第3章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:16297更新时间:19/01/04 13:35:23
IaskedtheLord:\"Sire,isthistrueWhichhostsoftheologianshold,ThatwhenwecreaturescensureyouForshapinggriefsandailsuntold(Deemingthempunishmentsundue) Yourage,asMoseswroteofold? Whenweexclaim:’BeneficentHeisnot,forheorderspain,Or,ifso,notomnipotent: Toamerechildthethingisplain!’ ThosewhoprofesstorepresentYou,cryout:’Impiousandprofane!’\" He:\"Savemefrommyfriends,whodeemThatIcarewhatmycreaturessay! Mouthasyoulist:sneer,rail,blaspheme,Omanikin,thelivelongday,Notonegrief-groanorpleasure-gleamWillyouincreaseortakeaway。 \"Whythingsarethus,whosoderides,Maywellremainmysecretstill…… Afourthdimension,saytheguides,Tomatterisconceivable。 ThinksomesuchmysteryresidesWithintheethicofmywill。\" BYTHEBARROWS NotfarfromMellstock——sotraditionsaith- Wherebarrows,bulgingastheybosomswereOfMultimammiastretchedsupinelythere,Catchnightandnoonthetempest’swantonbreath,Abattle,desperatedoubtlessuntodeath,Wasonetimefought。Theoutlook,loneandbare,Thetoweringhawkandpassingravenshare,Andalltheuplandroundiscalled\"TheHe’th。\" Hereonceawoman,inourmodernage,Foughtsinglehandedlytoshieldachild- Onenotherown——fromaman’ssenselessrage。 Andtomymindnopatriots’bonestherepiledSoconsecratethesilenceasherdeedOfstoicanddevotedself-unheed。 AWIFEANDANOTHER \"Warends,andhe’sreturningEarly;yea,Theeveningnextto-morrow’s!\"- ——ThisIsayToher,whomIsuspiciouslysurvey,Holdingmyhusband’sletterToherview- Sheglancedatitbutlightly,AndIknewThatonefromhimthatdayhadreachedhertoo。 Therewasnotimeforscruple; SecretlyIfilchedhermissive,connedit,LearntthatheWouldlodgewithhererehecamehometome。 Toreachtheportbeforeher,And,unscanned,TherewaittointerceptthemSoonIplanned: That,inherstead,_I_mightbeforehimstand。 Sopurposed,soeffected; AttheinnAssigned,Ifoundherhidden:- OthatsinShouldbearwhatsheborewhenIenteredin! HerheavylidsgrewladenWithdespairs,HerlipsmadesoundlessmovementsUnawares,WhileIpeeredatthechamberhiredastheirs。 Andasbesideitsdoorway,Deadlyhued,Oneinside,onewithoutsideWetwostood,Hecame——myhusband——assheknewhewould。 NopleasurabletriumphWasthatsight! TheghastlydisappointmentBrokethemquite。 Whatlovewastheirs,tomovethemwithsuchmight! \"Madam,forgiveme!\"saidshe,Sorrowbent,\"Achild——Isoonshallbearhim…… Yes——ImeantTotellyou——thathewonmeerehewent。\" Then,asitwere,withinmeSomethingsnapped,Asifmysoulhadlargened: Conscience-capped,Isawmyselfthesnarer——themthetrapped。 \"Myhatedies,andIpromise,Grace-beguiled,\" Isaid,\"tocareforyou,beReconciled; Andcherish,andtakeinterestinthechild。\" WithoutmorewordsIpressedhimThroughthedoorWithinwhichshestood,powerlessTosaymore,Andcloseditonthem,anddownstairwardbore。 \"Hejoinshiswife——mysister,\" I,below,Remarkedingoing——lightly- EvenasthoughAllhadcomeright,andwehadarrangeditso…… AsI,myroadretracing,Leftthemfree,ThenightaloneembracingChildlessme,IheldIhadnotstirredGodwrothfully。 THEROMANROAD TheRomanRoadrunsstraightandbareAsthepaleparting-lineinhairAcrosstheheath。AndthoughtfulmenContrastitsdaysofNowandThen,Anddelve,andmeasure,andcompare; VisioningonthevacantairHelmedlegionaries,whoproudlyrearTheEagle,astheypaceagainTheRomanRoad。 Butnotallbrass-helmedlegionnaireHauntsitforme。UprisesthereAmother’sformuponmyken,Guidingmyinfantsteps,aswhenWewalkedthatancientthoroughfare,TheRomanRoad。 THEVAMPIRINEFAIR GilberthadsailedtoIndia’sshore,AndIwasallalone: MylordcameinatmyopendoorAndsaid,\"Ofairestone!\" Heleantupontheslantbureau,Andsighed,\"Iamsickforthee!\" \"Mylord,\"saidI,\"prayspeaknotso,SinceweddedwifeIbe。\" Leaningupontheslantbureau,Bitterhisnextwordscame: \"SomuchIknow;andlikewiseknowMyloveburnsonthesame! \"Butsinceyouthrustmyloveaway,Andsinceitknowsnocure,ImustliveoutasbestImayTheachethatIendure。\" WhenMichaelmasbrownedthenetherCoomb,AndWingreenHillabove,Andmadethehollyhocksragsofbloom,Mylordgrewilloflove。 Mylordgrewillwithloveforme; Gilbertwasfarfromport; And——soitwas——thattimedidseeMehousedatManorCourt。 AboutthebowersofManorCourtTheprimrosepusheditsheadWhen,onadayatlast,reportArrivedofhimIhadwed。 \"Gilbert,mylord,ishomewardbound,Hissloopisdrawingnear,WhatshallIdowhenIamfoundNotinhishousebuthere?\" \"OIwillhealtheinjuriesI’vedonetohimandthee。 I’llgivehimmeanstoliveateaseAfarfromShastonb’ry。\" WhenGilbertcamewebothtookthought: \"Sincecomfortandgoodcheer,\" Saidhe,\"Soreadilyarebought,He’swelcometothee,Dear。\" SowhenmylordflungliberallyHisgoldinGilbert’shands,IcoaxedandgotmybrothersthreeMadestewardsofhislands。 AndthenIcoaxedhimtoinstallMyotherkithandkin,WithaimtobenefitthemallBeforehisloveranthin。 AndnextIcravedtobepossessedOfplateandjewelsrare。 Hegroaned:\"Yougiveme,Love,norest,Takeallthelawwillspare!\" AndsoincourseofyearsmywealthBecameagoodlyhoard,Mystewardbrethren,too,bystealthHadeachafortunestored。 Thereafterinthegloomhe’dwalk,AndbyandbybeganTosayaloudinabsenttalk,\"Iamaruinedman!- \"Ihardlycouldhavethought,\"hesaid,\"WhenfirstIlookedonthee,Thatonesosoft,sorosyred,Couldthushavebeggaredme!\" Seeinghisfairestatesinpawn,Andhiminsuchdecline,IknewthathisdomainhadgoneToliftupmeandmine。 NextmonthuponaSundaymornAgunshotsoundednigh: ByhisownhandmylordlybornHaddoomedhimselftodie。 \"Live,mydearlord,andmuchofthineShallberestoredtothee!\" Hesmiled,andsaid’twixtwordandsign,\"Alas——thatcannotbe!\" AndwhileIsearchedhiscabinetForletters,keys,orwill,’TwastouchingthathisgazewassetWithloveuponmestill。 AndwhenIburnteachdocumentBeforehisdyingeyes,’TwassweetthathedidnotresentMyfearofcompromise。 Thesteeple-cockgleamedgoldenwhenIwatchedhisspiritgo: AndIbecamerepentantthenThatIhadwreckedhimso。 Threeweeksatleasthadcomeandgone,Withmanyasaddenedword,BeforeIwrotetoGilbertonThestrokethatsohadstirred。 Andhavingwornamournfulgown,Ijoined,indecentwhile,MyhusbandatadashingtownToliveindashingstyle。 YetthoughInowenjoymyfling,Anddineanddanceanddrive,I’dgivemyprettiestemeraldringToseemylordalive。 Andwhenthemeetonhunting-daysIsnearhischurchyardhome,IleavemybanteringbeauxtoplaceAfloweruponhistomb; Andsometimessay:\"PerhapstoolateThesaintsinHeavendeploreThattendertimewhen,movedbyFate,Hedarkedmycottagedoor。\" THEREMINDER I WhileIwatchtheChristmasblazePainttheroomwithruddyrays,SomethingmakesmyvisionglideTothefrostysceneoutside。 There,toreacharottingberry,Toilsathrush,——constrainedtoveryDregsoffoodbysharpdistress,Takingsuchwiththankfulness。 Why,Ostarvingbird,whenI Oneday’sjoywouldjustify,Andputmiseryoutofview,Doyoumakemenoticeyou! THERAMBLER Idonotseethehillsaround,Normarkthetintsthecopseswear; IdonotnotethegrassygroundAndconstellateddaisiesthere。 IhearnotthecontraltonoteOfcuckooshidoneitherhand,Thewhirrthatshakesthenighthawk’sthroatWheneve’sbrownawninghoodstheland。 Somesayeachsongster,tree,andmead- Alleloquentoflovedivine- Receivestheirconstantcarefulheed: Suchkeenappraisementisnotmine。 ThetonesaroundmethatIhear,Theaspects,meanings,shapesIsee,Arethosefarbackonesmissedwhennear,Andnowperceivedtoolatebyme! NIGHTINTHEOLDHOME Whenthewastingembersreddenthechimney-breast,AndLife’sbarepathwayloomslikeadeserttracktome,Andfromhallandparlourthelivinghavegonetotheirrest,Myperishedpeoplewhohousedthemherecomebacktome。 Theycomeandseatthemaroundintheirmouldyplaces,Nowandthenbendingtowardsmeaglanceofwistfulness,Astrangeupbraidingsmileuponalltheirfaces,Andinthebearingofeachapassivetristfulness。 \"Doyouupholdme,lingeringandlanguishinghere,Apalelateplantofyouroncestrongstock?\"Isaytothem; \"AthinkerofcrookedthoughtsuponLifeinthesere,AndonThatwhichconsignsmentonightaftershowingthedaytothem?\" \"——OletbetheWherefore!Wefeveredouryearsnotthus: TakeofLifewhatitgrants,withoutquestion!\"theyanswermeseemingly。 \"Enjoy,suffer,wait:spreadthetableherefreelylikeus,And,satisfied,placid,unfretting,watchTimeawaybeamingly!\" AFTERTHELASTBREATH (J。H。1813-1904) There’snomoretobedone,orfeared,orhoped; Nonenowneedwatch,speaklow,andlist,andtire; Noirksomecreaseoutsmoothed,nopillowslopedDoessherequire。 Blanklywegaze。Wearefreetogoorstay; Ourmorrow’sanxiousplanshavemissedtheiraim; Whetherweleaveto-nightorwaittilldayCountsasthesame。 TheletteredvesselsofmedicamentsSeemaskingwhereforewehavesetthemhere; EachpalliativeitssillyfacepresentsAsuselessgear。 