第4章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:19434更新时间:19/01/05 09:25:41
Thenextdayhementallytimedthemdowntheriver,allowingforthepausetotakeinballast,andontheWednesdaypicturedthesaildowntheopensea。Thatnighthethoughtofthelittlecraftunderthebowsofthehugesteam-vessels,powerlesstomakeitselfseenorheard,andAvice,nowgrowinginexpressiblydear,sleepinginherlittleberthatthemercyofathousandchancecatastrophes。 HonestperceptionhadtoldhimthatthisAvice,fairerthanhermotherinfaceandform,washerinferiorinsoulandunderstanding。Yetthefervourwhichthefirstcouldneverkindleinhimwas,almosttohisalarm,burningupnow。HebegantohavemisgivingsastosomequeertrickthathismigratoryBelovedwasabouttoplayhim,orratherthecapriciousDivinitybehindthatideallady。 Agiganticsatireuponthemutationsofhisnymphduringthepasttwentyyearsseemedloominginthedistance。Aforsakingoftheaccomplishedandwell-connectedMrs。Pine-Avonforthelittlelaundress,underthetractionofsomemysticmagnetwhichhadnothingtodowithreason——surelythatwastheformofthesatire。 Butitwasrecklesslypleasanttoleavethesuspicionunrecognizedasyet,andfollowthelead。 InthinkinghowbesttodothisPierstonrecollectedthat,aswascustomarywhenthesummer-timeapproached,SylvaniaCastlehadbeenadvertisedforlettingfurnished。Asolitarydreamerlikehimself,whosewantsalllayinanartisticandidealdirection,didnotrequiresuchgauntaccommodationastheaforesaidresidenceoffered;butthespotwasall,andtheexpensesofafewmonthsoftenancythereinhecouldwellafford。Alettertotheagentwasdispatchedthatnight,andinafewdaysJocelynfoundhimselfthetemporarypossessorofaplacewhichhehadneverseentheinsideofsincehischildhood,andhadthendeemedtheabodeofunpleasantghosts。 2。VI。THEPASTSHINESINTHEPRESENT ItwastheeveningofPierston’sarrivalatSylvaniaCastle,adignifiedmanor-houseinanookbythecliffs,withmoderncastellationsandbattlements;andhehadwalkedthroughtherooms,aboutthelawn,andintothesurroundingplantationofelms,whichonthisislandoftreelessrocklentauniquecharactertotheenclosure。 Inname,nature,andaccessoriesthepropertywithinthegirdlingwallformedacompleteantithesistoeverythinginitsprecincts。TofindothertreesbetweenPebble-bankandBeal,itwasnecessarytorecedealittleintime——todigdowntoaloosestratumoftheunderlyingstone- beds,whereaforestofconiferslayaspetrifactions,theirheadsallinonedirection,asblowndownbyagaleintheSecondarygeologicepoch。 Duskhadclosedin,andhenowproceededwithwhatwas,afterall,therealbusinessofhissojourn。Thetwoservantswhohadbeenlefttotakecareofthehousewereintheirownquarters,andhewentoutunobserved。Crossingahollowoverhungbythebuddingboughsheapproachedanemptygarden-houseofElizabethandesign,whichstoodontheouterwallofthegrounds,andcommandedbyawindowthefrontsofthenearestcottages。AmongthemwasthehomeoftheresuscitatedAvice。 Hehadchosenthismomentforhisoutlookthroughknowingthatthevillagerswereinnohurrytopulldowntheirblindsatnightfall。 And,ashehaddivined,theinsideoftheyoungwoman’sliving-roomwasvisibletohimasformerly,illuminatedbytheraysofitsownlamp。 Asubduedthumpingcameeverynowandthenfromtheapartment。Shewasironinglinenonaflanneltable-cloth,arowofsuchapparelhangingonaclothes-horsebythefire。Herfacehadbeenpalewhenheencounteredher,butnowitwaswarmandpinkwithherexertionsandtheheatofthestove。Yetitwasinperfectandpassionlessrepose,whichimpartedaMinervacasttotheprofile。Whensheglancedup,herlineamentsseemedtohaveallthesoulandheartthathadcharacterizedhermother’s,andhadbeenwithheratrueindexofthespiritwithin。 Coulditbepossiblethatinthiscasethemanifestationwasfictitious?Hehadmetwithmanysuchexamplesofhereditarypersistencewithoutthequalitiessignifiedbythetraits。Heunconsciouslyhopedthatitwasatleastnotentirelysohere。 Theroomwaslessfurnishedthanwhenhehadlastbeheldit。The’bo- fet,’ordoublecorner-cupboard,wherethechinawasformerlykept,haddisappeared,itsplacebeingtakenbyaplainboard。Thetalloldclock,withitsancientoakcarcase,archedbrow,andhumorousmouth,wasalsonottobeseen,acheap,white-dialledspecimendoingitswork。Whatthesedisplacementsmightbetokensaddenedhishumanitylessthanitcheeredhisprimitiveinstinctinpointingouthowhernecessitiesmightbringthemtogether。 Havingfixedhisresidencenearherforsomelengthytimehefeltinnohurrytoobtrudehispresencejustnow,andwentindoors。Thatthisgirl’sframewasdoomedtobearealembodimentofthatoldenseductiveone——thatProteandream-creature,whohadneverseenfittoirradiatethemother’simagetillitbecameamerememoryafterdissolution——hedoubtedlesseverymoment。 Therewasanuneasinessinrecognizingsuch。Therewassomethingabnormalinhispresentproclivity。Acertainsanityhad,afterall,accompaniedhisformeridealizingpassions:theBelovedhadseldominformedapersonalitywhich,whileenrapturinghissoul,simultaneouslyshockedhisintellect。Achange,perhaps,hadcome。 Itwasafinemorningonthemorrow。WalkinginthegroundstowardsthegatehesawAviceenteringhishiredcastlewithabroadovalwicker-basketcoveredwithawhitecloth,whichburdensheboreroundtothebackdoor。