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类别:其他 作者:Susanna Rowson字数:23462更新时间:19/01/03 09:18:10
Thegoodnessofherheartisdepictedinheringenuouscountenance。\" \"Charlottecaughtthewordpity。\"AndamIalreadyfallensolow?\" saidshe。Asighescapedher,andatearwasreadytostart,butMontravilleappeared,andshecheckedtherisingemotion。 MademoisellewentwiththeColonelandhisdaughtertoanotherapartment。CharlotteremainedwithMontravilleandBelcour。 ThenextmorningtheColonelperformedhispromise,andLaRuebecameindueformMrs。Crayton,exultedinherowngoodfortune,anddaredtolookwithaneyeofcontemptontheunfortunatebutfarlessguiltyCharlotte。 ENDOFTHEFIRSTVOLUME。 CHARLOTTETEMPLE,VOLUMEII CHAPTERXVIII。 REFLECTIONS。 \"ANDamIindeedfallensolow,\"saidCharlotte,\"astobeonlypitied? Willthevoiceofapprobationnomoremeetmyear?andshallIneveragainpossessafriend,whosefacewillwearasmileofjoywheneverIapproach? Alas!howthoughtless,howdreadfullyimprudenthaveIbeen! Iknownotwhichismostpainfultoendure,thesneerofcontempt,ortheglanceofcompassion,whichisdepictedinthevariouscountenancesofmyownsex:theyarebothequallyhumiliating。 Ah!mydearparents,couldyounowseethechildofyouraffections,thedaughterwhomyousodearlyloved,apoorsolitarybeing,withoutsociety,herewearingoutherheavyhoursindeepregretandanguishofheart,nokindfriendofherownsextowhomshecanunbosomhergriefs,nobelovedmother,nowomanofcharacterwillappearinmycompany,andlowasyourCharlotteisfallen,shecannotassociatewithinfamy。\" ThesewerethepainfulreflectionswhichoccupiedthemindofCharlotte。 MontravillehadplacedherinasmallhouseafewmilesfromNew-York:hegaveheronefemaleattendant,andsuppliedherwithwhatmoneyshewanted;butbusinessandpleasuresoentirelyoccupiedhistime,thathehadlittletodevotetothewoman,whomhehadbroughtfromallherconnections,androbbedofinnocence。 Sometimes,indeed,hewouldstealoutatthecloseofevening,andpassafewhourswithher;andthensomuchwassheattachedtohim,thatallhersorrowswereforgottenwhileblestwithhissociety: shewouldenjoyawalkbymoonlight,orsitbyhiminalittlearbouratthebottomofthegarden,andplayontheharp,accompanyingitwithherplaintive,harmoniousvoice。Butoften,veryoften,didhepromisetorenewhisvisits,and,forgetfulofhispromise,leavehertomournherdisappointment。Whatpainfulhoursofexpectationwouldshepass!Shewouldsitatawindowwhichlookedtowardafieldheusedtocross,countingtheminutes,andstraininghereyestocatchthefirstglimpseofhisperson,tillblindedwithtearsofdisappointment,shewouldleanherheadonherhands,andgivefreeventtohersorrows:thencatchingatsomenewhope,shewouldagainrenewherwatchfulposition,tilltheshadesofeveningenvelopedeveryobjectinaduskycloud: shewouldthenrenewhercomplaints,and,withaheartburstingwithdisappointedloveandwoundedsensibility,retiretoabedwhichremorsehadstrewedwiththorns,andcourtinvainthatcomforterofwearynature(whoseldomvisitstheunhappy) tocomeandsteephersensesinoblivion。 WhocanformanadequateideaofthesorrowthatpreyeduponthemindofCharlotte?Thewife,whosebreastglowswithaffectiontoherhusband,andwhoinreturnmeetsonlyindifference,canbutfaintlyconceiveheranguish。Dreadfullypainfulisthesituationofsuchawoman,butshehasmanycomfortsofwhichourpoorCharlottewasdeprived。 Theduteous,faithfulwife,thoughtreatedwithindifference,hasonesolidpleasurewithinherownbosom,shecanreflectthatshehasnotdeservedneglect——thatshehaseverfulfilledthedutiesofherstationwiththestrictestexactness; shemayhope,byconstantassiduityandunremittedattention,torecallherwanderer,andbedoublyhappyinhisreturningaffection; sheknowshecannotleavehertounitehimselftoanother: hecannotcastherouttopovertyandcontempt;shelooksaroundher,andseesthesmileoffriendlywelcome,orthetearofaffectionateconsolation,onthefaceofeverypersonwhomshefavourswithheresteem;andfromallthesecircumstancesshegatherscomfort: butthepoorgirlbythoughtlesspassionledastray,who,inpartingwithherhonour,hasforfeitedtheesteemoftheverymantowhomshehassacri-icedeverythingdearandvaluableinlife,feelshisindifferenceinthefruitofherownfolly,andlamentsherwantofpowertorecallhislostaffection;sheknowsthereisnotiebuthonour,andthat,inamanwhohasbeenguiltyofseduction,isbutveryfeeble: hemayleaveherinamomenttoshameandwant;hemaymarryandforsakeherforever;andshouldhe,shehasnoredress,nofriendly,soothingcompaniontopourintoherwoundedmindthebalmofconsolation,nobenevolenthandtoleadherbacktothepathofrectitude; shehasdisgracedherfriends,forfeitedthegoodopinionoftheworld,andundoneherself;shefeelsherselfapoorsolitarybeinginthemidstofsurroundingmultitudes;shamebowshertotheearth,remorsetearsherdistractedmind,andguilt,poverty,anddiseaseclosethedreadfulscene:shesinksunnoticedtooblivion。 Thefingerofcontemptmaypointouttosomepassingdaughterofyouthfulmirth,thehumblebedwhereliesthisfrailsisterofmortality; andwillshe,intheunboundedgaietyofherheart,exultinherownunblemishedfame,andtriumphoverthesilentashesofthedead? Ohno!hassheaheartofsensibility,shewillstop,andthusaddresstheunhappyvictimoffolly—— \"Thouhad’stthyfaults,butsurethysufferingshaveexpiatedthem: thyerrorsbroughttheetoanearlygrave;butthouwertafellow-creature—— thouhastbeenunhappy——thenbethoseerrorsforgotten。\" Then,asshestoopstopluckthenoxiousweedfromoffthesod,atearwillfall,andconsecratethespottoCharity。 Foreverhonouredbethesacreddropofhumanity;theangelofmercyshallrecorditssource,andthesoulfromwhenceitsprangshallbeimmortal。 MydearMadam,contractnotyourbrowintoafrownofdisapprobation。 Imeannottoextenuatethefaultsofthoseunhappywomenwhofallvictimstoguiltandfolly;butsurely,whenwereflecthowmanyerrorsweareourselvessubjectto,howmanysecretfaultsliehidintherecessesofourhearts,whichweshouldblushtohavebroughtintoopenday(andyetthosefaultsrequirethelenityandpityofabenevolentjudge,orawfulwouldbeourprospectoffuturity) Isay,mydearMadam,whenweconsiderthis,wesurelymaypitythefaultsofothers。 Believeme,manyanunfortunatefemale,whohasoncestrayedintothethornypathsofvice,wouldgladlyreturntovirtue,wasanygenerousfriendtoendeavourtoraiseandre-assureher; butalas!itcannotbe,yousay;theworldwouldderideandscoff。 