第39章

类别:其他 作者:Henry Rider Haggard字数:4155更新时间:18/12/27 08:40:52
“BecauseIdarenot,orratherbecauseIcannot,“sheansweredfiercely。“Besilent,slave,fornowthepowerofthegoodbroodsuponmysoul。“ Thedreamwenton。Agreatforestappeared,suchaforestastheyhadpassedbeforetheymetthecannibals,andsetbeneathoneofthetrees,atentandinthattentBarbara,Barbaraweeping。Someonebegantolifttheflapofthetent。Shesprangup,snatchingatapistolthatlaybesideher,turningitsmuzzletowardsherbreast。Amanenteredthetent。Alansawhisface,itwashisown。Barbaraletfallthepistolandfellbackwardsasthoughabulletfromithadpiercedherheart。Heleapttowardsher,butbeforehecametowhereshelayeverythinghadvanishedandheheardJeekiedroningouthisliestotheAsika,tellingherthatthevisionhehadseenwasoneofherandhismasterseatedwiththeirarmsabouteachotherinachamberoftheGoldenHouse。 AthirdtimethedreamdescendedonAlanlikeacloud。Itseemedtohimthathewasbornebeyondtheflamingbordersoftheworld。 Everythingaroundwasnewandunfamiliar,vast,changing,lovely,terrible。Hestoodaloneuponapearlyplainandtheskyabovehimwaslitwithredmoons,manyandmanyofthemthathungtherelikelamps。 Spiritsbegantopasshim。Hecouldcatchsomethingoftheirsplendourastheyspedbywithincredibleswiftness;hecouldhearthemusicoftheirlaughter。Oneroseupathisside。ItwastheAsika,onlyathousandtimesmoresplendid;clothedinallthegloryofhell。 Majesticallyshebenttowardshim,herglowingeyesheldhis,thedeadlyperfumeofherbreathbeatuponhisbrowandmadehimdrunken。 Shespoketohimandhervoicesoundedlikedistantbells。 “Throughmanyalife,throughmanyalife,“shesaid,“boughtwithmuchblood,paidforwithamilliontears,butmineatlast,thesoulthatIhavewontocomfortmysoulintheeternalday。CometotheplaceIhavemadereadyforyou,thehellthatshallturntoheavenatyourstep,come,youbywhomIamredeemed,anddriveawaythosegodsthattorturemebecauseIwastheirservantthatImightwinyou。“ Soshespoke,andthoughallhissoulrevolted,yetthefearfulstrengththatwasinherseemedtodrawhimonwardwhithershewouldgo。ThenalightshoneandthatlightwasthefaceofBarbaraandwithasuddennessthatwasalmostawful,thewilddreamcametoanend。 Alanwasinhisownroomagain,thoughhowhegottherehedidnotrecollect。 “Jeekie,“hesaid,“whathashappened?Iseemtohavehadaverycuriousdream,thereintheTreasure-place,andtohaveheardyoutellingtheAsikaastringofincrediblefalsehoods。“ “Oh!no,Major,Jeekiecan’tlie,toogoodChristian;hetellherwhat/he/see,orwhathethinksheseeifshelook,’causethoughp’rapsheseenothing,sheneverbelievethat。And,“headdedwithaburstofconfidence,“whatthedickensitmatterwhathetellher,solongassheswallowsameandkeepquiet?NastythingsalwaysmakewomenlikeAsikaquiteoutrageous。Givethemsweettosuck,sayJeekie,andiftheyillafterwards,thatnofaultofhis。Theyhadsweet。“ “Quiteso,Jeekie,quiteso,onlyIshouldadviseyounottoplaytoomanytricksupontheAsika,lestsheshouldhappentofindyouout。 HowdidIgetbackhere?“ “Likemanthatwalkinhissleep,Major。Shegofirst,youfollow,justaslittlelambafterMaryinhymn。“ “Jeekie,didyoureallyseeanythingatall?“ “No,Major,nothingpartic’lar,exceptghostofMrs。Jeekieandofyourreverenduncle,bothofthemveryangry。Thatmagicallstuff,Major。Asikaputsomethinginyourgrubmakeyoudrunk,sothatyouthinkherverywise。Don’tthinkofitnomore,Major,oryougooffyourchump。IfJeekieseenothing,dependonittherenothingtosee。“ “Perhapsso,Jeekie,butIwishIcouldbesureyouhadseennothing。 Listentome;wemustgetoutofthisplacesomehow,orasyousay,I shallgooffmychump。It’shaunted,Jeekie,itshaunted,andIthinkthatAsikaisadevil,notawoman。“ “Thatwhatpriestssay,Major,veryolddevil——partofBonsa,“heanswered,lookingathismasteranxiously。“Well,don’tyoufret,Jeekienotafraidofdevils,Jeekiegetyououtingoodtime。GotobedandleaveitalltoJeekie。“ Fifteenmoredayshadgoneby,anditwastheeveofthenightofthesecondfullmoonwhenAlanwasdestinedtobecomethehusbandoftheAsika。Shehadsentforhimthatmorningandhefoundherradiantwithhappiness。WhetherornoshebelievedJeekie’sinterpretationofthevisionsshehadcalledup,itseemedquitecertainthathermindwasvoidoffearsanddoubts。ShewassurethatAlanwasabouttobecomeherhusband,andhadsummonedallthepeopleoftheAsikitobepresentattheceremonyoftheirmarriage,andincidentallyofthedeathoftheMunganawho,poorwretch,wastobeforcedtokillhimselfuponthatoccasion。 