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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:18345更新时间:19/01/05 09:25:41
Pierstonnowlearntforthefirsttimethatthewidowhadbeenvisitedbysuddenattacksofthissortnotinfrequentlyoflateyears。Theyweresaidtobeduetoanginapectoris,thelatterparoxysmshavingbeenthemostsevere。Shewasatthepresentmomentoutofpain,thoughweak,exhausted,andnervous。Shewouldnot,however,converseaboutherself,buttookadvantageofherdaughter’sabsencefromtheroomtobroachthesubjectmostinherthoughts。 Nocompunctionshadstirredherastheyhadhervisitorontheexpediencyofhissuitinviewofhisyears。HerfeverofanxietylestafterallheshouldnotcometoseeAviceagainhadbeennotwithoutaneffectuponherhealth;anditmadehermorecandidthanshehadintendedtobe。 ’Troublesandsicknessraiseallsortsoffears,Mr。Pierston,’shesaid。’WhatIfeltonlyawishfor,whenyoufirstnamedit,Ihavehopedforagooddealsince;andIhavebeensoanxiousthat——thatitshouldcometosomething!Iamgladindeedthatyouarecome。’ ’MywantingtomarryAvice,youmean,dearMrs。Pierston?’ ’Yes——that’sit。Iwonderifyouarestillinthesamemind?Youare? ThenIwishsomethingcouldbedone——tomakeheragreetoit——soastogetitsettled。Idreadotherwisewhatwillbecomeofher。SheisnotapracticalgirlasIwas——shewouldhardlylikenowtosettledownasanislander’swife;andtoleaveherlivingherealonewouldtroubleme。’ ’Nothingwillhappentoyouyet,Ihope,mydearoldfriend。’ ’Well,itisariskycomplaint;andtheattacks,whentheycome,aresoagonizingthattoendurethemIoughttogetridofalloutsideanxieties,folksay。Now——doyouwanther,sir?’ ’Withallmysoul!Butshedoesn’twantme。’ ’Idon’tthinksheissoagainstyouasyouimagine。Ifancyifitwereputtoherplainly,nowIaminthisstate,itmightbedone。’ Theylapsedintoconversationontheearlydaysoftheiracquaintance,untilMrs。Pierston’sdaughterre-enteredtheroom。 ’Avice,’saidhermother,whenthegirlhadbeenwiththemafewminutes。’AboutthismatterthatIhavetalkedoverwithyousomanytimessincemyattack。HereisMr。Pierston,andhewishestobeyourhusband。Heismucholderthanyou;but,inspiteofit,thatyouwillevergetabetterhusbandIdon’tbelieve。Now,willyoutakehim,seeingthestateIamin,andhownaturallyanxiousIamtoseeyousettledbeforeIdie?’ ’Butyouwon’tdie,mother!Youaregettingbetter!’ ’Justforthepresentonly。Come,heisagoodmanandacleverman,andarichman。Iwantyou,Osomuch,tobehiswife!Icansaynomore。’ Avicelookedappealinglyatthesculptor,andthenonthefloor。’Doeshereallywishmeto?’sheaskedalmostinaudibly,turningasshespoketoPierston。’Hehasneverquitesaidsotome。’ ’Mydearone,howcanyoudoubtit?’saidJocelynquickly。’ButI won’tpressyoutomarrymeasafavour,againstyourfeelings。’ ’IthoughtMr。Pierstonwasyounger!’shemurmuredtohermother。 ’Thatcountsforlittle,whenyouthinkhowmuchthereisontheotherside。Thinkofourposition,andofhis——asculptor,withamansion,andastudiofullofbustsandstatuesthatIhavedustedinmytime,andofthebeautifulstudiesyouwouldbeabletotakeup。Surelythelifewouldjustsuityou?Yourexpensiveeducationiswasteddownhere!’ Avicedidnotcaretoargue。Shewasoutwardlygentleashergrandmotherhadbeen,anditseemedjustaquestionwithherofwhethershemustormustnot。’Verywell——IfeelIoughttoagreetomarryhim,sinceyoutellmeto,’sheansweredquietly,aftersomethought。 ’Iseethatitwouldbeawisethingtodo,andthatyouwishit,andthatMr。Pierstonreallydoes——likeme。So——sothat——’ Pierstonwasnotbackwardatthiscriticaljuncture,despiteunpleasantsensations。Butitwasthehistoricingredientinthisgenealogicalpassion——ifitscontinuitythroughthreegenerationsmaybesodescribed——whichappealedtohisperseveranceattheexpenseofhiswisdom。Themotherwasholdingthedaughter’shand;shetookPierston’s,andlaidAvice’sinit。 Nomorewassaidinargument,andthethingwasregardedasdetermined。 Afterwardsanoisewashearduponthewindow-panes,asoffinesandthrown;and,liftingtheblind,Pierstonsawthatthedistantlightshipwinkedwithablearedandindistincteye。Adrizzlingrainhadcomeonwiththedark,anditwasstrikingthewindowinhandfuls。Hehadintendedtowalkthetwomilesbacktothestation,butitmeantadrenchingtodoitnow。Hewaitedandhadsupper;and,findingtheweathernobetter,acceptedMrs。Pierston’sinvitationtostayoverthenight。 Thusitfelloutthatagainhelodgedinthehousehehadbeenaccustomedtoliveinasaboy,beforehisfatherhadmadehisfortune,andbeforehisownnamehadbeenheardofoutsidetheboundariesoftheisle。 Hesleptbutlittle,andinthefirstmovementofthedawnsatupinbed。WhyshouldheeverliveinLondonoranyotherfashionablecityifthisplanofmarriagecouldbecarriedout?Surely,withthisyoungwife,theislandwouldbethebestplaceforhim。ItmightbepossibletorentSylvaniaCastleashehadformerlydone——betterstilltobuyit。