第22章

类别:其他 作者:Sir H Rider Haggard字数:4170更新时间:18/12/27 08:32:33
Theclamourswelledorsank,andthemencalledorcriedthenamesofmanywomen,somedead,somelost。Othersweremute,silentinthepresenceoftheWorld’sDesire,silentaswhenweseelostfacesinadream。TheWandererhadlookedonceandthencastdownhiseyesandstoodwithhisfacehiddeninhishands。Healonewaitedandstrovetothink;therestwereabandonedtothebewildermentoftheirpassionsandtheiramaze。 Whatwasitthathehadseen?Thatwhichhehadsoughthiswholelifelong;soughtbyseaandland,notknowingwhathesought。Forthishehadwanderedwithahungryheart,andnowwasthehungerofhishearttobeappeased?BetweenhimandherwastheunknownbarrierandtheinvisibleDeath。Washetopasstheunmarkedboundary,toforcethoseguardedgatesandachievewhereallhadfailed?Hadamagicdeceivedhiseyes?DidhelookbutonapictureandavisionthatsomeartcouldcallagainfromthehauntedplaceofMemory? Hesighedandlookedagain。Lo!inhischarmedsightafairgirlseemedtostanduponthepylonbrow,andonherheadsheboreashiningurnofbronze。 Heknewhernow。HehadseenherthusatthecourtofKingTyndareusashedroveinhischariotthroughthefordofEurotas;thushehadseenheralsointhedreamontheSilentIsle。 Againhesighedandagainhelooked。Nowinhischarmedsightawomansat,whosefacewasthefaceofthegirl,grownmorelovelyfar,butsadwithgriefandtouchedwithshame。 Hesawherandheknewher。SohehadseenherinTroytowerswhenhestolethitherinabeggar’sguisefromthecampoftheAch?ans。SohehadseenherwhenshesavedhislifeinIlios。 Againhesighedandagainhelooked,andnowhesawtheGoldenHelen。 Shestooduponthepylon’sbrow。Shestoodwitharmsoutstretched,witheyesupturned,andonhershiningfacetherewasasmileliketheinfinitesmileofthedawn。Oh,nowindeedheknewtheshapethatwasBeauty’sself——theinnocentSpiritofLovesentonearthbytheundyingGodstobethedoomandthedelightofmen;todrawthemthroughthewaysofstrifetotheunknownend。 AwhiletheGoldenHelenstoodthuslookingupandouttotheworldsbeyond;tothepeacebeyondthestrife,tothegoalbeyondthegrave。 Thusshestoodwhilemenscarcedaredtobreathe,summoningalltocomeandtakethatwhichupontheearthisguardedsoinvincibly。 Thenoncemoreshesang,andasshesang,slowlydrewherselfaway,tillatlengthnothingwasleftofthevisionofhersavethesweetnessofherdyingsong。 WhowinshisLoveshallloseher,Wholoseshershallgain,Forstillthespiritwoosher,Asoulwithoutastain; AndMemorystillpursuesherWithlongingsnotinvain! Helosesherwhogainsher,WhowatchesdaybydayThedustoftimethatstainsher,Thegriefsthatleavehergrey,ThefleshthatyetenchainsherWhosegracehathpassedaway! Oh,happierhewhogainsnotTheLovesomeseemtogain: ThejoythatcustomstainsnotShallstillwithhimremain,Thelovelinessthatwanesnot,Thelovethatne’ercanwane。 IndreamsshegrowsnotolderThelandsofDreamamong,Thoughalltheworldwaxcolder,Thoughallthesongsbesung,IndreamsdothhebeholdherStillfairandkindandyoung。 Nowthesilencediedaway,andagainmadnesscameuponthosewhohadlistenedandlooked。Themenwithoutthewalloncemorehurledthemselvesagainstthegates,whilethewomenclungtothem,shriekingcursesonthebeautyoftheHathor,forthesongmeantnothingtothesewomen,andtheirarmswereaboutthosewhomtheylovedandwhowonthemtheirbread。ButmostofthemenwhowereintheoutercourtrusheduptotheinnergateswithinwhichstoodthealabastershrineoftheHathor。Someflungthemselvesuponthegroundandclutchedatit,asindreamsmenflingthemselvesdowntobesavedfromfallingintoapitthathasnobottom。Yetasinsuchanevilslumberthedreamerisdrawninchbyinchtothemouthofthepitbyanunseenhand,sothesewretchedmenweredraggedalongthegroundbythemightoftheirowndesire。Invaintheysettheirfeetagainstthestonestoholdthemselvesfromgoing,fortheythrustforwardyetmorefiercelywiththeirhands,andthuslittlebylittledrewneartheinnergateswrithingforwardsyetmovingbackwardslikeawoundedsnakedraggedalongbyarope。ForofthosewhothusenteredtheoutercourtandlookedupontheHathor,fewmightgobackalive。 Nowthepriestsdrewtheclothsfromtheireyes,andrising,flungwidethesecondgates,andthere,butalittlewayoff,theveiloftheshrinewaveredasifinawind。Fornowthedoorsbeyondtheveilwerethrownopen,asmightbeseenwhenthewindswayeditsTyrianweb,andthroughthecurtaincamethesoundofthesamesweetsinging。 “Drawnear!Drawnear!“criedtheancientpriest。“LethimwhowouldwintheHathordrawnear!“ NowatfirsttheWandererwasmindedtorushon。