第4章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:14396更新时间:19/01/04 17:10:31
CHAPTERX Inthemeantime,Mrs。Ferrariheldtoherresolution。 ShewentstraightfromMr。Troy’sofficetoNewbury’sHotel。 LadyMontbarrywasathome,andalone。Buttheauthoritiesofthehotelhesitatedtodisturbherwhentheyfoundthatthevisitordeclinedtomentionhername。Herladyship’snewmaidhappenedtocrossthehallwhilethematterwasstillindebate。 ShewasaFrenchwoman,and,onbeingappealedto,shesettledthequestionintheswift,easy,rationalFrenchway。 ’Madame’sappearancewasperfectlyrespectable。MadamemighthavereasonsfornotmentioninghernamewhichMiladimightapprove。 Inanycase,therebeingnoordersforbiddingtheintroductionofastrangelady,thematterclearlyrestedbetweenMadameandMiladi。 WouldMadame,therefore,begoodenoughtofollowMiladi’smaidupthestairs?’ Inspiteofherresolution,Mrs。Ferrari’sheartbeatasifitwouldburstoutofherbosom,whenherconductressledherintoanante-room,andknockedatadooropeningintoaroombeyond。 Butitisremarkablethatpersonsofsensitively-nervousorganisationaretheverypersonswhoarecapableofforcingthemselves(apparentlybytheexerciseofaspasmodiceffortofwill) intotheperformanceofactsofthemostaudaciouscourage。 Alow,gravevoicefromtheinnerroomsaid,’Comein。’Themaid,openingthedoor,announced,’Apersontoseeyou,Miladi,onbusiness,’ andimmediatelyretired。Intheoneinstantwhiletheseeventspassed,timidlittleMrs。Ferrarimasteredherownthrobbingheart; steppedoverthethreshold,consciousofherclammyhands,drylips,andburninghead;andstoodinthepresenceofLordMontbarry’swidow,toalloutwardappearanceassupremelyself-possessedasherladyshipherself。 Itwasstillearlyintheafternoon,butthelightintheroomwasdim。 Theblindsweredrawndown。LadyMontbarrysatwithherbacktothewindows,asifeventhesubdueddaylightweredisagreeabletoher。 Shehadalteredsadlyfortheworseinherpersonalappearance,sincethememorabledaywhenDoctorWybrowhadseenherinhisconsulting-room。Herbeautywasgone——herfacehadfallenawaytomereskinandbone;thecontrastbetweenherghastlycomplexionandhersteelyglitteringblackeyeswasmorestartlingthanever。 Robedindismalblack,relievedonlybythebrilliantwhitenessofherwidow’scap——reclininginapanther-likesupplenessofattitudeonalittlegreensofa——shelookedatthestrangerwhohadintrudedonher,withamoment’slanguidcuriosity,thendroppedhereyesagaintothehand-screenwhichsheheldbetweenherfaceandthefire。’Idon’tknowyou,’shesaid。’Whatdoyouwantwithme?’ Mrs。Ferraritriedtoanswer。Herfirstburstofcouragehadalreadywornitselfout。Theboldwordsthatshehaddeterminedtospeakwerelivingwordsstillinhermind,buttheydiedonherlips。 Therewasamomentofsilence。LadyMontbarrylookedroundagainatthespeechlessstranger。’Areyoudeaf?’sheasked。 Therewasanotherpause。LadyMontbarryquietlylookedbackagainatthescreen,andputanotherquestion。’Doyouwantmoney?’ ’Money!’Thatonewordrousedthesinkingspiritofthecourier’swife。 Sherecoveredhercourage;shefoundhervoice。’Lookatme,mylady,ifyouplease,’shesaid,withasuddenoutbreakofaudacity。 LadyMontbarrylookedroundforthethirdtime。ThefatalwordspassedMrs。Ferrari’slips。 ’Icome,mylady,toacknowledgethereceiptofthemoneysenttoFerrari’swidow。’ LadyMontbarry’sglitteringblackeyesrestedwithsteadyattentiononthewomanwhohadaddressedherinthoseterms。 Notthefaintestexpressionofconfusionoralarm,notevenamomentaryflutterofintereststirredthedeadlystillnessofherface。 Shereposedasquietly,sheheldthescreenascomposedly,asever。 Thetesthadbeentried,andhadutterlyfailed。 Therewasanothersilence。LadyMontbarryconsideredwithherself。 Thesmilethatcameslowlyandwentawaysuddenly——thesmileatoncesosadandsocruel——showeditselfonherthinlips。 