamoffthefaceoftheearthnow。AsIcameatnightsoIshallgo。\"
\"Impossible!\"Imurmured。\"Youcan’t。\"
\"Can’t?……NotnakedlikeasoulontheDayofJudgment。I
shallfreezeontothissleeping—suit。TheLastDayisnotyet—
andyouhaveunderstoodthoroughly。Didn’tyou?\"
Ifeltsuddenlyashamedofmyself。ImaysaytrulythatI
understood—andmyhesitationinlettingthatmanswimawayfrommyship’ssidehadbeenamereshamsentiment,asortofcowardice。
\"Itcan’tbedonenowtillnextnight,\"Ibreathedout。\"Theshipisontheoff—shoretackandthewindmayfailus。\"
\"AslongasIknowthatyouunderstand,\"hewhispered。\"Butofcourseyoudo。It’sagreatsatisfactiontohavegotsomebodytounderstand。Youseemtohavebeenthereonpurpose。\"Andinthesamewhisper,asifwetwowheneverwetalkedhadtosaythingstoeachotherwhichwerenotfitfortheworldtohear,headded,\"It’sverywonderful。\"Weremainedsidebysidetalkinginoursecretway—butsometimessilentorjustexchangingawhisperedwordortwoatlongintervals。Andasusualhestaredthroughtheport。Abreathofwindcamenowandagainintoourfaces。Theshipmighthavebeenmooredindock,sogentlyandonanevenkeelsheslippedthroughthewater,thatdidnotmurmurevenatourpassage,shadowyandsilentlikeaphantomsea。
AtmidnightIwentondeck,andtomymate’sgreatsurpriseputtheshiproundontheothertack。Histerriblewhiskersflittedroundmeinsilentcriticism。Icertainlyshouldnothavedoneitifithadbeenonlyaquestionofgettingoutofthatsleepygulfasquicklyaspossible。Ibelievehetoldthesecondmate,whorelievedhim,thatitwasagreatwantofjudgment。Theotheronlyyawned。Thatintolerablecubshuffledaboutsosleepilyandlolledagainsttherailsinsuchaslack,improperfashionthatIcamedownonhimsharply。
\"Aren’tyouproperlyawakeyet?\"
\"Yes,sir!Iamawake。\"
\"Well,then,begoodenoughtoholdyourselfasifyouwere。Andkeepalook—out。Ifthere’sanycurrentwe’llbeclosingwithsomeislandsbeforedaylight。\"
Theeastsideofthegulfisfringedwithislands,somesolitary,othersingroups。Onthebluebackgroundofthehighcoasttheyseemtofloatonsilverypatchesofcalmwater,aridandgrey,ordarkgreenandroundedlikeclumpsofevergreenbushes,withthelargerones,amileortwolong,showingtheoutlinesofridges,ribsofgreyrockunderthedankmantleofmattedleafage。Unknowntotrade,totravel,almosttogeography,themanneroflifetheyharbourisanunsolvedsecret。Theremustbevillages—
settlementsoffishermenatleast—onthelargestofthem,andsomecommunicationwiththeworldisprobablykeptupbynativecraft。Butallthatforenoon,asweheadedforthem,fannedalongbythefaintestofbreezes,IsawnosignofmanorcanoeinthefieldofthetelescopeIkeptonpointingatthescatteredgroup。
AtnoonIgavenoordersforachangeofcourse,andthemate’swhiskersbecamemuchconcernedandseemedtobeofferingthemselvesundulytomynotice。AtlastIsaid:
\"Iamgoingtostandrightin。Quitein—asfarasIcantakeher。\"
Thestareofextremesurpriseimpartedanairofferocityalsotohiseyes,andhelookedtrulyterrificforamoment。
\"We’renotdoingwellinthemiddleofthegulf,\"Icontinued,casually。\"Iamgoingtolookforthelandbreezesto—night。\"
\"Blessmysoul!Doyoumean,sir,inthedarkamongstthelotofallthemislandsandreefsandshoals?\"
\"Well—ifthereareanyregularlandbreezesatallonthiscoastonemustgetcloseinshoretofindthem,mustn’tone?\"
\"Blessmysoul!\"heexclaimedagainunderhisbreath。Allthatafternoonheworeadreamy,contemplativeappearancewhichinhimwasamarkofperplexity。AfterdinnerIwentintomystateroomasifImeanttotakesomerest。Therewetwobentourdarkheadsoverahalf—unrolledchartlyingonmybed。
\"There,\"Isaid。\"It’sgottobeKoh—ring。I’vebeenlookingatiteversincesunrise。Ithasgottwohillsandalowpoint。Itmustbeinhabited。Andonthecoastoppositethereiswhatlookslikethemouthofabiggishriver—withsometown,nodoubt,notfarup。It’sthebestchanceforyouthatIcansee。\"
\"Anything。Koh—ringletitbe。\"
Helookedthoughtfullyatthechartasifsurveyingchancesanddistancesfromaloftyheight—andfollowingwithhiseyeshisownfigurewanderingontheblanklandofCochin—China,andthenpassingoffthatpieceofpapercleanoutofsightintounchartedregions。Anditwasasiftheshiphadtwocaptainstoplanhercourseforher。IhadbeensoworriedandrestlessrunningupanddownthatIhadnothadthepatiencetodressthatday。Ihadremainedinmysleeping—suit,withstrawslippersandasoftfloppyhat。Theclosenessoftheheatinthegulfhadbeenmostoppressive,andthecrewwereusedtoseemewanderinginthatairyattire。
\"Shewillclearthesouthpointassheheadsnow,\"Iwhisperedintohisear。\"Goodnessonlyknowswhen,though,butcertainlyafterdark。I’lledgeherintohalfamile,asfarasImaybeabletojudgeinthedark—\"
