第10章

类别:其他 作者:Henry Rider Haggard字数:4070更新时间:18/12/27 08:40:52
Thesimpleservicewenton;thefirstlessonwasread。Itcriedwoeuponthemthatjoinedhousetohouseandfieldtofield,thatdrawiniquitywithcordsofvanityandsinasitwerewithacartrope; thatcallevilgoodandgoodevil,thatputdarknessforlightandlightfordarkness,thatjustifythewickedforreward;thatfeastfullbutregardnottheworkoftheLord,neitherconsidertheoperationofHishand,forofsuchitprophesiedthattheirhousesgreatandfairshouldbewithoutinhabitantanddesolate。 Itwasverywellread,andAlan,listening,thoughtthatthedenunciationsoftheoldseerofthousandsofyearsagowerenotinappropriatetothedwellersinsomehousesgreatandfairofhisownday,who,whatevertheydidorleftundone,regardednottheworkoftheLord,neitherconsideredtheoperationofHishand。PerhapsBarbarathoughtsotoo;atanyratearathersadlittlesmileappearedonceortwiceuponhersweet,firmfaceastheimmortalpoemechoeddowntheaisle。 Thepeacethatpassethunderstandingwasinvokedupontheirheads,andrisingwiththerestofthescantycongregationtheywentaway。 “Shallwewalkhomebythewoods,Alan?“askedBarbara。“Itisthreemilesround,butwedon’tlunchtilltwo。“ Henodded,andpresentlytheywerealoneinthosewoods,thebeautifulwoodsthroughwhichthebreathofspringwasbreathing,treadinguponcarpetsofbluebells,violetandprimrose;quitealone,unaccompaniedsavebythewildthingsthatstoleacrosstheirpath,undisturbedsavebythesoundofthesingingbirdsandofthewindamongthetrees。 “Whatdidyoumean,Barbara,whenyousaidthatIshouldbeagratefulmanto-day?“askedAlanpresently。 Barbaralookedhimintheeyesinthatopen,virginalfashionofhersandansweredinthewordsofthelesson,“’Woeuntothemthatdrawiniquitywiththecordsofvanityandsinasitwerewithacart-rope,thatlayhousetohouse,’“andthroughanopeninginthewoodsshepointedtotheroofofTheCourtstandingononehill,andtotheroofofOldHallstandinguponanother——“’andfieldtofield,’“andwithasweepofherhandsheindicatedallthecountryround,“’formanyhousesgreatandfairthathavemusicintheirfeastsshallbeleftdesolate。’“Thenturningshesaid: “Doyouunderstandnow,Alan?“ “Ithinkso,“heanswered。“YoumeanthatIhavebeeninbadcompany。“ “Verybad,Alan。Oneofthemismyownuncle,butthetruthremainsthetruth。Alan,theyarenobetterthanthieves;allthiswealthisstolen,andIthankGodthatyouhavefounditoutintimebeforeyoubecameoneoftheminheartaswellasinname。“ “IfyourefertotheSaharaSyndicate,“hesaid,“theideaissoundenough;indeed,Iamresponsibleforit。Thethingcanbedone,greatbenefitswouldresult,toolongtogointo。“ “Yes,yes,Alan,butyouknowthattheynevermeantodoit,theyonlymeantogetthemillionsfromthepublic。Ihavelivedwithmyunclefortenyears,eversincemypoorfatherdied,andIknowthebackstairsofthebusiness。Therehavebeenhalfadozenschemeslikethis,andalthoughtheyhavehadtheirbadtimes,verybadtimes,heandSirRoberthavegrownricherandricher。Butwhathashappenedtothosewhohaveinvestedinthem?Oh!letusdropthesubject,itisunpleasant。Formyselfitdoesn’tmatter,becausealthoughitisn’tundermycontrol,Ihavemoneyofmyown。Youknowweareaplebeianlotonthemaleside,mygrandfatherwasadraperinalargewayofbusiness,myfatherwasacoal-merchantwhomadeagreatfortune。Hisbrother,myuncle,inwhommyfatheralwaysbelievedimplicitly,tooktowhatiscalledFinance,andwhenmyfatherdiedheleftme,hisonlychild,inhisguardianship。UntilIamfiveandtwentyIcannotevenmarryortouchahalfpennywithouthisconsent;infactifI shouldmarryagainsthiswillthemostofmymoneygoestohim。“ “Iexpectthathehasgotitalready,“saidAlan。 “No,Ithinknot。Ifoundoutthat,althoughitisnotmine,itisnothis。Hecan’tdrawitwithoutmysignature,andIsteadilyrefusetosignanything。Againandagaintheyhavebroughtmedocuments,andI havealwayssaidthatIwouldconsiderthematfiveandtwenty,whenI cameofageundermyfather’swill。IwentontheslytoalawyerinKingswellandpaidhimaguineaforhisadvice,andheputmeuptothat。’Signnothing,’hesaid,andIhavesignednothing,so,exceptbyforgerynothingcanhavegone。Stillforallthatitmayhavegone。 ForanythingIknowIamnotworthmorethantheclothesIstandin,althoughmyfatherwasaveryrichman。