Ofcourse,shewashedforhisownhousehold:hehadnotthoughtofthat。Inthemorningsunlightsheappearedratherasasylphthanasawasherwoman;andhecouldnotbutthinkthattheslightnessofherfigurewasasilladaptedtothisoccupationashermother’shadbeen。 But,afterall,itwasnotthewasherwomanthathesawnow。Infrontofher,onthesurfaceofher,wasshiningoutthatmorereal,moreinter-penetratingbeingwhomheknewsowell!Theoccupationofthesubservingminion,theblemishesofthetemporarycreaturewhoformedthebackground,wereofthesameaccountinthepresentationoftheindispensableoneasthesupportingpostsandframeworkinapyrotechnicdisplay。 Sheleftthehouseandwenthomewardbyapathofwhichhewasnotaware,havingprobablychangedhercoursebecauseshehadseenhimstandingthere。Itmeantnothing,forshehadhardlybecomeacquaintedwithhim;yetthatsheshouldhaveavoidedhimwasanewexperience。 Hehadnoopportunityforafurtherstudyofherbydistantobservation,andhituponapretextforbringingherfacetofacewithhim。Hefoundfaultwithhislinen,anddirectedthatthelaundressshouldbesentfor。 ’Sheisratheryoung,poorlittlething,’saidthehousemaidapologetically。’Butsincehermother’sdeathshehasenoughtodotokeepabovewater,andwemakeshiftwithher。ButI’lltellher,sir。’ ’Iwillseehermyself。Sendherinwhenshecomes,’saidPierston。 Onemorning,accordingly,whenhewasansweringaspitefulcriticismofalateworkofhis,hewastoldthatshewaitedhispleasureinthehall。Hewentout。 ’Aboutthewashing,’saidthesculptorstiffly。’Iamaveryparticularperson,andIwishnopreparationoflimetobeused。’ ’Ididn’tknowfolksusedit,’repliedthemaiden,inascaredandreservedtone,withoutlookingathim。 ’That’sallright。Andthen,themanglingsmashesthebuttons。’ ’Ihaven’tgotamangle,sir,’shemurmured。 ’Ah!that’ssatisfactory。AndIobjecttosomuchboraxinthestarch。’ ’Idon’tputany,’Avicereturnedinthesamecloseway;’neverheardthenameo’tafore!’ ’OIsee。’ AllthistimePierstonwasthinkingofthegirl——orasthescientificmightsay,Naturewasworkingherplansforthenextgenerationunderthecloakofadialogueonlinen。Hecouldnotreadherindividualcharacter,owingtotheconfusingeffectofherlikenesstoawomanwhomhehadvaluedtoolate。Hecouldnothelpseeinginherallthatheknewofanother,andveilinginherallthatdidnotharmonizewithhissenseofmetempsychosis。 Thegirlseemedtothinkofnothingbutthebusinessinhand。Shehadansweredtothepoint,andwashardlyawareofhissexorofhisshape。 ’Iknewyourmother,Avice,’hesaid。’Youremembermytellingyouso?’ ’Yes。’ ’Well——Ihavetakenthishousefortwoorthreemonths,andyouwillbeveryusefultome。Youstilllivejustoutsidethewall?’ ’Yes,sir,’saidtheself-containedgirl。 Demurelyanddispassionatelysheturnedtoleave——thisprettycreaturewithfeaturessostill。Therewassomethingstrangeinseeingmoveoffthusthatformwhichheknewpassingwell,shewhowasoncesothrobbinglyalivetohispresencethat,notmanyyardsfromthisspot,shehadflungherarmsroundhimandgivenhimakisswhich,despisedinitsfreshness,hadrevivedinhimlatterlyasthedearestkissofallhislife。Andnowthis’daps’ofhermother(astheycalledherinthedialecthere),thisperfectcopy,whydidsheturnaway? ’Yourmotherwasarefinedandwell-informedwoman,IthinkI remember?’ ’Shewas,sir;everybodysaidso。’ ’Ihopeyouresembleher。’ Shearchlyshookherhead,anddrewwarilyaway。 ’O!onethingmore,Avice。Ihavenotbroughtmuchlinen,soyoumustcometothehouseeveryday。’ ’Verygood,sir。’ ’Youwon’tforgetthat?’ ’Ono。’ Thenhelethergo。Hewasatownman,andsheanartlessislander,yethehadopenedhimselfout,likeasea-anemone,withoutdisturbingtheepidermofhernature。Itwasmonstrousthatamaidenwhohadassumedthepersonalityofherofhistenderestmemoryshouldbesoimpervious。Perhapsitwashewhowaswanting。AvicemightbePassionmaskingasIndifference,becausehewassomanyyearsolderinoutwardshow。 Thisbroughthimtotherootofit。Inhishearthewasnotadayolderthanwhenhehadwooedthemotheratthedaughter’spresentage。 Hisrecordmovedonwiththeyears,hissentimentsstoodstill。 Whenhebeheldthoseofhisfellowswhoweredefinedasbuffersandfogeys——imperturbable,matter-of-fact,slightlyridiculousbeings,pastmastersintheartofpopulatinghomes,schools,andcolleges,andpresentadeptsinthescienceofgivingawaybrides——howheenviedthem,assumingthemtofeelastheyappearedtofeel,withtheircommerceandtheirpolitics,theirglassesandtheirpipes。Theyhadgotpastthedistractingcurrentsofpassionateness,andwereinthecalmwatersofmiddle-agedphilosophy。Buthe,theircontemporary,wastossedlikeacorkhitherandthitheruponthecrestofeveryfancy,preciselyashehadbeentossedwhenhewashalfhispresentage,withtheburdennowofdoublepaintohimselfinhisgrowingvisionofallasvanity。 Avicehadgone,andhesawhernomorethatday。Sincehecouldnotagaincalluponher,shewasasinaccessibleasifshehadenteredthemilitarycitadelonthehill-topbeyondthem。 IntheeveninghewentoutandpaceddownthelanetotheRedKing’scastleoverhangingthecliff,besidewhoseagethecastleheoccupiedwasbutathingofyesterday。Belowthecastleprecipicelayenormousblocks,whichhadfallenfromit,andseveralofthemwerecarvedoverwithnamesandinitials。