\"Becareful,\"hemurmured,warningly—andIrealisedsuddenlythatallmyfuture,theonlyfutureforwhichIwasfit,wouldperhapsgoirretrievablytopiecesinanymishaptomyfirstcommand。
Icouldnotstopamomentlongerintheroom。Imotionedhimtogetoutofsightandmademywayonthepoop。Thatunplayfulcubhadthewatch。Iwalkedupanddownforawhilethinkingthingsout,thenbeckonedhimover。
\"Sendacoupleofhandstoopenthetwoquarterdeckports,\"Isaid,mildly。
Heactuallyhadtheimpudence,orelsesoforgothimselfinhiswonderatsuchanincomprehensibleorder,astorepeat:
\"Openthequarter—deckports!Whatfor,sir?\"
\"TheonlyreasonyouneedconcernyourselfaboutisbecauseItellyoutodoso。Havethemopenwideandfastenedproperly。\"
Hereddenedandwentoff,butIbelievemadesomejeeringremarktothecarpenterastothesensiblepracticeofventilatingaship’squarter—deck。Iknowhepoppedintothemate’scabintoimpartthefacttohimbecausethewhiskerscameondeck,asitwerebychance,andstoleglancesatmefrombelow—forsignsoflunacyordrunkenness,Isuppose。
Alittlebeforesupper,feelingmorerestlessthanever,I
rejoined,foramoment,mysecondself。Andtofindhimsittingsoquietlywassurprising,likesomethingagainstnature,inhuman。
Idevelopedmyplaninahurriedwhisper。
\"IshallstandinascloseasIdareandthenputherround。I
shallpresentlyfindmeanstosmuggleyououtofhereintothesail—locker,whichcommunicateswiththelobby。Butthereisanopening,asortofsquareforhaulingthesailsout,whichgivesstraightonthequarter—deckandwhichisneverclosedinfineweather,soastogiveairtothesails。’Whentheship’swayisdeadenedinstaysandallthehandsareaftatthemain—bracesyoushallhaveaclearroadtoslipoutandgetoverboardthroughtheopenquarter—deckport。I’vehadthembothfastenedup。Usearope’sendtoloweryourselfintothewatersoastoavoidasplash—youknow。Itcouldbeheardandcausesomebeastlycomplication。\"
Hekeptsilentforawhile,thenwhispered,\"Iunderstand。\"
\"Iwon’tbetheretoseeyougo,\"Ibeganwithaneffort。\"Therest……IonlyhopeIhaveunderstood,too。\"
\"Youhave。Fromfirsttolast\"—andforthefirsttimethereseemedtobeafaltering,somethingstrainedinhiswhisper。Hecaughtholdofmyarm,buttheringingofthesupperbellmademestart。Hedidn’t,though;heonlyreleasedhisgrip。
AftersupperIdidn’tcomebelowagaintillwellpasteighto’clock。Thefaint,steadybreezewasloadedwithdew;andthewet,darkenedsailsheldalltherewasofpropellingpowerinit。
Thenight,clearandstarry,sparkleddarkly,andtheopaque,lightlesspatchesshiftingslowlyagainstthelowstarswerethedriftingislets。Ontheportbowtherewasabigonemoredistantandshadowilyimposingbythegreatspaceofskyiteclipsed。
OnopeningthedoorIhadabackviewofmyveryownselflookingatachart。Hehadcomeoutoftherecessandwasstandingnearthetable。
\"Quitedarkenough,\"Iwhispered。
Hesteppedbackandleanedagainstmybedwithalevel,quietglance。Isatonthecouch。Wehadnothingtosaytoeachother。
Overourheadstheofficerofthewatchmovedhereandthere。ThenIheardhimmovequickly。Iknewwhatthatmeant。Hewasmakingforthecompanion;andpresentlyhisvoicewasoutsidemydoor。
\"Wearedrawinginprettyfast,sir。Landlooksratherclose。\"
\"Verywell,\"Ianswered。\"Iamcomingondeckdirectly。\"
Iwaitedtillhewasgoneoutofthecuddy,thenrose。Mydoublemovedtoo。Thetimehadcometoexchangeourlastwhispers,forneitherofuswasevertoheareachother’snaturalvoice。
\"Lookhere!\"Iopenedadrawerandtookoutthreesovereigns。
\"Takethis,anyhow。I’vegotsixandI’dgiveyouthelot,onlyI
mustkeepalittlemoneytobuysomefruitandvegetablesforthecrewfromnativeboatsaswegothroughSundaStraits。\"
Heshookhishead。
\"Takeit,\"Iurgedhim,whisperingdesperately。\"Noonecantellwhat—\"
Hesmiledandslappedmeaninglytheonlypocketofthesleeping—
jacket。Itwasnotsafe,certainly。ButIproducedalargeoldsilkhandkerchiefofmine,andtyingthethreepiecesofgoldinacorner,presseditonhim。Hewastouched,Isuppose,becausehetookitatlastandtieditquicklyroundhiswaistunderthejacket,onhisbareskin。
Oureyesmet;severalsecondselapsed,till,ourglancesstillmingled,Iextendedmyhandandturnedthelampout。ThenIpassedthroughthecuddy,leavingthedoorofmyroomwideopen……
\"Steward!\"
Hewasstilllingeringinthepantryinthegreatnessofhiszeal,givingarub—uptoaplatedcruetstandthelastthingbeforegoingtobed。Beingcarefulnottowakeupthemate,whoseroomwasopposite,Ispokeinanundertone。
Helookedroundanxiously。\"Sir!\"
\"Canyougetmealittlehotwaterfromthegalley?\"
\"Iamafraid,sir,thegalleyfire’sbeenoutforsometimenow。\"
\"Goandsee。\"
