第3章

类别:其他 作者:Henry Lawson字数:26227更新时间:19/01/03 13:55:53
Thesugar-bag,theonion-basket,thepotato-bagandthetea-chestbeganto\"godown\"alarmingly,andanoccasionalpoundofcandles,apigeon,amutton-bird(pluckedandreadyforSunday’scooking),andotherlittletrifleswent,also。Augustcouldn’tunderstandit,andtheteacherbelievedher,forfalsehoodanddeceitareforeigntothesimplenaturesofthemodernMaoris。Therewerenocats; butnoscoreofordinarycatscouldhavegivencolourtothecattheory,haditbeenraisedinthiscase。ThebreathofAugustadvertisedonionsmorethanonce,butnohumanstomachcouldhaveaccountedforthequantity。 Shesurelycouldnothaveeatentheotherthingsraw——andshehadnoopportunitiesforprivatecooking,asfarastheteacherandhiswifecouldsee。TheotherMaoriswereoutofthequestion; theywereallstrictlyhonest。 Theftsandannoyancesoftheabovedescriptionwerecreditedtothe\"swaggies\" whoinfestedtheroads,andhadaverybadnamedownthatway; sotheteacherloadedhisgun,andtoldAugusttorousehimatonce,ifsheheardasoundinthenight。Shesaidshewould; butaheavy-weight\"swaggie\"couldhavecomeinandsatonherandhadasmokewithoutwakingher。 Shecouldn’tbetrustedtogoamessage。She’dtakefromthreetosixhours,andcomebackwithanexcusethatsoundedgenuinefromitsverysimplicity。 Anothersisterofherslayillinanisolatedhut,aloneanduncaredfor,exceptbytheteacher’swife,andoccasionallybyapoorpaoutcastwhohadnegrobloodinherveins,andaloveforawhiteloafer。 Godhelpher!Allofwhichsoundsstrange,consideringthatMaorisareverykindtoeachother。TheschoolmistresssentAugustonenighttostaywiththesickMaoriwomanandhelpherasshecould,andgaveherstrictinstructionstocometothecottagefirstthinginthemorning,andtellherhowthesickwomanwas。 Augustturnedupatlunch-timenextday。Theteachergaveherherfirstlecture,andsaidplainlythathewasn’ttobetakenforafool; thenhesteppedasidetogetcool,and,whenhereturned,thegirlwassobbingasifherheartwouldbreak,andthewifecomfortingher。 Shehadbeenupallnight,poorgirl,andwasthoroughlywornout。 Somehowtheteacherdidn’tfeeluncomfortableaboutit。 Hewentdowntothewhare。Augusthadnottouchedadishclothorbroom。 Shehadslept,asshealwaysdid,likeapig,allnight,whilehersisterlayandtossedinagony;inthemorningsheateeverythingtherewastoeatinthehouse(which,itseemed,wastheMaoriwayofshowingsympathyinsicknessandtrouble),afterwhichshebroodedbythefiretillthechildren,runningoutofschool,announcedtheteacher’slunchhour。 Augustbracedupagainforalittlewhile。ThemasterthoughtofthetroubletheyhadwithAyacanorain\"WestwardHo\",andwascomforted,andtackledhisromanceagain。Thentheschoolmistressfellsickandthingswentwrong。Thegrocerieswentdownfasterthanever,andthehousegotverydirty,andbegantohaveanativesmellaboutit。 Augustgrewfat,andlazy,anddirty,andlessreliableonwashing-days,orwhentherewasanythingspecialtodointhehouse。 \"Thesavagebloodisstrong,\"thoughttheteacher,\"andsheisbeginningtolongforherownpeopleandfreeunconventionallife。\" Onemorning——onawashing-day,too,asithappened——shecalledout,beforetheteacherandhiswifewereup,thattheMaoriswhosuppliedthemwithmilkwereaway,andshehadpromisedtogoupandmilkthecowandbringthemilkdown。Theteachergaveherpermission。Oneofthescholarsusuallybroughtthemilkearly。 LunchtimecameandnoAugust,nomilk——strangestofall,onlyhalftheschoolchildren。Theteacherputonhishat,andwentuptothepaoncemore。HefoundAugustsquattedinthemidstofacircleofrelations。Shewasentertainingthemwithoneofaseriesofidealisticsketchesoftheteacher’sdomesticlife,inwhichsheshowedaveryvividimagination,andexhibitedanunaccountablesavagesortofpessimism。Herintervalsofabsencehadbeenoccupiedinthiswayfromthefirst。Theastoundingslandersshehadcirculatedconcerningtheteacher’sprivatelifecameback,bitbybit,tohisearsforayearafterwards,andhercharactersketchesofpreviousteachers,andherownrelations——forshesparednobody——wouldhaveearnedawhitewomanalongandwell-meritedtermofimprisonmentforcriminallibel。 Shehadcunningly,bystraightforwardandunscrupulouslying,prejudicedtheprincipalmotherandbosswomanofthepaagainsttheteacherandhiswife;asanaturalresultofwhichtheoldlady,who,liketherest,wasveryignorantandungrateful,\"turnednasty\"andkeptthechildrenfromschool。Theteacherlosthistemper,sothechildrenwereroundedupandhurrieddowntoschoolimmediately;withthemcameAugustandheraunt,withallegedexplanationsandexcuses,andashell-fish。 Theauntandsisterssaidthey’dhavenothingtodowithAugust。 Theydidn’twantherandwouldn’thaveher。Theteachersaidthat,underthosecircumstances,she’dbettergoanddrownherself; soshewenthomewiththem。 Thewholebusinesshadbeenaplotbyhernearestrelations。 Theygotridofthetroubleandexpenseofkeepingher,andthebotherofborrowinginperson,wheneverinneedoftriflesinthegroceryline。Borrowingrecommencedwithherdismissal; buttheteacherputafullstoptoit,asfarashewasconcerned。 ThenAugust,eggedonbyheraunt,sentablackguardlylettertotheteacher’swife;thesicksister,bytheway,whohadbeennursedandsuppliedwithfoodbyherallalong,wasinit,andsaidshewasgladAugustsenttheletter,anditservedtheschoolmistressright。 Theteacherwentuptothepaoncemore;anhourlater,Augustinperson,accompanied,asusual,byarelationortwo,deliveredatthecottageanabjectapologyinwriting,thecompositionofwhichwouldhavediscouragedthemostenthusiasticadvocateofhighereducationforthelowerclasses。 Thenvariouspettyannoyancesweretried。Theteacherisfirmlyconvincedthatcertainanimal-likesoundsroundthehouseatnightwereduetoAugust’stryingtofindoutwhetherhiswifewasaslikelytobehauntedastheMaoriswere。Hedidn’tdreamofsuchathingatthetime,forhedidnotbelievethatoneofthemhadtheplucktoventureoutafterdark。Butsavagesuperstitionmustgivewaytosavagehate。 Thegirl’slast\"try-on\"wastocomedowntotheschoolfence,andostentatiouslysharpenatable-knifeonthewires,whileshescowledmurderouslyinthedirectionoftheschoolmistress,whowashangingoutherwashing。Augustlooked,inherdark,bushy,Maorihair,athoroughlywildsavage。Herfatherhadmurderedhermotherunderparticularlybrutalcircumstances,andthedaughtertookafterherfather。 Theteachercalledherandsaid:\"Now,lookhere,mylady,thebestthingyoucandoistodropthatnonsenseatonce\" (shehaddroppedtheknifeinthefernsbehindher),\"forwe’rethewrongsortofpeopletotryitonwith。 Nowyougetoutofthisandtellyouraunt——she’ssneakingthereintheflax——whatItellyou,andthatshe’dbetterclearoutofthisquick,orI’llhaveapolicemanoutandtakethewholegangintotowninanhour。 Nowbeoff,andshutthatgatebehindyou,carefully,andfastenit。\" Shedid,andwent。 TheworstofitwasthattheAugustromancecopywasuseless。HerlieswereevenlessreliableandpicturesquethanthecommonJonesAlleyhaglie。 Thentheteacherthoughtofthesoftfoolhe’dbeen,andthatmadehimwild。 Helookedlikeafool,andwasonetoagreatextent,butitwasn’tgoodpolicytotakehimforone。 Strangetosay,heandothershadreasontobelievethatAugustrespectedhim,andlikedhimratherthanotherwise;butshehatedhiswife,whohadbeenkindtoher,asonlyasavagecanhate。