Sheliftedherscreen,andpointedwithittoaseatatthefartherendoftheroom。’Besogoodastotakethatchair,’ shesaid。 Helplessunderherfirstbewilderingsenseoffailure——notknowingwhattosayorwhattodonext——Mrs。Ferrarimechanicallyobeyed。 LadyMontbarry,risingonthesofaforthefirsttime,watchedherwithundisguisedscrutinyasshecrossedtheroom——thensankbackintoarecliningpositiononcemore。’No,’shesaidtoherself,’thewomanwalkssteadily;sheisnotintoxicated——theonlyotherpossibilityisthatshemaybemad。’ Shehadspokenloudenoughtobeheard。Stungbytheinsult,Mrs。Ferrariinstantlyansweredher:’Iamnomoredrunkormadthanyouare!’ ’No?’saidLadyMontbarry。’Thenyouareonlyinsolent? TheignorantEnglishmind(Ihaveobserved)isapttobeinsolentintheexerciseofunrestrainedEnglishliberty。Thisisverynoticeabletousforeignersamongyoupeopleinthestreets。OfcourseIcan’tbeinsolenttoyou,inreturn。Ihardlyknowwhattosaytoyou。 Mymaidwasimprudentinadmittingyousoeasilytomyroom。 Isupposeyourrespectableappearancemisledher。Iwonderwhoyouare? Youmentionedthenameofacourierwholeftusverystrangely。 Washemarriedbyanychance?Areyouhiswife?Anddoyouknowwhereheis?’ Mrs。Ferrari’sindignationburstitswaythroughallrestraints。 Sheadvancedtothesofa;shefearednothing,inthefervourandrageofherreply。 ’Iamhiswidow——andyouknowit,youwickedwoman! Ah!itwasanevilhourwhenMissLockwoodrecommendedmyhusbandtobehislordship’scourier——!’ Beforeshecouldaddanotherword,LadyMontbarrysprangfromthesofawiththestealthysuddennessofacat——seizedherbybothshoulders—— andshookherwiththestrengthandfrenzyofamadwoman。’Youlie! youlie!youlie!’Shedroppedherholdatthethirdrepetitionoftheaccusation,andthrewupherhandswildlywithagestureofdespair。 ’Oh,JesuMaria!isitpossible?’shecried。’Canthecourierhavecometomethroughthatwoman?’SheturnedlikelightningonMrs。Ferrari,andstoppedherasshewasescapingfromtheroom。 ’Stayhere,youfool——stayhere,andanswerme!Ifyoucryout,assureastheheavensareaboveyou,I’llstrangleyouwithmyownhands。 Sitdownagain——andfearnothing。Wretch!ItisIwhoamfrightened—— frightenedoutofmysenses。Confessthatyoulied,whenyouusedMissLockwood’snamejustnow!No!Idon’tbelieveyouonyouroath; IwillbelievenobodybutMissLockwoodherself。Wheredoesshelive? Tellmethat,younoxiousstinginglittleinsect——andyoumaygo。’ Terrifiedasshewas,Mrs。Ferrarihesitated。LadyMontbarryliftedherhandsthreateningly,withthelong,lean,yellow-whitefingersoutspreadandcrookedatthetips。Mrs。Ferrarishrankatthesightofthem,andgavetheaddress。LadyMontbarrypointedcontemptuouslytothedoor——thenchangedhermind。’No!notyet!youwilltellMissLockwoodwhathashappened,andshemayrefusetoseeme。 Iwillgothereatonce,andyoushallgowithme。Asfarasthehouse—— notinsideofit。Sitdownagain。Iamgoingtoringformymaid。 Turnyourbacktothedoor——yourcowardlyfaceisnotfittobeseen!’ Sherangthebell。Themaidappeared。 ’Mycloakandbonnet——instantly!’ Themaidproducedthecloakandbonnetfromthebedroom。 ’Acabatthedoor——beforeIcancountten!’ Themaidvanished。LadyMontbarrysurveyedherselfintheglass,andwheeledroundagain,withhercat-likesuddenness,toMrs。Ferrari。 ’Ilookmorethanhalfdeadalready,don’tI?’shesaidwithagrimoutburstofirony。’Givemeyourarm。’ ShetookMrs。Ferrari’sarm,andlefttheroom。’Youhavenothingtofear,solongasyouobey,’shewhispered,onthewaydownstairs。 ’YouleavemeatMissLockwood’sdoor,andneverseemeagain。’ Inthehalltheyweremetbythelandladyofthehotel。 LadyMontbarrygraciouslypresentedhercompanion。 ’MygoodfriendMrs。Ferrari;Iamsogladtohaveseenher。’ Thelandladyaccompaniedthemtothedoor。Thecabwaswaiting。 ’Getinfirst,goodMrs。Ferrari,’saidherladyship;’andtellthemanwheretogo。’ Theyweredrivenaway。