Andyetwefeelthatsomethingsavourswell; Wenoteanumbreliefwithheldbefore; Ourwell-belovedisprisonerinthecellOfTimenomore。 WeseebylittlesnowthedeftachievementWherebyshehasescapedtheWrongersall,InviewofwhichourmomentarybereavementOutshapesbutsmall。 1904。 INCHILDBED InthemiddleofthenightMother’sspiritcameandspoketome,Lookingwearifulandwhite- As’twereuntimelynewsshebroketome。 \"Omydaughter,joyedareyouToowntheweetlesschildyoumotherthere; ’Menmaysearchthewideworldthrough,’ Youthink,’norfindsofairanotherthere!’ \"Dear,thismidnighttimeunwombsThousandsjustasrareandbeautiful; ThousandswhomHighHeavenforedoomsTobeasbright,asgood,asdutiful。 \"SourceofecstatichopesandfearsAndinnocentmaternalvanity,YourfondexploitbutshapesfortearsNewthoroughfaresinsadhumanity。 \"Yetasyoudream,sodreamtI WhenLifestretchedforthitsmorningraytome; Otherviewsforbyandby!\"…… Suchstrangethingsdidmothersaytome。 THEPINEPLANTERS (MARTYSOUTH’SREVERIE) I WeworkheretogetherInblastandbreeze; Hefillstheearthin,Iholdthetrees。 HedoesnotnoticeThatwhatIdoKeepsmefrommovingAndchillsmethrough。 HehasseenonefairerIfeelbyhiseye,WhichskimsmeasthoughIwerenotby。 AndsinceshepassedhereHescarcehasknownButthatthewoodlandHoldshimalone。 IhaveworkedherewithhimSincemorningshine,HebusywithhisthoughtsAndIwithmine。 Ihavehelpedhimsomany,Somanydays,ButneverwinanySmallwordofpraise! ShallInotsightohimThatIworkonGladtobenightohimThoughhopeisgone? Nay,thoughheneverKnewlovelikemine,I’llbeariteverAndmakenosign! II FromthebundleathandhereItakeeachtree,Andsetittostand,hereAlwaystobe; When,inasecond,AsiffromfearOfLifeunreckonedBeginninghere,ItstartsasighingThroughdayandnight,Thoughwhiletherelying’Twasvoicelessquite。 Itwillsighinthemorning,Willsighatnoon,Atthewinter’swarning,InwaftsofJune; GrievingthatneverKindFatedecreedItshouldforeverRemainaseed,AndshunthewelterOfthingswithout,UnneedingshelterFromstormanddrought。 Thus,allunknowingForwhomorwhatWesetitgrowingInthisbleakspot,ItstillwillgrievehereThroughoutitstime,Unabletoleavehere,Orchangeitsclime; OrtellthestoryOfusto-dayWhen,haltandhoary,Wepassaway。 THEDEAR IploddedtoFairmileHill-top,whereAmaidenonefainwouldguardFromeveryhazardandeverycareAdvancedontheroadsidesward。 IwonderedhowsucceedingsunsWouldshapeherwayfarings,AndwishedsomePowermighttakesuchonesUnderItswardingwings。 ThebusybreezecameupthehillAndsmartenedhercheektored,Andfrizzledherhairtoahaze。Withawill\"Good-morning,myDear!\"Isaid。 Sheglancedfrommetothefar-offgray,And,withproudseverity,\"Good-morningtoyou——thoughImaysayIamnotYOURDear,\"quothshe: \"ForIamtheDearofonenothere- Onefarfromhisnativeland!\"- Andshepassedmeby;andIdidnottryTomakeherunderstand。 1901 ONEWEKNEW (M。H。1772-1857) Shetoldhowtheyusedtoformforthecountrydances- \"TheTriumph,\"\"TheNew-riggedShip\"- Tothelightofthegutteringwaxinthepanelledmanses,Andincotstotheblinkofadip。 Shespokeofthewild\"poussetting\"and\"allemanding\" Oncarpet,onoak,andonsod; Andthetwolongrowsofladiesandgentlemenstanding,Andthefiguresthecouplestrod。 Sheshowedusthespotwherethemaypolewasyearlyplanted,AndwherethebandsmenstoodWhilebreechedandkerchiefedpartnerswhirled,andpantedTochooseeachotherforgood。 Shetoldofthatfar-backdaywhentheylearntastoundedOfthedeathoftheKingofFrance: OftheTerror;andthenofBonaparte’sunboundedAmbitionandarrogance。 OfhowhisthreatswokewarlikepreparationsAlongthesouthernstrand,AndhoweachnightbroughttremorsandtrepidationsLestmorningshouldseehimland。 ShesaidshehadoftenheardthegibbetcreakingAsitswayedinthelightningflash,Hadcaughtfromtheneighbouringtownasmallchild’sshriekingAtthecart-tailunderthelash…… Withcap-framedfaceandlonggazeintotheembers- Weseatedaroundherknees- Shewoulddwellonsuchdeadthemes,notasonewhoremembers,Butratherasonewhosees。 SheseemedoneleftbehindofabandgonedistantSofarthatnotonguecouldhail: Pastthingsretoldweretoherasthingsexistent,Thingspresentbutasatale。 May20,1902。 SHEHEARSTHESTORM Therewasatimeinformeryears- Whilemyroof-treewashis- WhenIshouldhavebeendistressedbyfearsAtsuchanightasthis! Ishouldhavemurmuredanxiously,\"Theprickingrainstrikescold; Hisroadisbareofhedgeortree,Andheisgettingold。