第23章

类别:其他 作者:Henry Rider Haggard字数:3516更新时间:18/12/27 08:10:05
“Atleast,haditnotbeenforthisIdunayouwouldneverhavegivenbattletothegreatgodoftheNorthandthusbroughthiscurseuponyou。For,Olaf,thosegodslive;theyaredevils。“ “WhetherOdinisorisnot,Idonotfearhiscurse,Empress。“ “Yetitwillfindyououtbeforeallisdone,orsoIthink。Lookyou,paganbloodstillrunsinme,and,ChristianthoughIam,IwouldnotdareoneofthegreatgodsofGreeceandRome。I’dleavethattothepriests。Doyoufearnothing,Olaf?“ “Ithinknothingatall,sinceIhewedoffOdin’sheadandcameawayunscathed。“ “Thenyouareamantomyliking,Olaf。“ Shepaused,lookingatmeevenmorestrangelythanbefore,tillI turnedmyeyes,indeed,andstaredoutatthesea,wishingthatIwereinit,oranywhereawayfromthislovelyandimperiouswomanwhomI wassworntoobeyinallthings。 “Olaf,“shesaidpresently,“youhaveservedmewelloflate。Isthereanyrewardthatyouwouldask,andifso,what?AnythingthatIcangiveisyours,unless,“sheaddedhastily,“thegiftwilltakeyouawayfromConstantinopleandfrom——me。“ “Yes,Augusta,“Ianswered,stillstaringoutatthesea。“IntheprisonyonderisanoldbishopnamedBarnabasofEgypt,whowassetuponbyotherbishopsattheCouncilwhileyouwereawayandwellnighbeatentodeath。Iaskthathemaybefreedandrestoredtohisdiocesewithhonour。“ “Barnabas,“sherepliedsharply。“Iknowtheman。HeisanIconoclast,andthereforemyenemy。OnlythismorningIsignedanorderthatheshouldbekeptinconfinementtillhedied,hereorelsewhere。Still,“ shewenton,“thoughIwouldsoonergiveyouaprovince,haveyourgift,forIcanrefuseyounothing。Barnabasshallbefreedandrestoredtohisseewithhonour。Ihavesaid。“ NowIbegantothankher,butshestoppedme,saying: “Havedone!Anothertimeyoucantalktomeofhereticswithwhomyouhavemadefriends,butI,whohearenoughofsuch,wouldhavenomoreofthemto-night。“ SoIgrewsilentandstillstaredoutatthesea。Indeed,IwaswonderinginmymindwhetherIdaredaskleavetodepart,forIfelthereyesburningonme,andgrewmuchafraid。SuddenlyIheardasound,agentlesoundofrustlingsilk,andinanotherinstantIfeltIrene’sarmsclaspedaboutmeandIrene’sheadlaiduponmyknee。Yes,shewaskneelingbeforeme,sobbing,andherproudheadwasrestingonmyknee。Thediademsheworehadfallenfromit,andhertresses,breakingloose,flowedtotheground,andlaytheregleaminglikegoldinthemoonlight。 Shelookedup,andherfacewasthatofaweepingsaint。 “Dostunderstand?“shewhispered。 Nowdespairtookme,whichIknewfullwellwouldsoonbefollowedbymadness。Thencameathought。 “Yes,“Isaidhoarsely。“IunderstandthatyougrieveoverthatmatteroftheAugustusandthepoisonedfigs,andwouldpraymetokeepsilence。Havenofear,mylipsaresealed,butforhisIcannotanswer,thoughperhapsashehaddrunksomuch——“ “Fool!“shewhispered。“IsitthusthatanEmpresspleadswithhercaptaintokeepsilence?“Thenshedrewherselfup,awonderfullookuponherfacethathadgrownsuddenlywhite,afireinherupturnedeyes,andforthesecondtimekissedmeuponthelips。 Itookherinmyarmsandkissedherback。Foraninstantmymindswam。TheninmysoulIcriedforhelp,andstrengthcametome。 Rising,Iliftedherasthoughshewereachild,andstoodheronherfeet。Isaid: “Hearken,Empress,beforedestructionfalls。Idounderstandnow,thoughamomentagoIdidnot,whoneverthoughtitpossiblethatthequeenoftheworldcouldlookwithfavourupononesohumble。“ “Lovetakesnoaccountofrank,“shemurmured,“andthatkissofyoursuponmylipsismoretomethantheempireoftheworld。“ “Yethearken,“Ianswered。“Thereisanotherwallbetweenuswhichmaynotbeclimbed。“ “Man,whatisthiswall?Isitnamedwoman?AreyousworntothememoryofthatIduna,whoismorefairthanI?Orisit,perchance,herofthenecklace?“ “Neither。