Theyoungerpupilstoldtheteacher,cheerfullyandconfidently,thatAugustsaidshe’dcutMrs。Lorrens’throatthefirstchanceshegot。Nextweektheauntsentdowntoaskiftheteachercouldsellherabarofsoap,andsentthesameoldshilling;hewastiredofseeingitstuckoutinfrontofhim,sohetookit,putitinhispocket,andsentthesoap。 Thismusthavediscouragedthem,fortheborrowingindustrypeteredout。 Hesawtheauntlateron,andshetoldhim,cheerfully,thatAugustwasgoingtolivewithahalf-casteinacertainhouseintown。 PoorAugust!Forshewasonlyatoolafterall。Her\"romance\" wasbrieflyasfollows:——Shewent,peroff-handMaoriarrangement,as`housekeeper’inthehutofalabourerataneighbouringsaw-mill。 Shestayedthreemonths,forawonder;attheexpirationofwhichtimesheputonherhatandexplainedthatshewastiredofstoppingthere,andwasgoinghome。Hesaid,`Allright,Sarah,waitawhileandI’lltakeyouhome。’Atthedoorofheraunt’shousehesaid,`Well,good-bye,Sarah,’andshesaid,inherbroodingway,`Good-bye,Jim。’ Andthatwasall。 AsthelastapparentresultofAugust’smischief-making,herbrotherorsomeoneoneeveningrodeuptothecottage,drunkandinclinedtobluster。Hewasaccompaniedbyafriend,alsodrunk,whocametoseethefun,andwasreadytousehisinfluenceonthewinningside。Theteacherwentinside,broughtouthisgun,andslippedtwocartridgesin。\"I’vehadenoughofthis,\"hesaid。 \"Nowthen,beoff,youinsolentblackguards,orI’llshootyoulikerabbits。 Go!\"andhesnappedhisjawandthebreechofhisguntogether。 Astheyrodeoff,theoldlocalhawkhappenedtosoarcloseoveradeadlambinthefernatthecornerofthegarden,andtheteacher,whohadbeen\"laying\"forhimalongtime,letflybothbarrelsathim,withoutthinking。Whenheturned,therewasonlyacloudofdustdownthetrack…… Theteachertaughtthatschoolforthreeyearsthereafter,withoutahitch。 ButhewentnomoreonUniversalBrotherhoodlines。And,foryearsafterhehadgone,hisnamewasspokenofwithgreatrespectbytheMaoris。 NewYear’sNightItwasdarkenoughforanythinginDeadMan’sGap——around,warm,closedarkness,inwhichretreatingsoundsseemedtobecutoffsuddenlyatadistanceofahundredyardsorso,insteadofgrowingfaintandfainter,anddyingaway,tostriketheearonceortwiceagain——andafterminutes,itmightseem——withstartlingdistinctness,beforebeingfinallylostinthedistance,asitisonclear,frostynights。 Sowiththesoundsofhorses’hoofs,stumblingontheroughbridle-trackthroughthe\"saddle\",theclatterofhoof-clippedstonesandscrapeofgraveldownthehidden\"siding\",andthelowsoundofmen’svoices,blurredandspeakinginmonosyllablesandatintervalsitseemed,andinhushed,awedtones,asthoughtheycarriedacorpse。 Topracticaleyes,grownusedtosuchadarkness,andatthenearestpoint,thepassingblurrswouldhavesuggestedtworidersonbushhacksleadingathirdwithanemptysaddleonitsback——alady’sor\"side-saddle\",ifonecouldhavedistinguishedthehorns。Theymayhavestruckasofttrackorlevel,orroundedthebuttressofthehillhigherup,butbeforetheyhadtimetoreachorroundthefootofthespur,blurs,whispers,stumbleandclatterofhoofs,jingleofbridlerings,andtheoccasionalclanktogetherofstirrupirons,seemedshutoffassuddenlyandcompletelyasthoughagreatsound-proofdoorhadswungtobehindthem。 Itwasdarkenoughontheglaringestofdaysdowninthelonelyhollowor\"pocket\",betweentwospurs,attheheadofablindgullybehindMountBuckaroo,wheretherewasamoreorlessdustypatch,barelydefinedeveninbroaddaylightbyaspiderydog-leggedfenceonthreesides,andathin\"two-rail\"(dignifiedwiththeadjective\"split-rail\"——thoughrailsandpostsweremostlyofsaplingssplitinhalves)runningalongthefrontage。Inaboutthemiddleofitalittleslabhut,overshadowedbyabigstringy-barkshed,waspointedoutasJohnnyMears’sFarm。 \"Blackas——ascharcoal,\"saidJohnnyMears。Hehadneverseencoal,andwasacautiousman,whoseideascameslowly。 Hestooped,closebythefence,withhishandsonhisknees,to\"sky\"theloomofhisbigshedandsogethisbearings。 Hehadbeentohavealookatthepennedcalves,andseethatallslip-railswereupandpegged,forthewordsofJohnMearsjunior,especiallywhendeliveredrapidlyandshrillyandininjuredtones,werenottoberelieduponinthesematters。 \"It’shotenoughtomeltthebellyoutofmyfiddle,\"saidJohnnyMearstohiswife,whosatonathree-leggedstoolbytheroughtableinthelittlewhitewashed\"end-room\",puttingapatchofpatchesovertheseatofapairofmoleskinknickerbockers。Helithispipe,movedastooltothesideofthegreatemptyfireplace,whereitlookedcooler——mighthavebeencooleronaccountofapossibledraughtsuggestedbythepresenceofthechimney,andwhere,therefore,hefeltabreathcooler。Hetookhisfiddlefromaconvenientshelf,tuneditslowlyandcarefully,holdinghispipe(inhismouth)wellupandtooneside,asifthefiddlewereaninquisitiveandrestlessbaby。 Heplayed\"LittleDropso’Brandy\"threetimes,rightthrough,withoutvariations,blinkingsolemnlythewhile;thenheputtheviolincarefullybackinitsbox,andstartedtocutupanotherpipeful。 \"Youshouldhavegone,Johnny,\"saidthehaggardlittlewoman。 \"Rackin’thehorseoutanightlikethis,\"retortedJohnny,\"andstartin’ploughin’to-morrow。Itain’tworthwhile。 Letthemcomeformeiftheywantme。Danceonanightlikethis! Why!they’lldancein————\" \"Butyoupromised。Itwon’tdoyounogood,Johnny。\" \"Itwon’tdomenoharm。\" Thelittlewomanwentonstitching。 \"It’ssmotherin’hot,\"saidJohnny,withanimpatientoath。 \"Idon’tknowwhetherI’llturnin,orturnout,undertheshedto-night。 It’stood————dhottoroostindoors。\" Shebentherheadloweroverthepatch。Onesmokedandtheotherstitchedinsilencefortwentyminutesorso,duringwhichtimeJohnnymightbesupposedtohavebeendeliberatinglistlesslyastowhetherhe’dcampoutonaccountoftheheat,orturnin。 Buthebrokethesilencewithacloutatamosquitoonthenapeofhisneck,andabadword。 \"Iwishyouwouldn’tswearsomuch,Johnny,\"shesaidwearily—— \"atleastnotto-night。\" Helookedatherblankly。 \"Why——whyto-night?What’sthematterwithyouto-night,Mary? What’sto-nightmorethananyothernighttoyou?Iseenoharm—— can’tamanswearwhenamosquitostickshim?\" \"I——Iwasonlythinkingoftheboys,Johnny。\" \"Theboys!Why,they’rebothonthehayintheshed。\"Hestaredatheragain,shifteduneasily,crossedtheotherlegtightly,frowned,blinked,andreachedforthematches。\"Youlookabitoff-colour,Mary。 It’stheheatthatmakesusallabitrattyattimes。 Betterputthatbyandhaveaswillo’oatmealandwater,andturnin。\" \"It’stoohottogotobed。Icouldn’tsleep。I’mallright。 I’ll——I’lljustfinishthis。Justreachmeadrinkfromthewater-bag—— thepannikin’sonthehobthere,byyourboot。\" Hescratchedhisheadhelplessly,andreachedforthedrink。 Whenhesatdownagain,hefeltstrangelyrestless。\"Likeahenthatdidn’tknowwheretolay,\"heputit。Hecouldn’tsettledownorkeepstill,anddidn’tseemtoenjoyhispipesomehow。Herubbedhisheadagain。 \"There’sathunderstormcomin’,\"hesaid。\"That’swhatitis; andthesooneritcomesthebetter。\" Hewenttothebackdoor,andstaredattheblacknesstotheeast,and,sureenough,lightningwasblinkingthere。 \"It’scoming,sureenough;justhangoutandkeepcoolforanotherhour,andyou’llfeelthedifference。\" Hesatdownagainonthethree-leggedstool,foldedhisarms,withhiselbowsonhisknees,drewalongbreath,andblinkedattheclayfloorforawhile; thenhetwistedthestoolroundononeleg,untilhefacedtheold-fashionedspiredwoodenclock(thebrassdiscofthependulummovingghost-likethroughascarredandscratchedmarinescene——MargateinEngland——ontheglassthatcoveredthelowerhalf) thatstoodaloneontheslabshelfoverthefireplace。Thehandsindicatedhalf-pasttwo,andJohnny,whohadstudiedthatclockandcould\"hitthetimenighenoughbyit,\"afterknittinghisbrowsandblinkingatthedialforafullminutebyitsownhand,decided\"thatitmustbegettingontowardnineo’clock。\" Itmusthavebeentheheat。Johnnystoodup,rakinghishair,turnedtothedoorandbackagain,andthen,afteranimpatientgesture,tookuphisfiddleandraisedittohisshoulder。 Thenthequeerthinghappened。Hesaidafterwards,underconditionsfavourabletosuchsentimentalconfidence,thatacoldhandseemedtotakeholdofthebow,throughhis,and——anyway,beforeheknewwhathewasabouthehadplayedthefirstbarsof\"WhenFirstIMetSweetPeggy\",atunehehadplayedoften,twentyyearsbefore,inhiscourtingdays,andhadneverhappenedtoplaysince。Hesaweditrightthrough(thecoldhandleftafterthefirstbarortwo)standingup; thenstillstoodwithfiddleandbowtremblinginhishands,withthequeerfeelingstillonhim,andarushofoldthoughtsgoingthroughhishead,allofwhichhesetdownafterwardstotheeffectoftheheat。Heputthefiddleawayhastily,damningthebridgeofitatthesametimeinloudbuthurriedtones,withtheideaofcoveringanyeccentricitywhichthewifemighthavenoticedinhisactions。\"Must’a’gotatoucho’sun,\"hemutteredtohimself。 Hesatdown,fumbledwithknife,pipe,andtobacco,andpresentlystoleafurtiveglanceoverhisshoulderathiswife。 Thewashed-outlittlewomanwasstillsewing,butstitchingblindly,forgreattearswererollingdownherworncheeks。 Johnny,white-facedonaccountoftheheat,stoodclosebehindher,onehandonhershoulderandtheotherclenchedonthetable; buttheclenchedhandshookasbadlyasthelooseone。 \"GoodGod!Whatisthematter,Mary?You’resick!\"(Theyhadhadlittleornoexperienceofillness。)\"Tellme,Mary——comenow! Hastheboysbeenuptoanything?\" \"No,Johnny;it’snotthat。\" \"Whatisitthen?You’retakensick!Whathaveyoubeendoingwithyourself? Itmightbefever。Holdupaminute。YouwaitherequietwhileIroostouttheboysandsend’emforthedoctorandsomeone————\" \"No!no!I’mnotsick,John。It’sonlyaturn。I’llbeallrightinaminute。\" Heshiftedhishandtoherhead,whichshedroppedsuddenly,withalife-wearysigh,againsthisside。 \"Nowthen!\"criedJohnny,wildly,\"don’tyoufaintorgointodisterricks,Mary!It’llupsettheboys;thinkoftheboys! It’sonlytheheat——you’reonlytakin’queer。\" \"It’snotthat;yououghttoknowmebetterthanthat。Itwas——I——Johnny,Iwasonlythinking——we’vebeenmarriedtwentyyearsto-night——an’——it’sNewYear’sNight!\" \"AndI’veneverthoughtofit!\"saidJohnny(intheafterwards)。 \"ShowswhataGod-forgottenselectionwillmakeofaman。 She’dthoughtofitallthetime,andwaswaitingforittostrikeme。 Why!I’dagreedtogoandplayatadarnceatOldPipeclaySchool-houseallnight——thatverynight——andleaveherathomebecauseshehadn’taskedtocome;anditneverstruckmetoaskher——athomebyherselfinthathole——fortwenty-fivebob。AndIonlystoppedathomebecauseI’dgotthehump,andknewthey’dwantmebadattheschool。\" Theysatclosetogetheronthelongstoolbythetable,shyandawkwardatfirst;andsheclungtohimatopeningofthunder,andtheystartedapartguiltilywhenthefirstgreatdropssoundedlikefootstepsonthegraveloutside,justasthey’ddoneonenight-timebefore——twentyyearsbefore。 Ifitwasdarkbefore,itwasblacknow。Theedgeoftheawfulstorm-cloudrushedupandundertheoriginaldarknesslikethebest\"drop\" black-brushedoverthecheap\"lamp\"variety,turningitgreybycontrast。 Thedelugelastedonlyaquarterofanhour;butitclearedthenight,anddiditswork。Therewashailbeforeit,too——bigasemueggs,theboyssaid——thatlayfeetdeepintheolddiggers’holesonPipeclayfordaysafterwards——weekssomesaid。 Thetwosweetheartsoftwentyyearsagoandto-nightwatchedtheretreatofthestorm,and,seeingMountBuckaroostandingclear,theywenttothebackdoor,whichopenedoppositetheendoftheshed,andsawtotheeastagloriousarchofsteel-blue,starrysky,withthedistantpeaksshowingclearandblueawaybackunderthefar-awaystarsinthedepthofit。 Theylingeredawhile——armsroundeachother’swaists—— beforeshecalledtheboys,justastheyhaddonethistimeofnighttwentyyearsago,aftertheboys’grandmotherhadcalledher。 \"Awlright,mother!\"bawledbacktheboys,withunfilialindependenceofAustralianyouth。\"We’reawlright!We’llbeindirectly! Wasn’titapelterer,mother?\" Theywentinandsatdownagain。Theembarrassmentbegantowearoff。 \"We’llgetoutofthis,Mary,\"saidJohnny。\"I’lltakeMason’sofferforthecattleandthings,andtakethatjobofDawson’s,bossornoboss\" ——(Johnny’sbadluckwasduetohisinabilityinthepastto\"geton\"withanybossforanyreasonablelengthoftime)—— \"Icangettheboyson,too。They’redoingnogoodhere,andgrowingup。Itain’tdoingjusticetothem;and,what’smore,thislifeiskillin’you,Mary。Thatsettlesit!Iwasblind。 Letthejumpt-upselectiongo!It’smakingawall-eyedbullockofme,Mary—— adry-rottedragofawall-eyedbullocklikeJimmyNowlett’soldStrawberry。 Andyou’llliveintownlikealady。\" \"Somebodycoming!\"yelledtheboys。 Therewasaclatterofsliprailshurriedlythrowndown,andclippedbyhorses’hoofs。 \"Insoidethere!Isthatyou,Johnny?\" \"Yes!\"(\"Iknewthey’dcomeforyou,\"saidMrs。MearstoJohnny。) \"You’llhavetocome,Johnny。There’snogetoutofit。 Here’sJimMasonwithme,andwe’vegotorderstostunyouandpackyouifyoushowfight。TheblessedfiddlerfromMudgeedidn’tturnup。 DaveReganbursthisconcertina,andthey’reinafix。\" \"ButIcan’tleavethemissus。\" \"That’sallright。We’vegottheschoolmissus’smareandside-saddle。 Shesaysyououghttobejollywellashamedofyourself,JohnnyMears,fornotbringingyourwifeonNewYear’sNight。Andsoyouought!\" Johnnydidnotlookshame-faced,forreasonsunknowntothem。 \"Theboyscouldn’tfindthehorses,\"putinMrs。Mears。 \"Johnnywasjustgoingdownthegullyagain。\" Hegaveheragratefullook,andfeltastrange,newthrillofadmirationforhiswife。 \"And——there’sabottleofthebestputbyforyou,Johnny,\" addedPatMcDurmer,mistakingJohnny’ssilence;\"andwe’llcallitthirtybob!\"(Johnny’sideaswerecomingslowlyagain,aftertherecentrush。)\"Or——twoquid!——thereyouare!\" \"Idon’twanttwoquid,noroneeither,fortakingmywifetoadanceonNewYear’sNight!\"saidJohnnyMears。\"Runandputonyourbestbibandtucker,Mary。\" Andshehurriedtodressaseagerandexcited,andsmilingtoherselfasgirlishlyasshehaddoneonsuchoccasionsoneveningsbeforethebrightNewYear’sNighttwentyyearsago。 —— Forarelatedstory,see\"ABushDance\",in\"JoeWilsonandHisMates\"。 ——A。L。,1998。 —— BlackJoeTheycalledhimBlackJoe,andmeWhiteJoe,bywayofdistinctionandfortheconvenienceofhisboss(myuncle),andmyaunt,andmother; so,whenweheardthecryof\"Bla-a-ackJoe!