第37章

类别:其他 作者:Hiram Corson字数:5160更新时间:18/12/28 10:40:35
St。36。andupgoesthespire:Giotto’splanincludedaspireof100feet,buttheprojectwasabandonedbyTaddeoGaddi,whocarriedontheworkafterthedeathofGiottoin1336。”ThemountainsfromwithoutInsilencelistenforthewordsaidnext。 Whatwordwillmensay,——herewhereGiottoplantedHisCampanilelikeanunperplexedFinequestionheaven-ward,touchingthethingsgrantedAnoblepeople,who,beinggreatlyvexedInact,inaspirationkeepundaunted?”—— Mrs。Browning’s`CasaGuidiWindows’,Pt。I。,vv。66-72。 PictorIgnotus。 [Florence,15。] Icouldhavepaintedpictureslikethatyouth’sYepraiseso。Howmysoulspringsup!NobarStayedme——ah,thoughtwhichsaddenswhileitsoothes!—— Neverdidfateforbidme,starbystar,Tooutburstonyournight,withallmygiftOffiresfromGod:norwouldmyfleshhaveshrunkFromsecondingmysoul,witheyesupliftAndwidetoheaven,or,straightlikethunder,sunkTothecentre,ofaninstant;oraroundTurnedcalmlyandinquisitive,toscan[10] Thelicenseandthelimit,spaceandbound,Allowedtotruthmadevisibleinman。 And,likethatyouthyepraiseso,allIsaw,Overthecanvascouldmyhandhaveflung,Eachfaceobedienttoitspassion’slaw,Eachpassionclearproclaimedwithoutatongue: WhetherHoperoseatonceinalltheblood,A-tiptoefortheblessingofembrace,OrRapturedroopedtheeyes,aswhenherbroodPulldownthenestingdove’shearttoitsplace;[20] OrConfidencelitswifttheforeheadup,Andlockedthemouthfast,likeacastlebraved,—— Ohumanfaces!hathitspilt,mycup? WhatdidyegivemethatIhavenotsaved? NorwillIsayIhavenotdreamed(howwell!) Ofgoing——I,ineachnewpicture,——forth,As,makingnewheartsbeatandbosomsswell,ToPopeorKaiser,East,West,South,orNorth,BoundforthecalmlysatisfiedgreatState,Orgladaspiringlittleburgh,itwent,[30] Flowerscastuponthecarwhichborethefreight,Througholdstreetsnamedafreshfromtheevent,Tillitreachedhome,wherelearnedageshouldgreetMyface,andyouth,thestarnotyetdistinctAbovehishair,lielearningatmyfeet!—— Oh,thustolive,Iandmypicture,linkedWithloveabout,andpraise,tilllifeshouldend,Andthennotgotoheaven,butlingerhere,Hereonmyearth,earth’severymanmyfriend,Thethoughtgrewfrightful,’twassowildlydear![40] Butavoicechangedit。GlimpsesofsuchsightsHavescaredme,liketherevelsthroughadoorOfsomestrangehouseofidolsatitsrites! Thisworldseemednottheworlditwas,before: Mixedwithmylovingtrustingones,theretrooped……WhosummonedthosecoldfacesthatbegunTopressonmeandjudgeme?ThoughIstoopedShrinking,asfromthesoldieryanun,Theydrewmeforth,andspiteofme……enough! Thesebuyandsellourpictures,takeandgive,[50] Countthemforgarnitureandhousehold-stuff,AndwheretheyliveneedsmustourpicturesliveAndseetheirfaces,listentotheirprate,Partakersoftheirdailypettiness,Discussedof,——”ThisIlove,orthisIhate,Thislikesmemore,andthisaffectsmeless!” WhereforeIchosemyportion。IfatwhilesMyheartsinks,asmonotonousIpaintTheseendlesscloistersandeternalaislesWiththesameseries,Virgin,Babe,andSaint,[60] Withthesamecoldcalmbeautifulregard,—— Atleastnomerchanttrafficsinmyheart; Thesanctuary’sgloomatleastshallwardVaintonguesfromwheremypicturesstandapart: OnlyprayerbreaksthesilenceoftheshrineWhile,blackeninginthedailycandle-smoke,Theymoulderonthedampwall’stravertine,’Midechoesthelightfootstepneverwoke。 So,diemypictures!surely,gentlydie! Oyouth,menpraiseso,——holdstheirpraiseitsworth?[70] Blownharshly,keepsthetrumpitsgoldencry? Tastessweetthewaterwithsuchspecksofearth?—— 3。ah,thoughtwhichsaddenswhileitsoothes:thethoughtsaddenshimthathehasnotrealizedhiscapabilities,andsootheshimthathehasresistedthetemptationstoearthlyfame,andbeentruetohissoul。 