第3章

类别:其他 作者:Charles Dickens字数:18222更新时间:19/01/04 13:34:05
\"Condemned,\"saidtheghost,\"toshaveaconstantchangeofcustomers——now,me——now,ayoungman——now,thyselfasthouart——now,thyfather——now,thygrandfather;condemned,too,toliedownwithaskeletoneverynight,andtorisewithiteverymorning——\" (Ishudderedonhearingthisdismalannouncement。) \"Barber!Pursueme!\" Ihadfelt,evenbeforethewordswereuttered,thatIwasunderaspelltopursuethephantom。Iimmediatelydidso,andwasinMasterB。’sroomnolonger。 Mostpeopleknowwhatlongandfatiguingnightjourneyshadbeenforceduponthewitcheswhousedtoconfess,andwho,nodoubt,toldtheexacttruth——particularlyastheywerealwaysassistedwithleadingquestions,andtheTorturewasalwaysready。Iasseveratethat,duringmyoccupationofMasterB。’sroom,Iwastakenbytheghostthathauntedit,onexpeditionsfullyaslongandwildasanyofthose。Assuredly,Iwaspresentedtonoshabbyoldmanwithagoat’shornsandtail(somethingbetweenPanandanoldclothesman),holdingconventionalreceptions,asstupidasthoseofreallifeandlessdecent;but,Icameuponotherthingswhichappearedtometohavemoremeaning。 ConfidentthatIspeakthetruthandshallbebelieved,IdeclarewithouthesitationthatIfollowedtheghost,inthefirstinstanceonabroom-stick,andafterwardsonarocking-horse。Theverysmelloftheanimal’spaint——especiallywhenIbroughtitout,bymakinghimwarm——Iamreadytoswearto。Ifollowedtheghost,afterwards,inahackneycoach;aninstitutionwiththepeculiarsmellofwhich,thepresentgenerationisunacquainted,buttowhichIamagainreadytoswearasacombinationofstable,dogwiththemange,andveryoldbellows。(Inthis,Iappealtopreviousgenerationstoconfirmorrefuteme。)Ipursuedthephantom,onaheadlessdonkey: atleast,uponadonkeywhowassointerestedinthestateofhisstomachthathisheadwasalwaysdownthere,investigatingit;onponies,expresslyborntokickupbehind;onroundaboutsandswings,fromfairs;inthefirstcab——anotherforgotteninstitutionwherethefareregularlygotintobed,andwastuckedupwiththedriver。 NottotroubleyouwithadetailedaccountofallmytravelsinpursuitoftheghostofMasterB。,whichwerelongerandmorewonderfulthanthoseofSinbadtheSailor,Iwillconfinemyselftooneexperiencefromwhichyoumayjudgeofmany。 Iwasmarvellouslychanged。Iwasmyself,yetnotmyself。Iwasconsciousofsomethingwithinme,whichhasbeenthesameallthroughmylife,andwhichIhavealwaysrecognisedunderallitsphasesandvarietiesasneveraltering,andyetIwasnottheIwhohadgonetobedinMasterB。’sroom。Ihadthesmoothestoffacesandtheshortestoflegs,andIhadtakenanothercreaturelikemyself,alsowiththesmoothestoffacesandtheshortestoflegs,behindadoor,andwasconfidingtohimapropositionofthemostastoundingnature。 Thispropositionwas,thatweshouldhaveaSeraglio。 Theothercreatureassentedwarmly。Hehadnonotionofrespectability,neitherhadI。ItwasthecustomoftheEast,itwasthewayofthegoodCaliphHarounAlraschid(letmehavethecorruptednameagainforonce,itissoscentedwithsweetmemories!),theusagewashighlylaudable,andmostworthyofimitation。\"O,yes!Letus,\"saidtheothercreaturewithajump,\"haveaSeraglio。\" ItwasnotbecauseweentertainedthefaintestdoubtsofthemeritoriouscharacteroftheOrientalestablishmentweproposedtoimport,thatweperceiveditmustbekeptasecretfromMissGriffin。ItwasbecauseweknewMissGriffintobebereftofhumansympathies,andincapableofappreciatingthegreatnessofthegreatHaroun。MysteryimpenetrablyshroudedfromMissGriffinthen,letusentrustittoMissBule。 WewereteninMissGriffin’sestablishmentbyHampsteadPonds; eightladiesandtwogentlemen。MissBule,whomIjudgetohaveattainedtheripeageofeightornine,tooktheleadinsociety。I openedthesubjecttoherinthecourseoftheday,andproposedthatsheshouldbecometheFavourite。 MissBule,afterstrugglingwiththediffidencesonaturalto,andcharmingin,heradorablesex,expressedherselfasflatteredbytheidea,butwishedtoknowhowitwasproposedtoprovideforMissPipson?MissBule——whowasunderstoodtohavevowedtowardsthatyounglady,afriendship,halves,andnosecrets,untildeath,ontheChurchServiceandLessonscompleteintwovolumeswithcaseandlock——MissBulesaidshecouldnot,asthefriendofPipson,disguisefromherself,orme,thatPipsonwasnotoneofthecommon。 Now,MissPipson,havingcurlyhairandblueeyes(whichwasmyideaofanythingmortalandfemininethatwascalledFair),IpromptlyrepliedthatIregardedMissPipsoninthelightofaFairCircassian。 \"Andwhatthen?\"MissBulepensivelyasked。 IrepliedthatshemustbeinveigledbyaMerchant,broughttomeveiled,andpurchasedasaslave。 [TheothercreaturehadalreadyfallenintothesecondmaleplaceintheState,andwassetapartforGrandVizier。Heafterwardsresistedthisdisposalofevents,buthadhishairpulleduntilheyielded。] \"ShallInotbejealous?\"MissBuleinquired,castingdownhereyes。 \"Zobeide,no,\"Ireplied;\"youwilleverbethefavouriteSultana; thefirstplaceinmyheart,andonmythrone,willbeeveryours。\" MissBule,uponthatassurance,consentedtopropoundtheideatohersevenbeautifulcompanions。Itoccurringtome,inthecourseofthesameday,thatweknewwecouldtrustagrinningandgood- naturedsoulcalledTabby,whowastheservingdrudgeofthehouse,andhadnomorefigurethanoneofthebeds,anduponwhosefacetherewasalwaysmoreorlessblack-lead,IslippedintoMissBule’shandaftersupper,alittlenotetothateffect;dwellingontheblack-leadasbeinginamannerdepositedbythefingerofProvidence,pointingTabbyoutforMesrour,thecelebratedchiefoftheBlacksoftheHareem。 Thereweredifficultiesintheformationofthedesiredinstitution,asthereareinallcombinations。Theothercreatureshowedhimselfofalowcharacter,and,whendefeatedinaspiringtothethrone,pretendedtohaveconscientiousscruplesaboutprostratinghimselfbeforetheCaliph;wouldn’tcallhimCommanderoftheFaithful; spokeofhimslightinglyandinconsistentlyasamere\"chap;\"saidhe,theothercreature,\"wouldn’tplay\"——Play!——andwasotherwisecoarseandoffensive。Thismeannessofdispositionwas,however,putdownbythegeneralindignationofanunitedSeraglio,andI becameblessedinthesmilesofeightofthefairestofthedaughtersofmen。 ThesmilescouldonlybebestowedwhenMissGriffinwaslookinganotherway,andonlytheninaverywarymanner,fortherewasalegendamongthefollowersoftheProphetthatshesawwithalittleroundornamentinthemiddleofthepatternonthebackofhershawl。Buteverydayafterdinner,foranhour,wewerealltogether,andthentheFavouriteandtherestoftheRoyalHareemcompetedwhoshouldmostbeguiletheleisureoftheSereneHarounreposingfromthecaresofState——whichweregenerally,asinmostaffairsofState,ofanarithmeticalcharacter,theCommanderoftheFaithfulbeingafearfulboggleratasum。 Ontheseoccasions,thedevotedMesrour,chiefoftheBlacksoftheHareem,wasalwaysinattendance(MissGriffinusuallyringingforthatofficer,atthesametime,withgreatvehemence),butneveracquittedhimselfinamannerworthyofhishistoricalreputation。 Inthefirstplace,hisbringingabroomintotheDivanoftheCaliph,evenwhenHarounworeonhisshoulderstheredrobeofanger(MissPipson’spelisse),thoughitmightbegotoverforthemoment,wasnevertobequitesatisfactorilyaccountedfor。Inthesecondplace,hisbreakingoutintogrinningexclamationsof\"Lorkyoupretties!\"wasneitherEasternnorrespectful。Inthethirdplace,whenspeciallyinstructedtosay\"Bismillah!\"healwayssaid\"Hallelujah!\"Thisofficer,unlikehisclass,wastoogood-humouredaltogether,kepthismouthopenfartoowide,expressedapprobationtoanincongruousextent,andevenonce——itwasontheoccasionofthepurchaseoftheFairCircassianforfivehundredthousandpursesofgold,andcheap,too——embracedtheSlave,theFavourite,andtheCaliph,allround。(ParentheticallyletmesayGodblessMesrour,andmaytherehavebeensonsanddaughtersonthattenderbosom,softeningmanyaharddaysince!) MissGriffinwasamodelofpropriety,andIamatalosstoimaginewhatthefeelingsofthevirtuouswomanwouldhavebeen,ifshehadknown,whensheparadedusdowntheHampsteadRoadtwoandtwo,thatshewaswalkingwithastatelystepattheheadofPolygamyandMahomedanism。IbelievethatamysteriousandterriblejoywithwhichthecontemplationofMissGriffin,inthisunconsciousstate,inspiredus,andagrimsenseprevalentamongusthattherewasadreadfulpowerinourknowledgeofwhatMissGriffin(whoknewallthingsthatcouldbelearntoutofbook)didn’tknow,werethemain- springofthepreservationofoursecret。Itwaswonderfullykept,butwasonceuponthevergeofself-betrayal。ThedangerandescapeoccurreduponaSunday。Wewerealltenrangedinaconspicuouspartofthegalleryatchurch,withMissGriffinatourhead——aswewereeverySunday——advertisingtheestablishmentinanunsecularsortofway——whenthedescriptionofSolomoninhisdomesticgloryhappenedtoberead。Themomentthatmonarchwasthusreferredto,consciencewhisperedme,\"Thou,too,Haroun!\"Theofficiatingministerhadacastinhiseye,anditassistedconsciencebygivinghimtheappearanceofreadingpersonallyatme。Acrimsonblush,attendedbyafearfulperspiration,suffusedmyfeatures。TheGrandVizierbecamemoredeadthanalive,andthewholeSeraglioreddenedasifthesunsetofBagdadshonedirectupontheirlovelyfaces。AtthisportentoustimetheawfulGriffinrose,andbalefullysurveyedthechildrenofIslam。Myownimpressionwas,thatChurchandStatehadenteredintoaconspiracywithMissGriffintoexposeus,andthatweshouldallbeputintowhitesheets,andexhibitedinthecentreaisle。But,soWesterly——ifImaybeallowedtheexpressionasoppositetoEasternassociations——wasMissGriffin’ssenseofrectitude,thatshemerelysuspectedApples,andweweresaved。 IhavecalledtheSeraglio,united。Uponthequestion,solely,whethertheCommanderoftheFaithfuldurstexercisearightofkissinginthatsanctuaryofthepalace,wereitspeerlessinmatesdivided。