Idunaisdeadtome;sheofthenecklaceisbutadream。Thewallisthatofyourownfaith。OnthisnightsevendaysagoIwasbaptisedaChristian。“ “Well,whatofit?Thisdrawsusnearer。“ “Studythesayingsofyoursacredbook,Empress,andyouwillfindthatitthrustsusapart。“ Nowshecolouredtoherhair,andakindofmadnesstookher。 “AmItobepreachedtobyyou?“sheasked。 “Ipreachtomyself,Augusta,whoneeditgreatly,nottoyou,whomayhapdonotneedit。“ “Hatingmeasyoudo,whyshouldyouneedit?Youaretheworstofhypocrites,whowouldveilyourhateunderapriest’srobe。“ “Haveyounopity,Irene?WhendidIsaythatIhatedyou?Moreover,ifIhadhatedyou,shouldI——“andIceased。 “Idonotknowwhatyouwouldorwouldnothavedone,“sheansweredcoldly。“IthinkthatConstantineisright,andthatyoumustbewhatiscalledasaint;and,ifso,saintsarebestinheaven,especiallywhentheyknowtoomuchonearth。Givemethatswordofyours。“ Idrewthesword,salutedwithit,andgaveittoher。 “Itisaheavyweapon,“shesaid。“Whencecameit?“ “Fromthesamegraveasthenecklace,Augusta。“ “Ah!thenecklacethatyourdream-womanwore。Well,gotoseekherinthelandofdreams,“andsheliftedthesword。 “Yourpardon,Augusta,butyouareabouttostrikewiththebluntedge,whichmaywoundbutwillnotkill。“ Shelaughedalittle,verynervously,and,turningtheswordroundinherhand,said: “Truly,youarethestrangestofmen!Ah!Ithankyou,nowIhaveitright。Doyouunderstand,Olaf,Imean,SirSaint,whatsortofastoryImusttellofyouafterIhavestruck?Doyouunderstandthatnotonlyareyouabouttodie,butthatinfamywillbepoureduponyournameandthatyourbodywillbedraggedthroughthestreetsandthrowntothedogswiththecityoffal?Answer,Isay,answer!“ “Iunderstandthatyoumustcausethesethingstobedoneforyourownsake,Augusta,andIdonotcomplain。Liesmatternothingtome,whojourneytotheLandofTruth,wheretherearesomewhomIwouldmeetagain。Beadvisedbyme。Strikehere,wheretheneckjoinstheshoulder,holdingtheswordslantwise,forthereevenawoman’sblowwillservetoseverthegreatartery。“ “Icannot。Killyourself,Olaf。“ “AweekagoI’dhavefallenonthesword;butnow,bytheruleofourfaith,insuchacauseImaynot。Mybloodmustbeuponyourhands,forwhichIgrieve,knowingthatnootherroadisopentoyou。 Augusta,ifitisworthanythingtoyou,takemyfullforgivenessforthedeed,andwithitmythanksforallthegoodnessyouhaveshowntome,butmostforyourwoman’sfavour。Inafteryears,perhaps,whendeathdrawsneartoyoualso,ifeveryourememberOlaf,yourfaithfulservant,youwillunderstandmuchitisnotfittingthatIshouldsay。 GivemeonemomenttomakemypeacewithHeavenastocertainkisses。 Thenstrikehardandswiftly,and,asyoustrike,screamforyourguardsandwomen。Yourwitwilldotherest。“ Sheliftedthesword,while,afteramoment’sprayer,Ibaredmyneckofthesilkrobe。Thensheletitfallagain,gasping,andsaid: “Tellmefirst,forIamcurious。Areyounoman?Orhaveyouforswornwoman,asdothemonks?“ “NotI,Augusta。HadIlived,somedayImighthavemarried,whowouldhavewishedtoleavechildrenbehindme,sinceinourlawmarriageisallowed。ForgetnotyourpromiseastotheBishopBarnabas,who,I fear,willweepoverthisseemingfallofmine。“ “Soyouwouldmarry,wouldyou?“shesaid,asonewhospeakstoherself;thenthoughtawhile,andhandedmebackthesword。 “Olaf,“shewenton,“youhavemademefeelasIneverfeltbefore—— ashamed,utterlyashamed,andthoughIlearntohateyou,asitwellmayhapIshall,knowthatIshallalwayshonouryou。“ Thenshesankdownuponthecouch,and,hidingherfaceinherhands,weptbitterly。 ItwasatthismomentthatIwentveryneartolovingIrene。 Ithinkshemusthavefeltsomethingofwhatwaspassinginmymind,forsuddenlyshelookedupandsaid:“Givemethatjewel,“andshepointedtothediademonthefloor,“andhelpmetoordermyhair;myhandsshake。“