14-22。hecouldhaveexpressedHope,Rapture,Confidence,andallotherpassions,inthehumanface,eachclearproclaimedwithoutatongue。 23。hathitspilt,mycup?:thecupofhismemory。 24。WhatdidyegivemethatIhavenotsaved?:hehasretainedalltheimpressionshehasreceivedfromhumanfaces。 25etseq。:NorwillIsayIhavenotdreamed(howwellIhavedreamed!)ofgoingforthineachnewpicture,asitwenttoPopeorKaiser,etc。,makingnewheartsbeatandbosomsswell。 34。thestarnotyetdistinctabovehishair:hisfamenothavingyetshonebrightlyout;”his”refersto”youth”。 35。lielearning:andshouldlie。 41。Butavoicechangedit:thevoiceofhissecretsoul。 67。travertine:coatingoflime;properlyalimestone。 Lat。,`lapisTiburtinus’,foundnearTibur,nowTivoli。 AndreadelSarto。 [Called”TheFaultlessPainter”。] Butdonotletusquarrelanymore,No,myLucrezia!bearwithmeforonce: Sitdownandallshallhappenasyouwish。 Youturnyourface,butdoesitbringyourheart? I’llworkthenforyourfriend’sfriend,neverfear,Treathisownsubjectafterhisownway,Fixhisowntime,accepttoohisownprice,AndshutthemoneyintothissmallhandWhennextittakesmine。Willit?tenderly? Oh,I’llcontenthim,——butto-morrow,Love![10] Ioftenammuchwearierthanyouthink,Thiseveningmorethanusual:anditseemsAsif——forgivenow——shouldyouletmesitHerebythewindow,withyourhandinmine,AndlookahalfhourforthonFiesole,Bothofonemind,asmarriedpeopleuse,Quietly,quietlytheeveningthrough,Imightgetupto-morrowtomyworkCheerfulandfreshasever。Letustry。 To-morrow,howyoushallbegladforthis![20] Yoursofthandisawomanofitself,Andmine,theman’sbaredbreastshecurlsinside。 Don’tcountthetimelost,neither;youmustserveForeachofthefivepictureswerequire: Itsavesamodel。So!keeplookingso—— Myserpentiningbeauty,roundsonrounds!—— Howcouldyoueverprickthoseperfectears,Eventoputthepearlthere!oh,sosweet—— Myface,mymoon,myeverybody’smoon,Whicheverybodylooksonandcallshis,[30] And,Isuppose,islookedonbyinturn,Whileshelooks——noone’s:verydear,noless。 Yousmile?why,there’smypicturereadymade,That’swhatwepainterscallourharmony! Acommongraynesssilverseverything,—— Allinatwilight,youandIalike——You,atthepointofyourfirstprideinme(That’sgone,youknow)——butI,ateverypoint; Myyouth,myhope,myart,beingalltoneddownToyondersoberpleasantFiesole。[40] There’sthebellclinkingfromthechapel-top; Thatlengthofconvent-wallacrossthewayHoldsthetreessafer,huddledmoreinside; Thelastmonkleavesthegarden;daysdecrease,Andautumngrows,autumnineverything。 Eh?thewholeseemstofallintoashape,AsifIsawalikemyworkandselfAndallthatIwasborntobeanddo,Atwilight-piece。Love,weareinGod’shand。 Howstrangenow,looksthelifehemakesuslead;[50] Sofreeweseem,sofetteredfastweare! Ifeelhelaidthefetter:letitlie! Thischamber,forexample——turnyourhead—— Allthat’sbehindus!Youdon’tunderstandNorcaretounderstandaboutmyart,Butyoucanhearatleastwhenpeoplespeak: Andthatcartoon,thesecondfromthedoor——Itisthething,Love!sosuchthingsshouldbe: BeholdMadonna!——Iamboldtosay。 IcandowithmypencilwhatIknow,[60] WhatIsee,whatatbottomofmyheartIwishfor,ifIeverwishsodeep—— Doeasily,too——whenIsay,perfectly,Idonotboast,perhaps:yourselfarejudge,WholistenedtotheLegate’stalklastweek; AndjustasmuchtheyusedtosayinFrance。 Atanyrate’tiseasy,allofit! Nosketchesfirst,nostudies,that’slongpast: Idowhatmanydreamof,alltheirlives,——Dream?strivetodo,andagonizetodo,[70] Andfailindoing。IcouldcounttwentysuchOntwiceyourfingers,andnotleavethistown,Whostrive——youdon’tknowhowtheothersstriveTopaintalittlethinglikethatyousmearedCarelesslypassingwithyourrobesafloat,—— Yetdomuchless,somuchless,Someonesays,(Iknowhisname,nomatter)——somuchless! Well,lessismore,Lucrezia:Iamjudged。 