Zobeideassertedacounter-rightintheFavouritetoscratch,andthefairCircassianputherface,forrefuge,intoagreenbaizebag,originallydesignedforbooks。Ontheotherhand,ayoungantelopeoftranscendentbeautyfromthefruitfulplainsofCamdenTown(whenceshehadbeenbrought,bytraders,inthehalf- yearlycaravanthatcrossedtheintermediatedesertaftertheholidays),heldmoreliberalopinions,butstipulatedforlimitingthebenefitofthemtothatdog,andsonofadog,theGrandVizier—— whohadnorights,andwasnotinquestion。Atlength,thedifficultywascompromisedbytheinstallationofaveryyouthfulslaveasDeputy。She,raiseduponastool,officiallyreceiveduponhercheeksthesalutesintendedbythegraciousHarounforotherSultanas,andwasprivatelyrewardedfromthecoffersoftheLadiesoftheHareem。 Andnowitwas,atthefullheightofenjoymentofmybliss,thatI becameheavilytroubled。Ibegantothinkofmymother,andwhatshewouldsaytomytakinghomeatMidsummereightofthemostbeautifulofthedaughtersofmen,butallunexpected。Ithoughtofthenumberofbedswemadeupatourhouse,ofmyfather’sincome,andofthebaker,andmydespondencyredoubled。TheSeraglioandmaliciousVizier,diviningthecauseoftheirLord’sunhappiness,didtheirutmosttoaugmentit。Theyprofessedunboundedfidelity,anddeclaredthattheywouldliveanddiewithhim。Reducedtotheutmostwretchednessbytheseprotestationsofattachment,Ilayawake,forhoursatatime,ruminatingonmyfrightfullot。Inmydespair,IthinkImighthavetakenanearlyopportunityoffallingonmykneesbeforeMissGriffin,avowingmyresemblancetoSolomon,andprayingtobedealtwithaccordingtotheoutragedlawsofmycountry,ifanunthought-ofmeansofescapehadnotopenedbeforeme。 Oneday,wewereoutwalking,twoandtwo——onwhichoccasiontheVizierhadhisusualinstructionstotakenoteoftheboyattheturn-pike,andifheprofanelygazed(whichhealwaysdid)atthebeautiesoftheHareem,tohavehimbowstrunginthecourseofthenight——andithappenedthatourheartswereveiledingloom。AnunaccountableactiononthepartoftheantelopehadplungedtheStateintodisgrace。Thatcharmer,ontherepresentationthatthepreviousdaywasherbirthday,andthatvasttreasureshadbeensentinahamperforitscelebration(bothbaselessassertions),hadsecretlybutmostpressinglyinvitedthirty-fiveneighbouringprincesandprincessestoaballandsupper:withaspecialstipulationthattheywere\"nottobefetchedtilltwelve。\"Thiswanderingoftheantelope’sfancy,ledtothesurprisingarrivalatMissGriffin’sdoor,indiversequipagesandundervariousescorts,ofagreatcompanyinfulldress,whoweredepositedonthetopstepinaflushofhighexpectancy,andwhoweredismissedintears。Atthebeginningofthedoubleknocksattendantontheseceremonies,theantelopehadretiredtoabackattic,andboltedherselfin;andateverynewarrival,MissGriffinhadgonesomuchmoreandmoredistracted,thatatlastshehadbeenseentotearherfront。 Ultimatecapitulationonthepartoftheoffender,hadbeenfollowedbysolitudeinthelinen-closet,breadandwaterandalecturetoall,ofvindictivelength,inwhichMissGriffinhadusedexpressions:Firstly,\"Ibelieveyouallofyouknewofit;\" Secondly,\"Everyoneofyouisaswickedasanother;\"Thirdly,\"A packoflittlewretches。\" Underthesecircumstances,wewerewalkingdrearilyalong;andI especially,withmy。Moosulmaunresponsibilitiesheavyonme,wasinaverylowstateofmind;whenastrangemanaccostedMissGriffin,and,afterwalkingonathersideforalittlewhileandtalkingwithher,lookedatme。Supposinghimtobeaminionofthelaw,andthatmyhourwascome,Iinstantlyranaway,withthegeneralpurposeofmakingforEgypt。 ThewholeSeragliocriedout,whentheysawmemakingoffasfastasmylegswouldcarryme(Ihadanimpressionthatthefirstturningontheleft,androundbythepublic-house,wouldbetheshortestwaytothePyramids),MissGriffinscreamedafterme,thefaithlessVizierranafterme,andtheboyattheturnpikedodgedmeintoacorner,likeasheep,andcutmeoff。NobodyscoldedmewhenIwastakenandbroughtback;MissGriffinonlysaid,withastunninggentleness,Thiswasverycurious!WhyhadIrunawaywhenthegentlemanlookedatme? IfIhadhadanybreathtoanswerwith,IdaresayIshouldhavemadenoanswer;havingnobreath,Icertainlymadenone。MissGriffinandthestrangemantookmebetweenthem,andwalkedmebacktothepalaceinasortofstate;butnotatall(asIcouldn’thelpfeeling,withastonishment)inculpritstate。 Whenwegotthere,wewentintoaroombyourselves,andMissGriffincalledintoherassistance,Mesrour,chiefoftheduskyguardsoftheHareem。Mesrour,onbeingwhisperedto,begantoshedtears。\"Blessyou,myprecious!\"saidthatofficer,turningtome; \"yourPa’stookbitterbad!\" Iasked,withaflutteredheart,\"Isheveryill?\" \"Lordtemperthewindtoyou,mylamb!\"saidthegoodMesrour,kneelingdown,thatImighthaveacomfortingshoulderformyheadtoreston,\"yourPa’sdead!