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类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:6307更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
AsthestreetsthatleadfromtheStrandtotheEmbankmentareverynarrow,itisbetternottowalkdownthemarm-in-arm。 Ifyoupersist,lawyers’clerkswillhavetomakeflyingleapsintothemud;youngladytypistswillhavetofidgetbehindyou。 InthestreetsofLondonwherebeautygoesunregarded,eccentricitymustpaythepenalty,anditisbetternottobeverytall,towearalongbluecloak,ortobeattheairwithyourlefthand。 OneafternooninthebeginningofOctoberwhenthetrafficwasbecomingbriskatallmanstrodealongtheedgeofthepavementwithaladyonhisarm。Angryglancesstruckupontheirbacks。 Thesmall,agitatedfigures——forincomparisonwiththiscouplemostpeoplelookedsmall——decoratedwithfountainpens,andburdenedwithdespatch-boxes,hadappointmentstokeep,anddrewaweeklysalary,sothattherewassomereasonfortheunfriendlystarewhichwasbestoweduponMr。Ambrose’sheightanduponMrs。Ambrose’scloak。 Butsomeenchantmenthadputbothmanandwomanbeyondthereachofmaliceandunpopularity。Inhisguessonemightguessfromthemovinglipsthatitwasthought;andinhersfromtheeyesfixedstonilystraightinfrontofheratalevelabovetheeyesofmostthatitwassorrow。 Itwasonlybyscorningallshemetthatshekeptherselffromtears,andthefrictionofpeoplebrushingpastherwasevidentlypainful。 AfterwatchingthetrafficontheEmbankmentforaminuteortwowithastoicalgazeshetwitchedherhusband’ssleeve,andtheycrossedbetweentheswiftdischargeofmotorcars。Whentheyweresafeonthefurtherside,shegentlywithdrewherarmfromhis,allowinghermouthatthesametimetorelax,totremble;thentearsrolleddown,andleaningherelbowsonthebalustrade,sheshieldedherfacefromthecurious。Mr。Ambroseattemptedconsolation; hepattedhershoulder;butsheshowednosignsofadmittinghim,andfeelingitawkwardtostandbesideagriefthatwasgreaterthanhis,hecrossedhisarmsbehindhim,andtookaturnalongthepavement。 Theembankmentjutsoutinangleshereandthere,likepulpits; insteadofpreachers,however,smallboysoccupythem,danglingstring,droppingpebbles,orlaunchingwadsofpaperforacruise。 Withtheirsharpeyeforeccentricity,theywereinclinedtothinkMr。Ambroseawful;butthequickestwittedcried“Bluebeard!“ ashepassed。Incasetheyshouldproceedtoteasehiswife,Mr。Ambroseflourishedhisstickatthem,uponwhichtheydecidedthathewasgrotesquemerely,andfourinsteadofonecried“Bluebeard!“inchorus。 AlthoughMrs。Ambrosestoodquitestill,muchlongerthanisnatural,thelittleboysletherbe。SomeoneisalwayslookingintotherivernearWaterlooBridge;acouplewillstandtheretalkingforhalfanhouronafineafternoon;mostpeople,walkingforpleasure,contemplateforthreeminutes;when,havingcomparedtheoccasionwithotheroccasions,ormadesomesentence,theypasson。SometimestheflatsandchurchesandhotelsofWestminsterareliketheoutlinesofConstantinopleinamist;sometimestheriverisanopulentpurple,sometimesmud-coloured,sometimessparklingbluelikethesea。 Itisalwaysworthwhiletolookdownandseewhatishappening。 Butthisladylookedneitherupnordown;theonlythingshehadseen,sinceshestoodthere,wasacirculariridescentpatchslowlyfloatingpastwithastrawinthemiddleofit。Thestrawandthepatchswamagainandagainbehindthetremulousmediumofagreatwellingtear,andthetearroseandfellanddroppedintotheriver。