Thenletmetellyou,Madam,’tisaveryunfeelingworld,anddoesnotdeservehalftheblessingswhichabountifulProvidenceshowersuponit。 Oh,thoubenevolentgiverofallgood!howshallweerringmortalsdaretolookuptothymercyinthegreatdayofretribution,ifwenowuncharitablyrefusetooverlooktheerrors,oralleviatethemiseries,ofourfellow-creatures。 CHAPTERXIX。 AMISTAKEDISCOVERED。 JULIAFranklinwastheonlychildofamanoflargeproperty,who,attheageofeighteen,leftherindependentmistressofanunincumberedincomeofsevenhundredayear;shewasagirlofalivelydisposition,andhumane,susceptibleheart: sheresidedinNew-Yorkwithanuncle,wholovedhertoowell,andhadtoohighanopinionofherprudence,toscrutinizeheractionssomuchaswouldhavebeennecessarywithmanyyoungladies,whowerenotblestwithherdiscretion:shewas,atthetimeMontravillearrivedatNew-York,thelifeofsociety,andtheuniversaltoast。 Montravillewasintroducedtoherbythefollowingaccident。 Onenightwhenhewasuponguard,adreadfulfirebrokeoutnearMr。Franklin’shouse,which,inafewhours,reducedthatandseveralotherstoashes;fortunatelynoliveswerelost,and,bytheassiduityofthesoldiers,muchvaluablepropertywassavedfromtheflames。 InthemidstoftheconfusionanoldgentlemancameuptoMontraville,and,puttingasmallboxintohishands,cried——\"Keepit,mygoodSir,tillIcometoyouagain;\"andthenrushingagainintothethickestofthecroud,Montravillesawhimnomore。 Hewaitedtillthefirewasquiteextinguishedandthemobdispersed; butinvain:theoldgentlemandidnotappeartoclaimhisproperty; andMontraville,fearingtomakeanyenquiry,lestheshouldmeetwithimpostorswhomightlayclaim,withoutanylegalright,tothebox,carriedittohislodgings,andlockeditup: henaturallyimagined,thatthepersonwhocommittedittohiscareknewhim,andwould,inadayortwo,reclaimit;butseveralweekspassedon,andnoenquirybeingmade,hebegantobeuneasy,andresolvedtoexaminethecontentsofthebox,andiftheywere,ashesupposed,valuable,tosparenopainstodiscover,andrestorethemtotheowner。Uponopeningit,hefounditcontainedjewelstoalargeamount,abouttwohundredpoundsinmoney,andaminiaturepicturesetforabracelet。Onexaminingthepicture,hethoughthehadsomewhereseenfeaturesverylikeit,butcouldnotrecollectwhere。Afewdaysafter,beingatapublicassembly,hesawMissFranklin,andthelikenesswastooevidenttobemistaken: heenquiredamonghisbrotherofficersifanyofthemknewher,andfoundonewhowasupontermsofintimacyinthefamily: \"thenintroducemetoherimmediately,\"saidhe,\"forIamcertainI caninformherofsomethingwhichwillgiveherpeculiarpleasure。\" Hewasimmediatelyintroduced,foundshewastheownerofthejewels,andwasinvitedtobreakfastthenextmorninginordertotheirrestoration。 ThiswholeeveningMontravillewashonouredwithJulia’shand; thelivelysalliesofherwit,theeleganceofhermanner,powerfullycharmedhim:heforgotCharlotte,andindulgedhimselfinsayingeverythingthatwaspoliteandtendertoJulia。 Butonretiring,recollectionreturned。\"WhatamIabout?\"saidhe: \"thoughIcannotmarryCharlotte,Icannotbevillainenoughtoforsakeher,normustIdaretotriflewiththeheartofJuliaFranklin。 Iwillreturnthisbox,\"saidhe,\"whichhasbeenthesourceofsomuchuneasinessalready,andintheeveningpayavisittomypoormelancholyCharlotte,andendeavourtoforgetthisfascinatingJulia。\" Hearose,dressedhimself,andtakingthepictureout,\"Iwillreservethisfromtherest,\"saidhe,\"andbypresentingittoherwhenshethinksitislost,enhancethevalueoftheobligation。\"HerepairedtoMr。Franklin’s,andfoundJuliainthebreakfastparlouralone。 \"HowhappyamI,Madam,\"saidhe,\"thatbeingthefortunateinstrumentofsavingthesejewelshasbeenthemeansofprocuringmetheacquaintanceofsoamiablealady。Therearethejewelsandmoneyallsafe。\" \"Butwhereisthepicture,Sir?\"saidJulia。 \"Here,Madam。Iwouldnotwillinglypartwithit。\" \"Itistheportraitofmymother,\"saidshe,takingitfromhim: \"’tisallthatremains。\"Shepressedittoherlips,andateartrembledinhereyes。Montravilleglancedhiseyeonhergreynightgownandblackribbon,andhisownfeelingspreventedareply。 JuliaFranklinwastheveryreverseofCharlotteTemple: shewastall,elegantlyshaped,andpossessedmuchoftheairandmannerofawomanoffashion;hercomplexionwasaclearbrown,enlivenedwiththeglowofhealth,hereyes,full,black,andsparkling,dartedtheirintelligentglancesthroughlongsilkenlashes; herhairwasshiningbrown,andherfeaturesregularandstriking; therewasanairofinnocentgaietythatplayedabouthercountenance,wheregoodhumoursattriumphant。 \"Ihavebeenmistaken,\"saidMontraville。\"IimaginedIlovedCharlotte: butalas!Iamnowtoolateconvincedmyattachmenttoherwasmerelytheimpulseofthemoment。IfearIhavenotonlyentailedlastingmiseryonthatpoorgirl,butalsothrownabarrierinthewayofmyownhappiness,whichitwillbeimpossibletosurmount。 IfeelIloveJuliaFranklinwithardourandsincerity; yet,wheninherpresence,Iamsensibleofmyowninabilitytoofferaheartworthyheracceptance,andremainsilent。\" Fullofthesepainfulthoughts,MontravillewalkedouttoseeCharlotte: shesawhimapproach,andranouttomeethim:shebanishedfromhercountenancetheairofdiscontentwhicheverappearedwhenhewasabsent,andmethimwithasmileofjoy。 \"Ithoughtyouhadforgotme,Montraville,\"saidshe,\"andwasveryunhappy。\" \"Ishallneverforgetyou,Charlotte,\"hereplied,pressingherhand。 Theuncommongravityofhiscountenance,andthebrevityofhisreply,alarmedher。 \"Youarenotwell,\"saidshe;\"yourhandishot;youreyesareheavy; youareveryill。\" \"Iamavillain,\"saidhementally,asheturnedfromhertohidehisemotions。 \"Butcome,\"continuedshetenderly,\"youshallgotobed,andIwillsitby,andwatchyou;youwillbebetterwhenyouhaveslept。\" Montravillewasgladtoretire,andbypretendingsleep,hidetheagitationofhismindfromherpenetratingeye。 Charlottewatchedbyhimtillalatehour,andthen,lyingsoftlydownbyhisside,sunkintoaprofoundsleep,fromwhencesheawokenottilllatethenextmorning。 CHAPTERXX。 Virtueneverappearssoamiableaswhenreachingforthherhandtoraiseafallensister。 CHAPTEROFACCIDENTS。 