\" HarounAlraschidtooktoflightatthewords;theSeragliovanished; fromthatmoment,Ineveragainsawoneoftheeightofthefairestofthedaughtersofmen。 Iwastakenhome,andtherewasDebtathomeaswellasDeath,andwehadasalethere。MyownlittlebedwassosuperciliouslylookeduponbyaPowerunknowntome,hazilycalled\"TheTrade,\"thatabrasscoal-scuttle,aroasting-jack,andabirdcage,wereobligedtobeputintoittomakeaLotofit,andthenitwentforasong。SoIheardmentioned,andIwonderedwhatsong,andthoughtwhatadismalsongitmusthavebeentosing! Then,Iwassenttoagreat,cold,bare,schoolofbigboys;whereeverythingtoeatandwearwasthickandclumpy,withoutbeingenough;whereeverybody,largoandsmall,wascruel;wheretheboysknewallaboutthesale,beforeIgotthere,andaskedmewhatIhadfetched,andwhohadboughtme,andhootedatme,\"Going,going,gone!\"IneverwhisperedinthatwretchedplacethatIhadbeenHaroun,orhadhadaSeraglio:for,IknewthatifImentionedmyreverses,Ishouldbesoworried,thatIshouldhavetodrownmyselfinthemuddypondneartheplayground,whichlookedlikethebeer。 Ahme,ahme!Nootherghosthashauntedtheboy’sroom,myfriends,sinceIhaveoccupiedit,thantheghostofmyownchildhood,theghostofmyowninnocence,theghostofmyownairybelief。ManyatimehaveIpursuedthephantom:neverwiththisman’sstrideofminetocomeupwithit,neverwiththeseman’shandsofminetotouchit,nevermoretothisman’sheartofminetoholditinitspurity。Andhereyouseemeworkingout,ascheerfullyandthankfullyasImay,mydoomofshavingintheglassaconstantchangeofcustomers,andoflyingdownandrisingupwiththeskeletonallottedtomeformymortalcompanion。 THETRIALFORMURDER。 Ihavealwaysnoticedaprevalentwantofcourage,evenamongpersonsofsuperiorintelligenceandculture,astoimpartingtheirownpsychologicalexperienceswhenthosehavebeenofastrangesort。Almostallmenareafraidthatwhattheycouldrelateinsuchwisewouldfindnoparallelorresponseinalistener’sinternallife,andmightbesuspectedorlaughedat。Atruthfultraveller,whoshouldhaveseensomeextraordinarycreatureinthelikenessofasea-serpent,wouldhavenofearofmentioningit;butthesametraveller,havinghadsomesingularpresentiment,impulse,vagaryofthought,vision(so-called),dream,orotherremarkablementalimpression,wouldhesitateconsiderablybeforehewouldowntoit。 TothisreticenceIattributemuchoftheobscurityinwhichsuchsubjectsareinvolved。Wedonothabituallycommunicateourexperiencesofthesesubjectivethingsaswedoourexperiencesofobjectivecreation。Theconsequenceis,thatthegeneralstockofexperienceinthisregardappearsexceptional,andreallyisso,inrespectofbeingmiserablyimperfect。 InwhatIamgoingtorelate,Ihavenointentionofsettingup,opposing,orsupporting,anytheorywhatever。IknowthehistoryoftheBooksellerofBerlin,IhavestudiedthecaseofthewifeofalateAstronomerRoyalasrelatedbySirDavidBrewster,andIhavefollowedtheminutestdetailsofamuchmoreremarkablecaseofSpectralIllusionoccurringwithinmyprivatecircleoffriends。Itmaybenecessarytostateastothislast,thatthesufferer(alady)wasinnodegree,howeverdistant,relatedtome。Amistakenassumptiononthatheadmightsuggestanexplanationofapartofmyowncase,——butonlyapart,——whichwouldbewhollywithoutfoundation。Itcannotbereferredtomyinheritanceofanydevelopedpeculiarity,norhadIeverbeforeanyatallsimilarexperience,norhaveIeverhadanyatallsimilarexperiencesince。 Itdoesnotsignifyhowmanyyearsago,orhowfew,acertainmurderwascommittedinEngland,whichattractedgreatattention。Wehearmorethanenoughofmurderersastheyriseinsuccessiontotheiratrociouseminence,andIwouldburythememoryofthisparticularbrute,ifIcould,ashisbodywasburied,inNewgateJail。I purposelyabstainfromgivinganydirectcluetothecriminal’sindividuality。 Whenthemurderwasfirstdiscovered,nosuspicionfell——orIoughtrathertosay,forIcannotbetoopreciseinmyfacts,itwasnowherepubliclyhintedthatanysuspicionfell——onthemanwhowasafterwardsbroughttotrial。Asnoreferencewasatthattimemadetohiminthenewspapers,itisobviouslyimpossiblethatanydescriptionofhimcanatthattimehavebeengiveninthenewspapers。Itisessentialthatthisfactberemembered。 Unfoldingatbreakfastmymorningpaper,containingtheaccountofthatfirstdiscovery,Ifoundittobedeeplyinteresting,andI readitwithcloseattention。Ireadittwice,ifnotthreetimes。 Thediscoveryhadbeenmadeinabedroom,and,whenIlaiddownthepaper,Iwasawareofaflash——rush——flow——Idonotknowwhattocallit,——nowordIcanfindissatisfactorilydescriptive,——inwhichIseemedtoseethatbedroompassingthroughmyroom,likeapictureimpossiblypaintedonarunningriver。Thoughalmostinstantaneousinitspassing,itwasperfectlyclear;soclearthatIdistinctly,andwithasenseofrelief,observedtheabsenceofthedeadbodyfromthebed。 ItwasinnoromanticplacethatIhadthiscurioussensation,butinchambersinPiccadilly,veryneartothecornerofSt。James’sStreet。