Heknewthespotandtheoldtrickwell,andbysearchinginthefaintmoon-rayshefoundapairofnameswhich,asaboy,hehimselfhadcut。Theywere’AVICE’and’JOCELYN’——AviceCaro’sandhisown。Theletterswerenownearlywornawaybytheweatherandthebrine。Butcloseby,inquitefreshletters,stood’ANNAVICE,’coupledwiththename’ISAAC。’Theycouldnothavebeentheremorethantwoorthreeyears,andthe’AnnAvice’wasprobablyAvicetheSecond。WhowasIsaac?Someboyadmirerofherchild-timedoubtless。 Heretracedhissteps,andpassedtheCaros’housetowardshisown。 TherevivifiedAviceanimatedthedwelling,andthelightwithintheroomfelluponthewindow。Shewasjustinsidethatblind。 *** Wheneversheunexpectedlycametothecastlehestarted,andlostplacidity。Itwasnotatherpresenceassuch,butatthenewcondition,whichseemedtohavesomethingsinisterinit。Ontheotherhand,themostabruptencounterwithhimmovedhertonoemotionasithadmovedherprototypeintheolddays。Shewasindifferentto,almostunconsciousof,hispropinquity。Hewasnomorethanastatuetoher;shewasagrowingfiretohim。 AsuddenSapphicterroroflovewouldeverandanoncomeuponthesculptor,whenhismaturedreflectingpowerswouldinsistuponinforminghimofthefearfullapsefromreasonablenessthatlayinthisinfatuation。Itthrewhimintoasweat。Whatifnow,atlast,heweredoomedtodopenanceforhispastemotionalwanderings(inamaterialsense)bybeingchainedinfatalfidelitytoanobjectthathisintellectdespised?Onenighthedreamtthathesawdimlymaskingbehindthatyoungcountenance’theWeaverofWiles’herself,’withallhersubtlefacelaughingaloud。’ However,theWell-Belovedwasaliveagain,hadbeenlostandwasfound。 Hewasamazedatthechangeoffrontinhimself。Shehadworntheguiseofstrangewomen;shehadbeenawomanofeveryclass,fromthedignifieddaughterofsomeecclesiasticorpeertoaNubianAlmehwithherhandkerchief,undulatingtothebeatsofthetom-tom;butalltheseembodimentshadbeenendowedwithacertainsmartness,eitherofthefleshorspirit:somewithwit,afewwithtalent,andevengenius。 Butthenewimpersonationhadapparentlynothingbeyondsexandprettiness。Sheknewnothowtosportafanorhandkerchief,hardlyhowtopullonaglove。 Butherlimitedlifewasinnocent,andthatwentfar。PoorlittleAvice!hermother’simage:thereitalllay。Afterall,herparentagewasasgoodashisown;itwasmisfortunethathadsentherdowntothis。Oddasitseemedtohim,herlimitationswerelargelywhathelovedherfor。Herrejuvenatingpoweroverhimhadineffablecharm。 Hefeltashehadfeltwhenstandingbesideherpredecessor;but,alas! hewastwentyyearsfurtherontowardstheshade。 2。VII。THENEWBECOMESESTABLISHED Afewmorningslaterhewaslookingthroughanupperbackwindowoverascreenedpartofthegarden。Thedoorbeneathhimopened,andafigureappearedtrippingforth。Shewentroundoutofsighttowherethegardenerwasatwork,andpresentlyreturnedwithabunchofgreenstuffflutteringineachhand。ItwasAvice,herdarkhairnowbraidedupsnuglyunderacap。Shesailedonwitharaptandunconsciousface,herthoughtsathousandremovesfromhim。 Howshehadsuddenlycometobeaninmateofhisownhousehecouldnotunderstand,tillherecalledthefactthathehadgiventhecastleservantsawholeholidaytoattendareviewoftheyeomanryinthewatering-placeoverthebay,ontheirstatingthattheycouldprovideatemporarysubstitutetostayinthehouse。TheyhadevidentlycalledinAvice。Tohisgreatpleasurehediscoveredtheiropinionofhisrequirementstobesuchameanonethattheyhadcalledinnooneelse。 TheSpirit,assheseemedtohim,broughthislunchintotheroomwherehewaswriting,andhebeheldheruncoverit。Shewenttothewindowtoadjustablindwhichhadslipped,andhehadagoodviewofherprofile。ItwasnotunlikethatofoneofthethreegoddessesinRubens’s’JudgmentofParis,’andincontourwasnighperfection。Butitwasinherfullfacethatthevisionofhermotherwasmostapparent。 ’Didyoucookallthis,Avice?’heasked,arousinghimself。 Sheturnedandhalf-smiled,merelymurmuring,’Yes,sir。’ Wellheknewthearrangementofthosewhiteteeth。Inthejunctionoftwooftheupperonestherewasaslightirregularity;nostrangerwouldhavenoticedit,norwouldhe,butthatheknewofthesamemarkinhermother’smouth,andlookedforithere。TillAvicetheSecondhadrevealeditthismomentbyhersmile,hehadneverbeheldthatmarksincethepartingfromAvicetheFirst,whenshehadsmiledunderhiskissasthecopyhaddonenow。 Nextmorning,whendressing,heheardherthroughtherickettyfloorofthebuildingengagedinconversationwiththeotherservants。HavingbythistimeregularlyinstalledherselfastheexponentoftheLong- pursued——asonewho,bynoinitiativeofhisown,hadbeenchosenbysomesuperiorPowerasthevehicleofhernextdebut,sheattractedhimbythecadencesofhervoice;shewouldsuddenlydropittoarichwhisperofroguishness,whentheslightruralmonotonyofitsnarrativespeechdisappeared,andsoulandheart——orwhatseemedsoulandheart—— resounded。Thecharmlayintheintervals,usingthatwordinitsmusicalsense。Shewouldsayafewsyllablesinonenote,andendhersentenceinasoftmodulationupwards,thendownwards,thenintoherownnoteagain。Thecurveofsoundwasasartisticasanylineofbeautyeverstruckbyhispencil——assatisfyingasthecurvesofherwhowastheWorld’sDesire。 