第4章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph C.Lincoln字数:17196更新时间:19/01/05 09:35:20
\"Yes,butmaybeyoudon’trealizetheamountoftheobligations。 I’mriskin’myjobkeepin’youhere。Ifitwa’n’tforthesuperintendentbein’suchafriendofmine,there’dhavebeenareg’larassistantkeeperapp’intedlongago。Thegov’mentdon’tpickupitslightkeeperssameasyouwouldfarmhands。There’scivilservicetobegonethrough,andthelikeofthat。Butyouwantedtostay,andI’vekeptyou,riskin’myownjob,asIsaid。 AndnowIcal’latewe’dbetterhaveaplainunderstandin’。You’vegottoknowjustwhatyourjobis。I’mgoin’totellyou。\" Hestopped,asiftoletthissinkin。Brownnoddedagain。\"Allright,\"heobserved,carelessly;\"goonandtellme;I’mlistening。\" \"Yourjobaroundthelightsyouknowalready,partofit。Butthere’ssomethin’else。Whenevermenfolkscomehere,I’lldomyshareofshowin’theplaceoff。Butwhenwomencome——women,youunderstand——you’vegottobeguide。I’llforgiveyouto-day’sdoin’s。Itriedtoplayajokeonyou,andyoueveneditupwithabetteroneonme。That’sallright。But,afterthis,showin’thelightstofemalesisyourjob,andyou’vegottodoit——orgetout。 Nohardfeelin’satall,andI’dreallyhatetoloseyou,butTHAT’S gottobeasIsay。\" Herose,evidentlyconsideringtheaffairsettled。Browncaughthiscoatandpulledhimbacktothebench。 \"Wait,Atkins,\"hesaid。\"I’mgratefultoyouforyourkindness,I likeyouandI’dliketopleaseyou;butifwhatyousayisfinal,then——astheyusedtosayinsomeplayorother——’Iguessyou’llhavetohireanotherboy。’\" \"What?Youmeanyou’llquit?\" \"Ratherthandothat——yes。\" \"Butwhy?\" \"Forreasons,asItoldyou。Bytheway,youhaven’ttoldmewhyyouobjecttoactingasguideto——females。\" \"Becausetheyarefemales。They’rewomen,darn’em!\" Beforehishelpercouldcommentonthisdeclaration,itwasrepeated。Thelightkeepershookbothhisbigfistsintheair。 \"Darn’em!Darnallthewomen!\"shoutedSethAtkins。 \"Amen,\"saidJohnBrown,devoutly。 Seth’sfistsdroppedintohislap。\"What?\"hecried;\"whatdidyousay?\" \"IsaidAmen。\" \"But——but……why……youdidn’tmeanit!\" \"Didn’tI?\"bitterly。\"Humph!\" Sethbreathedheavily,startedtospeakoncemore,closedhislipsonthewords,rose,walkedawayafewpaces,returned,andsatdown。 \"JohnBrown,\"hesaid,solemnly,\"ifyou’rejokin’,thepowersforgiveyou,forIwon’t。Ifyouain’t,I——I……Seehere,doyourememberwhatyouaskedmethatnightwhenyoustruckmefortheassistantkeeper’sjob?YouaskedmeifIwasmarried?\" Brownassentedwonderingly。\"Why,yes,\"hesaid,\"IbelieveIdid。\" \"Youdid。AndIain’tbeensoshookupformanyaday。Youngfeller,I’mgoin’totellyouwhatnoothermaninOstableCountyknows。IAMmarried。I’vegotawifelivin’。\" CHAPTERVII OUTOFTHEBAG \"I’mmarried,andI’vegotawifelivin’,\"continuedSeth;addinghurriedlyandfiercely,\"don’tyousaynothin’tome!Don’tyouputmeout。I’mgoin’totellyou!I’mgoin’totellyouallofit—— all,bytime!Iam,ifIdieforit。\" Hewasspeakingsorapidlythatthewordswerejumbledtogether。Heknockedhishatfromhisforeheadwithablowofhisfistandactuallypantedforbreath。Brownhadneverbeforeseenhiminthiscondition。 \"Holdon!Wait,\"hecried。\"Atkins,youneedn’tdothis;youmustn’t。Iamaskingnoquestions。Weagreedto——\" \"Hushup!\"Sethwavedbothhandsintheair。\"DON’Tyoutalk!Letmegetthisoffmychest。Goodheavensalive,I’vebeensmotherin’ myselfwithitforyears,and,nowI’vegotstarted,I’llblowoffsteamormyb’iler’llbust。I’mGOIN’totellyou。Youlisten—— \"Yes,sir,I’mamarriedman,\"hewenton。\"Iwa’n’talwaysmarried,youunderstand。Iusedtobesingleonce。OnceIwassingle;see?\" \"Isee,\"saidBrown,repressingasmile。 Sethwasnotawarethattherewasanythinghumorousinhisstatement。 \"Yes,\"hesaid,\"Iwassingleand——andhappy,byjiminy!Iwasskipperofamack’relschoonerdownCapeAnnway,nevermindwhere,andSethAtkinsisonlypartofmyname;nevermindthat,neither。 IsailedthatschoonerandIrunthatschooner——IRUNher;andwhenIsaid’boo’allhandsaboardjumped,Itellyou。WhenI’vegotsaltwaterunderneathme,I’maman。ButItoldyouthatafore。 \"However,thisiswhatIdidn’ttellyounornobodyelseinthispartofthestate:IstayedsingletillIgottobepastforty。 Everybodysetmedownasanoldbach。ThenImetawoman;yes,sir,Imetawoman。\" Hemadethisassertionasifitwassomethingremarkable。Hiscompaniononthebenchmadenocomment。 \"Shewasawidowwoman,\"wentonSeth,\"andshehadalittlepropertyleftherbyherfirsthusband。Ownedahouseandland,shedid,andhadsomemoneyinthebank。Somefolkscal’latedImarriedherforthat,buttheycal’latedwrong。Iwantedherforherself。 