Itwasentirelynewtome。Iwasinmyeasy-chairatthemoment,andthesensationwasaccompaniedwithapeculiarshiverwhichstartedthechairfromitsposition。(Butitistobenotedthatthechairraneasilyoncastors。)Iwenttooneofthewindows(therearetwointheroom,andtheroomisonthesecondfloor)torefreshmyeyeswiththemovingobjectsdowninPiccadilly。Itwasabrightautumnmorning,andthestreetwassparklingandcheerful。 Thewindwashigh。AsIlookedout,itbroughtdownfromtheParkaquantityoffallenleaves,whichagusttook,andwhirledintoaspiralpillar。Asthepillarfellandtheleavesdispersed,Isawtwomenontheoppositesideoftheway,goingfromWesttoEast。 Theywereonebehindtheother。Theforemostmanoftenlookedbackoverhisshoulder。Thesecondmanfollowedhim,atadistanceofsomethirtypaces,withhisrighthandmenacinglyraised。First,thesingularityandsteadinessofthisthreateninggestureinsopublicathoroughfareattractedmyattention;andnext,themoreremarkablecircumstancethatnobodyheededit。Bothmenthreadedtheirwayamongtheotherpassengerswithasmoothnesshardlyconsistentevenwiththeactionofwalkingonapavement;andnosinglecreature,thatIcouldsee,gavethemplace,touchedthem,orlookedafterthem。Inpassingbeforemywindows,theybothstaredupatme。Isawtheirtwofacesverydistinctly,andIknewthatI couldrecognisethemanywhere。NotthatIhadconsciouslynoticedanythingveryremarkableineitherface,exceptthatthemanwhowentfirsthadanunusuallyloweringappearance,andthatthefaceofthemanwhofollowedhimwasofthecolourofimpurewax。 Iamabachelor,andmyvaletandhiswifeconstitutemywholeestablishment。MyoccupationisinacertainBranchBank,andI wishthatmydutiesasheadofaDepartmentwereaslightastheyarepopularlysupposedtobe。Theykeptmeintownthatautumn,whenIstoodinneedofchange。Iwasnotill,butIwasnotwell。 Myreaderistomakethemostthatcanbereasonablymadeofmyfeelingjaded,havingadepressingsenseuponmeofamonotonouslife,andbeing\"slightlydyspeptic。\"Iamassuredbymyrenowneddoctorthatmyrealstateofhealthatthattimejustifiesnostrongerdescription,andIquotehisownfromhiswrittenanswertomyrequestforit。 Asthecircumstancesofthemurder,graduallyunravelling,tookstrongerandstrongerpossessionofthepublicmind,Ikeptthemawayfromminebyknowingaslittleaboutthemaswaspossibleinthemidstoftheuniversalexcitement。ButIknewthataverdictofWilfulMurderhadbeenfoundagainstthesuspectedmurderer,andthathehadbeencommittedtoNewgatefortrial。IalsoknewthathistrialhadbeenpostponedoveroneSessionsoftheCentralCriminalCourt,onthegroundofgeneralprejudiceandwantoftimeforthepreparationofthedefence。Imayfurtherhaveknown,butI believeIdidnot,when,oraboutwhen,theSessionstowhichhistrialstoodpostponedwouldcomeon。 Mysitting-room,bedroom,anddressing-room,areallononefloor。 Withthelastthereisnocommunicationbutthroughthebedroom。 True,thereisadoorinit,oncecommunicatingwiththestaircase; butapartofthefittingofmybathhasbeen——andhadthenbeenforsomeyears——fixedacrossit。Atthesameperiod,andasapartofthesamearrangement,——thedoorhadbeennailedupandcanvasedover。 Iwasstandinginmybedroomlateonenight,givingsomedirectionstomyservantbeforehewenttobed。Myfacewastowardstheonlyavailabledoorofcommunicationwiththedressing-room,anditwasclosed。Myservant’sbackwastowardsthatdoor。WhileIwasspeakingtohim,Isawitopen,andamanlookin,whoveryearnestlyandmysteriouslybeckonedtome。ThatmanwasthemanwhohadgonesecondofthetwoalongPiccadilly,andwhosefacewasofthecolourofimpurewax。 Thefigure,havingbeckoned,drewback,andclosedthedoor。Withnolongerpausethanwasmadebymycrossingthebedroom,Iopenedthedressing-roomdoor,andlookedin。Ihadalightedcandlealreadyinmyhand。Ifeltnoinwardexpectationofseeingthefigureinthedressing-room,andIdidnotseeitthere。 Consciousthatmyservantstoodamazed,Iturnedroundtohim,andsaid:\"Derrick,couldyoubelievethatinmycoolsensesIfanciedIsawa——\"AsItherelaidmyhanduponhisbreast,withasuddenstarthetrembledviolently,andsaid,\"OLord,yes,sir!Adeadmanbeckoning!\" NowIdonotbelievethatthisJohnDerrick,mytrustyandattachedservantformorethantwentyyears,hadanyimpressionwhateverofhavingseenanysuchfigure,untilItouchedhim。Thechangeinhimwassostartling,whenItouchedhim,thatIfullybelievehederivedhisimpressioninsomeoccultmannerfrommeatthatinstant。 IbadeJohnDerrickbringsomebrandy,andIgavehimadram,andwasgladtotakeonemyself。Ofwhathadprecededthatnight’sphenomenon,Itoldhimnotasingleword。Reflectingonit,IwasabsolutelycertainthatIhadneverseenthatfacebefore,exceptontheoneoccasioninPiccadilly。ComparingitsexpressionwhenbeckoningatthedoorwithitsexpressionwhenithadstaredupatmeasIstoodatmywindow,Icametotheconclusionthatonthefirstoccasionithadsoughttofastenitselfuponmymemory,andthatonthesecondoccasionithadmadesureofbeingimmediatelyremembered。 