第44章

类别:其他 作者:Hiram Corson字数:9336更新时间:18/12/28 10:40:35
It’swiserbeinggoodthanbad; It’ssaferbeingmeekthanfierce: It’sfitterbeingsanethanmad。 Myownhopeis,asunwillpierceThethickestcloudeartheverstretched; That,afterLast,returnstheFirst,Thoughawidecompassroundbefetched; Thatwhatbeganbest,can’tendworst,NorwhatGodblessedonce,proveaccurst。 RabbiBenEzra。 1。 Growoldalongwithme! Thebestisyettobe,Thelastoflife,forwhichthefirstwasmade: OurtimesareinHishandWhosaith,”AwholeIplanned,Youthshowsbuthalf;trustGod:seeall,norbeafraid!”—— St。1。Growoldalongwithme!:IunderstandthattheagedRabbiisaddressingsomeyoungfriend。 Thebestisyettobe,thelastoflife:”Bythespirit,whenageshallo’ercomethee,thoustillshaltenjoyMoreindeed,thanatfirstwhen,unconscious,thelifeofaboy。”—— `Saul’,162,163。 2。 Notthat,amassingflowers,Youthsighed,”Whichrosemakeours,Whichlilyleaveandthenasbestrecall?” Notthat,admiringstars,Ityearned,”NorJove,norMars; Minebesomefiguredflamewhichblends,transcendsthemall!” 3。 NotforsuchhopesandfearsAnnullingyouth’sbriefyears,DoIremonstrate:follywidethemark! RatherIprizethedoubtLowkindsexistwithout,Finishedandfiniteclods,untroubledbyaspark—— St。2,3。Theconstructionis,Idonotremonstratethatyouth,amassingflowers,sighed,Whichrosemakeours,whichlilyleave,etc。,northat,admiringstars,it(youth)yearned,etc。 4。 Poorvauntoflifeindeed,WeremanbutformedtofeedOnjoy,tosolelyseekandfindandfeast; Suchfeastingended,thenAssureanendtomen; Irkscarethecrop-fullbird?Fretsdoubtthemaw-crammedbeast?—— St。4。Irkscare:doescareirk……doesdoubtfret…… 5。 RejoicewearealliedToThatwhichdothprovideAndnotpartake,effectandnotreceive! Asparkdisturbsourclod; NearerweholdofGodWhogives,thanofHistribesthattake,Imustbelieve—— St。5。NearerweholdofGod:havetitletoanearerrelationship。 SeeWebster,s。v。Hold,v。i。def。3。{Noeditionisgiven。} 6。 Then,welcomeeachrebuffThatturnsearth’ssmoothnessrough,Eachstingthatbidsnorsitnorstandbutgo! Beourjoysthree-partspain! Strive,andholdcheapthestrain; Learn,noraccountthepang;dare,nevergrudgethethroe! 7。 Forthence,——aparadoxWhichcomfortswhileitmocks,—— Shalllifesucceedinthatitseemstofail: WhatIaspiredtobe,Andwasnot,comfortsme: AbruteImighthavebeen,butwouldnotsinki’thescale—— St。7。WhatIaspiredtobe:”’tisnotwhatmanDoeswhichexaltshim,butwhatmanWoulddo。”——`Saul’,v。296。 8。 WhatishebutabruteWhosefleshhathsoultosuit,Whosespiritworkslestarmsandlegswantplay? Toman,proposethistest—— Thybodyatitsbest,Howfarcanthatprojectthysoulonitsloneway?—— St。8。Thybodyatitsbest,Howfar,etc。:”Inourfleshgrowsthebranchofthislife,inoursoulitbearsfruit。”——`Saul’,v。151。 9。 Yetgiftsshouldprovetheiruse: IownthePastprofuseOfpowereachside,perfectioneveryturn: Eyes,earstookintheirdole,Braintreasuredupthewhole; Shouldnottheheartbeatonce”Howgoodtoliveandlearn”?—— St。9。thePast:hemeansthepastofhisownlife。 10。 Notoncebeat”PraisebeThine! Iseethewholedesign,I,whosawPower,seenowLoveperfecttoo: PerfectIcallThyplan: ThanksthatIwasaman! Maker,remake,complete,——ItrustwhatThoushaltdo!”—— St。10。Theoriginalreadingofthe3dversewas,”I,whosawPower,SHALLseeLoveperfecttoo。”Thechangehasclearedupadifficulty。 