第40章

类别:其他 作者:H。 G。 Wells字数:4189更新时间:18/12/27 08:56:22
“Whenthedreamcameagain,nearlyfourdayslater,itwasverydifferent。Ithinkitcertainthatfourdayshadalsoelapsedinthedream。Manythingshadhappenedinthenorth,andtheshadowofthemwasbackagainbetweenus,andthistimeitwasnotsoeasilydispelled。Ibegan,Iknow,withmoodymusings。Why,inspiteofall,shouldIgoback,gobackforalltherestofmydaystotoilandstress,insultsandperpetualdissatisfaction,simplytosavehundredsofmillionsofcommonpeople,whomIdidnotlove,whomtoooftenIcoulddonootherthandespise,fromthestressandanguishofwarandinfinitemisrule?AndafterallImightfail。 THEYallsoughttheirownnarrowends,andwhyshouldnotI——whyshouldnotIalsoliveasaman?Andoutofsuchthoughtshervoicesummonedme,andIliftedmyeyes。 “Ifoundmyselfawakeandwalking。WehadcomeoutabovethePleasureCity,wewerenearthesummitofMonteSolaroandlookingtowardsthebay。Itwasthelateafternoonandveryclear。FarawaytotheleftIschiahunginagoldenhazebetweensea。andsky,andNapleswascoldlywhiteagainstthehills,andbeforeuswasVesuviuswithatallandslenderstreamerfeatheringatlasttowardsthesouth,andtheruinsofTorredell’AnnunziataandCastellamareglitteringandnear。“ Iinterruptedsuddenly:“YouhavebeentoCapri,ofcourse?“ “Onlyinthisdream,“hesaid,“onlyinthisdream。AllacrossthebaybeyondSorrentowerethefloatingpalacesofthePleasureCitymooredandchained。Andnorthwardwerethebroadfloatingstagesthatreceivedtheaeroplanes。Aeroplanesfelloutoftheskyeveryafternoon,eachbringingitsthousandsofpleasure-seekersfromtheuttermostpartsoftheearthtoCaprianditsdelights。Allthesethings,Isay,stretchedbelow。 “Butwenoticedthemonlyincidentallybecauseofanunusualsightthateveninghadtoshow。FivewaraeroplanesthathadlongslumbereduselessinthedistantarsenalsoftheRhinemouthweremanoeuvringnowintheeastwardsky。Eveshamhadastonishedtheworldbyproducingthemandothers,andsendingthemtocirclehereandthere。Itwasthethreatmaterialinthegreatgameofbluffhewasplaying,andithadtakenevenmebysurprise。HewasoneofthoseincrediblystupidenergeticpeoplewhoseemsentbyHeaventocreatedisasters。Hisenergytothefirstglanceseemedsowonderfullylikecapacity!Buthehadnoimagination,noinvention,onlyastupid,vast,drivingforceofwill,andamadfaithinhisstupididiot’luck’topullhimthrough。Irememberhowwestoodoutupontheheadlandwatchingthesquadroncirclingfaraway,andhowIweighedthefullmeaningofthesight,seeingclearlythewaythingsmustgo。Andthenevenitwasnottoolate。Imighthavegoneback,Ithink,andsavedtheworld。Thepeopleofthenorthwouldfollowme,Iknew,grantedonlythatinonethingIrespectedtheirmoralstandards。Theeastandsouthwouldtrustmeastheywouldtrustnoothernorthernman。AndIknewIhadonlytoputittoherandshewouldhaveletmego……Notbecauseshedidnotloveme! “OnlyIdidnotwanttogo;mywillwasalltheotherwayabout。 Ihadsonewlythrownofftheincubusofresponsibility:IwasstillsofresharenegadefromdutythatthedaylightclearnessofwhatIOUGHTtodohadnopoweratalltotouchmywill。Mywillwastolive,togatherpleasuresandmakemydearladyhappy。Butthoughthissenseofvastneglecteddutieshadnopowertodrawme,itcouldmakemesilentandpreoccupied,itrobbedthedaysIhadspentofhalftheirbrightnessandrousedmeintodarkmeditationsinthesilenceofthenight。AndasIstoodandwatchedEvesham’saeroplanessweeptoandfro——thosebirdsofinfiniteillomen——shestoodbesidemewatchingme,perceivingthetroubleindeed,butnotperceivingitclearlyhereyesquestioningmyface,herexpressionshadedwithperplexity。Herfacewasgreybecausethesunsetwasfadingoutofthesky。Itwasnofaultofhersthatsheheldme。 Shehadaskedmetogofromher,andagaininthenighttimeandwithtearsshehadaskedmetogo。 “Atlastitwasthesenseofherthatrousedmefrommymood。I turneduponhersuddenlyandchallengedhertoracedownthemountainslopes。’No,’shesaid,asifIjarredwithhergravity,butIwasresolvedtoendthatgravity,andmadeherrun——noonecanbeverygreyandsadwhoisoutofbreath——andwhenshestumbledIranwithmyhandbeneathherarm。Werandownpastacoupleofmen,whoturnedbackstaringinastonishmentatmybehaviour——theymusthaverecognisedmyface。Andhalfwaydowntheslopecameatumultintheair,clang-clank,clang-clank,andwestopped,andpresentlyoverthehill-crestthosewarthingscameflyingonebehindtheother。“ Themanseemedhesitatingonthevergeofadescription。 “Whatweretheylike?“Iasked。 “Theyhadneverfought,“hesaid。