IflifecouldofferhimanythingworthhavingitwouldbeahomewithAvicethereonhisnativecliffstotheendofhisdays。 Ashesatthusthinking,andthedaylightincreased,hediscerned,ashortdistancebeforehim,amovementofsomethingghostly。Hispositionwasfacingthewindow,andhefoundthatbychancethelooking-glasshadswungitselfvertical,sothatwhathesawwashisownshape。Therecognitionstartledhim。Thepersonheappearedwastoogrievouslyfar,chronologically,inadvanceofthepersonhefelthimselftobe。Pierstondidnotcaretoregardthefigureconfrontinghimsomockingly。Itsvoiceseemedtosay’There’stragedyhangingontothis!’Butthequestionofagebeingpertinenthecouldnotgivethespectreup,andultimatelygotoutofbedundertheweirdfascinationofthereflection。Whetherhehadoverwalkedhimselflately,orwhathehaddone,heknewnot;butneverhadheseemedsoagedbyascoreofyearsashewasrepresentedintheglassinthatcoldgreymorninglight。Whilehissoulwaswhatitwas,whyshouldhehavebeenencumberedwiththatwitheringcarcase,withouttheabilitytoshiftitoffforanother,ashisidealBelovedhadsofrequentlydone? Byreasonofhermother’sillnessAvicewasnowlivinginthehouse,and,ongoingdownstairs,hefoundthattheyweretobreakfastentete- a-tete。Shewasnotthenintheroom,butsheenteredinthecourseofafewminutes。Pierstonhadalreadyheardthatthewidowfeltbetterthismorning,andelatedbytheprospectofsittingwithAviceatthismealhewentforwardtoherjoyously。Assoonasshesawhiminthefullstrokeofdayfromthewindowshestarted;andhethenrememberedthatitwastheirfirstmeetingunderthesolarrays。 Shewassoovercomethatsheturnedandlefttheroomasifshehadforgottensomething;whenshere-enteredshewasvisiblypale。Sherecoveredherself,andapologized。Shehadbeensittingupthenightbeforethelast,shesaid,andwasnotquitesowellasusual。 Theremayhavebeensometruthinthis;butPierstoncouldnotgetoverthatfirstscaredlookofhers。Itwasenoughtogivedaytimestabilitytohisnightviewsofapossibletragedylurkinginthisweddingproject。Hedeterminedthat,atanycosttohisheart,thereshouldbenomisapprehensionabouthimfromthismoment。 ’MissPierston,’hesaidastheysatdown,’sinceitiswellyoushouldknowallthetruthbeforewegoanyfurther,thattheremaybenoawkwarddiscoveriesafterwards,Iamgoingtotellyousomethingaboutmyself——ifyouarenottoodistressedtohearit?’ ’No——letmehearit。’ ’Iwasoncetheloverofyourmother,andwantedtomarryher,onlyshewouldn’t,orrathercouldn’t,marryme。’ ’Ohowstrange!’saidthegirl,lookingfromhimtothebreakfastthings,andfromthebreakfastthingstohim。’Motherhasnevertoldmethat。Yetofcourse,youmighthavebeen。Imean,youareoldenough。’ Hetooktheremarkasasatireshehadnotintended。’Oyes——quiteoldenough,’hesaidgrimly。’Almosttooold。’ ’Toooldformother?How’sthat?’ ’BecauseIbelongedtoyourgrandmother。’ ’No?Howcanthatbe?’ ’Iwasherloverlikewise。IshouldhavemarriedherifIhadgonestraightoninsteadofroundthecorner。’ ’Butyoucouldn’thavebeen,Mr。Pierston!Youarenotoldenough? Why,howoldareyou?——youhavenevertoldme。’ ’Iamveryold。’ ’Mymother’s,andmygrandmother’s,’saidshe,lookingathimnolongerasatapossiblehusband,butasastrangefossilizedrelicinhumanform。Pierstonsawit,butmeaningtogiveupthegamehedidnotcaretosparehimself。 ’Yourmother’sandyourgrandmother’syoungman,’herepeated。 ’Andwereyoumygreat-grandmother’stoo?’sheasked,withanexpectantinterestinhiscaseasadramathatovercameherpersonalconsiderationsforamoment。 ’No——notyourgreat-grandmother’s。Yourimaginationbeatsevenmyconfessions!……ButIamVERYold,asyousee。’ ’Ididnotknowit!’saidsheinanappalledmurmur。’Youdonotlookso;andIthoughtthatwhatyoulookedyouwere。’ ’Andyou——youareveryyoung,’hecontinued。 Astillnessfollowed,duringwhichshesatinatroubledconstraint,regardinghimnowandthenwithsomethinginheropeneyesandlargepupilsthatmighthavebeensympathyornervousness。Pierstonatescarceanybreakfast,andrisingabruptlyfromthetablesaidhewouldtakeawalkonthecliffsasthemorningwasfine。 Hedidso,proceedingalongthenorth-eastheightsfornearlyamile。 HehadvirtuallygivenAviceup,butnotformally。Hisintentionhadbeentogobacktothehouseinhalf-an-hourandpayamorningvisittotheinvalid;butbynotreturningtheplansofthepreviouseveningmightbeallowedtolapsesilently,asmerepourparlersthathadcometonothinginthefaceofAvice’swantofloveforhim。Pierstonaccordinglywentstraightalong,andinthecourseofanhourwasathisBudmouthlodgings。 Nothingoccurredtilltheeveningtoinformhimhowhisabsencehadbeentaken。ThenanotearrivedfromMrs。Pierston;itwaswritteninpencil,evidentlyasshelay。 ’Iamalarmed,’shesaid,’atyourgoingsosuddenly。Aviceseemstothinkshehasoffendedyou。Shedidnotmeantodothat,Iamsure。 Itmakesmedreadfullyanxious!Willyousendaline?Surelyyouwillnotdesertusnow——myheartissosetonmychild’swelfare!’ ’DesertyouIwon’t,’saidJocelyn。’Itistoomuchliketheoriginalcase。