Iwasnotverycomfortablethatnight,thoughIfeltacertainty,difficulttoexplain,thatthefigurewouldnotreturn。AtdaylightIfellintoaheavysleep,fromwhichIwasawakenedbyJohnDerrick’scomingtomybedsidewithapaperinhishand。 Thispaper,itappeared,hadbeenthesubjectofanaltercationatthedoorbetweenitsbearerandmyservant。ItwasasummonstometoserveuponaJuryattheforthcomingSessionsoftheCentralCriminalCourtattheOldBailey。IhadneverbeforebeensummonedonsuchaJury,asJohnDerrickwellknew。Hebelieved——Iamnotcertainatthishourwhetherwithreasonorotherwise——thatthatclassofJurorswerecustomarilychosenonalowerqualificationthanmine,andhehadatfirstrefusedtoacceptthesummons。Themanwhoservedithadtakenthematterverycoolly。Hehadsaidthatmyattendanceornon-attendancewasnothingtohim;therethesummonswas;andIshoulddealwithitatmyownperil,andnotathis。 ForadayortwoIwasundecidedwhethertorespondtothiscall,ortakenonoticeofit。Iwasnotconsciousoftheslightestmysteriousbias,influence,orattraction,onewayorother。OfthatIamasstrictlysureasofeveryotherstatementthatImakehere。UltimatelyIdecided,asabreakinthemonotonyofmylife,thatIwouldgo。 TheappointedmorningwasarawmorninginthemonthofNovember。 TherewasadensebrownfoginPiccadilly,anditbecamepositivelyblackandinthelastdegreeoppressiveEastofTempleBar。IfoundthepassagesandstaircasesoftheCourt-Houseflaringlylightedwithgas,andtheCourtitselfsimilarlyilluminated。ITHINKthat,untilIwasconductedbyofficersintotheOldCourtandsawitscrowdedstate,IdidnotknowthattheMurdererwastobetriedthatday。ITHINKthat,untilIwassohelpedintotheOldCourtwithconsiderabledifficulty,IdidnotknowintowhichofthetwoCourtssittingmysummonswouldtakeme。Butthismustnotbereceivedasapositiveassertion,forIamnotcompletelysatisfiedinmymindoneitherpoint。 ItookmyseatintheplaceappropriatedtoJurorsinwaiting,andI lookedabouttheCourtaswellasIcouldthroughthecloudoffogandbreaththatwasheavyinit。Inoticedtheblackvapourhanginglikeamurkycurtainoutsidethegreatwindows,andInoticedthestifledsoundofwheelsonthestrawortanthatwaslitteredinthestreet;also,thehumofthepeoplegatheredthere,whichashrillwhistle,oraloudersongorhailthantherest,occasionallypierced。SoonafterwardstheJudges,twoinnumber,entered,andtooktheirseats。ThebuzzintheCourtwasawfullyhushed。ThedirectionwasgiventoputtheMurderertothebar。Heappearedthere。AndinthatsameinstantIrecognisedinhimthefirstofthetwomenwhohadgonedownPiccadilly。 Ifmynamehadbeencalledthen,IdoubtifIcouldhaveansweredtoitaudibly。Butitwascalledaboutsixthoreighthinthepanel,andIwasbythattimeabletosay,\"Here!\"Now,observe。AsI steppedintothebox,theprisoner,whohadbeenlookingonattentively,butwithnosignofconcern,becameviolentlyagitated,andbeckonedtohisattorney。Theprisoner’swishtochallengemewassomanifest,thatitoccasionedapause,duringwhichtheattorney,withhishanduponthedock,whisperedwithhisclient,andshookhishead。Iafterwardshaditfromthatgentleman,thattheprisoner’sfirstaffrightedwordstohimwere,\"ATALLHAZARDS,CHALLENGETHATMAN!\"Butthat,ashewouldgivenoreasonforit,andadmittedthathehadnotevenknownmynameuntilhehearditcalledandIappeared,itwasnotdone。 Bothonthegroundalreadyexplained,thatIwishtoavoidrevivingtheunwholesomememoryofthatMurderer,andalsobecauseadetailedaccountofhislongtrialisbynomeansindispensabletomynarrative,Ishallconfinemyselfcloselytosuchincidentsinthetendaysandnightsduringwhichwe,theJury,werekepttogether,asdirectlybearonmyowncuriouspersonalexperience。Itisinthat,andnotintheMurderer,thatIseektointerestmyreader。 Itistothat,andnottoapageoftheNewgateCalendar,thatIbegattention。 IwaschosenForemanoftheJury。Onthesecondmorningofthetrial,afterevidencehadbeentakenfortwohours(Iheardthechurchclocksstrike),happeningtocastmyeyesovermybrotherjurymen,Ifoundaninexplicabledifficultyincountingthem。I countedthemseveraltimes,yetalwayswiththesamedifficulty。Inshort,Imadethemonetoomany。 Itouchedthebrotherjurymenwhoseplacewasnextme,andI whisperedtohim,\"Obligemebycountingus。\"Helookedsurprisedbytherequest,butturnedhisheadandcounted。\"Why,\"sayshe,suddenly,\"weareThirt-;butno,it’snotpossible。No。Wearetwelve。\" Accordingtomycountingthatday,wewerealwaysrightindetail,butinthegrosswewerealwaysonetoomany。Therewasnoappearance——nofigure——toaccountforit;butIhadnowaninwardforeshadowingofthefigurethatwassurelycoming。 TheJurywerehousedattheLondonTavern。Weallsleptinonelargeroomonseparatetables,andwewereconstantlyinthechargeandundertheeyeoftheofficersworntoholdusinsafe-keeping。 Iseenoreasonforsuppressingtherealnameofthatofficer。Hewasintelligent,highlypolite,andobliging,and(Iwasgladtohear)muchrespectedintheCity。