TheAll-Greatisnowtome,inmyage,theAll-Lovingtoo。 Maker,remake,complete:thereseemstobeananticipationhereofthemetaphorofthePotter’swheel,instanzas25-32,andseeJer。18:4。 11。 Forpleasantisthisflesh; Oursoul,initsrose-meshPulledevertotheearth,stillyearnsforrest: WouldwesomeprizemightholdTomatchthosemanifoldPossessionsofthebrute,——gainmost,aswedidbest! 12。 Letusnotalwayssay”Spiteofthisfleshto-dayIstrove,madehead,gainedgrounduponthewhole!” Asthebirdwingsandsings,Letuscry”AllgoodthingsAreours,norsoulhelpsfleshmore,now,thanfleshhelpssoul!” 13。 ThereforeIsummonageTograntyouth’sheritage,Life’sstrugglehavingsofarreacheditsterm: ThenceshallIpass,approvedAman,forayeremovedFromthedevelopedbrute;aGodthoughinthegerm—— St。13。ThenceshallIpass,etc。:Itwillbeobservedthathereandinsomeofthefollowingstanzas,theRabbispeaksinthepersonofyouth;soyouthshouldsaytoitself。 14。 AndIshallthereuponTakerest,ereIbegoneOncemoreonmyadventurebraveandnew: Fearlessandunperplexed,WhenIwagebattlenext,Whatweaponstoselect,whatarmortoindue。 15。 Youthended,IshalltryMygainorlossthereby; Leavethefireashes,whatsurvivesisgold: AndIshallweighthesame,Givelifeitspraiseorblame: Young,alllayindispute;Ishallknow,beingold。 16。 For,notewheneveningshuts,AcertainmomentcutsThedeedoff,callsthegloryfromthegray: AwhisperfromthewestShoots——”Addthistotherest,Takeitandtryitsworth:herediesanotherday。” 17。 So,stillwithinthislife,Thoughliftedo’eritsstrife,Letmediscern,compare,pronounceatlast,”Thisragewasrighti’themain,Thatacquiescencevain: TheFutureImayfacenowIhaveprovedthePast。” 18。 FormoreisnotreservedToman,withsouljustnervedToactto-morrowwhathelearnsto-day: Here,workenoughtowatchTheMasterwork,andcatchHintsofthepropercraft,tricksofthetool’strueplay。 19。 Asitwasbetter,youthShouldstrive,throughactsuncouth,Towardmaking,thanreposeonaughtfoundmade: So,better,age,exemptFromstrife,shouldknow,thantemptFurther。Thouwaitedstage:waitdeath,norbeafraid! 20。 Enoughnow,iftheRightAndGoodandInfiniteBenamedhere,asthoucallestthyhandthineown,Withknowledgeabsolute,SubjecttonodisputeFromfoolsthatcrowdedyouth,norlettheefeelalone—— St。20。knowledgeabsolute:soulknowledge,whichisreachedthroughdirectassimilationbythesoulofthehiddenprinciplesofthings,asdistinguishedfromintellectualknowledge,whichisbasedonthephenominal,andmustbemoreorlesssubjecttodispute。 21。 Bethere,foronceandall,Severedgreatmindsfromsmall,AnnouncedtoeachhisstationinthePast! WasI,theworldarraigned,Werethey,mysouldisdained,Right?Letagespeakthetruthandgiveuspeaceatlast!—— St。21,vv。4,5。Therelativesaresuppressed;——WasIwhomtheworldarraigned,orweretheywhommysouldisdained,right? 22。 Now,whoshallarbitrate? TenmenlovewhatIhate,ShunwhatIfollow,slightwhatIreceive; Ten,whoinearsandeyesMatchme:weallsurmise,They,thisthing,andI,that:whomshallmysoulbelieve? 23。 NotonthevulgarmassCalled”work”,mustsentencepass,Thingsdone,thattooktheeyeandhadtheprice; O’erwhich,fromlevelstand,Thelowworldlaiditshand,Foundstraightwaytoitsmind,couldvalueinatrice: 24。 Butall,theworld’scoarsethumbAndfingerfailedtoplumb,Sopassedinmakingupthemainaccount: Allinstinctsimmature,Allpurposesunsure,Thatweighednotashiswork,yetswelledtheman’samount: 25。 