Thesubjectofherdiscoursehecarednothingabout——itwasnomorehisinterestthanhisconcern。Hetookspecialpainsthatincatchinghervoicehemightnotcomprehendherwords。Tothetoneshehadaright,nonetothearticulations。Bydegreeshecouldnotexistlongwithoutthissound。 OnSundayeveninghefoundthatshewenttochurch。Hefollowedbehindherovertheopenroad,keepinghiseyeonthelittlehatwithitsbunchofcock’sfeathersasonastar。WhenshehadpassedinPierstonobservedherpositionandtookaseatbehindher。 Engagedinthestudyofherearandthenapeofherwhiteneck,hesuddenlybecameawareofthepresenceofaladystillfurtheraheadintheaisle,whoseattire,thoughofblackmaterialsinthequietestform,wasofacutwhichrathersuggestedLondonthanthisUltimaThule。Fortheminuteheforgot,inhiscuriosity,thatAviceintervened。Theladyturnedherheadsomewhat,and,thoughshewasveiledwithunusualthicknessfortheseason,heseemedtorecognizeNicholaPine-Avonintheform。 WhyshouldMrs。Pine-Avonbethere?Pierstonaskedhimself,ifitshould,indeed,beshe。 TheendoftheservicesawhisattentionagainconcentratedonAvicetosuchadegreethatatthecriticalmomentofmovingoutheforgotthemysteriousladyinfrontofher,andfoundthatshehadleftthechurchbytheside-door。SupposingittohavebeenMrs。Pine-Avon,shewouldprobablybediscoveredstayingatoneofthehotelsatthewatering- placeoverthebay,andtohavecomealongthePebble-banktotheislandassomanydid,foraneveningdrive。Forthepresent,however,theexplanationwasnotforthcoming;andhedidnotseekit。 WhenheemergedfromthechurchthegreatplacideyeofthelighthouseattheBealPointwasopen,andhemovedthitherwardafewstepstoescapeNichola,orherdouble,andtherestofthecongregation。 Turningatlength,hehastenedhomewardalongthenowdesertedtrackway,intendingtoovertaketherevitalizedAvice。Buthecouldseenothingofher,andconcludedthatshehadwalkedtoofastforhim。 Arrivedathisowngatehepausedamoment,andperceivedthatAvice’slittlefreeholdwasstillindarkness。Shehadnotcome。 Heretracedhissteps,butcouldnotfindher,theonlypersonsontheroadbeingamanandhiswife,asheknewthemtobethoughhecouldnotseethem,fromthewordsoftheman—— ’Ifyouhadnota’readymarriedme,you’dcutmyacquaintance!That’saprettythingforawifetosay!’ Theremarkstruckhisearunpleasantly,andby-and-byhewentbackagain。Avice’scottagewasnowlighted:shemusthavecomeroundbytheotherroad。SatisfiedthatshewassafelydomiciledforthenightheopenedthegateofSylvaniaCastleandretiredtohisroomalso。 *** Eastwardfromthegroundsthecliffswereruggedandtheviewoftheoppositecoastpicturesqueintheextreme。Alittledoorfromthelawngavehimimmediateaccesstotherocksandshoreonthisside。Withoutthedoorwasadip-wellofpurewater,whichpossiblyhadsuppliedtheinmatesoftheadjoiningandnowruinousRedKing’scastleatthetimeofitserection。Onasunnymorninghewasmeditatingherewhenhediscernedafigureontheshorebelowspreadingwhitelinenuponthepebblystrand。 Jocelyndescended。Avice,ashehadsupposed,hadnowreturnedtoherownoccupation。Hershapelypinkarms,thoughslight,wereplumpenoughtoshowdimplesattheelbows,andweresetoffbyherpurplecottonprint,whichtheshore-breezelickedandtantalized。Hestoodnear,withoutspeaking。Thewinddraggedashirt-sleevefromthe’popple’orpebblewhichhelditdown。Pierstonstoopedandputaheavieroneinitsplace。 ’Thankyou,’shesaidquietly。Sheturnedupherhazeleyes,andseemedgratifiedtoperceivethatherassistantwasPierston。Shehadplainlybeensowrappedinherownthoughts——gloomythoughts,bytheirsigns——thatshehadnotconsideredhimtillthen。 Theyounggirlcontinuedtoconversewithhiminfriendlyfrankness,showingneitherardournorshyness。Asforlove——itwasevidentlyfurtherfromhermindthanevendeathanddissolution。 WhenoneofthesheetsbecameintractableJocelynsaid,’Doyouholditdown,andI’llputthepopples。’ Sheacquiesced,andinplacingapebblehishandtouchedhers。 Itwasayounghand,ratherlongandthin,alittledampandcoddledfromherslopping。Insettingdownthelaststonehelaidit,byapureaccident,ratherheavilyonherfingers。 ’Iamvery,verysorry!’Jocelynexclaimed。’O,Ihavebruisedtheskin,Avice!’Heseizedherfingerstoexaminethedamagedone。 ’No,sir,youhaven’t!’shecriedluminously,allowinghimtoretainherhandwithouttheleastobjection。’Why——that’swhereIscratcheditthismorningwithapin。Youdidn’thurtmeabitwiththepopple- stone!’ Althoughhergownwaspurple,therewasalittleblackcrapebowuponeacharm。Heknewwhatitmeant,anditsaddenedhim。’Doyouevervisityourmother’sgrave?’heasked。 ’Yes,sir,sometimes。Iamgoingtheretonighttowaterthedaisies。’ Shehadnowfinishedhere,andtheyparted。Thatevening,whentheskywasred,heemergedbythegarden-doorandpassedherhouse。Theblindswerenotdown,andhecouldseehersewingwithin。Whilehepausedshesprangupasifshehadforgottenthehour,andtossedonherhat。Jocelynstrodeaheadandroundthecorner,andwashalfwayupthestragglingstreetbeforehediscernedherlittlefigurebehindhim。 Hehastenedpasttheladsandyoungwomenwithclinkingbucketswhoweredrawingwaterfromthefountainsbythewayside,andtookthedirectionofthechurch。