第33章

类别:其他 作者:Hiram Corson字数:4492更新时间:18/12/28 10:40:35
Thatisthedoctrine,simple,ancient,true; Suchislife’strial,asoldearthsmilesandknows。 Ifyoulovedonlywhatwereworthyourlove,Lovewerecleargain,andwhollywellforyou: Makethelownaturebetterbyyourthroes! Giveearthyourself,goupforgainabove! VIII。BesidetheDrawing-Board。 1。”AslikeasaHandtoanotherHand!” Whoeversaidthatfoolishthing,CouldnothavestudiedtounderstandThecounselsofGodinfashioning,Outoftheinfiniteloveofhisheart,ThisHand,whosebeautyIpraise,apartFromtheworldofwonderlefttopraise,IfItriedtolearntheotherwaysOflove,initsskill,orlove,initspower。”AslikeasaHandtoanotherHand”:[10] Whosaidthat,nevertookhisstand,Foundandfollowed,likeme,anhour,Thebeautyinthis,——howfree,howfineTofear,almost,——ofthelimit-line! AsIlookedatthis,andlearnedanddrew,Drewandlearned,andlookedagain,Whilefastthehappyminutesflew,Itsbeautymountedintomybrain,Andafancyseizedme;IwasfainToeffacemywork,beginanew,[20] KisswhatbeforeIonlydrew; Ay,layingtheredchalk’twixtmylips,Withsoultohelpifthemerelipsfailed,Ikissedallrightwherethedrawingailed,KissedfastthegracethatsomehowslipsStillfromone’ssoullessfinger-tips—— *Lines27-87{below——therestofthissectionexceptthelasttwolines} wereaddedintheeditionof1868;theyclearuptheobscurityofthissectionofthepoem,asitstoodintheoriginaleditionof1864—— 2。 ’Tisaclaycast,theperfectthing,FromHandliveonce,deadlongago: Princess-likeitwearstheringTofancy’seye,bywhichweknow[30] ThathereatlengthamasterfoundHismatch,aproudlonesoulitsmate,AssoaringgeniussanktogroundAndpencilcouldnotemulateThebeautyinthis,——howfree,howfineTofearalmost!——ofthelimit-line。 Longagothegod,likemeTheworm,learned,eachinourdegree: Lookedandloved,learnedanddrew,Drewandlearnedandlovedagain,[40] Whilefastthehappyminutesflew,TillbeautymountedintohisbrainAndonthefingerwhichoutviedHisartheplacedtheringthat’sthere,Stillbyfancy’seyedescried,Intokenofamarriagerare: Forhimonearth,hisart’sdespair,Forhiminheaven,hissoul’sfitbride。 3。 LittlegirlwiththepoorcoarsehandIturnedfromtoacoldclaycast——[50] Ihavemylesson,understandTheworthoffleshandbloodatlast! NothingbutbeautyinaHand? Becausehecouldnotchangethehue,MendthelinesandmakethemtrueTothiswhichmethissoul’sdemand,—— WouldDaVinciturnfromyou? Ihearhimlaughmywoestoscorn——”ThefoolforsoothisallforlornBecausethebeauty,shethinksbest,[60] Livedlongagoorwasneverborn,—— BecausenobeautybearsthetestInthisroughpeasantHand!Confessed`Artisnullandstudyvoid!’ Sosayestthou?SosaidnotI,Whothrewthefaultypencilby,Andyearsinsteadofhoursemployed,LearningtheveritableuseOffleshandboneandnervebeneathLinesandhueoftheoutersheath,[70] IfhaplyImightreproduceOnemotiveofthemechanism,FleshandboneandnervethatmakeThepoorestcoarsesthumanhandAnobjectworthytobescannedAwholelifelongfortheirsolesake。 Shallearthandthecrampedmoment-spaceYieldtheheavenlycrowninggrace? Nowthepartsandthenthewhole! Whoartthou,withstintedsoul[80] Andstuntedbody,thustocry`Ilove,——shallthatbelife’sstraitdole? Imustlivebelovedordie!’ ThispeasanthandthatspinsthewoolAndbakesthebread,whylivesiton,Poorandcoarsewithbeautygone,—— Whatusesurvivesthebeauty?Fool!” Go,littlegirlwiththepoorcoarsehand! Ihavemylesson,shallunderstand。 IX。OnDeck。 1。 Thereisnothingtorememberinme,NothingIeversaidwithagrace,NothingIdidthatyoucaretosee,NothingIwasthatdeservesaplaceInyourmind,nowIleaveyou,setyoufree—— St。1。NothingIdidthatyoucaretosee:referstoherart-work。 2。 Conceded!Inturn,concedetome,Suchthingshavebeenasamutualflame。 Yoursoul’slockedfast;but,loveforakey,Youmightletitloose,tillIgrewthesameInyoureyes,asinmineyoustand:strangeplea! 3。 Forthen,then,whatwoulditmattertomeThatIwastheharsh,ill-favoredone? Webothshouldbelikeaspeaandpea; Itwaseversosincetheworldbegun: So,letmeproceedwithmyreverie—— St。3。Hereitisindicatedthatshehadnotthepersonalcharmswhichwereneededtomaintainherhusband’sinterest。 Aprettyfacewasmoretohimthanadeeplovingsoul。 4。 Howstrangeitwereifyouhadallme,AsIhaveallyouinmyheartandbrain,You,whoseleastwordbroughtgloomorglee,WhoneverliftedthehandinvainWillholdmineyet,fromoverthesea! 5。 Strange,ifaface,whenyouthoughtofme,Roselikeyourownfacepresentnow,Witheyesasdearintheirduedegree,Muchsuchamouth,andasbrightabrow,Tillyousawyourself,whileyoucried”’TisShe!” 6。 Well,youmay,youmust,setdowntomeLovethatwaslife,lifethatwaslove; Atenureofbreathatyourlips’decree,Apassiontostandasyourthoughtsapprove,Arapturetofallwhereyourfootmightbe—— St。6。vv。3-5expresstheentiredevotionandsubmissivenessofherlove。 7。 ButdidonetouchofsuchloveformeComeinawordoralookofyours,Whosewordsandlookswill,circling,fleeRoundmeandroundwhilelifeendures,—— CouldIfancy”AsIfeel,thusfeelsHe”; 8。 Why,fadeyoumighttoathinglikeme,Andyourhairgrowthesecoarsehanksofhair,Yourskin,thisbarkofagnarledtree,—— Youmightturnmyself!——shouldIknoworcare,WhenIshouldbedeadofjoy,JamesLee? ATale。 Epilogueto`TheTwoPoetsofCroisic’。 1。 WhataprettytaleyoutoldmeOnceuponatime——Saidyoufounditsomewhere(scoldme!) Wasitproseorwasitrhyme,GreekorLatin?Greek,yousaid,Whileyourshoulderproppedmyhead。 2。 Anyhowthere’snoforgettingThismuchifnomore,Thatapoet(pray,nopetting!) Yes,abard,sir,famedofyore,Wentwheresuchlikeusedtogo,Singingforaprize,youknow。 3。 Well,hehadtosing,normerelySingbutplaythelyre; PlayingwasimportantclearlyQuiteassinging:Idesire,Sir,youkeepthefactinmindForapurposethat’sbehind。 4。 Therestoodhe,whiledeepattentionHeldthejudgesround,——Judgesable,Ishouldmention,TodetecttheslightestsoundSungorplayedamiss:suchearsHadoldjudges,itappears! 5。 Nonethelesshesangoutboldly,Playedintimeandtune,Tillthejudges,weighingcoldlyEachnote’sworth,seemed,lateorsoon,Suretosmile”InvainonetriesPickingfaultsout:taketheprize!” 6。 When,amischief!WeretheysevenStringsthelyrepossessed? Oh,andafterwardseleven,Thankyou!Well,sir,——whohadguessedSuchillluckinstore?——ithappedOneofthosesamesevenstringssnapped。 7。 Allwaslost,then!No!acricket(What”cicada”?Pooh!)—— SomemadthingthatleftitsthicketFormereloveofmusic——flewWithitslittleheartonfire,Lightedonthecrippledlyre—— St。