第2章

类别:其他 作者:Amitav Ghosh字数:22364更新时间:19/01/03 15:23:56
part1-2 ChapterII HESHOOKhandswithme:\"Well,thereyouare,onyourown,appointedofficiallyundermyre- sponsibility。\" Hewasactuallywalkingwithmetothedoor。 Whatadistanceoffitseemed!Imovedlikeamaninbonds。Butwereacheditatlast。Iopeneditwiththesensationofdealingwithmeredream- stuff,andthenatthelastmomentthefellowshipofseamenasserteditself,strongerthanthediffer- enceofageandstation。ItasserteditselfinCaptainEllis’voice。 \"Good-bye——andgoodlucktoyou,\"hesaidsoheartilythatIcouldonlygivehimagratefulglance。ThenIturnedandwentout,nevertoseehimagaininmylife。IhadnotmadethreestepsintotheouterofficewhenIheardbehindmybackagruff,loud,authoritativevoice,thevoiceofourdeputy-Neptune。 ItwasaddressingtheheadShipping-Masterwho,havingletmein,had,apparently,remainedhoveringinthemiddledistanceeversince\"Mr。R。,lettheharbourlaunchhavesteamuptotakethecaptainhereonboardtheMelitaathalf- pastnineto-night。\" IwasamazedatthestartledalacrityofR’s\"Yes,sir。\"Heranbeforemeoutonthelanding。 MynewdignitysatyetsolightlyonmethatIwasnotawarethatitwasI,theCaptain,theobjectofthislastgraciousness。Itseemedasifallofasud- denapairofwingshadgrownonmyshoulders。I merelyskimmedalongthepolishedfloor。 ButR。wasimpressed。 \"Isay!\"heexclaimedonthelanding,whiletheMalaycrewofthesteam-launchstandingbylookedstonilyatthemanforwhomtheyweregoingtobekeptondutysolate,awayfromtheirgambling,fromtheirgirls,ortheirpuredomesticjoys。\"I say!Hisownlaunch。Whathaveyoudonetohim?\" Hisstarewasfullofrespectfulcuriosity。Iwasquiteconfounded。 \"Wasitforme?Ihadn’ttheslightestnotion,\" Istammeredout。 Henoddedmanytimes。\"Yes。AndthelastpersonwhohaditbeforeyouwasaDuke。So,there!\" Ithinkheexpectedmetofaintonthespot。 ButIwasintoomuchofahurryforemotionaldisplays。Myfeelingswerealreadyinsuchawhirlthatthisstaggeringinformationdidnotseemtomaketheslightestdifference。Itmerelyfellintotheseethingcauldronofmybrain,andIcarrieditoffwithmeafterashortbuteffusivepassageofleave-takingwithR。 Thefavourofthegreatthrowsanaureoleroundthefortunateobjectofitsselection。Thatex- cellentmanenquiredwhetherhecoulddoanythingforme。Hehadknownmeonlybysight,andhewaswellawarehewouldneverseemeagain;Iwas,incommonwiththeotherseamenoftheport,merelyasubjectforofficialwriting,fillingupofformswithalltheartificialsuperiorityofamanofpenandinktothemenwhograpplewithrealitiesoutsidetheconsecratedwallsofofficialbuildings。 Whatghostswemusthavebeentohim!Meresymbolstojugglewithinbooksandheavyregisters,withoutbrainsandmusclesandper- plexities;somethinghardlyusefulanddecidedlyinferior。 Andhe——theofficehoursbeingover——wantedtoknowifhecouldbeofanyusetome! Iought——properlyspeaking——Ioughttohavebeenmovedtotears。ButIdidnoteventhinkofit。 Itwasmerelyanothermiraculousmanifestationofthatdayofmiracles。Ipartedfromhimasifhewereameresymbol。Ifloateddownthestaircase。 Ifloatedoutoftheofficialandimposingportal。I wentonfloatingalong。 Iusethatwordratherthantheword\"flew,\"be- causeIhaveadistinctimpressionthat,thoughup- liftedbymyarousedyouth,mymovementsweredeliberateenough。Tothatmixedwhite,brown,andyellowportionofmankind,outabroadontheirownaffairs,Ipresentedtheappearanceofamanwalkingrathersedately。Andnothinginthewayofabstractioncouldhaveequalledmydeepde- tachmentfromtheformsandcoloursofthisworld。 Itwas,asitwere,final。 Andyet,suddenly,IrecognizedHamilton。I recognizedhimwithouteffort,withoutashock,withoutastart。Therehewas,strollingtowardtheHarbourOfficewithhisstiff,arrogantdignity。 Hisredfacemadehimnoticeableatadistance。Itflamed,overthere,ontheshadysideofthestreet。 Hehadperceivedme,too。Something(uncon- sciousexuberanceofspiritsperhaps)movedmetowavemyhandtohimelaborately。ThislapsefromgoodtastehappenedbeforeIwasawarethatIwascapableofit。 Theimpactofmyimpudencestoppedhimshort,muchasabulletmighthavedone。Iverilybelievehestaggered,thoughasfarasIcouldseehedidn’tactuallyfall。Ihadgonepastinamomentanddidnotturnmyhead。Ihadforgottenhisexistence。 Thenexttenminutesmighthavebeentensecondsortencenturiesforallmyconsciousnesshadtodowithit。Peoplemighthavebeenfallingdeadaroundme,housescrumbling,gunsfiring,Iwouldn’thaveknown。Iwasthinking:\"ByJove!Ihavegotit。\"ITbeingthecommand。Ithadcomeaboutinawayutterlyunforeseeninmymodestday-dreams。 Iperceivedthatmyimaginationhadbeenrun- ninginconventionalchannelsandthatmyhopeshadalwaysbeendrabstuff。Ihadenvisagedacommandasaresultofaslowcourseofpromotionintheemployofsomehighlyrespectablefirm。 Therewardoffaithfulservice。Well,faithfulservicewasallright。Onewouldnaturallygivethatforone’sownsake,forthesakeoftheship,fortheloveofthelifeofone’schoice;notforthesakeofthereward。 Thereissomethingdistastefulinthenotionofareward。 AndnowhereIhadmycommand,absolutelyinmypocket,inawayundeniableindeed,butmostunexpected;beyondmyimaginings,outsideallreasonableexpectations,andevennotwithstandingtheexistenceofsomesortofobscureintriguetokeepitawayfromme。Itistruethattheintriguewasfeeble,butithelpedthefeelingofwonder——asifIhadbeenspeciallydestinedforthatshipIdidnotknow,bysomepowerhigherthantheprosaicagenciesofthecommercialworld。 Astrangesenseofexultationbegantocreepintome。IfIhadworkedforthatcommandtenyearsormoretherewouldhavebeennothingofthekind。 Iwasalittlefrightened。 \"Letusbecalm,\"Isaidtomyself。 OutsidethedooroftheOfficers’HomethewretchedStewardseemedtobewaitingforme。 Therewasabroadflightofafewsteps,andherantoandfroonthetopofitasifchainedthere。A distressedcur。Helookedasthoughhisthroatweretoodryforhimtobark。 IregrettosayIstoppedbeforegoingin。Therehadbeenarevolutioninmymoralnature。Hewaitedopen-mouthed,breathless,whileIlookedathimforhalfaminute。 \"Andyouthoughtyoucouldkeepmeoutofit,\" Isaidscathingly。 \"Yousaidyouweregoinghome,\"hesqueakedmiserably。\"Yousaidso。Yousaidso。\" \"IwonderwhatCaptainElliswillhavetosaytothatexcuse,\"Iutteredslowlywithasinistermeaning。 Hislowerjawhadbeentremblingallthetimeandhisvoicewaslikethebleatingofasickgoat。\"Youhavegivenmeaway?Youhavedoneforme?\" Neitherhisdistressnoryetthesheerabsurdityofitwasabletodisarmme。Itwasthefirstin- stanceofharmbeingattemptedtobedonetome——atanyrate,thefirstIhadeverfoundout。AndIwasstillyoungenough,stilltoomuchonthissideoftheshadowline,nottobesurprisedandindig- nantatsuchthings。 Igazedathiminflexibly。Letthebeggarsuffer。 HeslappedhisforeheadandIpassedin,pursued,intothediningroom,byhisscreech:\"Ialwayssaidyou’dbethedeathofme。\" Thisclamournotonlyovertookme,butwentaheadasitwereontotheverandahandbroughtoutCaptainGiles。 Hestoodbeforemeinthedoorwayinallthecommonplacesolidityofhiswisdom。Thegoldchainglitteredonhisbreast。Heclutchedasmoulderingpipe。 Iextendedmyhandtohimwarmlyandheseemedsurprised,butdidrespondheartilyenoughintheend,withafaintsmileofsuperiorknowledgewhichcutmythanksshortasifwithaknife。I don’tthinkthatmorethanonewordcameout。 Andevenforthatone,judgingbythetemperatureofmyface,Ihadblushedasifforabadaction。 Assumingadetachedtone,Iwonderedhowonearthhehadmanagedtospotthelittleunderhandgamethathadbeengoingon。 Hemurmuredcomplacentlythattherewerebutfewthingsdoneinthetownthathecouldnotseetheinsideof。Andastothishouse,hehadbeenusingitoffandonfornearlytenyears。Nothingthatwentoninitcouldescapehisgreatexperience。 Ithadbeennotroubletohim。Notroubleatall。 Theninhisquiet,thicktonehewantedtoknowifIhadcomplainedformallyoftheSteward’saction。 IsaidthatIhadn’t——though,indeed,itwasnotforwantofopportunity。CaptainEllishadgoneformebald-headedinamostridiculousfashionforbeingoutofthewaywhenwanted。 \"Funnyoldgentleman,\"interjectedCaptainGiles。\"Whatdidyousaytothat?\" \"IsaidsimplythatIcamealongtheverymo- mentIheardofhismessage。Nothingmore。I didn’twanttohurttheSteward。Iwouldscorntoharmsuchanobject。No。Imadenocom- plaint,butIbelievehethinksI’vedoneso。Lethimthink。He’sgotafrighthewon’tforgetinahurry,forCaptainElliswouldkickhimoutintothemiddleofAsia……\" \"Waitamoment,\"saidCaptainGiles,leavingmesuddenly。Isatdownfeelingverytired,mostlyinmyhead。BeforeIcouldstartatrainofthoughthestoodagainbeforeme,murmuringtheexcusethathehadtogoandputthefellow’smindatease。 Ilookedupwithsurprise。ButinrealityIwasindifferent。HeexplainedthathehadfoundtheStewardlyingfacedownwardonthehorsehairsofa。 Hewasallrightnow。 \"Hewouldnothavediedoffright,\"Isaidcon- temptuously。 \"No。Buthemighthavetakenanoverdoseoutofoneofthemlittlebottleshekeepsinhisroom,\" CaptainGilesarguedseriously。\"Theconfoundedfoolhastriedtopoisonhimselfonce——afewyearsago。\" \"Really,\"Isaidwithoutemotion。\"Hedoesn’tseemveryfittolive,anyhow。\" \"Astothat,itmaybesaidofagoodmany。\" \"Don’texaggeratelikethis!\"Iprotested,laughingirritably。\"ButIwonderwhatthispartoftheworldwoulddoifyouweretoleaveofflook- ingafterit,CaptainGiles?HereyouhavegotmeacommandandsavedtheSteward’slifeinoneafternoon。ThoughwhyyoushouldhavetakenallthatinterestineitherofusismorethanIcanunderstand。\" CaptainGilesremainedsilentforaminute。 Thengravely: \"He’snotabadstewardreally。Hecanfindagoodcook,atanyrate。And,what’smore,hecankeephimwhenfound。Irememberthecookswehadherebeforehistime!……\" Imusthavemadeamovementofimpatience,becauseheinterruptedhimselfwithanapologyforkeepingmeyarningthere,whilenodoubtIneededallmytimetogetready。 WhatIreallyneededwastobealoneforabit。 Iseizedthisopeninghastily。Mybedroomwasaquietrefugeinanapparentlyuninhabitedwingofthebuilding。Havingabsolutelynothingtodo(forIhadnotunpackedmythings),Isatdownonthebedandabandonedmyselftotheinfluencesofthehour。Totheunexpectedinfluences…… AndfirstIwonderedatmystateofmind。WhywasInotmoresurprised?Why?HereIwas,in- vestedwithacommandinthetwinklingofaneye,notinthecommoncourseofhumanaffairs,butmoreasifbyenchantment。Ioughttohavebeenlostinastonishment。ButIwasn’t。Iwasverymuchlikepeopleinfairytales。Nothingeverastonishesthem。Whenafullyappointedgalacoachisproducedoutofapumpkintotakehertoaball,Cinderelladoesnotexclaim。Shegetsinquietlyanddrivesawaytoherhighfor- tune。 CaptainEllis(afiercesortoffairy)hadpro- ducedacommandoutofadraweralmostasun- expectedlyasinafairytale。Butacommandisanabstractidea,anditseemedasortof\"lessermarvel\"tillitflasheduponmethatitinvolvedtheconcreteexistenceofaship。 Aship!Myship!Shewasmine,moreabso- lutelymineforpossessionandcarethananythingintheworld;anobjectofresponsibilityandde- votion。Shewastherewaitingforme,spell-bound,unabletomove,tolive,togetoutintotheworld(tillIcame),likeanenchantedprincess。Hercallhadcometomeasiffromtheclouds。Ihadneversuspectedherexistence。Ididn’tknowhowshelooked,Ihadbarelyheardhername,andyetwewereindissolublyunitedforacertainportionofourfuture,tosinkorswimtogether! Asuddenpassionofanxiousimpatiencerushedthroughmyveins,gavemesuchasenseofthein- tensityofexistenceasIhaveneverfeltbeforeorsince。IdiscoveredhowmuchofaseamanIwas,inheart,inmind,and,asitwere,physically——amanexclusivelyofseaandships;theseatheonlyworldthatcounted,andtheships,thetestofman- liness,oftemperament,ofcourageandfidelity—— andoflove。 Ihadanexquisitemoment。Itwasuniquealso。 Jumpingupfrommyseat,Ipacedupanddownmyroomforalongtime。ButwhenIcamedown- stairsIbehavedwithsufficientcomposure。I onlycouldn’teatanythingatdinner。 Havingdeclaredmyintentionnottodrivebuttowalkdowntothequay,ImustrenderthewretchedStewardjusticethathebestirredhimselftofindmesomecooliesfortheluggage。Theyde- parted,carryingallmyworldlypossessions(exceptalittlemoneyIhadinmypocket)slungfromalongpole。