AndIgother。HernamewasEmeline。IalwaysthoughtEmelinewasasortofprettyname。\" Hesighed。BrownobservedthatEmelinewasaveryprettyname,indeed。 \"Um-hm。That’swhatIthought,andEmelinewasarealprettywoman,forherageandheft——shewasfleshy。Shehadsomeconsider’bleprejudiceagainstmygoin’tosea,soIagreedtostayonshoreaspellandfarmit,asyoumightsay。Welivedinthehousesheownedandwasrealhappytogether。Shebossedmearoundagooddeal,butIdidn’tmindbein’bossedbyher。’Twasachange,yousee,forI’dalwaysbeenusedtobossin’otherfolks。SoIhumoredher。And,bein’onlandmademelosemy——mygriporsomethin’; ’causeIseemedtoforgethowtoboss。Butwewashappy,andthen—— thenBennieD。come。Consarnhim!\" Histeethshutwithasnap,andhestruckhiskneewithhisfist。 \"Consarnhim!\"herepeated,andwassilent。 Thesubstituteassistantventuredtojoghismemory。 \"WhowasBennieD。?\"heasked。 \"What?Hey?BennieD。?Oh,hewasherbrother-in-law,herhusband’sbrotherfromupBostonway。Hewasagenius——atleast,hesaidhewas——andaninventor。TheonlyinventionIevercouldl’arnhe’dinventedtoafinishwashowtolivewithoutworkin’,buthe’dgotthatbroughttoascience。However,hewasforeverfussin’oversomekindofmachinethatwassartinsuretogivepowertotheuniverse,when’twasdone,andEmeline’shusband——hisnamewasAbner——thoughttheworldandallofhim。’ForehediedhemadeEmelinepromisetoalwaysbekindtoBennieD。,andshesaidshewould。Abnerlefthimalittlemoney,andhespentittravelin’ ’forhishealth。’Idon’tknowwherehetraveledto,but,wherever’twas,thehealthmusthavebeenthere。HewasthehealthiestcrittereverIsee——andthelaziest。 \"Well,histravelsbein’over,downhecomestomakehissister-in- lawalittlevisit。Andhestaysonandstayson。Henevertooknoshinetome——IjudgehefiggeredIhadn’tnobusinesssharin’ Abner’sproperty——andInevertooktohim,much。 \"EmelinenoticedBennieD。andmewa’n’tfallin’oneachother’snecksanytospeakof,andittroubledher。Sheblamedmeforit。 SaidBenniewasagenius,andgeniuseshadsensitivenaturesandhadtobetreatedwithconsiderationanddifferentfromotherfolks。 AndthatpromisetoAbnerweighedonherconscience,Ical’late。 Anyhow,shepettedthatblameinventor,anditmadememad。AndyetIdidn’tsaymuch——notsomuchasI’doughtto,Iguess。AndBennieD。wasalwaysheavin’outlittlesideremarksaboutEmeline’sbein’ fittedforbetterthingsthanshewasgettin’,andhow,whenhisinventionwas’perfected,’HE’Dseethatshedidn’tslaveherselftodeath,andsoonandsoon。Andhehadconsider’bletosayaboutfolkstryin’tofarmwhentheydidn’tknowacucumberfromawatermelon,andhow’farmin’’wasagoodexcusefordoin’nothin’,andsuch。AndIdidn’thaveanygoodanswertothat,’causeIdoknowmoreaboutseaweedthanIdocucumbers,andthefarmwasn’tpayin’andIknewit。 \"Ifhe’dsaidthesethingsrightoutplain,IguesslikelyI’dhavegivehimwhathedeserved。Buthedidn’t;hejusthintedandsmiledandactedsuperiorandpityin’。AndifIgotmadandhoveoutalittlesailortalkbyaccident,he’dlookassorryandshockedastheCome-Outerparsondoeswhenthere’sababyborntoaUniversalistfamily。He’dgetupandshutthedoor,asifhewasscarttheneighbors’moralswouldsuffer——thoughtheonlyneighborwithinhearin’wasanoldcritterthatusedtorunabilliardsalooninGloucester,andHISmoralshadbeenputoutoftheirmiseryfortyyearsafore——andhe’dsuggestthatEmelinebetterleavetheroom,maybe。AndthenI’dfeelashamedandwouldn’tknowwhattodo,and’twouldend,more’nlikely,bymyleavin’itmyself。 \"Youcanseehowmatterswasdriftin’。Icouldseeplainenough,andIcal’lateEmelinecould,too——I’llgivehercreditforthat。 Shedidn’tbegintolookashappyasshehad,andthatmademefeelworsethanever。Onetime,Ifoundhercryin’inthewashroom,andIwentupandputmyarmroundher。 \"’Emeline,’Isays,’don’t;pleasedon’t。Don’tcry。IknowI ain’tthehusbandI’doughttobetoyou,butI’mdoin’mybest。 I’mtryin’todoit。Iain’tagenius,’Isays。 \"Sheinterruptedmequick,sortofhalflaughin’andhalfcryin’。 ’No,Seth,’saysshe,’youain’t,that’safact。’ \"Thatmademesortofmad。’No,Iain’t,’Isaysagain;’andifyouaskme,I’dsayoneinthehousewasenough,andtospare。’ \"’Iknowyoudon’tlikeBennie,’shesays。 \"’’Taintthat,’saysI,whichwasalie。’Itain’tthat,’Isays; ’butsomehowIdon’tseemtofitaroundhere。Bennieandme,wedon’tseemtobelongtogether。’ \"’HeisAbner’sbrother,’shesays,’andIpromisedAbner。Ican’ttellhimtogo。Ican’ttellhimtoleavethishouse,hisbrother’shouse。’ \"Now,consarnit,therewasanotherthing。ItWASAbner’shouse,orhadbeenaforehedied,andnow’twashers。IfIeverforgotthatfact,whichwa’n’tbynomeanslikelytohappen,BennieD。