Buthisdesirehadnotwhollyovercomehim,norhadhiswisdomlefthim。Hetookcounselwithhisheartandwaitedtolettheothersgo,andtoseehowitfaredwiththem。 Theworshipperswerenowhurryingbackandnowdartingonwards,asfearandlongingseizedthem,tillthemanwhowasblinddrewnear,ledbythehandofapriest,forhishoundmightnotenterthesecondcourtofthetemple。 “Doyefear?“hecried。“Cowards,Ifearnot。ItisbettertolookuponthegloryoftheHathoranddiethantoliveandneverseehermore。Setmyfacestraight,yepriests,setmyfacestraight,attheworstIcanbutdie。“ Sotheyledhimasnearthecurtainsastheydaredtogoandsethisfacestraight。Thenwithagreatcryherushedon。Buthewascaughtandwhirledaboutlikealeafinawind,sothathefell。Heroseandagainrushedon,againtobewhirledback。Athirdtimeheroseandrushedon,smitingwithhisblindman’sstaff。Theblowfell,andstayedinmid-air,andtherecameahollowsoundasofasmittenshield,andthestaffthatdealttheblowwasshattered。Thentherewasanoiselikethenoiseofclashingswords,andthemaninstantlysankdowndead,thoughtheWanderercouldseenowounduponhim。 “Drawnear!Drawnear!“criedthepriestagain。“Thisoneisfallen。 LethimwhowouldwintheHathordrawnear!“ ThenthemanwhohadfledfromthehostoftheApurarushedforward,cryingontheLionofhistribe。Backhewashurled,andbackagain,butatthethirdtimeoncemoretherecamethesoundofclashingswords,andhetoofelldead。 “Drawnear!Drawnear!“criedthepriest。“Anotherhasfallen!LethimwhowouldwintheHathordrawnear!“ Andnowmanaftermanrushedon,tobefirsthurledbackandthenslainoftheclashingswords。AndatlengthallwereslainsavetheWandereralone。 Thenthepriestspake: “Wiltthouindeedrushontodoom,thougloriousman?Thouhastseenthefateofmany。Bewarnedandturnaway。“ “NeverdidIturnfrommanorghost,“saidtheWanderer,anddrawinghisshortswordhecamenear,warilycoveringhisheadwithhisbroadshield,whilethepriestsstoodbacktoseehimdie。Now,theWandererhadmarkedthatnoneweretouchedtilltheystoodattheverythresholdofthedoorway。ThereforeheutteredaprayertoAphroditeandcameonslowlytillhisfeetwerewithinabow’slengthofthethreshold,andtherehestoodandlistened。NowhecouldheartheverywordsofthesongthattheHathorsangasshewoveatherloom。SodreadandsweetitwasthatforawhilehethoughtnomoreontheGuardiansoftheGate,norofhowhemightwintheway,norofaughtsavethesong。Forshewassingingshrillandclearinhisowndeartongue,thetongueoftheAch?ans: Paintwiththreadsofgoldandscarlet,paintthebattlesfoughtforme,AllthewarsforArgiveHelen;stormandsackbylandorsea; Allthetaleoflovesandsorrowsthathavebeenandaretobe。 Paintherlipsthatlikeacuphavepledgedthelipsofheroesall,Painthergoldenhairunwhitenedwhilethemanywintersfall,Paintthebeautythatismistressofthewideworldanditsthrall! Paintthestormsofshipsandchariots,rainofarrowsflyingfar,PaintthewavesofWarfareleapingupatBeautylikeastar,LikeastarthatpaleandtremblinghangsabovethewavesofWar。 PainttheancientIliosfallen;painttheflamesthatscaledthesky,Whenthefoewasinthefortress,whenthetrumpetandthecryRangofmenintheirlastonset,menwhosehourhaddawnedtodie。 Woeformeoncelovedofallmen,methatneveryethaveknownHowtolovetheheartsthatlovedme。Woeforwoe,whohearthemoanOfmylovers’ghoststhatperishedintheircitiesoverthrown。 Istherenot,ofGodsormortals,oh,yeGods,istherenotone—— Onewhoseheartshallmatewithmyheart,onetoloveereallbedone,Allthetalesofwarsthatshallbeformylovebeneaththesun? Nowthesongdiedaway,andtheWandereroncemorebethoughthimoftheWardensoftheGateandofthebattlewhichhemustfight。Butashebracedhimselftorushonagainsttheunseenfoethemusicofthesingingswelledforthagain,andwhetherhewilleditorwilleditnot,sosweetwasitsmagicthattherehemustwaittillthesongwasdone。Andnowstrongerandmoregladlyrangthesweetshrillvoice,likethevoiceofonewhohasmademoanthroughthelivelongwinternight,andnowseesthechariotofthedawnclimbingtheeasternsky。 AndthustheHathorsang: Ah,withinmyheartahungerfortheloveunfelt,unknown,Stirsatlength,andwakesandmurmursasachildthatwakestomoan,Lefttosleepwithinsomesilenthouseofstrangersandalone。 Somyheartawakes,andwaking,moanswithhungerandwithcold,Criesinpainofdimremembranceforthejoythatwasofold; Forthelovethatwas,thatshallbe,halfforgotandhalfforetold。 HaveIdreameditorremembered?InanotherworldwasI,Livedandlovedinalienseasons,movedbeneathagoldensky,Inagoldenclimewherenevercamethestrifeofmenthatdie。