Hefledupthestairs。
\"Now,\"Iwhispered,loudly,intothesaloon—tooloudly,perhaps,butIwasafraidIcouldn’tmakeasound。Hewasbymysideinaninstant—thedoublecaptainslippedpastthestairs—throughatinydarkpassage……aslidingdoor。Wewereinthesail—
locker,scramblingonourkneesoverthesails。Asuddenthoughtstruckme。Isawmyselfwanderingbarefooted,bareheaded,thesunbeatingonmydarkpoll。Isnatchedoffmyfloppyhatandtriedhurriedlyinthedarktoramitonmyotherself。Hedodgedandfendedoffsilently。Iwonderwhathethoughthadcometomebeforeheunderstoodandsuddenlydesisted。Ourhandsmetgropingly,lingeredunitedinasteady,motionlessclaspforasecond……Nowordwasbreathedbyeitherofuswhentheyseparated。
Iwasstandingquietlybythepantrydoorwhenthestewardreturned。
\"Sorry,sir。Kettlebarelywarm。ShallIlightthespirit—lamp?\"
\"Nevermind。\"
Icameoutondeckslowly。Itwasnowamatterofconsciencetoshavethelandascloseaspossible—fornowhemustgooverboardwhenevertheshipwasputinstays。Must!Therecouldbenogoingbackforhim。AfteramomentIwalkedovertoleewardandmyheartflewintomymouthatthenearnessofthelandonthebow。UnderanyothercircumstancesIwouldnothaveheldonaminutelonger。
Thesecondmatehadfollowedmeanxiously。
IlookedontillIfeltIcouldcommandmyvoice。\"Shewillweather,\"Isaidtheninaquiettone。\"Areyougoingtotrythat,sir?\"hestammeredoutincredulously。
Itooknonoticeofhimandraisedmytonejustenoughtobeheardbythehelmsman。
\"Keephergoodfull。\"
\"Goodfull,sir。\"
Thewindfannedmycheek,thesailsslept,theworldwassilent。
Thestrainofwatchingthedarkloomofthelandgrowbiggeranddenserwastoomuchforme。Ihadshutmyeyes—becausetheshipmustgocloser。Shemust!Thestillnesswasintolerable。Werewestandingstill?
WhenIopenedmyeyesthesecondviewstartedmyheartwithathump。TheblacksouthernhillofKoh—ringseemedtohangrightovertheshiplikeatoweringfragmentoftheeverlastingnight。
Onthatenormousmassofblacknesstherewasnotagleamtobeseen,notasoundtobeheard。Itwasglidingirresistiblytowardusandyetseemedalreadywithinreachofthehand。Isawthevaguefiguresofthewatchgroupedinthewaist,gazinginawedsilence。
\"Areyougoingon,sir,\"inquiredanunsteadyvoiceatmyelbow。
Iignoredit。Ihadtogoon。
\"Keepherfull。Don’tcheckherway。Thatwon’tdonow,\"Isaid,warningly。
\"Ican’tseethesailsverywell,\"thehelmsmanansweredme,instrange,quaveringtones。
Wasshecloseenough?Alreadyshewas,Iwon’tsayintheshadowoftheland,butintheveryblacknessofit,alreadyswallowedupasitwere,gonetooclosetoberecalled,gonefrommealtogether。
\"Givethemateacall,\"Isaidtotheyoungmanwhostoodatmyelbowasstillasdeath。\"Andturnallhandsup。\"
Mytonehadaborrowedloudnessreverberatedfromtheheightoftheland。Severalvoicescriedouttogether:\"Weareallondeck,sir。\"
Thenstillnessagain,withthegreatshadowglidingcloser,toweringhigher,withoutalight,withoutasound。SuchahushhadfallenontheshipthatshemighthavebeenabarkofthedeadfloatinginslowlyundertheverygateofErebus。
\"MyGod!Wherearewe?\"
Itwasthematemoaningatmyelbow。Hewasthunderstruck,andasitweredeprivedofthemoralsupportofhiswhiskers。Heclappedhishandsandabsolutelycriedout,\"Lost!\"
\"Bequiet,\"Isaid,sternly。
Heloweredhistone,butIsawtheshadowygestureofhisdespair。
\"Whatarewedoinghere?\"
\"Lookingforthelandwind。\"
Hemadeasiftotearhishair,andaddressedmerecklessly。
\"Shewillnevergetout。Youhavedoneit,sir。Iknewit’dendinsomethinglikethis。Shewillneverweather,andyouaretooclosenowtostay。She’lldriftashorebeforeshe’sround。OmyGod!\"
Icaughthisarmashewasraisingittobatterhispoordevotedhead,andshookitviolently。
\"She’sashorealready,\"hewailed,tryingtotearhimselfaway。
\"Isshe?……Keepgoodfullthere!\"
\"Goodfull,sir,\"criedthehelmsmaninafrightened,thin,child—
likevoice。
Ihadn’tletgothemate’sarmandwentonshakingit。\"Readyabout,doyouhear?Yougoforward\"—shake—\"andstopthere\"—
shake—\"andholdyournoise\"—shake—\"andseethesehead—sheetsproperlyoverhauled\"—shake,shake—shake。
AndallthetimeIdarednotlooktowardthelandlestmyheartshouldfailme。Ireleasedmygripatlastandheranforwardasiffleeingfordearlife。
Iwonderedwhatmydoublethereinthesail—lockerthoughtofthiscommotion。Hewasabletoheareverything—andperhapshewasabletounderstandwhy,onmyconscience,ithadtobethusclose—
noless。Myfirstorder\"Hardalee!\"re—echoedominouslyunderthetoweringshadowofKoh—ringasifIhadshoutedinamountaingorge。AndthenIwatchedthelandintently。Inthatsmoothwaterandlightwinditwasimpossibletofeeltheshipcoming—to。No!