ThoughtshardlytobepackedIntoanarrowact,Fanciesthatbrokethroughlanguageandescaped: AllIcouldneverbe,All,menignoredinme,This,IwasworthtoGod,whosewheelthepitchershaped。 26。 Ay,notethatPotter’swheel,Thatmetaphor!andfeelWhytimespinsfast,whypassiveliesourclay,—— Thou,towhomfoolspropound,Whenthewinemakesitsround,”Sincelifefleets,allischange;thePastgone,seizeto-day!”—— St。26。Potter’swheel:”Butnow,OLord,thouartourFather: wearetheclay,andthouourPotter;andwearealltheworkofthyhand。”——Is。64:8;andseeJer。18:2-6。 27。 Fool!Allthatis,atall,Lastsever,pastrecall; Earthchanges,butthysoulandGodstandsure: Whatenteredintothee,THATwas,is,andshallbe: Time’swheelrunsbackorstops:Potterandclayendure。 28。 HefixedtheemidthisdanceOfplasticcircumstance,ThisPresent,thou,forsooth,wouldstfainarrest: MachineryjustmeantTogivethysoulitsbent,Trythee,andturntheeforthsufficientlyimpressed。 29。 WhatthoughtheearliergroovesWhichranthelaughinglovesAroundthybase,nolongerpauseandpress? Whatthough,aboutthyrim,Skull-thingsinordergrimGrowout,ingravermood,obeythesternerstress? 30。 Looknotthoudownbutup! Tousesofacup,Thefestalboard,lamp’sflash,andtrumpet’speal,Thenewwine’sfoamingflow,TheMaster’slipsaglow! Thou,heaven’sconsummatecup,whatneedstthouwithearth’swheel? 31。 ButIneed,nowasthen,Thee,God,whomouldestmen! Andsince,notevenwhilethewhirlwasworst,DidI,——tothewheeloflifeWithshapesandcolorsrife,Bounddizzily,——mistakemyend,toslakeThythirst: 32。 So,takeanduseThywork,Amendwhatflawsmaylurk,Whatstraino’thestuff,whatwarpingspasttheaim! MytimesbeinThyhand! Perfectthecupasplanned! Letageapproveofyouth,anddeathcompletethesame! AGrammarian’sFuneral。 ShortlyaftertheRevivalofLearninginEurope。 Letusbeginandcarryupthiscorpse,Singingtogether。 Leavewethecommoncrofts,thevulgarthorpes,EachinitstetherSleepingsafeinthebosomoftheplain,Cared-fortillcock-crow: LookoutifyonderbenotdayagainRimmingtherock-row! That’stheappropriatecountry;there,man’sthought,Rarer,intenser,[10] Self-gatheredforanoutbreak,asitought,Chafesinthecenser。 Leavewetheunletteredplainitsherdandcrop; SeekwesepultureOnatallmountain,citiedtothetop,Crowdedwithculture! Allthepeakssoar,butonetherestexcels; Cloudsovercomeit; No,yondersparkleisthecitadel’sCirclingitssummit。[20] Thitherourpathlies;windweuptheheights! Waityethewarning? Ourlowlifewasthelevel’sandthenight’s: He’sforthemorning。 Steptoatune,squarechests,erecteachhead,’Warethebeholders! Thisisourmaster,famous,calm,anddead,Borneonourshoulders。 Sleep,cropandherd!sleep,darklingthorpeandcroftSafefromtheweather!###第45章 He,whomweconvoytohisgravealoft,Singingtogether,Hewasamanbornwiththyfaceandthroat,LyricApollo! Longhelivednameless:howshouldspringtakenoteWinterwouldfollow? Tilllo,thelittletouch,andyouthwasgone! Crampedanddiminished,Moanedhe,”Newmeasures,otherfeetanon!”Mydanceisfinished?”[40] No,that’stheworld’sway;(keepthemountain-side,Makeforthecity!) Heknewthesignal,andsteppedonwithprideOvermen’spity; Leftplayforwork,andgrappledwiththeworldBentonescaping:”What’sinthescroll,”quothhe,”thoukeepestfurled? Showmetheirshaping,Theirswhomoststudiedman,thebardandsage,—— Give!”