Hehadanagreeablepresence,goodeyes,enviableblackwhiskers,andafinesonorousvoice。HisnamewasMr。Harker。 Whenweturnedintoourtwelvebedsatnight,Mr。Harker’sbedwasdrawnacrossthedoor。Onthenightofthesecondday,notbeingdisposedtoliedown,andseeingMr。Harkersittingonhisbed,I wentandsatbesidehim,andofferedhimapinchofsnuff。AsMr。 Harker’shandtouchedmineintakingitfrommybox,apeculiarshivercrossedhim,andhesaid,\"Whoisthis?\" FollowingMr。Harker’seyes,andlookingalongtheroom,IsawagainthefigureIexpected,——thesecondofthetwomenwhohadgonedownPiccadilly。Irose,andadvancedafewsteps;thenstopped,andlookedroundatMr。Harker。Hewasquiteunconcerned,laughed,andsaidinapleasantway,\"Ithoughtforamomentwehadathirteenthjuryman,withoutabed。ButIseeitisthemoonlight。\" MakingnorevelationtoMr。Harker,butinvitinghimtotakeawalkwithmetotheendoftheroom,Iwatchedwhatthefiguredid。Itstoodforafewmomentsbythebedsideofeachofmyelevenbrotherjurymen,closetothepillow。Italwayswenttotheright-handsideofthebed,andalwayspassedoutcrossingthefootofthenextbed。 Itseemed,fromtheactionofthehead,merelytolookdownpensivelyateachrecumbentfigure。Ittooknonoticeofme,orofmybed,whichwasthatnearesttoMr。Harker’s。Itseemedtogooutwherethemoonlightcamein,throughahighwindow,asbyanaerialflightofstairs。 Nextmorningatbreakfast,itappearedthateverybodypresenthaddreamedofthemurderedmanlastnight,exceptmyselfandMr。 Harker。 InowfeltasconvincedthatthesecondmanwhohadgonedownPiccadillywasthemurderedman(sotospeak),asifithadbeenborneintomycomprehensionbyhisimmediatetestimony。Buteventhistookplace,andinamannerforwhichIwasnotatallprepared。 Onthefifthdayofthetrial,whenthecasefortheprosecutionwasdrawingtoaclose,aminiatureofthemurderedman,missingfromhisbedroomuponthediscoveryofthedeed,andafterwardsfoundinahiding-placewheretheMurdererhadbeenseendigging,wasputinevidence。Havingbeenidentifiedbythewitnessunderexamination,itwashandeduptotheBench,andthencehandeddowntobeinspectedbytheJury。Asanofficerinablackgownwasmakinghiswaywithitacrosstome,thefigureofthesecondmanwhohadgonedownPiccadillyimpetuouslystartedfromthecrowd,caughttheminiaturefromtheofficer,andgaveittomewithhisownhands,atthesametimesaying,inalowandhollowtone,——beforeIsawtheminiature,whichwasinalocket,——\"IWASYOUNGERTHEN,ANDMYFACE WASNOTTHENDRAINEDOFBLOOD。\"ItalsocamebetweenmeandthebrotherjurymantowhomIwouldhavegiventheminiature,andbetweenhimandthebrotherjurymantowhomhewouldhavegivenit,andsopasseditonthroughthewholeofournumber,andbackintomypossession。Notoneofthem,however,detectedthis。 Attable,andgenerallywhenwewereshutuptogetherinMr。 Harker’scustody,wehadfromthefirstnaturallydiscussedtheday’sproceedingsagooddeal。Onthatfifthday,thecasefortheprosecutionbeingclosed,andwehavingthatsideofthequestioninacompletedshapebeforeus,ourdiscussionwasmoreanimatedandserious。Amongournumberwasavestryman,——thedensestidiotI haveeverseenatlarge,——whomettheplainestevidencewiththemostpreposterousobjections,andwhowassidedwithbytwoflabbyparochialparasites;allthethreeimpanelledfromadistrictsodeliveredovertoFeverthattheyoughttohavebeenupontheirowntrialforfivehundredMurders。Whenthesemischievousblockheadswereattheirloudest,whichwastowardsmidnight,whilesomeofuswerealreadypreparingforbed,Iagainsawthemurderedman。Hestoodgrimlybehindthem,beckoningtome。Onmygoingtowardsthem,andstrikingintotheconversation,heimmediatelyretired。 Thiswasthebeginningofaseparateseriesofappearances,confinedtothatlongroominwhichwewereconfined。Wheneveraknotofmybrotherjurymenlaidtheirheadstogether,Isawtheheadofthemurderedmanamongtheirs。Whenevertheircomparisonofnoteswasgoingagainsthim,hewouldsolemnlyandirresistiblybeckontome。 Itwillbeborneinmindthatdowntotheproductionoftheminiature,onthefifthdayofthetrial,IhadneverseentheAppearanceinCourt。Threechangesoccurrednowthatweenteredonthecaseforthedefence。TwoofthemIwillmentiontogether,first。ThefigurewasnowinCourtcontinually,anditneverthereaddresseditselftome,butalwaystothepersonwhowasspeakingatthetime。Forinstance:thethroatofthemurderedmanhadbeencutstraightacross。Intheopeningspeechforthedefence,itwassuggestedthatthedeceasedmighthavecuthisownthroat。Atthatverymoment,thefigure,withitsthroatinthedreadfulconditionreferredto(thisithadconcealedbefore),stoodatthespeaker’selbow,motioningacrossandacrossitswindpipe,nowwiththerighthand,nowwiththeleft,vigorouslysuggestingtothespeakerhimselftheimpossibilityofsuchawoundhavingbeenself-inflictedbyeitherhand。Foranotherinstance:awitnesstocharacter,awoman,deposedtotheprisoner’sbeingthemostamiableofmankind。 