Icouldnotfeelher。Andmysecondselfwasmakingnowreadytoslipoutandlowerhimselfoverboard。Perhapshewasgonealready……?
Thegreatblackmassbroodingoverourverymastheadsbegantopivotawayfromtheship’ssidesilently。AndnowIforgotthesecretstrangerreadytodepart,andrememberedonlythatIwasatotalstrangertotheship。Ididnotknowher。Wouldshedoit?
Howwasshetobehandled?
Iswungthemainyardandwaitedhelplessly。Shewasperhapsstopped,andherveryfatehunginthebalance,withtheblackmassofKoh—ringlikethegateoftheeverlastingnighttoweringoverhertaffrail。Whatwouldshedonow?Hadshewayonheryet?I
steppedtothesideswiftly,andontheshadowywaterIcouldseenothingexceptafaintphosphorescentflashrevealingtheglassysmoothnessofthesleepingsurface。Itwasimpossibletotell—
andIhadnotlearnedyetthefeelofmyship。Wasshemoving?
WhatIneededwassomethingeasilyseen,apieceofpaper,whichI
couldthrowoverboardandwatch。Ihadnothingonme。TorundownforitIdidn’tdare。Therewasnotime。Allatoncemystrained,yearningstaredistinguishedawhiteobjectfloatingwithinayardoftheship’sside。Whiteontheblackwater。Aphosphorescentflashpassedunderit。Whatwasthatthing?……Irecognisedmyownfloppyhat。Itmusthavefallenoffhishead……andhedidn’tbother。
NowIhadwhatIwanted—thesavingmarkformyeyes。ButI
hardlythoughtofmyotherself,nowgonefromtheship,tobehiddenforeverfromallfriendlyfaces,tobeafugitiveandavagabondontheearth,withnobrandofthecurseonhissaneforeheadtostayaslayinghand……tooproudtoexplain。
AndIwatchedthehat—theexpressionofmysuddenpityforhismereflesh。Ithadbeenmeanttosavehishomelessheadfromthedangersofthesun。Andnow—behold—itwassavingtheship,byservingmeforamarktohelpouttheignoranceofmystrangeness。
Ha!Itwasdriftingforward,warningmejustintimethattheshiphadgatheredsternway。
\"Shiftthehelm,\"Isaidinalowvoicetotheseamanstandingstilllikeastatue。
Theman’seyesglistenedwildlyinthebinnaclelightashejumpedroundtotheothersideandspunroundthewheel。
Iwalkedtothebreakofthepoop。Ontheovershadoweddeckallhandsstoodbytheforebraceswaitingformyorder。Thestarsaheadseemedtobeglidingfromrighttoleft。AndallwassostillintheworldthatIheardthequietremark\"She’sround,\"
passedinatoneofintensereliefbetweentwoseamen。
\"Letgoandhaul。\"
Theforeyardsranroundwithagreatnoise,amidstcheerycries。
Andnowthefrightfulwhisker’smadethemselvesheardgivingvariousorders。Alreadytheshipwasdrawingahead。AndIwasalonewithher。Nothing!nooneintheworldshouldstandnowbetweenus,throwingashadowonthewayofsilentknowledgeandmuteaffection,theperfectcommunionofaseamanwithhisfirstcommand。
Walkingtothetaffrail,Iwasintimetomakeout,ontheveryedgeofadarknessthrownbyatoweringblackmassliketheverygatewayofErebus—yes,Iwasintimetocatchanevanescentglimpseofmywhitehatleftbehindtomarkthespotwherethesecretsharerofmycabinandofmythoughts,asthoughheweremysecondself,hadloweredhimselfintothewatertotakehispunishment:afreeman,aproudswimmerstrikingoutforanewdestiny。
FREYAOFTHESEVENISLES
Oneday—andthatdaywasmanyyearsagonow—Ireceivedalong,chattyletterfromoneofmyoldchumsandfellow—wanderersinEasternwaters。Hewasstilloutthere,butsettleddown,andmiddle—aged;Iimaginedhim—grownportlyinfigureanddomesticinhishabits;inshort,overtakenbythefatecommontoallexcepttothosewho,beingspeciallybelovedbythegods,getknockedontheheadearly。Theletterwasofthereminiscent\"doyouremember\"kind—awistfulletterofbackwardglances。And,amongstotherthings,\"surelyyourememberoldNelson,\"hewrote。
RememberoldNelson!Certainly。Andtobeginwith,hisnamewasnotNelson。TheEnglishmenintheArchipelagocalledhimNelsonbecauseitwasmoreconvenient,Isuppose,andheneverprotested。
Itwouldhavebeenmerepedantry。ThetrueformofhisnamewasNielsen。HehadcomeoutEastlongbeforetheadventoftelegraphcables,hadservedEnglishfirms,hadmarriedanEnglishgirl,hadbeenoneofusforyears,tradingandsailinginalldirectionsthroughtheEasternArchipelago,acrossandaround,transversely,diagonally,perpendicularly,insemi—circles,andzigzags,andfiguresofeights,foryearsandyears。
TherewasnonookorcrannyofthesetropicalwatersthattheenterpriseofoldNelson(orNielsen)hadnotpenetratedinaneminentlypacificway。Histracks,ifplottedout,wouldhavecoveredthemapoftheArchipelagolikeacobweb—allofit,withthesoleexceptionofthePhilippines。Hewouldneverapproachthatpart,fromastrangedreadofSpaniards,or,tobeexact,oftheSpanishauthorities。Whatheimaginedtheycoulddotohimitisimpossibletosay。PerhapsatsometimeinhislifehehadreadsomestoriesoftheInquisition。
