第5章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph Conrad字数:22049更新时间:19/01/07 08:53:10
\"Turnthehandsup,\"Icriedthroughthedoor。\"I’llbeondeckdirectly。\" Iwasgoingouttomaketheacquaintanceofmyship。BeforeIleftthecabinoureyesmet—theeyesoftheonlytwostrangersonboard。Ipointedtotherecessedpartwherethelittlecamp—stoolawaitedhimandlaidmyfingeronmylips。Hemadeagesture— somewhatvague—alittlemysterious,accompaniedbyafaintsmile,asifofregret。 Thisisnottheplacetoenlargeuponthesensationsofamanwhofeelsforthefirsttimeashipmoveunderhisfeettohisownindependentword。Inmycasetheywerenotunalloyed。Iwasnotwhollyalonewithmycommand;fortherewasthatstrangerinmycabin。Orrather,Iwasnotcompletelyandwhollywithher。Partofmewasabsent。Thatmentalfeelingofbeingintwoplacesatonceaffectedmephysicallyasifthemoodofsecrecyhadpenetratedmyverysoul。Beforeanhourhadelapsedsincetheshiphadbeguntomove,havingoccasiontoaskthemate(hestoodbymyside)totakeacompassbearingofthePagoda,Icaughtmyselfreachinguptohisearinwhispers。IsayIcaughtmyself,butenoughhadescapedtostartletheman。Ican’tdescribeitotherwisethanbysayingthatheshied。Agrave,preoccupiedmanner,asthoughhewereinpossessionofsomeperplexingintelligence,didnotleavehimhenceforth。AlittlelaterImovedawayfromtherailtolookatthecompasswithsuchastealthygaitthatthehelmsmannoticedit—andIcouldnothelpnoticingtheunusualroundnessofhiseyes。Thesearetriflinginstances,thoughit’stonocommander’sadvantagetobesuspectedofludicrouseccentricities。ButIwasalsomoreseriouslyaffected。 Therearetoaseamancertainwords,gestures,thatshouldingivenconditionscomeasnaturally,asinstinctivelyasthewinkingofamenacedeye。Acertainordershouldspringontohislipswithoutthinking;acertainsignshouldgetitselfmade,sotospeak,withoutreflection。Butallunconsciousalertnesshadabandonedme。Ihadtomakeaneffortofwilltorecallmyselfback(fromthecabin)totheconditionsofthemoment。IfeltthatIwasappearinganirresolutecommandertothosepeoplewhowerewatchingmemoreorlesscritically。 And,besides,therewerethescares。Ontheseconddayout,forinstance,comingoffthedeckintheafternoon(Ihadstrawslippersonmybarefeet)Istoppedattheopenpantrydoorandspoketothesteward。Hewasdoingsomethingtherewithhisbacktome。Atthesoundofmyvoicehenearlyjumpedoutofhisskin,asthesayingis,andincidentallybrokeacup。 \"Whatonearth’sthematterwithyou?\"Iasked,astonished。 Hewasextremelyconfused。\"Begyourpardon,sir。Imadesureyouwereinyourcabin。\" \"YouseeIwasn’t。\" \"No,sir。IcouldhaveswornIhadheardyoumovingintherenotamomentago。It’smostextraordinary……verysorry,sir。\" Ipassedonwithaninwardshudder。IwassoidentifiedwithmysecretdoublethatIdidnotevenmentionthefactinthosescanty,fearfulwhispersweexchanged。Isupposehehadmadesomeslightnoiseofsomekindorother。Itwouldhavebeenmiraculousifhehadn’tatonetimeoranother。Andyet,haggardasheappeared,helookedalwaysperfectlyself—controlled,morethancalm—almostinvulnerable。Onmysuggestionheremainedalmostentirelyinthebathroom,which,uponthewhole,wasthesafestplace。Therecouldbereallynoshadowofanexcuseforanyoneeverwantingtogointhere,oncethestewardhaddonewithit。Itwasaverytinyplace。Sometimeshereclinedonthefloor,hislegsbent,hisheadsustainedononeelbow。AtothersIwouldfindhimonthecamp— stool,sittinginhisgreysleeping—suitandwithhiscroppeddarkhairlikeapatient,unmovedconvict。AtnightIwouldsmugglehimintomybed—place,andwewouldwhispertogether,withtheregularfootfallsoftheofficerofthewatchpassingandrepassingoverourheads。Itwasaninfinitelymiserabletime。Itwasluckythatsometinsoffinepreserveswerestowedinalockerinmystateroom;hardbreadIcouldalwaysgetholdof;andsohelivedonstewedchicken,patedefoiegras,asparagus,cookedoysters,sardines—onallsortsofabominableshamdelicaciesoutoftins。 Myearlymorningcoffeehealwaysdrank;anditwasallIdareddoforhiminthatrespect。 Everydaytherewasthehorriblemanoeuvringtogothroughsothatmyroomandthenthebath—roomshouldbedoneintheusualway。I cametohatethesightofthesteward,toabhorthevoiceofthatharmlessman。Ifeltthatitwashewhowouldbringonthedisasterofdiscovery。Ithunglikeaswordoverourheads。 Thefourthdayout,Ithink(wewerethenworkingdowntheeastsideoftheGulfofSiam,tackfortack,inlightwindsandsmoothwater)—thefourthday,Isay,ofthismiserablejugglingwiththeunavoidable,aswesatatoureveningmeal,thatman,whoseslightestmovementIdreaded,afterputtingdownthedishesranupondeckbusily。Thiscouldnotbedangerous。Presentlyhecamedownagain;andthenitappearedthathehadrememberedacoatofminewhichIhadthrownoverarailtodryafterhavingbeenwettedinashowerwhichhadpassedovertheshipintheafternoon。 SittingstolidlyattheheadofthetableIbecameterrifiedatthesightofthegarmentonhisarm。Ofcoursehemadeformydoor。 Therewasnotimetolose。 \"Steward,\"Ithundered。MynervesweresoshakenthatIcouldnotgovernmyvoiceandconcealmyagitation。Thiswasthesortofthingthatmademyterrificallywhiskeredmatetaphisforeheadwithhisforefinger。Ihaddetectedhimusingthatgesturewhiletalkingondeckwithaconfidentialairtothecarpenter。Itwastoofartohearaword,butIhadnodoubtthatthispantomimecouldonlyrefertothestrangenewcaptain。 \"Yes,sir,\"thepale—facedstewardturnedresignedlytome。Itwasthismaddeningcourseofbeingshoutedat,checkedwithoutrhymeorreason,arbitrarilychasedoutofmycabin,suddenlycalledintoit,sentflyingoutofhispantryonincomprehensibleerrands,thataccountedforthegrowingwretchednessofhisexpression。 \"Whereareyougoingwiththatcoat?\" \"Toyourroom,sir。\" \"Isthereanothershowercoming?\" \"I’msureIdon’tknow,sir。ShallIgoupagainandsee,sir?\" \"No!nevermind。\" Myobjectwasattained,asofcoursemyotherselfintherewouldhaveheardeverythingthatpassed。