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类别:其他 作者:Charles Dickens字数:22216更新时间:19/01/02 16:43:31
\"Halloa!\"hecried。\"Halloa!Thisway!Cometothelight!\" When,asheheldthecurtainwithonehand,andwiththeotherraisedthelampandtriedtopiercethegloomthatfilledtheplace,somethingrushedpasthimintotheroomlikeawild—cat,andcroucheddowninacorner。 \"Whatisit?\"hesaid,hastily。 Hemighthaveasked\"Whatisit?\"evenhadheseenitwell,aspresentlyhedidwhenhestoodlookingatitgatheredupinitscorner。 Abundleoftatters,heldtogetherbyahand,insizeandformalmostaninfant’s,butinitsgreedy,desperatelittleclutch,abadoldman’s。Afaceroundedandsmoothedbysomehalf—dozenyears,butpinchedandtwistedbytheexperiencesofalife。 Brighteyes,butnotyouthful。Nakedfeet,beautifulintheirchildishdelicacy,—uglyinthebloodanddirtthatcrackeduponthem。Ababysavage,ayoungmonster,achildwhohadneverbeenachild,acreaturewhomightlivetotaketheoutwardformofman,butwho,within,wouldliveandperishamerebeast。 Used,already,tobeworriedandhuntedlikeabeast,theboycroucheddownashewaslookedat,andlookedbackagain,andinterposedhisarmtowardofftheexpectedblow。 \"I’llbite,\"hesaid,\"ifyouhitme!\" Thetimehadbeen,andnotmanyminutessince,whensuchasightasthiswouldhavewrungtheChemist’sheart。Helookeduponitnow,coldly;butwithaheavyefforttoremembersomething—hedidnotknowwhat—heaskedtheboywhathedidthere,andwhencehecame。 \"Where’sthewoman?\"hereplied。\"Iwanttofindthewoman。\" \"Who?\" \"Thewoman。Herthatbroughtmehere,andsetmebythelargefire。Shewassolonggone,thatIwenttolookforher,andlostmyself。Idon’twantyou。Iwantthewoman。\" Hemadeaspring,sosuddenly,togetaway,thatthedullsoundofhisnakedfeetuponthefloorwasnearthecurtain,whenRedlawcaughthimbyhisrags。 \"Come!youletmego!\"mutteredtheboy,struggling,andclenchinghisteeth。\"I’vedonenothingtoyou。Letmego,willyou,tothewoman!\" \"Thatisnottheway。Thereisanearerone,\"saidRedlaw,detaininghim,inthesameblankefforttoremembersomeassociationthatought,ofright,tobearuponthismonstrousobject。\"Whatisyourname?\" \"Gotnone。\" \"Wheredoyoulive? \"Live!What’sthat?\" Theboyshookhishairfromhiseyestolookathimforamoment,andthen,twistingroundhislegsandwrestlingwithhim,brokeagainintohisrepetitionof\"Youletmego,willyou?Iwanttofindthewoman。\" TheChemistledhimtothedoor。\"Thisway,\"hesaid,lookingathimstillconfusedly,butwithrepugnanceandavoidance,growingoutofhiscoldness。\"I’lltakeyoutoher。\" Thesharpeyesinthechild’shead,wanderingroundtheroom,lightedonthetablewheretheremnantsofthedinnerwere。 \"Givemesomeofthat!\"hesaid,covetously。 \"Hasshenotfedyou?\" \"Ishallbehungryagainto—morrow,sha’n’tI?Ain’tIhungryeveryday?\" Findinghimselfreleased,heboundedatthetablelikesomesmallanimalofprey,andhuggingtohisbreastbreadandmeat,andhisownrags,alltogether,said: \"There!Nowtakemetothewoman!\" AstheChemist,withanew—borndisliketotouchhim,sternlymotionedhimtofollow,andwasgoingoutofthedoor,hetrembledandstopped。 \"ThegiftthatIhavegiven,youshallgiveagain,gowhereyouwill!\" ThePhantom’swordswereblowinginthewind,andthewindblewchilluponhim。 \"I’llnotgothere,to—night,\"hemurmuredfaintly。\"I’llgonowhereto—night。Boy!straightdownthislong—archedpassage,andpastthegreatdarkdoorintotheyard,—youseethefireshiningonthewindowthere。\" \"Thewoman’sfire?\"inquiredtheboy。 Henodded,andthenakedfeethadsprungaway。Hecamebackwithhislamp,lockedhisdoorhastily,andsatdowninhischair,coveringhisfacelikeonewhowasfrightenedathimself。 Fornowhewas,indeed,alone。Alone,alone。 CHAPTERII—TheGiftDiffusedASMALLmansatinasmallparlour,partitionedofffromasmallshopbyasmallscreen,pastedalloverwithsmallscrapsofnewspapers。Incompanywiththesmallman,wasalmostanyamountofsmallchildrenyoumaypleasetoname—atleastitseemedso; theymade,inthatverylimitedsphereofaction,suchanimposingeffect,inpointofnumbers。 Ofthesesmallfry,twohad,bysomestrongmachinery,beengotintobedinacorner,wheretheymighthavereposedsnuglyenoughinthesleepofinnocence,butforaconstitutionalpropensitytokeepawake,andalsotoscuffleinandoutofbed。Theimmediateoccasionofthesepredatorydashesatthewakingworld,wastheconstructionofanoyster—shellwallinacorner,bytwootheryouthsoftenderage;onwhichfortificationthetwoinbedmadeharassingdescents(likethoseaccursedPictsandScotswhobeleaguertheearlyhistoricalstudiesofmostyoungBritons),andthenwithdrewtotheirownterritory。 Inadditiontothestirattendantontheseinroads,andtheretortsoftheinvaded,whopursuedhotly,andmadelungesatthebed— clothesunderwhichthemarauderstookrefuge,anotherlittleboy,inanotherlittlebed,contributedhismiteofconfusiontothefamilystock,bycastinghisbootsuponthewaters;inotherwords,bylaunchingtheseandseveralsmallobjects,inoffensiveinthemselves,thoughofahardsubstanceconsideredasmissiles,atthedisturbersofhisrepose,—whowerenotslowtoreturnthesecompliments。 Besideswhich,anotherlittleboy—thebiggestthere,butstilllittle—wastotteringtoandfro,bentononeside,andconsiderablyaffectedinhiskneesbytheweightofalargebaby,whichhewassupposedbyafictionthatobtainssometimesinsanguinefamilies,tobehushingtosleep。Butoh!theinexhaustibleregionsofcontemplationandwatchfulnessintowhichthisbaby’seyeswerethenonlybeginningtocomposethemselvestostare,overhisunconsciousshoulder! ItwasaveryMolochofababy,onwhoseinsatiatealtarthewholeexistenceofthisparticularyoungbrotherwasofferedupadailysacrifice。Itspersonalitymaybesaidtohaveconsistedinitsneverbeingquiet,inanyoneplace,forfiveconsecutiveminutes,andnevergoingtosleepwhenrequired。\"Tetterby’sbaby\"wasaswellknownintheneighbourhoodasthepostmanorthepot—boy。Itrovedfromdoor—steptodoor—step,inthearmsoflittleJohnnyTetterby,andlaggedheavilyattherearoftroopsofjuvenileswhofollowedtheTumblersortheMonkey,andcameup,allononeside,alittletoolateforeverythingthatwasattractive,fromMondaymorninguntilSaturdaynight。