\" Butnowthefitfulchimney-roar,ThedroneofThorncombetrees,TheFroominflooduponthemoor,ThemudofMellstockLeaze,Thecandleslantingsootywick’d,Thethudsuponthethatch,Theeaves-dropsonthewindowflicked,Theclackinggarden-hatch,Andwhattheymeantowayfarers,Iscarcelyheedormind; Hehaswonthatstorm-tightroofofhersWhichEarthgrantsallherkind。 AWETNIGHT Ipacealong,therain-shaftsriddlingme,Mileaftermileoutbythemoorlandway,Andupthehill,andthroughtheewe-leazegrayIntothelane,androundthecornertree; Where,asmyclothingclamsme,mire-bestarred,Andtheenfeebledlightdiesoutofday,Leavingtheliquidshadestoreign,Isay,\"Thisisahardshiptobecalendared!\" Yetsiresofminenowperishedandforgot,Whenworsebeset,ereroadswereshapenhere,Andnightandstormwerefoesindeedtofear,TimesnumberlesshavetrudgedacrossthisspotInsturdymutenessontheirstrenuouslot,Andtakingallsuchtoilsastriflesmere。 BEFORELIFEANDAFTER Atimetherewas——asonemayguessAndas,indeed,earth’stestimoniestell- Beforethebirthofconsciousness,Whenallwentwell。 Nonesufferedsickness,love,orloss,Noneknewregret,starvedhope,orheart-burnings; NonecaredwhatevercrashorcrossBroughtwracktothings。 Ifsomethingceased,notonguebewailed,Ifsomethingwincedandwaned,noheartwaswrung; Ifbrightnessdimmed,anddarkprevailed,Nosensewasstung。 Butthediseaseoffeelinggermed,Andprimalrightnesstookthetinctofwrong; ErenescienceshallbereaffirmedHowlong,howlong? NEWYEAR’SEVE \"Ihavefinishedanotheryear,\"saidGod,\"Ingrey,green,white,andbrown; Ihavestrewntheleafuponthesod,Sealedupthewormwithintheclod,Andletthelastsundown。\" \"Andwhat’sthegoodofit?\"Isaid。 \"WhatreasonsmadeyoucallFromformlessvoidthisearthwetread,Whennine-and-ninetycanbereadWhynoughtshouldbeatall? \"Yea,Sire;whyshapedyouus,’whoinThistabernaclegroan’- Ifeverajoybefoundherein,SuchjoynomanhadwishedtowinIfhehadneverknown!\" Thenhe:\"Mylabours——logicless- Youmayexplain;notI: Sense-sealedIhavewrought,withoutaguessThatIevolvedaConsciousnessToaskforreasonswhy。 \"StrangethatephemeralcreatureswhoBymyownorderingare,Shouldseetheshortnessofmyview,UseethictestsIneverknew,Ormadeprovisionfor!\" Hesanktoraptnessasofyore,AndopeningNewYear’sDayWoveitbyroteastheretofore,AndwentonworkingevermoreInhisunweetingway。 1906。 GOD’SEDUCATION IsawhimstealthelightawayThathauntedinhereye: ItwentsogentlynonecouldsayMorethanthatitwasthereonedayAndmissingby-and-by。 Iwatchedherlonger,andhestoleHerlilytinctsandrose; AllheryoungsprightlinessofsoulNextfellbeneathhiscoldcontrol,Anddisappearedlikethose。 Iasked:\"Whydoyouserveherso? Doyou,forsomegladday,Hoardthesehersweets——?\"Hesaid,\"Ono,Theycharmnotme;IbidTimethrowThemcarelesslyaway。\" SaidI:\"Wecallthatcruelty- We,yourpoormortalkind。\" Hemused。\"Thethoughtisnewtome。 Forsooth,thoughImen’smasterbe,Theirsistheteachingmind!\" TOSINCERITY Osweetsincerity!- WheremodernmethodsbeWhatscopeforthineandthee? Lifemaybesadpastsaying,Itsgreensforevergraying,Itsfaithstodustdecaying; Andyouthmayhaveforeknownit,Andriperseasonsshownit,Butcustomcries:\"Disownit: \"Sayyerejoice,thoughgrieving,Believe,whileunbelieving,Behold,withoutperceiving!\"- Yet,wouldmenlookattruethings,Andunilludedviewthings,Andcounttobearunduethings,Therealmightmendtheseeming,Factsbettertheirforedeeming,AndLifeitsdisesteeming。 February1899。 PANTHERA (Forotherformsofthislegend——firstmetwithinthesecondcentury——seeOrigencontraCelsum;theTalmud;SepherToldothJeschu;quotedfragmentsoflostApocryphalgospels;Strauss,Haeckel;etc。) Yea,asIsithere,crutched,andcricked,andbent,IthinkofPanthera,whounderwentMuchfrominsidiousachesinhisdecline; Buthisacheswerenotradicallikemine; Theywerethetwingesofoldwounds——thefeelOfthehandhehadlost,shornbybarbariansteel,Whichcameback,sohesaid,atachangeintheair,Fingersandall,asifitstillwerethere。 Mypainsareotherwise:upclosingcrampsAndstiffenedtendonsfromthiscountry’sdamps,WherePantherawasnevercommandant- TheFatessenthimbywayoftheLevant。 Hehadbeenblitheinhisyoungmanhood’stime,Andascenturioncarriedwellhisprime。 InEthiop,Araby,climesfairandfell,Hehadseenserviceandhadbornehimwell。 Noughtshookhimthen:hewassereneasbrave; Yetlaterknewsomeshocks,andwouldgrowgraveWhenponderingthem;shockslessofcorporalkindThanphantom-like,thatdisarrangedhismind; Anditwasinthewayofwarningme(Bymuchhisjunior)againstlevityThatherecountedthem;andoneinchiefPantheralovedtosetinboldrelief。 