ButImustletherdesertme!’ Onhisreturn,withnootherobjectthanthatofwishingMrs。Pierstongood-bye,hefoundherpainfullyagitated。Sheclaspedhishandandwetteditwithhertears。 ’Odon’tbeoffendedwithher!’shecried。’She’syoung。Weareonepeople——don’tmarryakimberlin!Itwillbreakmyheartifyouforsakehernow!Avice!’ Thegirlcame。’Mymannerwashastyandthoughtlessthismorning,’shesaidinalowvoice。’Pleasepardonme。Iwishtoabidebymypromise。’ Hermother,stilltearful,againjoinedtheirhands;andtheengagementstoodasbefore。 PierstonwentbacktoBudmouth,butdimlyseeinghowcuriously,throughhisbeingarichsuitor,ideasofbeneficenceandreparationwereretaininghiminthecoursearrangedbyhermother,andurgedbyhisowndesireinthefaceofhisunderstanding。 3。V。ONTHEVERGEOFPOSSESSION InanticipationofhismarriagePierstonhadtakenanewredhouseoftheapprovedKensingtonpattern,withanewstudioatthebackaslargeasamediaevalbarn。Hither,incollusionwiththeelderAvice——whosehealthhadmendedsomewhat——heinvitedmotheranddaughtertospendaweekortwowithhim,thinkingtherebytoexerciseonthelatter’simaginationaninfluencewhichwasnotpracticablewhilehewasaguestattheirhouse;andbyinterestinghisbetrothedinthefittingandfurnishingofthisresidencetocreateinheranambitiontobeitsmistress。 Itwasapleasant,reposefultimetobeintown。Therewasnobodytointerruptthemintheirproceedings,and,itbeingoutoftheseason,thelargesttradesmenwereasattentivetotheirwantsasifthosefirmshadneverbeforebeenhonouredwithasinglecustomerwhomtheyreallyliked。Pierstonandhisguests,almostequallyinexperienced—— forthesculptorhadnearlyforgottenwhatknowledgeofhouseholdinghehadacquiredearlierinlife——couldconsiderandpractisethoroughlyaspeciesofskeleton-drillinreceivingvisitorswhenthepairshouldannouncethemselvesasmarriedandathomeinthecomingwinterseason。 Avicewascharming,evenifalittlecold。Hecongratulatedhimselfyetagainthattimeshouldhavereservedforhimthisfinalchanceforoneoftheline。Shewassomewhatlikehermother,whomhehadlovedintheflesh,butshehadthesoulofhergrandmother,whomhehadlovedinthespirit——and,forthatmatter,lovednow。Onlyonecriticismhadhetopassuponhischoice:thoughinoutwardsemblancehergrandamidealized,shehadnotthefirstAvice’scandour,butratherhermother’scloseness。Heneverknewexactlywhatshewasthinkingandfeeling。Yetheseemedtohavesuchprescriptiverightsinwomenofherbloodthatheroccasionalwantofconfidencedidnotdeeplytroublehim。 ItwasoneofthoseripeandmellowafternoonsthatsometimescolourLondonwiththeirgoldenlightatthistimeoftheyear,andproducethosemarvelloussunseteffectswhich,iftheywerenotknowntobemadeupofkitchencoal-smokeandanimalexhalations,wouldberapturouslyapplauded。Behindtheperpendicular,oblique,zigzagged,andcurvedzinc’tall-boys,’thatformedagreypatternnotunlikeearlyGothicnumeralsagainstthesky,themenandwomenonthetopsoftheomnibusessawanirradiationoftopazhues,darkenedhereandthereintorichestrusset。 Therehadbeenasharpshowerduringtheafternoon,andPierston——whohadtotakecareofhimself——hadwornapairofgoloshesonhisshortwalkinthestreet。Henoiselesslyenteredthestudio,insidewhichsomegleamsofthesamemellowlighthadmanagedtocreep,andwhereheguessedheshouldfindhisprospectivewifeandmother-in-lawawaitinghimwithtea。ButonlyAvicewasthere,seatedbesidetheteapotofbrowndelf,which,asartists,theyaffected,herbackbeingtowardhim。Shewasholdingherhandkerchieftohereyes,andhesawthatshewasweepingsilently。 Inanothermomentheperceivedthatshewasweepingoverabook。Bythistimeshehadheardhim,andcameforward。Hemadeitappearthathehadnotnoticedherdistress,andtheydiscussedsomearrangementsoffurniture。Whenhehadtakenacupofteashewentaway,leavingthebookbehindher。 Pierstontookitup。Thevolumewasanoldschool-book;Stievenard’s’LecturesFrancaises,’withhernameinitasapupilatSandbourneHighSchool,anddate-markingsdenotinglessonstakenatacomparativelyrecenttime,forAvicehadbeenbutanoviceasgovernesswhenhediscoveredher。 Foraschool-girl——whichshevirtuallywas——toweepoveraschool-bookwasstrange。Couldshehavebeenaffectedbysomesubjectinthereadings?Impossible。Pierstonfelltothinking,andzestdiedfortheprocessoffurnishing,whichhehadundertakensogaily。Somehow,thebloomwasagaindisappearingfromhisapproachingmarriage。YethelovedAvicemoreandmoretenderly;hefearedsometimesthatinthesolicitousnessofhisaffectionhewasspoilingherbyindulginghereverywhim。 Helookedroundthelargeandambitiousapartment,nowbecomingcloudedwithshades,outofwhichthewhiteandcadaverouscountenancesofhisstudies,casts,andotherlumberpeeredmeditativelyathim,asiftheyweresaying,’Whatareyougoingtodonow,oldboy?’Theyhadneverlookedlikethatwhilestandinginhispasthomelyworkshop,whereallthereallaboursofhislifehadbeencarriedout。