ThereburnsatruerlightofGodinthem,Intheirvexedbeatingstuffedandstopped-upbrain,[80] Heart,orwhate’erelse,thangoesontopromptThislow-pulsedforthrightcraftsman’shandofmine。 Theirworksdropgroundward,butthemselves,Iknow,Reachmanyatimeaheaventhat’sshuttome,Enterandtaketheirplacetheresureenough,Thoughtheycomebackandcannottelltheworld。 Myworksarenearerheaven,butIsithere。 Thesuddenbloodofthesemen!ataword—— Praisethem,itboils,orblamethem,itboilstoo。 I,paintingfrommyselfandtomyself,[90] KnowwhatIdo,amunmovedbymen’sblameOrtheirpraiseeither。SomebodyremarksMorello’soutlinethereiswronglytraced,Hishuemistaken;whatofthat?orelse,Rightlytracedandwellordered;whatofthat? Speakastheyplease,whatdoesthemountaincare? Ah,butaman’sreachshouldexceedhisgrasp,Orwhat’saheavenfor?Allissilver-gray,Placidandperfectwithmyart:theworse! IknowbothwhatIwantandwhatmightgain;[100] Andyethowprofitlesstoknow,tosigh”HadIbeentwo,anotherandmyself,Ourheadwouldhaveo’erlookedtheworld!”Nodoubt。 Yonder’saworknow,ofthatfamousyouthTheUrbinatewhodiedfiveyearsago。 (’Tiscopied,GeorgeVasarisentitme。) Well,Icanfancyhowhediditall,Pouringhissoul,withkingsandpopestosee,Reaching,thatheavenmightsoreplenishhim,Aboveandthroughhisart——foritgivesway;[110] Thatarmiswronglyput——andthereagain—— Afaulttopardoninthedrawing’slines,Itsbody,sotospeak:itssoulisright,Hemeansright——that,achildmayunderstand。 Still,whatanarm!andIcouldalterit: Butalltheplay,theinsightandthestretch—— Outofme,outofme!Andwhereforeout? Hadyouenjoinedthemonme,givenmesoul,WemighthaverisentoRafael,Iandyou。 Nay,Love,youdidgiveallIasked,Ithink——[120] MorethanImerit,yes,bymanytimes。 Buthadyou——oh,withthesameperfectbrow,Andperfecteyes,andmorethanperfectmouth,Andthelowvoicemysoulhears,asabirdThefowler’spipe,andfollowstothesnare—— Hadyou,withthesethesame,butbroughtamind! Somewomendoso。Hadthemouththereurged”Godandtheglory!nevercareforgain。 Thepresentbythefuture,whatisthat? Liveforfame,sidebysidewithAgnolo![130] Rafaeliswaiting:uptoGod,allthree!” Imighthavedoneitforyou。Soitseems: Perhapsnot。AllisasGodover-rules。 Beside,incentivescomefromthesoul’sself; Therestavailnot。WhydoIneedyou? WhatwifehadRafael,orhasAgnolo? Inthisworld,whocandoathing,willnot; Andwhowoulddoit,cannot,Iperceive: Yetthewill’ssomewhat——somewhat,too,thepower—— Andthuswehalf-menstruggle。Attheend,[140] God,Iconclude,compensates,punishes。 ’Tissaferforme,iftheawardbestrict,ThatIamsomethingunderratedhere,Poorthislongwhile,despised,tospeakthetruth。 Idarednot,doyouknow,leavehomeallday,ForfearofchancingontheParislords。 Thebestiswhentheypassandlookaside; Buttheyspeaksometimes;Imustbearitall。 Wellmaytheyspeak!ThatFrancis,thatfirsttime,AndthatlongfestalyearatFontainebleau![150] Isurelythencouldsometimesleavetheground,Putontheglory,Rafael’sdailywear,Inthathumanegreatmonarch’sgoldenlook,—— OnefingerinhisbeardortwistedcurlOverhismouth’sgoodmarkthatmadethesmile,Onearmaboutmyshoulder,roundmyneck,Thejingleofhisgoldchaininmyear,Ipaintingproudlywithhisbreathonme,Allhiscourtroundhim,seeingwithhiseyes,SuchfrankFrencheyes,andsuchafireofsouls[160] Profuse,myhandkeptplyingbythosehearts,—— And,bestofall,this,this,thisfacebeyond,Thisinthebackground,waitingonmywork,Tocrowntheissuewithalastreward! Agoodtime,wasitnot,mykinglydays? Andhadyounotgrownrestless……butIknow