7。”Cicada”:doyousay? Pooh!:that’sbringingthemysteriouslittlethingdowntotheplaneofentomology。 8。 Sothatwhen(Ahjoy!)oursingerForhistruantstringFeelswithdisconcertedfinger,WhatdoescricketelsebutflingFieryheartforth,soundthenoteWantedbythethrobbingthroat? 9。 Ayand,evertotheending,Cricketchirpsatneed,Executesthehand’sintending,Promptly,perfectly,——indeedSavesthesingerfromdefeatWithherchirruplowandsweet。 10。 Till,atending,allthejudgesCrywithoneassent”Taketheprize——aprizewhogrudgesSuchavoiceandinstrument? Why,wetookyourlyreforharp,SoitshrilledusforthFsharp!” 11。 Didtheconquerorspurnthecreature,Onceitsservicedone? That’snosuchuncommonfeatureInthecasewhenMusic’ssonFindshisLotte’spowertoospentForaidingsoul-development—— St。11。whenMusic’sson,etc。:aflingatGoethe。 12。 No!Thisother,onreturningHomeward,prizeinhand,Satisfiedhisbosom’syearning: (Sir,Ihopeyouunderstand!)—— Said”SomerecordtheremustbeOfthiscricket’shelptome!” 13。 So,hemadehimselfastatue: Marblestood,life-size; Onthelyre,hepointedatyou,Perchedhispartnerintheprize; NevermoreapartyoufoundHer,hethroned,fromhim,shecrowned。 14。 That’sthetale:itsapplication? SomebodyIknowHopesonedayforreputationThroughhispoetrythat’s——Oh,AllsolearnedandsowiseAnddeservingofaprize! 15。 Ifhegainsone,willsometicket,Whenhisstatue’sbuilt,Tellthegazer”’TwasacricketHelpedmycrippledlyre,whoseliltSweetandlow,whenstrengthusurpedSoftness’placei’thescale,shechirped? 16。”Forasvictorywasnighest,WhileIsangandplayed,—— Withmylyreatlowest,highest,Rightalike,——onestringthatmade`Love’soundsoftwassnaptintwain,Nevertobeheardagain,—— 17。”Hadnotakindcricketfluttered,PerchedupontheplaceVacantleft,anddulyuttered`Love,Love,Love’,whene’erthebassAskedthetrebletoatoneForitssomewhatsombredrone。” 18。 Butyoudon’tknowmusic!WhereforeKeeponcastingpearlsToa——poet?AllIcareforIs——totellhimthatagirl’s”Love”comesaptlyinwhengruffGrowshissinging。(There,enough!) Confessions。 1。 Whatishebuzzinginmyears?”NowthatIcometodie,DoIviewtheworldasavaleoftears?” Ah,reverendsir,notI! 2。 WhatIviewedthereonce,whatIviewagainWherethephysicbottlesstandOnthetable’sedge,——isasuburblane,Withawalltomybedsidehand。 3。 Thatlanesloped,muchasthebottlesdo,FromahouseyoucoulddescryO’erthegarden-wall:isthecurtainblueOrgreentoahealthyeye? 4。 Tomine,itservesfortheoldJuneweatherBlueabovelaneandwall; Andthatfarthestbottlelabelled”Ether” Isthehouseo’er-toppingall。 5。 Ataterrace,somewhatnearthestopper,Therewatchedforme,oneJune,Agirl:Iknow,sir,it’simproper,Mypoormind’soutoftune。 6。 Only,therewasaway……youcreptClosebytheside,tododgeEyesinthehouse,twoeyesexcept: Theystyledtheirhouse”TheLodge”。 7。 Whatrighthadaloungeruptheirlane? But,bycreepingveryclose,Withthegoodwall’shelp,——theireyesmightstrainAndstretchthemselvestoOes,8。 Yetnevercatchherandmetogether,Asshelefttheattic,there,Bytherimofthebottlelabelled”Ether”,Andstolefromstairtostair,9。 Andstoodbytherose-wreathedgate。Alas,Weloved,sir——usedtomeet: Howsadandbadandmaditwas—— Butthen,howitwassweet! Respectability。