tookoccasionsenoughtoremindmeofit。SoIwassetbackagainwithmycanvasflappin’,asyoumightsay。 \"’No,’saysI,’courseyoucan’t。He’syourbrother-in-law。’ \"’Butyouaremyhusband,’shesays,lookin’atmekindofqueer。 Anyhow,itseemskindofqueertomenow。I’vethoughtaboutthatlookagooddealsince,andsometimesI’vewonderedif——if…… However,that’sallpastandby。 \"’Yes,’Isays,prettyaveragebitter,’butsecondhusbandsdon’tcountformuch。’ \"’Someof’emdon’tseemto,that’safact,’shesays。 \"’Byjiminy,’Isays,’Idon’tcountformuchinthishouse。’ \"’Yes?’saysshe。’Andwhosefaultisthat?’ \"Well,IWASmad。’ItellyouwhatICANdo,’Isingsout。’Icanquitthislandlubber’sjobwhereI’mnothin’butaswab,andgotoseaagain,whereI’msomeaccount。That’swhatIcando。’ \"Sheturnedandlookedatme。 \"’Youpromisedmenevertogotoseaagain,shesays。 \"’Humph!’saysI;’somepromisesarehardtokeep。’ \"’Ikeepmine,hardornot,’saysshe。’Wouldyougoawayandleaveme?’ \"’You’vegotBrotherBennie,’saysI。’He’sagenius;Iain’tnothin’butaman。’ \"Shelaughed,prettyscornful。’Areyousartinyou’rethat?’shewantedtoknow。 \"’NotsinceIbeenlivin’here,Iain’t,’Isays。Andthatendedthattryofmakin’up。 \"Andfromthenonitgotworseandworse。Therewan’tmuchcomfortathomewheretheinventorwas,soItooktostayin’outnights。 Wentdowntothestoreandhungaround,listenin’tofools’gabble,andwishin’Iwasdead。AndthemoreIstayedout,themoreBennieD。laughedandsneeredandhinted。Andthencomethatridic’lousbusinessaboutSarahAnnChristy。Thatendeditforgoodandall。\" Sethpausedinhislongstoryandlookedoutacrossthestarlitsea。 \"WhowasSarahAnn?\"askedBrown。Thelightkeeperseemedmuchembarrassed。 \"Shewasabornfool,\"hedeclared,withemphasis;\"bornthatwayandbeendevelopin’extryfoolishnesseversince。Shewasawidow,too;beengoodlookin’onceandcouldn’tforgetit,andsheliveddownnighthestore。WhenI’dbegoin’downorcomin’back,justaslikelyasnotshewassettin’onthepiazza,andshe’dhailme。I didn’twanttostopandtalktoher,ofcourse。\" \"No,ofcoursenot。\" \"Well,IDIDN’T。AndIdidn’tHAVEtotalk。Couldn’tifIwantedto;shedoneitall。Hertonguewashungonball-bearin’hingesandwasaself-winderguaranteedtorunanhoursteadyeverytimeshesetitgoin’。Talk!myjiminycrimps,howthatwomancouldtalk!I couldn’tgetaway;Itriedto,but,mysoul,shewouldn’tletme。 And,if’twasawarmnight,she’dmore’nlikelyhaveapitcheroflemonadeorsomesortofcoldwashalongside,andImuststopandtasteit。Bytime,Icantasteityet! \"Well,therewa’n’tnoharminheratall;shewasjustafoolthathadtotalktosomebody,malespreferred。Butmystayin’outnightswasn’thelpin’thejoyfulnessofthingstohome,andoneevenin’—— oneevenin’……Oh,there!IstartedtotellyouthisandI might’swellgetitover。 \"Thisevenin’whenIcamehomefromthestoreIseesomethin’wasextrywrongsoon’sIstruckthesettin’room。Emelinewasthere,andBennieD。,andIgiveyoumyword,Ifeltliketurnin’upmycoatcollar,’twassofrosty。’Twashotter’nasteamer’sstoke-holeoutside,butthatroomwasfortybelowzero。 \"NobodySAIDnothin’,youknow——thatwastheworstofit;butI’dhavebeengladiftheyhad。Finally,Isaiditmyself。’Well,Emeline,’saysI,’hereIbe。’ \"Noanswer,soItriedagain。’Well,Emeline,’saysI,’I’vefetchedportfinally。’ \"Shedidn’tanswermethen,butBennieD。laughed。Hehadawayoflaughin’thatmadeotherfolkswanttocry——orkillhim。ForchoiceI’dhavedonethekillin’first。 \"’Morenauticalconversation,sister,’sayshe。’Heknowshowfondyouareofthatsortofthing。’ \"Yousee,Emelineneverdidliketohearmetalksailortalk;itremindedhertoomuchthatIusedtobeasailor,Is’pose。Andthatinventorknewshedidn’tlikeit,andsoherubbeditineverytimeImadeaslip。’Twasjustoneofhislittleways;hehadamillionof’em。 \"ButItriedoncemore。’Emeline,’Isays,’I’mhome。Can’tyouspeaktome?’ \"Thenshelookedatme。’Yes,Seth,’saysshe,’Iseeyouarehome。’ \"’Atlast,’putinbrother-in-law,’\"Thereisnoplacelikehome\"—— whentheotherplacesareshutup。’Andhelaughedagain。 \"’Stop,Bennie,’saysEmeline,andhestopped。Thatwasanotherofhislittleways——todoanythingsheaskedhim。Thensheturnedtome。 \"’Seth,’sheasks,’wherehaveyoubeen?’ \"’Oh,downstreet,’saysI,casual。’It’sturriblewarmout。’ \"Sheneverpaidnoattentiontotheweathersignals。’Where’boutsdownstreet?’shewantedtoknow。 \"’Oh,downtothestore,’Isays。 \"’Yougotothestoreagooddeal,don’tyou,’saysshe。BennieD。 chuckled,andthenbeggedherpardon。Thatchucklestirredmymadup。 \"’Igowherefolksseemtobegladtoseeme,’Isays。’WheretheytreatmeasifIwassomebody。’ \"’Soyouwasatthestorethewholeevenin’?’sheasks。 \"’CourseIwas,’saysI。’WhereelsewouldIbe?’ \"Shelookedatmehard,andherfacesortofset。Shedidn’tanswer,buttookupthesewin’inherlapandwenttoworkonit。I remembershedroppeditonce,andBennieD。jumpedtopickitupforher,quickasawink。Isetdownintherockin’chairandtooktheGloucesterpaper。ButIdidn’treallyread。Theclocktickedandticked,and’twassostillyoucouldheareverystrokeofthependulum。Finally,Icouldn’tstanditnolonger。 \"’Whatonearthisthematter?’Isingsout。’WhathaveIdonethistime?Don’tyouWANTmetogotothestore?Isthatit?’ \"Sheputdownhersewin’。’Seth,’saysshe,quietbutawfulcold,’Iwantyoutogoanywheresthatyouwanttogo。Inever’llstandinyourway。ButIwantyoutellthetruthaboutitafterwards。’ \"’Thetruth?’saysI。’Don’tIalwaystellyouthetruth?’ \"’No,’saysshe。’You’veliedtometonight。You’vebeencallin’ ontheChristywoman,andyouknowit。’ \"Well,youcouldhaveknockedmedownwithababy’srattle。I’dforgotallaboutthatfoolSarahAnn。Ical’lateIturnednineteendifferentshadesofred,andforaminuteIcouldn’tthinkofawordtosay。AndBennieD。smiled,wickedastheOldHarryhimself。 \"’How——howdidyou——howdoyouknowIseeSarahAnnChristy?’I holleredout,soon’sIcouldgetmybreath。 \"’Becauseyouwereseenthere,’saysshe。 \"’Whoseeme?’ \"’Idid,’saysshe。’Iwentdownstreetmyself,onanerrand,and,bein’asyouweren’theretogowithme,Benniewasgoodenoughtogo。Itain’tpleasantforawomantogooutaloneafterdark,and—— andIhaveneverbeenusedtoit,’shesays。 \"Thatkindofhurtmeandprickedmyconscience,asyoumaysay。 \"’YouknowI’dbeentickledtodeathtogowithyou,Emeline,’I says。’Anytime,youknowit。Butyouneveraskedmetogowithyou。’ \"’Howlonghasitbeensinceyouaskedtogowithme?’shesays。 \"’Doyoureallywantmetogoanywheres,Emeline?’saysI,eager。 ’Doyou?Is’posedyoudidn’t。Ifyou’dasked——’ \"’WhyshouldIalwaysdotheaskin’?Mustawifealwaysaskherhusband?Doesn’tthehusbandeverdoanythingonhisownresponsibility?Seth,ImarriedyoubecauseIthoughtyouwasastrong,self-reliantman,whowouldadvisemeandprotectmeand——’ \"Thatcussedinventorbustintothetalkrighthere。Ical’latehethoughttwastime。 \"’Excuseme,sister,’hesays;’don’thumiliateyourselfaforehim。 Rememberyouandmesawhimtonight,sawhimwithourowneyes,settin’onadarkpiazzawithanotherwoman。Drinkin’withherand——’ \"’Drinkin’!’Iyells。 \"’Yes,drinkin’,’sayshe,solemn。’Idon’twonderyouareashamedofit。’ \"’Ashamed!Iain’tashamed。’ \"’Youhearthat,sister?NOWIhopeyou’reconvinced。’ \"’’Twa’n’tnothin’butlemonadeIwasdrinkin’,’Ihollers,prettynighcrazy。’Sheaskedmetostopandhaveaglass’cause’twassohot。Andasforcallin’onher,Iwa’n’t。Iwasjustpassin’by,andshesingsoutwhatadreadfulnight’twas,andIsaid’twas,too,andshesayswon’tIhavesomethin’coldtodrink。That’salltherewastoit。’ \"AforeEmelinecouldanswer,Benniecomesbackatmeagain。 \"’Perhapsyou’lltellusthiswasthefirsttimeyouhavevisitedher,’hepurrs。 \"Well,thatwasasockdolager,’causetwa’n’tthefirsttime。I don’tknowhowmanytimes’twas。Ineverkeptnoaccountof’em。 Toogladtogetawayfromhereverlastin’tongue-clackin’。Butwhen’twasputrightuptomethisway,I——IdeclareIwasallfussedup。 IfeltsickandIguessIlookedso。Emelinewaslookin’atmeandseemin’lywaitin’formetosaysomethin’;yetIcouldn’tsayit。 AndBennieD。laughed,quietbutwicked。 \"Thatlaughfixedme。Iswungroundandlitintohim。 \"’Youmindyourownbusiness,’Iroars。’Ain’tyouashamed,makin’ troublewithaman’swifeinhisownhouse?’ \"’Iwasundertheimpressionthehousebelongedtomysister-in- law,’hesays。AndagainIwasknockedoffmypins。 \"’Yougreatbigloafer!’Iyelledathim;’settin’heredoin’ nothin’butraisin’thedivilgenerally!I——I——’ \"HejumpedasifI’dstuckabrad-awlintohim。Theshockedexpressioncameacrosshisfaceagain,andherunstoEmelineandtakesherarm。 \"’Sister,sister,’hesays,quick,butgentle,’thisisnoplaceforyou。Languagelikethatis……there!there!don’tyouthinkyou’dbetterleavetheroom?’ \"Shedidn’tgo。AsIrememberitnow,itkeepscomin’backtomethatshedidn’tgo。Shejuststoodstillandlookedatme。Andthenshesays:’Seth,whydidyoulietome?’ ’Ididn’tlie,’Ishouts。’Iforgot,Itellyou。IneverthoughtthatwindmillofaChristywomanwasenoughimportancetoremember。 Ididn’tlietoyou——Ineverdid。Oh,Emeline,youknowIdidn’t。 What’sthematterwithyouandme,anyway?Weusedtobeallrightandnowwe’reallwrong。’ \"’Oneofusis,’saysBennieD。Thatwasthefinalstrawthatchokedthecamel。 \"’Yes,’Isaystohim,’that’sright,oneofusis,andIdon’tknowwhich。