第2章

类别:其他 作者:Ralph Connor字数:5102更新时间:18/12/27 08:49:59
Aswiftvisionofabright-faced,cheery-voicedsoldier,feelinghiswayaroundadarkenedroomintheAmoryhome,leapedtoSidney’smindandoverwhelmedhimwithpityandself-reproach。 “DearMissFrances,willyouforgiveme?Ihadn’tquitegotontothething。Iunderstandthegamebetternow。“ “Now,Idon’twanttopoisonyourmind。Ishouldn’thavesaidthat——abouttheflatfeet,Imean。HegoestotheRectory,youknow。Iwanttobefair——“ “Pleasedon’tworry。Weknowallaboutthatsortathome,“saidSidney,touchingherhandforamoment。“Myword,thatwasahotone!Theflat-footedJohnnieisobviouslybewildered。Thelastgamewassheermassacre,eh,what?“ IfMaitlandwasnotinformtherewasnosignofitinhisworkonthecourt。Therewaslittleofcourtesy,lessoffunandnothingatallofmercyinhisplay。Fromfirsttolastandwithoutreprievehedrovehisgameruthlesslytoafinish。Soterrific,soresistlesswerehisattacks,socoldlyrelentlessthespiritheshowed,ignoringutterlyallattemptsatfriendlyexchangeofcourtesy,thattheunhappyandenragedStillwell,becomingutterlydemoralized,losthisnerve,losthiscontrolandhopelesslylosteverychanceheeverpossessedofwinningasinglegameofthesetwhichclosedwiththescoresixtonothing。 AttheconclusionofthesetStillwell,withnopretenseofexplanationorapology,leftthecourtstohisenemywhostoodwaitinghisappearanceinasilencesooppressivethatitseemedtorestlikeapalluponthesidelines。SooverwhelmingwasStillwell’sdefeat,sohumiliatinghisexhibitionoftotalcollapseofmoralethatthecompanyreceivedtheresultwithbutslightmanifestationoffeeling。Withoutanyshowofsympathyevenhisfriendsslippedaway,asifunwillingtoaddtohishumiliationbytheircommiseration。Ontheotherside,thecongratulationsofferedMaitlandwereforthemostpartlackinginthespontaneitythatissupposedtobepropertosuchasmashingvictory。Someofhisfriendsseemedtofeelasiftheyhadbeencalledupontowitnessanunworthything。Notso,however,witheitherFrancesAmoryorSidneyTempleton。BothgreetedCaptainJackwithenthusiasmandwarmth,openlyandfreelyrejoicinginhisvictory。 “ByJove,Maitland,thatwastremendous,appalling,eh,what?“ “Imeantittobeso,“saidMaitlandgrimly,“elseIshouldnothaveplayedwithhim。“ “Itwascomingtohim,“saidFrances。“Iamsimplycompletelydelighted。“ “CanIgiveyoualifthome,Frances?“saidMaitland。“Letusgetaway。You,too,Templeton,“headdedtoSidney,whowaslingeringneartheyoungladyinobviousunwillingnesstoleaveherside。 “Oh,thanks!Sureyouhaveroom?“hesaid。“Allright。Youknowmycousinleftmeinyourcare。“ “Oh,indeed!Well,comealongthen,sinceourheroissogood。 Really,Iamupliftedtoquiteanunusualheightofgloriousexultation。“ “Don’trubitin,Frank,“saidJackgloomily。“Imadeanassofmyself,Iknowquitewell。“ “Whatrot,Jack。Everyoneofyourfriendswastickledtodeath。“ “Adrien,forinstance,eh?“saidJackwithabitterlittlelaugh,takinghisplaceatthewheel。 “Oh,Adrien!“repliedFrances。“Well,youknowAdrien!Sheis—— justAdrien。“ Asheturnedintothestreettherewasasoundofrushingfeet。 “Hello,CaptainJack!Oh,CaptainJack!Waitforme!Youhaveroom,haven’tyou?“ Awhirlwindofflashinglegsandwindblownmassesofgold-redhair,whichrealiseditselfintoayounggirlofaboutsixteen,boredownonthecar。ItwasAdrien’syoungersister,Patricia,andatonceherprideandherterror。 “Why,Patsy,whereonearthdidyoucomefrom?Ofcourse!Getin! Gladtohaveyou,oldchap。“ “Oh,CaptainJack,whatagame!Whatawonderfulgame!AndRuperthasbeenplayingallsummerandawfullywell!Andyouhavehardlyplayedagame!Iwasawfullypleased——“ “Wereyou?I’mnotsurethatIwas,“repliedCaptainJack。 “Well,youWEREsavage,youknow。Youlookedasifyouwereinafight。“ “DidI?Thatwasveryrottenofme,wasn’tit?“ “Oh,Idon’tknowexactly。Butitwasawonderfulgame。Ofcourse,onedoesn’tplaytennislikeafight,Isuppose。“ “No!Youarequiteright,Pat,“repliedCaptainJack。“Yousee,I’mafraidIlostmytemperabit,whichishorriblybadformI know,and——well,Iwantedtofightratherthanplay,andofcourseonecouldn’tfightonthetenniscourtinthepresenceofalotofladies,yousee。“ “Well,I’mgladyoudidn’tfight,CaptainJack。Youhavehadenoughoffighting,haven’tyou?AndRupertisreallyverynice,youknow。Hehasawonderfulcarandheletsmedriveit,andhealwaysbringsaboxofchocolateseverytimehecomes。“ “Hemustbeperfectlylovely,“saidCaptainJack,withagrinather。 ThegirllaughedalaughofsuchinfectiousjollitythatCaptainJackwasforcedtojoinwithher。 “That’soneforyou,CaptainJack,“shecried。“IknowIamapigwherechocsareconcerned,andIdolovetodriveacar。But,really,Rupertisquitenice。Heissofunny。HemakesMammalaugh。Thoughhedoesteasemealot。“ CaptainJackdroveoninsilenceforsomemoments。 “Iwasgladtoseeyouplayingthoughto-day,CaptainJack。“ “Wherewereyou?Ididn’tseeyouanywhere。“ “Notlikely!“Sheglancedbehindherattheothersinthebackseat。Sheneednothavegiventhemathought,theyweretoodeeplyengrossedtoheedher。“DoyouknowwhereIwas?Inthecrutchofthebigelm——youknow!“ “Don’tI!“saidCaptainJack。“Asplendidseat,but——“ “Wouldn’tAdrienbeshocked?“saidthegirl,withadeliciouslymischievoustwinkleinhereye。“Or,atleast,shewouldpretendtobe。Adrienthinksshemusttrainmedownabit,youknow。ShesaysIhavemostawfulmanners。ShewantsMammatosendmeovertoEnglandtoherschool。ButIdon’twanttogo,youbet。Besides,Idon’tthinkDadcanafforditsotheycan’tsendme。Anyway,I couldhavegoodmannersifIwantedto。IcouldactjustlikeAdrienifIwantedto——Imean,forawhile。Butthatwasarealgame。IfeltsorryforRupert,alittle。Yousee,hedidn’tseemtoknowwhattodoorhowtobegin。Andyoulookedsoterrible! NowinthegamewithCousinSidneyyouweresodifferent,andyouplayedsoawfullywell,too,butdifferently。Somehow,itwasjustlikegentlemenplaying,youknow——“ “Youhavehitit,Patsy,——aregularbull!“saidCaptainJack。 “Oh,Idon’tmean——“beganthegirlinconfusion,rarewithher。 “Yes,youdo,Pat。Sticktoyourguns。“ “Well,Iwill。Thefirstgameeverybodylovedtowatch。Thesecondgame——somehowitmademewishRuperthadbeenaHun。I’dhaveloveditthen。“ “ByJove,Patsy,you’rerightonthetarget。You’vescoredagain。“ “Oh,I’mnotsayingjustwhatIwant——butIhopeyouknowwhatI mean。“ “Yourmeaninghitsmerightintheeye。Andyouarequiteright。 Thetenniscourtisnoplaceforafight,eh?And,afterall,RupertStillwellisnoHun。“ “Butyouhaven’tbeenplayingthissummeratall,CaptainJack,“ saidthegirl,changingthesubject。“Whynot?“Thegirl’stonewasquitesevere。“Andyoudon’tdoalotofthingsyouusedtodo,andyoudon’tgotoplaces,andyouaredifferent。“Theblueeyesearnestlysearchedhisface。 “AmIdifferent?“heaskedslowly。“Well,everybodyisdifferent。 Andthen,youknow,Iambusy。Abusinessmanhashishoursandhemuststicktothem。“ “Oh,Idon’tbelieveyouabit。Youdon’tneedtobedownatthemillsallthetime。LookatRupert。Hedoesn’tneedtobeathisfather’soffice。“ “Apparentlynot。“ “Hegetsoffwheneverhewantsto。“ “Lookslikeit。“ “Andwhycan’tyou?“ “Well,yousee,IamnotRupert,“saidCaptainJack,grinningather。 “Nowyouarehorrible。Whydon’tyoudoasyouusedtodo?Youknowyoucouldifyouwantedto。