Whereverchildhoodcongregatedtoplay,therewaslittleMolochmakingJohnnyfagandtoil。WhereverJohnnydesiredtostay,littleMolochbecamefractious,andwouldnotremain。WheneverJohnnywantedtogoout,Molochwasasleep,andmustbewatched。WheneverJohnnywantedtostayathome,Molochwasawake,andmustbetakenout。YetJohnnywasverilypersuadedthatitwasafaultlessbaby,withoutitspeerintherealmofEngland,andwasquitecontenttocatchmeekglimpsesofthingsingeneralfrombehinditsskirts,oroveritslimpflappingbonnet,andtogostaggeringaboutwithitlikeaverylittleporterwithaverylargeparcel,whichwasnotdirectedtoanybody,andcouldneverbedeliveredanywhere。 Thesmallmanwhosatinthesmallparlour,makingfruitlessattemptstoreadhisnewspaperpeaceablyinthemidstofthisdisturbance,wasthefatherofthefamily,andthechiefofthefirmdescribedintheinscriptionoverthelittleshopfront,bythenameandtitleofA。TETTERBYANDCO。,NEWSMEN。Indeed,strictlyspeaking,hewastheonlypersonageansweringtothatdesignation,asCo。wasamerepoeticalabstraction,altogetherbaselessandimpersonal。 Tetterby’swasthecornershopinJerusalemBuildings。Therewasagoodshowofliteratureinthewindow,chieflyconsistingofpicture—newspapersoutofdate,andserialpirates,andfootpads。 Walking—sticks,likewise,andmarbles,wereincludedinthestockintrade。Ithadonceextendedintothelightconfectioneryline; butitwouldseemthatthoseeleganciesoflifewerenotindemandaboutJerusalemBuildings,fornothingconnectedwiththatbranchofcommerceremainedinthewindow,exceptasortofsmallglasslanterncontainingalanguishingmassofbull’s—eyes,whichhadmeltedinthesummerandcongealedinthewinteruntilallhopeofevergettingthemout,orofeatingthemwithouteatingthelanterntoo,wasgoneforever。Tetterby’shadtrieditshandatseveralthings。Ithadoncemadeafeeblelittledartatthetoybusiness; for,inanotherlantern,therewasaheapofminutewaxdolls,allstickingtogetherupsidedown,inthedirestconfusion,withtheirfeetononeanother’sheads,andaprecipitateofbrokenarmsandlegsatthebottom。Ithadmadeamoveinthemillinerydirection,whichafewdry,wirybonnet—shapesremainedinacornerofthewindowtoattest。Ithadfanciedthatalivingmightliehiddeninthetobaccotrade,andhadstuckuparepresentationofanativeofeachofthethreeintegralportionsoftheBritishEmpire,intheactofconsumingthatfragrantweed;withapoeticlegendattached,importingthatunitedinonecausetheysatandjoked,onechewedtobacco,onetooksnuff,onesmoked:butnothingseemedtohavecomeofit—exceptflies。Timehadbeenwhenithadputaforlorntrustinimitativejewellery,forinonepaneofglasstherewasacardofcheapseals,andanotherofpencil—cases,andamysteriousblackamuletofinscrutableintention,labelledninepence。But,tothathour,JerusalemBuildingshadboughtnoneofthem。Inshort,Tetterby’shadtriedsohardtogetalivelihoodoutofJerusalemBuildingsinonewayorother,andappearedtohavedonesoindifferentlyinall,thatthebestpositioninthefirmwastooevidentlyCo。’s;Co。,asabodilesscreation,beinguntroubledwiththevulgarinconveniencesofhungerandthirst,beingchargeableneithertothepoor’s—ratesnortheassessedtaxes,andhavingnoyoungfamilytoprovidefor。 Tetterbyhimself,however,inhislittleparlour,asalreadymentioned,havingthepresenceofayoungfamilyimpresseduponhismindinamannertooclamoroustobedisregarded,ortocomportwiththequietperusalofanewspaper,laiddownhispaper,wheeled,inhisdistraction,afewtimesroundtheparlour,likeanundecidedcarrier—pigeon,madeanineffectualrushatoneortwoflyinglittlefiguresinbed—gownsthatskimmedpasthim,andthen,bearingsuddenlydownupontheonlyunoffendingmemberofthefamily,boxedtheearsoflittleMoloch’snurse。 \"Youbadboy!\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"haven’tyouanyfeelingforyourpoorfatherafterthefatiguesandanxietiesofahardwinter’sday,sincefiveo’clockinthemorning,butmustyouwitherhisrest,andcorrodehislatestintelligence,withYOURwicioustricks?Isn’titenough,sir,thatyourbrother’Dolphusistoilingandmoilinginthefogandcold,andyourollinginthelapofluxurywitha—withababy,andeverythingyoucanwishfor,\" saidMr。Tetterby,heapingthisupasagreatclimaxofblessings,\"butmustyoumakeawildernessofhome,andmaniacsofyourparents?Mustyou,Johnny?Hey?\"Ateachinterrogation,Mr。 Tetterbymadeafeintofboxinghisearsagain,butthoughtbetterofit,andheldhishand。 \"Oh,father!\"whimperedJohnny,\"whenIwasn’tdoinganything,I’msure,buttakingsuchcareofSally,andgettinghertosleep。Oh,father!\" \"Iwishmylittlewomanwouldcomehome!\"saidMr。Tetterby,relentingandrepenting,\"Ionlywishmylittlewomanwouldcomehome!Iain’tfittodealwith’em。Theymakemyheadgoround,andgetthebetterofme。Oh,Johnny!Isn’titenoughthatyourdearmotherhasprovidedyouwiththatsweetsister?\"indicatingMoloch;\"isn’titenoughthatyouweresevenboysbeforewithoutarayofgal,andthatyourdearmotherwentthroughwhatsheDIDgothrough,onpurposethatyoumightallofyouhavealittlesister,butmustyousobehaveyourselfastomakemyheadswim?\" Softeningmoreandmore,ashisowntenderfeelingsandthoseofhisinjuredsonwereworkedon,Mr。Tetterbyconcludedbyembracinghim,andimmediatelybreakingawaytocatchoneoftherealdelinquents。Areasonablygoodstartoccurring,hesucceeded,afterashortbutsmartrun,andsomeratherseverecross—countryworkunderandoverthebedsteads,andinandoutamongtheintricaciesofthechairs,incapturingthisinfant,whomhecondignlypunished,andboretobed。Thisexamplehadapowerful,andapparently,mesmericinfluenceonhimoftheboots,whoinstantlyfellintoadeepsleep,thoughhehadbeen,butamomentbefore,broadawake,andinthehighestpossiblefeather。Norwasitlostuponthetwoyoungarchitects,whoretiredtobed,inanadjoiningcloset,withgreatprivacyandspeed。ThecomradeoftheInterceptedOnealsoshrinkingintohisnestwithsimilardiscretion,Mr。Tetterby,whenhepausedforbreath,foundhimselfunexpectedlyinasceneofpeace。 \"Mylittlewomanherself,\"saidMr。Tetterby,wipinghisflushedface,\"couldhardlyhavedoneitbetter!Ionlywishmylittlewomanhadhadittodo,Idoindeed!\" Mr。Tetterbysoughtuponhisscreenforapassageappropriatetobeimpresseduponhischildren’smindsontheoccasion,andreadthefollowing。 \"’Itisanundoubtedfactthatallremarkablemenhavehadremarkablemothers,andhaverespectedtheminafterlifeastheirbestfriends。’Thinkofyourownremarkablemother,myboys,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"andknowhervaluewhilesheisstillamongyou!\" Hesatdownagaininhischairbythefire,andcomposedhimself,cross—legged,overhisnewspaper。 \"Letanybody,Idon’tcarewhoitis,getoutofbedagain,\"saidTetterby,asageneralproclamation,deliveredinaverysoft— heartedmanner,\"andastonishmentwillbetheportionofthatrespectedcontemporary!\"—whichexpressionMr。Tetterbyselectedfromhisscreen。\"Johnny,mychild,takecareofyouronlysister,Sally;forshe’sthebrightestgemthateversparkledonyourearlybrow。\" Johnnysatdownonalittlestool,anddevotedlycrushedhimselfbeneaththeweightofMoloch。 \"Ah,whatagiftthatbabyistoyou,Johnny!\"saidhisfather,\"andhowthankfulyououghttobe!’Itisnotgenerallyknown,Johnny,’\"hewasnowreferringtothescreenagain,\"’butitisafactascertained,byaccuratecalculations,thatthefollowingimmensepercentageofbabiesneverattaintotwoyearsold;thatistosay—’\" \"Oh,don’t,father,please!\"criedJohnny。\"Ican’tbearit,whenIthinkofSally。\" Mr。Tetterbydesisting,Johnny,withaprofoundsenseofhistrust,wipedhiseyes,andhushedhissister。 \"Yourbrother’Dolphus,\"saidhisfather,pokingthefire,\"islateto—night,Johnny,andwillcomehomelikealumpofice。What’sgotyourpreciousmother?\" \"Here’smother,and’Dolphustoo,father!\"exclaimedJohnny,\"I think。\" \"You’reright!\"returnedhisfather,listening。\"Yes,that’sthefootstepofmylittlewoman。\" Theprocessofinduction,bywhichMrTetterbyhadcometotheconclusionthathiswifewasalittlewoman,washisownsecret。 Shewouldhavemadetwoeditionsofhimself,veryeasily。 Consideredasanindividual,shewasratherremarkableforbeingrobustandportly;butconsideredwithreferencetoherhusband,herdimensionsbecamemagnificent。Nordidtheyassumealessimposingproportion,whenstudiedwithreferencetothesizeofhersevensons,whowerebutdiminutive。InthecaseofSally,however,Mrs。Tetterbyhadassertedherself,atlast;asnobodyknewbetterthanthevictimJohnny,whoweighedandmeasuredthatexactingidoleveryhourintheday。 Mrs。Tetterby,whohadbeenmarketing,andcarriedabasket,threwbackherbonnetandshawl,andsittingdown,fatigued,commandedJohnnytobringhissweetchargetoherstraightway,forakiss。 Johnnyhavingcomplied,andgonebacktohisstool,andagaincrushedhimself,MasterAdolphusTetterby,whohadbythistimeunwoundhistorsooutofaprismaticcomforter,apparentlyinterminable,requestedthesamefavour。Johnnyhavingagaincomplied,andagaingonebacktohisstool,andagaincrushedhimself,Mr。Tetterby,struckbyasuddenthought,preferredthesameclaimonhisownparentalpart。Thesatisfactionofthisthirddesirecompletelyexhaustedthesacrifice,whohadhardlybreathenoughlefttogetbacktohisstool,crushhimselfagain,andpantathisrelations。 \"Whateveryoudo,Johnny,\"saidMrs。Tetterby,shakingherhead,\"takecareofher,orneverlookyourmotherinthefaceagain。\" \"Noryourbrother,\"saidAdolphus。 \"Noryourfather,Johnny,\"addedMr。Tetterby。 Johnny,muchaffectedbythisconditionalrenunciationofhim,lookeddownatMoloch’seyestoseethattheywereallright,sofar,andskilfullypattedherback(whichwasuppermost),androckedherwithhisfoot。 \"Areyouwet,’Dolphus,myboy?\"saidhisfather。\"Comeandtakemychair,anddryyourself。\" \"No,father,thank’ee,\"saidAdolphus,smoothinghimselfdownwithhishands。\"Ian’tverywet,Idon’tthink。Doesmyfaceshinemuch,father?\" \"Well,itDOESlookwaxy,myboy,\"returnedMr。Tetterby。 \"It’stheweather,father,\"saidAdolphus,polishinghischeeksonthewornsleeveofhisjacket。\"Whatwithrain,andsleet,andwind,andsnow,andfog,myfacegetsquitebroughtoutintoarashsometimes。Andshines,itdoes—oh,don’tit,though!\" MasterAdolphuswasalsointhenewspaperlineoflife,beingemployed,byamorethrivingfirmthanhisfatherandCo。,tovendnewspapersatarailwaystation,wherehischubbylittleperson,likeashabbily—disguisedCupid,andhisshrilllittlevoice(hewasnotmuchmorethantenyearsold),wereaswellknownasthehoarsepantingofthelocomotives,runninginandout。Hisjuvenilitymighthavebeenatsomelossforaharmlessoutlet,inthisearlyapplicationtotraffic,butforafortunatediscoveryhemadeofameansofentertaininghimself,andofdividingthelongdayintostagesofinterest,withoutneglectingbusiness。Thisingeniousinvention,remarkable,likemanygreatdiscoveries,foritssimplicity,consistedinvaryingthefirstvowelintheword\"paper,\"andsubstituting,initsstead,atdifferentperiodsoftheday,alltheothervowelsingrammaticalsuccession。Thus,beforedaylightinthewinter—time,hewenttoandfro,inhislittleoilskincapandcape,andhisbigcomforter,piercingtheheavyairwithhiscryof\"Morn—ingPa—per!\"which,aboutanhourbeforenoon,changedto\"Morn—ingPepper!\"which,atabouttwo,changedto\"Morn—ingPip—per!\"whichinacoupleofhourschangedto\"Morn—ingPop—per!\"andsodeclinedwiththesuninto\"Eve—ningPup—per!\"tothegreatreliefandcomfortofthisyounggentleman’sspirits。 Mrs。Tetterby,hislady—mother,whohadbeensittingwithherbonnetandshawlthrownback,asaforesaid,thoughtfullyturningherwedding—ringroundandrounduponherfinger,nowrose,anddivestingherselfofherout—of—doorattire,begantolaytheclothforsupper。 \"Ah,dearme,dearme,dearme!\"saidMrs。Tetterby。\"That’sthewaytheworldgoes!\" \"Whichisthewaytheworldgoes,mydear?\"askedMr。Tetterby,lookinground。 \"Oh,nothing,\"saidMrs。Tetterby。 Mr。Tetterbyelevatedhiseyebrows,foldedhisnewspaperafresh,andcarriedhiseyesupit,anddownit,andacrossit,butwaswanderinginhisattention,andnotreadingit。 Mrs。