第23章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4783更新时间:18/12/27 08:43:26
AttheEnglishcathedraltheeffectisdeepenedbytheepitaphsofthosewhoseliveswerepassedinthejointserviceofEnglandandherloyalchild;andourtravellers,whatevertheirwantofsympathywiththesentiment,hadtoowntoacertainbeautyinthatattitudeofproudreverence。Here,atleast,wasapeoplenotcutofffromitspast,butholding,unbrokeninlifeanddeath,thetieswhichexistforusonlyinhistory。Itgaveaglamourofoldentimetothenewland;ittouchedtheprosaicdemocraticpresentwiththewaningpoeticlightofthearistocraticandmonarchicaltradition。Therewashereandthereatitleonthetablets,andtherewaseverywheretheformallanguageofloyaltyandofvenerationforthingswehavetumbledintothedust。Itisabeautifulchurch,ofadmirableEnglishGothic;ifyouaresohappy,youarerathercurtlytoldyoumayenterbyaburlyEnglishfigureinsomekindofsombreecclesiasticaldrapery,andwithinitsquietprecinctsyoumayfeelyourselfinEnglandifyoulike,——which,formypart,Idonot。 NeitherdidourfriendsenjoyitsomuchastheChurchoftheJesuits,withitsmorethantolerablepainting,itscoldlyfrescoedceiling,itsarchitecturaltasteofsubduedRenaissance,anditsblack-eyedpeasant- girltellingherbeadsbeforeasidealtar,justasintheenviablydeplorablecountrieswealllove;norsomuchevenastheIrishcathedralwhichtheynextvisited。Thatisaverygorgeouscathedralindeed,paintedandgilded’amerveille’,andeverywherestuckaboutwithbigandlittlesaintsandcrucifixes,andpicturesincrediblybad——butforthoseintheFrenchcathedral。Thereis,ofcourse,aseriesrepresentingChrist’sprogresstoCalvary;andtherewasaverytatteredoldman,—— anoldmanwhosevoicehadbeenlongagodrownedinwhiskey,andwhonowspokeinaghostlywhisper,——who,whenhesawBasil’seyefallupontheseries,madehimgotheroundofthem,andtediouslyexplainedthem。 “Whydidyouletthatoldwretchboreyou,andthenpayhimforit?“ Isabelasked。 “O,itremindedmesosweetlyoftheswindlesofotherlandsanddays,thatIcouldn’thelpit,“heanswered;andstraightwayintheeyesofboththatpoor,whiskeyfied,IrishtatterdemalionstoodtransfiguredtothegloriouslikenessofanItalianbeggar。 Theywerealwaysdoingsomethingofthiskind,thoseabsurdlysentimentalpeople,whomyetIcannotfinditinmyhearttoblamefortheirfolly,thoughIcouldnameeversomanyreasonsforrebukingit。Why,infact,shouldwewishtofindAmericalikeEurope?Aretheruinsandimposturesandmiseriesandsuperstitionswhichbesetthetravellerabroadsoprecious,thatheshoulddesiretoimaginethemateverystepinhisownhemisphere?Orhavewethenofourownnoeffectiveshapesofignoranceandwantandincredibility,thatwemustforeverseekanaliencontrasttoournativeintelligenceandcomfort?Somesuchquestionsthisguiltycoupleputtoeachother,andthendroveofftovisittheconventoftheGrayNunswithajoyfulexpectationwhichIsupposetheprospectofthefinestpublic-schoolexhibitioninBostoncouldneverhaveinspired。 But,indeed,sincetheremustbeGrayNuns,isitnotwellthattherearesentimentaliststotakeamournfulpleasureintheirsad,pallidexistence? TheconventisatagooddistancefromtheIrishcathedral,andingoingtoitthetouristsmadetheirdrivercarrythemthroughoneofthefewoldFrenchstreetswhichstillremaininMontreal。FiresandimprovementshadmadehavocamongthequainthorsessinceBasil’sfirstvisit;butatlasttheycameuponanarrow,ancientRueSaintAntoine,——orwhateverothersaintitwascalledafter,——inwhichtherewasnoEnglishfaceorhousetobeseen。