CaptainGilesvolunteeredtowalkdownwithme。 Wefollowedthesombre,shadedalleyacrosstheEsplanade。Itwasmoderatelycoolthereunderthetrees。CaptainGilesremarked,withasuddenlaugh:\"Iknowwho’sjollythankfulathavingseenthelastofyou。\" IguessedthathemeanttheSteward。Thefellowhadbornehimselftomeinasulkilyfrightenedmanneratthelast。Iexpressedmywonderthatheshouldhavetriedtodomeabadturnfornoreasonatall。 \"Don’tyouseethatwhathewantedwastogetridofourfriendHamiltonbydodginghiminfrontofyouforthatjob?Thatwouldhaveremovedhimforgood。See?\" \"Heavens!\"Iexclaimed,feelinghumiliatedsomehow。\"Canitbepossible?Whatafoolhemustbe!Thatoverbearing,impudentloafer! Why!Hecouldn’t……Andyethe’snearlydoneit,Ibelieve;fortheHarbourOfficewasboundtosendsomebody。\" \"Aye。AfoollikeourStewardcanbedangeroussometimes,\"declaredCaptainGilessententiously。 \"Justbecauseheisafool,\"headded,impartingfurtherinstructioninhiscomplacentlowtones。 \"For,\"hecontinuedinthemannerofasetdemon- stration,\"nosensiblepersonwouldriskbeingkickedoutoftheonlyberthbetweenhimselfandstarvationjusttogetridofasimpleannoyance—— asmallworry。Wouldhenow?\" \"Well,no,\"Iconceded,restrainingadesiretolaughatthatsomethingmysteriouslyearnestindeliveringtheconclusionsofhiswisdomasthoughitweretheproductofprohibitedoperations。\"Butthatfellowlooksasifhewererathercrazy。Hemustbe。\" \"Astothat,Ibelieveeverybodyintheworldisalittlemad,\"heannouncedquietly。 \"Youmakenoexceptions?\"Iinquired,justtohearhismanner。 \"Why!Kentsaysthatevenofyou。\" \"Doeshe?\"Iretorted,extremelyembitteredallatonceagainstmyformercaptain。\"There’snothingofthatinthewrittencharacterfromhimwhichI’vegotinmypocket。Hashegivenyouanyinstancesofmylunacy?\" CaptainGilesexplainedinaconciliatingtonethatithadbeenonlyafriendlyremarkinrefer- encetomyabruptleavingtheshipfornoapparentreason。 Imutteredgrumpily:\"Oh!leavinghisship,\" andmendedmypace。Hekeptupbymysideinthedeepgloomoftheavenueasifitwerehiscon- scientiousdutytoseemeoutofthecolonyasanundesirablecharacter。Hepantedalittle,whichwasratherpatheticinaway。ButIwasnotmoved。Onthecontrary。Hisdiscomfortgavemeasortofmaliciouspleasure。 PresentlyIrelented,sloweddown,andsaid: \"WhatIreallywantedwastogetafreshgrip。 Ifeltitwastime。Isthatsoverymad?\" Hemadenoanswer。Wewereissuingfromtheavenue。Onthebridgeoverthecanaladark,ir- resolutefigureseemedtobeawaitingsomethingorsomebody。 ItwasaMalaypoliceman,barefooted,inhisblueuniform。Thesilverbandonhislittleroundcapshonedimlyinthelightofthestreetlamp。Hepeeredinourdirectiontimidly。 Beforewecouldcomeuptohimheturnedaboutandwalkedinfrontofusinthedirectionofthejetty。Thedistancewassomehundredyards;andthenIfoundmycooliessquattingontheirheels。 Theyhadkeptthepoleontheirshoulders,andallmyworldlygoods,stilltiedtothepole,wererestingonthegroundbetweenthem。Asfarastheeyecouldreachalongthequaytherewasnotanothersoulabroadexceptthepolicepeon,whosalutedus。 Itseemshehaddetainedthecooliesassuspiciouscharacters,andhadforbiddenthemthejetty。Butatasignfrommehetookofftheembargowithalacrity。Thetwopatientfellows,risingtogetherwithafaintgrunt,trottedoffalongtheplanks,andIpreparedtotakemyleaveofCaptainGiles,whostoodtherewithanairasthoughhismissionweredrawingtoaclose。Itcouldnotbedeniedthathehaddoneitall。AndwhileIhesitatedaboutanappropriatesentencehemadehimselfheard: \"Iexpectyou’llhaveyourhandsprettyfulloftangled-upbusiness。\" Iaskedhimwhatmadehimthinkso;andhean- sweredthatitwashisgeneralexperienceoftheworld。Shipalongtimeawayfromherport,ownersinaccessiblebycable,andtheonlymanwhocouldexplainmattersdeadandburied。 \"Andyouyourselfnewtothebusinessinaway,\" heconcludedinasortofunanswerabletone。 \"Don’tinsist,\"Isaid。\"Iknowitonlytoowell。 IonlywishyoucouldimparttomesomesmallportionofyourexperiencebeforeIgo。Asitcan’tbedoneintenminutesIhadbetternotbegintoaskyou。There’sthatharbourlaunchwaitingforme,too。ButIwon’tfeelreallyatpeacetillIhavethatshipofmineoutintheIndianOcean。\" HeremarkedcasuallythatfromBangkoktotheIndianOceanwasaprettylongstep。Andthismurmur,likeadimflashfromadarklantern,showedmeforamomentthebroadbeltofislandsandreefsbetweenthatunknownship,whichwasmine,andthefreedomofthegreatwatersoftheglobe。 ButIfeltnoapprehension。IwasfamiliarenoughwiththeArchipelagobythattime。Ex- tremepatienceandextremecarewouldseemethroughtheregionofbrokenland,offaintairs,andofdeadwatertowhereIwouldfeelatlastmycommandswingonthegreatswellandlistovertothegreatbreathofregularwinds,thatwouldgiveherthefeelingofalarge,moreintenselife。Theroadwouldbelong。Allroadsarelongthatleadtowardone’sheart’sdesire。Butthisroadmymind’seyecouldseeonachart,professionally,withallitscomplicationsanddifficulties,yetsimpleenoughinaway。Oneisaseamanoroneisnot。 AndIhadnodoubtofbeingone。 TheonlypartIwasastrangertowastheGulfofSiam。AndImentionedthistoCaptainGiles。 NotthatIwasconcernedverymuch。ItbelongedtothesameregionthenatureofwhichIknew,intowhoseverysoulIseemedtohavelookedduringthelastmonthsofthatexistencewithwhichIhadbrokennow,suddenly,asonepartswithsomeen- chantingcompany。 \"Thegulf……Ay!Afunnypieceofwater——that,\"saidCaptainGiles。 Funny,inthisconnection,wasavagueword。 Thewholethingsoundedlikeanopinionutteredbyacautiouspersonmindfulofactionsforslander。 Ididn’tinquireastothenatureofthatfunni- ness。Therewasreallynotime。Butattheverylasthevolunteeredawarning。 \"Whateveryoudokeeptotheeastsideofit。 Thewestsideisdangerousatthistimeoftheyear。 Don’tletanythingtemptyouover。You’llfindnothingbuttroublethere。\" ThoughIcouldhardlyimaginewhatcouldtemptmetoinvolvemyshipamongstthecurrentsandreefsoftheMalayshore,Ithankedhimfortheadvice。 Hegrippedmyextendedarmwarmly,andtheendofouracquaintancecamesuddenlyinthewords:\"Good-night。