Tetterby,atthesametime,laidthecloth,butratherasifshewerepunishingthetablethanpreparingthefamilysupper; hittingitunnecessarilyhardwiththeknivesandforks,slappingitwiththeplates,dintingitwiththesalt—cellar,andcomingheavilydownuponitwiththeloaf。 \"Ah,dearme,dearme,dearme!\"saidMrs。Tetterby。\"That’sthewaytheworldgoes!\" \"Myduck,\"returnedherhusband,lookingroundagain,\"yousaidthatbefore。Whichisthewaytheworldgoes?\" \"Oh,nothing!\"saidMrs。Tetterby。 \"Sophia!\"remonstratedherhusband,\"yousaidTHATbefore,too。\" \"Well,I’llsayitagainifyoulike,\"returnedMrs。Tetterby。\"Ohnothing—there!Andagainifyoulike,ohnothing—there!Andagainifyoulike,ohnothing—nowthen!\" Mr。Tetterbybroughthiseyetobearuponthepartnerofhisbosom,andsaid,inmildastonishment: \"Mylittlewoman,whathasputyouout?\" \"I’msureIdon’tknow,\"sheretorted。\"Don’taskme。WhosaidI wasputoutatall?Ineverdid。\" Mr。Tetterbygaveuptheperusalofhisnewspaperasabadjob,and,takingaslowwalkacrosstheroom,withhishandsbehindhim,andhisshouldersraised—hisgaitaccordingperfectlywiththeresignationofhismanner—addressedhimselftohistwoeldestoffspring。 \"Yoursupperwillbereadyinaminute,’Dolphus,\"saidMr。 Tetterby。\"Yourmotherhasbeenoutinthewet,tothecook’sshop,tobuyit。Itwasverygoodofyourmothersotodo。YOU shallgetsomesuppertoo,verysoon,Johnny。Yourmother’spleasedwithyou,myman,forbeingsoattentivetoyourprecioussister。\" Mrs。Tetterby,withoutanyremark,butwithadecidedsubsidenceofheranimositytowardsthetable,finishedherpreparations,andtook,fromheramplebasket,asubstantialslabofhotpeasepuddingwrappedinpaper,andabasincoveredwithasaucer,which,onbeinguncovered,sentforthanodoursoagreeable,thatthethreepairofeyesinthetwobedsopenedwideandfixedthemselvesuponthebanquet。Mr。Tetterby,withoutregardingthistacitinvitationtobeseated,stoodrepeatingslowly,\"Yes,yes,yoursupperwillbereadyinaminute,’Dolphus—yourmotherwentoutinthewet,tothecook’sshop,tobuyit。Itwasverygoodofyourmothersotodo\"—untilMrs。Tetterby,whohadbeenexhibitingsundrytokensofcontritionbehindhim,caughthimroundtheneck,andwept。 \"Oh,Dolphus!\"saidMrs。Tetterby,\"howcouldIgoandbehaveso?\" ThisreconciliationaffectedAdolphustheyoungerandJohnnytothatdegree,thattheyboth,aswithoneaccord,raisedadismalcry,whichhadtheeffectofimmediatelyshuttinguptheroundeyesinthebeds,andutterlyroutingthetworemaininglittleTetterbys,justthenstealinginfromtheadjoiningclosettoseewhatwasgoingonintheeatingway。 \"Iamsure,’Dolphus,\"sobbedMrs。Tetterby,\"cominghome,Ihadnomoreideathanachildunborn—\" Mr。Tetterbyseemedtodislikethisfigureofspeech,andobserved,\"Saythanthebaby,mydear。\" \"—Hadnomoreideathanthebaby,\"saidMrs。Tetterby。—\"Johnny,don’tlookatme,butlookather,orshe’llfalloutofyourlapandbekilled,andthenyou’lldieinagoniesofabrokenheart,andserveyouright。—NomoreideaIhadn’tthanthatdarling,ofbeingcrosswhenIcamehome;butsomehow,’Dolphus—\"Mrs。 Tetterbypaused,andagainturnedherwedding—ringroundandrounduponherfinger。 \"Isee!\"saidMr。Tetterby。\"Iunderstand!Mylittlewomanwasputout。Hardtimes,andhardweather,andhardwork,makeittryingnowandthen。Isee,blessyoursoul!Nowonder!Dolf,myman,\"continuedMr。Tetterby,exploringthebasinwithafork,\"here’syourmotherbeenandbought,atthecook’sshop,besidespeasepudding,awholeknuckleofalovelyroastlegofpork,withlotsofcracklingleftuponit,andwithseasoninggravyandmustardquiteunlimited。Handinyourplate,myboy,andbeginwhileit’ssimmering。\" MasterAdolphus,needingnosecondsummons,receivedhisportionwitheyesrenderedmoistbyappetite,andwithdrawingtohisparticularstool,felluponhissuppertoothandnail。Johnnywasnotforgotten,butreceivedhisrationsonbread,lestheshould,inaflushofgravy,trickleanyonthebaby。Hewasrequired,forsimilarreasons,tokeephispudding,whennotonactiveservice,inhispocket。 Theremighthavebeenmoreporkontheknucklebone,—whichknucklebonethecarveratthecook’sshophadassuredlynotforgottenincarvingforpreviouscustomers—buttherewasnostintofseasoning,andthatisanaccessorydreamilysuggestingpork,andpleasantlycheatingthesenseoftaste。Thepeasepudding,too,thegravyandmustard,liketheEasternroseinrespectofthenightingale,iftheywerenotabsolutelypork,hadlivednearit;so,uponthewhole,therewastheflavourofamiddle—sizedpig。ItwasirresistibletotheTetterbysinbed,who,thoughprofessingtoslumberpeacefully,crawledoutwhenunseenbytheirparents,andsilentlyappealedtotheirbrothersforanygastronomictokenoffraternalaffection。They,nothardofheart,presentingscrapsinreturn,itresultedthatapartyoflightskirmishersinnightgownswerecareeringabouttheparlourallthroughsupper,whichharassedMr。Tetterbyexceedingly,andonceortwiceimposeduponhimthenecessityofacharge,beforewhichtheseguerillatroopsretiredinalldirectionsandingreatconfusion。 Mrs。Tetterbydidnotenjoyhersupper。ThereseemedtobesomethingonMrs。Tetterby’smind。Atonetimeshelaughedwithoutreason,andatanothertimeshecriedwithoutreason,andatlastshelaughedandcriedtogetherinamannersoveryunreasonablethatherhusbandwasconfounded。 \"Mylittlewoman,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"iftheworldgoesthatway,itappearstogothewrongway,andtochokeyou。\" \"Givemeadropofwater,\"saidMrs。Tetterby,strugglingwithherself,\"anddon’tspeaktomeforthepresent,ortakeanynoticeofme。Don’tdoit!\" Mr。Tetterbyhavingadministeredthewater,turnedsuddenlyontheunluckyJohnny(whowasfullofsympathy),anddemandedwhyhewaswallowingthere,ingluttonyandidleness,insteadofcomingforwardwiththebaby,thatthesightofhermightrevivehismother。Johnnyimmediatelyapproached,bornedownbyitsweight; butMrs。Tetterbyholdingoutherhandtosignifythatshewasnotinaconditiontobearthattryingappealtoherfeelings,hewasinterdictedfromadvancinganotherinch,onpainofperpetualhatredfromallhisdearestconnections;andaccordinglyretiredtohisstoolagain,andcrushedhimselfasbefore。 