Withthedisappearanceofthesunthelighthousehadagainsetupitsflameagainstthesky,thedarkchurchrisingintheforeground。Hereheallowedhertoovertakehim。 ’Youlovedyourmothermuch?’saidJocelyn。 ’Idid,sir;ofcourseIdid,’saidthegirl,whotrippedsolightlythatitseemedhemighthavecarriedheronhishand。 Pierstonwishedtosay,’SodidI,’butdidnotliketodiscloseeventswhichshe,apparently,neverguessed。Avicefellintothought,andcontinued—— ’MotherhadaverysadlifeforsometimewhenshewasaboutasoldasI。Ishouldnotlikeminetobeashers。Heryoungmanprovedfalsetoherbecauseshewouldn’tagreetomeethimonenight,anditgrievedmotheralmostallherlife。Iwouldn’tha’frettedabouthim,ifI’dbeenshe。Shewouldnevernamehisname,butIknowhewasawicked,cruelman;andIhatetothinkofhim。’ Afterthishecouldnotgointothechurchyardwithher,andwalkedonwardalonetothesouthoftheisle。Hewaswretchedforhours。Yethewouldnothavestoodwherehedidstandintheranksofanimaginativeprofessionifhehadnotbeenatthemercyofeveryhauntingofthefancythatcanbesetman。Itwasinhisweaknessesasacitizenandanational-unitthathisstrengthlayasanartist,andhefeltitchildishtocomplainofsusceptibilitiesnotonlyinnatebutcultivated。 ButhewaspayingdearlyenoughforhisLiliths。Hesawaterriblevengeanceahead。Whathadhedonetobetormentedlikethis?TheBeloved,afterflittingfromNicholaPine-Avontothephantomofadeadwomanwhomheneveradoredinherlifetime,hadtakenupherabodeinthelivingrepresentativeofthedead,withapermanenceofholdwhichtheabsoluteindifferenceofthatlittlebrown-eyedrepresentativeonlyseemedtointensify。 Didhereallywishtoproceedtomarriagewiththischitofagirl?Hedid:thewishhadcomeatlast。Itwastruethatashestudiedherhesawdefectsinadditiontohersocialinsufficiencies。Judgment,hoodwinkedasitwas,toldhimthatshewascolderinnature,commonerincharacter,thanthatwellread,brightlittlewomanAvicetheFirst。 Buttwentyyearsmakeadifferenceinideals,andtheaddeddemandsofmiddle-ageinphysicalformaremorethanbalancedbyitsconcessionsastothespiritualcontent。Helookedathimselfintheglass,andfeltgladatthoseinnerdeficienciesinAvicewhichformerlywouldhaveimpelledhimtorejecther。 Therewasastrangedifferenceinhisregardofhispresentfollyandofhisloveinhisyouthfultime。Nowhecouldbemadwithmethod,knowingittobemadness:thenhewascompelledtomakebelievehismadnesswisdom。Inthosedaysanyflashofreasonuponhislovedone’simperfectionswasblurredoverhastilyandwithfear。Suchpenetrativevisionnowdidnotcoolhim。Heknewhewasthecreatureofatendency;andpassivelyacquiesced。 Touseapracticaleye,itappearedthat,ashehadoncethought,thisCarofamily——thoughitmightnotforcenturies,orever,furbishupanindividualnaturewhichwouldexactly,ideally,supplementhisownimperfectoneandroundwithittheperfectwhole——wasyettheonlyfamilyhehadevermet,orwaslikelytomeet,whichpossessedthematerialsforhermaking。ItwasasiftheCaroshadfoundtheclaybutnotthepotter,whileotherfamilieswhosedaughtersmightattracthimhadfoundthepotterbutnottheclay。 2。VIII。HISOWNSOULCONFRONTSHIM FromhisroomycastleanditsgroundsandthecliffshardbyhecouldcommandeverymoveandaspectofherwhowastherejuvenatedSpiritofthePasttohim——intheeffulgenceofwhomallsordiddetailsweredisregarded。 Amongotherthingsheobservedthatshewasoftenanxiouswhenitrained。If,afterawetday,agoldenstreakappearedintheskyoverDeadman’sBay,underalidofcloud,hermannerwasjoyousandhertreadlight。 Thispuzzledhim;andhefoundthatifheendeavouredtoencounterheratthesetimessheshunnedhim——stealthilyandsubtly,butunmistakably。Oneevening,whenshehadlefthercottageandtrippedoffinthedirectionoftheunder-hilltownlet,hesetoutbythesameroute,resolvedtoawaitherreturnalongthehighroadwaywhichstretchedbetweenthatplaceandEastQuarriers。 Hereachedthetopoftheoldroadwhereitmakesasuddendescenttothetownlet,butshedidnotappear。Turningback,hesaunteredalongtillhehadnearlyreachedhisownhouseagain。Thenheretracedhissteps,andinthedimnighthewalkedbackwardsandforwardsonthebareandloftyconvexoftheisle;thestarsaboveandaroundhim,thelighthouseondutyatthedistantpoint,thelightshipwinkingfromthesandbank,thecombingofthepebblebeachbythetidebeneath,thechurchawaysouth-westward,wheretheislandfatherslay。 Hewalkedthewildsummittillhislegsached,andhisheartached—— tillheseemedtohearontheupperwindthestonesoftheslingerswhizzingpast,andthevoicesoftheinvaderswhoannihilatedthem,andmarriedtheirwivesanddaughters,andproducedAviceastheultimateflowerofthecombinedstocks。Stillshedidnotcome。Itwasmorethanfoolishtowait,yethecouldnothelpwaiting。Atlengthhediscernedadotofafigure,whichheknewtobehersratherbyitsmotionthanbyitsshape。 Howincomparablytheimmaterialdreamdwarfedthegrandestofsubstantialthings,whenhere,betweenthosethreesublimities——thesky,therock,andtheocean——theminutepersonalityofthiswasher- girlfilledhisconsciousnesstoitsextremestboundary,andthestupendousinanimatesceneshranktoacornertherein。 Butallatoncetheapproachingfigurehaddisappeared。Helookedabout;shehadcertainlyvanished。