\" Thatwasallhesaid:\"Good-night。\"Nothingmore。Idon’tknowwhatIintendedtosay,butsurprisemademeswallowit,whateveritwas。I chokedslightly,andthenexclaimedwithasortofnervoushaste:\"Oh!Good-night,CaptainGiles,good-night。\" Hismovementswerealwaysdeliberate,buthisbackhadrecededsomedistancealongthedesertedquaybeforeIcollectedmyselfenoughtofollowhisexampleandmadeahalfturninthedirectionofthejetty。 Onlymymovementswerenotdeliberate。I hurrieddowntothesteps,andleapedintothelaunch。BeforeIhadfairlylandedinherstern- sheetstheslimlittlecraftdartedawayfromthejettywithasuddenswirlofherpropellerandthehard,rapidpuffingoftheexhaustinhervaguelygleamingbrassfunnelamidships。 Themistychurningathersternwastheonlysoundintheworld。Theshorelayplungedinthesilenceofthedeeperslumber。Iwatchedthetownrecedestillandsoundlessinthehotnight,tilltheabrupthail,\"Steam-launch,ahoy!\"mademespinroundfaceforward。Wewereclosetoawhiteghostlysteamer。Lightsshoneonherdecks,inherportholes。Andthesamevoiceshoutedfromher: \"Isthatourpassenger?\" \"Itis,\"Iyelled。 Hercrewhadbeenobviouslyonthejump。I couldhearthemrunningabout。Themodernspiritofhastewasloudlyvocalintheordersto\"Heaveawayonthecable\"——to\"Lowertheside- ladder,\"andinurgentrequeststometo\"Comealong,sir!Wehavebeendelayedthreehoursforyou……Ourtimeisseveno’clock,youknow!\" Isteppedonthedeck。Isaid\"No!Idon’tknow。\"Thespiritofmodernhurrywasembodiedinathin,long-armed,long-leggedman,withacloselyclippedgraybeard。Hismeagrehandwashotanddry。Hedeclaredfeverishly: \"IamhangedifIwouldhavewaitedanotherfiveminutesHarbour-MasterornoHarbour- Master。\" \"That’syourownbusiness,\"Isaid。\"Ididn’taskyoutowaitforme。\" \"Ihopeyoudon’texpectanysupper,\"heburstout。\"Thisisn’taboarding-houseafloat。YouarethefirstpassengerIeverhadinmylifeandIhopetogoodnessyouwillbethelast。\" Imadenoanswertothishospitablecommuni- cation;and,indeed,hedidn’twaitforany,boltingawayontohisbridgetogethisshipunderway。 Forthethreedayshehadmeonboardhedidnotdepartfromthathalf-hostileattitude。Hisshiphavingbeendelayedthreehoursonmyaccounthecouldn’tforgivemefornotbeingamoredistin- guishedperson。Hewasnotexactlyoutspokenaboutit,butthatfeelingofannoyedwonderwaspeepingoutperpetuallyinhistalk。 Hewasabsurd。 Hewasalsoamanofmuchexperience,whichhelikedtotrotout;butnogreatercontrastwithCap- tainGilescouldhavebeenimagined。HewouldhaveamusedmeifIhadwantedtobeamused。 ButIdidnotwanttobeamused。Iwaslikealoverlookingforwardtoameeting。Humanhos- tilitywasnothingtome。Ithoughtofmyun- knownship。Itwasamusementenough,tormentenough,occupationenough。 Heperceivedmystate,forhiswitsweresuffi- cientlysharpforthat,andhepokedslyfunatmypreoccupationinthemannersomenasty,cynicaloldmenassumetowardthedreamsandillusionsofyouth。I,onmyside,refrainedfromquestioninghimastotheappearanceofmyship,thoughI knewthatbeinginBangkokeveryfortnightorsohemusthaveknownherbysight。Iwasnotgoingtoexposetheship,myship!tosomeslightingreference。 HewasthefirstreallyunsympatheticmanIhadevercomeincontactwith。Myeducationwasfarfrombeingfinished,thoughIdidn’tknowit。No! Ididn’tknowit。 AllIknewwasthathedislikedmeandhadsomecontemptformyperson。Why?Apparentlybecausehisshiphadbeendelayedthreehoursonmyaccount。WhowasItohavesuchathingdoneforme?Suchathinghadneverbeendoneforhim。 Itwasasortofjealousindignation。 Myexpectation,mingledwithfear,waswroughttoitshighestpitch。Howslowhadbeenthedaysofthepassageandhowsoontheywereover。Onemorning,early,wecrossedthebar,andwhilethesunwasrisingsplendidlyovertheflatspacesofthelandwesteameduptheinnumerablebends,passedundertheshadowofthegreatgiltpagoda,andreachedtheoutskirtsofthetown。 Thereitwas,spreadlargelyonbothbanks,theOrientalcapitalwhichhadasyetsufferednowhiteconqueror;anexpanseofbrownhousesofbamboo,ofmats,ofleaves,ofavegetable-matterstyleofarchitecture,sprungoutofthebrownsoilonthebanksofthemuddyriver。Itwasamazingtothinkthatinthosemilesofhumanhabitationstherewasnotprobablyhalfadozenpoundsofnails。Someofthosehousesofsticksandgrass,likethenestsofanaquaticrace,clungtothelowshores。Othersseemedtogrowoutofthewater;othersagainfloatedinlonganchoredrowsintheverymiddleofthestream。Hereandthereinthedistance,abovethecrowdedmoboflow,brownroofridges,toweredgreatpilesofmasonry,King’sPalace,temples,gorgeousanddilapidated,crumblingundertheverticalsunlight,tremendous,overpowering,al- mostpalpable,whichseemedtoenterone’sbreastwiththebreathofone’snostrilsandsoakintoone’slimbsthrougheveryporeofone’sskin。 Theridiculousvictimofjealousyhadforsomereasonorothertostophisenginesjustthen。Thesteamerdriftedslowlyupwiththetide。ObliviousofmynewsurroundingsIwalkedthedeck,inanx- ious,deadenedabstraction,acomminglingofromanticreveriewithaverypracticalsurveyofmyqualifications。Forthetimewasapproachingformetobeholdmycommandandtoprovemyworthintheultimatetestofmyprofession。 SuddenlyIheardmyselfcalledbythatimbe- cile。Hewasbeckoningmetocomeuponhisbridge。 Ididn’tcareverymuchforthat,butasitseemedthathehadsomethingparticulartosayI wentuptheladder。 Helaidhishandonmyshoulderandgavemeaslightturn,pointingwithhisotherarmatthesametime。 \"There!That’syourship,Captain,\"hesaid。 Ifeltathumpinmybreast——onlyone,asifmyhearthadthenceasedtobeat。Thereweretenormoreshipsmooredalongthebank,andtheonehemeantwaspartlyhiddenawayfrommysightbyhernextastern。Hesaid:\"We’lldriftabreastherinamoment。\" Whatwashistone?Mocking?Threatening? Oronlyindifferent?Icouldnottell。Isuspectedsomemaliceinthisunexpectedmanifestationofinterest。 Heleftme,andIleanedovertherailofthebridgelookingovertheside。Idarednotraisemyeyes。Yetithadtobedone——and,indeed,Icouldnothavehelpedmyself。IbelieveItrembled。 Butdirectlymyeyeshadrestedonmyshipallmyfearvanished。