LadyMontbarry’svariablehumourchangedagain。 Withalowgroanofmisery,shethrewherselfbackinthecab。 Lostinherowndarkthoughts,ascarelessofthewomanwhomshehadbenttoherironwillasifnosuchpersonsatbyherside,shepreservedasinistersilence,untiltheyreachedthehousewhereMissLockwoodlodged。Inaninstant,sherousedherselftoaction。 Sheopenedthedoorofthecab,andcloseditagainonMrs。Ferrari,beforethedrivercouldgetoffhisbox。 ’Takethatladyamilefartheronherwayhome!’shesaid,asshepaidthemanhisfare。Thenextmomentshehadknockedatthehouse-door。’IsMissLockwoodathome?’’Yes,ma’am。’ Shesteppedoverthethreshold——thedoorclosedonher。 ’Whichway,ma’am?’askedthedriverofthecab。 Mrs。Ferrariputherhandtoherhead,andtriedtocollectherthoughts。 CouldsheleaveherfriendandbenefactresshelplessatLadyMontbarry’smercy?Shewasstillvainlyendeavouringtodecideonthecoursethatsheoughttofollow——whenagentleman,stoppingatMissLockwood’sdoor,happenedtolooktowardsthecab-window,andsawher。 ’AreyougoingtocallonMissAgnestoo?’heasked。 ItwasHenryWestwick。Mrs。Ferrariclaspedherhandsingratitudeassherecognisedhim。 ’Goin,sir!’shecried。’Goin,directly。ThatdreadfulwomaniswithMissAgnes。Goandprotecther!’ ’Whatwoman?’Henryasked。 Theanswerliterallystruckhimspeechless。Withamazementandindignationinhisface,helookedatMrs。Ferrariasshepronouncedthehatednameof’LadyMontbarry。’’I’llseetoit,’ wasallhesaid。Heknockedatthehouse-door;andhetoo,inhisturn,wasletin。 CHAPTERXI ’LadyMontbarry,Miss。’ Agneswaswritingaletter,whentheservantastonishedherbyannouncingthevisitor’sname。Herfirstimpulsewastorefusetoseethewomanwhohadintrudedonher。ButLadyMontbarryhadtakencaretofollowcloseontheservant’sheels。 BeforeAgnescouldspeak,shehadenteredtheroom。 ’Ibegtoapologiseformyintrusion,MissLockwood。 Ihaveaquestiontoaskyou,inwhichIamverymuchinterested。 Noonecananswermebutyourself。’Inlowhesitatingtones,withherglitteringblackeyesbentmodestlyontheground,LadyMontbarryopenedtheinterviewinthosewords。 Withoutanswering,Agnespointedtoachair。Shecoulddothis,and,forthetime,shecoulddonomore。AllthatshehadreadofthehiddenandsinisterlifeinthepalaceatVenice;allthatshehadheardofMontbarry’smelancholydeathandburialinaforeignland; allthatsheknewofthemysteryofFerrari’sdisappearance,rushedintohermind,whentheblack-robedfigureconfrontedher,standingjustinsidethedoor。ThestrangeconductofLadyMontbarryaddedanewperplexitytothedoubtsandmisgivingsthattroubledher。 TherestoodtheadventuresswhosecharacterhadleftitsmarkonsocietyalloverEurope——theFurywhohadterrifiedMrs。Ferrariatthehotel——inconceivablytransformedintoatimid,shrinkingwoman! LadyMontbarryhadnotonceventuredtolookatAgnes,sinceshehadmadeherwayintotheroom。Advancingtotakethechairthathadbeenpointedouttoher,shehesitated,putherhandontherailtosupportherself,andstillremainedstanding。 ’Pleasegivemeamomenttocomposemyself,’shesaidfaintly。Herheadsankonherbosom:shestoodbeforeAgneslikeaconsciousculpritbeforeamercilessjudge。 Thesilencethatfollowedwas,literally,thesilenceoffearonbothsides。Inthemidstofit,thedoorwasopenedoncemore—— andHenryWestwickappeared。 HelookedatLadyMontbarrywithamoment’ssteadyattention—— bowedtoherwithformalpoliteness——andpassedoninsilence。 Atthesightofherhusband’sbrother,thesinkingspiritofthewomansprangtolifeagain。Herdroopingfigurebecameerect。HereyesmetWestwick’slook,brightlydefiant。Shereturnedhisbowwithanicysmileofcontempt。 HenrycrossedtheroomtoAgnes。 ’IsLadyMontbarryherebyyourinvitation?’heaskedquietly。 ’No。’ ’Doyouwishtoseeher?’ ’Itisverypainfultometoseeher。’ Heturnedandlookedathissister-in-law。’Doyouhearthat?’ heaskedcoldly。 ’Ihearit,’sheanswered,morecoldlystill。 ’Yourvisitis,tosaytheleastofit,ill-timed。’ ’Yourinterferenceis,tosaytheleastofit,outofplace。’ Withthatretort,LadyMontbarryapproachedAgnes。ThepresenceofHenryWestwickseemedatoncetorelieveandemboldenher。 ’Permitmetoaskmyquestion,MissLockwood,’shesaid,withgracefulcourtesy。’Itisnothingtoembarrassyou。 WhenthecourierFerrariappliedtomylatehusbandforemployment,didyou——’Herresolutionfailedher,beforeshecouldsaymore。 Shesanktremblingintothenearestchair,and,afteramoment’sstruggle,composedherselfagain。’DidyoupermitFerrari,’ sheresumed,’tomakesureofbeingchosenforourcourierbyusingyourname?’ Agnesdidnotreplywithhercustomarydirectness。Triflingasitwas,thereferencetoMontbarry,proceedingfromthatwomanofallothers,confusedandagitatedher。 ’IhaveknownFerrari’swifeformanyyears,’shebegan。 ’AndItakeaninterest——’ LadyMontbarryabruptlyliftedherhandswithagestureofentreaty。 ’Ah,MissLockwood,don’twastetimebytalkingofhiswife! Answermyplainquestion,plainly!’ ’Letmeanswerher,’Henrywhispered。’Iwillundertaketospeakplainlyenough。’ Agnesrefusedbyagesture。LadyMontbarry’sinterruptionhadrousedhersenseofwhatwasduetoherself。Sheresumedherreplyinplainerterms。 ’WhenFerrariwrotetothelateLordMontbarry,’shesaid,’hedidcertainlymentionmyname。’ Evennow,shehadinnocentlyfailedtoseetheobjectwhichhervisitorhadinview。LadyMontbarry’simpatiencebecameungovernable。 Shestartedtoherfeet,andadvancedtoAgnes。 ’WasitwithyourknowledgeandpermissionthatFerrariusedyourname?’sheasked。’Thewholesoulofmyquestionisinthat。 ForGod’ssakeanswerme——Yes,orNo!’ ’Yes。’ ThatonewordstruckLadyMontbarryasablowmighthavestruckher。 Thefiercelifethathadanimatedherfacetheinstantbefore,fadedoutofitsuddenly,andleftherlikeawomanturnedtostone。 Shestood,mechanicallyconfrontingAgnes,withastillnesssowraptandperfectthatnoteventhebreathshedrewwasperceptibletothetwopersonswhowerelookingather。 Henryspoketoherroughly。’Rouseyourself,’hesaid。 ’Youhavereceivedyouranswer。’ Shelookedroundathim。’IhavereceivedmySentence,’sherejoined—— andturnedslowlytoleavetheroom。 ToHenry’sastonishment,Agnesstoppedher。’Waitamoment,LadyMontbarry。Ihavesomethingtoaskonmyside。YouhavespokenofFerrari。Iwishtospeakofhimtoo。’ LadyMontbarrybentherheadinsilence。Herhandtrembledasshetookoutherhandkerchief,andpasseditoverherforehead。 Agnesdetectedthetrembling,andshrankbackastep。’Isthesubjectpainfultoyou?’sheaskedtimidly。 Stillsilent,LadyMontbarryinvitedherbyawaveofthehandtogoon。 Henryapproached,attentivelywatchinghissister-in-law。Agneswenton。 ’NotraceofFerrarihasbeendiscoveredinEngland,’shesaid。 ’Haveyouanynewsofhim?Andwillyoutellme(ifyouhaveheardanything),inmercytohiswife?’ LadyMontbarry’sthinlipssuddenlyrelaxedintotheirsadandcruelsmile。 ’Whydoyouaskmeaboutthelostcourier?’shesaid。 ’Youwillknowwhathasbecomeofhim,MissLockwood,whenthetimeisripeforit。’ Agnesstarted。’Idon’tunderstandyou,’shesaid。’HowshallIknow? Willsomeonetellme?’ ’Someonewilltellyou。’ Henrycouldkeepsilencenolonger。’Perhaps,yourladyshipmaybetheperson?’heinterruptedwithironicalpoliteness。 Sheansweredhimwithcontemptuousease。’Youmayberight,Mr。Westwick。Onedayoranother,ImaybethepersonwhotellsMissLockwoodwhathasbecomeofFerrari,if——’Shestopped; withhereyesfixedonAgnes。 ’Ifwhat?’Henryasked。 ’IfMissLockwoodforcesmetoit。’ Agneslistenedinastonishment。’Forceyoutoit?’sherepeated。 ’HowcanIdothat?Doyoumeantosaymywillisstrongerthanyours?’ ’Doyoumeantosaythatthecandledoesn’tburnthemoth,whenthemothfliesintoit?’LadyMontbarryrejoined。’Haveyoueverheardofsuchathingasthefascinationofterror?Iamdrawntoyoubyafascinationofterror。