ButIknowthis:youandIcan’tstaytogetherinthishouseanylonger。’ \"Icanseethatroomnow,as’twaswhenIsaidthat。Usthreelookin’ateachother,andtheclocka-tickin’,andeverythingelsestillasstill。Ichoked,butIkepton。 \"’Imeanit,’Isays。’EitheryouclearoutofthishouseorIdo。’ \"And,whilethewordswasonmylips,againitcametomestrongthatitwa’n’treallymyhouseatall。Iturnedtomywife。 \"’Emeline,’saysI,’it’sgottobe。Youmusttellhimtogo,orelse——’ \"She’dbeenlookin’atmeagainwiththatkindofqueerlookinhereyes,almostahopefullook,seem’sif’twas,andyetitcouldn’thavebeen,ofcourse。Nowshedrawedalongbreath。 \"’Ican’ttellhimtogo,Seth,’saysshe。’IpromisedtogivehimahomeaslongasIhadone。’ \"Isetmyjawstogether。’Allright,’Isays;’thenI’Mgoin’。 Goodby。’ \"AndIwent。Yes,sir,Iwent。JustasIwas,withoutanyhatordunnageofanykind。WhenIslammedthebackdooritseemedasifI heardhersingoutmyname。Iwaited,butIguessIwasmistaken,forshedidn’tcallitagain。And——andIneverseteyesonhersince。No,sir,notonce。\" Thelightkeeperstopped。JohnBrownsaidnothing,buthelaidahandsympatheticallyontheolderman’sshoulder。Sethshuddered,straightened,andwenton。 \"Iclearedoutofthattownthatverynight,\"hesaid。\"WalkedclearintoGloucester,putupatataverntheretillmornin’,andthentookthecarstoBoston。Ical’latedfustthatI’dshipasmateorsomethin’onaforeignvoyage,butIcouldn’t;somehowI couldn’tbringmyselftodoit。Yousee,I’dpromisedherI wouldn’tevergotoseaagain,andso——well,Iwasadumidiot,I s’pose,butIwouldn’tbreakthepromise。Iknewthesuperintendentoflighthousesinthisdistrict,andI’dbeenanassistantkeeperwhenIwasyounger。Itoldhimmyyarn,andhetoldmeaboutthisjob。Ichangedmyname,passedtheexaminationandcomedirectlyhere。AndhereI’vestayedeversince。\" Hepausedagain。Brownventuredtoaskanotherquestion。 \"Andyour——andthelady?\"heasked。\"Whereisshe?\" \"Idon’tknow。Livin’inherhousebackthereonCapeAnn,I s’pose。Shewas,lastIknew。Ineverasknoquestions。Iwanttoforget——toforget,bytime!……Hihum!……Well,nowyouknowwhatnobodythissideofBostonknows。AndyoucanunderstandwhyI’mwillin’tobeburiedalivedownhere。’Causeawomanwreckedmylife;I’mdonewithwomen;andtothisforsakenholenowomenscarcelyevercome。But,whentheyDOcome,youmustunderstandthatIexpectyoutoshow’emround。Afterhearin’whatI’vebeenthrough,Iguessyou’llbewillin’todothatmuchforme。\" Herose,evidentlyconsideringtheaffairsettled。Brownstrokedhischin。 \"I’msorry,Atkins,\"heobserved,slowly;\"andIcertainlydosympathizewithyou。But——but,asIsaid,’Iguessyou’llhavetohireanotherboy!’\" \"What?Whatdoyoumean?\" \"Imeanthatyou’renottheonlywoman-hateronthebeach。\" \"Hey?HasawomangivenYOUthegoby?\" \"No。Theotherwayaround,ifanything。Lookhere,Atkins!I’mnotinthehabitofdiscussingmyprivateaffairswithacquaintances,butyou’vebeenfrankwithme——andwell,hangit! I’vegottotalktosomebody。Atleast,Ifeelthatwayjustnow。 Let’ssupposeacase。Supposeyouwereayoungfellownotlongoutofcollege——ayoungfellowwhosemotherwasdeadandwhosedadwasrich,andheadoverheelsinmoney-making,andwiththeideathathiswillwasnomoretobedisputedthanalawoftheAlmighty。 Justsupposethat,willyou?\" \"Huh!Well,’twillbehardsupposin’,butI’lltry。Heaveahead。\" \"Supposethatyou’dneverbeenusedtoworkingorsupportingyourself。Hadaposition,anominalone,inyourdad’sofficebutabsolutelynoresponsibility,allthemoneyyouwanted,andsoon。 Supposebecauseyourfatherwantedyouto——andHERpeoplefeltthesame——youhadbecomeengagedtoagirl,aniceenoughgirl,too,inherway。But,thensupposethatlittlebylittleyoucametorealizethatherwaywasn’tyours。Youandshelikedeachotherwellenough,butthewholethingwasafamilyarrangement,amoneyarrangement,aperfectlyrespectable,buy-and-sellaffair。Thatandnothingelse。Andthemoreyouthoughtaboutit,thesureryoufeltthatitwasso。Butwhenyoutoldyourgovernorhegotonhisearandsailedintoyou,andyousailedback,untilfinallyhesworethatyoushouldeithermarrythatgirlorhe’dthrowyououtofhishouseandofficetorootforyourself。Whatwouldyoudo?\" \"Hey?Landsakes!Idon’tknow。IalwaysHADtoroot,soIain’tacompetentjudge。Goon,you’vegotmeinterested。\" \"Well,IsaidI’droot,that’sall。ButIdidn’thavethenervetogoandtellthegirl。Theengagementhadbeenannounced,andallthat,andIknewwhatamessitwouldmakeforher。Isatinmyroom,amongthethingsIwaspackinginmygriptotakewithme,andthoughtandthought。IfIwenttohertherewouldbeascene。IfI saidIhadbeendisinheritedshewouldwanttoknowwhy——naturally。 