Afterapause,Mrs。Tetterbysaidshewasbetternow,andbegantolaugh。 \"Mylittlewoman,\"saidherhusband,dubiously,\"areyouquitesureyou’rebetter?Orareyou,Sophia,abouttobreakoutinafreshdirection?\" \"No,’Dolphus,no,\"repliedhiswife。\"I’mquitemyself。\"Withthat,settlingherhair,andpressingthepalmsofherhandsuponhereyes,shelaughedagain。 \"WhatawickedfoolIwas,tothinksoforamoment!\"saidMrs。 Tetterby。\"Comenearer,’Dolphus,andletmeeasemymind,andtellyouwhatImean。Letmetellyouallaboutit。\" Mr。Tetterbybringinghischaircloser,Mrs。Tetterbylaughedagain,gavehimahug,andwipedhereyes。 \"Youknow,Dolphus,mydear,\"saidMrs。Tetterby,\"thatwhenIwassingle,Imighthavegivenmyselfawayinseveraldirections。Atonetime,fouraftermeatonce;twoofthemweresonsofMars。\" \"We’reallsonsofMa’s,mydear,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"jointlywithPa’s。\" \"Idon’tmeanthat,\"repliedhiswife,\"Imeansoldiers— serjeants。\" \"Oh!\"saidMr。Tetterby。 \"Well,’Dolphus,I’msureIneverthinkofsuchthingsnow,toregretthem;andI’msureI’vegotasgoodahusband,andwoulddoasmuchtoprovethatIwasfondofhim,as—\" \"Asanylittlewomanintheworld,\"saidMr。Tetterby。\"Verygood。 VERYgood。\" IfMr。Tetterbyhadbeentenfeethigh,hecouldnothaveexpressedagentlerconsiderationforMrs。Tetterby’sfairy—likestature;andifMrs。Tetterbyhadbeentwofeethigh,shecouldnothavefeltitmoreappropriatelyherdue。 \"Butyousee,’Dolphus,\"saidMrs。Tetterby,\"thisbeingChristmas— time,whenallpeoplewhocan,makeholiday,andwhenallpeoplewhohavegotmoney,liketospendsome,Idid,somehow,getalittleoutofsortswhenIwasinthestreetsjustnow。Thereweresomanythingstobesold—suchdeliciousthingstoeat,suchfinethingstolookat,suchdelightfulthingstohave—andtherewassomuchcalculatingandcalculatingnecessary,beforeIdurstlayoutasixpenceforthecommonestthing;andthebasketwassolarge,andwantedsomuchinit;andmystockofmoneywassosmall,andwouldgosuchalittleway;—youhateme,don’tyou,’Dolphus?\" \"Notquite,\"saidMr。Tetterby,\"asyet。\" \"Well!I’lltellyouthewholetruth,\"pursuedhiswife,penitently,\"andthenperhapsyouwill。Ifeltallthis,somuch,whenIwastrudgingaboutinthecold,andwhenIsawalotofothercalculatingfacesandlargebasketstrudgingabout,too,thatIbegantothinkwhetherImightn’thavedonebetter,andbeenhappier,if—I—hadn’t—\"thewedding—ringwentroundagain,andMrs。Tetterbyshookherdowncastheadassheturnedit。 \"Isee,\"saidherhusbandquietly;\"ifyouhadn’tmarriedatall,orifyouhadmarriedsomebodyelse?\" \"Yes,\"sobbedMrs。Tetterby。\"That’sreallywhatIthought。Doyouhatemenow,’Dolphus?\" \"Whyno,\"saidMr。Tetterby。\"Idon’tfindthatIdo,asyet。\" Mrs。Tetterbygavehimathankfulkiss,andwenton。 \"Ibegintohopeyouwon’t,now,’Dolphus,thoughI’mafraidI haven’ttoldyoutheworst。Ican’tthinkwhatcameoverme。I don’tknowwhetherIwasill,ormad,orwhatIwas,butIcouldn’tcallupanythingthatseemedtobindustoeachother,ortoreconcilemetomyfortune。Allthepleasuresandenjoymentswehadeverhad—THEYseemedsopoorandinsignificant,Ihatedthem。 Icouldhavetroddenonthem。AndIcouldthinkofnothingelse,exceptourbeingpoor,andthenumberofmouthstherewereathome。\" \"Well,well,mydear,\"saidMr。Tetterby,shakingherhandencouragingly,\"that’struth,afterall。WeAREpoor,andthereAREanumberofmouthsathomehere。\" \"Ah!but,Dolf,Dolf!\"criedhiswife,layingherhandsuponhisneck,\"mygood,kind,patientfellow,whenIhadbeenathomeaverylittlewhile—howdifferent!Oh,Dolf,dear,howdifferentitwas!Ifeltasiftherewasarushofrecollectiononme,allatonce,thatsoftenedmyhardheart,andfilledituptillitwasbursting。Allourstrugglesforalivelihood,allourcaresandwantssincewehavebeenmarried,allthetimesofsickness,allthehoursofwatching,wehaveeverhad,byoneanother,orbythechildren,seemedtospeaktome,andsaythattheyhadmadeusone,andthatInevermighthavebeen,orcouldhavebeen,orwouldhavebeen,anyotherthanthewifeandmotherIam。Then,thecheapenjoymentsthatIcouldhavetroddenonsocruelly,gottobesoprecioustome—Ohsopriceless,anddear!—thatIcouldn’tbeartothinkhowmuchIhadwrongedthem;andIsaid,andsayagainahundredtimes,howcouldIeverbehaveso,’Dolphus,howcouldI everhavethehearttodoit!\" Thegoodwoman,quitecarriedawaybyherhonesttendernessandremorse,wasweepingwithallherheart,whenshestartedupwithascream,andranbehindherhusband。Hercrywassoterrified,thatthechildrenstartedfromtheirsleepandfromtheirbeds,andclungabouther。Nordidhergazebeliehervoice,asshepointedtoapalemaninablackcloakwhohadcomeintotheroom。 \"Lookatthatman!Lookthere!Whatdoeshewant?\" \"Mydear,\"returnedherhusband,\"I’llaskhimifyou’llletmego。 What’sthematter!Howyoushake!\" \"Isawhiminthestreet,whenIwasoutjustnow。Helookedatme,andstoodnearme。Iamafraidofhim。\" \"Afraidofhim!Why?\" \"Idon’tknowwhy—I—stop!husband!\"forhewasgoingtowardsthestranger。 Shehadonehandpresseduponherforehead,andoneuponherbreast;andtherewasapeculiarflutteringalloverher,andahurriedunsteadymotionofhereyes,asifshehadlostsomething。 \"Areyouill,mydear?\" \"Whatisitthatisgoingfrommeagain?\"shemuttered,inalowvoice。\"WhatISthisthatisgoingaway?\" Thensheabruptlyanswered:\"Ill?No,Iamquitewell,\"andstoodlookingvacantlyatthefloor。 Herhusband,whohadnotbeenaltogetherfreefromtheinfectionofherfearatfirst,andwhomthepresentstrangenessofhermannerdidnottendtoreassure,addressedhimselftothepalevisitorintheblackcloak,whostoodstill,andwhoseeyeswerebentupontheground。 \"Whatmaybeyourpleasure,sir,\"heasked,\"withus?\" \"Ifearthatmycominginunperceived,\"returnedthevisitor,\"hasalarmedyou;butyouweretalkinganddidnothearme。\" \"Mylittlewomansays—perhapsyouheardhersayit,\"returnedMr。 Tetterby,\"thatit’snotthefirsttimeyouhavealarmedherto— night。\" \"Iamsorryforit。Iremembertohaveobservedher,forafewmomentsonly,inthestreet。Ihadnointentionoffrighteningher。