Atonesideoftheroadwasalowwall,butshecouldnothavegonebehindthatwithoutconsiderabletroubleandsingularconduct。Helookedbehindhim;shehadreappearedfurtherontheroad。 JocelynPierstonhurriedafter;and,discerninghismovement,Avicestoodstill。Whenhecameup,shewasslilyshakingwithrestrainedlaughter。 ’Well,whatdoesthismean,mydeargirl?’heasked。 Herinnermirthescapinginspiteofhersheturnedaskanceandsaid: ’WhenyouwasfollowingmetoStreeto’Wells,twohoursago,Ilookedroundandsawyou,andhuddiedbehindastone!Youpassedandbrushedmyfrockwithoutseeingme。Andwhen,onmywaybackalong,Isawyouwaitinghereaboutagain,Islippedoverthewall,andranpastyou!IfIhadnotstoppedandlookedroundat’ee,youwouldneverhavecatchedme!’ ’Whatdidyoudothatfor,youelf!’ ’Thatyoushouldn’tfindme。’ ’That’snotexactlyareason。Giveanother,dearAvice,’hesaid,asheturnedandwalkedbesideherhomeward。 Shehesitated。’Come!’heurgedagain。 ’’TwasbecauseIthoughtyouwantedtobemyyoungman,’sheanswered。 ’Whatawildthoughtofyours!SupposingIdid,wouldn’tyouhaveme?’ ’Notnow……Andnotforlong,evenifithadbeensoonerthannow。’ ’Why?’ ’IfItellyou,youwon’tlaughatmeorletanybodyelseknow?’ ’Never。’ ’ThenIwilltellyou,’shesaidquiteseriously。’’TisbecauseIgettiredo’myloversassoonasIgettoknowthemwell。WhatIseeinoneyoungmanforawhilesoonleaveshimandgoesintoanotheryonder,andIfollow,andthenwhatIadmirefadesoutofhimandspringsupsomewhereelse;andsoIfollowon,andneverfixtoone。IhavelovedFIFTEENa’ready!Yes,fifteen,Iamalmostashamedtosay,’sherepeated,laughing。’Ican’thelpit,sir,Iassureyou。Ofcourseitisreally,toME,thesameoneallthrough,on’yIcan’tcatchhim!’ Sheaddedanxiously,’Youwon’ttellanybodyo’thisinme,willyou,sir?BecauseifitwereknownIamafraidnomanwouldlikeme。’ Pierstonwassurprisedintostillness。Herewasthisobscureandalmostilliterategirlengagedinthepursuitoftheimpossibleideal,justashehadbeenhimselfdoingforthelasttwentyyears。Shewasdoingitquiteinvoluntarily,bysheernecessityofherorganization,puzzledallthewhileatherowninstinct。Hesuddenlythoughtofitsbearinguponhimself,andsaid,withasinkingheart—— ’AmI——oneofthem?’ Sheponderedcritically。 ’Youwas;foraweek;whenIfirstsawyou。’ ’Onlyaweek?’ ’Aboutthat。’ ’Whatmadethebeingofyourfancyforsakemyformandgoelsewhere?’ ’Well——thoughyouseemedhandsomeandgentlemanlyatfirst——’ ’Yes?’ ’Ifoundyoutoooldsoonafter。’ ’Youareacandidyoungperson。’ ’Butyouaskedme,sir!’sheexpostulated。 ’Idid;and,havingbeenanswered,Iwon’tintrudeuponyoulonger。Socutalonghomeasfastasyoucan。Itisgettinglate。’ Whenshehadpassedoutofearshothealsofollowedhomewards。ThisseekingoftheWell-Belovedwas,then,ofthenatureofaknifewhichcouldcuttwoways。Tobetheseekerwasonething:tobeoneofthecorpsesfromwhichtheidealinhabitanthaddepartedwasanother;andthiswaswhathehadbecomenow,inthemockeryofnewDays。 ThestartlingparallelintheidiosyncraciesofAviceandhimself—— evincedbytheelusivenessoftheBelovedwithheraswithhim——meantprobablythattherehadbeensomeremoteancestorcommontobothfamilies,fromwhomthetraithadlatentlydescendedandrecrudesced。 Buttheresultwasnonethelessdisconcerting。 Drawingnearhisowngatehesmelttobacco,andcoulddiscerntwofiguresinthesidelaneleadingpastAvice’sdoor。Theydidnot,however,enterherhouse,butstrolledonwardtothenarrowpassconductingtoRed-KingCastleandthesea。HewasinmomentaryheavinessatthethoughtthattheymightbeAvicewithaworthlesslover,butafaintlyargumentativetonefromthemaninformedhimthattheywerethesamemarriedcouplegoinghomewardwhomhehadencounteredonapreviousoccasion。 Thenextdayhegavetheservantsahalf-holidaytogettheprettyAviceintothecastleagainforafewhours,thebettertoobserveher。 Whileshewaspullingdowntheblindsatsunsetawhistleofpeculiarqualitycamefromsomepointonthecliffsoutsidethelawn。Heobservedthathercolourroseslightly,thoughshebustledaboutasifshehadnoticednothing。 Pierstonsuddenlysuspectedthatshehadnotonlyfifteenpastadmirersbutacurrentone。Still,hemightbemistaken。Stimulatednowbyancientmemoriesandpresenttendernesstouseeveryefforttomakeherhiswife,despiteherconventionalunfitness,hestrunghimselfuptosiftthismystery。Ifhecouldonlywinher——andhowcouldacountrygirlrefusesuchanopportunity?——hecouldpackherofftoschoolfortwoorthreeyears,marryher,enlargehermindbyalittletravel,andtakehischanceoftherest。Astoherwantofardourforhim——sosadlyincontrastwithhersaintedmother’saffection——amantwentyyearsolderthanhisbridecouldexpectnobetter,andhewouldbewellcontenttoputupwithitinthepleasureofpossessingoneinwhomseemedtolingerasanaromaallthecharmofhisyouthandhisearlyhome。 2。IX。JUXTAPOSITIONS Itwasasadandleadenafternoon,andPierstonpacedupthelong,steeppassorstreetoftheWells。Oneithersideoftheroadyounggirlsstoodwithpitchersatthefountainswhichbubbledthere,andbehindthehousesformingthepropylaeaoftherockrosethemassiveforeheadoftheIsle——crestedatthispartwithitsenormousrampartsaswithamuralcrown。 Asyouapproachtheupperendofthestreetallprogressseemsabouttobecheckedbythealmostverticalfaceoftheescarpment。