Thentherestruckcloseuponherears—— LarsPorsenaofClusiumBythenineGodsheswore—— andthenmorefaintly,asifthespeakerhadpassedheronhiswalk—— ThattheGreatHouseofTarquinShouldsufferwrongnomore。 Yes,sheknewshemustgobacktoallthat,butatpresentshemustweep。 Screeningherfaceshesobbedmoresteadilythanshehadyetdone,hershouldersrisingandfallingwithgreatregularity。Itwasthisfigurethatherhusbandsawwhen,havingreachedthepolishedSphinx,havingentangledhimselfwithamansellingpicturepostcards,heturned; thestanzainstantlystopped。Hecameuptoher,laidhishandonhershoulder,andsaid,“Dearest。“Hisvoicewassupplicating。 Butsheshutherfaceawayfromhim,asmuchastosay,“Youcan’tpossiblyunderstand。“ Ashedidnotleaveher,however,shehadtowipehereyes,andtoraisethemtothelevelofthefactorychimneysontheotherbank。 ShesawalsothearchesofWaterlooBridgeandthecartsmovingacrossthem,likethelineofanimalsinashootinggallery。 Theywereseenblankly,buttoseeanythingwasofcoursetoendherweepingandbegintowalk。 “Iwouldratherwalk,“shesaid,herhusbandhavinghailedacabalreadyoccupiedbytwocitymen。 Thefixityofhermoodwasbrokenbytheactionofwalking。 Theshootingmotorcars,morelikespidersinthemoonthanterrestrialobjects,thethunderingdrays,thejinglinghansoms,andlittleblackbroughams,madeherthinkoftheworldshelivedin。 Somewhereupthereabovethepinnacleswherethesmokeroseinapointedhill,herchildrenwerenowaskingforher,andgettingasoothingreply。Asforthemassofstreets,squares,andpublicbuildingswhichpartedthem,sheonlyfeltatthismomenthowlittleLondonhaddonetomakeherloveit,althoughthirtyofherfortyyearshadbeenspentinastreet。Sheknewhowtoreadthepeoplewhowerepassingher;thereweretherichwhowererunningtoandfromeachothers’housesatthishour;therewerethebigotedworkersdrivinginastraightlinetotheiroffices;therewerethepoorwhowereunhappyandrightlymalignant。Already,thoughtherewassunlightinthehaze,tatteredoldmenandwomenwerenoddingofftosleepupontheseats。Whenonegaveupseeingthebeautythatclothedthings,thiswastheskeletonbeneath。 Afinerainnowmadeherstillmoredismal;vanswiththeoddnamesofthoseengagedinoddindustries——Sprules,ManufacturerofSaw-dust;Grabb,towhomnopieceofwastepapercomesamiss—— fellflatasabadjoke;boldlovers,shelteredbehindonecloak,seemedtohersordid,pasttheirpassion;theflowerwomen,acontentedcompany,whosetalkisalwaysworthhearing,weresoddenhags; thered,yellow,andblueflowers,whoseheadswerepressedtogether,wouldnotblaze。Moreover,herhusbandwalkingwithaquickrhythmicstride,jerkinghisfreehandoccasionally,waseitheraVikingorastrickenNelson;thesea-gullshadchangedhisnote。 “Ridley,shallwedrive?Shallwedrive,Ridley?“ Mrs。Ambrosehadtospeaksharply;bythistimehewasfaraway。 Thecab,bytrottingsteadilyalongthesameroad,soonwithdrewthemfromtheWestEnd,andplungedthemintoLondon。Itappearedthatthiswasagreatmanufacturingplace,wherethepeoplewereengagedinmakingthings,asthoughtheWestEnd,withitselectriclamps,itsvastplate-glasswindowsallshiningyellow,itscarefully-finishedhouses,andtinylivefigurestrottingonthepavement,orbowledalongonwheelsintheroad,wasthefinishedwork。Itappearedtoheraverysmallbitofworkforsuchanenormousfactorytohavemade。