\" Asheraisedhiseyesinspeaking,sheraisedhers。Itwasextraordinarytoseewhatdreadshehadofhim,andwithwhatdreadheobservedit—andyethownarrowlyandclosely。 \"Myname,\"hesaid,\"isRedlaw。Icomefromtheoldcollegehardby。Ayounggentlemanwhoisastudentthere,lodgesinyourhouse,doeshenot?\" \"Mr。Denham?\"saidTetterby。 \"Yes。\" Itwasanaturalaction,andsoslightastobehardlynoticeable; butthelittleman,beforespeakingagain,passedhishandacrosshisforehead,andlookedquicklyroundtheroom,asthoughheweresensibleofsomechangeinitsatmosphere。TheChemist,instantlytransferringtohimthelookofdreadhehaddirectedtowardsthewife,steppedback,andhisfaceturnedpaler。 \"Thegentleman’sroom,\"saidTetterby,\"isupstairs,sir。There’samoreconvenientprivateentrance;butasyouhavecomeinhere,itwillsaveyourgoingoutintothecold,ifyou’lltakethislittlestaircase,\"showingonecommunicatingdirectlywiththeparlour,\"andgouptohimthatway,ifyouwishtoseehim。\" \"Yes,Iwishtoseehim,\"saidtheChemist。\"Canyousparealight?\" Thewatchfulnessofhishaggardlook,andtheinexplicabledistrustthatdarkenedit,seemedtotroubleMr。Tetterby。Hepaused;andlookingfixedlyathiminreturn,stoodforaminuteorso,likeamanstupefied,orfascinated。 Atlengthhesaid,\"I’lllightyou,sir,ifyou’llfollowme。\" \"No,\"repliedtheChemist,\"Idon’twishtobeattended,orannouncedtohim。Hedoesnotexpectme。Iwouldrathergoalone。 Pleasetogivemethelight,ifyoucanspareit,andI’llfindtheway。\" Inthequicknessofhisexpressionofthisdesire,andintakingthecandlefromthenewsman,hetouchedhimonthebreast。 Withdrawinghishandhastily,almostasthoughhehadwoundedhimbyaccident(forhedidnotknowinwhatpartofhimselfhisnewpowerresided,orhowitwascommunicated,orhowthemannerofitsreceptionvariedindifferentpersons),heturnedandascendedthestair。 Butwhenhereachedthetop,hestoppedandlookeddown。Thewifewasstandinginthesameplace,twistingherringroundandrounduponherfinger。Thehusband,withhisheadbentforwardonhisbreast,wasmusingheavilyandsullenly。Thechildren,stillclusteringaboutthemother,gazedtimidlyafterthevisitor,andnestledtogetherwhentheysawhimlookingdown。 \"Come!\"saidthefather,roughly。\"There’senoughofthis。Gettobedhere!\" \"Theplaceisinconvenientandsmallenough,\"themotheradded,\"withoutyou。Gettobed!\" Thewholebrood,scaredandsad,creptaway;littleJohnnyandthebabylagginglast。Themother,glancingcontemptuouslyroundthesordidroom,andtossingfromherthefragmentsoftheirmeal,stoppedonthethresholdofhertaskofclearingthetable,andsatdown,ponderingidlyanddejectedly。Thefatherbetookhimselftothechimney—corner,andimpatientlyrakingthesmallfiretogether,bentoveritasifhewouldmonopoliseitall。Theydidnotinterchangeaword。 TheChemist,palerthanbefore,stoleupwardlikeathief;lookingbackuponthechangebelow,anddreadingequallytogoonorreturn。 \"WhathaveIdone!\"hesaid,confusedly。\"WhatamIgoingtodo!\" \"Tobethebenefactorofmankind,\"hethoughtheheardavoicereply。 Helookedround,buttherewasnothingthere;andapassagenowshuttingoutthelittleparlourfromhisview,hewenton,directinghiseyesbeforehimatthewayhewent。 \"Itisonlysincelastnight,\"hemutteredgloomily,\"thatIhaveremainedshutup,andyetallthingsarestrangetome。Iamstrangetomyself。Iamhere,asinadream。WhatinteresthaveI inthisplace,orinanyplacethatIcanbringtomyremembrance? Mymindisgoingblind!\" Therewasadoorbeforehim,andheknockedatit。Beinginvited,byavoicewithin,toenter,hecomplied。 \"Isthatmykindnurse?\"saidthevoice。\"ButIneednotaskher。 Thereisnooneelsetocomehere。\" Itspokecheerfully,thoughinalanguidtone,andattractedhisattentiontoayoungmanlyingonacouch,drawnbeforethechimney—piece,withthebacktowardsthedoor。Ameagrescantystove,pinchedandhollowedlikeasickman’scheeks,andbrickedintothecentreofahearththatitcouldscarcelywarm,containedthefire,towhichhisfacewasturned。Beingsonearthewindyhouse—top,itwastedquickly,andwithabusysound,andtheburningashesdroppeddownfast。 \"Theychinkwhentheyshootouthere,\"saidthestudent,smiling,\"so,accordingtothegossips,theyarenotcoffins,butpurses。I shallbewellandrichyet,someday,ifitpleaseGod,andshallliveperhapstoloveadaughterMilly,inremembranceofthekindestnatureandthegentlestheartintheworld。\" Heputuphishandasifexpectinghertotakeit,but,beingweakened,helaystill,withhisfacerestingonhisotherhand,anddidnotturnround。 TheChemistglancedabouttheroom;—atthestudent’sbooksandpapers,pileduponatableinacorner,wherethey,andhisextinguishedreading—lamp,nowprohibitedandputaway,toldoftheattentivehoursthathadgonebeforethisillness,andperhapscausedit;—atsuchsignsofhisoldhealthandfreedom,astheout—of—doorattirethathungidleonthewall;—atthoseremembrancesofotherandlesssolitaryscenes,thelittleminiaturesuponthechimney—piece,andthedrawingofhome;—atthattokenofhisemulation,perhaps,insomesort,ofhispersonalattachmenttoo,theframedengravingofhimself,thelooker—on。 Thetimehadbeen,onlyyesterday,whennotoneoftheseobjects,initsremotestassociationofinterestwiththelivingfigurebeforehim,wouldhavebeenlostonRedlaw。Now,theywerebutobjects;or,ifanygleamofsuchconnexionshotuponhim,itperplexed,andnotenlightenedhim,ashestoodlookingroundwithadullwonder。 Thestudent,recallingthethinhandwhichhadremainedsolonguntouched,raisedhimselfonthecouch,andturnedhishead。 \"Mr。Redlaw!\"heexclaimed,andstartedup。 Redlawputouthisarm。 \"Don’tcomenearertome。Iwillsithere。Remainyou,whereyouare!\" Hesatdownonachairnearthedoor,andhavingglancedattheyoungmanstandingleaningwithhishanduponthecouch,spokewithhiseyesavertedtowardstheground。 \"Iheard,byanaccident,bywhataccidentisnomatter,thatoneofmyclasswasillandsolitary。Ireceivednootherdescriptionofhim,thanthathelivedinthisstreet。Beginningmyinquiriesatthefirsthouseinit,Ihavefoundhim。\" \"Ihavebeenill,sir,\"returnedthestudent,notmerelywithamodesthesitation,butwithakindofaweofhim,\"butamgreatlybetter。