Whatshouldamanofhisage,whohadnotforyearsdoneanythingtospeakof——certainlynottoaddtohisreputationasanartist——wantwithanewplacelikethis?Itwasallbecauseoftheelectlady,andsheapparentlydidnotwanthim。 PierstondidnotobserveanythingfurtherinAvicetocausehimmisgivingtillonedinner-time,aweeklater,towardstheendofthevisit。Then,ashesathimselfbetweenherandhermotherattheirlimitedtable,hewasstruckwithhernervousness,andwastemptedtosay,’Whyareyoutroubled,mylittledearest?’intoneswhichdisclosedthathewasastroubledasshe。 ’AmItroubled?’shesaidwithastart,turninghergentlehazeleyesuponhim。’Yes,IsupposeIam。ItisbecauseIhavereceivedaletter——fromanoldfriend。’ ’Youdidn’tshowittome,’saidhermother。 ’No——Itoreitup。’ ’Why?’ ’Itwasnotnecessarytokeepit,soIdestroyedit。’ Mrs。Pierstondidnotpressherfurtheronthesubject,andAviceshowednodispositiontocontinueit。Theyretiredratherearly,astheyalwaysdid,butPierstonremainedpacingabouthisstudioalongwhile,musingonmanythings,nottheleastbeingtheperceptionthattowedawomanmaybebynomeansthesamethingastobeunitedwithher。The’oldfriend’ofAvice’sremarkhadsoundedverymuchlike’lover。’Otherwisewhyshouldtheletterhavesogreatlydisturbedher? Thereseemedtobesomethinguncanny,afterall,aboutLondon,initsrelationtohiscontemplatedmarriage。Whenshehadfirstcomeupshewaseasierwithhimthannow。Andyethisbringinghertherehadhelpedhiscause;thehousehaddecidedlyimpressedher——almostoverawedher,andthoughheownedthatbynolawofnatureorreasonhadhermotherorhimselfanyrighttourgeonAvicepartnershipwithhimagainstherinclination,heresolvedtomakethemostofhavingherunderhisinfluencebygettingtheweddingdetailssettledbeforesheandhermotherleft。 Thenextmorningheproceededtodothis。WhenheencounteredAvicetherewasatraceofapprehensiononherface;buthesetthatdowntoafearthatshehadoffendedhimthenightbeforebyhertaciturnity。 Directlyherequestedhermother,inAvice’spresence,togethertofixthedayquiteearly,Mrs。Pierstonbecamebrighterandbrisker。 She,too,plainlyhaddoubtsaboutthewisdomofdelay,andturningtoherdaughtersaid,’Now,mydear,doyouhear?’ Itwasultimatelyagreedthatthewidowandherdaughtershouldgobackinadayortwo,toawaitPierston’sarrivalonthewedding-eve,immediatelyaftertheirreturn。 *** InpursuanceofthearrangementPierstonfoundhimselfonthesouthshoreofEnglandinthegloomoftheaforesaidevening,theisle,ashelookedacrossatitwithhisapproach,beingjustdiscernibleasamopingcountenance,acreaturesullenwithasensethathewasabouttowithdrawfromitskeepingtherarestobjectithadeverowned。Hehadcomealone,nottoembarrassthem,andhadintendedtohaltacoupleofhoursintheneighbouringseaporttogivesomeordersrelatingtothewedding,butthelittlerailwaytrainbeinginwaitingtotakehimon,heproceededwithanaturalimpatience,resolvingtodohisbusinessherebymessengerfromtheisle。 HepassedtheruinsoftheTudorcastleandthelongfeaturelessribofgrindingpebblesthatscreenedofftheoutersea,whichcouldbeheardliftinganddippingrhythmicallyinthewidevaguenessoftheBay。Attheunder-hillislandtownletoftheWellstherewerenoflys,andleavinghisthingstobebroughton,asheoftendid,heclimbedtheeminenceonfoot。 Half-wayupthesteepestpartofthepasshesawintheduskafigurepausing——thesinglepersonontheincline。Thoughitwastoodarktoidentifyfaces,Pierstongatheredfromthewayinwhichthehaltingstrangerwassupportinghimselfbythehandrail,whichhereborderedtheroadtoassistclimbers,thatthepersonwasexhausted。 ’Anythingthematter?’hesaid。 ’Ono——notmuch,’wasreturnedbytheother。’Butitissteepjusthere。’ TheaccentwasnotquitethatofanEnglishman,andstruckhimashailingfromoneoftheChannelIslands。’Can’tIhelpyouuptothetop?’hesaid,forthevoice,thoughthatofayoungman,seemedfaintandshaken。 ’No,thankyou。Ihavebeenill;butIthoughtIwasallrightagain; andasthenightwasfineIwalkedintotheislandbytheroad。Itturnedouttoberathertoomuchforme,asthereissomeweaknessleftstill;andthisstiffinclinebroughtitout。’ ’Naturally。You’dbettertakeholdofmyarm——atanyratetothebrowhere。’ Thuspressedthestrangerdidso,andtheywentontowardstheridge,till,reachingthelime-kilnstandingtherethestrangerabandonedhishold,saying:’Thankyouforyourassistance,sir。Good-night。’ ’Idon’tthinkIrecognizeyourvoiceasanative’s?’ ’No,itisnot。IamaJerseyman。Goodnight,sir。’ ’Good-night,ifyouaresureyoucangeton。Here,takethisstick——itisnousetome。’Sayingwhich,Pierstonputhiswalking-stickintotheyoungman’shand。 ’Thankyouagain。IshallbequiterecoveredwhenIhaverestedaminuteortwo。Don’tletmedetainyou,please。’ Thestrangerashespoketurnedhisfacetowardsthesouth,wheretheBeallighthadjustcomeintoview,andstoodregardingitwithanobstinatefixity。