“ “Ifso,weareaboutinthesameboat,Barbara,“Alanansweredwithalaugh,“formypresentpossessionsareYarleys,whichbringsinabout£100ayearlessthantheinterestonitsmortgagesandcostofupkeep,andthe£1700thatAylwardpaidmebackonFridayformyshares。IfIhadstucktothemIunderstandthatinaweekortwoI shouldhavebeenworth£100,000,andnowyousee,hereIam,overthirtyyearsofagewithoutaprofession,invalidedoutofthearmyandhavingfailedinfinance,amerebitofdriftwoodwithouthopeandwithoutatrade。“ Barbara’sbrowneyesgrewsoftwithsympathy,orwasittears? “Youareacuriouscreature,Alan,“shesaid。“Whydidn’tyoutakethe£17,000forthatfetishofyours?Itwouldhavebeenafairdealandhavesetyouonyourlegs。“ “Idon’tknow,“heanswereddejectedly。“Itwentagainstthegrain,sowhatistheuseoftalkingaboutit?IthinkmyolduncleAustintoldmeitwasn’ttobepartedwith——no,perhapsitwasJeekie。BothertheYellowGod!itisalwayscroppingup。“ “Yes,“repliedBarbara,“theYellowGodisalwayscroppingup,especiallyinthisneighbourhood。“ Theywalkedonawhileinsilence,tillsuddenlyBarbarasatdownuponaboleoffelledoakandbegantocry。 “Whatisthematterwithyou?“askedAlan。 “Idon’tknow,“sheanswered。“Everythinggoeswrong。Iliveinakindofgildedhell。Idon’tlikemyuncleandIloaththemenhebringsabouttheplace。Ihavenofriends,Iscarcelyknowawomanintimately,IhavetroublesIcan’ttellyouand——Iamwretched。YouaretheonlycreatureIhavelefttotalkto,andIsupposethatafterthisrowyoumustgoawaytootomakeyourliving。“ Alanlookedatherthereweepingonthelogandhisheartswelledwithinhim,forhehadlovedthisgirlforyears。 “Barbara,“hegasped,“pleasedon’tcry,itupsetsme。Youknowyouareagreatheiress——“ “Thatremainstobeproved,“sheanswered。“Butanyway,whathasittodowiththecase?“ “Ithaseverythingtodowithit,atleastsofarasIamconcerned。 Ifithadn’tbeenforthatIshouldhaveaskedyoutomarrymealongwhileago,becauseIloveyou,asIwouldnow,butofcourseitisimpossible。“ Barbaraceasedherweeping,wipedhereyeswiththebackofherhand,andlookedupathim。 “Alan,“shesaid,“IthinkthatyouarethebiggestfoolIeverknew—— notbutthatafoolisratherrefreshingwhenonelivesamongknaves。“ “IknowIamafool,“heanswered。“IfIwasn’tIshouldnothavementionedmymisfortunetoyou,butsometimesthingsaretoomuchforone。Forgetitandforgiveme。“ “Oh!yes,“shesaid;“Iforgiveyou;awomancangenerallyforgiveamanforbeingfondofher。Whatevershemaybe,sheisreadytotakealenientviewofhishumanweakness。Butastoforgetting,thatisadifferentmatter。Idon’texactlyseewhyIshouldbesoanxioustoforget,whohaven’tmanypeopletocareaboutme,“andshelookedathiminquiteanewfashion,oneindeedwhichgavehimsomethingofashock,forhehadnotthoughtthenymph-likeBarbaracapableofsuchalookasthat。Sheandanysortofpassionhadalwaysseemedsofarapart。 NowafterallAlanwasverymuchaman,ifamodestone,withallaman’sinstincts,andthereforethereareappearancesofthefemalefacewhichevensuchashecouldnotentirelymisinterpret。 “You——don’t——mean,“hesaiddoubtfully,“youdon’treallymean——“ andhestoodhesitatingbeforeher。 “Ifyouwouldputyourquestionalittlemoreclearly,Alan,Imightbeabletogiveyouananswer,“shereplied,thatquaintlittlesmileofherscreepingtothecornersofhermouthlikesunshinethroughamistofrain。 “Youdon’treallymean,“hewenton,“thatyoucareanythingaboutme,like,likeIhavecaredforyouforyears?“ “Oh!Alan,“shesaid,laughingoutright,“whyinthenameofgoodnessshouldn’tIcareaboutyou?Ididn’tsaythatIdo,mind,butwhyshouldn’tI?Whatisthegulfbetweenus?“ “Theoldone,“heanswered,“thatbetweenDivesandLazarus——thatbetweentherichandthepoor。“ “Alan,“saidBarbara,lookingdown,“Idon’tknowwhathascomeoverme,butforsomeunexplainedandinexplicablereasonIaminclinedtogiveLazarusalead——acrossthatgulf,thefirstone,Imean,notthesecond!“ Liketheglancewhichprecededit,thiswasasayingthatevenAlancouldnotmisunderstand。Hesathimselfonthelogbesideher,whileshe,stilllookingdown,watchedhimoutofthecornersofhereyes。 Hewentred,hewentwhite,hisheartbeatveryviolently。Thenhestretchedouthisbigbrownhandandtookhersmallwhiteone,andasthisfamiliarityproducednoremonstrance,letitfall,andpassinghisarmabouther,drewhertohimandembracedher,notonce,butoften,withsuchvigourthatasquirrelwhichhadbeenwatchingtheseproceedingsfromaneighbouringtree,boltedrounditscandalizedandwasseennomore。