Intoityourtrackapparentlyrunspoint-blank:aconfrontingmasswhich,ifitweretoslipdown,wouldoverwhelmthewholetown。Butinamomentyoufindthattheroad,theoldRomanhighwayintothepeninsula,turnsatasharpanglewhenitreachesthebaseofthescarp,andascendsinthestiffestofinclinestotheright。Totheleftthereisalsoanotherascendingroad,modern,almostassteepasthefirst,andperfectlystraight。Thisistheroadtotheforts。 Pierstonarrivedattheforkingoftheways,andpausedforbreath。 Beforeturningtotheright,hisproperandpicturesquecourse,helookeduptheuninterestingleftroadtothefortifications。Itwasnew,long,white,regular,taperingtoavanishingpoint,likealessoninperspective。Aboutaquarterofthewayupagirlwasrestingbesideabasketofwhitelinen:andbytheshapeofherhatandthenatureofherburdenherecognizedher。 Shedidnotseehim,andabandoningtheright-handcourseheslowlyascendedtheinclineshehadtaken。Heobservedthatherattentionwasabsorbedbysomethingaloft。Hefollowedthedirectionofhergaze。 Abovethemtoweredthegreen-greymountainofgrassystone,herelevelledatthetopbymilitaryart。Theskylinewasbrokeneverynowandthenbyalittlepeg-likeobject——asentry-box;andnearoneoftheseasmallredspotkeptcreepingbackwardsandforwardsmonotonouslyagainsttheheavysky。 Thenhedivinedthatshehadasoldier-lover。 Sheturnedherhead,sawhim,andtookupherclothes-baskettocontinuetheascent。Thesteepnesswassuchthattoclimbitunencumberedwasabreathlessbusiness;thelinenmadehertaskacrueltytoher。’You’llnevergettothefortswiththatweight,’hesaid。’Giveittome。’ Butshewouldnot,andhestoodstill,watchingherasshepanteduptheway;forthemomentanirradiatedbeing,theepitomeofawholesex:bythebeamsofhisowninfatuation’……robedinsuchexceedinggloryThathebeheldhernot;’ beheldhernotasshereallywas,asshewaseventohimselfsometimes。 Buttothesoldierwhatwasshe?Smallerandsmallershewaneduptherigidmathematicalroad,stillgazingatthesoldieraloft,asPierstongazedather。Hecouldjustdiscernsentinelsspringingupatthedifferentcoignsofvantagethatshepassed,butseeingwhoshewastheydidnotintercepther;andpresentlyshecrossedthedrawbridgeovertheenormouschasmsurroundingtheforts,passedthesentriestherealso,anddisappearedthroughthearchintotheinterior。 Pierstoncouldnotseethesentrynow,andthereoccurredtohimthehatefulideathatthisscarletrivalwasmeetingandtalkingfreelytoher,theunprotectedorphangirlofhissweetoriginalAvice;perhaps,relievedofduty,escortingheracrosstheinterior,carryingherbasket,hertenderbodyencircledbyhisarm。 ’Whatthedevilareyoustaringat,asifyouwereinatrance?’ Pierstonturnedhishead:andtherestoodhisoldfriendSomers——stilllookingthelong-leasedbachelorthathewas。 ’Imightsaywhatthedevildoyoudohere?ifIweren’tsogladtoseeyou。’ Somerssaidthathehadcometoseewhatwasdetaininghisfriendinsuchanout-of-the-wayplaceatthattimeofyear,andincidentallytogetsomefreshairintohisownlungs。Pierstonmadehimwelcome,andtheywenttowardsSylvaniaCastle。 ’Youwerestaring,asfarasIcouldsee,ataprettylittlewasherwomanwithabasketofclothes?’resumedthepainter。 ’Yes;itwasthattoyou,butnottome。Behindthemereprettyisland-girl(totheworld)is,inmyeye,theIdea,inPlatonicphraseology——theessenceandepitomeofallthatisdesirableinthisexistence……Iamunderadoom,Somers。Yes,Iamunderadoom。 TohavebeenalwaysfollowingaphantomwhomIsawinwomanafterwomanwhileshewasatadistance,butvanishingawayoncloseapproach,wasbadenough;butnowtheterriblethingisthatthephantomdoesNOT vanish,butstaystotantalizemeevenwhenIamnearenoughtoseewhatitis!Thatgirlholdsme,THOUGHmyeyesareopen,andTHOUGHI seethatIamafool!’ Somersregardedthevisionarylookofhisfriend,whichratherintensifiedthandecreasedashisyearsworeon,butmadenofurtherremark。WhentheyreachedthecastleSomersgazedrounduponthescenery,andPierston,signifyingthequaintlittleElizabethancottage,said:’That’swhereshelives。’ ’Whataromanticplace!——andthisislandaltogether。Amanmightloveascarecroworturnip-lanternhere。’ ’Butawomanmightn’t。Scenerydoesn’timpressthem,thoughtheypretenditdoes。Thisgirlisasfickleas——’ ’Youoncewere。’ ’Exactly——fromyourpointofview。Shehastoldmeso——candidly。Andithitsmehard。’ Somersstoodstillinsuddenthought。’Well——thatISastrangeturningofthetables!’hesaid。’Butyouwouldn’treallymarryher,Pierston?’ ’Iwould——to-morrow。Whyshouldn’tI?Whatarefameandnameandsocietytome——adescendantofwreckersandsmugglers,likeher。 Besides,Iknowwhatshe’smadeof,myboy,toherinnermostfibre;I knowtheperfectandpurequarryshewasdugfrom:andthatgivesamanconfidence。’ ’Thenyou’llwin。’ *** Whiletheyweresittingafterdinnerthateveningtheirquietdiscoursewasinterruptedbythelonglowwhistlefromthecliffswithout。 Somerstooknonotice,butPierstonmarkedit。ThatwhistlealwaysoccurredatthesametimeintheeveningwhenAvicewashelpinginthehouse。Heexcusedhimselfforamomenttohisvisitorandwentoutuponthedarklawn。Acrunchingoffeetuponthegravelmixedinwiththearticulationofthesea——stepslightasiftheywerewinged。