Itwentoffswiftly,likeabaddream。Onlythatadreamleavesnoshamebe- hindit,andthatIfeltamomentaryshameatmyunworthysuspicions。 Yes,thereshewas。Herhull,herriggingfilledmyeyewithagreatcontent。Thatfeelingoflife- emptinesswhichhadmademesorestlessforthelastfewmonthslostitsbitterplausibility,itsevilinfluence,dissolvedinaflowofjoyousemotion。 AtfirstglanceIsawthatshewasahigh-classvessel,aharmoniouscreatureinthelinesofherfinebody,intheproportionedtallnessofherspars。 Whateverherageandherhistory,shehadpre- servedthestampofherorigin。Shewasoneofthosecraftthat,invirtueoftheirdesignandcom- pletefinish,willneverlookold。Amongsthercom- panionsmooredtothebank,andallbiggerthanherself,shelookedlikeacreatureofhighbreed—— anArabsteedinastringofcart-horses。 Avoicebehindmesaidinanastyequivocaltone: \"Ihopeyouaresatisfiedwithher,Captain。\"I didnoteventurnmyhead。Itwasthemasterofthesteamer,andwhateverhemeant,whateverhethoughtofher,Iknewthat,likesomerarewomen,shewasoneofthosecreatureswhosemereexistenceisenoughtoawakenanunselfishdelight。Onefeelsthatitisgoodtobeintheworldinwhichshehasherbeing。 Thatillusionoflifeandcharacterwhichcharmsoneinmen’sfinesthandiworkradiatedfromher。 Anenormousbulkofteak-woodtimberswungoverherhatchway;lifelessmatter,lookingheavierandbiggerthananythingaboardofher。Whentheystartedloweringitthesurgeofthetacklesentaquiverthroughherfromwater-linetothetrucksupthefinenervesofherrigging,asthoughshehadshudderedattheweight。Itseemedcrueltoloadherso…… Halfanhourlater,puttingmyfootonherdeckforthefirsttime,Ireceivedthefeelingofdeepphysicalsatisfaction。Nothingcouldequalthefullnessofthatmoment,theidealcompletenessofthatemotionalexperiencewhichhadcometomewithoutthepreliminarytoilanddisenchantmentsofanobscurecareer。 Myrapidglanceranoverher,enveloped,ap- propriatedtheformconcretingtheabstractsenti- mentofmycommand。Alotofdetailsperceptibletoaseamanstruckmyeye,vividlyinthatinstant。 Fortherest,Isawherdisengagedfromthematerialconditionsofherbeing。Theshoretowhichshewasmooredwasasifitdidnotexist。Whatweretomeallthecountriesoftheglobe?Inallthepartsoftheworldwashedbynavigablewatersourrelationtoeachotherwouldbethesame——andmoreintimatethantherearewordstoexpressinthelanguage。Apartfromthat,everysceneandepisodewouldbeamerepassingshow。Theverygangofyellowcooliesbusyaboutthemainhatchwaslesssubstantialthanthestuffdreamsaremadeof。ForwhoonearthwoulddreamofChinamen?…… Iwentaft,ascendedthepoop,where,undertheawning,gleamedthebrassesoftheyacht-likefittings,thepolishedsurfacesoftherails,theglassoftheskylights。Rightafttwoseamen,busycleaningthesteeringgear,withthereflectedripplesoflightrunningplayfullyuptheirbentbacks,wentonwiththeirwork,unawareofmeandoftheal- mostaffectionateglanceIthrewattheminpassingtowardthecompanion-wayofthecabin。 Thedoorsstoodwideopen,theslidewaspushedrightback。Thehalf-turnofthestaircasecutofftheviewofthelobby。Alowhummingascendedfrombelow,butitstoppedabruptlyatthesoundofmydescendingfootsteps。 part1-3ChapterIII THEfirstthingIsawdowntherewastheupperpartofaman’sbodyprojectingbackward,asitwere,fromoneofthedoorsatthefootofthestairs。Hiseyeslookedatmeverywideandstill。Inonehandheheldadinnerplate,intheotheracloth。 \"IamyournewCaptain,\"Isaidquietly。 Inamoment,inthetwinklingofaneye,hehadgotridoftheplateandtheclothandjumpedtoopenthecabindoor。AssoonasIpassedintothesaloonhevanished,butonlytoreappearinstantly,buttoningupajackethehadputonwiththeswiftnessofa\"quick-change\"artist。 \"Where’sthechiefmate?\"Iasked。 \"Inthehold,Ithink,sir。Isawhimgodowntheafter-hatchtenminutesago。\" \"TellhimIamonboard。\" Themahoganytableundertheskylightshoneinthetwilightlikeadarkpoolofwater。Theside- board,surmountedbyawidelooking-glassinanormuluframe,hadamarbletop。Itboreapairofsilver-platedlampsandsomeotherpieces—— obviouslyaharbourdisplay。Thesaloonitselfwaspanelledintwokindsofwoodintheexcellentsimpletasteprevailingwhentheshipwasbuilt。 Isatdowninthearmchairattheheadofthetable——thecaptain’schair,withasmalltell-talecompassswungaboveit——amutereminderofun- remittingvigilance。 Asuccessionofmenhadsatinthatchair。Ibe- cameawareofthatthoughtsuddenly,vividly,asthougheachhadleftalittleofhimselfbetweenthefourwallsoftheseornatebulkheads;asifasortofcompositesoul,thesoulofcommand,hadwhisperedsuddenlytomineoflongdaysatseaandofanxiousmoments。 \"You,too!\"itseemedtosay,\"you,too,shalltasteofthatpeaceandthatunrestinasearchingintimacywithyourownself——obscureaswewereandassupremeinthefaceofallthewindsandalltheseas,inanimmensitythatreceivesnoimpress,preservesnomemories,andkeepsnoreckoningoflives。\" Deepwithinthetarnishedormuluframe,inthehothalf-lightsiftedthroughtheawning,Isawmyownfaceproppedbetweenmyhands。AndI staredbackatmyselfwiththeperfectdetachmentofdistance,ratherwithcuriositythanwithanyotherfeeling,exceptofsomesympathyforthislatestrepresentativeofwhatforallintentsandpurposeswasadynasty,continuousnotinbloodindeed,butinitsexperience,initstraining,initsconceptionofduty,andintheblessedsimplicityofitstraditionalpointofviewonlife。 ItstruckmethatthisquietlystaringmanwhomIwaswatching,bothasifheweremyselfandsome- bodyelse,wasnotexactlyalonelyfigure。Hehadhisplaceinalineofmenwhomhedidnotknow,ofwhomhehadneverheard;butwhowerefashionedbythesameinfluences,whosesoulsinrelationtotheirhumblelife’sworkhadnosecretsforhim。 SuddenlyIperceivedthattherewasanothermaninthesaloon,standingalittleononesideandlook- ingintentlyatme。Thechiefmate。Hislong,redmoustachedeterminedthecharacterofhisphysiognomy,whichstruckmeaspugnaciousin(strangetosay)aghastlysortofway。 Howlonghadhebeentherelookingatme,ap- praisingmeinmyunguardedday-dreamingstate? Iwouldhavebeenmoredisconcertedif,havingtheclocksetinthetopofthemirror-framerightinfrontofme,Ihadnotnoticedthatitslonghandhadhardlymovedatall。 