“ “Yes,Isuppose,ifIwantedto,“saidCaptainJack,suddenlygrave。 “Youdon’twantto,“saidthegirl,quicktocatchhismood。 “Well,youknow,Patsydear,thingsaredifferent,andIsupposeI amtoo。Idon’tcaremuchforalotofthings。“ “Youjustlookasifyoudidn’tcareforanythingoranybodysometimes,CaptainJack,“saidPatriciaquietly。Thenafterafewmomentssheburstforth:“Oh,don’tyourememberyourhockeyteam? Oh!oh!oh!Iusedtositandjustholdmyheartfromjumping。Itnearlyusedtochokemewhenyouwouldteardowntheicewiththepuck。“ “Thatwaslongago,Patdear。IguessIwas——ah——veryyoungthen,eh?“ “Yes,Iknow,“noddedthegirl。“Ifeelthesameway——Iwasjustakidthen。“ “Ah,yes,“saidCaptainJack,withneverasmile。“Youwerejust—— let’ssee——twelve,wasit?“ “Yes,twelve。AndIfeltjustakid。“ “Andnow?“CaptainJack’svoicewasquitegrave。 “Now?Well,Iamnotexactlyakid。Atleast,notthesamekindofkid。And,asyousay,alotofthingsaredifferent。IthinkI knowhowyoufeel。Iwaslikethat,too——after——after——Herbert——“ Thegirlpaused,withherlipsquivering。“Itwasalldifferent—— sodifferent。Everythingweusedtodo,Ididn’tfeellikedoing。 AndIsupposethat’sthewaywithyou,CaptainJack,withAndy——andthenyourMother,too。“Sheleanedclosetohimandputherhandtimidlyonhisarm。 CaptainJack,sittingupverystraightandlookingverygrave,feltthethrillofthetimidtouchrunthroughhisveryheart。Arushofwarm,tenderemotionsuchashehadnotallowedhimselfformanymonthssuddenlysurprisedhim,fillinghiseyesandchokinghisthroat。Sincehisreturnfromthewarhehadwithoutknowledgebeenyearningforjustsuchanunderstandingtouchasthischildwithherwomanlyinstincthadgivenhim。Hewithdrewonehandfromthewheelandtookthewarmclingingfingerstightinhisandwaitedinsilencetillhewassureofhimself。Hedrovesomeblocksbeforehewasquitemasterofhisvoice。Then,releasingthefingers,heturnedhisfacetowardthegirl。 “Youarearealpal,aren’tyou,Patsyoldgirl?“hesaidwithaverybrightsmileather。 “Iwanttobe!Oh,Iwouldlovetobe!“shesaid,withaswiftintakeofbreath。“Andafterawhileyouwillbejustasyouwerebeforeyouwentaway。“ “Hardly,Ifear,Patsy。“ “Well,notthesame,butdifferentfromwhatyouarenow。No,I don’tmeanthatabit,CaptainJack。Butperhapsyouknow——Idowanttoseeyouontheiceagain。Oh,itwouldbewonderful!Ofcourse,theoldteamwouldn’tbethere——HerbertandPhilandAndy。 Why!Youaretheonlyoneleft!AndRupert。“Sheaddedthenamedoubtfully。“ItWOULDbedifferent!oh,sodifferent!Oh!Idon’twonderyoudon’tcare,CaptainJack。Iwon’twonder——“Therewasalittlechokeintheyoungvoice。“Iseeitnow——“ “Ithinkyouunderstand,Patsy,andyouarealittlebrick,“saidCaptainJackinalow,hurriedtone。“AndIamgoingtotry。 Anyway,whateverhappens,wewillbepals。“ Thegirlcaughthisarmtightinherclaspedhandsandinalowvoiceshesaid,“Alwaysandalways,CaptainJack,andevermore。“ AndtilltheydrewupattheRectorydoornomorewassaid。 Maitlanddrovehomewardthroughthemellowautumneveningwithawarmer,kindlierglowinhisheartthanhehadknownthroughallthedrearyweeksthathadfollowedhisreturnfromthewar。Forthewarhadwroughtdesolationforhiminahomeoncerichinthethingsthatmakelifeworthwhile,bytakingfromithismother,whoseraresoulqualitieshadwonandheldthroughherlifethelove,thepassionate,adoringloveofhersons,andhistwinbrother,thecomrade,chum,friendofallhisdays,withwhoselifehisownhadgrownintoacompleteandidealunity,deprivedofwhomhislifewasleftlikeabodyfromwhoserawandquiveringfleshone-halfhadbeentornaway。 Thewarhadlefthislifeotherwisebruisedandmaimedinwaysknownonlytohimself。