WHENCharlotteawoke,shemissedMontraville;butthinkinghemighthavearisenearlytoenjoythebeautiesofthemorning,shewaspreparingtofollowhim,whencastinghereyeonthetable,shesawanote,andopeningithastily,foundthesewords—— \"MydearCharlottemustnotbesurprised,ifshedoesnotseemeagainforsometime:unavoidablebusinesswillpreventmethatpleasure: beassuredIamquitewellthismorning;andwhatyourfondimaginationmagnifiedintoillness,wasnothingmorethanfatigue,whichafewhoursresthasentirelyremoved。Makeyourselfhappy,andbecertainoftheunalterablefriendshipof\"MONTRAVILLE。\" \"FRIENDSHIP!\"saidCharlotteemphatically,asshefinishedthenote,\"isitcometothisatlast?Alas!poor,forsakenCharlotte,thydoomisnowbuttooapparent。Montravilleisnolongerinterestedinthyhappiness;andshame,remorse,anddisappointedlovewillhenceforthbethyonlyattendants。\" ThoughtheseweretheideasthatinvoluntarilyrusheduponthemindofCharlotteassheperusedthefatalnote,yetafterafewhourshadelapsed,thesyrenHopeagaintookpossessionofherbosom,andsheflatteredherselfshecould,onasecondperusal,discoveranairoftendernessinthefewlineshehadleft,whichatfirsthadescapedhernotice。 \"Hecertainlycannotbesobaseastoleaveme,\"saidshe,\"andinstilinghimselfmyfrienddoeshenotpromisetoprotectme。 Iwillnottormentmyselfwiththesecauselessfears;Iwillplaceaconfidenceinhishonour;andsurehewillnotbesounjustastoabuseit。\" Justasshehadbythismannerofreasoningbroughthermindtosometolerabledegreeofcomposure,shewassurprisedbyavisitfromBelcour。 ThedejectionvisibleinCharlotte’scountenance,herswolneyesandneglectedattire,atoncetoldhimshewasunhappy:hemadenodoubtbutMontravillehad,byhiscoldness,alarmedhersuspicions,andwasresolved,ifpossible,torousehertojealousy,urgehertoreproachhim,andbythatmeansoccasionabreachbetweenthem。 \"IfIcanonceconvinceherthatshehasarival,\"saidhe,\"shewilllistentomypassionifitisonlytorevengehisslights。\" Belcourknewbutlittleofthefemaleheart;andwhathedidknowwasonlyofthoseoflooseanddissolutelives。 Hehadnoideathatawomanmightfallavictimtoimprudence,andyetretainsostrongasenseofhonour,astorejectwithhorrorandcontempteverysolicitationtoasecondfault。 Heneverimaginedthatagentle,generousfemaleheart,oncetenderlyattached,whentreatedwithunkindnessmightbreak,butwouldneverharbourathoughtofrevenge。 Hisvisitwasnotlong,butbeforehewenthefixedascorpionintheheartofCharlotte,whosevenomembitteredeveryfuturehourofherlife。 WewillnowreturnforamomenttoColonelCrayton。Hehadbeenthreemonthsmarried,andinthatlittletimehaddiscoveredthattheconductofhisladywasnotsoprudentasitoughttohavebeen: butremonstrancewasvain;hertemperwasviolent;andtotheColonel’sgreatmisfortunehehadconceivedasincereaffectionforher: shesawherownpower,and,withtheartofaCirce,madeeveryactionappeartohiminwhatlightshepleased:hisacquaintancelaughedathisblindness,hisfriendspitiedhisinfatuation,hisamiabledaughter,Mrs。Beauchamp,insecretdeploredthelossofherfather’saffection,andgrievedthatheshouldbesoentirelyswayedbyanartful,and,shemuchfeared,infamouswoman。 Mrs。Beauchampwasmildandengaging;shelovednotthehurryandbustleofacity,andhadprevailedonherhusbandtotakeahouseafewmilesfromNew-York。ChanceledherintothesameneighbourhoodwithCharlotte;theirhousesstoodwithinashortspaceofeachother,andtheirgardensjoined:shehadnotbeenlonginhernewhabitationbeforethefigureofCharlottestruckher; sherecollectedherinterestingfeatures;shesawthemelancholysoconspicuousinhercountenance,andherheartbledatthereflection,thatperhapsdeprivedofhonour,friends,allthatwasvaluableinlife,shewasdoomedtolingeroutawretchedexistenceinastrangeland,andsinkbroken-heartedintoanuntimelygrave。 \"WouldtoheavenIcouldsnatchherfromsohardafate,\"saidshe; \"butthemercilessworldhasbarredthedoorsofcompassionagainstapoorweakgirl,who,perhaps,hadsheonekindfriendtoraiseandreassureher,wouldgladlyreturntopeaceandvirtue; nay,eventhewomanwhodarestopity,andendeavourtorecallawanderingsister,incursthesneerofcontemptandridicule,foranactioninwhichevenangelsaresaidtorejoice。\" ThelongerMrs。BeauchampwasawitnesstothesolitarylifeCharlotteled,themoreshewishedtospeaktoher,andoftenasshesawhercheekswetwiththetearsofanguish,shewouldsay——\"Dearsufferer,howgladlywouldIpourintoyourheartthebalmofconsolation,wereitnotforthefearofderision。\" Butanaccidentsoonhappenedwhichmadeherresolvetobraveeventhescoffsoftheworld,ratherthannotenjoytheheavenlysatisfactionofcomfortingadespondingfellow-creature。 Mrs。Beauchampwasanearlyriser。Shewasonemorningwalkinginthegarden,leaningonherhusband’sarm,whenthesoundofaharpattractedtheirnotice:theylistenedattentively,andheardasoftmelodiousvoicedistinctlysingthefollowingstanzas: Thougloriousorb,supremelybright,Justrisingfromthesea,Tochearallnaturewiththylight,Whatarethybeamstome? Invainthygloriesbidmerise,Tohailthenew-bornday,Alas!mymorningsacrificeIsstilltoweepandpray。 Forwhatarenature’scharmscombin’d,Toone,whosewearybreastCanneitherpeacenorcomfortfind,Norfriendwhereontorest? Oh!never!never!whilstIliveCanmyheart’sanguishcease: Come,friendlydeath,thymandategive,Andletmebeatpeace。 \"’TispoorCharlotte!\"saidMrs。Beauchamp,thepelluciddropofhumanitystealingdownhercheek。 CaptainBeauchampwasalarmedatheremotion。\"WhatCharlotte?\" saidhe;\"doyouknowher?\" IntheaccentofapityingangeldidshedisclosetoherhusbandCharlotte’sunhappysituation,andthefrequentwishshehadformedofbeingserviceabletoher。\"Ifear,\"continuedshe,\"thepoorgirlhasbeenbaselybetrayed;andifIthoughtyouwouldnotblameme,Iwouldpayheravisit,offerhermyfriendship,andendeavourtorestoretoherheartthatpeacesheseemstohavelost,andsopatheticallylaments。Whoknows,mydear,\"layingherhandaffectionatelyonhisarm,\"whoknowsbutshehasleftsomekind,affectionateparentstolamenthererrors,andwouldshereturn,theymightwithrapturereceivethepoorpenitent,andwashawayherfaultsintearsofjoy。Oh!whatagloriousreflexionwoulditbeformecouldIbethehappyinstrumentofrestoringher。 Herheartmaynotbedepraved,Beauchamp。\" \"Exaltedwoman!\"criedBeauchamp,embracingher,\"howdostthouriseeverymomentinmyesteem。Followtheimpulseofthygenerousheart,myEmily。Letprudesandfoolscensureiftheydare,andblameasensibilitytheyneverfelt;Iwillexultinglytellthemthattheheartthatistrulyvirtuousiseverinclinedtopityandforgivetheerrorsofitsfellow-creatures。