第9章

类别:其他 作者:Sir H Rider Haggard字数:4766更新时间:18/12/27 08:32:33
shallgivemyselftohim——hatinghimthewhile。Andthenthenextgame;thatshallbeforlifeandloveandallthingsdear,andIshallwinit,andmineshallbetheuraeuscrest,andmineshallbethedoublecrownofancientKhem,andIshallrulelikeHatshepu,thegreatQueenofold,forIamstrong,andtothestrongisvictory。’ “’Yes,’Imadeanswer,’but,Lady,seethouthattheGodsturnnotthystrengthtoweakness;thouarttoopassionatetobeallstrength,andinawoman’sheartpassionisthedoorbywhichKingFollyenters。 To-daythouhatest,beware,lestto-morrowthoushould’stlove。’ “’Love,’shesaid,gazingscornfully;’Meriamunlovesnottillshefindamanworthyofherlove。’ “’Ay,andthen?’ “’Andthenshelovestoalldestruction,andwoetothemwhocrossherpath。Rei,farewell。’ “Thensuddenlyshespoketomeinanothertongue,thatfewknowsaveherandme,andthatnonecanreadsaveherandme,adeadtongueofadeadpeople,thepeopleofthatancientCityoftheRock,whenceallourfatherscame。[*] [*]Probablythemysteriousandindecipherableancientbooks,whichwereoccasionallyexcavatedinoldEgypt,werewritteninthisdeadlanguageofamoreancientandnowforgottenpeople。SuchwasthebookdiscoveredatCoptos,inthesanctuarythere,byapriestoftheGoddess。“Thewholeearthwasdark,butthemoonshoneallabouttheBook。“AscribeoftheperiodoftheRamessidsmentionsanotherindecipherableancientwriting。“Thoutellestmethouunderstandestnowordofit,goodorbad。Thereis,asitwere,awallaboutitthatnonemayclimb。Thouartinstructed,yetthouknowestitnot;thismakesmeafraid。“Birch,/Zeitschrift/,1871,pp。61-64。/PapyrusAnastasi/I,pl。X。1。8,pl。X。1。4。 Maspero,/Hist。Anc。/7。 “’Igo,’shesaid,andItrembledasshespoke,fornomanspeaksinthislanguagewhenhehasanygoodthoughtinhisheart。’IgotoseekthecounselofThatthouknowest,’andshetouchedthegoldensnakewhichshehadwon。 “ThenIthrewmyselfontheearthatherfeet,andclaspedherknees,crying,’Mydaughter,mydaughter,sinnotthisgreatsin。Nay,forallthekingdomoftheworld,wakenotThatwhichsleepeth,norwarmagainintolifeThatwhichisa-cold。’ “Butsheonlynodded,andputmefromher,“——andtheoldman’sfacegrewpaleashespoke。 “Whatmeantshe?“saidtheWanderer。 “Nay,wakenot/thou/Thatwhichsleepeth,Wanderer,“hesaid,atlength。“Mytongueissealed。ItelltheemorethatIwouldtellanother。Donotask,——buthark!Theycomeagain!NowmayRaandPashtandAmencursethem;maytheredswine’smouthofSetgnawupontheminAmenti;maytheFishofSebekfleshhisteethofstoneinthemforever,andfeedandfeedagain!“ “Whydostthoucursethus,Rei,andwhoaretheythatgoby?“saidtheWanderer。“Iheartheirtrampingandtheirsong。“ Indeedtherecamealightnoiseofmanyshufflingfeet,patteringoutsidethePalacewall,andthewordsofasongrangouttriumphantly: TheLordourGodHedothsignandwonder,TokensHeshowsinthelandofKhem,HehathshatteredtheprideoftheKingsasunderAndcastethHisshoeo’ertheGodsofthem! Hehathbroughtforthfrogsintheirholyplaces,Hehathsprinkledthedustuponcrownandhem,Hehathhatedtheirkingsandhathdarkenedtheirfaces; WondersHeworksinthelandofKhem。 “Thesearetheaccursedblasphemingconjurorsandslaves,theApura,“ saidRei,asthemusicandthetrampingdiedaway。“Theirmagicisgreaterthantheloreevenofuswhoareinstructed,fortheirleaderwasoneofourselves,ashavenpriest,andknowsourwisdom。Neverdotheymarchandsingthusbutevilcomesofit。