Anattackoffever—ofthebrain,Ibelieve—hasweakenedme,butIammuchbetter。IcannotsayIhavebeensolitary,inmyillness,orIshouldforgettheministeringhandthathasbeennearme。\" \"Youarespeakingofthekeeper’swife,\"saidRedlaw。 \"Yes。\"Thestudentbenthishead,asifherenderedhersomesilenthomage。 TheChemist,inwhomtherewasacold,monotonousapathy,whichrenderedhimmorelikeamarbleimageonthetombofthemanwhohadstartedfromhisdinneryesterdayatthefirstmentionofthisstudent’scase,thanthebreathingmanhimself,glancedagainatthestudentleaningwithhishanduponthecouch,andlookedupontheground,andintheair,asifforlightforhisblindedmind。 \"Irememberedyourname,\"hesaid,\"whenitwasmentionedtomedownstairs,justnow;andIrecollectyourface。Wehaveheldbutverylittlepersonalcommunicationtogether?\" \"Verylittle。\" \"Youhaveretiredandwithdrawnfromme,morethananyoftherest,Ithink?\" Thestudentsignifiedassent。 \"Andwhy?\"saidtheChemist;notwiththeleastexpressionofinterest,butwithamoody,waywardkindofcuriosity。\"Why?Howcomesitthatyouhavesoughttokeepespeciallyfromme,theknowledgeofyourremaininghere,atthisseason,whenalltheresthavedispersed,andofyourbeingill?Iwanttoknowwhythisis?\" Theyoungman,whohadheardhimwithincreasingagitation,raisedhisdowncasteyestohisface,andclaspinghishandstogether,criedwithsuddenearnestnessandwithtremblinglips: \"Mr。Redlaw!Youhavediscoveredme。Youknowmysecret!\" \"Secret?\"saidtheChemist,harshly。\"Iknow?\" \"Yes!Yourmanner,sodifferentfromtheinterestandsympathywhichendearyoutosomanyhearts,youralteredvoice,theconstraintthereisineverythingyousay,andinyourlooks,\" repliedthestudent,\"warnmethatyouknowme。Thatyouwouldconcealit,evennow,isbutaprooftome(GodknowsIneednone!) ofyournaturalkindnessandofthebarthereisbetweenus。\" Avacantandcontemptuouslaugh,wasallhisanswer。 \"But,Mr。Redlaw,\"saidthestudent,\"asajustman,andagoodman,thinkhowinnocentIam,exceptinnameanddescent,ofparticipationinanywronginflictedonyouorinanysorrowyouhaveborne。\" \"Sorrow!\"saidRedlaw,laughing。\"Wrong!Whatarethosetome?\" \"ForHeaven’ssake,\"entreatedtheshrinkingstudent,\"donotletthemereinterchangeofafewwordswithmechangeyoulikethis,sir!Letmepassagainfromyourknowledgeandnotice。Letmeoccupymyoldreservedanddistantplaceamongthosewhomyouinstruct。KnowmeonlybythenameIhaveassumed,andnotbythatofLongford—\" \"Longford!\"exclaimedtheother。 Heclaspedhisheadwithbothhishands,andforamomentturnedupontheyoungmanhisownintelligentandthoughtfulface。Butthelightpassedfromit,likethesun—beamofaninstant,anditcloudedasbefore。 \"Thenamemymotherbears,sir,\"falteredtheyoungman,\"thenameshetook,whenshemight,perhaps,havetakenonemorehonoured。 Mr。Redlaw,\"hesitating,\"IbelieveIknowthathistory。Wheremyinformationhalts,myguessesatwhatiswantingmaysupplysomethingnotremotefromthetruth。Iamthechildofamarriagethathasnotproveditselfawell—assortedorahappyone。Frominfancy,Ihaveheardyouspokenofwithhonourandrespect—withsomethingthatwasalmostreverence。Ihaveheardofsuchdevotion,ofsuchfortitudeandtenderness,ofsuchrisingupagainsttheobstacleswhichpressmendown,thatmyfancy,sinceI learntmylittlelessonfrommymother,hasshedalustreonyourname。Atlast,apoorstudentmyself,fromwhomcouldIlearnbutyou?\" Redlaw,unmoved,unchanged,andlookingathimwithastaringfrown,answeredbynowordorsign。 \"Icannotsay,\"pursuedtheother,\"Ishouldtryinvaintosay,howmuchithasimpressedme,andaffectedme,tofindthegracioustracesofthepast,inthatcertainpowerofwinninggratitudeandconfidencewhichisassociatedamongusstudents(amongthehumblestofus,most)withMr。Redlaw’sgenerousname。Ouragesandpositionsaresodifferent,sir,andIamsoaccustomedtoregardyoufromadistance,thatIwonderatmyownpresumptionwhenItouch,howeverlightly,onthattheme。Buttoonewho—I maysay,whofeltnocommoninterestinmymotheronce—itmaybesomethingtohear,nowthatallispast,withwhatindescribablefeelingsofaffectionIhave,inmyobscurity,regardedhim;withwhatpainandreluctanceIhavekeptalooffromhisencouragement,whenawordofitwouldhavemademerich;yethowIhavefeltitfitthatIshouldholdmycourse,contenttoknowhim,andtobeunknown。Mr。Redlaw,\"saidthestudent,faintly,\"whatIwouldhavesaid,Ihavesaidill,formystrengthisstrangetomeasyet;butforanythingunworthyinthisfraudofmine,forgiveme,andforalltherestforgetme!\" ThestaringfrownremainedonRedlaw’sface,andyieldedtonootherexpressionuntilthestudent,withthesewords,advancedtowardshim,asiftotouchhishand,whenhedrewbackandcriedtohim: \"Don’tcomenearertome!\" Theyoungmanstopped,shockedbytheeagernessofhisrecoil,andbythesternnessofhisrepulsion;andhepassedhishand,thoughtfully,acrosshisforehead。 \"Thepastispast,\"saidtheChemist。\"Itdieslikethebrutes。 Whotalkstomeofitstracesinmylife?Heravesorlies!WhathaveItodowithyourdistempereddreams?Ifyouwantmoney,hereitis。Icametoofferit;andthatisallIcamefor。Therecanbenothingelsethatbringsmehere,\"hemuttered,holdinghisheadagain,withbothhishands。\"ThereCANbenothingelse,andyet— \" Hehadtossedhispurseuponthetable。Ashefellintothisdimcogitationwithhimself,thestudenttookitup,andhelditouttohim。 \"Takeitback,sir,\"hesaidproudly,thoughnotangrily。\"Iwishyoucouldtakefromme,withit,theremembranceofyourwordsandoffer。\" \"Youdo?\"heretorted,withawildlightinhiseyes。\"Youdo?\" \"Ido!\" TheChemistwentclosetohim,forthefirsttime,andtookthepurse,andturnedhimbythearm,andlookedhimintheface。 \"Thereissorrowandtroubleinsickness,istherenot?\"hedemanded,withalaugh。 Thewonderingstudentanswered,\"Yes。\" \"Initsunrest,initsanxiety,initssuspense,inallitstrainofphysicalandmentalmiseries?\"saidtheChemist,withawildunearthlyexultation。\"Allbestforgotten,aretheynot?\" Thestudentdidnotanswer,butagainpassedhishand,confusedly,acrosshisforehead。