\" AbeamofexultingjoyplayedroundtheanimatedcountenanceofMrs。Beauchamp,attheseencomiumsbestowedonherbyabelovedhusband,themostdelightfulsensationspervadedherheart,and,havingbreakfasted,shepreparedtovisitCharlotte。 CHAPTERXXI。 Teachmetofeelanother’swoe,TohidethefaultIsee,ThatmercyItoothersshow,Thatmercyshowtome。POPE。 WHENMrs。Beauchampwasdressed,shebegantofeelembarrassedatthethoughtofbeginninganacquaintancewithCharlotte,andwasdistressedhowtomakethefirstvisit。\"Icannotgowithoutsomeintroduction,\" saidshe,\"itwilllooksolikeimpertinentcuriosity。\" Atlengthrecollectingherself,shesteppedintothegarden,andgatheringafewfinecucumbers,tooktheminherhandbywayofapologyforhervisit。 AglowofconsciousshamevermillionedCharlotte’sfaceasMrs。Beauchampentered。 \"Youwillpardonme,Madam,\"saidshe,\"fornothavingbeforepaidmyrespectstosoamiableaneighbour;butweEnglishpeoplealwayskeepupthatreservewhichisthecharacteristicofournationwhereverwego。 Ihavetakenthelibertytobringyouafewcucumbers,forIobservedyouhadnoneinyourgarden。\" Charlotte,thoughnaturallypoliteandwell-bred,wassoconfusedshecouldhardlyspeak。Herkindvisitorendeavouredtorelieveherbynotnoticingherembarrassment。\"Iamcome,Madam,\" continuedshe,\"torequestyouwillspendthedaywithme。 Ishallbealone;and,aswearebothstrangersinthiscountry,wemayhereafterbeextremelyhappyineachother’sfriendship。\" \"Yourfriendship,Madam,\"saidCharlotteblushing,\"isanhonourtoallwhoarefavouredwithit。LittleasIhaveseenofthispartoftheworld,IamnostrangertoMrs。Beauchamp’sgoodnessofheartandknownhumanity:butmyfriendship——\"Shepaused,glancedhereyeuponherownvisiblesituation,and,spiteofherendeavourstosuppressthem,burstintotears。 Mrs。Beauchampguessedthesourcefromwhencethosetearsflowed。 \"Youseemunhappy,Madam,\"saidshe:\"shallIbethoughtworthyyourconfidence?willyouentrustmewiththecauseofyoursorrow,andrestonmyassurancestoexertmyutmostpowertoserveyou。\" Charlottereturnedalookofgratitude,butcouldnotspeak,andMrs。Beauchampcontinued——\"MyheartwasinterestedinyourbehalfthefirstmomentIsawyou,andIonlylamentIhadnotmadeearlieroverturestowardsanacquaintance;butIflattermyselfyouwillhenceforthconsidermeasyourfriend。\" \"OhMadam!\"criedCharlotte,\"Ihaveforfeitedthegoodopinionofallmyfriends;Ihaveforsakenthem,andundonemyself。\" \"Come,come,mydear,\"saidMrs。Beauchamp,\"youmustnotindulgethesegloomythoughts:youarenotIhopesomiserableasyouimagineyourself: endeavourtobecomposed,andletmebefavouredwithyourcompanyatdinner,when,ifyoucanbringyourselftothinkmeyourfriend,andreposeaconfidenceinme,Iamreadytoconvinceyouitshallnotbeabused。\"Shethenarose,andbadehergoodmorning。 AtthedininghourCharlotterepairedtoMrs。Beauchamp’s,andduringdinnerassumedascomposedanaspectaspossible; butwhentheclothwasremoved,shesummonedallherresolutionanddeterminedtomakeMrs。Beauchampacquaintedwitheverycircumstanceprecedingherunfortunateelopement,andtheearnestdesireshehadtoquitawayoflifesorepugnanttoherfeelings。 WiththebenignantaspectofanangelofmercydidMrs。Beauchamplistentotheartlesstale:shewasshockedtothesoultofindhowlargeashareLaRuehadintheseductionofthisamiablegirl,andatearfell,whenshereflectedsovileawomanwasnowthewifeofherfather。 WhenCharlottehadfinished,shegaveheralittletimetocollectherscatteredspirits,andthenaskedherifshehadneverwrittentoherfriends。 \"Ohyes,Madam,\"saidshe,\"frequently:butIhavebroketheirhearts: theyareeitherdeadorhavecastmeoffforever,forIhaveneverreceivedasinglelinefromthem。\" \"Irathersuspect,\"saidMrs。Beauchamp,\"theyhaveneverhadyourletters:butsupposeyouweretohearfromthem,andtheywerewillingtoreceiveyou,wouldyouthenleavethiscruelMontraville,andreturntothem?\" \"WouldI!\"saidCharlotte,claspingherhands;\"wouldnotthepoorsailor,tostonatempestuousocean,threatenedeverymomentwithdeath,gladlyreturntotheshorehehadlefttotrusttoitsdeceitfulcalmness?Oh,mydearMadam,Iwouldreturn,thoughtodoitIwereobligedtowalkbarefootoveraburningdesart,andbegascantypittanceofeachtravellertosupportmyexistence。 Iwouldendureitallchearfully,couldIbutoncemoreseemydear,blessedmother,hearherpronouncemypardon,andblessmebeforeIdied; butalas!Ishallneverseehermore;shehasblottedtheungratefulCharlottefromherremembrance,andIshallsinktothegraveloadedwithher’sandmyfather’scurse。\" Mrs。Beauchampendeavouredtosoothher。\"Youshallwritetothemagain,\" saidshe,\"andIwillseethattheletterissentbythefirstpacketthatsailsforEngland;inthemeantimekeepupyourspirits,andhopeeverything,bydaringtodeserveit。\" Shethenturnedtheconversation,andCharlottehavingtakenacupoftea,wishedherbenevolentfriendagoodevening。 CHAPTERXXII。 SORROWSOFTHEHEART。 WHENCharlottegothomesheendeavouredtocollectherthoughts,andtookupapeninordertoaddressthosedearparents,whom,spiteofhererrors,shestilllovedwiththeutmosttenderness,butvainwaseveryefforttowritewiththeleastcoherence; hertearsfellsofasttheyalmostblindedher;andassheproceededtodescribeherunhappysituation,shebecamesoagitatedthatshewasobligedtogiveovertheattemptandretiretobed,where,overcomewiththefatiguehermindhadundergone,shefellintoaslumberwhichgreatlyrefreshedher,andshearoseinthemorningwithspiritsmoreadequatetothepainfultaskshehadtoperform,and,afterseveralattempts,atlengthconcludedthefollowinglettertohermother—— TOMRS。TEMPLE。 NEW-YORK。 \"Willmyoncekind,myeverbelovedmother,deigntoreceivealetterfromherguilty,butrepentantchild?orhasshe,justlyincensedatmyingratitude,driventheunhappyCharlottefromherremembrance? Alas!thoumuchinjuredmother!shouldstthouevendisownme,Idarenotcomplain,becauseIknowIhavedeservedit:butyet,believeme,guiltyasIam,andcruellyasIhavedisappointedthehopesofthefondestparents,thatevergirlhad,eveninthemomentwhen,forgetfulofmyduty,Ifledfromyouandhappiness,eventhenIlovedyoumost,andmyheartbledatthethoughtofwhatyouwouldsuffer。 Oh!never,never!whilstIhaveexistence,willtheagonyofthatmomentbeerasedfrommymemory。Itseemedliketheseparationofsoulandbody。 