ThiswasatragedyofhisEasterndays,Personalintouch——thoughIhavesometimesthoughtThattouchapossibledelusion——wroughtOfhalf-convictioncarriedtoacraze- Hismindatlastbeingstressedbyailsandage:- YethisgoodfaiththereonIwellcouldwage。 IhadsaiditlonghadbeenawishwithmeThatImightleaveascion——somesmalltreeAschannelformysap,ifnotmyname- Ay,offspringevenofnolegitimateclaim,InwhoseadvanceIsecretlycouldjoy。 Thereathewarned。 \"Cancelsuchwishes,boy! Asonmaybeacomfortoracurse,Aseer,adoer,acoward,afool;yea,worse- Acriminal……ThatIcouldtestify!\" \"Pantherahasnoguiltyson!\"criedI Allunbelieving。\"Friend,youdonotknow,\" Hedarklydropt:\"True,I’venonenowtoshow,ForTHELAWTOOKHIM。Ay,insooth,Joveshapeditso!\" \"Thisnoonisnotunlike,\"heagainbegan,\"Thenoontheseprickingmemoriesprintonme- Yea,thatday,whenthesungrewcopper-red,AndIservedinJudaea……’TwasadateOfrestforarms。ThePaxRomanaruled,Tothechagrinoffrontierlegionaries! Palestinewasannexed——thoughsullenyet,- I,beinginagesometwo-scoreyearsandtenAndhavingthegarrisoninJerusalemPartinmyhandsasactingofficerUndertheGovernor。AtedioustimeIfoundit,ofroutine,amidafolkRestless,contentless,andirascible- Quellingsomeriot,sentryingcourtandhall,Sendingmenforthonpublicmeeting-daysTomaintainorder,weremydutiesthere。 \"Thencameamorninspring,andthecheerfulsunWhitenedthecityandthehillsaround,Andeverymountain-roadthatclamberedthem,Tincturingthegreynessoftheoliveswarm,Andtherankcactiroundthevalley’ssides。 Thedaywasonewhereondeath-penaltiesWereputinforce,andhereandthereweresetThesoldieryfororder,asIsaid,Sinceoneofthecondemnedhadraisedsomeheat,Andcrowdssurgedpassionatelytoseehimslain。 I,mountedonaCappadocianhorse,Withsomehalf-companyofauxiliaries,HadcaptainedtheprocessionthroughthestreetsWhenitcamestreamingfromthejudgment-hallAftertheverdictsoftheGovernor。 ItdrewtothegreatgateofthenorthernwayThatbearstowardsDamascus;andtoaknollUponthecommon,justbeyondthewalls- WhencecouldbesweptawidehorizonroundOverthehousetopstotheremotestheights。 Herewasthepublicexecution-groundForcitycrimes,calledthenanddoubtlessnowGolgotha,Kranion,orCalvaria。 \"Theusualdoomsweredulymetedout; Somethreeorfourwerestript,transfixed,andnailed,Andnogreatstiroccurred。AdayofwontItwastome,sofar,andwouldhaveslidCleanfrommymemoryatitssqualidcloseButforanincidentthatfollowedthese。 \"Amongthetag-ragrabbleofeithersexThathungaroundthewretchesastheywrithed,Tillthrustbackbyourspears,oneheldmyeye- Aweepingwoman,whosestrainedcountenance,Sharpenedagainstaloominglividcloud,Wasmockedbythecruderaysofafternoon- ThemotherofoneofthosewhosufferedthereIhadheardhercalledwhenspokenroughlytoBymyrangedmenforpressingforwardso。 ItstoleuponmeherswasafaceIknew; Yetwhen,orhow,Ihadknownit,forawhileEludedme。Andthenatonceitcame。 \"SomethirtyyearsormorebeforethatnoonIwassub-captainofacompanyDrawnfromthelegionofCalabria,ThatmarchedupfromJudaeanorthtoTyre。 WehadpiercedtheoldflatcountryofJezreel,ThegreatEsdraelonPlainandfighting-floorOfJewwithCanaanite,andwiththehostOfPharaoh-Necho,kingofEgypt,metWhilecrossingtheretostriketheAssyrianpride。 WeleftbehindGilboa;passedbyNain; TillbulgingTaborrose,embossedtothetopWitharbute,terabinth,andlocustgrowths。 \"Encumberingmeweresundrysick,sofallenThroughdrinkingfromaswampbesidetheway; Butwepressedon,till,bearingoveraridge,Wediptintoaworldofpleasantness- Avale,thefairestIhadgazedupon- WhichlappedavillageonitsfurthestslopesCalledNazareth,brimmedroundbyuplandsnigh。 Inthemidstthereofafountainbubbled,where,Lime-dryfrommarching,ourgladhaltwemadeTorestoursickones,andrefreshusall。 \"Hereadayonward,towardstheeventide,OurmenwerepipingtoaPyrrhicdanceTrodbytheircomrades,whentheyoungwomencameTofilltheirpitchers,astheircustomwas。 Iprofferedhelptoone——aslimgirl,coyEvenasafawn,meek,andasinnocent。 Herlongbluegown,thestringofsilvercoinsThathungdownbyherbandedbeautifulhair,Symboledinfullimmaculatemodesty。 \"Well,Iwasyoung,andhot,andreadilystirredToquickdesire。’