Duringthisinterludemytwoofficersneverraisedtheireyesofftheirrespectiveplates;butthelipofthatconfoundedcub,thesecondmate,quiveredvisibly。 Iexpectedthestewardtohookmycoatonandcomeoutatonce。Hewasveryslowaboutit;butIdominatedmynervousnesssufficientlynottoshoutafterhim。SuddenlyIbecameaware(itcouldbeheardplainlyenough)thatthefellowforsomereasonorotherwasopeningthedoorofthebath—room。Itwastheend。Theplacewasliterallynotbigenoughtoswingacatin。MyvoicediedinmythroatandIwentstonyallover。Iexpectedtohearayellofsurpriseandterror,andmadeamovement,buthadnotthestrengthtogetonmylegs。Everythingremainedstill。Hadmysecondselftakenthepoorwretchbythethroat?Idon’tknowwhatIwouldhavedonenextmomentifIhadnotseenthestewardcomeoutofmyroom,closethedoor,andthenstandquietlybythesideboard。 \"Saved,\"Ithought。\"But,no!Lost!Gone!Hewasgone!\" Ilaidmyknifeandforkdownandleanedbackinmychair。Myheadswam。Afterawhile,whensufficientlyrecoveredtospeakinasteadyvoice,Iinstructedmymatetoputtheshiproundateighto’clockhimself。 \"Iwon’tcomeondeck,\"Iwenton。\"IthinkI’llturnin,andunlessthewindshiftsIdon’twanttobedisturbedbeforemidnight。Ifeelabitseedy。\" \"Youdidlookmiddlingbadalittlewhileago,\"thechiefmateremarkedwithoutshowinganygreatconcern。 Theybothwentout,andIstaredatthestewardclearingthetable。 Therewasnothingtobereadonthatwretchedman’sface。ButwhydidheavoidmyeyesIaskedmyself。ThenIthoughtIshouldliketohearthesoundofhisvoice。 \"Steward!\" \"Sir!\"Startledasusual。 \"Wheredidyouhangupthatcoat?\" \"Inthebath—room,sir。\"Theusualanxioustone。\"It’snotquitedryyet,sir。\" ForsometimelongerIsatinthecuddy。Hadmydoublevanishedashehadcome?Butofhiscomingtherewasanexplanation,whereashisdisappearancewouldbeinexplicable……Iwentslowlyintomydarkroom,shutthedoor,lightedthelamp,andforatimedarednotturnround。WhenatlastIdidIsawhimstandingbolt—uprightinthenarrowrecessedpart。ItwouldnotbetruetosayIhadashock,butanirresistibledoubtofhisbodilyexistenceflittedthroughmymind。Canitbe,Iaskedmyself,thatheisnotvisibletoothereyesthanmine?Itwaslikebeinghaunted。Motionless,withagraveface,heraisedhishandsslightlyatmeinagesturewhichmeantclearly,\"Heavens!whatanarrowescape!\"Narrowindeed。IthinkIhadcomecreepingquietlyasnearinsanityasanymanwhohasnotactuallygoneovertheborder。Thatgesturerestrainedme,sotospeak。 Thematewiththeterrificwhiskerswasnowputtingtheshipontheothertack。InthemomentofprofoundsilencewhichfollowsuponthehandsgoingtotheirstationsIheardonthepoophisraisedvoice:\"Hardalee!\"andthedistantshoutoftheorderrepeatedonthemaindeck。Thesails,inthatlightbreeze,madebutafaintflutteringnoise。Itceased。Theshipwascomingroundslowly;I heldmybreathintherenewedstillnessofexpectation;onewouldn’thavethoughtthattherewasasinglelivingsoulonherdecks。Asuddenbriskshout,\"Mainsailhaul!\"brokethespell,andinthenoisycriesandrushoverheadofthemenrunningawaywiththemain—bracewetwo,downinmycabin,cametogetherinourusualpositionbythebed—place。 Hedidnotwaitformyquestion。\"Iheardhimfumblinghereandjustmanagedtosquatmyselfdowninthebath,\"hewhisperedtome。 \"Thefellowonlyopenedthedoorandputhisarmintohangthecoatup。Allthesame—\" \"Ineverthoughtofthat,\"Iwhisperedback,evenmoreappalledthanbeforeattheclosenessoftheshave,andmarvellingatthatsomethingunyieldinginhischaracterwhichwascarryinghimthroughsofinely。Therewasnoagitationinhiswhisper。Whoeverwasbeingdrivendistracted,itwasnothe。Hewassane。Andtheproofofhissanitywascontinuedwhenhetookupthewhisperingagain。 \"Itwouldneverdoformetocometolifeagain。\" Itwassomethingthataghostmighthavesaid。Butwhathewasalludingtowashisoldcaptain’sreluctantadmissionofthetheoryofsuicide。Itwouldobviouslyservehisturn—ifIhadunderstoodatalltheviewwhichseemedtogoverntheunalterablepurposeofhisaction。 \"YoumustmaroonmeassoonaseveryoucangetamongsttheseislandsofftheCambodjeshore,\"hewenton。 \"Maroonyou!Wearenotlivinginaboy’sadventuretale,\"I protested。Hisscornfulwhisperingtookmeup。 \"Wearen’tindeed!There’snothingofaboy’staleinthis。Butthere’snothingelseforit。Iwantnomore。Youdon’tsupposeI amafraidofwhatcanbedonetome?Prisonorgallowsorwhatevertheymayplease。Butyoudon’tseemecomingbacktoexplainsuchthingstoanoldfellowinawigandtwelverespectabletradesmen,doyou?WhatcantheyknowwhetherIamguiltyornot—orofWHAT Iamguilty,either?That’smyaffair。WhatdoestheBiblesay? ’Drivenoffthefaceoftheearth。’Verywell。Iamoffthefaceoftheearthnow。AsIcameatnightsoIshallgo。\" \"Impossible!\"Imurmured。\"Youcan’t。\" \"Can’t?……NotnakedlikeasoulontheDayofJudgment。I shallfreezeontothissleeping—suit。TheLastDayisnotyet— andyouhaveunderstoodthoroughly。Didn’tyou?\" Ifeltsuddenlyashamedofmyself。ImaysaytrulythatI understood—andmyhesitationinlettingthatmanswimawayfrommyship’ssidehadbeenamereshamsentiment,asortofcowardice。 \"Itcan’tbedonenowtillnextnight,\"Ibreathedout。\"Theshipisontheoff—shoretackandthewindmayfailus。\" \"AslongasIknowthatyouunderstand,\"hewhispered。\"Butofcourseyoudo。It’sagreatsatisfactiontohavegotsomebodytounderstand。Youseemtohavebeenthereonpurpose。\"Andinthesamewhisper,asifwetwowheneverwetalkedhadtosaythingstoeachotherwhichwerenotfitfortheworldtohear,headded,\"It’sverywonderful。\"Weremainedsidebysidetalkinginoursecretway—butsometimessilentorjustexchangingawhisperedwordortwoatlongintervals。Andasusualhestaredthroughtheport。Abreathofwindcamenowandagainintoourfaces。Theshipmighthavebeenmooredindock,sogentlyandonanevenkeelsheslippedthroughthewater,thatdidnotmurmurevenatourpassage,shadowyandsilentlikeaphantomsea。 AtmidnightIwentondeck,andtomymate’sgreatsurpriseputtheshiproundontheothertack。Histerriblewhiskersflittedroundmeinsilentcriticism。