WhatcanIpleadinexcuseformyconduct?alas!nothing! ThatIlovedmyseducerisbuttootrue!yetpowerfulasthatpassioniswhenoperatinginayoungheartglowingwithsensibility,itneverwouldhaveconqueredmyaffectiontoyou,mybelovedparents,hadInotbeenencouraged,nay,urgedtotakethefatallyimprudentstep,byoneofmyownsex,who,underthemaskoffriendship,drewmeontoruin。YetthinknotyourCharlottewassolostastovoluntarilyrushintoalifeofinfamy;no,mydearmother,deceivedbythespeciousappearanceofmybetrayer,andeverysuspicionlulledasleepbythemostsolemnpromisesofmarriage,Ithoughtnotthosepromiseswouldsoeasilybeforgotten。 Ineveroncereflectedthatthemanwhocouldstooptoseduction,wouldnothesitatetoforsakethewretchedobjectofhispassion,wheneverhiscapriciousheartgrewwearyofhertenderness。 Whenwearrivedatthisplace,Ivainlyexpectedhimtofulfilhisengagements,butwasatlastfatallyconvincedhehadneverintendedtomakemehiswife,orifhehadoncethoughtofit,hismindwasnowaltered。IscornedtoclaimfromhishumanitywhatI couldnotobtainfromhislove:Iwasconsciousofhavingforfeitedtheonlygemthatcouldrendermerespectableintheeyeoftheworld。 Ilockedmysorrowsinmyownbosom,andboremyinjuriesinsilence。 ButhowshallIproceed?Thisman,thiscruelMontraville,forwhomIsacrificedhonour,happiness,andtheloveofmyfriends,nolongerlooksonmewithaffection,butscornsthecredulousgirlwhomhisarthasmademiserable。Couldyouseeme,mydearparents,withoutsociety,withoutfriends,stungwithremorse,and(IfeeltheburningblushofshamediemycheekswhileIwriteit) torturedwiththepangsofdisappointedlove;cuttothesoulbytheindifferenceofhim,who,havingdeprivedmeofeveryothercomfort,nolongerthinksitworthhiswhiletosooththeheartwherehehasplantedthethornofnever-ceasingregret。 Mydailyemploymentistothinkofyouandweep,toprayforyourhappinessanddeploremyownfolly:mynightsarescarcemorehappy,forifbychanceIclosemywearyeyes,andhopesomesmallforgetfulnessofsorrow,somelittletimetopassinsweetoblivion,fancy,stillwaking,waftsmehometoyou:Iseeyourbelovedforms,Ikneelandheartheblessedwordsofpeaceandpardon。 Extaticjoypervadesmysoul;Ireachmyarmstocatchyourdearembraces; themotionchasestheillusivedream;Iwaketorealmisery。 AtothertimesIseemyfatherangryandfrowning,pointtohorridcaves,where,onthecolddampground,intheagoniesofdeath,Iseemydearmotherandmyreveredgrand-father。Istrivetoraiseyou; youpushmefromyou,andshriekingcry——\"Charlotte,thouhastmurderedme!\"Horroranddespairteareverytorturednerve; Istart,andleavemyrestlessbed,wearyandunrefreshed。 \"Shockingasthesereflexionsare,Ihaveyetonemoredreadfulthantherest。Mother,mydearmother!donotletmequitebreakyourheartwhenItellyou,inafewmonthsI shallbringintotheworldaninnocentwitnessofmyguilt。 Ohmybleedingheart,Ishallbringapoorlittlehelplesscreature,heirtoinfamyandshame。 \"Thisalonehasurgedmeoncemoretoaddressyou,tointerestyouinbehalfofthispoorunborn,andbegyoutoextendyourprotectiontothechildofyourlostCharlotte;formyownpartI havewrotesooften,sofrequentlyhavepleadedforforgiveness,andentreatedtobereceivedoncemorebeneaththepaternalroof,thathavingreceivednoanswer,notevenoneline,Imuchfearyouhavecastmefromyouforever。 \"Butsureyoucannotrefusetoprotectmyinnocentinfant: itpartakesnotofitsmother’sguilt。Ohmyfather,ohbelovedmother,nowdoIfeeltheanguishIinflictedonyourheartsrecoilingwithdoubleforceuponmyown。 \"Ifmychildshouldbeagirl(whichheavenforbid)tellhertheunhappyfateofhermother,andteachhertoavoidmyerrors; ifaboy,teachhimtolamentmymiseries,buttellhimnotwhoinflictedthem,lestinwishingtorevengehismother’sinjuries,heshouldwoundthepeaceofhisfather。 \"Andnow,dearfriendsofmysoul,kindguardiansofmyinfancy,farewell。 IfeelInevermoremusthopetoseeyou;theanguishofmyheartstrikesatthestringsoflife,andinashorttimeIshallbeatrest。 OhcouldIbutreceiveyourblessingandforgivenessbeforeIdied,itwouldsmoothmypassagetothepeacefulgrave,andbeablessedforetasteofahappyeternity。Ibeseechyou,cursemenot,myadoredparents,butletatearofpityandpardonfalltothememoryofyourlostCHARLOTTE。 CHAPTERXXIII。 AMANMAYSMILE,ANDSMILE,ANDBEAVILLAIN。 WHILECharlottewasenjoyingsomesmalldegreeofcomfortintheconsolingfriendshipofMrs。Beauchamp,MontravillewasadvancingrapidlyinhisaffectiontowardsMissFranklin。 Juliawasanamiablegirl;shesawonlythefairsideofhischaracter; shepossessedanindependentfortune,andresolvedtobehappywiththemanofherheart,thoughhisrankandfortunewerebynomeanssoexaltedasshehadarighttoexpect;shesawthepassionwhichMontravillestruggledtoconceal;shewonderedathistimidity,butimaginedthedistancefortunehadplacedbetweenthemoccasionedhisbackwardness,andmadeeveryadvancewhichstrictprudenceandabecomingmodestywouldpermit。Montravillesawwithpleasurehewasnotindifferenttoher,butasparkofhonourwhichanimatedhisbosomwouldnotsufferhimtotakeadvantageofherpartiality。 HewaswellacquaintedwithCharlotte’ssituation,andhethoughttherewouldbeadoublecrueltyinforsakingheratsuchatime; andtomarryMissFranklin,whilehonour,humanity,everysacredlaw,obligedhimstilltoprotectandsupportCharlotte,wasabasenesswhichhissoulshudderedat。 HecommunicatedhisuneasinesstoBelcour:itwastheverythingthispretendedfriendhadwished。\"Anddoyoureally,\" saidhe,laughing,\"hesitateatmarryingthelovelyJulia,andbecomingmasterofherfortune,becausealittlefoolish,fondgirlchosetoleaveherfriends,andrunawaywithyoutoAmerica。 DearMontraville,actmorelikeamanofsense;thiswhining,piningCharlotte,whooccasionsyousomuchuneasiness,wouldhaveelopedwithsomebodyelseifshehadnotwithyou。\" \"Wouldtoheaven,\"saidMontraville,\"Ihadneverseenher; myregardforherwasbutthemomentarypassionofdesire,butI feelIshallloveandrevereJuliaFranklinaslongasIlive; yettoleavepoorCharlotteinherpresentsituationwouldbecruelbeyonddescription。\" \"Ohmygoodsentimentalfriend,\"saidBelcour,\"doyouimaginenobodyhasarighttoprovideforthebratbutyourself。\" Montravillestarted。\"Sure,\"saidhe,\"youcannotmeantoinsinuatethatCharlotteisfalse。\" \"Idon’tinsinuateit,\"saidBelcour,\"Iknowit。\" Montravilleturnedpaleasashes。\"Thenthereisnofaithinwoman,\"saidhe。 \"WhileIthoughtyouattachedtoher,\"saidBelcourwithanairofindifference,\"Ineverwishedtomakeyouuneasybymentioningherperfidy,butasIknowyouloveandarebelovedbyMissFranklin,Iwasdeterminednottoletthesefoolishscruplesofhonourstepbetweenyouandhappiness,oryourtendernessforthepeaceofaperfidiousgirlpreventyourunitingyourselftoawomanofhonour。\" \"Goodheavens!\"saidMontraville,\"whatpoignantreflectionsdoesamanendurewhoseesalovelywomanplungedininfamy,andisconscioushewasherfirstseducer;butareyoucertainofwhatyousay,Belcour?\" \"Sofar,\"repliedhe,\"thatImyselfhavereceivedadvancesfromherwhichIwouldnottakeadvantageofoutofregardtoyou: buthangit,thinknomoreabouther。IdinedatFranklin’sto-day,andJuliabidmeseekandbringyoutotea:socomealong,mylad,makegooduseofopportunity,andseizethegiftsoffortunewhiletheyarewithinyourreach。\"MontravillewastoomuchagitatedtopassahappyeveningeveninthecompanyofJuliaFranklin: hedeterminedtovisitCharlotteearlythenextmorning,taxherwithherfalsehood,andtakeaneverlastingleaveofher; butwhenthemorningcame,hewascommandedonduty,andforsixweekswaspreventedfromputtinghisdesigninexecution。Atlengthhefoundanhourtospare,andwalkedouttospenditwithCharlotte: itwasnearfouro’clockintheafternoonwhenhearrivedathercottage; shewasnotintheparlour,andwithoutcallingtheservanthewalkedupstairs,thinkingtofindherinherbedroom。 Heopenedthedoor,andthefirstobjectthatmethiseyeswasCharlotteasleeponthebed,andBelcourbyherside。 \"Deathanddistraction,\"saidhe,stamping,\"thisistoomuch。 Rise,villain,anddefendyourself。\"Belcoursprangfromthebed。 ThenoiseawokeCharlotte;terrifiedatthefuriousappearanceofMontraville,andseeingBelcourwithhiminthechamber,shecaughtholdofhisarmashestoodbythebed-side,andeagerlyaskedwhatwasthematter。 \"Treacherous,infamousgirl,\"saidhe,\"canyouask?Howcamehehere?\" pointingtoBelcour。 \"Asheavenismywitness,\"repliedsheweeping,’Idonotknow。 Ihavenotseenhimforthesethreeweeks。\" \"Thenyouconfesshesometimesvisitsyou?\" \"Hecamesometimesbyyourdesire。\" \"’Tisfalse;Ineverdesiredhimtocome,andyouknowIdidnot: butmarkme,Charlotte,fromthisinstantourconnexionisatanend。 LetBelcour,oranyotherofyourfavouredlovers,takeyouandprovideforyou;Ihavedonewithyouforever。\" Hewasthengoingtoleaveher;butstartingwildlyfromthebed,shethrewherselfonherkneesbeforehim,protestingherinnocenceandentreatinghimnottoleaveher。\"OhMontraville,\"saidshe,\"killme,forpity’ssakekillme,butdonotdoubtmyfidelity。 Donotleavemeinthishorridsituation;forthesakeofyourunbornchild,oh!spurnnotthewretchedmotherfromyou。\" \"Charlotte,\"saidhe,withafirmvoice,\"Ishalltakecarethatneitheryounoryourchildwantanythingintheapproachingpainfulhour; butwemeetnomore。\"Hethenendeavouredtoraiseherfromtheground; butinvain;sheclungabouthisknees,entreatinghimtobelieveherinnocent,andconjuringBelcourtoclearupthedreadfulmystery。 BelcourcastonMontravilleasmileofcontempt:itirritatedhimalmosttomadness;hebrokefromthefeeblearmsofthedistressedgirl; sheshriekedandfellprostrateonthefloor。 Montravilleinstantlyleftthehouseandreturnedhastilytothecity。 CHAPTERXXIV。 MYSTERYDEVELOPED。 UNFORTUNATELYforCharlotte,aboutthreeweeksbeforethisunhappyrencontre,CaptainBeauchamp,beingorderedtoRhode-Island,hisladyhadaccompaniedhim,sothatCharlottewasdeprivedofherfriendlyadviceandconsolingsociety。TheafternoononwhichMontravillehadvisitedhershehadfoundherselflanguidandfatigued,andaftermakingaveryslightdinnerhadlaindowntoendeavourtorecruitherexhaustedspirits,and,contrarytoherexpectations,hadfallenasleep。Shehadnotlongbeenlaindown,whenBelcourarrived,forhetookeveryopportunityofvisitingher,andstrivingtoawakenherresentmentagainstMontraville。 Heenquiredoftheservantwherehermistresswas,andbeingtoldshewasasleep,tookupabooktoamusehimself: havingsatafewminutes,hebychancecasthiseyestowardstheroad,andsawMontravilleapproaching;heinstantlyconceivedthediabolicalschemeofruiningtheunhappyCharlotteinhisopinionforever; hethereforestolesoftlyupstairs,andlayinghimselfbyhersidewiththegreatestprecaution,forfearsheshouldawake,wasinthatsituationdiscoveredbyhiscredulousfriend。 WhenMontravillespurnedtheweepingCharlottefromhim,andleftheralmostdistractedwithterroranddespair,Belcourraisedherfromthefloor,andleadingherdownstairs,assumedthepartofatender,consolingfriend;shelistenedtotheargumentsheadvancedwithapparentcomposure;butthiswasonlythecalmofamoment: theremembranceofMontraville’srecentcrueltyagainrusheduponhermind:shepushedhimfromherwithsomeviolence,andcrying——\"Leaveme,Sir,Ibeseechyouleaveme,formuchIfearyouhavebeenthecauseofmyfidelitybeingsuspected;go,leavemetotheaccumulatedmiseriesmyownimprudencehasbroughtuponme。\" Shethenlefthimwithprecipitation,andretiringtoherownapartment,threwherselfonthebed,andgaveventtoanagonyofgriefwhichitisimpossibletodescribe。 ItnowoccurredtoBelcourthatshemightpossiblywritetoMontraville,andendeavourtoconvincehimofherinnocence:hewaswellawareofherpatheticremonstrances,and,sensibleofthetendernessofMontraville’sheart,resolvedtopreventanyletterseverreachinghim: hethereforecalledtheservant,and,bythepowerfulpersuasionofabribe,prevailedwithhertopromisewhateverlettershermistressmightwriteshouldbesenttohim。Hethenleftapolite,tendernoteforCharlotte,andreturnedtoNew-York。HisfirstbusinesswastoseekMontraville,andendeavourtoconvincehimthatwhathadhappenedwouldultimatelytendtohishappiness: hefoundhiminhisapartment,solitary,pensive,andwrappedindisagreeablereflexions。 \"Whyhownow,whining,pininglover?\"saidhe,clappinghimontheshoulder。Montravillestarted;amomentaryflushofresentmentcrossedhischeek,butinstantlygaveplacetoadeath-likepaleness,occasionedbypainfulremembranceremembranceawakenedbythatmonitor,whom,thoughwemayinvainendeavour,wecanneverentirelysilence。 \"Belcour,\"saidhe,\"youhaveinjuredmeinatenderpoint。\" \"Prithee,Jack,\"repliedBelcour,\"donotmakeaseriousmatterofit: howcouldIrefusethegirl’sadvances?andthankheavensheisnotyourwife。\" \"True,\"saidMontraville;\"butshewasinnocentwhenIfirstknewher。 ItwasIseducedher,Belcour。