Ihavenorighttovisityou,Ihavenowishtovisityou:youaremyenemy。Forthefirsttimeinmylife,againstmyownwill,Isubmittomyenemy。See!Iamwaitingbecauseyoutoldmetowait——andthefearofyou(Iswearit!) creepsthroughmewhileIstandhere。Oh,don’tletmeexciteyourcuriosityoryourpity!FollowtheexampleofMr。Westwick。 Behardandbrutalandunforgiving,likehim。Grantmemyrelease。 Tellmetogo。’ ThefrankandsimplenatureofAgnescoulddiscoverbutoneintelligiblemeaninginthisstrangeoutbreak。 ’Youaremistakeninthinkingmeyourenemy,’shesaid。 ’ThewrongyoudidmewhenyougaveyourhandtoLordMontbarrywasnotintentionallydone。Iforgaveyoumysufferingsinhislifetime。 Iforgiveyouevenmorefreelynowthathehasgone。’ Henryheardherwithmingledemotionsofadmirationanddistress。 ’Saynomore!’heexclaimed。’Youaretoogoodtoher;sheisnotworthyofit。’ TheinterruptionpassedunheededbyLadyMontbarry。ThesimplewordsinwhichAgneshadrepliedseemedtohaveabsorbedthewholeattentionofthisstrangely-changeablewoman。Asshelistened,herfacesettledslowlyintoanexpressionofhardandtearlesssorrow。 Therewasamarkedchangeinhervoicewhenshespokenext。 Itexpressedthatlastworstresignationwhichhasdonewithhope。 ’Yougoodinnocentcreature,’shesaid,’whatdoesyouramiableforgivenessmatter?Whatareyourpoorlittlewrongs,inthereckoningforgreaterwrongswhichisdemandedofme? Iamnottryingtofrightenyou,Iamonlymiserableaboutmyself。 Doyouknowwhatitistohaveafirmpresentimentofcalamitythatiscomingtoyou——andyettohopethatyourownpositiveconvictionwillnotprovetrue?WhenIfirstmetyou,beforemymarriage,andfirstfeltyourinfluenceoverme,Ihadthathope。 Itwasastarvelingsortofhopethatlivedalingeringlifeinmeuntilto-day。Youstruckitdead,whenyouansweredmyquestionaboutFerrari。’ ’HowhaveIdestroyedyourhopes?’Agnesasked。’WhatconnectionistherebetweenmypermittingFerraritousemynametoLordMontbarry,andthestrangeanddreadfulthingsyouaresayingtomenow?’ ’Thetimeisnear,MissLockwood,whenyouwilldiscoverthatforyourself。Inthemeanwhile,youshallknowwhatmyfearofyouis,intheplainestwordsIcanfind。OnthedaywhenItookyourherofromyouandblightedyourlife——Iamfirmlypersuadedofit!—— youweremadetheinstrumentoftheretributionthatmysinsofmanyyearshaddeserved。Oh,suchthingshavehappenedbeforeto-day!Onepersonhas,beforenow,beenthemeansofinnocentlyripeningthegrowthofevilinanother。Youhavedonethatalready—— andyouhavemoretodoyet。Youhavestilltobringmetothedayofdiscovery,andtothepunishmentthatismydoom。Weshallmeetagain——hereinEngland,orthereinVenicewheremyhusbanddied—— andmeetforthelasttime。’ Inspiteofherbettersense,inspiteofhernaturalsuperioritytosuperstitionsofallkinds,Agneswasimpressedbytheterribleearnestnesswithwhichthosewordswerespoken。 SheturnedpaleasshelookedatHenry。’Doyouunderstandher?’ sheasked。 ’Nothingiseasierthantounderstandher,’herepliedcontemptuously。 ’SheknowswhathasbecomeofFerrari;andsheisconfusingyouinacloudofnonsense,becauseshedaren’townthetruth。 Lethergo!’ Ifadoghadbeenunderoneofthechairs,andhadbarked,LadyMontbarrycouldnothaveproceededmoreimpenetrablywiththelastwordsshehadtosaytoAgnes。 ’AdviseyourinterestingMrs。Ferraritowaitalittlelonger,’ shesaid。’Youwillknowwhathasbecomeofherhusband,andyouwilltellher。Therewillbenothingtoalarmyou。Sometriflingeventwillbringustogetherthenexttime——astrifling,Idaresay,astheengagementofFerrari。Sadnonsense,Mr。Westwick,isitnot? Butyoumakeallowancesforwomen;wealltalknonsense。Goodmorning,MissLockwood。’ Sheopenedthedoor——suddenly,asifshewasafraidofbeingcalledbackforthesecondtime——andleftthem。 CHAPTERXII ’Doyouthinksheismad?’Agnesasked。 ’Ithinksheissimplywicked。False,superstitious,inveteratelycruel—— butnotmad。