Icertainlyshouldnothavedoneitifithadbeenonlyaquestionofgettingoutofthatsleepygulfasquicklyaspossible。Ibelievehetoldthesecondmate,whorelievedhim,thatitwasagreatwantofjudgment。Theotheronlyyawned。Thatintolerablecubshuffledaboutsosleepilyandlolledagainsttherailsinsuchaslack,improperfashionthatIcamedownonhimsharply。 \"Aren’tyouproperlyawakeyet?\" \"Yes,sir!Iamawake。\" \"Well,then,begoodenoughtoholdyourselfasifyouwere。Andkeepalook—out。Ifthere’sanycurrentwe’llbeclosingwithsomeislandsbeforedaylight。\" Theeastsideofthegulfisfringedwithislands,somesolitary,othersingroups。Onthebluebackgroundofthehighcoasttheyseemtofloatonsilverypatchesofcalmwater,aridandgrey,ordarkgreenandroundedlikeclumpsofevergreenbushes,withthelargerones,amileortwolong,showingtheoutlinesofridges,ribsofgreyrockunderthedankmantleofmattedleafage。Unknowntotrade,totravel,almosttogeography,themanneroflifetheyharbourisanunsolvedsecret。Theremustbevillages— settlementsoffishermenatleast—onthelargestofthem,andsomecommunicationwiththeworldisprobablykeptupbynativecraft。Butallthatforenoon,asweheadedforthem,fannedalongbythefaintestofbreezes,IsawnosignofmanorcanoeinthefieldofthetelescopeIkeptonpointingatthescatteredgroup。 AtnoonIgavenoordersforachangeofcourse,andthemate’swhiskersbecamemuchconcernedandseemedtobeofferingthemselvesundulytomynotice。AtlastIsaid: \"Iamgoingtostandrightin。Quitein—asfarasIcantakeher。\" Thestareofextremesurpriseimpartedanairofferocityalsotohiseyes,andhelookedtrulyterrificforamoment。 \"We’renotdoingwellinthemiddleofthegulf,\"Icontinued,casually。\"Iamgoingtolookforthelandbreezesto—night。\" \"Blessmysoul!Doyoumean,sir,inthedarkamongstthelotofallthemislandsandreefsandshoals?\" \"Well—ifthereareanyregularlandbreezesatallonthiscoastonemustgetcloseinshoretofindthem,mustn’tone?\" \"Blessmysoul!\"heexclaimedagainunderhisbreath。Allthatafternoonheworeadreamy,contemplativeappearancewhichinhimwasamarkofperplexity。AfterdinnerIwentintomystateroomasifImeanttotakesomerest。Therewetwobentourdarkheadsoverahalf—unrolledchartlyingonmybed。 \"There,\"Isaid。\"It’sgottobeKoh—ring。I’vebeenlookingatiteversincesunrise。Ithasgottwohillsandalowpoint。Itmustbeinhabited。Andonthecoastoppositethereiswhatlookslikethemouthofabiggishriver—withsometown,nodoubt,notfarup。It’sthebestchanceforyouthatIcansee。\" \"Anything。Koh—ringletitbe。\" Helookedthoughtfullyatthechartasifsurveyingchancesanddistancesfromaloftyheight—andfollowingwithhiseyeshisownfigurewanderingontheblanklandofCochin—China,andthenpassingoffthatpieceofpapercleanoutofsightintounchartedregions。Anditwasasiftheshiphadtwocaptainstoplanhercourseforher。IhadbeensoworriedandrestlessrunningupanddownthatIhadnothadthepatiencetodressthatday。Ihadremainedinmysleeping—suit,withstrawslippersandasoftfloppyhat。Theclosenessoftheheatinthegulfhadbeenmostoppressive,andthecrewwereusedtoseemewanderinginthatairyattire。 \"Shewillclearthesouthpointassheheadsnow,\"Iwhisperedintohisear。\"Goodnessonlyknowswhen,though,butcertainlyafterdark。I’lledgeherintohalfamile,asfarasImaybeabletojudgeinthedark—\" \"Becareful,\"hemurmured,warningly—andIrealisedsuddenlythatallmyfuture,theonlyfutureforwhichIwasfit,wouldperhapsgoirretrievablytopiecesinanymishaptomyfirstcommand。 Icouldnotstopamomentlongerintheroom。Imotionedhimtogetoutofsightandmademywayonthepoop。Thatunplayfulcubhadthewatch。Iwalkedupanddownforawhilethinkingthingsout,thenbeckonedhimover。 \"Sendacoupleofhandstoopenthetwoquarterdeckports,\"Isaid,mildly。 Heactuallyhadtheimpudence,orelsesoforgothimselfinhiswonderatsuchanincomprehensibleorder,astorepeat: \"Openthequarter—deckports!Whatfor,sir?\" \"TheonlyreasonyouneedconcernyourselfaboutisbecauseItellyoutodoso。Havethemopenwideandfastenedproperly。\" Hereddenedandwentoff,butIbelievemadesomejeeringremarktothecarpenterastothesensiblepracticeofventilatingaship’squarter—deck。Iknowhepoppedintothemate’scabintoimpartthefacttohimbecausethewhiskerscameondeck,asitwerebychance,andstoleglancesatmefrombelow—forsignsoflunacyordrunkenness,Isuppose。 Alittlebeforesupper,feelingmorerestlessthanever,I rejoined,foramoment,mysecondself。Andtofindhimsittingsoquietlywassurprising,likesomethingagainstnature,inhuman。 Idevelopedmyplaninahurriedwhisper。 \"IshallstandinascloseasIdareandthenputherround。I shallpresentlyfindmeanstosmuggleyououtofhereintothesail—locker,whichcommunicateswiththelobby。Butthereisanopening,asortofsquareforhaulingthesailsout,whichgivesstraightonthequarter—deckandwhichisneverclosedinfineweather,soastogiveairtothesails。’Whentheship’swayisdeadenedinstaysandallthehandsareaftatthemain—bracesyoushallhaveaclearroadtoslipoutandgetoverboardthroughtheopenquarter—deckport。I’vehadthembothfastenedup。Usearope’sendtoloweryourselfintothewatersoastoavoidasplash—youknow。Itcouldbeheardandcausesomebeastlycomplication。\" Hekeptsilentforawhile,thenwhispered,\"Iunderstand。\" \"Iwon’tbetheretoseeyougo,\"Ibeganwithaneffort。\"Therest……IonlyhopeIhaveunderstood,too。\" \"Youhave。Fromfirsttolast\"—andforthefirsttimethereseemedtobeafaltering,somethingstrainedinhiswhisper。Hecaughtholdofmyarm,buttheringingofthesupperbellmademestart。Hedidn’t,though;heonlyreleasedhisgrip。 AftersupperIdidn’tcomebelowagaintillwellpasteighto’clock。Thefaint,steadybreezewasloadedwithdew;andthewet,darkenedsailsheldalltherewasofpropellingpowerinit。 Thenight,clearandstarry,sparkleddarkly,andtheopaque,lightlesspatchesshiftingslowlyagainstthelowstarswerethedriftingislets。Ontheportbowtherewasabigonemoredistantandshadowilyimposingbythegreatspaceofskyiteclipsed。 OnopeningthedoorIhadabackviewofmyveryownselflookingatachart。