——So,hegownedhim,[50] Straightgotbyheartthatbooktoitslastpage: Learned,wefoundhim。 Yea,butwefoundhimbaldtoo,eyeslikelead,Accentsuncertain:”Timetotastelife,”anotherwouldhavesaid,”Upwiththecurtain!” Thismansaidrather,”Actuallifecomesnext? Patienceamoment! GrantIhavemasteredlearning’scrabbedtext,Stillthere’sthecomment。[60] Letmeknowall!Pratenotofmostorleast,Painfuloreasy! EventothecrumbsI’dfaineatupthefeast,Ay,norfeelqueasy。” Oh,suchalifeasheresolvedtolive,Whenhehadlearnedit,Whenhehadgatheredallbookshadtogive! Sooner,hespurnedit。 Imagethewhole,thenexecutetheparts—— Fancythefabric[70] Quite,ereyoubuild,eresteelstrikefirefromquartz,Eremortardabbrick! (Here’sthetown-gatereached;there’sthemarket-placeGapingbeforeus。) Yea,thisinhimwasthepeculiargrace(Heartenourchorus!) Thatbeforelivinghe’dlearnhowtolive—— Noendtolearning: Earnthemeansfirst——GodsurelywillcontriveUseforourearning。[80] Othersmistrustandsay,”Buttimeescapes! Livenowornever!” Hesaid,”What’stime?LeaveNowfordogsandapes! ManhasForever。” Backtohisbookthen:deeperdroopedhishead: CALCULUSrackedhim: Leadenbefore,hiseyesgrewdrossoflead: TUSSISattackedhim。”Now,master,takealittlerest!”——nothe! (Cautionredoubled![90] Steptwoabreast,thewaywindsnarrowly!) Notawhittroubled,Backtohisstudies,fresherthanatfirst,FierceasadragonHe(soul-hydropticwithasacredthirst) Suckedattheflagon。 Oh,ifwedrawacirclepremature,Heedlessoffargain,Greedyforquickreturnsofprofit,sureBadisourbargain![100] Wasitnotgreat?didnothethrowonGod(Helovestheburthen)—— God’stasktomaketheheavenlyperiodPerfecttheearthen? Didnothemagnifythemind,showclearJustwhatitallmeant? Hewouldnotdiscountlife,asfoolsdohere,Paidbyinstalment。 Heventuredneckornothing——heaven’ssuccessFound,orearth’sfailure:[110]”Wiltthoutrustdeathornot?”Heanswered,”Yes! Hencewithlife’spalelure!” Thatlowmanseeksalittlethingtodo。 Seesitanddoesit: Thishighman,withagreatthingtopursue,Diesereheknowsit。 Thatlowmangoesonaddingonetoone,Hishundred’ssoonhit: Thishighman,aimingatamillion,Missesanunit。[120] That,hastheworldhere——shouldheneedthenext,Lettheworldmindhim! This,throwshimselfonGod,andunperplexedSeekingshallfindhim。 So,withthethrottlinghandsofdeathatstrife,Groundheatgrammar; Still,throughtherattle,partsofspeechwererife: WhilehecouldstammerHesettledHOTI’sbusiness——letitbe!—— ProperlybasedOUN——[130] Gaveusthedoctrineoftheenclitic`De’,Deadfromthewaistdown。 Well,here’stheplatform,here’stheproperplace: Hailtoyourpurlieus,Allyehighfliersofthefeatheredrace,Swallowsandcurlews! Here’sthetop-peak;themultitudebelowLive,fortheycan,there: ThismandecidednottoLivebutKnow—— Burythismanthere?[140] Here——here’shisplace,wheremeteorsshoot,cloudsform,Lightningsareloosened,Starscomeandgo!Letjoybreakwiththestorm,Peaceletthedewsend! Loftydesignsmustcloseinlikeeffects: Loftilylying,Leavehim——stillloftierthantheworldsuspects,Livinganddying—— 18。overcome:passover,overhang,overshadow;usedasinMacbethIII。IV。3,”overcomeuslikeasummer’scloud”。 39,40。Newmeasures,……finished?:doyousay?notatall。 42。