Ibelievehermainmotiveincomingherewastoenjoytheluxuryoffrighteningyou。’ ’Shehasfrightenedme。Iamashamedtoownit——butsoitis。’ Henrylookedather,hesitatedforamoment,andseatedhimselfonthesofabyherside。 ’Iamveryanxiousaboutyou,Agnes,’hesaid。’Butforthefortunatechancewhichledmetocallhereto-day——whoknowswhatthatvilewomanmightnothavesaidordone,ifshehadfoundyoualone? Mydear,youareleadingasadlyunprotectedsolitarylife。 Idon’tliketothinkofit;Iwanttoseeitchanged——especiallyafterwhathashappenedto-day。No!no!itisuselesstotellmethatyouhaveyouroldnurse。Sheistooold;sheisnotinyourrankoflife——thereisnosufficientprotectioninthecompanionshipofsuchapersonforaladyinyourposition。Don’tmistakeme,Agnes!whatIsay,Isayinthesincerityofmydevotiontoyou。’ Hepaused,andtookherhand。Shemadeafeebleefforttowithdrawit—— andyielded。’Willthedaynevercome,’hepleaded,’whentheprivilegeofprotectingyoumaybemine?whenyouwillbetheprideandjoyofmylife,aslongasmylifelasts?’Hepressedherhandgently。 Shemadenoreply。Thecolourcameandwentonherface;hereyeswereturnedawayfromhim。’HaveIbeensounhappyastooffendyou?’ heasked。 Sheansweredthat——shesaid,almostinawhisper,’No。’ ’HaveIdistressedyou?’ ’Youhavemademethinkofthesaddaysthataregone。’Shesaidnomore; sheonlytriedtowithdrawherhandfromhisforthesecondtime。 Hestillheldit;heliftedittohislips。 ’CanInevermakeyouthinkofotherdaysthanthose——ofthehappierdaystocome?Or,ifyoumustthinkofthetimethatispassed,canyounotlookbacktothetimewhenIfirstlovedyou?’ Shesighedasheputthequestion。’SparemeHenry,’sheansweredsadly。 ’Saynomore!’ Thecolouragainroseinhercheeks;herhandtrembledinhis。 Shelookedlovely,withhereyescastdownandherbosomheavinggently。 Atthatmomenthewouldhavegiveneverythinghehadintheworldtotakeherinhisarmsandkissher。Somemysterioussympathy,passingfromhishandtohers,seemedtotellherwhatwasinhismind。 Shesnatchedherhandaway,andsuddenlylookedupathim。 Thetearswereinhereyes。Shesaidnothing;shelethereyesspeakforher。Theywarnedhim——withoutanger,withoutunkindness—— butstilltheywarnedhimtopresshernofurtherthatday。 ’OnlytellmethatIamforgiven,’hesaid,asherosefromthesofa。 ’Yes,’sheansweredquietly,’youareforgiven。’ ’Ihavenotloweredmyselfinyourestimation,Agnes?’ ’Oh,no!’ ’Doyouwishmetoleaveyou?’ Sherose,inherturn,fromthesofa,andwalkedtoherwriting-tablebeforeshereplied。TheunfinishedletterwhichshehadbeenwritingwhenLadyMontbarryinterruptedher,layopenontheblotting-book。 Asshelookedattheletter,andthenlookedatHenry,thesmilethatcharmedeverybodyshoweditselfinherface。 ’Youmustnotgojustyet,’shesaid:’Ihavesomethingtotellyou。 Ihardlyknowhowtoexpressit。Theshortestwayperhapswillbetoletyoufinditoutforyourself。Youhavebeenspeakingofmylonelyunprotectedlifehere。Itisnotaveryhappylife,Henry——Iownthat。’ Shepaused,observingthegrowinganxietyofhisexpressionashelookedather,withashysatisfactionthatperplexedhim。 ’DoyouknowthatIhaveanticipatedyouridea?’shewenton。 ’Iamgoingtomakeagreatchangeinmylife——ifyourbrotherStephenandhiswifewillonlyconsenttoit。’Sheopenedthedeskofthewriting-tablewhileshespoke,tookaletterout,andhandedittoHenry。 Hereceiveditfromhermechanically。Vaguedoubts,whichhehardlyunderstoodhimself,kepthimsilent。Itwasimpossiblethatthe’changeinherlife’ofwhichshehadspokencouldmeanthatshewasabouttobemarried——andyethewasconsciousofaperfectlyunreasonablereluctancetoopentheletter。Theireyesmet;shesmiledagain。 ’Lookattheaddress,’shesaid。’Yououghttoknowthehandwriting—— butIdaresayyoudon’t。’ Helookedattheaddress。Itwasinthelarge,irregular,uncertainwritingofachild。Heopenedtheletterinstantly。 ’DearAuntAgnes,——Ourgovernessisgoingaway。