Buthewasingeneralafraidofwhathecalled\"authorities\";nottheEnglishauthorities,whichhetrustedandrespected,buttheothertwoofthatpartoftheworld。HewasnotsohorrifiedattheDutchashewasattheSpaniards,buthewasevenmoremistrustfulofthem。Verymistrustfulindeed。TheDutch,inhisview,werecapableof\"playinganyuglytrickonaman\"whohadthemisfortunetodispleasethem。Thereweretheirlawsandregulations,buttheyhadnonotionoffairplayinapplyingthem。
Itwasreallypitiabletoseetheanxiouscircumspectionofhisdealingswithsomeofficialorother,andrememberthatthismanhadbeenknowntostrolluptoavillageofcannibalsinNewGuineainaquiet,fearlessmanner(andnotethathewasalwaysfleshyallhislife,and,ifImaysayso,anappetisingmorsel)onsomematterofbarterthatdidnotamountperhapstofiftypoundsintheend。
RememberoldNelson!Rather!Truly,noneofusinmygenerationhadknownhiminhisactivedays。Hewas\"retired\"inourtime。
Hehadbought,orelseleased,partofasmallislandfromtheSultanofalittlegroupcalledtheSevenIsles,notfarnorthfromBanka。Itwas,Isuppose,alegitimatetransaction,butIhavenodoubtthathadhebeenanEnglishmantheDutchwouldhavediscoveredareasontofirehimoutwithoutceremony。Inthisconnectiontherealformofhisnamestoodhimingoodstead。InthecharacterofanunassumingDanewhoseconductwasmostcorrect,theylethimbe。Withallhismoneyengagedincultivationhewasnaturallycarefulnottogiveeventheshadowofoffence,anditwasmostlyforprudentialreasonsofthatsortthathedidnotlookwithafavourableeyeonJasperAllen。Butofthatlater。Yes!
OnerememberedwellenougholdNelson’sbig,hospitablebungalowerectedonashelvingpointofland,hisportlyform,costumedgenerallyinawhiteshirtandtrousers(hehadaconfirmedhabitoftakingoffhisalpacajacketontheslightestprovocation),hisroundblueeyes,hisstraggly,sandy—whitemoustachestickingoutallwayslikethequillsofthefretfulporcupine,hispropensitytositdownsuddenlyandfanhimselfwithhishat。Butthere’snouseconcealingthefactthatwhatonerememberedreallywashisdaughter,whoatthattimecameouttolivewithhim—andbeasortofLadyoftheIsles。
FreyaNelson(orNielsen)wasthekindofgirloneremembers。Theovalofherfacewasperfect;andwithinthatfascinatingframethemosthappydispositionoflineandfeature,withanadmirablecomplexion,gaveanimpressionofhealth,strength,andwhatI
mightcallunconsciousself—confidence—amostpleasantand,asitwere,whimsicaldetermination。Iwillnotcomparehereyestoviolets,becausetherealshadeoftheircolourwaspeculiar,notsodarkandmorelustrous。Theywereofthewide—openkind,andlookedatonefranklyineverymood。Ineverdidseethelong,darkeyelasheslowered—IdaresayJasperAllendid,beingaprivilegedperson—butIhavenodoubtthattheexpressionmusthavebeencharminginacomplexway。Shecould—Jaspertoldmeoncewithatouchinglyimbecileexultation—sitonherhair。I
daresay,Idaresay。Itwasnotformetobeholdthesewonders;I
wascontenttoadmiretheneatandbecomingwaysheusedtodoitupsoasnottoconcealthegoodshapeofherhead。Andthiswealthofhairwassoglossythatwhenthescreensofthewestverandahweredown,makingapleasanttwilightthere,orintheshadeofthegroveoffruit—treesnearthehouse,itseemedtogiveoutagoldenlightofitsown。
Shedressedgenerallyinawhitefrock,withaskirtofwalkinglength,showingherneat,laced,brownboots。Iftherewasanycolourabouthercostumeitwasjustabitofblueperhaps。Noexertionseemedtodistressher。Ihaveseenherlandfromthedinghyafteralongpullinthesun(sherowedherselfaboutagooddeal)withnoquickenedbreathandnotasinglehairoutofitsplace。Inthemorningwhenshecameoutontheverandahforthefirstlookwestward,Sumatraway,overthesea,sheseemedasfreshandsparklingasadewdrop。Butadewdropisevanescent,andtherewasnothingevanescentaboutFreya。Irememberherround,solidarmswiththefinewrists,andherbroad,capablehandswithtaperingfingers。
Idon’tknowwhethershewasactuallybornatsea,butIdoknowthatuptotwelveyearsofageshesailedaboutwithherparentsinvariousships。AfteroldNelsonlosthiswifeitbecameamatterofseriousconcernforhimwhattodowiththegirl。AkindladyinSingapore,touchedbyhisdumbgriefanddeplorableperplexity,offeredtotakechargeofFreya。Thisarrangementlastedsomesixyears,duringwhicholdNelson(orNielsen)\"retired\"andestablished,himselfonhisisland,andthenitwassettled(thekindladygoingawaytoEurope)thathisdaughtershouldjoinhim。