BeforetheypartedshehadspokentoAlansweetlyenough。 “Vernoon,“shesaid,“IknowthatyoudonotlovemeasIloveyou,butthelovewillcome,sinceforyoursakeIwillchangemyself。I willgrowgentle;Iwillshednomoreblood;thatoftheMunganashallbethelast,andevenhimIwouldspareifIcould,onlywhilehelivesImaynotmarryyou;itistheonelawthatisstrongerthanI am,andifIbrokeitIandyouwoulddieatonce。Youshalleventeachmeyourfaith,ifyouwill,forwhatisgoodtoyouishenceforthgoodtome。Askwhatyouwishofme,andasanearnestI willdoitifIcan。“ NowAlanlookedather。Therewasonethingthathewishedaboveallothers——thatshewouldlethimgo。Butthishedidnotdaretoask; moreover,itwouldhavebeenutterlyuseless。Afterall,iftheAsika’slovewasterrible,whatwouldbetheappearanceofheroutragedhate?Whatcouldheask?Moregold?Hehatedtheverynameofthestuff,forithadbroughthimhere。Herememberedtheoldcannibalchief,Fahni,who,likehimself,languishedaprisoner,dailyexpectingdeath。Onlythatmorninghehadimploredhimtoobtainhisliberty。 “Ithankyou,Asika,“hesaid。“Now,ifyourwordsaretrue,setFahnifreeandlethimreturntohisowncountry,forifhestaysherehewilldie。“ “Surely,Vernoon,thatisasmallthing,“sheanswered,smiling,“thoughitistruethatwhenhegetstherehewillprobablymakewaruponus。Well,lethim,lethim。“Thensheclappedherhandsandsummonedpriests,whomshebadegoatonceandconductFahnioutofBonsa-Town。AlsoshebadethemloosecertainslaveswhowereoftheOgulatribe,thattheymightaccompanyhimladenwithprovisions,andsendonorderstotheoutpoststhatFahniandhispartyshouldpassunmolestedfromtheland。 Thisdone,shebegantotalktoAlanaboutmanymatters,howeverlittlehemightanswerher。Indeeditseemedalmostasthoughshefearedtolethimleaveherside;asthoughsomepresentimentoflossoppressedher。 Atlength,toAlan’sgreatrelief,thetimecamewhentheymustpart,sinceitwasnecessaryforhertoattendasecretceremonyofpreparationorpurificationthatwascalled“Putting-off-the-Past。“ Althoughshehadbeenthricesummoned,stillshewouldnotlethimgo。 “Theycallyou,Asika,“saidAlan。 “Yes,yes,theycallme,“shereplied,springingup。“Leaveme,Vernoon,tillwemeetto-morrowtopartnomore。Oh!whyismyheartsoheavyinme?ThatblackdogofyoursreadthevisionsthatI summonedbutmightnotlookon,andtheyweregoodvisions。Theyshowedthatthewomanwholovedyouisdead;theyshoweduswedded,andotherdeeperthings。Surelyhewouldnotdaretolietome,knowingthatifhedidIwouldflayhimlivingandthrowhimtothevultures。Why,then,ismyheartsoheavyinme?Wouldyouescapeme,Vernoon?Nay,youarenotsocruel,norcouldyoudoitexceptbydeath。Moreover,man,knowthatevenindeathyoucannotescapeme,fortherebesureIshallfollowyouandclaimyou,towhosesidemyspirithastoiledforages,andwhatistheresostrongthatitcansnatchyoufrommyhand?“ Shelookedathimamoment,andseizinghishandburstintoafloodoftears,andseizinghishandthrewherselfuponherkneesandkisseditagainandagain。 “Gonow,“shesaid,“go,andletmylovegowithyou,throughlivesanddeaths,andallthedreamsbeyond,oh!letmylovegowithyou,asitshall,Vernoon。“ Sohewent,leavingherweepingonherknees。 DuringthedarkhoursthatfollowedAlanandmadnesswerenotfarapart。Whatcouldhedo?Escapewasutterlyimpossible。ForweeksheandJeekiehadconsidereditinvain。EveniftheycouldwinoutoftheGoldHousefortress,whathopehadtheyofmakingtheirwaythroughthecrowded,tortuoustownwhere,aftertheAfricanfashion,peopledwalkedaboutallnight,everyoneofwhomwouldrecognizethewhiteman,whetherheweremaskedorno?Besides,beyondthetownweretheriverandtheguardedwallsandgatesandbeyondthemopencountrywheretheywouldbecutofforrundown。No,toattemptescapewassuicide。Suicide!Thatgavehimanidea,whyshouldhenotkillhimself?Itwouldbeeasyenough,forhestillhadhisrevolverandafewcartridges,andsurelyitwasbetterthantoenteronsuchalifeasawaitedhimastheplaythingofapriestessofatribeoffetish- worshippingsavages。 Butifhekilledhimself,howaboutBarbaraandhowaboutpooroldJeekie,whowouldcertainlybekilledalso?Besides,itwasnottherightthingtodo,andwhilethereislifethereisalwayshope。 AlanpausedinhiswalkupanddowntheroomandlookedatJeekie,whosatuponthefloorwithhisbackrestingagainstthestonealtar,reflectivelypullingdownhisthickunder-lipandlettingitflyback,negro-fashion。 “Jeekie,“hesaid,“time’sup。WhatamItodo?“