\"(theadjectivedrawnoutuntilitbecameascreech,afterseveralrepetitions,andthe\"Joe\"shortandsharp)comingacrosstheflatinawoman’svoice,Joeknewthatthemissuswantedhimatthehouse,togetwoodorwater,ormindthebaby,andhekeptcarefullyoutofsight;hewentatoncewhenunclecalled。Andwhenweheardthecryof\"Wh-i-i-teJoe!\"whichwedidwithdifficultyandafterseveraltries——thoughBlackJoe’searswereofthekeenest——weknewthatIwasoverdueathome,orabsentwithoutleave,andwasprobablyinforawarming,astheoldfolkcalledit。OnsomeoccasionsIpostponedthewarmingaslongasmystomachheldout,whichwasagoodwhileinfive-corner,native-cherry,oryamseason——butthewarmingwasnonethecoolerforbeingpostponed。 SometimesJoeheardthewrongadjective,orledmetobelievehedid—— andleftmeforawholeafternoonundertheimpressionthattheraceofHamwasindemandatthehomestead,whenImyselfwaswantedthere,andmaternalwrathwasincreasingeverymomentofmyabsence。 ButJoeknewthatmyconsciencewasnotsoelasticashis,and——well,youmustexpectlittlethingslikethisinallfriendships。 BlackJoewassomewherebetweennineandtwelvewhenIfirstmethim,onavisittomyuncle’sstation;Iwassomewhereinthoseyearstoo。 Hewasveryblack,thedarkerforbeingengagedintheinterestingbutuncertainoccupationof\"burningoff\"inhissparetime—— whichwasn’tparticularlylimited。Hecombinedshepherding,’possumandkangaroohunting,crawfishing,sleeping,andvariousotheroccupationsandengagementswiththatofburningoff。 Iwasverywhite,beingasicklytownboy;but,asItookgreatinterestinburningoff,andwasnotparticularlyfondofcoldwater——itwasinwintertime——thedifferenceinourcomplexionswasnotsomarkedattimes。 BlackJoe’sfather,oldBlackJimmie,livedinagunyahontheriseatthebackofthesheepyards,andshepherdedformyuncle。 Hewasagentle,good-humoured,easy-goingoldfellowwithapleasantsmile; whichdescriptionapplies,Ithink,tomostoldblackfellowsincivilisation。 Iwasverypartialtotheoldman,andchummywithhim,andusedtoslipawayfromthehomesteadwheneverIcould,andsquatbythecampfirealongwiththeotherpiccaninnies,andthink,andyarnsociallywithBlackJimmiebythehour。 Iwouldgivesomethingtorememberthoseconversationsnow。 Sometimessomebodywouldbesenttobringmehome,whenitgottoolate,andBlackJimmiewouldsay: \"Piccaninniealongapossumrug,\"andthereI’dbe,soundasleep,withtheotheryoungAustralians。 IlikedBlackJimmieverymuch,andwouldwillinglyhaveadoptedhimasafather。Ishouldhavebeenquitecontenttospendmydaysinthescrub,enjoyinglifeindarkandsavageways,andmynights\"alongapossumrug\"; butthefamilyhadotherplansformyfuture。 Itwasacaseoftwoblackfellowsandonegin,whenBlackJimmiewenta-wooing——abouttwelveyearsbeforeImadehisacquaintance——andhefoughtforhisbrideintheblackfashion。Itwasthelastaffairofthatkindinthedistrict。Myuncle’sbrotherprofessedtohavebeenpresentatthefight,andgavemeanallegeddescriptionofit。 Hesaidthattheydrewlots,andBlackJimmieputhishandsonhiskneesandbenthishead,andtheotherblackfellowhithimawhackontheskullwithanullanulla。Thentheyhadanipofrumallround—— BlackJimmiemusthavewantedit,forthenullanullawasknotted,andheavy,andmadeinthemostapprovedfashion。Thentheotherblackfellowbenthishead,andJimmietooktheclubandreturnedthewhackwithinterest。 ThentheotherfellowhitJimmiealick,andtookacloutinreturn。 Thentheyhadanotherdrink,andcontinuedthusuntilJimmie’srivallostallheartandinterestinthebusiness。Butyoucouldn’ttakeeverythingmyuncle’sbrothersaidforgranted。 BlackMarywasaqueenbyright,andhadthereputationofbeingthecleanestgininthedistrict;shewasagreatfavouritewiththesquatters’wivesroundthere。PerhapsshehopedtoreclaimJimmie——hewasroyal,too,butheldeasyviewswithregardtoreligionandtheconventionalitiesofcivilisation。 Maryinsistedonbeingmarriedproperlybyaclergyman,madetheoldmanbuildadecenthut,hadallherchildrenchristened,andkepthimandthemcleanandtidyuptothetimeofherdeath。 PoorQueenMarywasambitious。Shestartedtoeducateherchildren,andwhentheygotbeyondher——thatiswhentheyhadlearnttheirletters—— shewasgratefulforanyassistancefromthegood-naturedbushmenandwomenofheracquaintance。Shehaddecidedtogethereldestboyintothemountedpolice,andhadplansfortherest,andsheworkedhardforthem,too。Jimmieofferednoopposition,andgavehernoassistancebeyondtherationsandmoneyheearnedshepherding——whichwasasmuchascouldbeexpectedofhim。 Hedidasmanyhusbandsdo\"forthesakeofpeaceandquietness\"—— hedriftedalonginthewakeofhiswife,andtookthingsaseasilyasherschemesofreformationandeducationwouldallowhimto。 QueenMarydiedbeforehertime,respectedbyallwhokneworhadheardofher。Thenearestsquatter’swifesentapairofsheetsforashroud,withinstructionstolayMaryout,andarranged(bybushtelegraph) todriveovernextmorningwithhersister-in-lawandtwootherwhitewomeninthevicinity,toseeMarydecentlyburied。 ButtheremnantofJimmie’stribeweretherebeforehand。 TheytorethesheetsinstripsandtiedMaryupinabundle,withherchintoherknees——preparingherforburialintheirownfashion—— andmournedallnightinwhitewashandashes。Atleast,theginsdid。 Thewhitewomensawthatitwashopelesstoattempttountieanyoftheinnumerableknotsanddoubleknots,evenifithadbeenpossibletolayMaryoutafterwards;sotheyhadtoletherbeburiedasshewas,withblackandwhiteobsequies。Andwe’vegotnointerestinbelievingthatshedidnot\"jumpupwhitewoman\"longago。 Myuncleandhisbrothertookthetwoeldestboys。BlackJimmieshiftedawayfromthehutatoncewiththerestofhisfamily——forthe\"devil-devil\"satdownthere——andMary’snamewasstrictly\"tabooed\"inaccordancewithaboriginaletiquette。 Jimmiedriftedbacktowardsthegravesofhisfathersincompanywithadecreasingflockofsheepdaybyday(forthehouseofmyunclehadfallenontimesofdroughtanddepression,andfoot-rotandwoolrings,andover-draftsandbankowners),andafewstripsofbark,adyingfire,ablackpipe,somegreasy’possumrugsandblankets,alitterofkangarootails,etc。,fourneglectedpiccaninnies,halfascoreofmangymongrels,and,haply,a\"lillydrapo’rum\",bynight。 ThefourlittleAustraliansgrewdirtierandmoreshyandsavage,andateunderdonekangarooand’possumandnativebear,withanoccasionaltreatofoakgrubsandgoannabypreference—— anddiedout,onebyone,asblacksdowhenbroughtwithintheeverwideningcircleofcivilisation。Jimmiemovedpromptlyaftereachdeath,andlefttheeviloneinpossession,andbuiltanothermia-mia——eachonebeinglesspretentiousthanthelast。 Finallyhewasleft,thelastofhistribe,tomournhislotinsolitude。 Butthedevil-devilcameandsatdownbyKingJimmie’ssideonenight,sohe,too,movedoutacrosstheOldManborder,andthemia-miarottedintothegroundandthegrassgrewthere…… IadmiredJoe;Ithoughthimwiserandclevererthananywhiteboyintheworld。Hecouldsmellout’possumsunerringly,andIfirmlybelievedhecouldseeyardsthroughthemuddiestofdamwater; foronce,whenIdroppedmyboatin,andwasnotsureofthespot,hefisheditoutfirsttry。Withcottonreelsandbitsofstickandbarkhewouldmakethemodelofastationhomestead,slaughter-yards,sheep-yards,andallcomplete,workinginideasandimprovementsofhisownwhichmighthavebeenputintopracticewithadvantage。 