AsheevidentlywishedtobelefttohimselfJocelynwenton,andtroublednomoreabouthim,thoughthedesireoftheyoungmantoberidofhiscompany,afteracceptinghiswalking-stickandhisarm,hadcomewithasuddennessthatwasalmostemotional;andimpressionableasJocelynwas,nolessnowthaninyouth,hewassaddenedforaminutebythesensethattherewerepeopleintheworldwhodidnotlikeevenhissympathy。 However,apleasurewhichobliteratedallthisarosewhenPierstondrewneartothehousethatwaslikelytobehisdearhomeonallfuturevisitstotheisle,perhapsevenhispermanenthomeashegrewolderandtheassociationsofhisyouthre-assertedthemselves。Ithadbeen,too,hisfather’shouse,thehouseinwhichhewasborn,andheamusedhisfancywithplansforitsenlargementunderthesupervisionofAviceandhimself。Itwasastillgreaterpleasuretobeholdatallandshapelyfigurestandingagainstthelightoftheopendoorandpresumablyawaitinghim。 Avice,whoitwas,gavealittlejumpwhensherecognizedhim,butdutifullyallowedhimtokissherwhenhereachedherside;thoughhernervousnesswasonlytooapparent,andwaslikeachild’stowardsaparentwhomayprovestern。 ’HowdearofyoutoguessthatImightcomeonatonceinsteadoflater!’saidJocelyn。’Well,ifIhadstayedinthetowntogototheshopsandsoon,Icouldnothavegotheretillthelasttrain。Howismother?——ourmother,asIshallcallhersoon。’ Avicesaidthathermotherhadnotbeensowell——shefearednotnearlysowellsinceherreturnfromLondon,sothatshewasobligedtokeepherroom。Thevisithadperhapsbeentoomuchforher。’Butshewillnotacknowledgethatsheismuchweaker,becauseshewillnotdisturbmyhappiness。’ Jocelynwasinamoodtolettriflesofmannerpass,andhetooknonoticeoftheeffortwhichhadaccompaniedthelastword。TheywentupstairstoMrs。Pierston,whoseobviousreliefandthankfulnessatsightofhimwasgratefultohervisitor。 ’Iamso,Osogladyouarecome!’shesaidhuskily,assheheldoutherthinhandandstifledasob。’Ihavebeenso——’ Shecouldgetnofurtherforamoment,andAviceturnedawayweeping,andabruptlylefttheroom。 ’Ihavesosetmyheartonthis,’Mrs。Pierstonwenton,’thatIhavenotbeenabletosleepoflate,forIhavefearedImightdropoffsuddenlybeforesheisyours,andlosethecomfortofseeingyouactuallyunited。Yourbeingsokindtomeinoldtimeshasmademesosurethatshewillfindagoodhusbandinyou,thatIamoveranxious,Iknow。Indeed,IhavenotlikedtoletherknowquitehowanxiousI am。’ ThustheytalkedtillJocelynbadehergoodnight,itbeingnoticeablethatMrs。Pierston,chastenedbyherillnesses,maintainednolongeranyreserveonhergladnesstoacquirehimasherson-in-law;andherfeelingsdestroyedanyremainingscrupleshemighthavehadfromperceivingthatAvice’sconsentwasratheranobediencethanadesire。 Ashewentdownstairs,andfoundAviceawaitinghisdescent,hewonderedifanythinghadoccurredhereduringhisabsencetogiveMrs。 Pierstonnewuneasinessaboutthemarriage,butitwasaninquiryhecouldnotaddresstoagirlwhoseactionscouldalonebethecauseofsuchuneasiness。 Helookedroundforherashesupped,butthoughshehadcomeintotheroomwithhimshewasnottherenow。Herememberedhertellinghimthatshehadhadsupperwithhermother,andJocelynsatonquietlymusingandsippinghiswineforsomethingnearhalf-an-hour。Wonderingthenforthefirsttimewhathadbecomeofher,heroseandwenttothedoor。Avicewasquitenearhimafterall——onlystandingatthefrontdoorasshehadbeendoingwhenhecame,lookingintothelightofthefullmoon,whichhadrisensincehisarrival。Hissuddenopeningofthedining-roomdoorseemedtoagitateher。 ’Whatisit,dear?’heasked。 ’Asmotherismuchbetteranddoesn’twantme,IoughttogoandseesomebodyIpromisedtotakeaparcelto——IfeelIought。Andyet,asyouhavejustcometoseeme——Isupposeyoudon’tapproveofmygoingoutwhileyouarehere?’ ’Whoistheperson?’ ’Somebodydownthatway,’shesaidindefinitely。’Itisnotveryfaroff。Iamnotafraid——Igooutoftenbymyselfatnighthereabout。’ Hereassuredhergood-humouredly。’Ifyoureallywishtogo,mydear,ofcourseIdon’tobject。Ihavenoauthoritytodothattilltomorrow,andyouknowthatifIhaditIshouldn’tuseit。’ ’Obutyouhave!Motherbeinganinvalid,youareinherplace,apartfrom——to-morrow。’ ’Nonsense,darling。Runacrosstoyourfriend’shousebyallmeansifyouwantto。’ ’Andyou’llbeherewhenIcomein?’ ’No,Iamgoingdowntotheinntoseeifmythingsarebroughtup。’ ’Buthasn’tmotheraskedyoutostayhere?Thespareroomwasgotreadyforyou……Dearme,IamafraidIoughttohavetoldyou。’ ’Shedidaskme。ButIhavesomethingscoming,directedtotheinn,andIhadbetterbethere。SoI’llwishyougood-night,thoughitisnotlate。Iwillcomeinquiteearlyto-morrow,toinquirehowyourmotherisgoingon,andtowishyougood-morning。Youwillbebackagainquicklythisevening?’ ’Oyes。’ ’AndIneedn’tgowithyouforcompany?’ ’Ono,thankyou。Itisnodistance。’ Pierstonthendeparted,thinkinghowentirelyhermannerwasthatofonetowhomaquestionofdoinganythingwasaquestionofpermissionandnotofjudgment。