第43章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hughes字数:4381更新时间:18/12/27 08:52:32
“Don’tmakesucheyes,youngun,“saidhe;“there’snothingthematter。“ “Oh,but,Tom,areyoumuchhurt?Ican’tbearthinkingitwasallforme。“ “Notabitofit;don’tflatteryourself。Weweresuretohavehaditoutsoonerorlater。“ “Well,butyouwon’tgoon,willyou?You’llpromisemeyouwon’tgoon?“ “Can’ttellaboutthat——alldependsonthehouses。We’reinthehandsofourcountrymen,youknow。MustfightfortheSchool-houseflag,ifsobe。“ However,theloversofthescienceweredoomedtodisappointmentthistime。Directlyafterlocking-up,oneofthenight-fagsknockedatTom’sdoor。 “Brown,youngBrookewantsyouinthesixth-formroom。“ UpwentTomtothesummons,andfoundthemagnatessittingattheirsupper。 “Well,Brown,“saidyoungBrooke,noddingtohim,“howdoyoufeel?“ “Oh,verywell,thankyou,onlyI’vesprainedmythumb,I think。“ “Suretodothatinafight。Well,youhadn’ttheworstofit,Icouldsee。Wheredidyoulearnthatthrow?“ “DowninthecountrywhenIwasaboy。“ “Hullo!why,whatareyounow?Well,nevermind,you’reapluckyfellow。Sitdownandhavesomesupper。“ Tomobeyed,bynomeansloath。Andthefifth-formboynextfilledhimatumblerofbottledbeer,andheateanddrank,listeningtothepleasanttalk,andwonderinghowsoonheshouldbeinthefifth,andoneofthatmuch-enviedsociety。 Ashegotuptoleave,Brookesaid,“Youmustshakehandsto- morrowmorning;Ishallcomeandseethatdoneafterfirstlesson。“ Andsohedid。AndTomandtheSloggershookhandswithgreatsatisfactionandmutualrespect。Andforthenextyearortwo,wheneverfightswerebeingtalkedof,thesmallboyswhohadbeenpresentshooktheirheadswisely,saying,“Ah!butyoushouldjusthaveseenthefightbetweenSloggerWilliamsandTomBrown!“ Andnow,boysall,threewordsbeforewequitthesubject。I haveputinthischapteronfightingofmaliceprepense,partlybecauseIwanttogiveyouatruepictureofwhateverydayschoollifewasinmytime,andnotakid-gloveandgo-to- meeting-coatpicture,andpartlybecauseofthecantandtwaddlethat’stalkedofboxingandfightingwithfistsnowadays。EvenThackerayhasgivenintoit;andonlyafewweeksagotherewassomerampantstuffintheTimesonthesubject,inanarticleonfieldsports。 Boyswillquarrel,andwhentheyquarrelwillsometimesfight。 FightingwithfistsisthenaturalandEnglishwayforEnglishboystosettletheirquarrels。Whatsubstituteforitisthere,oreverwasthere,amongstanynationunderthesun?Whatwouldyouliketoseetakeitsplace? Learntobox,then,asyoulearntoplaycricketandfootball。 Notoneofyouwillbetheworse,butverymuchthebetter,forlearningtoboxwell。Shouldyouneverhavetouseitinearnest,there’snoexerciseintheworldsogoodforthetemperandforthemusclesofthebackandlegs。 Astofighting,keepoutofitifyoucan,byallmeans。Whenthetimecomes,ifitevershould,thatyouhavetosay“Yes“or“No“toachallengetofight,say“No“ifyoucan——onlytakecareyoumakeitcleartoyourselveswhyyousay“No。“It’saproofofthehighestcourage,ifdonefromtrueChristianmotives。It’squiterightandjustifiable,ifdonefromasimpleaversiontophysicalpainanddanger。Butdon’tsay“No“ becauseyoufearalicking,andsayorthinkit’sbecauseyoufearGod,forthat’sneitherChristiannorhonest。Andifyoudofight,fightitout;anddon’tgiveinwhileyoucanstandandsee。 “Thisourhopeforallthat’smortalAndwetooshallburstthebond; Deathkeepswatchbesidetheportal,But’tislifethatdwellsbeyond。“ JOHNSTERLING。 Twoyearshavepassedsincetheeventsrecordedinthelastchapter,andtheendofthesummerhalf-yearisagaindrawingon。MartinhasleftandgoneonacruiseintheSouthPacific,inoneofhisuncle’sships;theoldmagpie,asdisreputableasever,hislastbequesttoArthur,livesinthejointstudy。 Arthurisnearlysixteen,andattheheadofthetwenty,havinggoneuptheschoolattherateofaformahalf-year。EastandTomhavebeenmuchmoredeliberateintheirprogress,andareonlyalittlewayupthefifthform。Greatstrappingboystheyare,butstillthoroughboys,fillingaboutthesameplaceinthehousethatyoungBrookefilledwhentheywerenewboys,andmuchthesamesortoffellows。ConstantintercoursewithArthurhasdonemuchforbothofthem,especiallyforTom;butmuchremainsyettobedone,iftheyaretogetallthegoodoutofRugbywhichistobegotthereinthesetimes。Arthurisstillfrailanddelicate,withmorespiritthanbody;but,thankstohisintimacywiththemandMartin,haslearnedtoswim,andrun,andplaycricket,andhasneverhurthimselfbytoomuchreading。 Oneevening,astheywereallsittingdowntosupperinthefifth-formroom,someonestartedareportthatafeverhadbrokenoutatoneoftheboarding-houses。“Theysay,“headded,“thatThompsonisveryill,andthatDr。RobertsonhasbeensentforfromNorthampton。