AsthefirstandmostimportantpreparationforthateventtheoldfelloworderedfromhisSingaporeagentaSteynandEbhart’s\"uprightgrand。\"Iwasthencommandingalittlesteamerintheislandtrade,anditfelltomylottotakeitouttohim,soI
knowsomethingofFreya’s\"uprightgrand。\"Welandedtheenormouspacking—casewithdifficultyonaflatpieceofrockamongstsomebushes,nearlyknockingthebottomoutofoneofmyboatsinthecourseofthatnauticaloperation。Then,allmycrewassisting,engineersandfiremenincluded,bytheexerciseofmuchanxiousingenuity,andbymeansofrollers,levers,tackles,andinclinedplanesofsoapedplanks,toilinginthesunlikeancientEgyptiansatthebuildingofapyramid,wegotitasfarasthehouseandupontotheedgeofthewestverandah—whichwastheactualdrawing—
roomofthebungalow。There,thecasebeingrippedoffcautiously,thebeautifulrosewoodmonsterstoodrevealedatlast。Inreverentexcitementwecoaxeditagainstthewallanddrewthefirstfreebreathoftheday。Itwascertainlytheheaviestmovableobjectonthatisletsincethecreationoftheworld。Thevolumeofsounditgaveoutinthatbungalow(whichactedasasounding—board)wasreallyastonishing。Itthunderedsweetlyrightoverthesea。
JasperAllentoldmethatearlyofamorningonthedeckoftheBonito(hiswonderfullyfastandprettybrig)hecouldhearFreyaplayingherscalesquitedistinctly。Butthefellowalwaysanchoredfoolishlyclosetothepoint,asItoldhimmorethanonce。Ofcourse,theseseasarealmostuniformlyserene,andtheSevenIslesisaparticularlycalmandcloudlessspotasarule。
Butstill,nowandagain,anafternoonthunderstormoverBanka,orevenoneoftheseviciousthicksqualls,fromthedistantSumatracoast,wouldmakeasuddensallyuponthegroup,envelopingitforacoupleofhoursinwhirlwindsandbluish—blackmurkofaparticularlysinisteraspect。Then,withtheloweredrattan—
screensrattlingdesperatelyinthewindandthebungalowshakingallover,FreyawouldsitdowntothepianoandplayfierceWagnermusicintheflickerofblindingflashes,withthunderboltsfallingallround,enoughtomakeyourhairstandonend;andJasperwouldremainstockstillontheverandah,adoringthebackviewofhersupple,swayingfigure,themiraculoussheenofherfairhead,therapidhandsonthekeys,thewhitenapeofherneck—whilethebrig,downatthepointthere,surgedathercableswithinahundredyardsofnasty,shiny,blackrock—heads。Ugh!
Andthis,ifyouplease,fornoreasonbutthat,whenhewentonboardatnightandlaidhisheadonthepillow,heshouldfeelthathewasasnearashecouldconvenientlygettohisFreyaslumberinginthebungalow。Didyouever!And,mind,thisbrigwasthehometobe—theirhome—thefloatingparadisewhichhewasgraduallyfittingoutlikeayachttosailhislifeblissfullyawayinwithFreya。Imbecile!Butthefellowwasalwaystakingchances。
Oneday,IrememberIwatchedwithFreyaontheverandahthebrigapproachingthepointfromthenorthward。IsupposeJaspermadethegirloutwithhislongglass。Whatdoeshedo?Insteadofstandingonforanothermileandahalfalongtheshoalsandthentackingfortheanchorageinaproperandseamanlikemanner,hespiesagapbetweentwodisgustingoldjaggedreefs,putsthehelmdownsuddenly,andshootsthebrigthrough,withallhersailsshakingandrattling,sothatwecouldheartheracketontheverandah。Idrewmybreaththroughmyteeth,Icantellyou,andFreyaswore。Yes!Sheclenchedhercapablefistsandstampedwithherprettybrownbootandsaid\"Damn!\"Then,lookingatmewithalittleheightenedcolour—notmuch—sheremarked,\"Iforgotyouwerethere,\"andlaughed。Tobesure,tobesure。WhenJasperwasinsightshewasnotlikelytorememberthatanybodyelseintheworldwasthere。InmyconcernatthismadtrickIcouldn’thelpappealingtohersympatheticcommonsense。
\"Isn’theafool?\"Isaidwithfeeling。
\"Perfectidiot,\"sheagreedwarmly,lookingatmestraightwithherwide—open,earnesteyesandthedimpleofasmileonhercheek。
\"Andthat,\"Ipointedouttoher,\"justtosavetwentyminutesorsoinmeetingyou。\"
Weheardtheanchorgodown,andthenshebecameveryresoluteandthreatening。
\"Waitabit。I’llteachhim。\"
Shewentintoherownroomandshutthedoor,leavingmealoneontheverandahwithmyinstructions。Longbeforethebrig’ssailswerefurled,Jaspercameupthreestepsatatime,forgettingtosayhowd’yedo,andlookingrightandlefteagerly。
\"Where’sFreya?Wasn’tsheherejustnow?\"