Hehadcomeoutoftherecessandwasstandingnearthetable。 \"Quitedarkenough,\"Iwhispered。 Hesteppedbackandleanedagainstmybedwithalevel,quietglance。Isatonthecouch。Wehadnothingtosaytoeachother。 Overourheadstheofficerofthewatchmovedhereandthere。ThenIheardhimmovequickly。Iknewwhatthatmeant。Hewasmakingforthecompanion;andpresentlyhisvoicewasoutsidemydoor。 \"Wearedrawinginprettyfast,sir。Landlooksratherclose。\" \"Verywell,\"Ianswered。\"Iamcomingondeckdirectly。\" Iwaitedtillhewasgoneoutofthecuddy,thenrose。Mydoublemovedtoo。Thetimehadcometoexchangeourlastwhispers,forneitherofuswasevertoheareachother’snaturalvoice。 \"Lookhere!\"Iopenedadrawerandtookoutthreesovereigns。 \"Takethis,anyhow。I’vegotsixandI’dgiveyouthelot,onlyI mustkeepalittlemoneytobuysomefruitandvegetablesforthecrewfromnativeboatsaswegothroughSundaStraits。\" Heshookhishead。 \"Takeit,\"Iurgedhim,whisperingdesperately。\"Noonecantellwhat—\" Hesmiledandslappedmeaninglytheonlypocketofthesleeping— jacket。Itwasnotsafe,certainly。ButIproducedalargeoldsilkhandkerchiefofmine,andtyingthethreepiecesofgoldinacorner,presseditonhim。Hewastouched,Isuppose,becausehetookitatlastandtieditquicklyroundhiswaistunderthejacket,onhisbareskin。 Oureyesmet;severalsecondselapsed,till,ourglancesstillmingled,Iextendedmyhandandturnedthelampout。ThenIpassedthroughthecuddy,leavingthedoorofmyroomwideopen…… \"Steward!\" Hewasstilllingeringinthepantryinthegreatnessofhiszeal,givingarub—uptoaplatedcruetstandthelastthingbeforegoingtobed。Beingcarefulnottowakeupthemate,whoseroomwasopposite,Ispokeinanundertone。 Helookedroundanxiously。\"Sir!\" \"Canyougetmealittlehotwaterfromthegalley?\" \"Iamafraid,sir,thegalleyfire’sbeenoutforsometimenow。\" \"Goandsee。\" Hefledupthestairs。 \"Now,\"Iwhispered,loudly,intothesaloon—tooloudly,perhaps,butIwasafraidIcouldn’tmakeasound。Hewasbymysideinaninstant—thedoublecaptainslippedpastthestairs—throughatinydarkpassage……aslidingdoor。Wewereinthesail— locker,scramblingonourkneesoverthesails。Asuddenthoughtstruckme。Isawmyselfwanderingbarefooted,bareheaded,thesunbeatingonmydarkpoll。Isnatchedoffmyfloppyhatandtriedhurriedlyinthedarktoramitonmyotherself。Hedodgedandfendedoffsilently。Iwonderwhathethoughthadcometomebeforeheunderstoodandsuddenlydesisted。Ourhandsmetgropingly,lingeredunitedinasteady,motionlessclaspforasecond……Nowordwasbreathedbyeitherofuswhentheyseparated。 Iwasstandingquietlybythepantrydoorwhenthestewardreturned。 \"Sorry,sir。Kettlebarelywarm。ShallIlightthespirit—lamp?\" \"Nevermind。\" Icameoutondeckslowly。Itwasnowamatterofconsciencetoshavethelandascloseaspossible—fornowhemustgooverboardwhenevertheshipwasputinstays。Must!Therecouldbenogoingbackforhim。AfteramomentIwalkedovertoleewardandmyheartflewintomymouthatthenearnessofthelandonthebow。UnderanyothercircumstancesIwouldnothaveheldonaminutelonger。 Thesecondmatehadfollowedmeanxiously。 IlookedontillIfeltIcouldcommandmyvoice。\"Shewillweather,\"Isaidtheninaquiettone。\"Areyougoingtotrythat,sir?\"hestammeredoutincredulously。 Itooknonoticeofhimandraisedmytonejustenoughtobeheardbythehelmsman。 \"Keephergoodfull。\" \"Goodfull,sir。\" Thewindfannedmycheek,thesailsslept,theworldwassilent。 Thestrainofwatchingthedarkloomofthelandgrowbiggeranddenserwastoomuchforme。Ihadshutmyeyes—becausetheshipmustgocloser。Shemust!Thestillnesswasintolerable。Werewestandingstill? WhenIopenedmyeyesthesecondviewstartedmyheartwithathump。TheblacksouthernhillofKoh—ringseemedtohangrightovertheshiplikeatoweringfragmentoftheeverlastingnight。 Onthatenormousmassofblacknesstherewasnotagleamtobeseen,notasoundtobeheard。Itwasglidingirresistiblytowardusandyetseemedalreadywithinreachofthehand。Isawthevaguefiguresofthewatchgroupedinthewaist,gazinginawedsilence。 \"Areyougoingon,sir,\"inquiredanunsteadyvoiceatmyelbow。 Iignoredit。Ihadtogoon。 \"Keepherfull。Don’tcheckherway。Thatwon’tdonow,\"Isaid,warningly。 \"Ican’tseethesailsverywell,\"thehelmsmanansweredme,instrange,quaveringtones。 Wasshecloseenough?Alreadyshewas,Iwon’tsayintheshadowoftheland,butintheveryblacknessofit,alreadyswallowedupasitwere,gonetooclosetoberecalled,gonefrommealtogether。 \"Givethemateacall,\"Isaidtotheyoungmanwhostoodatmyelbowasstillasdeath。\"Andturnallhandsup。\" Mytonehadaborrowedloudnessreverberatedfromtheheightoftheland。Severalvoicescriedouttogether:\"Weareallondeck,sir。\" Thenstillnessagain,withthegreatshadowglidingcloser,toweringhigher,withoutalight,withoutasound。SuchahushhadfallenontheshipthatshemighthavebeenabarkofthedeadfloatinginslowlyundertheverygateofErebus。 \"MyGod!Wherearewe?\" Itwasthematemoaningatmyelbow。Hewasthunderstruck,andasitweredeprivedofthemoralsupportofhiswhiskers。Heclappedhishandsandabsolutelycriedout,\"Lost!\" \"Bequiet,\"Isaid,sternly。 Heloweredhistone,butIsawtheshadowygestureofhisdespair。 \"Whatarewedoinghere?\" \"Lookingforthelandwind。\" Hemadeasiftotearhishair,andaddressedmerecklessly。 \"Shewillnevergetout。Youhavedoneit,sir。Iknewit’dendinsomethinglikethis。Shewillneverweather,andyouaretooclosenowtostay。She’lldriftashorebeforeshe’sround。OmyGod!\" Icaughthisarmashewasraisingittobatterhispoordevotedhead,andshookitviolently。 \"She’sashorealready,\"hewailed,tryingtotearhimselfaway。 \"Isshe?……Keepgoodfullthere!\" \"Goodfull,sir,\"criedthehelmsmaninafrightened,thin,child— likevoice。 Ihadn’tletgothemate’sarmandwentonshakingit。\"Readyabout,doyouhear?Yougoforward\"—shake—\"andstopthere\"— shake—\"andholdyournoise\"—shake—\"andseethesehead—sheetsproperlyoverhauled\"—shake,shake—shake。 AndallthetimeIdarednotlooktowardthelandlestmyheartshouldfailme。