TwastedioustimingoutTheconvalescenceofthesoldiery; AndIbeguiledthelongandemptydaysByblissfulyieldancetohersweetallure,Whohadnoarts,butwhatout-artedall,Thetremuloustendercharmoftrustfulness。 Wemet,andmet,andunderthewinkingstarsThatpassedwhichpeoplesearth——trueunion,yea,Tothepureeyeofhersimplicity。 \"Meanwhilethesickfoundhealth;andweprickedon。 Imadehernorashpromiseofreturn,Assomedouse;Iwassincereinthat; Isaidwesunderednevertomeetagain- AndyetIspokeuntruthunknowingly!- Formeetagainwedid。Now,guessyouaught? TheweepingmotheronCalvariaWassheIhadknown——albeitthattimeandtearsHadwastedrudelyheronceflowerlikeform,Andhersofteyes,nowswollenwithsorrowing。 \"ThoughIbetrayedsomequalms,shemarkedmenot; AndIwasscarceofmoodtocomradeherAndclosethesilenceofsowideatimeToclaimamalefactorasmyson- (ForsoIguessedhim)。AndinquirymadeBroughtrumourhowatNazarethlongbeforeAnoldmanweddedherforpity’ssakeOnfindingshehadgrownpregnant,noneknewhow,Caredforherchild,andlovedhertillhedied。 \"Well;thereitended;savethatthenIlearntThathe——themanwhoseardentbloodwasmine- HadwakedseditionlongamongtheJews,Andhurledinsultingparlanceattheirgod,Whosetemplebulkedupontheadjoininghill,Vowingthathewouldrazeit,thathimselfWasgodasgreatashewhomtheyadored,Andbydescent,moreover,wastheirking; Withsundryotherincitementstomisrule。 \"Theimpalementsdone,anddonethesoldiers’gameOfrafflingfortheclothes,alegionary,Longinus,piercedtheyoungmanwithhislanceAtsignsfromme,movedbyhisagoniesThroughnaysayingthedrugtheyhadofferedhim。 Itbroughttheend。AndwhenhehadbreathedhislastThewomanwent。Isawherneveragain…… Nowglaresmymoodymeaningonyou,friend?- ThatwhenyoutalkofoffspringassheerjoySotrustingly,youblinkcontingencies。 ForsFortuna!HewhogoesfatheringGivesfrightfulhostagestohazardry!\" ThusPanthera’stale。’Twasoneheseldomtold,Butyetitgotabroad。Hewouldunfold,Atothertimes,astoryoflessgloom,Thoughhiswasnotaheartwherejestshadroom。 HewouldregretdiscoveryofthetruthWasmadetoolatetoinfluencetoruthTheProcuratorwhohadcondemnedhisson—— Orratherhimsodeemed。FortherewasnoneToprovethatPantheraerrednot:andindeed,WhenvaguenessofidentityIwouldplead,Pantherhimselfwouldsometimesownasmuch- Yetlothly。But,assumingfactwassuch,ThatthesaidwomandidnotrecognizeHerlover’sface,ismatterforsurprise。 However,there’shistale,fantasyorotherwise。 ThereaftershonenotmenofPanthera’skind: Theindolentheadsathomewereill-inclinedTopresscampaigningthatwouldhoistthestarOftheirlieutenantsvalorousafar。 Jealousieskepthimirkedabroad,controlledAndstintedbyanEmpirenomorebold。 Yetinsomeactionssouthwardhehadshare- InMauretaniaandNumidia;thereWitheagleeye,andswordandsteedandspur,Quellinguprisingspromptly。SomesmallstirInParthianextengagedhim,untilmaimed,AsIhavesaid;andcynicTimeproclaimedHisnoblespiritbroken。WhatawasteOfsuchaRoman!——oneinyouth-timegracedWithindescribablecharm,soIhaveheard,Yea,magnetismimpossibletowordWhenfalteringasIsawhim。Whatafame,OSonofSaturn,hadadornedhisname,MighttheThreesohaveurgedThee!——HourbyhourHisowndisordershamperedPanthera’spowerTobrooduponthefateofthosehehadknown,Evenofthatonehealwayscalledhisown- Eitherinmorbiddreamormemory…… Hediedatnogreatage,untroublously,Anexitrareforardentsoldierssuchashe。 THEUNBORN Iroseatnight,andvisitedTheCaveoftheUnborn: AndcrowdingshapessurroundedmeFortidingsofthelifetobe,WholonghadprayedthesilentHeadTohasteitsadventmorn。 Theireyeswerelitwithartlesstrust,Hopethrilledtheireverytone; \"Ascenetheloveliest,isitnot? Apuredelight,abeauty-spotWhereallisgentle,trueandjust,Anddarknessisunknown?\" Myheartwasanguishedfortheirsake,Icouldnotframeaword; Andtheydescriedmysunkenface,Andseemedtoreadtherein,andtraceThenewsthatpitywouldnotbreak,Nortruthleaveunaverred。 AndasIsilentlyretiredIturnedandwatchedthemstill,Andtheycamehelter-skelterout,DrivenforwardlikearabbleroutIntotheworldtheyhadsodesiredBytheall-immanentWill。 1905。 THEMANHEKILLED \"HadheandIbutmetBysomeoldancientinn,WeshouldhavesatusdowntowetRightmanyanipperkin! \"Butrangedasinfantry,Andstaringfacetoface,Ishotathimasheatme,Andkilledhiminhisplace。 \"Ishothimdeadbecause- Becausehewasmyfoe,Justso:myfoeofcoursehewas; That’sclearenough;although\"Hethoughthe’d’list,perhaps,Off-handlike——justasI- Wasoutofwork——hadsoldhistraps- Nootherreasonwhy。 \"Yes;quaintandcuriouswaris! YoushootafellowdownYou’dtreatifmetwhereanybaris,Orhelptohalf-a-crown。\" 1902。 GEOGRAPHICALKNOWLEDGE (AMEMORYOFCHRISTIANAC-) WhereBlackmoorwas,theroadthatledToBath,shecouldnotshow,NorpointtheskythatoverspreadTownstenmilesofforso。 ButthatCalcuttastoodthisway,CapeHorntherefiguredfell,ThatherewasBoston,hereBombay,Shecoulddeclarefullwell。 LessknowntoherthetrackathwartFroomMeadorYell’hamWoodThanhowtomakesomeAustralportInseasofsurlymood。 ShesawtheglintofGuinea’sshoreBehindtheplum-treenigh,HeardoldunrulyBiscay’sroarIntheweir’spurlhardby…… \"Myson’sasailor,andheknowsAllseasandmanylands,Andwhenhe’shomehepointsandshowsEachcountrywhereitstands。 \"He’snowjustthere——byGib’shighrock- Andwhenhegets,yousee,ToPortsmouthhere,behindtheclock,Thenhe’llcomebacktome!\" ONERALPHBLOSSOMSOLILOQUIZES (\"Itbeingdeposedthatvijwomenwhoweremaydsbeforeheknewthemhavebeenbroughtuponthetowne[rates?]bythefornicacionsofoneRalphBlossom,MrMajorinquiredwhyheshouldnotcontributexivpenceweeklytowardtheirmayntenance。ButitbeingshewnthatthesaydR。B。wasdyingofapurplefeaver,noorderwasmade。\"——BudmouthBoroughMinutes:16——。) WhenIaminhellorsomesuchplace,A-groaningovermysorrycase,WhatwillthosesevenwomensaytomeWho,whenIcoaxedthem,answered\"Aye\"tome? \"Ididnotunderstandyoursign!\" WillbethewordsofCaroline; WhileJanewillcry,\"IfI’dhadproofofyou,Ishouldhavelearnttoholdaloofofyou!\" \"Iwon’treproach:itwastobe!\" WilldrylymurmurCicely; AndRosa:\"Ifeelnohostility,ForImustownIlentfacility。\" Lizzysays:\"Sharpwasmyregret,Andsometimesitisnow!ButyetIjoythat,thoughitbroughtnotoriousness,IknewLoveonceandallitsgloriousness!\" SaysPatience:\"Whyareweapart? Smallharmdidyou,mypoorSweetHeart! Amanchildborn,nowtallandbeautiful,Wasworththeacheofdaysundutiful。\" AndAnnecries:\"Othetimewasfair,Sowhereforeshouldyouburndownthere? Thereisadeedunderthesun,myLove,Andthatwasours。What’sdoneisdone,myLove。 ThesetrumpetshereinHeavenaredumbtomeWithyouaway。Dear,come,Ocometome!\" THENOBLELADY’STALE (circa1790) I \"Wemovedwithpensivepaces,Iandhe,AndbentourfadedfacesWistfully,Forsomethingtroubledhim,andtroubledme。 \"ThelanthornfeeblylightenedOurgreyhall,WhereancientbrandshadbrightenedHearthandwall,Andshapeslongvanishedwhithervanishall。 \"’Owhy,Love,nightly,daily,’ Ihadsaid,’Dostsigh,andsmilesopalely,AsifshedWereallLife’sblossoms,allitsdearthingsdead?’ \"’Sincesilencesetstheegrieving,’ Hereplied,’AndIabhordeceivingOnesotried,Why,Love,I’llspeak,eretimeustwaindivide。’ \"Heheldme,Iremember,JustaswhenOurlifewasJune——(SeptemberItwasthen); Andwewalkedon,untilhespokeagain。 \"’Susie,anIrishmummer,Loud-acclaimedThroughthegayLondonsummer,WasI;namedAmasterinmyart,whowouldbefamed。 \"’Butlo,therebeamedbeforemeLadySu; God’saltar-vowshesworemeWhennoneknew,AndforhersakeIbadethesockadieu。 \"’MyLordyourfather’spardonThusIwon: HelethisheartunhardenTowardshisson,Andhonourablycondonedwhatwehaddone; \"’Butsaid——recallyou,dearest?- AsforSu,I’dseeher——ay,thoughnearestMeunto- Soonerentombedthaninastagepurlieu! \"’Justso。——Andherehehousedus,Inthisnook,WhereLovelikebalmhasdrowsedus: Robin,rook,Ourchieffamiliars,nexttostringandbook。 \"’Ourdayshere,peace-enshrouded,FollowedstrangeTheoldstage-joyance,crowded,Richinrange; Butneverdidmysouldesireachange,\"’Tillnow,whenfaruncertainLipsofyoreCall,callmetothecurtain,Thereoncemore,ButONCE,totreadtheboardsItrodbefore。 \"’Anight——thelastandsingleEreIdie- Tofacethelights,tomingleAsdidI Onceinthegame,andriveteveryeye!’ \"’Tosomethingdrear,distressingAstheknellOfallhopesworthpossessing!’…… ——WhatbefellSeemedlinkedwithme,buthowIcouldnottell。 \"Hourspassed;tillIimploredhim,AsheknewHowfaithandfranknesstowardhimRuledmethrough,TosaywhatillIhaddone,andcouldundo。 \"’FAITH——FRANKNESS。Ah!Heavensavesuch!’ Murmuredhe,’Theyareweddedwealth!_I_gavesuchLiberally,Butyou,Dear,not。Foryoususpectedme。’ \"IwasaboutbeseechingInhurthasteMoremeaning,whenhe,reachingTomywaist,Ledmetopacethehallasoncewepaced。 \"’InevermeanttodrawyouToownall,’ Declaredhe。’But——ISAWyou- Bythewall,Half-hid。AndthatwaswhyIfailedwithal!’ \"’Where?when?’saidI——’Why,nighme,AttheplayThatnight。Thatyoushouldspyme,Doubtmyfay,Andfollow,furtive,tookmyheartaway!’ \"ThatIhadneverbeenthere,ButhadgoneTomylockedroom——unseenthere,Curtainsdrawn,Longdaysabiding——toldI,wonder-wan。 \"’Nay,’twasyourformandvesture,Cloakandgown,Yourhoodedfeatures——gestureHalfinfrown,Thatfacedme,pale,’heurged,’thatnightintown。 \"’Andwhen,outside,IhandedToherchair(AscourtesydemandedOfmethere) Theleadinglady,youpeepedfromthestair。 \"StraightpleadedI:’Forsooth,Love,HadIgone,Imusthavebeenintruth,Love,MadtodonSuchwell-knownraiment。’Buthestillwenton\"ThathewasnotmistakenNormisled- Ifeltlikeoneforsaken,Wishedmedead,Thathecouldthinkthusofthewifehehadwed! \"HisgoingseemedtowastehimLikeacurse,Towreckwhatoncehadgracedhim; And,averseTomyapproach,hemused,andmoped,andworse。 \"Till,whatnowordseffectedThoughtachieved: ITWASMYWRAITH——projected,Heconceived,Thither,bymytensebrainathomeaggrieved。 \"ThereonhiscredencecentredTillhedied; And,nomoretempted,enteredSanctified,Thelittlevaultwithroomforonebeside。\" III Thusfarthelady’sstory- Nowshe,too,ReclineswithinthathoaryLastdarkmewInMellstockQuirewithhimshelovedsotrue。 Ayellowingmarble,placedthereTablet-wise,AndtwojoinedheartsenchasedthereMeettheeyes; Andreadingtheirtwinnameswemoralize: Didshe,wewonder,followJealously? Andwerethoseprotestshollow?- OrsawheSomesemblantdame?Orcanwraithsreallybe? Wereitshewent,herhonour,Allmayhold,PressedtruthatlastuponherTillshetold- (Himonly——othersastheselinesunfold。) Riddledeath-sealedforever,Letitrest!…… One’sheartcouldblameherneverIfoneguessedThatgoshedid。Sheknewheractorbest。 UNREALIZED Downcomesthewinterrain- Spoilsmyhatandbow- Runsintothepollofme; Butmotherwon’tknow。 We’vebeenoutandcaughtacold,Knee-deepinsnow; SuchaluckythingitisThatmotherwon’tknow! Rosylostherselflastnight- Couldn’ttellwheretogo。 Yes——itratherfrightenedher,Butmotherdidn’tknow。 SomebodymadeWillydrunkAttheChristmasshow: O’twasfun!It’swellforhimThatmotherwon’tknow! Howsoeverwildweare,Lateatschoolorslow,Motherwon’tbecrosswithus,Motherwon’tknow。 Howwecriedthedayshedied! Neighbourswhisperinglow…… Butwenowdowhatwewill- Motherwon’tknow。 WAGTAILANDBABY Ababywatchedaford,wheretoAwagtailcamefordrinking; Ablaringbullwentwadingthrough,Thewagtailshowednoshrinking。 Astallionsplashedhiswayacross,Thebirdienearlysinking; Hegavehisplumesatwitchandtoss,Andheldhisownunblinking。 NextsawthebabyroundthespotAmongrelslowlyslinking; Thewagtailgazed,butfalterednotIndipandsipandprinking。 Aperfectgentlemanthenneared; Thewagtail,inawinking,Withterrorroseanddisappeared; Thebabyfella-thinking。 ABERDEEN (April:1905) \"Andwisdomandknowledgeshallbethestabilityofthytimes。\"——Isaiahxxxiii。6。 Ilookedandthought,\"AllistoograyandcoldTowakemyplace-enthusiasmsofold!\" Tillavoicepassed:\"BehindthatgranitemienLurkstheimposingbeautyofaQueen。\" Ilookedanew;andsawtheradiantformOfHerwhosoothesinstress,whosteersinstorm,OnthegraveinfluenceofwhoseeyessublimeMencountforthestabilityofthetime。 GEORGEMEREDITH 1828-1909 Fortyyearsback,whenmuchhadplaceThatsincehasperishedoutofmind,Iheardthatvoiceandsawthatface。 HespokeasoneafootwillwindAmorninghorneremenawake; Hisnotewastrenchant,turningkind。 HewasofthosewhosewitcanshakeAndriddletotheverycoreThecounterfeitsthatTimewillbreak…… Oflate,whenwetwometoncemore,TheluminouscountenanceandrareShonejustasfortyyearsbefore。 Sothat,whennowalltonguesdeclareHisshapeunseenbyhisgreenhill,Iscarcebelievehesitsnotthere。 Nomatter。FurtherandfurtherstillThroughtheworld’svaporousvitiateairHiswordswingon——aslivewordswill。 May1909。 YELL’HAM-WOOD’SSTORY Coomb-FirtreessaythatLifeisamoan,AndClyffe-hillClumpsays\"Yea!\" ButYell’hamsaysathingofitsown: It’snot\"Gray,grayIsLifealway!\" ThatYell’hamsays,NorthatLifeisforendsunknown。 ItsaysthatLifewouldsignifyAthwartedpurposing: Thatwecometolive,andarecalledtodie,Yes,that’sthethingInfall,inspring,ThatYell’hamsays:- \"Lifeoffers——todeny!\" 1902。 AYOUNGMAN’SEPIGRAMONEXISTENCE Asenselessschool,wherewemustgiveOurlivesthatwemaylearntolive! AdoltishewhomemorizesLessonsthatleavenotimeforprizes。 16W。P。V。,1866。