WhenIexplainedtohimthathewastobedeprivedofMissFreya’spresenceforawholehour,\"justtoteachhim,\"hesaidIhadputheruptoit,nodoubt,andthathefearedhewouldhaveyettoshootmesomeday。SheandIweregettingtoothicktogether。
Thenheflunghimselfintoachair,andtriedtotalktomeabouthistrip。Butthefunnythingwasthatthefellowactuallysuffered。Icouldseeit。Hisvoicefailedhim,andhesattheredumb,lookingatthedoorwiththefaceofamaninpain。Fact……Andthenextstillfunnierthingwasthatthegirlcalmlywalkedoutofherroominlessthantenminutes。AndthenIleft。
ImeantosaythatIwentawaytoseekoldNelson(orNielsen)onthebackverandah,whichwashisownspecialnookinthedistributionofthathouse,withthekindpurposeofengaginghiminconversationlestheshouldstartroamingaboutandintrudeunwittinglywherehewasnotwantedjustthen。
Heknewthatthebrighadarrived,thoughhedidnotknowthatJasperwasalreadywithhisdaughter。Isupposehedidn’tthinkitwaspossibleinthetime。Afathernaturallywouldn’t。HesuspectedthatAllenwassweetonhisgirl;thefowlsoftheairandthefishesofthesea,mostofthetradersintheArchipelago,andallsortsandconditionsofmeninthetownofSingaporewereawareofit。Buthewasnotcapableofappreciatinghowfarthegirlwasgoneonthefellow。HehadanideathatFreyawastoosensibletoeverbegoneonanybody—Imeantoanunmanageableextent。No;itwasnotthatwhichmadehimsitonthebackverandahandworryhimselfinhisunassumingmannerduringJasper’svisits。WhatheworriedaboutweretheDutch\"authorities。\"ForitisafactthattheDutchlookedaskanceatthedoingsofJasperAllen,ownerandmasterofthebrigBonito。Theyconsideredhimmuchtooenterprisinginhistrading。Idon’tknowthatheeverdidanythingillegal;butitseemstomethathisimmenseactivitywasrepulsivetotheirstolidcharacterandslow—goingmethods。
Anyway,inoldNelson’sopinion,thecaptainoftheBonitowasasmartsailor,andaniceyoungman,butnotadesirableacquaintanceuponthewhole。Somewhatcompromising,youunderstand。Ontheotherhand,hedidnotliketotellJasperinsomanywordstokeepaway。PooroldNelsonhimselfwasanicefellow。Ibelievehewouldhaveshrunkfromhurtingthefeelingsevenofamop—headedcannibal,unless,perhaps,underverystrongprovocation。Imeanthefeelings,notthebodies。Asagainstspears,knives,hatchets,clubs,orarrows,oldNelsonhadprovedhimselfcapableoftakinghisownpart。Ineveryotherrespecthehadatimoroussoul。Sohesatonthebackverandahwithaconcernedexpression,andwheneverthevoicesofhisdaughterandJasperAllenreachedhim,hewouldblowouthischeeksandlettheairescapewithadismalsound,likeamuchtriedman。
NaturallyIderidedhisfearswhichhe,moreorless,confidedtome。Hehadacertainregardformyjudgment,andacertainrespect,notformymoralqualities,however,butforthegoodtermsIwassupposedtobeonwiththeDutch\"authorities。\"Iknewforafactthathisgreatestbugbear,theGovernorofBanka—acharming,peppery,hearty,retiredrear—admiral—hadadistinctlikingforhim。ThisconsolingassurancewhichIusedalwaystoputforward,madeoldNelson(orNielsen)brightenupforamoment;
butintheendhewouldshakehisheaddoubtfully,asmuchastosaythatthiswasallverywell,butthatthereweredepthsintheDutchofficialnaturewhichnoonebuthimselfhadeverfathomed。
Perfectlyridiculous。
OnthisoccasionIamspeakingof,oldNelsonwasevenfretty;forwhileIwastryingtoentertainhimwithaveryfunnyandsomewhatscandalousadventurewhichhappenedtoacertainacquaintanceofoursinSaigon,heexclaimedsuddenly:
\"Whatthedevilhewantstoturnupherefor!\"
Clearlyhehadnotheardawordoftheanecdote。Andthisannoyedme,becausetheanecdotewasreallygood。Istaredathim。
\"Come,come!\"Icried。\"Don’tyouknowwhatJasperAllenisturningupherefor?\"
ThiswasthefirstopenallusionIhadevermadetothetruestateofaffairsbetweenJasperandhisdaughter。Hetookitverycalmly。
\"Oh,Freyaisasensiblegirl!\"hemurmuredabsently,hismind’seyeobviouslyfixedonthe\"authorities。\"No;Freyawasnofool。
Hewasnotconcernedaboutthat。Hedidn’tminditintheleast。
Thefellowwasjustcompanyforher;heamusedthegirl;nothingmore。
Whentheperspicaciousoldchapleftoffmumbling,allwasstillinthehouse。Theothertwowereamusingthemselvesveryquietly,andnodoubtveryheartily。Whatmoreabsorbingandlessnoisyamusementcouldtheyhavefoundthantoplantheirfuture?Sidebysideontheverandahtheymusthavebeenlookingatthebrig,thethirdpartyinthatfascinatinggame。Withouthertherewouldhavebeennofuture。Shewasthefortuneandthehome,andthegreatfreeworldforthem。Whowasitthatlikenedashiptoaprison?