Icouldnothavebeeninthatcabinmorethantwominutesaltogether。Saythree……Sohecouldnothavebeenwatchingmemorethanamerefractionofaminute,luckily。Still,Ire- grettedtheoccurrence。 ButIshowednothingofitasIroseleisurely(ithadtobeleisurely)andgreetedhimwithperfectfriendliness。 Therewassomethingreluctantandatthesametimeattentiveinhisbearing。HisnamewasBurns。Weleftthecabinandwentroundtheshiptogether。Hisfaceinthefulllightofdayap- pearedverypale,meagre,evenhaggard。Some- howIhadadelicacyastolookingtoooftenathim; hiseyes,onthecontrary,remainedfairlygluedonmyface。Theyweregreenishandhadanex- pectantexpression。 Heansweredallmyquestionsreadilyenough,butmyearseemedtocatchatoneofunwillingness。 Thesecondofficer,withthreeorfourhands,wasbusyforward。ThematementionedhisnameandInoddedtohiminpassing。Hewasveryyoung。 Hestruckmeasratheracub。 Whenwereturnedbelow,Isatdownononeendofadeep,semi-circular,or,rather,semi-ovalsettee,upholsteredinredplush。Itextendedrightacrossthewholeafter-endofthecabin。Mr。Burnsmotionedtositdown,droppedintooneoftheswivel-chairsroundthetable,andkepthiseyesonmeaspersistentlyasever,andwiththatstrangeairasifallthisweremake-believeandheexpectedmetogetup,burstintoalaugh,slaphimontheback,andvanishfromthecabin。 Therewasanoddstressinthesituationwhichbegantomakemeuncomfortable。Itriedtoreactagainstthisvaguefeeling。 \"It’sonlymyinexperience,\"Ithought。 Inthefaceofthatman,severalyears,Ijudged,olderthanmyself,IbecameawareofwhatIhadleftalreadybehindme——myyouth。Andthatwasindeedpoorcomfort。Youthisafinething,amightypower——aslongasonedoesnotthinkofit。IfeltIwasbecomingself-conscious。AlmostagainstmywillIassumedamoodygravity。I said:\"Iseeyouhavekeptherinverygoodorder,Mr。Burns。\" DirectlyIhadutteredthesewordsIaskedmy- selfangrilywhythedeucedidIwanttosaythat? Mr。Burnsinanswerhadonlyblinkedatme。Whatonearthdidhemean? Ifellbackonaquestionwhichhadbeeninmythoughtsforalongtime——themostnaturalques- tiononthelipsofanyseamanwhateverjoiningaship。Ivoicedit(confoundthisself-consciousness) inadegagecheerfultone:\"Isupposeshecantravel——what?\" Nowaquestionlikethismighthavebeenan- swerednormally,eitherinaccentsofapologeticsorroworwithavisiblysuppressedpride,ina\"I don’twanttoboast,butyoushallsee,\"sortoftone。Therearesailors,too,whowouldhavebeenroughlyoutspoken:\"Lazybrute,\"oropenlyde- lighted:\"She’saflyer。\"Twoways,iffourmanners。 ButMr。Burnsfoundanotherway,awayofhisownwhichhad,atallevents,themeritofsavinghisbreath,ifnoother。 Againhedidnotsayanything。Heonlyfrowned。Anditwasanangryfrown。Iwaited。 Nothingmorecame。 \"What’sthematter?……Can’tyoutellafterbeingnearlytwoyearsintheship?\"Iad- dressedhimsharply。 Helookedasstartledforamomentasthoughhehaddiscoveredmypresenceonlythatverymo- ment。Butthispassedoffalmostatonce。Heputonanairofindifference。ButIsupposehethoughtitbettertosaysomething。Hesaidthatashipneeded,justlikeaman,thechancetoshowthebestshecoulddo,andthatthisshiphadneverhadachancesincehehadbeenonboardofher。Notthathecouldremember。Thelastcaptain…… Hepaused。 \"Hashebeensoveryunlucky?\"Iaskedwithfrankincredulity。Mr。Burnsturnedhiseyesawayfromme。No,thelatecaptainwasnotanunluckyman。Onecouldn’tsaythat。Buthehadnotseemedtowanttomakeuseofhisluck。 Mr。Burns——manofenigmaticmoods——madethisstatementwithaninanimatefaceandstaringwilfullyattheruddercasing。Thestatementitselfwasobscurelysuggestive。Iaskedquietly: \"Wheredidhedie?\" \"Inthissaloon。Justwhereyouaresittingnow,\"answeredMr。Burns。 Irepressedasillyimpulsetojumpup;butuponthewholeIwasrelievedtohearthathehadnotdiedinthebedwhichwasnowtobemine。I pointedouttothechiefmatethatwhatIreallywantedtoknowwaswherehehadburiedhislatecaptain。 Mr。Burnssaidthatitwasattheentrancetothegulf。Aroomygrave;asufficientanswer。Butthemate,overcomingvisiblysomethingwithinhim——somethinglikeacuriousreluctancetobelieveinmyadvent(asanirrevocablefact,atanyrate),didnotstopatthat——though,indeed,hemayhavewishedtodoso。 Asacompromisewithhisfeelings,Ibelieve,headdressedhimselfpersistentlytotherudder-casing,sothattomehehadtheappearanceofamantalkinginsolitude,alittleunconsciously,however。 Histalewasthatatsevenbellsintheforenoonwatchhehadallhandsmusteredonthequarter- deckandtoldthemtheyhadbettergodowntosaygood-byetothecaptain。 Thosewords,asifgrudgedtoanintrudingper- sonage,wereenoughformetoevokevividlythatstrangeceremony:Thebare-footed,bare-headedseamencrowdingshylyintothatcabin,asmallmobpressedagainstthatsideboard,uncomfortableratherthanmoved,shirtsopenonsunburntchests,weather-beatenfaces,andallstaringatthedyingmanwiththesamegraveandexpectantexpression。 \"Washeconscious?\"Iasked。 \"Hedidn’tspeak,buthemovedhiseyestolookatthem,\"saidthemate。 Afterwaitingamoment,Mr。Burnsmotionedthecrewtoleavethecabin,buthedetainedthetwoeldestmentostaywiththecaptainwhilehewentondeckwithhissextantto\"takethesun。\"Itwasgettingtowardnoonandhewasanxioustoobtainagoodobservationforlatitude。Whenhereturnedbelowtoputhissextantawayhefoundthatthetwomenhadretreatedoutintothelobby。 Throughtheopendoorhehadaviewofthecaptainlyingeasyagainstthepillows。Hehad\"passedaway\"whileMr。Burnswastakingthisobserva- tion。Asnearnoonaspossible。Hehadhardlychangedhisposition。 Mr。Burnssighed,glancedatmeinquisitively,asmuchastosay,\"Aren’tyougoingyet?\"andthenturnedhisthoughtsfromhisnewcaptainbacktotheold,who,beingdead,hadnoauthority,wasnotinanybody’sway,andwasmucheasiertodealwith。 Mr。Burnsdealtwithhimatsomelength。Hewasapeculiarman——ofsixty-fiveabout——irongray,hard-faced,obstinate,anduncommunicative。Heusedtokeeptheshiploafingatseaforinscrutablereasons。