Haditnotbeenforme,shehadstillbeenvirtuousandhappyintheaffectionandprotectionofherfamily。\" \"Pshaw,\"repliedBelcour,laughing,\"ifyouhadnottakenadvantageofhereasynature,someotherwould,andwhereisthedifference,pray?\" \"IwishIhadneverseenher,\"criedhepassionately,andstartingfromhisseat。\"OhthatcursedFrenchwoman,\"addedhewithvehemence,\"haditnotbeenforher,Imighthavebeenhappy——\"Hepaused。 \"WithJuliaFranklin,\"saidBelcour。Thename,likeasuddensparkofelectricfire,seemedforamomenttosuspendhisfaculties—— foramomenthewastransfixed;butrecovering,hecaughtBelcour’shand,andcried——’Stop!stop!Ibeseechyou,namenotthelovelyJuliaandthewretchedMontravilleinthesamebreath。 Iamaseducer,amean,ungenerousseducerofunsuspectinginnocence。 Idarenothopethatpuritylikeher’swouldstooptouniteitselfwithblack,premeditatedguilt:yetbyheavensIswear,Belcour,IthoughtIlovedthelost,abandonedCharlottetillIsawJulia—— IthoughtInevercouldforsakeher;buttheheartisdeceitful,andI nowcanplainlydiscriminatebetweentheimpulseofayouthfulpassion,andthepureflameofdisinterestedaffection。\" AtthatinstantJuliaFranklinpassedthewindow,leaningonheruncle’sarm。Shecurtseyedasshepassed,and,withthebewitchingsmileofmodestchearfulness,cried——\"Doyouburyyourselvesinthehousethisfineevening,gents?\"Therewassomethinginthevoice!themanner!thelook!thatwasaltogetherirresistible。 \"Perhapsshewishesmycompany,\"saidMontravillementally,ashesnatcheduphishat:\"ifIthoughtshelovedme,Iwouldconfessmyerrors,andtrusttohergenerositytopityandpardonme。\" Hesoonovertookher,andofferingherhisarm,theysaunteredtopleasantbutunfrequentedwalks。BelcourdrewMr。Franklinononesideandenteredintoapoliticaldiscourse:theywalkedfasterthantheyoungpeople,andBelcourbysomemeanscontrivedentirelytolosesightofthem。 Itwasafineeveninginthebeginningofautumn;thelastremainsofday-lightfaintlystreakedthewesternsky,whilethemoon,withpaleandvirginlustreintheroomofgorgeousgoldandpurple,ornamentedthecanopyofheavenwithsilver,fleecyclouds,whichnowandthenhalfhidherlovelyface,and,bypartlyconcealing,heightenedeverybeauty;thezephyrswhisperedsoftlythroughthetrees,whichnowbegantoshedtheirleafyhonours;asolemnsilencereigned: andtoahappymindaneveningsuchasthiswouldgiveserenity,andcalm,unruffledpleasure;buttoMontraville,whileitsoothedtheturbulenceofhispassions,itbroughtincreaseofmelancholyreflections。 Juliawasleaningonhisarm:hetookherhandinhis,andpressingittenderly,sigheddeeply,butcontinuedsilent。 Juliawasembarrassed;shewishedtobreakasilencesounaccountable,butwasunable;shelovedMontraville,shesawhewasunhappy,andwishedtoknowthecauseofhisuneasiness,butthatinnatemodesty,whichnaturehasimplantedinthefemalebreast,preventedherenquiring。 \"Iambadcompany,MissFranklin,\"saidhe,atlastrecollectinghimself; \"butIhavemetwithsomethingto-daythathasgreatlydistressedme,andIcannotshakeoffthedisagreeableimpressionithasmadeonmymind。\" \"Iamsorry,\"shereplied,\"thatyouhaveanycauseofinquietude。 Iamsureifyouwereashappyasyoudeserve,andasallyourfriendswishyou——\"Shehesitated。\"Andmightl,\"repliedhewithsomeanimation,\"presumetoranktheamiableJuliainthatnumber?\" \"Certainly,\"saidshe,\"theserviceyouhaverenderedme,theknowledgeofyourworth,allcombinetomakemeesteemyou。\" \"Esteem,mylovelyJulia,\"saidhepassionately,\"isbutapoorcoldword。 IwouldifIdared,ifIthoughtImeritedyourattention——butno,Imustnot——honourforbids。Iambeneathyournotice,Julia,Iammiserableandcannothopetobeotherwise。\"\"Alas!\"saidJulia,\"Ipityyou。\" \"Ohthoucondescendingcharmer,\"saidhe,’howthatsweetwordchearsmysadheart。Indeedifyouknewall,youwouldpity; butatthesametimeIfearyouwoulddespiseme。\" JustthentheywereagainjoinedbyMr。FranklinandBelcour。 Ithadinterruptedaninterestingdiscourse。Theyfounditimpossibletoconverseonindifferentsubjects,andproceededhomeinsilence。 AtMr。Franklin’sdoorMontravilleagainpressedJulia’shand,andfaintlyarticulating’goodnight,\"retiredtohislodgingsdispiritedandwretched,fromaconsciousnessthathedeservednottheaffection,withwhichheplainlysawhewashonoured。 CHAPTERXXV。 RECEPTIONOFALETTER。 \"ANDwherenowisourpoorCharlotte?\"saidMr。Templeoneevening,asthecoldblastsofautumnwhistledrudelyovertheheath,andtheyellowappearanceofthedistantwood,spokethenearapproachofwinter。Invainthechearfulfireblazedonthehearth,invainwashesurroundedbyallthecomfortsoflife;theparentwasstillaliveinhisheart,andwhenhethoughtthatperhapshisoncedarlingchildwaserethisexposedtoallthemiseriesofwantinadistantland,withoutafriendtosoothandcomforther,withoutthebenignantlookofcompassiontochear,ortheangelicvoiceofpitytopourthebalmofconsolationonherwoundedheart; whenhethoughtofthis,hiswholesouldissolvedintenderness; andwhilehewipedthetearofanguishfromtheeyeofhispatient,uncomplainingLucy,hestruggledtosuppressthesympathizingdropthatstartedinhisown。 \"Oh,mypoorgirl,\"saidMrs。Temple,\"howmustshebealtered,elsesurelyshewouldhaverelievedouragonizingmindsbyonelinetosayshelived——tosayshehadnotquiteforgottheparentswhoalmostidolizedher。\" \"Graciousheaven,\"saidMr。Temple,startingfromhisseat,l,whowouldwishtobeafather,toexperiencetheagonizingpangsinflictedonaparent’sheartbytheingratitudeofachild?\" Mrs。Templewept:herfathertookherhand;hewouldhavesaid,\"becomfortedmychild,\"butthewordsdiedonhistongue。 Thesadsilencethatensuedwasinterruptedbyaloudrapatthedoor。 Inamomentaservantenteredwithaletterinhishand。 Mrs。Templetookitfromhim:shecasthereyesuponthesuperscription; sheknewthewriting。\"’TisCharlotte,\"saidshe,eagerlybreakingtheseal,\"shehasnotquiteforgotus。\"Butbeforeshehadhalfgonethroughthecontents,asuddensicknessseizedher; shegrewcoldandgiddy,andpuffingitintoherhusband’shand,shecried——\"Readit:Icannot。\"Mr。Templeattemptedtoreaditaloud,butfrequentlypausedtogiveventtohistears。 \"Mypoordeludedchild,\"saidhe,whenhehadfinished。 \"Oh,shallwenotforgivethedearpenitent?\"saidMrs。Temple。 \"Wemust,wewill,mylove;sheiswillingtoreturn,and’tisourdutytoreceiveher。\" \"Fatherofmercy,\"saidMr。