Thefigureatthatinstantstoodonthefloorbeforeher,lookingherfullintheface,andpointingouttheprisoner’sevilcountenancewithanextendedarmandanoutstretchedfinger。 Thethirdchangenowtobeaddedimpressedmestronglyasthemostmarkedandstrikingofall。Idonottheoriseuponit;Iaccuratelystateit,andthereleaveit。AlthoughtheAppearancewasnotitselfperceivedbythosewhomitaddressed,itscomingclosetosuchpersonswasinvariablyattendedbysometrepidationordisturbanceontheirpart。Itseemedtomeasifitwereprevented,bylawstowhichIwasnotamenable,fromfullyrevealingitselftoothers,andyetasifitcouldinvisibly,dumbly,anddarklyovershadowtheirminds。Whentheleadingcounselforthedefencesuggestedthathypothesisofsuicide,andthefigurestoodatthelearnedgentleman’selbow,frightfullysawingatitsseveredthroat,itisundeniablethatthecounselfalteredinhisspeech,lostforafewsecondsthethreadofhisingeniousdiscourse,wipedhisforeheadwithhishandkerchief,andturnedextremelypale。WhenthewitnesstocharacterwasconfrontedbytheAppearance,hereyesmostcertainlydidfollowthedirectionofitspointedfinger,andrestingreathesitationandtroubleupontheprisoner’sface。Twoadditionalillustrationswillsuffice。Ontheeighthdayofthetrial,afterthepausewhichwaseverydaymadeearlyintheafternoonforafewminutes’restandrefreshment,IcamebackintoCourtwiththerestoftheJurysomelittletimebeforethereturnoftheJudges。Standingupintheboxandlookingaboutme,I thoughtthefigurewasnotthere,until,chancingtoraisemyeyestothegallery,Isawitbendingforward,andleaningoveraverydecentwoman,asiftoassureitselfwhethertheJudgeshadresumedtheirseatsornot。Immediatelyafterwardsthatwomanscreamed,fainted,andwascarriedout。Sowiththevenerable,sagacious,andpatientJudgewhoconductedthetrial。Whenthecasewasover,andhesettledhimselfandhispaperstosumup,themurderedman,enteringbytheJudges’door,advancedtohisLordship’sdesk,andlookedeagerlyoverhisshoulderatthepagesofhisnoteswhichhewasturning。AchangecameoverhisLordship’sface;hishandstopped;thepeculiarshiver,thatIknewsowell,passedoverhim; hefaltered,\"Excuseme,gentlemen,forafewmoments。Iamsomewhatoppressedbythevitiatedair;\"anddidnotrecoveruntilhehaddrunkaglassofwater。 Throughallthemonotonyofsixofthoseinterminabletendays,——thesameJudgesandothersonthebench,thesameMurdererinthedock,thesamelawyersatthetable,thesametonesofquestionandanswerrisingtotheroofofthecourt,thesamescratchingoftheJudge’spen,thesameushersgoinginandout,thesamelightskindledatthesamehourwhentherehadbeenanynaturallightofday,thesamefoggycurtainoutsidethegreatwindowswhenitwasfoggy,thesamerainpatteringanddrippingwhenitwasrainy,thesamefootmarksofturnkeysandprisonerdayafterdayonthesamesawdust,thesamekeyslockingandunlockingthesameheavydoors,——throughallthewearisomemonotonywhichmademefeelasifIhadbeenForemanoftheJuryforavastcriedoftime,andPiccadillyhadflourishedcoevallywithBabylon,themurderedmanneverlostonetraceofhisdistinctnessinmyeyes,norwasheatanymomentlessdistinctthananybodyelse。Imustnotomit,asamatteroffact,thatIneveroncesawtheAppearancewhichIcallbythenameofthemurderedmanlookattheMurderer。AgainandagainIwondered,\"Whydoeshenot?\"Butheneverdid。 Nordidhelookatme,aftertheproductionoftheminiature,untilthelastclosingminutesofthetrialarrived。Weretiredtoconsider,atsevenminutesbeforetenatnight。TheidioticvestrymanandhistwoparochialparasitesgaveussomuchtroublethatwetwicereturnedintoCourttobegtohavecertainextractsfromtheJudge’snotesre-read。Nineofushadnotthesmallestdoubtaboutthosepassages,neither,Ibelieve,hadanyoneintheCourt;thedunder-headedtriumvirate,havingnoideabutobstruction,disputedthemforthatveryreason。Atlengthweprevailed,andfinallytheJuryreturnedintoCourtattenminutespasttwelve。 ThemurderedmanatthattimestooddirectlyoppositetheJury-box,ontheothersideoftheCourt。AsItookmyplace,hiseyesrestedonmewithgreatattention;heseemedsatisfied,andslowlyshookagreatgrayveil,whichhecarriedonhisarmforthefirsttime,overhisheadandwholeform。AsIgaveinourverdict,\"Guilty,\" theveilcollapsed,allwasgone,andhisplacewasempty。 TheMurderer,beingaskedbytheJudge,accordingtousage,whetherhehadanythingtosaybeforesentenceofDeathshouldbepasseduponhim,indistinctlymutteredsomethingwhichwasdescribedintheleadingnewspapersofthefollowingdayas\"afewrambling,incoherent,andhalf-audiblewords,inwhichhewasunderstoodtocomplainthathehadnothadafairtrial,becausetheForemanoftheJurywasprepossessedagainsthim。\"Theremarkabledeclarationthathereallymadewasthis:\"MYLORD,IKNEWIWASADOOMEDMAN,WHENTHEFOREMANOFMYJURYCAMEINTOTHEBOX。MYLORD,IKNEWHE WOULDNEVERLETMEOFF,BECAUSE,BEFOREIWASTAKEN,HESOMEHOWGOT TOMYBEDSIDEINTHENIGHT,WOKEME,ANDPUTAROPEROUNDMYNECK。\"