Hewasamostoriginalandinterestingliaruponallsubjectsuponwhichhewasignorantandwhichcameupincidentally。 HegavemeaveryinterestingaccountofaninterviewbetweenhisfatherandQueenVictoria,andmentionedcasuallythathisfatherhadwalkedacrosstheThameswithoutgettingwet。 Healsotoldmehowhe,Joe,hadtiedamountedtroopertoaverandahpostandthrashedhimwithpinesaplingsuntilthetimbergaveoutandhewastired。IquestionedJimmie,buttheincidentsseemedtohaveescapedtheoldking’smemory。 Joecouldbuildbiggerwoodheapswithlesswoodthananyblackorwhitetramporloaferroundthere。Hewasabornarchitect。 Hetookaworldofpainswithhiswood-heaps——hebuiltthemhollow,intheshapeofabreak-wind,withtheconvexsidetowardsthehouseforthebenefitofhisemployers。Joewaseasy-going;hehadinheritedaloveofpeaceandquietnessfromhisfather。Unclegenerallycamehomeafterdark,andJoewouldhavelittlefireslitatsafedistancesallroundthehouse,inordertoconveyanimpressionthattheburningoffwasproceedingsatisfactorily。 Whenthewarmweathercame,JoeandIgotintotroublewithanoldhagforbathinginawaterholeinthecreekinfrontofhershanty,andsheimpoundedportionsofourwardrobe。Weshouldn’thavelostmuchifshehadtakenitall;butoursenseofinjurywasdeep,especiallyassheusedverybadgrammartowardsus。 Joeaddressedherfromthesafesideofthewater。Hesaid,\"Lookhere! Oldleather-face,sugar-eye,plar-bagmarmy,Icallityou。\" \"Plar-bagmarmy\"meant\"MotherFlour-bag\",andrationsugarwasdecidedlymuddyinappearance。 Shecameroundthewaterholewithaclothesprop,andmadegoodtime,too; butwegotacrossandawaywithourclothes。 Thatlittleincidentmighthavechangedthewholecourseofmyexistence。 Plar-bagMarmymadeaformalcomplainttouncle,whohappenedtopassthereonhorsebackaboutanhourlater;andthesameeveningJoe’slatestandmostcarefullyplannedwoodheapcollapsedwhileauntwaspullingastickoutofitinthedark,anditgaveherabadscare,theresultsofwhichmighthavebeenserious。 Sounclegaveusathrashing,withouttheslightestregardforracialdistinctions,andsentustobedwithoutoursuppers。 WesoughtJimmie’scamp,butJoegotneithersympathynordamperfromhisfather,andIwassenthomewithafatherlylecture\"forgoingalongathatfella,\"meaningJoe。 JoeandIdiscussedexistenceatawaterholedownthecreeknextafternoon,overabillyofcrawfishwhichwehadboiledandapieceofgrittydamper,anddecidedtoretirebeyondthesettleddistricts——somefivehundredmilesorso——toaplacethatJoesaidheknewof,wheretherewerelagoonsandbillabongstenmileswide,alivewithducksandfish,andblackcockatoosandkangaroosandwombats,thatonlywaitedtobeknockedoverwithastick。 IthoughtImightaswellstartandbeablackfellowatonce,sowegotarustypanwithoutahandle,andcookedaboutapintoffatyellowoak-grubs; andIwasabouttofalltowhenwewerediscovered,andthefullweightofcombinedfamilyinfluencewasbroughttobearonthesituation。 Wehadbrokenanewpairofshearsdiggingoutthosegrubsfromunderthebarkoftheshe-oaks,andhadeachtakenabladeashisownespecialproperty,whichwethoughtwasthebestthingtodounderthecircumstances。Unclewantedthoseshearsbadly,sohereceiveduswiththebuggywhip——andhedidn’tdrawthecolourlineeither。 AllthatnightandnextdayIwishedhehad。Iwassenthome,andJoewentdrovingwithunclesoonafterthat,elseImighthavelivedalifeoffreedomandcontentanddiedoutpeacefullywiththelastofmyadoptedtribe。 Joediedofconsumptiononthetrack。Whenhewasdyinguncleasked: \"Isthereanythingyouwouldlike?\" AndJoesaid:\"I’dlikealillydrapo’rum,boss。\" Whichwerehislastwords,forhedranktherumanddiedpeacefully。 Iwasthefirsttohearthenewsathome,and,beingstillayoungster,Irantothehouse,crying\"Oh,mother!aunt’sJoeisdead!\" Therewerevisitorsatourplaceatthetime,and,astheeldestchildofthematernalauntinquestionhadalsobeenchristenedJoe——afteragrandfatherofourtribe(mytribe,notBlackJoe’s)—— thenewscausedasuddenandunpleasantsensation。Butcross-examinationexplainedthemistake,andIretiredtotherearofthepig-sty,aswasmycustomwhenthingswentwrong,withanothercauseforgrief。 TheyWaitontheWharfinBlack\"Seemstomethathonest,hard-workingmenseemtoaccumulatetheheaviestswagsoftroubleinthisworld。\"——Steelman。 ToldbyMitchell’sMate。 WewerecomingbackfromWestAustralia,steerage——Mitchell,theOracle,andI。Ihadgoneoversaloon,withafewpoundsinmypocket。 Mitchellsaidthiswasagreatmistake——IshouldhavegoneoversteeragewithnothingbuttheclothesIstooduprightin,andcomebacksaloonwithapile。Hesaiditwasaverycommonmistakethatmenmade,but,asfarashisexperiencewent,therealwaysseemedtobeadeep-rootedpopularprejudiceinfavourofgoingawayfromhomewithafewpoundsinone’spocketandcomingbackstumped; atleastamongstroversandvagabondslikeourselves——itwasn’tsogenerallypopularoradmiredathome,orintheplaceswecamebackto,asitwasintheplaceswewentto。Anywayitwent,therewasn’ttheslightestdoubtthatournearestanddearestfriendswere,asarule,infavourofourtakingawayaslittleaswecouldpossiblymanagewith,andcomingbackwithapile,whetherwecamebacksaloonornot; andthatoughttosettlethematterasfarasanychapthathadtheslightestconsiderationforhisfriendsorfamilywasconcerned。 Therewasagooddealofmisery,underneath,cominghomeinthatsteerage。 OnemanhadhadhishandcrushedandamputatedoutCoolgardieway,andthestumphadmortified,andhewasbeingsenttoMelbournebyhismates。 Somehadlosttheirmoney,someacoupleofyearsoftheirlife,sometheirsouls;butnoneseemedtohavelostthehearttocallupthequietgrinthatsouthernrovers,vagabonds,travellersfor\"graft\"orfortune,andprofessionalwandererswearinfrontofitall。Exceptoneman——anelderlyeasterndigger—— hehadlosthiswifeinSydneywhilehewasaway。 TheysenthimawiretotheBoulderSoak,orsomewhereoutbackofWhiteFeather,tosaythathiswifewasseriouslyill; butthewirewentwrong,somehow,afterthemanneroftelegramsnotconnectedwithmining,onthelinesof\"theWestern\"。Theysenthimawiretosaythathiswifewasdead,andthatreachedhimallright—— onlyaweeklate。 Icanimagineit。Hegotthemessageatdinner-time,orwhentheycamebacktothecamp。Hismatewantedhimtositintheshade,orlieinthetent,whilehegotthebillyboiled。 \"Youmustbraceupandpullyourselftogether,Tom,forthesakeoftheyoungsters。\"AndTomforlongintervalsgoeswalkingupanddown,upanddown,bythecamp——underthebrassyskyorthegloaming—— underthebrilliantstar-clustersthathangoverthedesertplain,butneverraisinghiseyestothem;kickingatuftofgrassoraholeinthesandnowandthen,andseemingtowatchtheprogressofthetrackheistrampingout。Thewifeoftwentyyearswaswithhim——thoughtwothousandmilesaway——tillthatmessagecame。 IcanimagineTomesittingwithhismatesroundthebilly,theytalkinginquiet,subduedtonesaboutthetrack,thedepartureofcoaches,trainsandboats——arrangingforTom’sjourneyEast,andtheworkingoftheclaiminhisabsence。 OrTomlyingonhisbackinhisbunk,withhishandsunderhisheadandhiseyesfixedonthecalicoabove——thinking,thinking,thinking。 