“Theywerejustlikeourironcladsarenowadays;theyhadneverfought。Nooneknewwhattheymightdo,withexcitedmeninsidethem;fewevencaredtospeculate。 Theyweregreatdrivingthingsshapedlikespearheadswithoutashaft,withapropellerintheplaceoftheshaft。“ “Steel?“ “Notsteel。“ “Aluminium?“ “No,no,nothingofthatsort。Analloythatwasverycommon——ascommonasbrass,forexample。Itwascalled——letmesee。“Hesqueezedhisforeheadwiththefingersofonehand。“Iamforgettingeverything,“hesaid。 “Andtheycarriedguns?“ “Littleguns,firinghighexplosiveshells。Theyfiredthegunsbackwards,outofthebaseoftheleaf,sotospeak,andrammedwiththebeak。Thatwasthetheory,youknow,buttheyhadneverbeenfought。Noonecouldtellexactlywhatwasgoingtohappen。 AndmeanwhileIsupposeitwasveryfinetogowhirlingthroughtheairlikeaflightofyoungswallows,swiftandeasy。Iguessthecaptainstriednottothinktooclearlywhattherealthingwouldbelike。Andtheseflyingwarmachines,youknow,wereonlyonesortoftheendlesswarcontrivancesthathadbeeninventedandhadfallenintoabeyanceduringthelongpeace。Therewereallsortsofthesethingsthatpeoplewereroutingoutandfurbishingup;infernalthings,sillythings;thingsthathadneverbeentried; bigengines,terribleexplosives,greatguns。Youknowthesillywayoftheseingenioussortofmenwhomakethesethings;theyturn’emoutasbeaversbuilddams,andwithnomoresenseoftheriversthey’regoingtodivertandthelandsthey’regoingtoflood! “Aswewentdownthewindingstepwaytoourhotelagain,inthetwilight,Iforesawitall:IsawhowclearlyandinevitablythingsweredrivingforwarinEvesham’ssilly,violenthands,andIhadsomeinklingofwhatwarwasboundtobeunderthesenewconditions。Andeventhen,thoughIknewitwasdrawingnearthelimitofmyopportunity,Icouldfindnowilltogoback。“ Hesighed。 “Thatwasmylastchance。 “Wedidn’tgointothecityuntiltheskywasfullofstars,sowewalkedoutuponthehighterrace,toandfro,and——shecounselledmetogoback。 “’Mydearest,’shesaid,andhersweetfacelookeduptome,’thisisDeath。ThislifeyouleadisDeath。Gobacktothem,gobacktoyourduty。’ “Shebegantoweep,saying,betweenhersobs,andclingingtomyarmasshesaidit,’Goback——Goback。’ “Thensuddenlyshefellmute,and,glancingdownatherface,Ireadinaninstantthethingshehadthoughttodo。ItwasoneofthosemomentswhenoneSEES。 “’No!’Isaid。 “’No?’sheasked,insurprise,andIthinkalittlefearfulattheanswertoherthought。 “’Nothing,’Isaid,’shallsendmeback。Nothing!Ihavechosen。 Love,Ihavechosen,andtheworldmustgo。WhateverhappensIwilllivethislife——IwillliveforYOU!It——nothingshallturnmeaside;nothing,mydearone。Evenifyoudied——evenifyoudied——’ “’Yes,’shemurmured,softly。 “’Then——Ialsowoulddie。’ “AndbeforeshecouldspeakagainIbegantotalk,talkingeloquently—— asICOULDdointhatlife——talkingtoexaltlove,tomakethelifewewerelivingseemheroicandglorious;andthethingIwasdesertingsomethinghardandenormouslyignoblethatitwasafinethingtosetaside。Ibentallmymindtothrowthatglamouruponit,seekingnotonlytoconvertherbutmyselftothat。Wetalked,andsheclungtome,torntoobetweenallthatshedeemednobleandallthatsheknewwassweet。AndatlastIdidmakeitheroic,madeallthethickeningdisasteroftheworldonlyasortofglorioussettingtoourunparalleledlove,andwetwopoorfoolishsoulsstruttedthereatlast,cladinthatsplendiddelusion,drunkenratherwiththatgloriousdelusion,underthestillstars。 “Andsomymomentpassed。 “Itwasmylastchance。Evenaswewenttoandfrothere,theleadersofthesouthandeastweregatheringtheirresolve,andthehotanswerthatshatteredEvesham’sbluffingforever,tookshapeandwaited。AndalloverAsia,andtheocean,andthesouth,theairandthewireswerethrobbingwiththeirwarningstoprepare——prepare。 “Nooneliving,youknow,knewwhatwarwas;noonecouldimagine,withallthesenewinventions,whathorrorwarmightbring。Ibelievemostpeoplestillbelieveditwouldbeamatterofbrightuniformsandshoutingchargesandtriumphsandflagsandbands——inatimewhenhalftheworlddrewitsfoodsupplyfromregionstenthousandmilesaway。“ Themanwiththewhitefacepaused。Iglancedathim,andhisfacewasintentonthefloorofthecarriage。Alittlerailwaystation,astringofloadedtrucks,asignal-box,andthebackofacottage,shotbythecarriagewindow,andabridgepassedwithaclapofnoise,echoingthetumultofthetrain。 “Afterthat,“hesaid,“Idreamtoften。Forthreeweeksofnightsthatdreamwasmylife。AndtheworstofitwastherewerenightswhenIcouldnotdream,whenIlaytossingonabedinTHIS