Allinparentheses,throughoutthepoem,isaddressedbythespeakerdirectlytohiscompanions。 57。Actuallifecomesnext:doyousay?No。Ihavemoretodofirst。 86。Calculus:thestone。 88。Tussis:acough。 95。hydroptic:hydropic,dropsical。 129。Hoti:theGreekparticle`/Oti,conj。that,etc。 130。Oun:GreekparticleOu^’n,then,nowthen,etc。 131。theencliticDe:GreekDe{Deltaepsilon};inregardtothis,thefollowingletterbyBrowningappearedintheLondon`DailyNews’ ofNov。21,1874:”TotheEditorof`TheDailyNews’。Sir,—— Inacleverarticlethismorningyouspeakof`thedoctrineoftheencliticDe’——`which,withalldeferencetoMr。Browning,inpointoffactdoesnotexist。’No,nottoMr。Browning: butpraydefertoHerrButtmann,whosefifthlistof`enclitics’ ends`withtheinseparableDe’——ortoCurtius,whosefifthlistendsalsowith`De(meaning`towards’ andasademonstrativeappendage)’。Thatthisisnottobeconfoundedwiththeaccentuated`De,meaningBUT’,wasthe`doctrine’ whichtheGrammarianbequeathedtothosecapableofreceivingit—— Iam,sir,yoursobediently,R。B。”——`BrowningSoc。Papers’,PartI。,p。56。 AnEpistlecontainingtheStrangeMedicalExperienceofKarshish,theArabPhysician。 Karshish,thepicker-upoflearning’scrumbs,Thenot-incuriousinGod’shandiwork(Thisman’s-fleshhehathadmirablymade,Blownlikeabubble,kneadedlikeapaste,TocoopupandkeepdownonearthaspaceThatpuffofvaporfromhismouth,man’ssoul)—— ToAbib,all-sagaciousinourart,BreederinmeofwhatpoorskillIboast,LikemeinquisitivehowpricksandcracksBefallthefleshthroughtoomuchstressandstrain,[10] WherebythewilyvaporfainwouldslipBackandrejoinitssourcebeforetheterm,—— Andaptestincontrivance(underGod) Tobaffleitbydeftlystoppingsuch:—— ThevagrantScholartohisSageathomeSendsgreeting(healthandknowledge,famewithpeace) Threesamplesoftruesnake-stone——rarerstill,Oneoftheothersort,themelon-shaped(Butfitter,poundedfine,forcharmsthandrugs),Andwritethnowthetwenty-secondtime。[20] MyjourneyingswerebroughttoJericho: ThusIresume。Who,studiousinourart,Shallcountalittlelaborunrepaid? Ihaveshedsweatenough,leftfleshandboneOnmanyaflintyfurlongofthisland。 Also,thecountry-sideisallonfireWithrumorsofamarchinghitherward: SomesayVespasiancometh,some,hisson。 Ablacklynxsnarledandprickedatuftedear; Lustofmybloodinflamedhisyellowballs:[30] Icriedandthrewmystaff,andhewasgone。 Twicehavetherobbersstrippedandbeatenme,Andonceatowndeclaredmeforaspy; Butattheend,IreachJerusalem,SincethispoorcovertwhereIpassthenight,ThisBethany,liesscarcethedistancethenceAmanwithplague-soresatthethirddegreeRunstillhedropsdowndead。Thoulaughesthere! ’Sooth,itelatesme,thusreposedandsafe,Tovoidthestuffingofmytravel-scrip,[40] AndsharewiththeewhateverJewryyields。 AviscidcholerisobservableIntertians,Iwasnearlyboldtosay; Andfalling-sicknesshathahappiercureThanourschoolwotsof:there’saspiderhereWeavesnoweb,watchesontheledgeoftombs,Sprinkledwithmottlesonanash-grayback; Takefiveanddropthem……butwhoknowshismind,TheSyrianrunagateItrustthisto? Hisservicepayethmeasublimate[50] Blownuphisnosetohelptheailingeye。 Bestwait:IreachJerusalematmorn,Theresetinordermyexperiences,Gatherwhatmostdeserves,andgivetheeall—— OrImightadd,Judaea’sgum-tragacanthScalesoffinpurerflakes,shinesclearer-grained,Cracks’twixtthepestleandtheporphyry,Infineexceedsourproduce。