HehadnosoonergonethanAvicetookaparcelfromacupboard,putonherhatandcloak,andfollowingbythewayhehadtakentillshereachedtheentrancetoSylvaniaCastle,therestoodstill。ShecouldhearPierston’sfootstepspassingdownEastQuarrierstotheinn;butshewentnofurtherinthatdirection。Turningintothelaneontheright,ofwhichmentionhassooftenbeenmade,shewentquicklypastthelastcottage,andhavingenteredthegorgebeyondsheclamberedintotheruinoftheRedKing’sorBow-and-ArrowCastle,standingasasquareblackmassagainstthemoonlit,indefinitesea。 3。VI。THEWELL-BELOVEDIS——WHERE? Mrs。Pierstonpassedarestlessnight,butthissheletnobodyknow; nor,whatwaspainfullyevidenttoherself,thatherprostrationwasincreasedbyanxietyandsuspenseabouttheweddingonwhichshehadtoomuchsetherheart。 DuringtheverybriefspaceinwhichshedozedAvicecameintoherroom。Asitwasnotinfrequentforherdaughtertolookinuponherthusshetooklittlenotice,merelysayingtoassurethegirl:’Iambetter,dear。Don’tcomeinagain。Gettosleepyourself。’ Themother,however,wentthinkinganew。Shehadnoapprehensionsaboutthismarriage。Shefeltperfectlysurethatitwasthebestthingshecoulddoforhergirl。NotayoungwomanontheislandbutwasenvyingAviceatthatmoment;forJocelynwasabsurdlyyoungforthreescore,agood-lookingman,onewhosehistorywasgenerallyknownhere;asalsoweretheexactfiguresofthefortunehehadinheritedfromhisfather,andthesocialstandinghecouldclaim——astanding,however,whichthatfortunewouldnothavebeenlargeenoughtoprocureunassistedbyhisreputationinhisart。 ButAvicehadbeenweakenough,ashermotherknew,toindulgeinfanciesforlocalyouthsfromtimetotime,andMrs。Pierstoncouldnothelpcongratulatingherselfthatherdaughterhadbeensodocileinthecircumstances。Yettoeveryoneexcept,perhaps,Aviceherself,Jocelynwasthemostromanticoflovers。Indeedwasthereeversucharomanceasthatmanembodiedinhisrelationstoherhouse?RejectingthefirstAvice,thesecondhadrejectedhim,andtorallytothethirdwithfinalachievementwasanartisticandtenderfinishtowhichitwasungratefulinanybodytobeblind。 ThewidowthoughtthatthesecondAvicemightprobablynothaverejectedPierstononthatoccasionintheLondonstudiosomanyyearsagoifdestinyhadnotarrangedthatsheshouldhavebeensecretlyunitedtoanotherwhentheproposingmomentcame。 Butwhathadcomewasbest。’MyGod,’shesaidattimesthatnight,’tothinkmyaiminwritingtohimshouldbefulfillingitselflikethis!’ Whenallwasrightanddone,whatasuccessuponthewholeherlifewouldhavebeen。Shewhohadbegunhercareerasacottage-girl,asmallquarry-owner’sdaughter,hadsunksolowastothepositionoflaundress,hadengagedinvariousmenialoccupations,hadmadeanunhappymarriageforlovewhichhad,however,inthelongrun,thankstoJocelyn’smanagement,muchimprovedherposition,wasatlasttoseeherdaughtersecurewhatsheherselfhadjustmissedsecuring,andestablishedinahomeofaffluenceandrefinement。 Thusthesickwomanexcitedherselfasthehourswenton。Atlast,inhertensenessitseemedtoherthatthetimehadalreadycomeatwhichthehouseholdwasstirring,andshefanciedsheheardconversationinherdaughter’sroom。Butshefoundthatitwasonlyfiveo’clock,andnotyetdaylight。Herstatewassuchthatshecouldseethehangingsofthebedtremblewithhertremors。Shehaddeclaredovernightthatshedidnotrequireanyonetositupwithher,butshenowrangalittlehandbell,andinafewminutesanurseappeared;RuthStockwool,anislandwomanandneighbour,whomMrs。Pierstonknewwell,andwhoknewallMrs。Pierston’shistory。 ’IamsonervousthatIcan’tstaybymyself,’saidthewidow。’AndI thoughtIheardBeckydressingMissAviceinherweddingthings。’ ’Ono——notyet,ma’am。There’snobodyup。ButI’llgetyousomething。’ WhenMrs。Pierstonhadtakenalittlenourishmentshewenton:’I can’thelpfrighteningmyselfwiththoughtsthatshewon’tmarryhim。 YouseeheisolderthanAvice。’ ’Yes,heis,’saidherneighbour。’ButIdon’tseehowanythingcanhendertheweddennow。’ ’Avice,youknow,hadfancies;atleastonefancyforanotherman;ayoungfellowoffive-and-twenty。Andshe’sbeenverysecretandoddaboutit。Iwishshehadravedandcriedandhaditout;butshe’sbeenquitetheotherway。Iknowshe’sfondofhimstill。’ ’What——thatyoungFrenchman,Mr。Leverreo’Sandbourne?I’veheardalittleofit。ButIshouldsaytherewaddenmuchbetween’em。’ ’Idon’tthinktherewas。ButI’veasortofconvictionthatshesawhimlastnight。Ibelieveitwasonlytobidhimgood-bye,andreturnhimsomebookshehadgivenher;butIwishshehadneverknownhim;heisratheranexcitable,impulsiveyoungman,andhemightmakemischief。Heisn’taFrenchman,thoughhehaslivedinFrance。HisfatherwasaJerseygentleman,andonhisbecomingawidowerhemarriedashissecondwifeanativeofthisveryisland。That’smainlywhytheyoungmanissoathomeintheseparts。’ ’Ah——nowIfollow’ee。ShewasaBencomb,hisstepmother:Iheardsomethingaboutheryearsago。’ ’Yes;herfatherhadthebiggeststone-tradeontheislandatonetime; butthenameisforgottenherenow。HeretiredyearsbeforeIwasborn。However,motherusedtotellmethatshewasahandsomeyoungwoman,whotriedtocatchMr。Pierstonwhenhewasayoungman,andscandalizedherselfabitwithhim。Shewentoffabroadwithherfather,whohadmadeafortunehere;butwhenhegotovertherehelostitnearlyallinsomeway。YearsaftershemarriedthisJerseyman,Mr。 Leverre,whohadbeenfondofherasagirl,andshebroughtuphischildasherown。’ Mrs。Pierstonpaused,butasRuthdidnotaskanyquestionshepresentlyresumedherself-relievingmurmur: ’HowMissAvicegottoknowtheyoungmanwasinthisway。WhenMrs。 Leverre’shusbanddiedshecamefromJerseytoliveatSandbourne;andmadeitherbusinessonedaytocrossovertothisplacetomakeinquiriesaboutMr。JocelynPierston。AsmynamewasPierstonshecalleduponmewithherson,andsoAviceandhegotacquainted。WhenAvicewentbacktoSandbournetothefinishingschooltheykeptuptheacquaintanceinsecret。HetaughtFrenchsomewherethere,anddoesstill,Ibelieve。’ ’Well,Ihopeshe’llforgeten。Heiddengoodenough。’ ’Ihopeso——Ihopeso……NowI’lltrytogetalittlenap。’ RuthStockwoolwentbacktoherroom,where,findingitwouldnotbenecessarytogetupforanotherhour,shelaydownagainandsoonslept。Herbedwasclosetothestaircase,fromwhichitwasdividedbyalathpartitiononly,andherconsciousnesseitherwasorseemedtobearousedbylightbrushingtouchesontheoutsideofthepartition,asoffingersfeelingthewaydownstairsinthedark。Theslightnoisepassed,andinafewsecondsshedreamtorfanciedshecouldheartheunfasteningofthebackdoor。 Shehadnearlysunkintoanothersoundsleepwhenpreciselythesamephenomenawererepeated;fingersbrushingalongthewallclosetoherhead,down,downward,thesoftopeningofthedoor,itsclose,andsilenceagain。 Shenowbecameclearlyawake。Therepetitionoftheprocesshadmadethewholematterasingularone。Earlyasitwasthefirstsoundsmighthavebeenthoseofthehousemaiddescending,thoughwhysheshouldhavecomedownsostealthilyandinthedarkdidnotmakeitselfclear。Butthesecondperformancewasinexplicable。Ruthgotoutofbedandliftedherblind。Thedawnwashardlyyetpink,andthelightfromthesandbankwasnotyetextinguished。Butthebushesofeuonymusagainstthewhitepalingsofthefrontgardencouldbeseen,alsothelightsurfaceoftheroadwindingawaylikearibandtothenorthentranceofSylvaniaCastle,thenceroundtothevillage,thecliffs,andtheCovebehind。Upontheroadtwodarkfigurescouldjustbediscerned,onealittlewaybehindtheother,butovertakingandjoiningtheforemostasRuthlooked。Afteralltheymightbequarriersorlighthouse-keepersfromthesouthoftheisland,orfishermenjustlandedfromanight’swork。Therebeingnothingtoconnectthemwiththenoisesshehadheardindoorsshedismissedthewholesubject,andwenttobedagain。 *** JocelynhadpromisedtopayanearlyvisittoascertainthestateofMrs。Pierston’shealthafterhernight’srest,herprecariousconditionbeingmoreobvioustohimthantoAvice,andmakinghimalittleanxious。Subsequenteventscausedhimtorememberthatwhilehewasdressinghecasuallyobservedtwoorthreeboatmenstandingnearthecliffbeyondthevillage,andapparentlywatchingwithdeepinterestwhatseemedtobeaboatfarawaytowardstheoppositeshoreofSouthWessex。Athalf-pasteighthecamefromthedooroftheinnandwentstraighttoMrs。Pierston’s。Onapproachinghediscoveredthatastrangeexpressionwhichseemedtohangaboutthehouse-frontthatmorningwasmorethanafancy,thegate,door,andtwowindowsbeingopen,thoughtheblindsofotherwindowswerenotdrawnup,thewholelendingavacant,dazedlooktothedomicile,asofapersongapinginsuddenstultification。Nobodyansweredhisknock,andwalkingintothedining-roomhefoundthatnobreakfasthadbeenlaid。Hisflashingthoughtwas,’Mrs。Pierstonisdead。’ Whilestandingintheroomsomebodycamedownstairs,andJocelynencounteredRuthStockwool,anopenletterflutteringinherhand。 ’OMr。Pierston,Mr。Pierston!TheLord-a-Lord!’ ’What?Mrs。Pierston——’ ’No,no!MissAvice!Sheisgone!——yes——gone!Readyethis,sir。Itwasleftinherbedroom,andwebefairlygalliedoutofoursenses!’ Hetooktheletterandconfusedlybeheldthatitwasintwohandwritings,thefirstsectionbeinginAvice’s: ’MYDEARMOTHER,——HoweverwillyouforgivemeforwhatIhavedone! Sodeceitfulasitseems。AndyettillthisnightIhadnoideaofdeceivingeitheryouorMr。Pierston。 ’Lastnightatteno’clockIwentout,asyoumayhaveguessed,toseeMr。Leverreforthelasttime,andtogivehimbackhisbooks,letters,andlittlepresentstome。Iwentonlyafewsteps——toBow-and-ArrowCastle,wherewemetaswehadagreedtodo,sincehecouldnotcall。 WhenIreachedtheplaceIfoundhimtherewaiting,butquiteill。Hehadbeenunwellathismother’shouseforsomedays,andhadbeenobligedtostayinbed,buthehadgotuponpurposetocomeandbidmegood-bye。Theover-exertionofthejourneyupsethim,andthoughwestayedandstayedtilltwelveo’clockhefeltquiteunabletogobackhome——unable,indeed,tomovemorethanafewyards。