Andhesupposed,twominuteslater,thatthemouthofsomehulkingfellowwasuponhers,whichhehimselfhardlyventuredtolookat,sotouchingwasitsyoungbeauty。 Hearingpeopleabout——amongothersthebefore-mentionedmarriedcouplequarrelling,thewoman’stoneshavingakinshiptoAvice’sown——hereturnedtothehouse。NextdaySomersroamedabroadtolookforsceneryforamarinepainting,and,goingouttoseekhim,PierstonmetAvice。 ’Soyouhavealover,mylady!’hesaidseverely。Sheadmittedthatitwasthefact。’Youwon’tsticktohim,’hecontinued。 ’IthinkImaytoTHISone,’saidshe,inameaningtonethathefailedtofathomthen。’Hedesertedmeonce,buthewon’tagain。’ ’Isupposehe’sawonderfulsortoffellow?’ ’He’sgoodenoughforme。’ ’Sohandsome,nodoubt。’ ’Handsomeenoughforme。’ ’Sorefinedandrespectable。’ ’Refinedandrespectableenoughforme。’ Hecouldnotdisturbherequanimity,andletherpass。ThenextdaywasSunday,andSomershavingchosenhisviewattheotherendoftheisland,PierstondeterminedintheafternoontoseeAvice’slover。Hefoundthatshehadlefthercottagestronghold,andwentontowardsthelighthousesattheBeal。Turningbackwhenhehadreachedthenearest,hesawonthelonelyroadbetweenthequarriesayoungmanevidentlyconnectedwiththestonetrade,withAvicetheSeconduponhisarm。 Shelookedprettilyguiltyandblushedalittleunderhisglance。Theman’swasoneofthetypicalislandphysiognomies——hisfeaturesenergeticandwaryintheirexpression,andhalfcoveredwithaclose,crispblackbeard。Pierstonfanciedthatoutofhiskeendarkeyesthereglimmeredadrysenseofhumouratthesituation。 Ifso,AvicemusthavetoldhimofPierston’ssymptomsoftenderness。 Thisgirl,whom,forherdearmother’ssakemorethanforherownunquestionableattractiveness,hewouldhaveguardedastheappleofhiseye,howcouldsheestimatehimsoflippantly! Themortificationofhavingbroughthimselftothispositionwiththeantitype,byhisearlyslightofthetype,blindedhimforthemomenttowhatstruckhimashorttimeafter。Themanuponwhosearmshehungwasnotasoldier。What,then,becameofherentrancedgazeatthesentinel?Shecouldhardlyhavetransferredheraffectionssopromptly;or,togiveherthebenefitofhisowntheory,herBelovedcouldscarcelyhaveflittedfromframetoframeinsoverybriefaninterval。Andwhichofthemhadbeenhewhowhistledsoftlyinthedusktoher? WithoutfurtherattempttofindAlfredSomersPierstonwalkedhomeward,moodilythinkingthatthedesiretomakereparationtotheoriginalwomanbyweddingandenrichingthecopy——whichlentsuchanunprecedentedpermanencetohisnewlove——wasthwarted,asifbysetintentionofhisdestiny。 Atthedoorofthegroundsaboutthecastletherestoodacarriage。Heobservedthatitwasnotoneofthehomelyflysfromtheunder-hilltown,butapparentlyfromthepopularresortacrossthebay。Wonderingwhythevisitorhadnotdriveninheentered,tofindinthedrawing- roomNicholaPine-Avon。 Athisfirstglanceuponher,fashionablydressedandgracefulinmovement,sheseemedbeautiful;atthesecond,whenheobservedthatherfacewaspaleandagitated,sheseemedpatheticlikewise。 Altogether,shewasnowaverydifferentfigurefromherwho,sittinginherchairwithsuchfinishedcomposure,hadsnubbedhiminherdrawing-roominHamptonshireSquare。 ’Youaresurprisedatthis?Ofcourseyouare!’shesaid,inalow,pleadingvoice,languidlyliftingherheavyeyelids,whilehewasholdingherhand。’ButIcouldn’thelpit!IknowIhavedonesomethingtooffendyou——haveInot?O!whatcanitbe,thatyouhavecomeawaytothisoutlandishrock,tolivewithbarbariansinthemidstoftheLondonseason?’ ’Youhavenotoffendedme,dearMrs。Pine-Avon,’hesaid。’HowsorryI amthatyoushouldhavesupposedit!YetIamglad,too,thatyourfancyshouldhavedonemethegoodturnofbringingyouheretoseeme。’ ’IamstayingatBudmouth-Regis,’sheexplained。 ’ThenIdidseeyouatachurch-serviceherealittlewhileback?’ Sheblushedfaintlyuponherpallor,andshesighed。Theireyesmet。 ’Well,’shesaidatlast,’Idon’tknowwhyIshouldn’tshowthevirtueofcandour。Youknowwhatitmeans。Iwasthestrongeronce;nowIamtheweaker。WhateverpainImayhavegivenyouintheupsanddownsofouracquaintanceIamsorryfor,andwouldwillinglyrepairallerrorsofthepastby——beingamenabletoreasoninthefuture。’ ItwasimpossiblethatJocelynshouldnotfeelatenderimpulsiontowardsthisattractiveandonceindependentwoman,whofromeveryworldlypointofviewwasanexcellentmatchforhim——asuperiormatch,indeed,exceptinmoney。Hetookherhandagainandhelditawhile,andafaintwaveofgladnessseemedtoflowthroughher。Butno——hecouldgonofurther。Thatislandgirl,inhercoquettishSundayfrockandlittlehatwithitsbunchofcock’sfeathersheldhimasbystrandsofManilarope。HedroppedNichola’shand。 ’IamleavingBudmouthto-morrow,’shesaid。’ThatwaswhyIfeltI mustcall。YoudidnotknowIhadbeenthereallthroughtheWhitsunholidays?’ ’Ididnot,indeed;orIshouldhavecometoseeyou。’。 ’Ididn’tliketowrite。IwishIhad,now!’ ’Iwishyouhad,too,dearMrs。Pine-Avon。’ Butitwas’Nichola’thatshewantedtobe。Astheyreachedthelandauhetoldherthatheshouldbebackintownhimselfagainsoon,andwouldcallimmediately。AtthemomentofhiswordsAviceCaro,nowalone,passedclosealongbythecarriageontheotherside,towardsherhousehardathand。Shedidnotturnheadoreyetothepair: theyseemedtobeinherviewobjectsofindifference。