Ihadquarreledwiththegovernor——yes,butwhy?ThenIshouldhavetotellhertherealreason:Ididn’twanttomarryheroranybodyelseonsuchabargain-counterbasis。Thatseemedsucharottenthingtosay,andshemightaskwhyithadtakenmesuchalongtimetofinditout。No,IjustCOULDN’Ttellherthat。So,aftermythinkwasover,IwroteheranotesayingthatmyfatherandIhadhadadisagreementandhehadchuckedmeout,orwordstothateffect。Naturally,underthecircumstances,marriagewasoutofthequestion,andIreleasedherfromtheengagement。Goodbyandgoodluck——orsomethingsimilar。Imailedtheletterandleftthetownthenextmorning。\" Hepaused。Thelightkeepermadenocomment。Afteramomenttheyoungmancontinued。 \"IlandedinBoston,\"hesaid,\"fullofconceitandhigh-mindedideasofworkingmyownwayuptheladder。Butinordertoworkup,you’vegottogetatleastahand-holdonthebottomrung。I couldn’tgetit。Nobodywantedagenteelloafer,whichwasme。Mymoneygaveout。Iboughtasteamboatpassagetoanothercity,butI didn’thaveenoughlefttobuyasquaremeal。Then,bybullluck,I felloverboardandlandedhere。AndhereIfoundthesolution。I’mdead。Ifthegovernorgetssoft-heartedandgetsprivatedetectivesonmytrail,they’llfindIdisappearedfromthatsteamer,that’sall。Drowned,ofcourse。SHE’LLthinkso,too。’Goodriddancetobadrubbish’isthegeneralverdict。Icanstayhereayearorso,andthen,beingdeadandforgotten,cangobacktocivilizationandhustleformyself。BUTawomanisatthebottomofmytrouble,andIneverwanttoseeanother。So,ifmystayingheredependsuponmyseeingthem,Iguess,asI’vesaidtwicealready,’you’llhavetohireanotherboy。’\" He,too,rose。Sethlaidabighandonhisshoulder。 \"Son,\"saidthelightkeeper,\"I’msorryforyou;Ical’lateIknowhowyoufeel。Ilikeyoufust-rate,andifit’sapossiblething,I’llfixitso’syoucanstayrightherelong’syouwantto。Asforwomenfolksthatdocome——why,we’lldodge’emifwecan,andshareresponsibilityifwemust。Butthere’sonethingyou’veGOTtounderstand。You’reyoung,andmaybeyourwomanhate’llwearoff。 Ifitdoes,outyougo。Ican’thaveanysparkin’orlovemakin’ aroundthesepremises。\" Theassistantsnortedcontemptuously。 \"Ifeveryoucatchmebeingevencoldlyfamiliarwithafemaleofanyage,\"hedeclared,\"Iherebyrequestthatyouhitme,politely,butfirmly,withthataxe,\"pointingtothekindlinghatchetleaningagainstthedoorpost。 Sethchuckled。\"Goodstuff!\"heexclaimed。\"And,formypart,ifeveryoucatchmegettin’confectionerywithawoman,I……well,don’tstoptoprayoverme;justdrownme,that’sallIask。It’sabargain。Shake!\" Sotheyshook,withgreatsolemnity。 CHAPTERVIII NEIGHBORSANDWASPS Andnowaffairsatthelightssettleddownintoadailyroutineinwhichthelightkeeperandhishelpereachplayedhisappointedpart。 Allmysteriesnowbeingsolved,andthetrustbetweenthemmutualandwithoutreserve,theynolongerwereontheirguardineachother’spresence,buttalkedfreelyonallsortsoftopics,andexpressedtheirmutualdislikeofwomanwithfrequencyandpoint。 Noregularassistantwasappointedorseemedlikelytobe,forthesummer,atleast。Sethandhisfriend,thesuperintendent,heldanotherlengthyconversationoverthewire,and,whileBrown’suncertainstatusremainedthesame,therewasatacitunderstandingthat,bythefirstofSeptember,iftheyoungmanwassufficiently\"brokenin,\"thepositionvacatedbyEzraPayneshouldbehis——ifhestillwantedit。 \"Youmaychangeyourmindbythattime,\"observedSeth。\"Thisain’tnoplaceforachapwithyourtrainin’,andIknowit。Itdoeswellenoughforanoldderelictlikeme,withnobodytocareahangwhetherhelivesordies,butyou’redifferent。Andevenformethelonesomenessofitdrivesme’mostcrazysometimes。I’venoticedyou’vebeenhavin’bluestreaksmoreoftenthanwhenyoufirstcame。 Ical’latethatbyfallyou’llbeheadin’somewhereselse,Mr。’JohnBrown,’\"withsignificantemphasisuponthename。 Brownstoutlydeniedbeing\"bluer\"thanusual,andhissuperiordidnotpressthepoint。SethbusiedhimselfinhissparetimewiththeworkontheDaisyM。andwithhisoccasionaltripsbehindJoshuatothevillage。Brownmighthavemadesomeofthesetrips,buthedidnotcareto。Solitudeandseclusionhestilldesired,andthereweremoreofthesethananythingelseattheTwin-Lights。 Thelightkeeperexperimentedwithnomoredogs,buthehadevidentlynotforgottenthelifesavingman’swarningconcerningpossiblethieves,forhepurchasedabigspring-lockinEastboroandattachedittothedooroftheboathouseonthelittlewharf。Thelockwas,atfirst,agooddealmoreofanuisancethananadvantage,forthekeywasalwaysbeingforgottenormislaid,and,ononeoccasion,thedoorblewshutwithAtkinsinsidethebuilding,andhepoundedandshriekedfortenminutesbeforehishelperheardhimanddescendedtotherescue。 