Redlawstillheldhimbythesleeve,whenMilly’svoicewasheardoutside。 \"Icanseeverywellnow,\"shesaid,\"thankyou,Dolf。Don’tcry,dear。Fatherandmotherwillbecomfortableagain,to—morrow,andhomewillbecomfortabletoo。Agentlemanwithhim,isthere!\" Redlawreleasedhishold,ashelistened。 \"Ihavefeared,fromthefirstmoment,\"hemurmuredtohimself,\"tomeether。Thereisasteadyqualityofgoodnessinher,thatI dreadtoinfluence。Imaybethemurdererofwhatistenderestandbestwithinherbosom。\" Shewasknockingatthedoor。 \"ShallIdismissitasanidleforeboding,orstillavoidher?\"hemuttered,lookinguneasilyaround。 Shewasknockingatthedooragain。 \"Ofallthevisitorswhocouldcomehere,\"hesaid,inahoarsealarmedvoice,turningtohiscompanion,\"thisistheoneIshoulddesiremosttoavoid。Hideme!\" Thestudentopenedafraildoorinthewall,communicatingwherethegarret—roofbegantoslopetowardsthefloor,withasmallinnerroom。Redlawpassedinhastily,andshutitafterhim。 Thestudentthenresumedhisplaceuponthecouch,andcalledtohertoenter。 \"DearMr。Edmund,\"saidMilly,lookinground,\"theytoldmetherewasagentlemanhere。\" \"ThereisnooneherebutI。\" \"Therehasbeensomeone?\" \"Yes,yes,therehasbeensomeone。\" Sheputherlittlebasketonthetable,andwentuptothebackofthecouch,asiftotaketheextendedhand—butitwasnotthere。 Alittlesurprised,inherquietway,sheleanedovertolookathisface,andgentlytouchedhimonthebrow。 \"Areyouquiteaswellto—night?Yourheadisnotsocoolasintheafternoon。\" \"Tut!\"saidthestudent,petulantly,\"verylittleailsme。\" Alittlemoresurprise,butnoreproach,wasexpressedinherface,asshewithdrewtotheothersideofthetable,andtookasmallpacketofneedleworkfromherbasket。Butshelaiditdownagain,onsecondthoughts,andgoingnoiselesslyabouttheroom,seteverythingexactlyinitsplace,andintheneatestorder;eventothecushionsonthecouch,whichshetouchedwithsolightahand,thathehardlyseemedtoknowit,ashelaylookingatthefire。 Whenallthiswasdone,andshehadsweptthehearth,shesatdown,inhermodestlittlebonnet,toherwork,andwasquietlybusyonitdirectly。 \"It’sthenewmuslincurtainforthewindow,Mr。Edmund,\"saidMilly,stitchingawayasshetalked。\"Itwilllookverycleanandnice,thoughitcostsverylittle,andwillsaveyoureyes,too,fromthelight。MyWilliamsaystheroomshouldnotbetoolightjustnow,whenyouarerecoveringsowell,ortheglaremightmakeyougiddy。\" Hesaidnothing;buttherewassomethingsofretfulandimpatientinhischangeofposition,thatherquickfingersstopped,andshelookedathimanxiously。 \"Thepillowsarenotcomfortable,\"shesaid,layingdownherworkandrising。\"Iwillsoonputthemright。\" \"Theyareverywell,\"heanswered。\"Leavethemalone,pray。Youmakesomuchofeverything。\" Heraisedhisheadtosaythis,andlookedathersothanklessly,that,afterhehadthrownhimselfdownagain,shestoodtimidlypausing。However,sheresumedherseat,andherneedle,withouthavingdirectedevenamurmuringlooktowardshim,andwassoonasbusyasbefore。 \"Ihavebeenthinking,Mr。Edmund,thatYOUhavebeenoftenthinkingoflate,whenIhavebeensittingby,howtruethesayingis,thatadversityisagoodteacher。Healthwillbemoreprecioustoyou,afterthisillness,thanithaseverbeen。Andyearshence,whenthistimeofyearcomesround,andyourememberthedayswhenyoulayheresick,alone,thattheknowledgeofyourillnessmightnotafflictthosewhoaredearesttoyou,yourhomewillbedoublydearanddoublyblest。Now,isn’tthatagood,truething?\" Shewastoointentuponherwork,andtooearnestinwhatshesaid,andtoocomposedandquietaltogether,tobeonthewatchforanylookhemightdirecttowardsherinreply;sotheshaftofhisungratefulglancefellharmless,anddidnotwoundher。 \"Ah!\"saidMilly,withherprettyheadincliningthoughtfullyononeside,asshelookeddown,followingherbusyfingerswithhereyes。\"Evenonme—andIamverydifferentfromyou,Mr。Edmund,forIhavenolearning,anddon’tknowhowtothinkproperly—thisviewofsuchthingshasmadeagreatimpression,sinceyouhavebeenlyingill。WhenIhaveseenyousotouchedbythekindnessandattentionofthepoorpeopledownstairs,Ihavefeltthatyouthoughteventhatexperiencesomerepaymentforthelossofhealth,andIhavereadinyourface,asplainasifitwasabook,thatbutforsometroubleandsorrowweshouldneverknowhalfthegoodthereisaboutus。\" Hisgettingupfromthecouch,interruptedher,orshewasgoingontosaymore。 \"Weneedn’tmagnifythemerit,Mrs。William,\"herejoinedslightingly。\"ThepeopledownstairswillbepaidingoodtimeI daresay,foranylittleextraservicetheymayhaverenderedme; andperhapstheyanticipatenoless。Iammuchobligedtoyou,too。\" Herfingersstopped,andshelookedathim。 \"Ican’tbemadetofeelthemoreobligedbyyourexaggeratingthecase,\"hesaid。\"Iamsensiblethatyouhavebeeninterestedinme,andIsayIammuchobligedtoyou。Whatmorewouldyouhave?\" Herworkfellonherlap,asshestilllookedathimwalkingtoandfrowithanintolerantair,andstoppingnowandthen。 \"Isayagain,Iammuchobligedtoyou。Whyweakenmysenseofwhatisyourdueinobligation,bypreferringenormousclaimsuponme?Trouble,sorrow,affliction,adversity!OnemightsupposeI hadbeendyingascoreofdeathshere!\" \"Doyoubelieve,Mr。Edmund,\"sheasked,risingandgoingnearertohim,\"thatIspokeofthepoorpeopleofthehouse,withanyreferencetomyself?Tome?\"layingherhanduponherbosomwithasimpleandinnocentsmileofastonishment。 \"Oh!Ithinknothingaboutit,mygoodcreature,\"hereturned。\"I havehadanindisposition,whichyoursolicitude—observe!Isaysolicitude—makesagreatdealmoreof,thanitmerits;andit’sover,andwecan’tperpetuateit。\" Hecoldlytookabook,andsatdownatthetable。 Shewatchedhimforalittlewhile,untilhersmilewasquitegone,andthen,returningtowhereherbasketwas,saidgently: \"Mr。Edmund,wouldyouratherbealone?\" \"ThereisnoreasonwhyIshoulddetainyouhere,\"hereplied。 \"Except—\"saidMilly,hesitating,andshowingherwork。 \"Oh!thecurtain,\"heanswered,withasuperciliouslaugh。\"That’snotworthstayingfor。\" Shemadeupthelittlepacketagain,andputitinherbasket。