Eldridge,raisinghisclaspedhands,\"letmebutliveoncemoretoseethedearwandererrestoredtoherafflictedparents,andtakemefromthisworldofsorrowwheneveritseemethbesttothywisdom。\" \"Yes,wewillreceiveher,\"saidMr。Temple;\"wewillendeavourtohealherwoundedspirit,andspeakpeaceandcomforttoheragitatedsoul。 Iwillwritetohertoreturnimmediately。’ \"Oh!\"saidMrs。Temple,\"Iwouldifpossibleflytoher,supportandchearthedearsuffererintheapproachinghourofdistress,andtellherhownearlypenitenceisalliedtovirtue。 Cannotwegoandconductherhome,mylove?\"continuedshe,layingherhandonhisarm。\"Myfatherwillsurelyforgiveourabsenceifwegotobringhomehisdarling。\" \"Youcannotgo,myLucy,\"saidMr。Temple:\"thedelicacyofyourframewouldbutpoorlysustainthefatigueofalongvoyage; butIwillgoandbringthegentlepenitenttoyourarms: wemaystillseemanyyearsofhappiness。\" ThestruggleinthebosomofMrs。Templebetweenmaternalandconjugaltendernesswaslongandpainful。Atlengththeformertriumphed,andsheconsentedthatherhusbandshouldsetforwardtoNew-Yorkbythefirstopportunity:shewrotetoherCharlotteinthetenderest,mostconsolingmanner,andlookedforwardtothehappyhour,whensheshouldagainembraceher,withthemostanimatedhope。 CHAPTERXXVI。 WHATMIGHTBEEXPECTED。 INthemeantimethepassionMontravillehadconceivedforJuliaFranklindailyencreased,andhesawevidentlyhowmuchhewasbelovedbythatamiablegirl:hewaslikewisestronglyprepossessedwithanideaofCharlotte’sperfidy。Whatwonderthenifhegavehimselfuptothedelightfulsensationwhichpervadedhisbosom; andfindingnoobstaclearisetoopposehishappiness,hesolicitedandobtainedthehandofJulia。AfewdaysbeforehismarriagehethusaddressedBelcour: \"ThoughCharlotte,byherabandonedconduct,hasthrownherselffrommyprotection,Istillholdmyselfboundtosupporthertillrelievedfromherpresentcondition,andalsotoprovideforthechild。 Idonotintendtoseeheragain,butIwillplaceasumofmoneyinyourhands,whichwillamplysupplyherwitheveryconvenience; butshouldsherequiremore,letherhaveit,andIwillseeitrepaid。 IwishIcouldprevailonthepoordeludedgirltoreturntoherfriends: shewasanonlychild,andImakenodoubtbutthattheywouldjoyfullyreceiveher;itwouldshockmegreatlytoseeherhenceforthleadingalifeofinfamy,asIshouldalwaysaccusemyselfofbeingtheprimarycauseofallhererrors。Ifsheshouldchusetoremainunderyourprotection,bekindtoher,Belcour,Iconjureyou。 Letnotsatietypromptyoutotreatherinsuchamanner,asmaydrivehertoactionswhichnecessitymighturgeherto,whileherbetterreasondisapprovedthem:sheshallneverwantafriendwhileIlive,butInevermoredesiretobeholdher; herpresencewouldbealwayspainfultome,andaglancefromhereyewouldcalltheblushofconsciousguiltintomycheek。 \"Iwillwritealettertoher,whichyoumaydeliverwhenIamgone,asIshallgotoSt。EustatiathedayaftermyunionwithJulia,whowillaccompanyme。\" Belcourpromisedtofulfiltherequestofhisfriend,thoughnothingwasfartherfromhisintentions,thantheleastdesignofdeliveringtheletter,ormakingCharlotteacquaintedwiththeprovisionMontravillehadmadeforher;hewasbentonthecompleteruinoftheunhappygirl,andsupposed,byreducinghertoanentiredependanceonhim,tobringherbydegreestoconsenttogratifyhisungenerouspassion。 TheeveningbeforethedayappointedforthenuptialsofMontravilleandJulia,theformerrefiredearlytohisapartment; andruminatingonthepastscenesofhislife,sufferedthekeenestremorseintheremembranceofCharlotte’sseduction。 \"Poorgirl,\"saidhe,\"Iwillatleastwriteandbidheradieu; Iwilltooendeavourtoawakenthatloveofvirtueinherbosomwhichherunfortunateattachmenttomehasextinguished。\" Hetookupthepenandbegantowrite,butwordsweredeniedhim。 Howcouldheaddressthewomanwhomhehadseduced,andwhom,thoughhethoughtunworthyhistenderness,hewasabouttobidadieuforever? Howshouldhetellherthathewasgoingtoabjureher,toenterintothemostindissolubletieswithanother,andthathecouldnotevenowntheinfantwhichsheboreashischild?Severalletterswerebegunanddestroyed:atlengthhecompletedthefollowing: TOCHARLOTTE。 \"ThoughIhavetakenupmypentoaddressyou,mypoorinjuredgirl,IfeelIaminadequatetothetask;yet,howeverpainfultheendeavour,Icouldnotresolveuponleavingyouforeverwithoutonekindlinetobidyouadieu,totellyouhowmyheartbleedsattheremembranceofwhatyouwas,beforeyousawthehatedMontraville。 Evennowimaginationpaintsthescene,when,tornbycontendingpassions,when,strugglingbetweenloveandduty,youfaintedinmyarms,andIliftedyouintothechaise:Iseetheagonyofyourmind,when,recovering,youfoundyourselfontheroadtoPortsmouth: buthow,mygentlegirl,howcouldyou,whensojustlyimpressedwiththevalueofvirtue,howcouldyou,whenlovingasIthoughtyoulovedme,yieldtothesolicitationsofBelcour? \"OhCharlotte,consciencetellsmeitwasI,villainthatIam,whofirsttaughtyoutheallurementsofguiltypleasure;itwasIwhodraggedyoufromthecalmreposewhichinnocenceandvirtueeverenjoy; andcanI,dareItellyou,itwasnotlovepromptedtothehorriddeed? No,thoudear,fallenangel,believeyourrepentantMontraville,whenhetellsyouthemanwhotrulyloveswillneverbetraytheobjectofhisaffection。Adieu,Charlotte:couldyoustillfindcharmsinalifeofunoffend-inginnocence,returntoyourparents; youshallneverwantthemeansofsupportbothforyourselfandchild。 Oh!graciousheaven!maythatchildbeentirelyfreefromthevicesofitsfatherandtheweaknessofitsmother。 \"To-morrow——butno,Icannottellyouwhatto-morrowwillproduce; Belcourwillinformyou:healsohascashforyou,whichIbegyouwillaskforwheneveryoumaywantit。Oncemoreadieu: believemecouldIhearyouwasreturnedtoyourfriends,andenjoyingthattranquillityofwhichIhaverobbedyou,Ishouldbeascompletelyhappyasevenyou,inyourfondesthours,couldwishme,buttillthenagloomwillobscurethebrightestprospectsofMONTRAVILLE。\" Afterhehadsealedthisletterhethrewhimselfonthebed,andenjoyedafewhoursrepose。EarlyinthemorningBelcourtappedathisdoor: hearosehastily,andpreparedtomeethisJuliaatthealtar。 \"ThisisthelettertoCharlotte,\"saidhe,givingittoBelcour: \"takeittoherwhenwearegonetoEustatia;andIconjureyou,mydearfriend,nottouseanysophisticalargumentstopreventherreturntovirtue;butshouldsheinclinethatway,encourageherinthethought,andassisthertoputherdesigninexecution。