Shehashadmoneylefttoher,andahouseofherown。Wehavehadcakeandwinetodrinkherhealth。Youpromisedtobeourgovernessifwewantedanother。Wewantyou。Mammaknowsnothingaboutthis。 PleasecomebeforeMammacangetanothergoverness。YourlovingLucy,whowritesthis。ClaraandBlanchehavetriedtowritetoo。 Buttheyaretooyoungtodoit。Theyblotthepaper。’ ’Youreldestniece,’Agnesexplained,asHenrylookedatherinamazement。 ’ThechildrenusedtocallmeauntwhenIwasstayingwiththeirmotherinIreland,intheautumn。Thethreegirlsweremyinseparablecompanions——theyarethemostcharmingchildrenIknow。 ItisquitetruethatIofferedtobetheirgoverness,iftheyeverwantedone,onthedaywhenIleftthemtoreturntoLondon。 Iwaswritingtoproposeittotheirmother,justbeforeyoucame。’ ’Notseriously!’Henryexclaimed。 Agnesplacedherunfinishedletterinhishand。EnoughofithadbeenwrittentoshowthatshedidseriouslyproposetoenterthehouseholdofMr。andMrs。StephenWestwickasgovernesstotheirchildren! Henry’sbewildermentwasnottobeexpressedinwords。 ’Theywon’tbelieveyouareinearnest,’hesaid。 ’Whynot?’Agnesaskedquietly。 ’YouaremybrotherStephen’scousin;youarehiswife’soldfriend。’ ’Allthemorereason,Henry,fortrustingmewiththechargeoftheirchildren。’ ’Butyouaretheirequal;youarenotobligedtogetyourlivingbyteaching。Thereissomethingabsurdinyourenteringtheirserviceasagoverness!’ ’Whatisthereabsurdinit?Thechildrenloveme;themotherlovesme; thefatherhasshownmeinnumerableinstancesofhistruefriendshipandregard。Iamtheverywomanfortheplace——and,astomyeducation,Imusthavecompletelyforgottenitindeed,ifIamnotfittoteachthreechildrentheeldestofwhomisonlyelevenyearsold。 YousayIamtheirequal。Aretherenootherwomenwhoserveasgovernesses,andwhoaretheequalsofthepersonswhomtheyserve?Besides,Idon’tknowthatIamtheirequal。 HaveInotheardthatyourbrotherStephenwasthenextheirtothetitle?Willhenotbethenewlord?Nevermindansweringme! Wewon’tdisputewhetherImnrightorwronginturninggoverness—— wewillwaittheevent。Iamwearyofmylonelyuselessexistencehere,andeagertomakemylifemorehappyandmoreuseful,inthehouseholdofallothersinwhichIshouldlikemosttohaveaplace。 Ifyouwilllookagain,youwillseethatIhavethesepersonalconsiderationsstilltourgebeforeIfinishmyletter。 Youdon’tknowyourbrotherandhiswifeaswellasIdo,ifyoudoubttheiranswer。IbelievetheyhavecourageenoughandheartenoughtosayYes。’ Henrysubmittedwithoutbeingconvinced。 Hewasamanwhodislikedalleccentricdeparturesfromcustomandroutine; andhefeltespeciallysuspiciousofthechangeproposedinthelifeofAgnes。Withnewintereststooccupyhermind,shemightbelessfavourablydisposedtolistentohim,onthenextoccasionwhenheurgedhissuit。Theinfluenceofthe’lonelyuselessexistence’ ofwhichshecomplained,wasdistinctlyaninfluenceinhisfavour。 Whileherheartwasempty,herheartwasaccessible。 Butwithhisniecesinfullpossessionofit,thecloudsofdoubtovershadowedhisprospects。Heknewthesexwellenoughtokeepthesepurelyselfishperplexitiestohimself。ThewaitingpolicywasespeciallythepolicytopursuewithawomanassensitiveasAgnes。 Ifheonceoffendedherdelicacyhewaslost。Forthemomenthewiselycontrolledhimselfandchangedthesubject。 ’Mylittleniece’sletterhashadaneffect,’hesaid,’whichthechildnevercontemplatedinwritingit。ShehasjustremindedmeofoneoftheobjectsthatIhadincallingonyouto-day。’ Agneslookedatthechild’sletter。’HowdoesLucydothat?’ sheasked。 ’Lucy’sgovernessisnottheonlyluckypersonwhohashadmoneylefther,’Henryanswered。’Isyouroldnurseinthehouse?’ ’Youdon’tmeantosaythatnursehasgotalegacy?’ ’Shehasgotahundredpounds。Sendforher,Agnes,whileIshowyoutheletter。’ Hetookahandfuloflettersfromhispocket,andlookedthroughthem,whileAgnesrangthebell。