MayIbeignominiouslyhangedatayardarmifthat’strue。Thewhitesailsofthatcraftwerethewhitewings—pinions,I
believe,wouldbethemorepoeticalstyle—well,thewhitepinions,oftheirsoaringlove。SoaringasregardsJasper。Freya,beingawoman,keptabetterholdofthemundaneconnectionsofthisaffair。
ButJasperwaselevatedinthetruesenseofthewordeversincethedaywhen,aftertheyhadbeengazingatthebriginoneofthosedecisivesilencesthataloneestablishaperfectcommunionbetweencreaturesgiftedwithspeech,heproposedthatsheshouldsharetheownershipofthattreasurewithhim。Indeed,hepresentedthebrigtoheraltogether。ButthenhisheartwasinthebrigsincethedayheboughtherinManillafromacertainmiddle—agedPeruvian,inasobersuitofblackbroadcloth,enigmaticandsententious,who,forallIknow,mighthavestolenherontheSouthAmericancoast,whencehesaidhehadcomeovertothePhilippines\"forfamilyreasons。\"This\"forfamilyreasons\"
wasdistinctlygood。NotrueCABALLEROwouldcaretopushoninquiriesaftersuchastatement。
Indeed,JasperwasquitetheCABALLERO。Thebrigherselfwasthenallblackandenigmatical,andverydirty;atarnishedgemofthesea,or,rather,aneglectedworkofart。Forhemusthavebeenanartist,theobscurebuilderwhohadputherbodytogetheronlovelylinesoutofthehardesttropicaltimberfastenedwiththepurestcopper。Goodnessonlyknowsinwhatpartoftheworldshewasbuilt。Jasperhimselfhadnotbeenabletoascertainmuchofherhistoryfromhissententious,saturninePeruvian—ifthefellowwasaPeruvian,andnotthedevilhimselfindisguise,asJasperjocularlypretendedtobelieve。Myopinionisthatshewasoldenoughtohavebeenoneofthelastpirates,aslaverperhaps,orelseanopiumclipperoftheearlydays,ifnotanopiumsmuggler。
Howeverthatmaybe,shewasassoundasonthedayshefirsttookthewater,sailedlikeawitch,steeredlikealittleboat,and,likesomefairwomenofadventurouslifefamousinhistory,seemedtohavethesecretofperpetualyouth;sothattherewasnothingunnaturalinJasperAllentreatingherlikealover。Andthattreatmentrestoredthelustreofherbeauty。Heclothedherinmanycoatsoftheverybestwhitepaintsoskilfully,carefully,artisticallyputonandkeptcleanbyhisbadgeredcrewofpickedMalays,thatnocostlyenamelsuchasjewellersusefortheirworkcouldhavelookedbetterandfeltsmoothertothetouch。Anarrowgiltmouldingdefinedherelegantsheerasshesatonthewater,eclipsingeasilytheprofessionalgoodlooksofanypleasureyachtthatevercametotheEastinthosedays。Formyself,ImustsayI
preferamouldingofdeepcrimsoncolouronawhitehull。Itgivesastrongerreliefbesidesbeinglessexpensive;andItoldJasperso。Butno,nothinglessthanthebestgold—leafwoulddo,becausenodecorationcouldbegorgeousenoughforthefutureabodeofhisFreya。
Hisfeelingsforthebrigandforthegirlwereasindissolublyunitedinhisheartasyoumayfusetwopreciousmetalstogetherinonecrucible。Andtheflamewasprettyhot,Icanassureyou。Itinducedinhimafierceinwardrestlessnessbothofactivityanddesire。Toofineinface,withalateralwaveinhischestnuthair,spare,long—limbed,withaneagerglintinhissteelyeyesandquick,brusquemovements,hemademethinksometimesofaflashingsword—bladeperpetuallyleapingoutofthescabbard。Itwasonlywhenhewasnearthegirl,whenhehadhertheretolookat,thatthispeculiarlytenseattitudewasreplacedbyagravedevoutwatchfulnessofherslightestmovementsandutterances。Hercool,resolute,capable,good—humouredself—possessionseemedtosteadyhisheart。Wasitthemagicofherface,ofhervoice,ofherglanceswhichcalmedhimso?Yettheseweretheverythingsonemustbelievewhichhadsethisimaginationablaze—iflovebeginsinimagination。ButIamnomantodiscusssuchmysteries,anditstrikesmethatwehaveneglectedpooroldNelsoninflatinghischeeksinastateofworryonthebackverandah。
Ipointedouttohimthat,afterall,Jasperwasnotaveryfrequentvisitor。HeandhisbrigworkedhardallovertheArchipelago。ButalloldNelsonsaid,andhesaidituneasily,was:
\"IhopeHeemskirkwon’tturnupherewhilethebrig’sabout。\"
GettingupascareaboutHeemskirknow!Heemskirk!……Really,onehadn’tthepatience—
CHAPTERII
For,pray,whowasHeemskirk?YoushallseeatoncehowunreasonablethisdreadofHeemskirk……Certainly,hisnaturewasmalevolentenough。Thatwasobvious,directlyyouheardhimlaugh。Nothinggivesawaymoreaman’ssecretdispositionthantheunguardedringofhislaugh。But,blessmysoul!ifweweretostartateveryevilguffawlikeahareateverysound,weshouldn’tbefitforanythingbutthesolitudeofadesert,ortheseclusionofahermitage。Andeventhereweshouldhavetoputupwiththeunavoidablecompanyofthedevil。
However,thedevilisaconsiderablepersonage,whohasknownbetterdaysandhasmovedhighupinthehierarchyofCelestialHost;butinthehierarchyofmereearthlyDutchmen,Heemskirk,whoseearlydayscouldnothavebeenverysplendid,wasmerelyanavalofficerfortyyearsofage,ofnoparticularconnectionsorabilitytoboastof。HewascommandingtheNeptun,alittlegunboatemployedondrearypatroldutyupanddowntheArchipelago,tolookafterthetraders。Notaveryexaltedpositiontruly。I
tellyou,justacommonmiddle—agedlieutenantofsometwenty—fiveyears’serviceandsuretoberetiredbeforelong—that’sall。
HeneverbotheredhisheadverymuchastowhatwasgoingonintheSevenIslesgrouptillhelearnedfromsometalkinMintokorPalembang,Isuppose,thattherewasaprettygirllivingthere。
Curiosity,Ipresume,causedhimtogopokingaroundthatway,andthen,afterhehadonceseenFreya,hemadeapracticeofcallingatthegroupwheneverhefoundhimselfwithinhalfaday’ssteamingfromit。