Thedoorsofthelittleone-storydwellingsopenedfromthepavement,andwithinyousawfatmadamethemothermovingaboutherdomesticaffairs,andsparemonsieurtheelderlyhusbandsmokingbesidetheopenwindow;Frenchbabiescrawledaboutthetidyfloors;Frenchmartyrs(letusbelieveLalementorBrebeuf,whogaveuptheirheroiclivesfortheconversionofCanada)siftedtheireyesinhigh-coloredlithographsonthewall;amongtheflower-potsinthedormer-windowlookingfromeverytinroofsatandsewedasmoothhairedyounggirl,Ihope,——theromanceofeachlittlemansion。Theantiqueandforeigncharacteroftheplacewasaccentedbytheinscriptionuponawallof“SiropadoucissantdeMadameWinslow。“ Eversince1692theGrayNunshavemaderefugewithintheamplebordersoftheirconventforinfirmoldpeopleandforfoundlingchildren,anditisnowintheregularcourseofsight-seeingforthetravellertovisittheirhospitalatnoonday,whenhebeholdstheSistersattheirdevotionsinthechapel。Itisabare,white-walled,cold-lookingchapel,withtheusualparaphernaliaofpicturesandcrucifixes。Seateduponlowbenchesoneithersideoftheaislewerethecuriousorthedevout;theformeringreaternumberandchieflyAmericans,whowerenowandthenwhisperedsilentbyanoldpauperzealousforthesanctityoftheplace。AtthestrokeoftwelvetheSistersenteredtwobytwo,followedbythelady- superiorwithaprayerbookinherhand。Sheclappedtheleavesofthistogetherinsignalforthemtokneel,torise,tokneelagainandrise,whiletheyrepeatedinratherharshvoicestheirprayers,andthenclatteredoutofthechapelastheyhadclatteredin,withresoundingshoes。Thetwoyounggirlsattheheadwereverypretty,andallthepalefaceshadacorpse-likepeace。AsBasillookedattheirpensivesameness,itseemedtohimthatthoseprettiestgirlsmightverywellbethetwainthathehadseenheresomanyyearsago,strickenforeveryoungintheirjoylessbeauty。Theungracefulgownsofcoarsegray,thebluecheckedaprons,theblackcrapecaps,werethesame;theycameandwentwiththesamequicktread,touchingtheirbrowswithholywaterandkneelingandrisingnowasthenwiththesameconstrainedandorderedmovements。Woulditbetoocrueliftheywerereallythesamepersons? orwoulditbeyetmorecruelifeveryyeartwogirlssoyoungandfairwereself-doomedtorenewthelikenessofthatyouthfuldeath? Thevisitorswentaboutthehospital,andsawtheoldmenandthelittlechildrentowhomthesegoodpurelivesweregiven,andtheycouldonlyblamethesystem,nottheinstrumentsortheirwork。Perhapstheydidnotjudgewiselyoftheamountofself-sacrificeinvolved,fortheyjudgedfromheartstowhichlovewasthewholeofearthandheaven;butneverthelesstheypitiedtheGrayNunsamidsttheunhomelikecomfortoftheirconvent,theunnaturalcareofthosealienlittleones。Poor’SoeursGrises’intheirnarrowcells;atthebedsideofsicknessandageandsorrow;kneelingwithclaspedhandsandyearningeyesbeforethebloodyspectacleofthecross!——thepowerofyourChurchisshownfarmoresubtlyandmightilyinsuchasyou,thaninhergrandestfanesorthesightofhermostaugustceremonies,withprayingpriests,swingingcensers,tapersandpicturesandimages,underagloomyheavenofcathedralarches。There,indeed,thefaithfulhavegiventheirsubstance;butherethenunhasgivenupthemostpreciouspartofherwoman’snature,andallthetendernessthatclingsaboutthethoughtofwifeandmother。 “Therearesomethingsthatalwaysgreatlyafflictmeintheideaofanewcountry,“saidBasil,astheyloiteredslowlythroughthegroundsoftheconventtowardthegate。“Ofcourse,it’sabsurdtothinkofmenasotherthanmen,ashavingchangedtheirnatureswiththeirskies;butanewlandalwaysdoesseematfirstthoughtslikeanewchanceaffordedtheraceforgoodnessandhappiness,forhealthandlife。SoIgrievefortheearliestdeadatPlymouthmorethanforthemultitudethattheplaguesweptawayinLondon;Ishudderoverthecrimeofthefirstguiltyman,thesinofthefirstwickedwomaninanewcountry;thetroubleofthefirstyouthormaidencrossedinlovethereisintolerable。Allshouldbehopeandfreedomandprosperouslifeuponthatvirginsoil。 ItneverwassosinceEden;butnonethelessIfeelitoughttobe; andIamoppressedbythethoughtthatamongtheearliestwallswhichroseuponthisbroadmeadowofMontrealwerethosebuilttoimmuretheinnocenceofsuchyounggirlsastheseandshutthemfromthelifewefindsofair。Wouldn’tyouliketoknowwhowasthefirstthattooktheveilinthiswildnewcountry?Whowasshe,poorsoul,andwhatwasherdeepsorroworloftyrapture?YoucanfancyhersomeIndianmaidenluredtotherenunciationbythesplendorofsymbolsandpromisesseenvaguelythroughthelingeringmistsofhernativesuperstitions;orsomewearysoul,sickfromthevanitiesandvices,thebloodshedandthetearsoftheOldWorld,andeagerforasilenceprofounderthanthatofthewildernessintowhichshehadfled。Well,theChurchknowsandGod。 Shewasdustlongago。“ Fromtimetotimetherehadfallenlittlefitfulshowersduringthemorning。Nowasthewedding-journeyerspassedoutoftheconventgatetheraindroppedsoftandthin,andthegraycloudsthatfloatedthroughtheskysoswiftlywereasfar-seenGraySistersinflightforheaven。 “Weshallhavetimeforthedriveroundthemountainbeforedinner,“saidBasil,astheygotintotheircarriageagain;andhewasgivingtheordertothedriver,whenIsabelaskedhowfaritwas。 “Ninemiles。“ “O,thenwecan’tthinkofgoingwithonehorse。Youknow,“sheadded,“thatwealwaysintendedtohavetwohorsesforgoingroundthemountain。“ “No,“saidBasil,notyetusedtohavinghisdecisionsreachedwithouthisknowledge。“AndIdon’tseewhyweshould。Everybodygoeswithone。 Youdon’tsupposewe’retooheavy,doyou?“ “IhadapartyfromtheStates,ma’am,yesterday,“interposedthedriver; “twoladies,realheavyapes,twogentlemen,weighin’twohundredapiece,andastoutyoungmanontheboxwithme。You’d’a’thoughtthehorsewasdrawin’anemptycarriage,thewayshedartedalong。“ “Thenhishorsemustbeperfectlywornoutto-day,“saidIsabel,refusingtoadmitthepoolfellowdirectlyeventothehonorsofadefeat。Hehadprovedtoomuch,andwasputoutofcourtwithnohopeofrepairinghiserror。 “Why,itseemsapity,“whisperedBasil,dispassionately,“toturnthismanadrift,whenhehadareasonablehopeofbeingwithusallday,andhasbeensocivilandobliging。“ “Oyes,Basil,sentimentalizehim,do!Whydon’tyousentimentalizehishelpless,overworkedhorse?——allinareekofperspiration。“ “Perspiration!Why,mydear,it’stherain!“ “Well,rainorshine,darling,Idon’twanttogoroundthemountainwithonehorse;andit’sveryunkindofyoutoinsistnow,whenyou’vetacitlypromisedmeallalongtotaketwo。“ “Now,thisisalittletoomuch,Isabel。Youknowwenevermentionedthemattertillthismoment。“ “It’sthesameasapromise,yournotsayingyouwouldn’t。ButIdon’taskyoutokeepyourword。Idon’twanttogoroundthemountain。I’dmuchrathergotothehotel。I’mtired。“ “Verywell,then,Isabel,I’llleaveyouatthehotel。“