Ireleasedmygripatlastandheranforwardasiffleeingfordearlife。 Iwonderedwhatmydoublethereinthesail—lockerthoughtofthiscommotion。Hewasabletoheareverything—andperhapshewasabletounderstandwhy,onmyconscience,ithadtobethusclose— noless。Myfirstorder\"Hardalee!\"re—echoedominouslyunderthetoweringshadowofKoh—ringasifIhadshoutedinamountaingorge。AndthenIwatchedthelandintently。Inthatsmoothwaterandlightwinditwasimpossibletofeeltheshipcoming—to。No! Icouldnotfeelher。Andmysecondselfwasmakingnowreadytoslipoutandlowerhimselfoverboard。Perhapshewasgonealready……? Thegreatblackmassbroodingoverourverymastheadsbegantopivotawayfromtheship’ssidesilently。AndnowIforgotthesecretstrangerreadytodepart,andrememberedonlythatIwasatotalstrangertotheship。Ididnotknowher。Wouldshedoit? Howwasshetobehandled? Iswungthemainyardandwaitedhelplessly。Shewasperhapsstopped,andherveryfatehunginthebalance,withtheblackmassofKoh—ringlikethegateoftheeverlastingnighttoweringoverhertaffrail。Whatwouldshedonow?Hadshewayonheryet?I steppedtothesideswiftly,andontheshadowywaterIcouldseenothingexceptafaintphosphorescentflashrevealingtheglassysmoothnessofthesleepingsurface。Itwasimpossibletotell— andIhadnotlearnedyetthefeelofmyship。Wasshemoving? WhatIneededwassomethingeasilyseen,apieceofpaper,whichI couldthrowoverboardandwatch。Ihadnothingonme。TorundownforitIdidn’tdare。Therewasnotime。Allatoncemystrained,yearningstaredistinguishedawhiteobjectfloatingwithinayardoftheship’sside。Whiteontheblackwater。Aphosphorescentflashpassedunderit。Whatwasthatthing?……Irecognisedmyownfloppyhat。Itmusthavefallenoffhishead……andhedidn’tbother。 NowIhadwhatIwanted—thesavingmarkformyeyes。ButI hardlythoughtofmyotherself,nowgonefromtheship,tobehiddenforeverfromallfriendlyfaces,tobeafugitiveandavagabondontheearth,withnobrandofthecurseonhissaneforeheadtostayaslayinghand……tooproudtoexplain。 AndIwatchedthehat—theexpressionofmysuddenpityforhismereflesh。Ithadbeenmeanttosavehishomelessheadfromthedangersofthesun。Andnow—behold—itwassavingtheship,byservingmeforamarktohelpouttheignoranceofmystrangeness。 Ha!Itwasdriftingforward,warningmejustintimethattheshiphadgatheredsternway。 \"Shiftthehelm,\"Isaidinalowvoicetotheseamanstandingstilllikeastatue。 Theman’seyesglistenedwildlyinthebinnaclelightashejumpedroundtotheothersideandspunroundthewheel。 Iwalkedtothebreakofthepoop。Ontheovershadoweddeckallhandsstoodbytheforebraceswaitingformyorder。Thestarsaheadseemedtobeglidingfromrighttoleft。AndallwassostillintheworldthatIheardthequietremark\"She’sround,\" passedinatoneofintensereliefbetweentwoseamen。 \"Letgoandhaul。\" Theforeyardsranroundwithagreatnoise,amidstcheerycries。 Andnowthefrightfulwhisker’smadethemselvesheardgivingvariousorders。Alreadytheshipwasdrawingahead。AndIwasalonewithher。Nothing!nooneintheworldshouldstandnowbetweenus,throwingashadowonthewayofsilentknowledgeandmuteaffection,theperfectcommunionofaseamanwithhisfirstcommand。 Walkingtothetaffrail,Iwasintimetomakeout,ontheveryedgeofadarknessthrownbyatoweringblackmassliketheverygatewayofErebus—yes,Iwasintimetocatchanevanescentglimpseofmywhitehatleftbehindtomarkthespotwherethesecretsharerofmycabinandofmythoughts,asthoughheweremysecondself,hadloweredhimselfintothewatertotakehispunishment:afreeman,aproudswimmerstrikingoutforanewdestiny。 FREYAOFTHESEVENISLES Oneday—andthatdaywasmanyyearsagonow—Ireceivedalong,chattyletterfromoneofmyoldchumsandfellow—wanderersinEasternwaters。Hewasstilloutthere,butsettleddown,andmiddle—aged;Iimaginedhim—grownportlyinfigureanddomesticinhishabits;inshort,overtakenbythefatecommontoallexcepttothosewho,beingspeciallybelovedbythegods,getknockedontheheadearly。Theletterwasofthereminiscent\"doyouremember\"kind—awistfulletterofbackwardglances。And,amongstotherthings,\"surelyyourememberoldNelson,\"hewrote。 RememberoldNelson!Certainly。Andtobeginwith,hisnamewasnotNelson。TheEnglishmenintheArchipelagocalledhimNelsonbecauseitwasmoreconvenient,Isuppose,andheneverprotested。 Itwouldhavebeenmerepedantry。ThetrueformofhisnamewasNielsen。HehadcomeoutEastlongbeforetheadventoftelegraphcables,hadservedEnglishfirms,hadmarriedanEnglishgirl,hadbeenoneofusforyears,tradingandsailinginalldirectionsthroughtheEasternArchipelago,acrossandaround,transversely,diagonally,perpendicularly,insemi—circles,andzigzags,andfiguresofeights,foryearsandyears。 TherewasnonookorcrannyofthesetropicalwatersthattheenterpriseofoldNelson(orNielsen)hadnotpenetratedinaneminentlypacificway。Histracks,ifplottedout,wouldhavecoveredthemapoftheArchipelagolikeacobweb—allofit,withthesoleexceptionofthePhilippines。Hewouldneverapproachthatpart,fromastrangedreadofSpaniards,or,tobeexact,oftheSpanishauthorities。Whatheimaginedtheycoulddotohimitisimpossibletosay。PerhapsatsometimeinhislifehehadreadsomestoriesoftheInquisition。 Buthewasingeneralafraidofwhathecalled\"authorities\";nottheEnglishauthorities,whichhetrustedandrespected,buttheothertwoofthatpartoftheworld。HewasnotsohorrifiedattheDutchashewasattheSpaniards,buthewasevenmoremistrustfulofthem。Verymistrustfulindeed。TheDutch,inhisview,werecapableof\"playinganyuglytrickonaman\"whohadthemisfortunetodispleasethem。Thereweretheirlawsandregulations,buttheyhadnonotionoffairplayinapplyingthem。 Itwasreallypitiabletoseetheanxiouscircumspectionofhisdealingswithsomeofficialorother,andrememberthatthismanhadbeenknowntostrolluptoavillageofcannibalsinNewGuineainaquiet,fearlessmanner(andnotethathewasalwaysfleshyallhislife,and,ifImaysayso,anappetisingmorsel)onsomematterofbarterthatdidnotamountperhapstofiftypoundsintheend。 