“ “Thenweshallallbesenthome,“criedanother。“Hurrah!fiveweeks’extraholidays,andnofifth-formexamination!“ “Ihopenot,“saidTom;“there’llbenoMarylebonematchthenattheendofthehalf。“ Somethoughtonething,someanother,manydidn’tbelievethereport;butthenextday,Tuesday,Dr。Robertsonarrived,andstayedallday,andhadlongconferenceswiththeDoctor。 OnWednesdaymorning,afterprayers,theDoctoraddressedthewholeschool。Therewereseveralcasesoffeverindifferenthouses,hesaid;butDr。Robertson,afterthemostcarefulexamination,hadassuredhimthatitwasnotinfectious,andthatifpropercareweretaken,therecouldbenoreasonforstoppingtheschool-workatpresent。Theexaminationswerejustcomingon,anditwouldbeveryunadvisabletobreakupnow。 However,anyboyswhochosetodosowereatlibertytowritehome,and,iftheirparentswishedit,toleaveatonce。Heshouldsendthewholeschoolhomeifthefeverspread。 ThenextdayArthursickened,buttherewasnoothercase。 Beforetheendoftheweekthirtyorfortyboyshadgone,butthereststayedon。TherewasageneralwishtopleasetheDoctor,andafeelingthatitwascowardlytorunaway。 OntheSaturdayThompsondied,inthebrightafternoon,whilethecricket-matchwasgoingonasusualonthebig-sideground。 TheDoctor,comingfromhisdeathbed,passedalongthegravel- walkatthesideoftheclose,butnooneknewwhathadhappenedtillthenextday。Atmorninglectureitbegantoberumoured,andbyafternoonchapelwasknowngenerally;andafeelingofseriousnessandaweattheactualpresenceofdeathamongthemcameoverthewholeschool。InallthelongyearsofhisministrytheDoctorperhapsneverspokewordswhichsankdeeperthansomeofthoseinthatday’ssermon。 “WhenIcameyesterdayfromvisitingallbuttheverydeath-bedofhimwhohasbeentakenfromus,andlookedarounduponallthefamiliarobjectsandsceneswithinourownground,whereyourcommonamusementsweregoingonwithyourcommoncheerfulnessandactivity,Ifelttherewasnothingpainfulinwitnessingthat;itdidnotseeminanywayshockingoroutoftunewiththosefeelingswhichthesightofadyingChristianmustbesupposedtoawaken。Theunsuitablenessinpointofnaturalfeelingbetweenscenesofmourningandscenesoflivelinessdidnotatallpresentitself。ButIdidfeelthatifatthatmomentanyofthosefaultshadbeenbroughtbeforemewhichsometimesoccuramongstus;hadIheardthatanyofyouhadbeenguiltyoffalsehood,orofdrunkenness,orofanyothersuchsin;hadIheardfromanyquarterthelanguageofprofaneness,orofunkindness,orofindecency;hadIheardorseenanysignsofthatwretchedfollywhichcourtsthelaughoffoolsbyaffectingnottodreadevilandnottocareforgood,thentheunsuitablenessofanyofthesethingswiththesceneI hadjustquittedwouldindeedhavebeenmostintenselypainful。 Andwhy?Notbecausesuchthingswouldreallyhavebeenworsethanatanyothertime,butbecauseatsuchamomenttheeyesareopenedreallytoknowgoodandevil,becausewethenfeelwhatitissotoliveasthatdeathbecomesaninfiniteblessing,andwhatitissotolivealsothatitweregoodforusifwehadneverbeenborn。“ TomhadgoneintochapelinsickeninganxietyaboutArthur,buthecameoutcheeredandstrengthenedbythosegrandwords,andwalkedupalonetotheirstudy。Andwhenhesatdownandlookedround,andsawArthur’sstrawhatandcricket-jackethangingontheirpegs,andmarkedallhislittleneatarrangements,notoneofwhichhadbeendisturbed,thetearsindeedrolleddownhischeeks;buttheywerecalmandblessedtears,andherepeatedtohimself,“Yes,Geordie’seyesareopened;heknowswhatitissotoliveasthatdeathbecomesaninfiniteblessing。ButdoI? OGod,canIbeartolosehim?“ Theweekpassedmournfullyaway。Nomoreboyssickened,butArthurwasreportedworseeachday,andhismotherarrivedearlyintheweek。Tommademanyappealstobeallowedtoseehim,andseveraltimestriedtogetuptothesick-room;butthehousekeeperwasalwaysintheway,andatlastspoketotheDoctor,whokindlybutperemptorilyforbadehim。 ThompsonwasburiedontheTuesday,andtheburialservice,sosoothingandgrandalways,butbeyondallwordssolemnwhenreadoveraboy’sgravetohiscompanions,broughthimmuchcomfort,andmanystrangenewthoughtsandlongings。Hewentbacktohisregularlife,andplayedcricketandbathedasusual。Itseemedtohimthatthiswastherightthingtodo,andthenewthoughtsandlongingsbecamemorebraveandhealthyfortheeffort。ThecrisiscameonSaturday;thedayweekthatThompsonhaddied; andduringthatlongafternoonTomsatinhisstudyreadinghisBible,andgoingeveryhalf-hourtothehousekeeper’sroom,expectingeachtimetohearthatthegentleandbravelittlespirithadgonehome。ButGodhadworkforArthurtodo。Thecrisispassed:onSundayeveninghewasdeclaredoutofdanger; onMondayhesentamessagetoTomthathewasalmostwell,hadchangedhisroom,andwastobeallowedtoseehimthenextday。