第5章

类别:其他 作者:Henry Rider Haggard字数:3666更新时间:18/12/27 08:40:52
Mr。Jeffreyslookedupandthereweretracesofunwontedemotionuponhishard,regulatedface。 “Formyself,yes,Major——foryou,onthewhole,no。“ “Whatdoyoumean,Jeffreys?Idonotquiteunderstand。“ “Imean,Major,thatIamsorrybecauseyouhavenevertriedtoshuffleoffanyshadybusinessontomybackandleavemetobearthebruntofit;alsobecauseyouhavealwaystreatedmeasagentlemanshould,notasamachinetobeuseduntilabettercanbefound,andkickedasidewhenitgoesoutoforder。“ “Itisverykindofyoutosayso,Jeffreys,butIcan’trememberhavingdoneanythingparticular。“ “No,Major,youcan’trememberwhatcomesnaturaltoyou。ButIandtheothersremember,andthat’swhyIamsorry。ButforyourselfIamglad,sincealthoughAylwardandHaswellhaveputabigthingthroughandaregoingtomakeapotofmoney,thisisnoplaceforthelikesofyou,andnowthatyouaregoingIwillmakeboldtotellyouthatI alwayswonderedwhatyouweredoinghere。Byandby,Major,therowwillcome,asithascomemorethanonceinthepast,beforeyourtime。“ “Andthen?“saidAlan,forhewasanxioustogettothebottomofthisman’smind,whichhithertohehadalwaysfoundsosecret。 “Andthen,Major,itwon’tmattermuchtoMessrs。AylwardandChampers-Haswell,whoareusedtothatkindofthingandwillprobablydissolvepartnershipandliequietforabit,andstilllesstofolklikemyself,whoareonlyservants。Butifyouwerestillhereitwouldhavematteredagreatdealtoyou,foritwouldblackenyournameandbreakyourheart,andthenwhat’sthegoodofthemoney?I tellyou,Major,“theclerkwentonwithquietintensity,“thoughIamnobodyandnothing,ifIcouldafforditIwouldfollowyourexample。 ButIcan’t,forIhaveasickwifeandafamilyofdelicatechildrenwhohavetolivehalftheyearonthesouthcoast,tosaynothingofmyoldmother,and——IwasfoolenoughtobetakeninandbackSirRobert’slastlittleventure,whichcostmeallIhadsaved。SoyouseeImustmakeabitbeforethemachineisscrapped,Major。ButI tellyouthis,thatifIcanget£5000together,asIhopetodooutofSaharasbeforeIamamontholder,fortheyhadtogivemealook- in,asIknewtoomuch,Iamofftothecountry,whereIwasborn,totakeafarmthere。NomoreofMessrs。AylwardandHaswellforThomasJeffreys。That’smybell。Good-bye,Major,I’lltakethelibertytowriteyoualinesometimes,forIknowyouwon’tgivemeaway。Good- byeandGodblessyou,asIamsureHewillinthelongrun,“andstretchingouthishand,hetookthatoftheastonishedAlanandwrungitwarmly。 WhenhewasgoneAlanwentalso,noticingthattheclerks,whomsomerumouroftheseeventsseemedtohavereached,eyedhimcuriouslythroughtheglassscreensbehindwhichtheysatattheirdesks,ashethoughtnotwithoutregretandakindofadmiration。Eventhemagnificentbe-medalledporteratthedooremergedfromthecarvedteakboxwherehedweltandtouchinghiscapaskedifheshouldcallacab。 “No,thankyou,Sergeant,“answeredAlan,“Iwilltakeabus,and,Sergeant,IthinkIforgottogiveyouapresentlastXmas。Willyouacceptthis?——IwishIcouldmakeitmore,“andhepresentedhimwithtenshillings。 TheSergeantdrewhimselfupandsaluted。 “Thankyoukindly,Major,“hesaid。“I’drathertakethatfromyouthan£10fromtheothergentlemen。But,Major,IwishwewereoutontheWestCoastagaintogether。It’sastinking,barbaroushole,butnotsobadasthis’erecity。“ Foroncethesetwohadservedascomrades,anditwasthroughAlanthatthesergeantobtainedhispresentlucrativebutsomewhatuncongenialpost。 Hewasoutsideatlast。Themassivegraniteportalvanishedbehindhimintheeveningmists,muchasanightmarevanishes。He,AlanVernon,whoforayearormorehadbeeninbondage,wasafreemanagain。Allhisdreamsofwealthhaddeparted;indeedifanything,saveinexperience,hewaspoorerthanwhenfirsttheshadowofyonderdoorwayfelluponhim。Butatleasthewassafe,safe。Thedeedofpartnershipwhichhadbeenasachainabouthisneck,wasnowwhiteashes;hisnamewaserasedfromthatfearfulprospectusofSaharaLimited,whereinmillionswhichsomeonewouldprovidewerespokenoflikesilverinthedaysofSolomon,asthingsofnoaccount。