Forsomereasonitappearedtoherasasmallgoldentasselontheedgeofavastblackcloak。 Observingthattheypassednootherhansomcab,butonlyvansandwaggons,andthatnotoneofthethousandmenandwomenshesawwaseitheragentlemanoralady,Mrs。Ambroseunderstoodthatafterallitistheordinarythingtobepoor,andthatLondonisthecityofinnumerablepoorpeople。StartledbythisdiscoveryandseeingherselfpacingacircleallthedaysofherliferoundPicadillyCircusshewasgreatlyrelievedtopassabuildingputupbytheLondonCountyCouncilforNightSchools。 “Lord,howgloomyitis!“herhusbandgroaned。“Poorcreatures!“ Whatwiththemiseryforherchildren,thepoor,andtherain,hermindwaslikeawoundexposedtodryintheair。 Atthispointthecabstopped,foritwasindangerofbeingcrushedlikeanegg-shell。ThewideEmbankmentwhichhadhadroomforcannonballsandsquadrons,hadnowshrunktoacobbledlanesteamingwithsmellsofmaltandoilandblockedbywaggons。 WhileherhusbandreadtheplacardspastedonthebrickannouncingthehoursatwhichcertainshipswouldsailforScotland,Mrs。Ambrosedidherbesttofindinformation。Fromaworldexclusivelyoccupiedinfeedingwaggonswithsacks,halfobliteratedtooinafineyellowfog,theygotneitherhelpnorattention。 Itseemedamiraclewhenanoldmanapproached,guessedtheircondition,andproposedtorowthemouttotheirshipinthelittleboatwhichhekeptmooredatthebottomofaflightofsteps。Withsomehesitationtheytrustedthemselvestohim,tooktheirplaces,andweresoonwavingupanddownuponthewater,Londonhavingshrunktotwolinesofbuildingsoneithersideofthem,squarebuildingsandoblongbuildingsplacedinrowslikeachild’savenueofbricks。 Theriver,whichhadacertainamountoftroubledyellowlightinit,ranwithgreatforce;bulkybargesfloateddownswiftlyescortedbytugs; policeboatsshotpasteverything;thewindwentwiththecurrent。 Theopenrowing-boatinwhichtheysatbobbedandcurtseyedacrossthelineoftraffic。Inmid-streamtheoldmanstayedhishandsupontheoars,andasthewaterrushedpastthem,remarkedthatoncehehadtakenmanypassengersacross,wherenowhetookscarcelyany。 Heseemedtorecallanagewhenhisboat,mooredamongrushes,carrieddelicatefeetacrosstolawnsatRotherhithe。 “Theywantbridgesnow,“hesaid,indicatingthemonstrousoutlineoftheTowerBridge。MournfullyHelenregardedhim,whowasputtingwaterbetweenherandherchildren。Mournfullyshegazedattheshiptheywereapproaching;anchoredinthemiddleofthestreamtheycoulddimlyreadhername——_Euphrosyne_。 Verydimlyinthefallingdusktheycouldseethelinesoftherigging,themastsandthedarkflagwhichthebreezeblewoutsquarelybehind。 Asthelittleboatsidleduptothesteamer,andtheoldmanshippedhisoars,heremarkedoncemorepointingabove,thatshipsalltheworldoverflewthatflagthedaytheysailed。Inthemindsofboththepassengerstheblueflagappearedasinistertoken,andthisthemomentforpresentiments,butneverthelesstheyrose,gatheredtheirthingstogether,andclimbedondeck。 Downinthesaloonofherfather’sship,MissRachelVinrace,agedtwenty-four,stoodwaitingheruncleandauntnervously。 Tobeginwith,thoughnearlyrelated,shescarcelyrememberedthem; togoonwith,theywereelderlypeople,andfinally,asherfather’sdaughtershemustbeinsomesortpreparedtoentertainthem。 Shelookedforwardtoseeingthemascivilisedpeoplegenerallylookforwardtothefirstsightofcivilisedpeople,asthoughtheywereofthenatureofanapproachingphysicaldiscomfort—— atightshoeoradraughtywindow。