Thinking,withatouchofhisboyhood’sfaithperhaps; orwonderingwhathehaddoneinhislong,hard-workingmarriedlife,thatGodshoulddothisthingtohimnow,ofalltimes。 \"You’dbesttakewhatmoneywehaveinthecamp,Tom; you’llwantitallag’in’thetimeyougetbackfromSydney,andwecanfixituparterwards……There’sacoupleo’cleanshirtso’mine——you’dbesttake’em——you’llwant’emonthevoyage…… Youmightaswelltakethemtherenewpantso’mine,they’llonlydry-rotouthere——andthecoat,too,ifyoulike——it’stoosmallforme,anyway。 Youwon’thaveanytimeinPerth,andyou’llwantsomedecenttogstolandwithinSydney。\"…… \"Iwouldn’t’a’caredsomuchifI’d’a’seenthelastofher,\"hesaid,inaquiet,patientvoice,tousonenightbytherail。\"Iwould’a’likedtohaveseenthelastofher。\" \"HaveyoubeenlongintheWest?\" \"Overtwoyears。ImadeuptotakearunacrosslastChristmas,andhavealookat’em。ButIcouldn’tverywellgetawaywhen`exemption-time’came。Ididn’tliketoleavetheclaim。\" \"Doanygoodoverthere?\" \"Well,thingsbrightenedupabitthelastmonthortwo。 Ihadahardpullatfirst;landedwithoutapenny,andhadtosendbackeveryshillingIcouldrakeuptogetthingsstraightenedupabitathome。 Thentheeldestboyfellill,andthenthebaby。I’dreckonedonbringing’emovertoPerthorCoolgardiewhenthecoolweathercame,andhavingthemsomewheresnearme,whereIcouldgoandhavealookat’emnowandthen,andlookafterthem。\" \"GoingbacktotheWestagain?\" \"Oh,yes。Imustgoforthesakeoftheyoungsters。ButIdon’tseemtohavemuchheartinit。\"Hesmokedawhile。\"Overtwentyyearswestruggledalongtogether——themissusandme——anditseemshardthatIcouldn’tseethelastofher。It’sroughonaman。\" \"Theworldisdamnedroughonamansometimes,\"saidMitchell,\"mostespeciallywhenheleastdeservesit。\" Thediggercrossedhisarmsontheraillikeanold\"cocky\"atthefenceinthecooloftheevening,yarningwithanoldcrony。 \"Mor’ntwentyyearsshestucktomeandstruggledalongbymyside。 Shenevergivein。I’llswearshewasonherfeettillthelast,withhersleevestuckedup——bustlin’round……AndjustwhenthingswasbrighteningandIsawachanceofgivingherabitofarestandcomfortfortheendofherlife…… Ithoughtofitallonlyt’otherweekwhenthingswasclearingupahead; andthelast`order’IsentoverIsettoworkandwroteheralongletter,puttingallthegoodnewsandencouragementIcouldthinkofintoit。 Ithoughthowthatletterwouldbrightenupthingsathome,andhowshe’dreaditround。Ithoughtoflotsofthingsthatamannevergetstimetothinkofwhilehisnoseiskepttothegrindstone。 Andshewasdeadandinhergrave,andIneverknowedit。\" Mitchelldughiselbowintomyribsandmadesignsforthematchestolighthispipe。 \"An’yerneverknowed,\"reflectedtheOracle。 \"ButIalwayshadanideawhentherewastroubleathome,\" thediggerwentonpresently,inhisquiet,patienttone。 \"Ialwaysknowed;Ialwayshadakindoffeelingthatway——Ifeltit—— nomatterhowfarIwasaway。WhentheyoungsterswassickIknowedit,andIexpectedtheletterthatcome。AboutafortnightagoIhadafeelingthatwaywhenthewifewasill。TheverystarsoutthereonthedesertbytheBoulderSoakseemedtosay: `There’stroubleathome。Gohome。There’stroubleathome。’ ButIneverdreamedwhatthattroublewas。OnenightIdidmakeupmymindtostartinthemorning,butwhenthemorningcameIhadn’tanexcuse,andwasashamedtotellmymatesthetruth。TheymighthavethoughtIwasgoingratty,likeagoodmanygooutthere。\"Thenhebrokeoffwithasortoflaugh,asifitjuststruckhimthatwemightthinkhewasabitoffhishead,orthathistalkwasgettinguncomfortableforus。 \"Curious,ain’tit?\"hesaid。 \"RemindsmeofacaseIknowed,————\"commencedtheOracle,afterapause。 Icouldhavepitchedhimoverboard;butthatwasamistake。 Heandtheolddiggersatonthefor’ardhatchhalfthenightyarning,mostlyaboutqueerstarts,andrumgo’s,andcuriouscasestheOraclehadknowed,andIthinktheOracledidhimalotofgoodsomehow,forheseemedmorecheerfulinthemorning。 Wewereovercrowdedinthesteerage,butMitchellmanagedtogiveuphisberthtotheolddiggerwithoutlettinghimknowit。 Mostofthechapsseemedanxioustomakeaplaceatthefirsttableandpassthefirsthelpingsofthedishestothe\"oldcovethathadlosthismissus。\" TheyallseemedtoforgethimasweenteredtheHeads;theyhadtheirowntroublestoattendto。Theywereintheshadowoftheshameofcomingbackhardup,andthegrinsbegantogrowfaintandsickly。 ButIdidn’tforgethim。IwishsometimesthatIdidn’ttakesomuchnoticeofthings。 Therewasnomistakingthem——thelittlegroupthatstoodapartneartheendofthewharf,dressedincheapblack。Therewastheeldestsinglesister——thin,pale,andhaggard-looking—— thathadhadallthehardworryinthefamilytillhertemperwasspoilt,asyoucouldseebythepeevish,irritablelinesinherface。 Shehadtobethemotherofthemallnow,andhadneverknown,perhaps,whatitwastobeagirlorasweetheart。Shegaveahard,mechanicalsortofsmilewhenshesawherfather,andthenstoodlookingattheboatinavacant,hopelesssortofway。Therewasthebaby,thathesawnowforthefirsttime,crowingandjumpingatthesightoftheboatcomingin;therewastheeldestboy,lookingawkwardandoutofplaceinhisnewslop-suitofblack,shiftingrounduneasily,andlookinganywherebutathisfather。 Butthelittlegirlwastheworst,andaprettylittlegirlshewas,too; shenevertookherstreamingeyesoffherfather’sfacethewholetime。 Youcouldseethatherlittleheartwasbursting,andwithpityforhim。 Theyweretoofaraparttospeaktoeachotherasyet。Theboatseemedacruellonglongtimeswingingalongside——Iwishedthey’dhurryup。 He’dbroughthistrapsupearly,andlaid’emonthedeckundertherail; hestoodveryquietwithhishandsbehindhim,lookingathischildren。 Hehadastrong,square,workman’sface,butIcouldseehischinandmouthquiveringunderthestubbly,iron-greybeard,andthelumpworkinginhisthroat;andonestronghandgrippedtheotherverytightbehind,buthiseyelidsneverquivered—— onlyhiseyesseemedtogrowmoreandmoresadandlonesome。 Thesearethesortoflong,cruelmomentswhenamansitsorstandsverytightandquietandcalm-looking,withhiswholepastlifegoingwhirlingthroughhisbrain,yearafteryear,andoverandoveragain。 Justasthediggerseemedabouttospeaktothemhemetthebrimmingeyesofhislittlegirlturneduptohisface。 Helookedatherforamoment,andthenturnedsuddenlyandwentbelowasifpretendingtogodownforhisthings。InoticedthatMitchell——whohadn’tseemedtobenoticinganythinginparticular—— followedhimdown。Whentheycameondeckagainwewererightalongside。 \"’Ello,Nell!\"saidthediggertotheeldestdaughter。 \"’Ello,father!\"shesaid,withasortofgasp,buttryingtosmile。 \"’Ello,Jack,howareyougettingon?\" \"Allright,father,\"saidtheboy,brighteningup,andseeminggreatlyrelieved。 HelookeddownatthelittlegirlwithasmilethatIcan’tdescribe,butdidn’tspeaktoher。Shestillstoodwithquiveringchinandmouthandgreatbrimmingeyesupturned,fullofsuchpityasIneversawbeforeinachild-face——pityforhim。 \"Youcangetashorenow,\"saidMitchell;\"see,they’vegotthegangwayoutaft。\" PresentlyIsawMitchellwiththeportmanteauinhishand,andthebabyonhisarm,steeringthemawaytoaquietcorneroftheshedatthetopofthewharf。Thediggerhadthelittlegirlinhisarms,andbothherswereroundhisneck,andherfacehiddenonhisshoulder。 