Eredaydawnweshallhavenewsofthem。MaytheGodsdestroythem,theyaregoneforthehour。ItwerewellifMeriamuntheQueenwouldletthemgoforever,astheydesire,totheirdeathinthedesert,butshehardenstheKing’sheart。“ VII THEQUEEN’SVISION Therewassilencewithoutatlast;theclamourandthetreadoftheApurawerehushedinthedistance,dyingfaraway,andReigrewcalm,whenheheardnolongerthewildsong,andtheclashingofthetimbrels。 “Imusttellthee,Eperitus,“hesaid,“howthematterendedbetweenthedivinePrinceandMeriamun。Shebowedherpridebeforeherfatherandherbrother:herfather’swillwashers;sheseemedtolethersecretsleep,andshesetherownpriceonherhand。IneverythingshemustbetheequalofPharaoh——thatwasherprice;andinallthetemplesandallthecitiesshewastobesolemnlyproclaimedjointheirwithhimoftheUpperandLowerLand。Thebargainwasstruckandthepricewaspaid。AfterthatnightoverthegameofpiecesMeriamunwaschanged。ThenceforthshedidnotmockatthePrince,shemadeherselfgentleandsubmissivetohiswill。 “Sothetimedrewontillatlengthinthebeginningoftherisingofthewaterscamethedayofherbridal。WithamightypompwasPharaoh’sdaughterweddedtoPharaoh’sson。Butherhandwascoldasshestoodatthealtar,coldasthehandofonewhosleepsinOsiris。 ProudlyandcoldlyshesatinthegoldenchariotpassinginandoutthegreatgatesofTanis。Onlywhenshelistenedandheardtheacclaimingthousandscry/Meriamun/soloudlythatthecryof/Meneptah/waslostintheechoesofhername——thenonlydidshesmile。 “Cold,too,shesatinherwhiterobesatthefeastthatPharaohmade,andsheneverlookedatthehusbandbyherside,thoughhelookedkindlyonher。 “Thefeastwaslong,butitendedatlast,andthencamethemusicandthesingers,butMeriamun,makingexcuse,roseandwentout,attendedbyherladies。AndIalso,wearyandsadatheart,passedthencetomyownchamberandbusiedmyselfwiththeinstrumentsofmyart,for,stranger,Ibuildthehousesofgodsandkings。 “Presently,asIsat,therecameaknockingatthedoor,andawomanenteredwrappedinaheavycloak。Sheputasidethecloak,andbeforemewasMeriamuninallherbridalrobes。 “’Heedmenot,Rei,’shesaid,’Iamyetfreeforanhour;andIwouldwatchtheeatthylabour。Nay,itismyhumour;gainsaymenot,forI lovewelltolookonthatwrinkledfaceofthine,scoredbythecunningchiselofthyknowledgeandthyyears。SofromachildhaveI watchedtheetracingtheshapesofmightytemplesthatshallendurewhenourselves,andperchancetheveryGodsweworship,havelongsinceceasedtobe。Ah,Rei,thouwiseman,thineisthebetterpart,forthoubuildestincoldenduringstoneandattirestthywallsasthyfancybidsthee。ButI——Ibuildinthedustofhumanhearts,andmywilliswrittenintheirdust。WhenIamdead,raisemeatombmorebeautifulthaneverhasbeenknown,andwriteupontheportal,/Here,inthelasttempleofherpride,dwellsthattiredbuilder,Meriamun,theQueen/。’ “Thusshetalkedwildlyinwordswithlittlereason。 “’Nay,speaknotso,’Isaid,’forisitnotthybridalnight?Whatdostthouhereatsuchatime?’ “’WhatdoIhere?SurelyIcometobeachildagain!See,Rei,inallwideKhemthereisnowomansoshamed,solost,soutterlyundoneasisto-nighttheRoyalMeriamun,whomthoulovest。Iamlowerthanshewhopliesthestreetforbread,fortheloftierthespiritthegreateristhefall。Iamsoldintoshame,andpowerismyprice。Oh,cursedbethefateofwomanwhoonlybyherbeautycanbegreat。