Wouldcomeondeckatnightsometimes,takesomesailoffher,Godonlyknowswhyorwherefore,thengobelow,shuthimselfupinhiscabin,andplayontheviolinforhours——tillday- breakperhaps。Infact,hespentmostofhistimedayornightplayingtheviolin。Thatwaswhenthefittookhim。Veryloud,too。 Itcametothis,thatMr。Burnsmusteredhiscourageonedayandremonstratedearnestlywiththecaptain。Neitherhenorthesecondmatecouldgetawinkofsleepintheirwatchesbelowforthenoise……Andhowcouldtheybeex- pectedtokeepawakewhileonduty?Hepleaded。 Theanswerofthatsternmanwasthatifheandthesecondmatedidn’tlikethenoise,theywerewel- cometopackuptheirtrapsandwalkovertheside。 Whenthisalternativewasofferedtheshiphap- penedtobe600milesfromthenearestland。 Mr。Burnsatthispointlookedatmewithanairofcuriosity。Ibegantothinkthatmypredecessorwasaremarkablypeculiaroldman。 ButIhadtohearstrangerthingsyet。Itcameoutthatthisstern,grim,wind-tanned,rough,sea- salted,taciturnsailorofsixty-fivewasnotonlyanartist,butaloveraswell。InHaiphong,whentheygotthereafteracourseofmostunprofitableperegrinations(duringwhichtheshipwasnearlylosttwice),hegothimself,inMr。Burns’ownwords,\"mixedup\"withsomewoman。Mr。Burnshadhadnopersonalknowledgeofthataffair,butpositiveevidenceofitexistedintheshapeofaphotographtakeninHaiphong。Mr。Burnsfounditinoneofthedrawersinthecaptain’sroom。 InduecourseI,too,sawthatamazinghumandocument(Ieventhrewitoverboardlater)。 Therehesat,withhishandsreposingonhisknees,bald,squat,gray,bristly,recallingawildboarsomehow;andbyhissidetoweredanawfulmature,whitefemalewithrapaciousnostrilsandacheaplyill-omenedstareinherenormouseyes。Shewasdisguisedinsomesemi-oriental,vulgar,fancycostume。Sheresembledalow-classmediumoroneofthosewomenwhotellfortunesbycardsforhalfacrown。Andyetshewasstriking。Apro- fessionalsorceressfromtheslums。Itwasincom- prehensible。Therewassomethingawfulinthethoughtthatshewasthelastreflectionoftheworldofpassionforthefiercesoulwhichseemedtolookatoneoutofthesardonicallysavagefaceofthatoldseaman。However,Inoticedthatshewasholdingsomemusicalinstrument——guitarormandoline—— inherhand。Perhapsthatwasthesecretofhersortilege。 ForMr。Burnsthatphotographexplainedwhytheunloadedshiphadkeptswelteringatanchorforthreeweeksinapestilentialhotharbourwith- outair。Theylaythereandgasped。Thecap- tain,appearingnowandthenonshortvisits,mumbledtoMr。Burnsunlikelytalesaboutsomelettershewaswaitingfor。 Suddenly,aftervanishingforaweek,hecameonboardinthemiddleofthenightandtooktheshipouttoseawiththefirstbreakofdawn。Daylightshowedhimlookingwildandill。Themeregettingclearofthelandtooktwodays,andsomehoworothertheybumpedslightlyonareef。However,noleakdeveloped,andthecaptain,growling\"nomatter,\"informedMr。BurnsthathehadmadeuphismindtotaketheshiptoHong-Konganddry- dockherthere。 AtthisMr。Burnswasplungedintodespair。Forindeed,tobeatuptoHong-Kongagainstafiercemonsoon,withashipnotsufficientlyballastedandwithhersupplyofwaternotcompleted,wasanin- saneproject。 Butthecaptaingrowledperemptorily,\"Stickheratit,\"andMr。Burns,dismayedandenraged,stuckheratit,andkeptheratit,blowingawaysails,strainingthespars,exhaustingthecrew—— nearlymaddenedbytheabsoluteconvictionthattheattemptwasimpossibleandwasboundtoendinsomecatastrophe。 Meantimethecaptain,shutupinhiscabinandwedgedinacornerofhissetteeagainstthecrazyboundingoftheship,playedtheviolin——or,atanyrate,madecontinuousnoiseonit。 Whenheappearedondeckhewouldnotspeakandnotalwaysanswerwhenspokento。Itwasobviousthathewasillinsomemysteriousmanner,andbeginningtobreakup。 Asthedayswentbythesoundsoftheviolinbe- camelessandlessloud,tillatlastonlyafeeblescratchingwouldmeetMr。Burns’earashestoodinthesaloonlisteningoutsidethedoorofthecap- tain’sstate-room。 Oneafternooninperfectdesperationheburstintothatroomandmadesuchascene,tearinghishairandshoutingsuchhorridimprecationsthathecowedthecontemptuousspiritofthesickman。 Thewater-tankswerelow,theyhadnotgainedfiftymilesinafortnight。ShewouldneverreachHong- Kong。 Itwaslikefightingdesperatelytowarddestruc- tionfortheshipandthemen。Thiswasevidentwithoutargument。Mr。Burns,losingallrestraint,puthisfaceclosetohiscaptain’sandfairlyyelled:\"You,sir,aregoingoutoftheworld。ButIcan’twaittillyouaredeadbeforeIputthehelmup。Youmustdoityourself。Youmustdoitnow!\" Themanonthecouchsnarledincontempt。 \"SoIamgoingoutoftheworld——amI?\" \"Yes,sir——youhaven’tmanydaysleftinit,\" saidMr。Burnscalmingdown。\"Onecanseeitbyyourface。\" \"Myface,eh?……Well,putupthehelmandbedamnedtoyou。\" Burnsflewondeck,gottheshipbeforethewind,thencamedownagaincomposed,butresolute。 \"I’veshapedacourseforPuloCondor,sir,\"hesaid。\"Whenwemakeit,ifyouarestillwithus,you’lltellmeintowhatportyouwishmetotaketheshipandI’lldoit。\" Theoldmangavehimalookofsavagespite,andsaidthoseatrociouswordsindeadly,slowtones。 \"IfIhadmywish,neithertheshipnoranyofyouwouldeverreachaport。AndIhopeyouwon’t。\" Mr。Burnswasprofoundlyshocked。Ibelievehewaspositivelyfrightenedatthetime。Itseems,however,thathemanagedtoproducesuchaneffectivelaughthatitwastheoldman’sturntobefrightened。Heshrankwithinhimselfandturnedhisbackonhim。 \"Andhisheadwasnotgonethen,\"Mr。Burnsassuredmeexcitedly。\"Hemeanteverywordofit。\" \"Suchwaspracticallythelatecaptain’slastspeech。Noconnectedsentencepassedhislipsafterward。Thatnightheusedthelastofhisstrengthtothrowhisfiddleovertheside。Noonehadactuallyseenhimintheact,butafterhisdeathMr。Burnscouldn’tfindthethinganywhere。 Theemptycasewasverymuchinevidence,butthefiddlewasclearlynotintheship。Andwhereelsecouldithavegonetobutoverboard?\" \"Threwhisviolinoverboard!\"Iexclaimed。 \"Hedid,\"criedMr。Burnsexcitedly。\"Andit’smybeliefhewouldhavetriedtotaketheshipdownwithhimifithadbeeninhumanpower。Henevermeanthertoseehomeagain。