RememberoldNelson!Rather!Truly,noneofusinmygenerationhadknownhiminhisactivedays。Hewas\"retired\"inourtime。 Hehadbought,orelseleased,partofasmallislandfromtheSultanofalittlegroupcalledtheSevenIsles,notfarnorthfromBanka。Itwas,Isuppose,alegitimatetransaction,butIhavenodoubtthathadhebeenanEnglishmantheDutchwouldhavediscoveredareasontofirehimoutwithoutceremony。Inthisconnectiontherealformofhisnamestoodhimingoodstead。InthecharacterofanunassumingDanewhoseconductwasmostcorrect,theylethimbe。Withallhismoneyengagedincultivationhewasnaturallycarefulnottogiveeventheshadowofoffence,anditwasmostlyforprudentialreasonsofthatsortthathedidnotlookwithafavourableeyeonJasperAllen。Butofthatlater。Yes! OnerememberedwellenougholdNelson’sbig,hospitablebungalowerectedonashelvingpointofland,hisportlyform,costumedgenerallyinawhiteshirtandtrousers(hehadaconfirmedhabitoftakingoffhisalpacajacketontheslightestprovocation),hisroundblueeyes,hisstraggly,sandy—whitemoustachestickingoutallwayslikethequillsofthefretfulporcupine,hispropensitytositdownsuddenlyandfanhimselfwithhishat。Butthere’snouseconcealingthefactthatwhatonerememberedreallywashisdaughter,whoatthattimecameouttolivewithhim—andbeasortofLadyoftheIsles。 FreyaNelson(orNielsen)wasthekindofgirloneremembers。Theovalofherfacewasperfect;andwithinthatfascinatingframethemosthappydispositionoflineandfeature,withanadmirablecomplexion,gaveanimpressionofhealth,strength,andwhatI mightcallunconsciousself—confidence—amostpleasantand,asitwere,whimsicaldetermination。Iwillnotcomparehereyestoviolets,becausetherealshadeoftheircolourwaspeculiar,notsodarkandmorelustrous。Theywereofthewide—openkind,andlookedatonefranklyineverymood。Ineverdidseethelong,darkeyelasheslowered—IdaresayJasperAllendid,beingaprivilegedperson—butIhavenodoubtthattheexpressionmusthavebeencharminginacomplexway。Shecould—Jaspertoldmeoncewithatouchinglyimbecileexultation—sitonherhair。I daresay,Idaresay。Itwasnotformetobeholdthesewonders;I wascontenttoadmiretheneatandbecomingwaysheusedtodoitupsoasnottoconcealthegoodshapeofherhead。Andthiswealthofhairwassoglossythatwhenthescreensofthewestverandahweredown,makingapleasanttwilightthere,orintheshadeofthegroveoffruit—treesnearthehouse,itseemedtogiveoutagoldenlightofitsown。 Shedressedgenerallyinawhitefrock,withaskirtofwalkinglength,showingherneat,laced,brownboots。Iftherewasanycolourabouthercostumeitwasjustabitofblueperhaps。Noexertionseemedtodistressher。Ihaveseenherlandfromthedinghyafteralongpullinthesun(sherowedherselfaboutagooddeal)withnoquickenedbreathandnotasinglehairoutofitsplace。Inthemorningwhenshecameoutontheverandahforthefirstlookwestward,Sumatraway,overthesea,sheseemedasfreshandsparklingasadewdrop。Butadewdropisevanescent,andtherewasnothingevanescentaboutFreya。Irememberherround,solidarmswiththefinewrists,andherbroad,capablehandswithtaperingfingers。 Idon’tknowwhethershewasactuallybornatsea,butIdoknowthatuptotwelveyearsofageshesailedaboutwithherparentsinvariousships。AfteroldNelsonlosthiswifeitbecameamatterofseriousconcernforhimwhattodowiththegirl。AkindladyinSingapore,touchedbyhisdumbgriefanddeplorableperplexity,offeredtotakechargeofFreya。Thisarrangementlastedsomesixyears,duringwhicholdNelson(orNielsen)\"retired\"andestablished,himselfonhisisland,andthenitwassettled(thekindladygoingawaytoEurope)thathisdaughtershouldjoinhim。 AsthefirstandmostimportantpreparationforthateventtheoldfelloworderedfromhisSingaporeagentaSteynandEbhart’s\"uprightgrand。\"Iwasthencommandingalittlesteamerintheislandtrade,anditfelltomylottotakeitouttohim,soI knowsomethingofFreya’s\"uprightgrand。\"Welandedtheenormouspacking—casewithdifficultyonaflatpieceofrockamongstsomebushes,nearlyknockingthebottomoutofoneofmyboatsinthecourseofthatnauticaloperation。Then,allmycrewassisting,engineersandfiremenincluded,bytheexerciseofmuchanxiousingenuity,andbymeansofrollers,levers,tackles,andinclinedplanesofsoapedplanks,toilinginthesunlikeancientEgyptiansatthebuildingofapyramid,wegotitasfarasthehouseandupontotheedgeofthewestverandah—whichwastheactualdrawing— roomofthebungalow。There,thecasebeingrippedoffcautiously,thebeautifulrosewoodmonsterstoodrevealedatlast。Inreverentexcitementwecoaxeditagainstthewallanddrewthefirstfreebreathoftheday。Itwascertainlytheheaviestmovableobjectonthatisletsincethecreationoftheworld。Thevolumeofsounditgaveoutinthatbungalow(whichactedasasounding—board)wasreallyastonishing。Itthunderedsweetlyrightoverthesea。 JasperAllentoldmethatearlyofamorningonthedeckoftheBonito(hiswonderfullyfastandprettybrig)hecouldhearFreyaplayingherscalesquitedistinctly。Butthefellowalwaysanchoredfoolishlyclosetothepoint,asItoldhimmorethanonce。Ofcourse,theseseasarealmostuniformlyserene,andtheSevenIslesisaparticularlycalmandcloudlessspotasarule。 Butstill,nowandagain,anafternoonthunderstormoverBanka,orevenoneoftheseviciousthicksqualls,fromthedistantSumatracoast,wouldmakeasuddensallyuponthegroup,envelopingitforacoupleofhoursinwhirlwindsandbluish—blackmurkofaparticularlysinisteraspect。Then,withtheloweredrattan— screensrattlingdesperatelyinthewindandthebungalowshakingallover,FreyawouldsitdowntothepianoandplayfierceWagnermusicintheflickerofblindingflashes,withthunderboltsfallingallround,enoughtomakeyourhairstandonend;andJasperwouldremainstockstillontheverandah,adoringthebackviewofhersupple,swayingfigure,themiraculoussheenofherfairhead,therapidhandsonthekeys,thewhitenapeofherneck—whilethebrig,downatthepointthere,surgedathercableswithinahundredyardsofnasty,shiny,blackrock—heads。