Junecrawledby,andJulycame。Crawledistheproperword,forJohnBrownhadneverknowndayssolongorweekssounendingasthoseofthatearlysummer。Themonotonywasalmostneverbroken,andhebegantofinditdeadly。Heinventednewdutiesaboutthelightsandaddedswimmingandwalksupanddownthebeachtohislimitedlistofrecreations。 Theswimmingheespeciallyenjoyed。Thecovemadeafinebathingplace,andtheboathousewashisdressingroom,thoughthefragranceoftheancientfishnetsstoredwithinitwasnotthatofattarofroses。AcheapbathingsuitwasoneoftheluxuriesAtkinshadboughtforhim,byrequest,inEastboro。Sethboughtthesuitunderprotest,forhescoffedopenlyathishelper’sdailybath。 \"Ishouldthink,\"thelightkeeperdeclaredoverandoveragain,\"thatyou’dhadsaltwatersoakenoughtolastyouforonespell;afellerthatcomeasnighdrownin’asyoudone!\" Sethdidnotcareforswimming;thewashtubeverySaturdaynightfurnishedhimwithbathssufficient。 Hewasparticulartowarnhishelperagainstthetideintheinlet: \"Thecove’sallright,\"hesaid,\"butyouwanttolookoutandnottrytoswiminthecrickwhereit’snarrow,orinthatdeepholebytheendofthewharf,wherethelobstercar’smoored。Whenthetide’scomin’inorit’sdeadhighwater,thecurrent’sstrongthere。Ontheebbit’llsnakeyououtintothebreakerssureasI’msettin’heretellin’you。Thecove’sallrightandgoodandsafe; butkeepawayfromthenarrerpartofthecrick。\" Swimmingwasgoodfun,andwalking,onpleasantdays,wasanaidinshakingoffdepression;but,inspiteofhisdenialsandhisattemptsatappearingcontented,thesubstituteassistantrealizedthathewasfarfromthathappycondition。Hedidnotwanttomeetpeople,leastofallpeopleofhisownstationinlife——hisformerstation。Atkinswasafinechap,inhisway;but……Brownwaslonely……andwhenoneislonely,onethinksofwhatmighthavebeen,and,perhaps,regrets。Regrets,unavailingregrets,arethepoorestcompanionspossible。 Thelightkeeper,too,seemedlonely,which,consideringhisyearsofexperienceinhispresentsituation,wasodd。Heexplainedhislonelinessoneeveningbyobservingthathecal’latedhemissedthepaintingchaps。 \"Whatpaintingchaps?\"askedBrown。 \"Oh,themtwoyoungfellersthatalwaysusedtocometothecottage—— whatyoucallthebungalow——acrossthecovethere,theonesItoldyouabout。Theywasrealfriendly,sociableyoungchaps,andIkindoflikedtohave’emrunnin’inandout。SeemsqueertohaveitJuly,andtheynotheretohailmeandcomeovertoborrowstuff。 Andtheywasforeversettin’aroundunderwhitesunshades,sloppin’ paintontopaper。Imostwishtheyhadn’tgonetoEurope。I cal’lateyou’dhaveliked’em,too。\" \"Perhaps,\"saidthehelper,doubtfully。 \"Oh,youwould;noperhapsaboutit。Itdon’tseemrighttoseethebungalowallshutteredupanddesertedthistimeofyear。You’dhavelikedtomeetthemyoungpainters;theywasyourkind。\" \"Yes,Iknow。Perhapsthat’swhyIshouldn’tliketomeetthem。\" \"Hey?……Oh,yes,yes;Isee。Ineverthoughtofthat。But’tain’tlikelythey’dknowyou;theyhailedfromBoston,notNewYork。\" \"HowdidyouknowIcamefromNewYork?Ididn’ttellyouthat。\" \"No,youdidn’t,that’safact。But,yousaidyouleftthecitywhereyoulivedandcametoBoston,soIsortofguessedNewYork。 Butthat’sallright;Idon’tknowandIdon’tcare。Namesandplacesyouandmemightjustaswellnottell,eventoeachother。 Ifwedon’ttellthem,wecananswer’don’tknow’toquestionsandtellthetruth;hey?\" Onemorningaboutaweeklater,Brown,hisdishwashingandsweepingdone,wasbusyinthelight-roomatthetopoftherighthandtower,polishingthebrassofthelantern。Thecurtainsweredrawnonthelandwardside,andthosetowardtheseaopen。Seth,havingfinishedhisnightwatchingandbreakfast,wasaudiblyasleepinthehouse。 Brownrubbedandpolishedleisurely,histhoughtsfaraway,andafrownonhisface。Forthethousandthtimethatweekhedecidedthathewasaloaferandavagabond,andthatitwouldhavebeenmuchbetterforhimself,andcreationgenerally,ifhehadneverrisenaftertheplungeoverthesteamer’srail。 Hepulledtheclothcoverovertheglitteringlanternanddescendedtheironstairtothegroundfloor。Whenheemergedintotheopenair,heheardasoundwhichmadehimstartandlisten。Thesoundwasthedistantrattleofwheelsfromthedirectionofthevillage。 Wasanother\"picnic\"coming?Hewalkedbrisklytothecornerofthehouseandpeereddownthewindingroad。Acarriagewasinsightcertainly,butitwasgoing,notcoming。Hewatcheditmovefurtherawayeachmoment。Someone——notthegroceroratradesman——wasdrivingtothevillage。Butwherehadhebeen,andwhowashe?NotSeth,forSethwasasleep——hecouldhearhim。 