Ihadtriedsohardnottolovehimanylonger,butIlovedhimsonowthatIcouldnotdeserthimandleavehimouttheretocatchhisdeath。SoIhelpedhim——nearlycarryinghim——onandontoourdoor,andthenroundtotheback。Herehegotalittlebetter,andashecouldnotstaythere,andeverybodywasnowasleep,IhelpedhimupstairsintotheroomwehadpreparedforMr。Pierstonifheshouldhavewantedone。Igothimintobed,andthenfetchedsomebrandyandalittleofyourtonic。Didyouseemecomeintoyourroomforit,orwereyouasleep? ’Isatbyhimallnight。Heimprovedslowly,andwetalkedoverwhatwehadbetterdo。Ifeltthat,thoughIhadintendedtogivehimup,I couldnotnowbecominglymarryanyotherman,andthatIoughttomarryhim。Wedecidedtodoitatonce,beforeanybodycouldhinderus。Sowecamedownbeforeitwaslight,andhavegoneawaytogettheceremonysolemnized。 ’TellMr。Pierstonitwasnotpremeditated,buttheresultofanaccident。Iamsincerelysorrytohavetreatedhimwithwhathewillthinkunfairness,butthoughIdidnotlovehimImeanttoobeyyouandmarryhim。ButGodsentthisnecessityofmyhavingtogivesheltertomyLove,toprevent,Ithink,mydoingwhatIamnowconvincedwouldhavebeenwrong——Everyourlovingdaughter,AVICE。’ Thesecondwasinaman’shand: ’DEARMOTHER(asyouwillsoonbetome),——AvicehasclearlyexplainedabovehowithappenedthatIhavenotbeenabletogiveheruptoMr。 Pierston。IthinkIshouldhavediedifIhadnotacceptedthehospitalityofaroominyourhousethisnight,andyourdaughter’stendernursingthroughthedarkdrearyhours。Weloveeachotherbeyondexpression,anditisobviousthat,ifwearehuman,wecannotresistmarryingnow,inspiteoffriends’wishes。Willyoupleasesendthenotelyingbesidethistomymother。ItismerelytoexplainwhatIhavedone——Yourswithwarmestregard,HENRILEVERRE。’ Jocelynturnedawayandlookedoutofthewindow。 ’Mrs。Pierstonthoughtsheheardsometalkinginthenight,butofcoursesheputitdowntofancy。AndsheremembersMissAvicecomingintoherroomatoneo’clockinthemorning,andgoingtothetablewherethemedicinewasstanding。Aslygirl——allthetimeheryoungmanwithinayardortwo,intheveryroom,andausingtheverycleansheetsthatyou,sir,weretohaveused!Theyareourbestlinenones,gotupbeautiful,andakeptwi’rosemary。Really,sir,onewouldsayyoustayedouto’yourchammero’purposetoobligetheyoungmanwithabed!’ ’Don’tblamethem,don’tblamethem!’saidJocelyninanevenandcharacterlessvoice。’Don’tblameher,particularly。Shedidn’tmakethecircumstances。Idid……ItwashowIservedhergrandmother……Well,she’sgone!Youneedn’tmakeamysteryofit。Tellittoalltheisland:saythatamancametomarryawife,anddidn’tfindherathome。Telleverybodythatshe’srunaway。Itmustbeknownsoonerorlater。’ Oneoftheservantssaid,afterwaitingafewmoments:’Weshan’tdothat,sir。’ ’Oh——Whywon’tyou?’ ’Welikedhertoowell,withallherfaults。’ ’Ah——didyou,’saidhe;andhesighed。HeperceivedthattheyoungermaidsweresecretlyonAvice’sside。 ’Howdoeshermotherbearit?’Jocelynasked。’Issheawake?’ Mrs。Pierstonhadhardlyslept,and,havinglearntthetidingsinadvertently,becamesodistractedandincoherentastobelikeapersoninadelirium;till,afewmomentsbeforehearrived,allherexcitementceased,andshelayinaweak,quietsilence。 ’Letmegoup,’Pierstonsaid。’Andsendforthedoctor。’ PassingAvice’schamberheperceivedthatthelittlebedhadnotbeenslepton。Atthedoorofthespareroomhelookedin。Inonecornerstoodawalking-stick——hisown。 ’Wheredidthatcomefrom?’ ’Wefounditthere,sir。’ ’Ahyes——Igaveittohim。’Tislikemetoplayanother’sgame!’ ItwasthelastspurtofbitternessthatJocelynletescapehim。HewentontowardsMrs。Pierston’sroom,precededbytheservant。 ’Mr。Pierstonhascome,ma’am,’heheardhersaytotheinvalid。Butasthelattertooknonoticethewomanrushedforwardtothebed。 ’Whathashappenedtoher,Mr。Pierston?Owhatdoitmean?’ AvicetheSecondwaslyingplacidlyinthepositioninwhichthenursehadlefther;butnobreathcamefromherlips,andarigidityoffeaturewasaccompaniedbythepreciseexpressionwhichhadcharacterizedherfacewhenPierstonhadherasagirlinhisstudio。 Hesawthatitwasdeath,thoughsheappearedtohavebreathedherlastonlyafewmomentsbefore。 RuthStockwool’scomposuredesertedher。’’TistheshockoffindingMissAvicegonethathasdoneit!’shecried。’Shehaskilledhermother!’ ’Don’tsaysuchaterriblething!’exclaimedJocelyn。 ’Butsheoughttohaveobeyedhermother——agoodmotherasshewas! Howshehadsetherheartuponthewedding,poorsoul;andwecouldn’thelpherknowingwhathadhappened!Ohowungratefulyoungfolkbe! Thatgirlwillruethismorning’swork!’ ’Wemustgetthedoctor,’saidPierston,mechanically,hasteningfromtheroom。 Whenthelocalpractitionercamehemerelyconfirmedtheirownverdict,andthoughtherdeathhadundoubtedlybeenhastenedbytheshockoftheillnewsuponafeebleheart,followingalongstrainofanxietyaboutthewedding。Hedidnotconsiderthataninquestwouldbenecessary。