Ugh! Andthis,ifyouplease,fornoreasonbutthat,whenhewentonboardatnightandlaidhisheadonthepillow,heshouldfeelthathewasasnearashecouldconvenientlygettohisFreyaslumberinginthebungalow。Didyouever!And,mind,thisbrigwasthehometobe—theirhome—thefloatingparadisewhichhewasgraduallyfittingoutlikeayachttosailhislifeblissfullyawayinwithFreya。Imbecile!Butthefellowwasalwaystakingchances。 Oneday,IrememberIwatchedwithFreyaontheverandahthebrigapproachingthepointfromthenorthward。IsupposeJaspermadethegirloutwithhislongglass。Whatdoeshedo?Insteadofstandingonforanothermileandahalfalongtheshoalsandthentackingfortheanchorageinaproperandseamanlikemanner,hespiesagapbetweentwodisgustingoldjaggedreefs,putsthehelmdownsuddenly,andshootsthebrigthrough,withallhersailsshakingandrattling,sothatwecouldheartheracketontheverandah。Idrewmybreaththroughmyteeth,Icantellyou,andFreyaswore。Yes!Sheclenchedhercapablefistsandstampedwithherprettybrownbootandsaid\"Damn!\"Then,lookingatmewithalittleheightenedcolour—notmuch—sheremarked,\"Iforgotyouwerethere,\"andlaughed。Tobesure,tobesure。WhenJasperwasinsightshewasnotlikelytorememberthatanybodyelseintheworldwasthere。InmyconcernatthismadtrickIcouldn’thelpappealingtohersympatheticcommonsense。 \"Isn’theafool?\"Isaidwithfeeling。 \"Perfectidiot,\"sheagreedwarmly,lookingatmestraightwithherwide—open,earnesteyesandthedimpleofasmileonhercheek。 \"Andthat,\"Ipointedouttoher,\"justtosavetwentyminutesorsoinmeetingyou。\" Weheardtheanchorgodown,andthenshebecameveryresoluteandthreatening。 \"Waitabit。I’llteachhim。\" Shewentintoherownroomandshutthedoor,leavingmealoneontheverandahwithmyinstructions。Longbeforethebrig’ssailswerefurled,Jaspercameupthreestepsatatime,forgettingtosayhowd’yedo,andlookingrightandlefteagerly。 \"Where’sFreya?Wasn’tsheherejustnow?\" WhenIexplainedtohimthathewastobedeprivedofMissFreya’spresenceforawholehour,\"justtoteachhim,\"hesaidIhadputheruptoit,nodoubt,andthathefearedhewouldhaveyettoshootmesomeday。SheandIweregettingtoothicktogether。 Thenheflunghimselfintoachair,andtriedtotalktomeabouthistrip。Butthefunnythingwasthatthefellowactuallysuffered。Icouldseeit。Hisvoicefailedhim,andhesattheredumb,lookingatthedoorwiththefaceofamaninpain。Fact……Andthenextstillfunnierthingwasthatthegirlcalmlywalkedoutofherroominlessthantenminutes。AndthenIleft。 ImeantosaythatIwentawaytoseekoldNelson(orNielsen)onthebackverandah,whichwashisownspecialnookinthedistributionofthathouse,withthekindpurposeofengaginghiminconversationlestheshouldstartroamingaboutandintrudeunwittinglywherehewasnotwantedjustthen。 Heknewthatthebrighadarrived,thoughhedidnotknowthatJasperwasalreadywithhisdaughter。Isupposehedidn’tthinkitwaspossibleinthetime。Afathernaturallywouldn’t。HesuspectedthatAllenwassweetonhisgirl;thefowlsoftheairandthefishesofthesea,mostofthetradersintheArchipelago,andallsortsandconditionsofmeninthetownofSingaporewereawareofit。Buthewasnotcapableofappreciatinghowfarthegirlwasgoneonthefellow。HehadanideathatFreyawastoosensibletoeverbegoneonanybody—Imeantoanunmanageableextent。No;itwasnotthatwhichmadehimsitonthebackverandahandworryhimselfinhisunassumingmannerduringJasper’svisits。WhatheworriedaboutweretheDutch\"authorities。\"ForitisafactthattheDutchlookedaskanceatthedoingsofJasperAllen,ownerandmasterofthebrigBonito。Theyconsideredhimmuchtooenterprisinginhistrading。Idon’tknowthatheeverdidanythingillegal;butitseemstomethathisimmenseactivitywasrepulsivetotheirstolidcharacterandslow—goingmethods。 Anyway,inoldNelson’sopinion,thecaptainoftheBonitowasasmartsailor,andaniceyoungman,butnotadesirableacquaintanceuponthewhole。Somewhatcompromising,youunderstand。Ontheotherhand,hedidnotliketotellJasperinsomanywordstokeepaway。PooroldNelsonhimselfwasanicefellow。Ibelievehewouldhaveshrunkfromhurtingthefeelingsevenofamop—headedcannibal,unless,perhaps,underverystrongprovocation。Imeanthefeelings,notthebodies。Asagainstspears,knives,hatchets,clubs,orarrows,oldNelsonhadprovedhimselfcapableoftakinghisownpart。Ineveryotherrespecthehadatimoroussoul。Sohesatonthebackverandahwithaconcernedexpression,andwheneverthevoicesofhisdaughterandJasperAllenreachedhim,hewouldblowouthischeeksandlettheairescapewithadismalsound,likeamuchtriedman。 NaturallyIderidedhisfearswhichhe,moreorless,confidedtome。Hehadacertainregardformyjudgment,andacertainrespect,notformymoralqualities,however,butforthegoodtermsIwassupposedtobeonwiththeDutch\"authorities。\"Iknewforafactthathisgreatestbugbear,theGovernorofBanka—acharming,peppery,hearty,retiredrear—admiral—hadadistinctlikingforhim。ThisconsolingassurancewhichIusedalwaystoputforward,madeoldNelson(orNielsen)brightenupforamoment; butintheendhewouldshakehisheaddoubtfully,asmuchastosaythatthiswasallverywell,butthatthereweredepthsintheDutchofficialnaturewhichnoonebuthimselfhadeverfathomed。 Perfectlyridiculous。 OnthisoccasionIamspeakingof,oldNelsonwasevenfretty;forwhileIwastryingtoentertainhimwithaveryfunnyandsomewhatscandalousadventurewhichhappenedtoacertainacquaintanceofoursinSaigon,heexclaimedsuddenly: \"Whatthedevilhewantstoturnupherefor!\" Clearlyhehadnotheardawordoftheanecdote。Andthisannoyedme,becausetheanecdotewasreallygood。Istaredathim。 \"Come,come!\"Icried。\"Don’tyouknowwhatJasperAllenisturningupherefor?\" ThiswasthefirstopenallusionIhadevermadetothetruestateofaffairsbetweenJasperandhisdaughter。Hetookitverycalmly。 \"Oh,Freyaisasensiblegirl!\"hemurmuredabsently,hismind’seyeobviouslyfixedonthe\"authorities。\"No;Freyawasnofool。 Hewasnotconcernedaboutthat。Hedidn’tminditintheleast。 Thefellowwasjustcompanyforher;heamusedthegirl;nothingmore。 