Thedriverofthecarriage,whoeverhewas,hadnotvisitedthelights。And,asAtkinshadsaid,therewasnowhereelsetogoonthatroad。Brown,puzzled,lookedabouthim,atthesea,thelights,thehouse,thecreek,thecove,thebluffontheothersideofthecove,thebungalow——ah!thebungalow! Forthedoorofthebungalowwasopen,andoneortwooftheshuttersweredown。Thecarriagehadbroughtsomepersonorpersonstothebungalowandleftthemthere。Instantly,ofcourse,BrownthoughtoftheartistsfromBoston。ProbablytheyhadchangedtheirmindsanddecidedtosummeratEastboroafterall。Hisfrowndeepened。 Then,fromacrossthecove,fromthebungalow,cameashrillscream,afemininescream。Theassistantstarted,scarcelybelievinghisears。Beforehecouldgatherhiswits,astoutwoman,withacheckedaproninherhand,rushedoutofthebungalowdoor,lookedabout,sawhim,andwavedtheapronlikeaflag。 \"Hi!\"shescreamed。\"Hi,you!Mr。Lighthouseman!comequick!dopleasecomeherequickandhelpus!\" Therewasbutonethingtodo,andBrowndiditinstinctively。Heracedthroughthebeachgrass,downthehill,inobediencetothecall。Asheran,hewonderedwhoonearththestoutwomancouldbe。 Sethhadsaidthattheartistsdidtheirownhousekeeping。 \"Hurryup!\"shriekedthestoutwoman,dancinganelephantinefandangoinfrontofthebungalow。\"ComeON!\" Torunaroundtheshorelineofthecovewouldhavetakenagooddealoftime。However,hadthetidebeenatfloodtherewouldhavebeennootherway——exceptingbyboat——toreachthecottage。Butthetidewasout,andthenarrowestportionofthecreek,thestreamconnectingthecovewiththeocean,wasbutkneedeep。Throughthewatersplashedthesubstituteassistantandclamberedupthebankbeyond。 \"Quick!\"screamedthewoman。\"They’lleatusalive!\" \"Who?What?\"pantedBrown。 \"Wasps!They’reinthere!Theroom’sfullof’em。Ifthere’sonethingonearthI’mscartof,it’s……Don’tstoptotalk!GoIN!\" Sheindicatedthedoorofaroomadjoiningthelivingroomofthelittlecottage。Frombehindthedoorcamesoundsofupsettingfurnitureandsharpslaps。Evidentlytheartistswerehavingalivelytime。Buttheymustbecuriouschapstobeafraidofwasps。 Brownopenedthedoorandentered,partlyofhisownvolition,partlybecausehewaspushedbythestoutwoman。Thenhegaspedinastonishment。 Thewaspswerethere,dozensofthem,andtheyhadbuiltanestintheuppercorneroftheroom。Buttheywerenottheastonishingpartofthepicture。Ayoungwomanwasthere,also;ayoungwomanwithdarkhairandeyes,thesleevesofawhiteshirtwaistrolledaboveherelbows,andawettowelinherrighthand。Shewasskippinglightlyabouttheroom,slappingfranticallyatthehumminginsects。 \"Mrs。Bascom,\"shepanted,\"don’tstandtherescreaming。Getanothertoweland——\" ThensheturnedandsawBrown。Foraninstantshe,too,seemedastonished。Butonlyforaninstant。 \"Oh,I’msogladyoucame!\"sheexclaimed。\"Here!takethis!youmusthitquickandHARD。\" \"This\"wasthetowel。Theassistanttookitmechanically。Theyoungladydidnotwaittogivefurtherorders。Sherushedoutoftheroomandshutthedoor。Brownwasalonewiththewasps,andtheywerelivelycompany。When,atlast,thebattlewasover,thelastwaspwasdead,thenestwasacrumpledgrayheapoverinthecorner,andtheassistant’sbrowwasornamentedwithfourredandsmartingpunctures,whichpromisedtoshortlybecomepicturesqueandpainfullumps。Rubbingtheseabsentlywithonehand,andbearingthetowelintheother,heopenedthedoorandsteppedoutintotheadjoiningroom。 Thetwowomenwereawaitinghim。Hefoundthemstandingdirectlyinfrontofhimasheemerged。 \"Haveyou——haveyoukilledthem?\"beggedtheyoungerofthepair。 \"Betheyalldead?\"demandedtheother。 Brownnoddedsolemnly。\"Iguessso,\"hesaid。\"Theyseemtobe。\" \"Oh,I’msoglad!\"criedthedarkhairedgirl。\"I’m——we——aresomuchobligedtoyou。\" \"Ifthere’sanycrittersonearth,\"declaredthestoutwoman,\"thatIcan’tstand,it’swaspsandhornetsandsuch。Mice,Idon’tmind——\" \"Ido,\"interruptedhercompanionwithemphasis。 \"ButwhenIwalkedintothatroomandseenthatnestinthecornerI wasprettynighknockedover——and,\"sheadded,\"ittakesconsider’bletodothattoME。\" Theassistantlookedather。\"Yes,\"hesaid,absently,\"Ishouldthinkitmight。Thatis,Imean——I——Ibegyourpardon。\" Hepausedandwipedhisforeheadwiththetowel。Theyoungladyburstintoapealoflaughter,inwhichthestoutwomanjoined。ThelaughwassoinfectiousthatevenBrownwasobligedtosmile。 \"Iapologize,\"hestammered。\"Ididn’tmeanthatexactlyasitsounded。I’mnotresponsiblementally——yet——Iguess。\" \"Idon’twonder。\"Itwasthestoutwomanwhoanswered。Thegirlhadturnedawayandwaslookingoutthewindow;hershouldersshook。