WhenMitchellcameback,heleantontherailforawhilebymyside,asifitwasaboundaryfenceoutback,andtherewasnohurrytobreakupcampandmakeastart。 \"Whatdidyoufollowhimbelowthattimefor,Mitchell?\"Iaskedpresently,forwantofsomethingbettertosay。 Mitchelllookedatmeoutofthecornersofhiseyes。 \"Iwantedtoscoreadrink!\"hesaid。\"Ithoughthewantedoneandwouldn’tliketobeaJimmyWoodser。\" SeeingtheLastofYou\"Whenyou’regoingawaybyboat,\"saidMitchell,\"yououghttosaygood-byetothewomenathome,andtothechapsatthelastpub。 Ihatewaitingonthewharforupondeckwhentheboat’sbehindtime。 There’snosenseinit,andalotofunnecessarymisery。 Yourfriendswaitonthewharfandyouarekeptattherailtothebitterend,justwhentheyandyoumostwantaspell。Andwhy?Someofthemhangoutbecausetheyloveyou,andwanttoseethelastofyou;somebecausetheydon’tlikeyoutoseethemgoingawaywithoutseeingthelastofyou; andyouhangoutmostlybecauseitwouldhurt’emifyouwentbelowanddidn’tgivethemachanceofseeingthelastofyouallthetime—— andyoucursetheboatandwishtoGoditwouldstart。 Andthosewholoveyoumost——thewomen-folkofthefamily—— andwhoaremakingallthefussandbreakingtheirheartsabouthavingtoseethelastofyou,andleastwanttodoit—— theyhangoutthelongest,andarethemostdeterminedtoseeit。 Where’sthesenseinit?What’sthegoodofseeingthelastofyou? Howdowomenmanagetogetconsolationoutofathinglikethat? \"Butwomengetconsolationoutofqueerthingssometimes,\" headdedreflectively,\"andsodomen。 \"IrememberwhenIwasknockingaboutthecoasts,anoldauntofminealwayspersistedincomingdowntoseethelastofme,andbringingthewholefamilytoo——nomatterifIwasonlygoingawayforamonth。Iwasherfavourite。Ialwaysturnedupagaininafewmonths; butifI’dcomebackeverynextboatitwouldn’thavemadetheslightestdifferencetoher。She’dsaythatImightn’tcomebacksomeday,andthenshe’dneverforgiveherselfnorthefamilyfornotseeingmeoff。Isupposeshe’llseetheendofmeyetifsheliveslongenough——andshe’sawiryoldladyoftheoldschool。 Shewasold-fashionedanddressedlikeafright,theysaidathome。 Theyhatedbeingseeninpublicwithher;totellthetruth,Ifeltabitashamed,too,attimes。Iwouldn’tbe,now。 WhenI’dgetheroffontothewharfI’dbeovercomewithmyfeelings,andhavetoretiretotheprivacyofthebartohidemyemotionstilltheboatwasgoing。Andshe’dstandontheendofthepierandwaveherhandkerchiefandmopheroldeyeswithituntilshewasremovedbyforce。 \"Godblessheroldheart!Therewasn’tsomuchaffectionwastedonmeathomethatIfeltcrowdedbyhers;andIneverlostanythingbyherseeingthelastofme。 \"IdowishtheOraclewouldstopthatconfoundedfiddleofhis—— itmakesyouthinkoverdamnedoldthings。\" TwoBoysatGrinderBrothers’ Fiveorsixhalf-grownlarrikinssatonthecementedsillofthebigwindowofGrinderBros。’RailwayCoachFactorywaitingfortheworkbell,andoneofthenumberwasBillAnderson——knownas\"CarstorHoil\"—— ayoungterroroffourteenorfifteen。 \"HerecomesBalmyArvie,\"exclaimedBillasapale,timid-lookinglittlefellowroundedthecornerandstoodagainstthewallbythedoor。\"How’syourparents,Balmy?\" Theboymadenoanswer;heshrankclosertotheentrance。 Thefirstbellwent。 \"Whatyergotfordinner,Balmy?Bread’n’treacle?\"askedtheyoungruffian; thenfortheedificationofhischumshesnatchedtheboy’sdinnerbagandemptieditscontentsonthepavement。 Thedooropened。Arviegathereduphislunch,tookhistime-ticket,andhurriedin。 \"Well,Balmy,\"saidoneofthesmithsashepassed,\"whatdoyouthinkoftheboatrace?\" \"Ithink,\"saidtheboy,goadedtoreply,\"thatitwouldbebetterifyoungfellowsofthiscountrydidn’tthinksomuchaboutracin’an’fightin’。\" Thequestionerstaredblanklyforamoment,thenlaughedsuddenlyintheboy’sface,andturnedaway。Therestgrinned。 \"Arvie’sgettingbalmierthanever,\"guffawedyoungBill。 \"Here,CarstorHoil,\"criedoneofthesmiths’strikers,\"howmuchoilwillyoutakeforachewofterbaccer?\" \"Teaspoonful?\" \"No,two。\" \"Allright;let’sseethechew,first。\" \"Oh,you’llgetit。Whatyerfrighten’of?……Comeon,chaps,’n’seeBilldrinkoil。\" Billmeasuredoutsomemachineoilanddrankit。Hegotthetobacco,andtheothersgotwhattheycalled\"thefunofseein’Billdrinkoil!\" Thesecondbellrang,andBillwentuptotheotherendoftheshop,whereArviewasalreadyatworksweepingshavingsfromunderabench。 Theyoungterrorseatedhimselfontheendofthisbench,drummedhisheelsagainsttheleg,andwhistled。Hewasinnohurry,forhisforemanhadnotyetarrived。HeamusedhimselfbylazilytossingchipsatArvie,whomadenoprotestforawhile。 \"Itwouldbe——better——forthiscountry,\"saidtheyoungterror,reflectivelyandabstractedly,cockinghiseyeatthewhitewashedroofbeamsandfeelingbehindhimonthebenchforaheavierchip—— \"itwouldbebetter——forthiscountry——ifyoungfellersdidn’tthinksomuchabout——about——racin’——ANDfightin’。\" \"Youletmealone,\"saidArvie。 \"Why,what’llyoudo?\"exclaimedBill,bringinghiseyedownwithfeignedsurprise。Then,inanindignanttone,\"Idon’tmindtakin’afalloutofyer,now,ifyerlike。\" Arviewentonwithhiswork。Billtossedallthechipswithinreach,andthensatcarelesslywatchingsomemenatwork,andwhistlingthe\"DeadMarch\"。Presentlyheasked: \"What’syername,Balmy?\" Noanswer。 \"Carn’tyeransweracivilquestion?I’dsoonknockthesulksoutofyerifIwasyerfather。\" \"Myname’sArvie;youknowthat。\" \"Arviewhat?\" \"ArvieAspinall。\" Billcockedhiseyeattheroofandthoughtawhileandwhistled; thenhesaidsuddenly: \"Say,Balmy,whered’yerlive?\" \"Jones’Alley。\" \"What?\" \"Jones’Alley。\" Ashort,lowwhistlefromBill。\"Whathouse?\" \"NumberEight。\" \"Garn!Whatyergiv’nus?\" \"I’mtellingthetruth。What’stherefunnyaboutit?WhatdoIwanttotellyoualiefor?\" \"Why,welivedthereonce,Balmy。Oldfolkslivin’?\" \"Motheris;father’sdead。\" Billscratchedthebackofhishead,protrudedhisunderlip,andreflected。 \"Isay,Arvie,whatdidyerfatherdieof?\" \"Heartdisease。Hedroppeddowndeadathiswork。\" Long,low,intensewhistlefromBill。Hewrinkledhisforeheadandstaredupatthebeamsasifheexpectedtoseesomethingunusualthere。 Afterawhilehesaid,veryimpressively:\"Sodidmine。\" Thecoincidencehadn’tdonestrikinghimyet;hewrestledwithitfornearlyaminutelonger。Thenhesaid: \"Isupposeyermothergoesoutwashin’?\" \"Yes。\" \"’N’cleansoffices?\" \"Yes。\" \"Sodoesmine。Anybrothers’n’sisters?\" \"Two——onebrother’n’onesister。\" Billlookedrelieved——forsomereason。 \"Igotnine,\"hesaid。\"Yoursyounger’nyou?\" \"Yes。\" \"Lotofbotherwiththelandlord?\" \"Yes,agoodlot。\" \"Hadanybailiffsinyet?\" \"Yes,two。\" Theycomparednotesawhilelonger,andtailedoffintoasilencewhichlastedthreeminutesandgrewawkwardtowardstheend。 Billfidgetedaboutonthebench,reachedroundforachip,butrecollectedhimself。Thenhecockedhiseyeattheroofoncemoreandwhistled,twirlingashavingroundhisfingersthewhile。 Atlasthetoretheshavingintwo,jerkeditimpatientlyfromhim,andsaidabruptly: \"Lookhere,Arvie!I’msorryIknockedoveryerbarreryesterday。\" \"Thankyou。\" ThisknockedBilloutthefirstround。Herubbedrounduneasilyonthebench,fidgetedwiththevise,drummedhisfingers,whistled,andfinallythrusthishandsinhispocketsanddroppedonhisfeet。 \"Lookhere,Arvie!\"hesaidinlow,hurriedtones。\"Keepclosetomegoin’outto-night,’n’ifanyoftheotherchapstouchesyerorsaysanythingtoyerI’llhit’em!\" Thenheswunghimselfroundthecornerofacarriage\"body\"andwasgone…… Arviewaslateoutoftheshopthatevening。Hisbosswasasub-contractorforthecoach-painting,andalwaystriedtofindtwentyminutes’workforhisboysjustaboutfiveortenminutesbeforethebellrang。 Heemployedboysbecausetheywerecheapandhehadalotofroughwork,andtheycouldgetunderfloorsand\"bogies\"withtheirpotsandbrushes,anddoallthe\"priming\"andpaintthetrucks。HisnamewasCollins,andtheboyswerecalled\"Collins’Babies\"。Itwasajokeintheshopthathehada\"weaning\"contract。Theboyswereall\"overfourteen\",ofcourse,becauseoftheEducationAct。Somewerenineorten——wagesfromfiveshillingstotenshillings。Itdidn’tmattertoGrinderBrotherssolongasthecontractswerecompletedandthedividendspaid。 CollinspreachedintheparkeverySunday。Butthishasnothingtodowiththestory。 WhenArviecameoutitwasbeginningtorainandthehandshadallgoneexceptBill,whostoodwithhisbacktoaverandah-post,spittingwithveryfairsuccessattheraggedtoeofoneboot。Helookedup,noddedcarelesslyatArvie,andthenmadeadiveforapassinglorry,ontheendofwhichhedisappearedroundthenextcorner,unsuspectedbythedriver,whosatinfrontwithhispipeinhismouthandabagoverhisshoulders。 Arviestartedhomewithhisheartandmindprettyfull,andastronger,strangeraversiontoevergoingbacktotheshopagain。Thisnew,unexpected,andunsought-forfriendshipembarrassedthepoorlonelychild。 Itwasn’twelcome。 Butheneverwentback。Hegotwetgoinghome,andthatnighthewasadyingchild。Hehadbeenillallthetime,andCollinswasone\"baby\"shortnextday。 TheSelector’sDaughterI。 SherodeslowlydownthesteepsidingfromthemainroadtoatrackinthebedoftheLongGully,theoldgreyhorsepickinghiswayzig-zagfashion。Shewasaboutseventeen,slightinfigure,andhadaprettyfreckledfacewithapatheticallydroopingmouth,andbigsadbrowneyes。Sheworeafadedprintdress,withanoldblackridingskirtdrawnoverit,andherheadwashiddeninoneofthoseugly,old-fashionedwhitehoods,which,seenfromtherear,alwayssuggestanoldwoman。Shecarriedseveralparcelsofgroceriesstrappedtothefrontofthedilapidatedside-saddle。 Thetrackskirtedachainofrockywaterholesatthefootofthegully,andthegirlglancednervouslyattheseghastly,evil-lookingpoolsasshepassedthemby。Thesunhadset,asfarasLongGullywasconcerned。 Theoldhorsecarefullyfollowedaroughbridletrack,whichranupthegullynowononesideofthewatercourseandnowontheother; thegullygrewdeeperanddarker,anditssullen,scrub-coveredsidesrosemoresteeplyasheprogressed。 Thegirlglancedroundfrequently,asthoughafraidofsomeonefollowingher。 Onceshedrewrein,andlistenedtosomebushsound。 \"Kangaroos,\"shemurmured;itwasonlykangaroos。Shecrossedadimmedlittleclearingwhereafarmhadbeen,andenteredathickscrubofboxandstringy-barksaplings。Suddenlywithaheavythud,thud,an\"oldman\"kangarooleaptthepathinfront,startlingthegirlfearfully,andwentupthesidingtowardsthepeak。 \"Oh,myGod!\"shegasped,withherhandonherheart。 Shewasverynervousthisevening;herheartwashurtnow,andsheheldherhandclosetoit,whiletearsstartedfromhereyesandglistenedinthelightofthemoon,whichwasrisingoverthegapahead。 \"Oh,ifIcouldonlygoawayfromthebush!\"shemoaned。 Theoldhorseploddedon,andnowandthenshookhishead——sadly,itseemed——asifheknewhertroublesandwassorry。 Shepassedanotherclearing,andpresentlycametoasmallhomesteadinastringy-barkhollowbelowagreatgapintheridges——\"Deadman’sGap\"。 Theplacewascalled\"Deadman’sHollow\",andlookedlikeit。 The\"house\"——alow,two-roomedaffair,withskillions—— wasbuiltofhalf-roundslabsandstringy-bark,andwasnearlyallroof; thebark,beingdarkenedfromrecentrain,gaveitadrearierappearancethanusual。 Abig,coarse-lookingyouthofabouttwentywasnailingagreenkangarooskintotheslabs;hewasoutoftemperbecausehehadbruisedhisthumb。 Thegirlunstrappedtheparcelsandcarriedthemin; asshepassedherbrother,shesaid: \"Takethesaddleoffforme,willyou,Jack?\" \"Oh,carntyertakeitoffyerself?\"hesnarled;\"carntyerseeI’mbusy?\" Shetookoffthesaddleandbridle,andcarriedthemintoashed,whereshehungthemonabeam。Thepatientoldhackshookhimselfwithanenergythatseemedill-advised,consideringhisageandcondition,andwentofftowardsthe\"dam\"。 Anoldwomansatinthemainroombesideafireplacewhichtookupalmosttheentireendofthehouse。Aplank-table,supportedonstakesdrivenintotheground,stoodinthemiddleoftheroom,andtwoslabbencheswerefixturesoneachside。Thefloorwasclay。 Allwascleanandpoverty-stricken;allthatcouldbewhitewashedwaswhite,andeverythingthatcouldbewashedwasscrubbed。Theslabshelveswerecoveredwithcleannewspapers,onwhichbrighttins,andpannikins,andfragmentsofcrockeryweresettothegreatestadvantage。Thewalls,however,weredisfiguredbyChristmassupplementsofillustratedjournals。 Thegirlcameinandsatdownwearilyonastooloppositetotheoldwoman。 \"Areyouanybetter,mother?\"sheasked。 \"Verylittle,Mary,verylittle。Haveyouseenyourfather?\" \"No。\" \"Iwonderwhereheis?\" \"Youmightwonder。What’stheuseofworryingaboutit,mother?\" \"Isupposehe’sdrinkingagain。\" \"Mostlikely。Worryingyourselftodeathwon’thelpit!\" Theoldwomansatandmoanedabouthertroubles,asoldwomendo。 Shehadplentytomoanabout。 \"IwonderwhereyourbrotherTomis?Wehaven’theardfromhimforayearnow。Hemustbeintroubleagain;somethingtellsmehemustbeintroubleagain。\" Maryswungherhoodoffintoherlap。 \"Whydoyouworryaboutit,mother?What’stheuse?\" \"IonlywishIknew。IonlywishIknew!\" \"Whatgoodwouldthatdo?YouknowTomwentdrovingwithFredDunn,andFredwilllookafterhim;and,besides,Tom’soldernowandgotmoresense。\" \"Oh,youdon’tcare——youdon’tcare!Youdon’tfeelit,butI’mhismother,and————\" \"Oh,forGod’ssake,don’tstartthatagain,mother;ithurtsmemorethanyouthink。I’mhissister;I’vesufferedenough,Godknows! Don’tmakemattersworsethantheyare!\" \"Herecomesfather!\"shoutedoneofthechildrenoutside,\"’n’he’sbringinghomeasteer。\" Theoldwomansatstill,andclaspedherhandsnervously。 Marytriedtolookcheerful,andmovedthesaucepanonthefire。 Abig,dark-beardedman,mountedonasmallhorse,wasseeninthetwilightdrivingasteertowardsthecow-yard。Aboyrantoletdowntheslip-rails。 PresentlyMaryandhermotherheardtheclatterofrailsletdownandputupagain,andaminutelateraheavysteplikethetreadofahorsewasheardoutside。Theselectorlumberedin,threwhishatinacorner,andsatdownbythetable。 Hiswiferoseandbustledroundwithsimulatedcheerfulness。 PresentlyMaryhazarded—— \"Wherehaveyoubeen,father?\" \"Somewheers。\" Therewasawretchedsilence,lastinguntiltheoldwomantookcouragetosaytimidly: \"Soyou’vebroughtasteer,Wylie?\" \"Yes!\"hesnapped;thetoneseemeddefiant。 Theoldwoman’shandstrembled,sothatshedroppedacup。 Maryturnedashadepaler。 \"Here,gitmesometea。GitmesomeTEA!\"shoutedMr。Wylie。