Whentheperspicaciousoldchapleftoffmumbling,allwasstillinthehouse。Theothertwowereamusingthemselvesveryquietly,andnodoubtveryheartily。Whatmoreabsorbingandlessnoisyamusementcouldtheyhavefoundthantoplantheirfuture?Sidebysideontheverandahtheymusthavebeenlookingatthebrig,thethirdpartyinthatfascinatinggame。Withouthertherewouldhavebeennofuture。Shewasthefortuneandthehome,andthegreatfreeworldforthem。Whowasitthatlikenedashiptoaprison? MayIbeignominiouslyhangedatayardarmifthat’strue。Thewhitesailsofthatcraftwerethewhitewings—pinions,I believe,wouldbethemorepoeticalstyle—well,thewhitepinions,oftheirsoaringlove。SoaringasregardsJasper。Freya,beingawoman,keptabetterholdofthemundaneconnectionsofthisaffair。 ButJasperwaselevatedinthetruesenseofthewordeversincethedaywhen,aftertheyhadbeengazingatthebriginoneofthosedecisivesilencesthataloneestablishaperfectcommunionbetweencreaturesgiftedwithspeech,heproposedthatsheshouldsharetheownershipofthattreasurewithhim。Indeed,hepresentedthebrigtoheraltogether。ButthenhisheartwasinthebrigsincethedayheboughtherinManillafromacertainmiddle—agedPeruvian,inasobersuitofblackbroadcloth,enigmaticandsententious,who,forallIknow,mighthavestolenherontheSouthAmericancoast,whencehesaidhehadcomeovertothePhilippines\"forfamilyreasons。\"This\"forfamilyreasons\" wasdistinctlygood。NotrueCABALLEROwouldcaretopushoninquiriesaftersuchastatement。 Indeed,JasperwasquitetheCABALLERO。Thebrigherselfwasthenallblackandenigmatical,andverydirty;atarnishedgemofthesea,or,rather,aneglectedworkofart。Forhemusthavebeenanartist,theobscurebuilderwhohadputherbodytogetheronlovelylinesoutofthehardesttropicaltimberfastenedwiththepurestcopper。Goodnessonlyknowsinwhatpartoftheworldshewasbuilt。Jasperhimselfhadnotbeenabletoascertainmuchofherhistoryfromhissententious,saturninePeruvian—ifthefellowwasaPeruvian,andnotthedevilhimselfindisguise,asJasperjocularlypretendedtobelieve。Myopinionisthatshewasoldenoughtohavebeenoneofthelastpirates,aslaverperhaps,orelseanopiumclipperoftheearlydays,ifnotanopiumsmuggler。 Howeverthatmaybe,shewasassoundasonthedayshefirsttookthewater,sailedlikeawitch,steeredlikealittleboat,and,likesomefairwomenofadventurouslifefamousinhistory,seemedtohavethesecretofperpetualyouth;sothattherewasnothingunnaturalinJasperAllentreatingherlikealover。Andthattreatmentrestoredthelustreofherbeauty。Heclothedherinmanycoatsoftheverybestwhitepaintsoskilfully,carefully,artisticallyputonandkeptcleanbyhisbadgeredcrewofpickedMalays,thatnocostlyenamelsuchasjewellersusefortheirworkcouldhavelookedbetterandfeltsmoothertothetouch。Anarrowgiltmouldingdefinedherelegantsheerasshesatonthewater,eclipsingeasilytheprofessionalgoodlooksofanypleasureyachtthatevercametotheEastinthosedays。Formyself,ImustsayI preferamouldingofdeepcrimsoncolouronawhitehull。Itgivesastrongerreliefbesidesbeinglessexpensive;andItoldJasperso。Butno,nothinglessthanthebestgold—leafwoulddo,becausenodecorationcouldbegorgeousenoughforthefutureabodeofhisFreya。 Hisfeelingsforthebrigandforthegirlwereasindissolublyunitedinhisheartasyoumayfusetwopreciousmetalstogetherinonecrucible。Andtheflamewasprettyhot,Icanassureyou。Itinducedinhimafierceinwardrestlessnessbothofactivityanddesire。Toofineinface,withalateralwaveinhischestnuthair,spare,long—limbed,withaneagerglintinhissteelyeyesandquick,brusquemovements,hemademethinksometimesofaflashingsword—bladeperpetuallyleapingoutofthescabbard。Itwasonlywhenhewasnearthegirl,whenhehadhertheretolookat,thatthispeculiarlytenseattitudewasreplacedbyagravedevoutwatchfulnessofherslightestmovementsandutterances。Hercool,resolute,capable,good—humouredself—possessionseemedtosteadyhisheart。Wasitthemagicofherface,ofhervoice,ofherglanceswhichcalmedhimso?Yettheseweretheverythingsonemustbelievewhichhadsethisimaginationablaze—iflovebeginsinimagination。ButIamnomantodiscusssuchmysteries,anditstrikesmethatwehaveneglectedpooroldNelsoninflatinghischeeksinastateofworryonthebackverandah。 Ipointedouttohimthat,afterall,Jasperwasnotaveryfrequentvisitor。HeandhisbrigworkedhardallovertheArchipelago。ButalloldNelsonsaid,andhesaidituneasily,was: \"IhopeHeemskirkwon’tturnupherewhilethebrig’sabout。\" GettingupascareaboutHeemskirknow!Heemskirk!……Really,onehadn’tthepatience— CHAPTERII For,pray,whowasHeemskirk?YoushallseeatoncehowunreasonablethisdreadofHeemskirk……Certainly,hisnaturewasmalevolentenough。Thatwasobvious,directlyyouheardhimlaugh。Nothinggivesawaymoreaman’ssecretdispositionthantheunguardedringofhislaugh。But,blessmysoul!ifweweretostartateveryevilguffawlikeahareateverysound,weshouldn’tbefitforanythingbutthesolitudeofadesert,ortheseclusionofahermitage。Andeventhereweshouldhavetoputupwiththeunavoidablecompanyofthedevil。 However,thedevilisaconsiderablepersonage,whohasknownbetterdaysandhasmovedhighupinthehierarchyofCelestialHost;butinthehierarchyofmereearthlyDutchmen,Heemskirk,whoseearlydayscouldnothavebeenverysplendid,wasmerelyanavalofficerfortyyearsofage,ofnoparticularconnectionsorabilitytoboastof。HewascommandingtheNeptun,alittlegunboatemployedondrearypatroldutyupanddowntheArchipelago,tolookafterthetraders。Notaveryexaltedpositiontruly。I tellyou,justacommonmiddle—agedlieutenantofsometwenty—fiveyears’serviceandsuretoberetiredbeforelong—that’sall。 HeneverbotheredhisheadverymuchastowhatwasgoingonintheSevenIslesgrouptillhelearnedfromsometalkinMintokorPalembang,Isuppose,thattherewasaprettygirllivingthere。 Curiosity,Ipresume,causedhimtogopokingaroundthatway,andthen,afterhehadonceseenFreya,hemadeapracticeofcallingatthegroupwheneverhefoundhimselfwithinhalfaday’ssteamingfromit。