Hewouldn’twritetohisowners,heneverwrotetohisoldwife,either——hewasn’tgoingto。Hehadmadeuphismindtocutadriftfromeverything。That’swhatitwas。Hedidn’tcareforbusiness,orfreights,orformakingapassage——oranything。Hemeanttohavegonewanderingabouttheworldtillhelostherwithallhands。\" Mr。Burnslookedlikeamanwhohadescapedgreatdanger。Foralittlehewouldhaveex- claimed:\"Ifithadn’tbeenforme!\"Andthetransparentinnocenceofhisindignanteyeswasunderlinedquaintlybythearrogantpairofmoustacheswhichheproceededtotwist,andasifextend,horizontally。 ImighthavesmiledifIhadnotbeenbusywithmyownsensations,whichwerenotthoseofMr。 Burns。Iwasalreadythemanincommand。Mysensationscouldnotbelikethoseofanyothermanonboard。InthatcommunityIstood,likeakinginhiscountry,inaclassallbymyself。Imeananhereditaryking,notamereelectedheadofastate。 IwasbroughttheretorulebyanagencyasremotefromthepeopleandasinscrutablealmosttothemastheGraceofGod。 Andlikeamemberofadynasty,feelingasemi- mysticalbondwiththedead,Iwasprofoundlyshockedbymyimmediatepredecessor。 Thatmanhadbeeninallessentialsbuthisagejustsuchanothermanasmyself。Yettheendofhislifewasacompleteactoftreason,thebetrayalofatraditionwhichseemedtomeasimperativeasanyguideonearthcouldbe。Itappearedthatevenatseaamancouldbecomethevictimofevilspirits。Ifeltonmyfacethebreathofunknownpowersthatshapeourdestinies。 NottoletthesilencelasttoolongIaskedMr。 Burnsifhehadwrittentohiscaptain’swife。Heshookhishead。Hehadwrittentonobody。 Inamomenthebecamesombre。Heneverthoughtofwriting。IttookhimallhistimetowatchincessantlytheloadingoftheshipbyarascallyChinesestevedore。InthisMr。Burnsgavemethefirstglimpseoftherealchiefmate’ssoulwhichdweltuneasilyinhisbody。 Hemused,thenhastenedonwithgloomyforce。 \"Yes!Thecaptaindiedasnearnoonaspos- sible。Ilookedthroughhispapersintheafternoon。 IreadtheserviceoverhimatsunsetandthenI stucktheship’sheadnorthandbroughtherinhere。I——brought——her——in。\" Hestruckthetablewithhisfist。 \"Shewouldhardlyhavecomeinbyherself,\"I observed。\"Butwhydidn’tyoumakeforSinga- poreinstead?\" Hiseyeswavered。\"Thenearestport,\"hemutteredsullenly。 Ihadframedthequestioninperfectinnocence,buthisanswer(thedifferenceindistancewasin- significant)andhismannerofferedmeacluetothesimpletruth。Hetooktheshiptoaportwhereheexpectedtobeconfirmedinhistemporarycom- mandfromlackofaqualifiedmastertoputoverhishead。WhereasSingapore,hesurmisedjustly,wouldbefullofqualifiedmen。ButhisnaivereasoningforgottotakeintoaccountthetelegraphcablereposingonthebottomoftheveryGulfupwhichhehadturnedthatshipwhichheimaginedhimselftohavesavedfromdestruction。Hencethebitterflavourofourinterview。Itasteditmoreandmoredistinctly——anditwaslessandlesstomytaste。 \"Lookhere,Mr。Burns,\"Ibeganveryfirmly。 \"YoumayaswellunderstandthatIdidnotrunafterthiscommand。Itwaspushedinmyway。 I’veacceptedit。Iamheretotaketheshiphomefirstofall,andyoumaybesurethatIshallseetoitthateveryoneofyouonboardheredoeshisdutytothatend。ThisisallIhavetosay——forthepresent。\" Hewasonhisfeetbythistime,butinsteadoftakinghisdismissalheremainedwithtrembling,indignantlips,andlookingatmehardasthough,really,afterthis,therewasnothingformetodoincommondecencybuttovanishfromhisoutragedsight。Likeallverysimpleemotionalstatesthiswasmoving。Ifeltsorryforhim——almostsympa- thetic,till(seeingthatIdidnotvanish)hespokeinatoneofforcedrestraint。 \"IfIhadn’tawifeandachildathomeyoumaybesure,sir,Iwouldhaveaskedyoutoletmegotheveryminuteyoucameonboard。\" Iansweredhimwithamatter-of-coursecalmnessasthoughsomeremotethirdpersonwereinquestion。 \"AndI,Mr。Burns,wouldnothaveletyougo。 Youhavesignedtheship’sarticlesaschiefofficer,andtilltheyareterminatedatthefinalportofdischargeIshallexpectyoutoattendtoyourdutyandgivemethebenefitofyourexperiencetothebestofyourability。\" Stonyincredulitylingeredinhiseyes:butitbrokedownbeforemyfriendlyattitude。Withaslightupwardtossofhisarms(Igottoknowthatgesturewellafterward)heboltedoutofthecabin。 Wemighthavesavedourselvesthatlittlepas- sageofharmlesssparring。BeforemanydayshadelapseditwasMr。Burnswhowaspleadingwithmeanxiouslynottoleavehimbehind;whileIcouldonlyreturnhimbutdoubtfulanswers。Thewholethingtookonasomewhattragiccomplexion。 Andthishorribleproblemwasonlyanextrane- ousepisode,amerecomplicationinthegeneralproblemofhowtogetthatship——whichwasminewithherappurtenancesandhermen,withherbodyandherspiritnowslumberinginthatpestilentialriver——howtogetherouttosea。 Mr。Burns,whilestillactingcaptain,hadhastenedtosignacharter-partywhichinanidealworldwithoutguilewouldhavebeenanexcellentdocument。DirectlyIranmyeyeoveritIfore- sawtroubleaheadunlessthepeopleoftheotherpartwerequiteexceptionallyfair-mindedandopentoargument。 Mr。Burns,towhomIimpartedmyfears,chosetotakegreatumbrageatthem。Helookedatmewiththatusualincredulousstare,andsaidbitterly: \"Isuppose,sir,youwanttomakeoutI’veactedlikeafool?\" Itoldhim,withmysystematickindlinesswhichalwaysseemedtoaugmenthissurprise,thatIdidnotwanttomakeoutanything。Iwouldleavethattothefuture。 And,sureenough,thefuturebroughtinalotoftrouble。ThereweredayswhenIusedtoremem- berCaptainGileswithnothingshortofabhor- rence。Hisconfoundedacutenesshadletmeinforthisjob;whilehisprophecythatI\"wouldhavemyhandsfull\"comingtrue,madeitappearasifdoneonpurposetoplayaneviljokeonmyyounginnocence。 Yes。Ihadmyhandsfullofcomplicationswhichweremostvaluableas\"experience。\"Peoplehaveagreatopinionoftheadvantagesofexperience。 Butinthisconnectionexperiencemeansalwayssomethingdisagreeableasopposedtothecharmandinnocenceofillusions。 ImustsayIwaslosingminerapidly。ButontheseinstructivecomplicationsImustnotenlargemorethantosaythattheycouldallberesumedintheoneword:Delay。 Amankindwhichhasinventedtheproverb,\"Timeismoney,\"willunderstandmyvexation。