Returningtohim,shenoticedaprintedletteramongtherest,whichlayopenonthetable。Itwasa’prospectus,’andthetitleofitwas’PalaceHotelCompanyofVenice(Limited)。’Thetwowords,’Palace’and’Venice,’instantlyrecalledhermindtotheunwelcomevisitofLadyMontbarry。’Whatisthat?’ sheasked,pointingtothetitle。 Henrysuspendedhissearch,andglancedattheprospectus。 ’Areallypromisingspeculation,’hesaid。’Largehotelsalwayspaywell,iftheyarewellmanaged。Iknowthemanwhoisappointedtobemanagerofthishotelwhenitisopenedtothepublic; andIhavesuchentireconfidenceinhimthatIhavebecomeoneoftheshareholdersoftheCompany。’ ThereplydidnotappeartosatisfyAgnes。’Whyisthehotelcalledthe\"PalaceHotel\"?’sheinquired。 Henrylookedather,andatoncepenetratedhermotiveforaskingthequestion。’Yes,’hesaid,’itisthepalacethatMontbarryhiredatVenice;andithasbeenpurchasedbytheCompanytobechangedintoanhotel。’ Agnesturnedawayinsilence,andtookachairatthefartherendoftheroom。Henryhaddisappointedher。Hisincomeasayoungersonstoodinneed,asshewellknew,ofalltheadditionsthathecouldmaketoitbysuccessfulspeculation。Butshewasunreasonableenough,nevertheless,todisapproveofhisattemptingtomakemoneyalreadyoutofthehouseinwhichhisbrotherhaddied。 Incapableofunderstandingthispurelysentimentalviewofaplainmatterofbusiness,Henryreturnedtohispapers,insomeperplexityatthesuddenchangeinthemannerofAgnestowardshim。 Justashefoundtheletterofwhichhewasinsearch,thenursemadeherappearance。HeglancedatAgnes,expectingthatshewouldspeakfirst。Sheneverevenlookedupwhenthenursecamein。 ItwaslefttoHenrytotelltheoldwomanwhythebellhadsummonedhertothedrawing-room。 ’Well,nurse,’hesaid,’youhavehadawindfallofluck。 Youhavehadalegacyleftyouofahundredpounds。’ Thenurseshowednooutwardsignsofexultation。Shewaitedalittletogettheannouncementofthelegacywellsettledinhermind—— andthenshesaidquietly,’MasterHenry,whogivesmethatmoney,ifyouplease?’ ’Mylatebrother,LordMontbarry,givesittoyou。’(Agnesinstantlylookedup,interestedinthematterforthefirsttime。Henrywenton。) ’Hiswillleaveslegaciestothesurvivingoldservantsofthefamily。 Thereisaletterfromhislawyers,authorisingyoutoapplytothemforthemoney。’ Ineveryclassofsociety,gratitudeistherarestofallhumanvirtues。 Inthenurse’sclassitisextremelyrare。Heropinionofthemanwhohaddeceivedanddesertedhermistressremainedthesameopinionstill,perfectlyundisturbedbythepassingcircumstanceofthelegacy。 ’Iwonderwhoremindedmylordoftheoldservants?’shesaid。 ’Hewouldneverhaveheartenoughtorememberthemhimself!’ Agnessuddenlyinterposed。Nature,alwaysabhorringmonotony,institutesreservesoftemperaselementsinthecompositionofthegentlestwomenliving。EvenAgnescould,onrareoccasions,beangry。 Thenurse’sviewofMontbarry’scharacterseemedtohaveprovokedherbeyondendurance。 ’Ifyouhaveanysenseofshameinyou,’shebrokeout,’yououghttobeashamedofwhatyouhavejustsaid!Youringratitudedisgustsme。 Ileaveyoutospeakwithher,Henry——youwon’tmindit!’ Withthissignificantintimationthathetoohaddroppedoutofhiscustomaryplaceinhergoodopinion,shelefttheroom。 Thenursereceivedthesmartreproofadministeredtoherwitheveryappearanceoffeelingratheramusedbyitthannot。 Whenthedoorhadclosed,thisfemalephilosopherwinkedatHenry。 ’There’sapowerofobstinacyinyoungwomen,’sheremarked。 ’MissAgneswouldn’tgivemylordupasabadone,evenwhenhejiltedher。Andnowshe’ssweetonhimafterhe’sdead。 Sayawordagainsthim,andshefiresupasyousee。Allobstinacy! Itwillwearoutwithtime。Sticktoher,MasterHenry—— sticktoher!’ ’Shedoesn’tseemtohaveoffendedyou,’saidHenry。 ’She?’thenurserepeatedinamazement——’sheoffendme? Ilikeherinhertantrums;itremindsmeofherwhenshewasababy。