Scalp-diseaseConfoundsme,crossingsowithleprosy: ThouhadstadmiredonesortIgainedatZoar——[60] Butzealoutrunsdiscretion。HereIend。 Yetstay!mySyrianblinkethgratefully,Protestethhisdevotionismyprice—— SupposeIwritewhatharmsnot,thoughhesteal? Ihalfresolvetotellthee,yetIblush,Whatsetmeoffa-writingfirstofall。 AnitchIhad,astingtowrite,atang! For,beitthistown’sbarrenness,——orelseTheManhadsomethinginthelookofhim,—— Hiscasehasstruckmefarmorethan’tisworth。[70] So,pardonif——(lestpresentlyIlose,Inthegreatpressofnoveltyathand,Thecareandpainsthissomehowstolefromme) Ibidtheetakethethingwhilefreshinmind,Almostinsight——for,wiltthouhavethetruth? Theverymanisgonefrommebutnow,Whoseailmentisthesubjectofdiscourse。 Thusthen,andletthybetterwithelpall! ’Tisbutacaseofmania:subinducedByepilepsy,attheturning-point[80] Oftranceprolongedundulysomethreedays; When,bytheexhibitionofsomedrugOrspell,exorcization,strokeofartUnknowntomeandwhich’twerewelltoknow,Theevilthing,out-breaking,allatonce,Leftthemanwholeandsoundofbodyindeed,—— But,flinging(sotospeak)life’sgatestoowide,Makingaclearhouseofittoosuddenly,ThefirstconceitthatenteredmightinscribeWhateveritwasmindedonthewall[90] Soplainlyatthatvantage,asitwere(Firstcome,firstserved),thatnothingsubsequentAttainethtoerasethosefancy-scrawlsThejust-returnedandnew-establishedsoulHathgottennowsothoroughlybyheartThathenceforthshewillreadortheseornone。 Andfirst——theman’sownfirmconvictionrestsThathewasdead(infacttheyburiedhim)—— ThathewasdeadandthenrestoredtolifeByaNazarenephysicianofhistribe:[100]—— ’Sayeth,thesamebade”Rise”,andhedidrise。”Suchcasesarediurnal”,thouwiltcry。 Notsothisfigment!——not,thatsuchafume,Insteadofgivingwaytotimeandhealth,Shouldeatitselfintothelifeoflife,Assaffrontingethflesh,blood,bones,andall! Forsee,howhetakesuptheafter-life。 Theman——itisoneLazarusaJew,Sanguine,proportioned,fiftyyearsofage,Thebody’shabitwhollylaudable,[110] Asmuch,indeed,beyondthecommonhealthAsheweremadeandputasidetoshow。 Think,couldwepenetratebyanydrugAndbathetheweariedsoulandworriedflesh,Andbringitclearandfair,bythreedays’sleep! Whencehasthemanthebalmthatbrightensall? Thisgrownmaneyestheworldnowlikeachild。 Someeldersofhistribe,Ishouldpremise,Ledintheirfriend,obedientasasheep,Tobearmyinquisition。Whiletheyspoke,[120] Nowsharply,nowwithsorrow,——toldthecase,—— HelistenednotexceptIspoketohim,Butfoldedhistwohandsandletthemtalk,Watchingthefliesthatbuzzed:andyetnofool。 Andthat’sasamplehowhisyearsmustgo。 Lookifabeggar,infixedmiddle-life,Shouldfindatreasure,——canheusethesameWithstraitenedhabitsandwithtastesstarvedsmall,AndtakeatoncetohisimpoverishedbrainThesuddenelementthatchangesthings,[130] Thatsetstheundreamed-ofraptureathishand,Andputsthecheapoldjoyinthescorneddust? Ishenotsuchanoneasmovestomirth—— Warilyparsimonious,whennoneed,Wastefulasdrunkennessatunduetimes? AllprudentcounselastowhatbefitsThegoldenmean,islostonsuchanone: Theman’sfantasticwillistheman’slaw。 Sohere——wecallthetreasureknowledge,say,Increasedbeyondthefleshlyfaculty——[140]