Thebitterestcriticcouldnotsaythathehadmadeahalfpennyoutoftheventure,infact,iftroublecame,hisvoluntaryabandonmentoftheprofitsduetohimmustgotohiscredit。Hehadplungedintotheicywatersofrenunciationandcomeupcleanifnaked。NeversincehewasaboycouldAlanrememberfeelingsoutterlylight-heartedandfreefromanxiety。Notforamillionpoundswouldhehavereturnedtogathergoldinthatmausoleumofreputations。Asforthefuture,hedidnotintheleastcarewhathappened。Therewasnoonedependentonhim,andinthiswayorinthathecouldalwaysearnacrust,anice,honestcrust。 Herandownthestreetanddancedforjoylikeachild,yes,andpresentedacrossing-sweeperagainstwhomhebuttedwithawholesixpenceincompensation。ThushereachedtheMansionHouse,notunsuspectedofinebrietybythepolice,andclamberedtothetopofabuscrowdedwithwearyandanxious-lookingCityclerksreturninghomeafteralongday’slabouratstarvationwage。Inthatcoldcompanyandachillingatmospheresomeofhisenthusiasmevaporated。Herememberedthatthisstepofhismeantthatsoonerorlater,withinayearortwoatmost,Yarleys,wherehisfamilyhaddweltforcenturies,mustgotothehammer。WhyhadhenotacceptedAylward’sofferandsoldthatoldfetishtohimfor£17,000?Therewasnoquestionofshare-dealingthere,andifaverywealthymanchosetogiveafancypriceforacuriosity,hecouldtakeitwithoutdoubtorshame。AtleastitwouldhavesufficedtosaveYarleys,whichafterallwasonlymortgagedfor£20,000。Forthelifeofhimhecouldnottell。Hehadactedonimpulse,averycuriousimpulse,andtherewasanendofitperhaps; itmightbebecausehisunclehadtoldhimasaboythatthethingwasunique,orperhapsbecauseoldJeekie,hisnegroservant,venerateditsomuchandsworethatitwas“lucky。“Atanyratehehaddeclinedandtherewasanend。 Butanotherandagravermatterremained。HehaddesiredwealthtosaveYarleys,buthedesireditstillmoreforadifferentpurpose。 AboveeverythingonearthhelovedBarbara,hisdistantcousinandthenieceofMr。Champers-Haswell,whountilanhouragohadbeenhispartner。Nowshewasagreatheiress,andwithoutfortunehecouldnotmarryher,evenifshewouldmarryhim,whichremainedindoubt。ForonethingheruncleandguardianHaswell,underherfather’swill,hadabsolutediscretioninthismatteruntilshereachedtheageoftwenty-five,andforanotherhewastooproud。Thereforeitwouldseemthatinabandoninghisbusiness,hehadabandonedhischanceofBarbaraalso,whichwasatrulydreadfulthought。 Well,itwasinorderthathemightseeher,thathehadagreedtovisitTheCourtonthemorrow,eventhoughitmeantameetingwithhislatepartners,whowerethelastpeoplewithwhomhedesiredtoforegatheragainsosoon。ThenandtherehemadeuphismindthatbeforehebadeBarbarafarewell,hewouldtellherthewholestory,sothatshemightnotmisjudgehim。Afterthathewouldgooffsomewhere——toAfricaperhaps。Meanwhilehewasquitetiredout,astiredasthoughhehadlainaweekinthegripoffever。Hemusteatsomefoodandgettobed。Sufficientuntothedaywastheevilthereof,yetonthewholeheblessedthenameofJackson,editorof/TheJudge/andhisfather’soldfriend。 WhenAlanhadlefttheofficeSirRobertturnedtoMr。Champers- Haswellandaskedhimabruptly,“Whatthedevildoesthismean?“ Mr。Haswelllookedupattheceilingandwhistledinhisownpeculiarfashion,thenanswered: “Icannotsayforcertain,butouryoungfriend’sstrangeconductseemstosuggestthathehassmeltarat,possiblyeventhatJackson,theoldbeast,hasshownhimarat——ofalargeTurkishbreed。“ SirRobertnodded。 “Vernonisafellowwhodoesn’tlikerats;theyseemtohaunthissleep,“hesaid;“butdoyouthinkthathavingseenit,hewillkeepitinthebag?“ “Oh!certainly,certainly,“answeredMr。Haswellwithcheerfulness; “themanisthesoulofhonour;hewillnevergiveusaway。Lookhowhebehavedaboutthoseshares。Still,Ithinkthatperhapswearewellridofhim。Toomuchhonour,liketoomuchzeal,isaverydangerousqualityinanybusiness。“