Shewasalreadyunnaturallybracedtoreceivethem。Assheoccupiedherselfinlayingforksseverelystraightbythesideofknives,sheheardaman’svoicesayinggloomily: “Onadarknightonewouldfalldownthesestairsheadforemost,“ towhichawoman’svoiceadded,“Andbekilled。“ Asshespokethelastwordsthewomanstoodinthedoorway。Tall,large-eyed,drapedinpurpleshawls,Mrs。Ambrosewasromanticandbeautiful; notperhapssympathetic,forhereyeslookedstraightandconsideredwhattheysaw。HerfacewasmuchwarmerthanaGreekface;ontheotherhanditwasmuchbolderthanthefaceoftheusualprettyEnglishwoman。 “Oh,Rachel,howd’youdo,“shesaid,shakinghands。 “Howareyou,dear,“saidMr。Ambrose,inclininghisforeheadtobekissed。Hisnieceinstinctivelylikedhisthinangularbody,andthebigheadwithitssweepingfeatures,andtheacute,innocenteyes。 “TellMr。Pepper,“Rachelbadetheservant。Husbandandwifethensatdownononesideofthetable,withtheirnieceoppositetothem。 “Myfathertoldmetobegin,“sheexplained。“Heisverybusywiththemen……YouknowMr。Pepper?“ Alittlemanwhowasbentassometreesarebyagaleononesideofthemhadslippedin。NoddingtoMr。Ambrose,heshookhandswithHelen。 “Draughts,“hesaid,erectingthecollarofhiscoat。 “Youarestillrheumatic?“askedHelen。Hervoicewaslowandseductive,thoughshespokeabsentlyenough,thesightoftownandriverbeingstillpresenttohermind。 “Oncerheumatic,alwaysrheumatic,Ifear,“hereplied。“Tosomeextentitdependsontheweather,thoughnotsomuchaspeopleareapttothink。“ “Onedoesnotdieofit,atanyrate,“saidHelen。 “Asageneralrule——no,“saidMr。Pepper。 “Soup,UncleRidley?“askedRachel。 “Thankyou,dear,“hesaid,and,asheheldhisplateout,sighedaudibly,“Ah!she’snotlikehermother。“HelenwasjusttoolateinthumpinghertumbleronthetabletopreventRachelfromhearing,andfromblushingscarletwithembarrassment。 “Thewayservantstreatflowers!“shesaidhastily。Shedrewagreenvasewithacrinkledliptowardsher,andbeganpullingoutthetightlittlechrysanthemums,whichshelaidonthetable-cloth,arrangingthemfastidiouslysidebyside。 Therewasapause。 “YouknewJenkinson,didn’tyou,Ambrose?“askedMr。Pepperacrossthetable。 “JenkinsonofPeterhouse?“ “He’sdead,“saidMr。Pepper。 “Ah,dear!——Iknewhim——agesago,“saidRidley。“Hewastheheroofthepuntaccident,youremember?Aqueercard。Marriedayoungwomanoutofatobacconist’s,andlivedintheFens——neverheardwhatbecameofhim。“ “Drink——drugs,“saidMr。Pepperwithsinisterconciseness。 “Heleftacommentary。Hopelessmuddle,I’mtold。“ “Themanhadreallygreatabilities,“saidRidley。 “HisintroductiontoJellabyholdsitsownstill,“wentonMr。Pepper,“whichissurprising,seeinghowtext-bookschange。“ “Therewasatheoryabouttheplanets,wasn’tthere?“askedRidley。 “Ascrewloosesomewhere,nodoubtofit,“saidMr。Pepper,shakinghishead。 Nowatremorranthroughthetable,andalightoutsideswerved。 Atthesametimeanelectricbellrangsharplyagainandagain。 “We’reoff,“saidRidley。 Aslightbutperceptiblewaveseemedtorollbeneaththefloor; thenitsank;thenanothercame,moreperceptible。Lightsslidrightacrosstheuncurtainedwindow。Theshipgavealoudmelancholymoan。 “We’reoff!“saidMr。Pepper。Otherships,assadasshe,answeredheroutsideontheriver。Thechucklingandhissingofwatercouldbeplainlyheard,andtheshipheavedsothatthestewardbringingplateshadtobalancehimselfashedrewthecurtain。