Oh,cursedbethatancientCounsellorthouwottestof,andcursedbeIwhowakenedThatwhichslept,andwarmedThatwhichwasa-coldinmybreathandinmybreast!Andcursedbethissintowhichheledme! Spurnme,Rei;strikemeonthecheek,spituponme,onMeriamun,theRoyalharlotwhosellsherselftowinacrown。Oh,Ihatehim,hatehim,andIwillpayhiminshameforshame——him,theclowninking’sattire。Seehere,’——andfromherrobeshedrewawhiteflowerthatwasknowntoherandme——’twiceto-dayhaveIbeenmindedwiththisdeadlyblossomtomakeanendofme,andofallmyshame,andallmyemptygreedofglory。Butthisthoughthasheldmyhand:I,Meriamun,willlivetolookacrosshisgraveandbreakhisimages,andbeatoutthewritingsofhisnamefromeverytemplewallinKhem,astheybeatoutthehatednameofHatshepu。I——’andsuddenlysheburstintoarainoftears;shewhowasnotwonttoweep。 “’Nay,touchmenot,’shesaid。’Theywerebuttearsofanger。 MeriamunismistressofherFate,notFateofMeriamun。Andnow,mylordawaitsme,andImustbegone。Kissmeonthebrow,oldfriend,whilstyetIamtheMeriamunthouknewest,andthenkissmenomoreforever。Attheleastthisiswellforthee,forwhenMeriamunisQueenofKhemthoushaltbefirstinalltheland,andstandonthefootstepsofmythrone。Farewell。’Andshegatheredupherraimentandcastherwhiteflowerofdeathintheflameofthebrazier,andwasgone,leavingmeyetsadderatheart。FornowIknewthatshewasnotasotherwomenare,butgreaterforgoodorevil。 “OnthemorrownightIsatagainatmytask,andagaintherecameaknockingatthedoor,andagainawomanenteredandthrewasideherwrappings。ItwasMeriamun。Shewaspaleandstern,andasIroseshewavedmeback。 “’Has,then,thePrince——thyhusband——’Istammered。 “’SpeaknottomeofthePrince,Rei,myservant,’shemadeanswer。 ’YesterdayIspoketotheewildly,mymindwasoverwrought;letitbeforgotten——awifeamI,ahappywife’;andshesmiledsostrangelythatIshrunkbackfromher。 “’Nowtomyerrand。Ihavedreamedadream,atroublousdream,andthouartwiseandinstructed,thereforeIpraytheeinterpretmyvision。Isleptanddreamedofaman,andinmydreamIlovedhimmorethanIcantell。Formyheartbeattohisheart,andinthelightofhimIlived,andallmysoulwashis,andIknewthatIlovedhimforever。AndPharaohwasmyhusband;but,inmydream,Ilovedhimnot。 Nowtherecameawomanrisingoutofthesea,morebeautifulthanI,withabeautyfairerandmorechangefulthanthedawnuponthemountains;andshe,too,lovedthisgodlikeman,andhelovedher。 Thenwestrovetogetherforhislove,matchingbeautyagainstbeauty,andwitagainstwit,andmagicagainstmagic。Nowoneconquered,andnowtheother;butintheendthevictorywasmine,andIwentarrayedasforamarriage-bed——andIclaspedacorpse。 “’Iwoke,andagainIslept,andsawmyselfwearinganothergarb,andspeakinganothertongue。BeforemewasthemanIloved,andthere,too,wasthewoman,wrappedaboutwithbeauty,andIwaschanged,andyetIwastheveryMeriamunthouseest。Andoncemorewestruggledforthemasteryandforthisman’slove,andinthatdaysheconqueredme。 “’Islept,andagainIwoke,andinanotherlandthanKhem——astrangeland,andyetmethoughtIknewitfromlongago。ThereIdweltamongthegraves,anddarkfaceswereaboutme,andIworeThatthouknowestforagirdle。Andthetombsoftherockwhereinwedweltwerescoredwiththewritingsofadeadtongue——thetongueofthatlandwhenceourfatherscame。Wewereallchanged,yetthesame,andoncemorethewomanandIstruggledforthemastery,andthoughIseemedtoconquer,yetaseaoffirecameoverme,andIwokeandIsleptagain。