第27章

类别:其他 作者:Linda Lael Miller字数:3645更新时间:18/12/26 17:01:03
Thattimidityoughttoexplainhischildhood,youth,andafter-lifetothosewhoarereluctanttoadmittheexistenceofsuchcharacters,orsuchfactsasthishistoryrelates,——thoughproofsofthemare,alas,commoneverywhere,evenamongprinces;forSophieDaweswastakenbythelastoftheCondesunderworsecircumstancesthantheRabouilleuse。Therearetwospeciesoftimidity,——thetimidityofthemind,andthetimidityofthenerves;aphysicaltimidity,andamoraltimidity。Theoneisindependentoftheother。Thebodymayfearandtremble,whilethemindiscalmandcourageous,orviceversa。Thisisthekeytomanymoraleccentricities。Whenthetwoareunitedinoneman,thatmanwillbeacipherallhislife;suchdouble-sidedtimiditymakeshimwhatwecall“animbecile。“Oftenfinesuppressedqualitiesarehiddenwithinthatimbecile。Tothisdoubleinfirmitywemay,perhaps,owethelivesofcertainmonkswholivedinecstasy;forthisunfortunatemoralandphysicaldispositionisproducedquiteasmuchbytheperfectionofthesoulandoftheorgans,asbydefectswhicharestillunstudied。 ThetimidityofJean-Jacquescamefromacertaintorporofhisfaculties,whichagreatteacheroragreatsurgeon,likeDespleins,wouldhaveroused。Inhim,asinthecretins,thesenseoflovehadinheritedastrengthandvigorwhichwerelackingtohismentalqualities,thoughhehadmindenoughtoguidehiminordinaryaffairs。 Theviolenceofpassion,strippedoftheidealinwhichmostyoungmenexpendit,onlyincreasedhistimidity。Hehadneverbroughthimselftocourt,asthesayingis,anywomaninIssoudun。Certainlynoyounggirlormatronwouldmakeadvancestoayoungmanofmeanstature,awkwardandshame-facedinattitude;whosevulgarface,withitsflattenedfeaturesandpallidskin,makinghimlookoldbeforehistime,wasrenderedstillmorehideousbyapairoflargeandprominentlight-greeneyes。Thepresenceofawomanstultifiedthepoorfellow,whowasdrivenbypassionontheonehandasviolentlyasthelackofideas,resultingfromhiseducation,heldhimbackontheother。 Paralyzedbetweentheseopposingforces,hehadnotawordtosay,andfearedtobespokento,somuchdidhedreadtheobligationofreplying。Desire,whichusuallysetsfreethetongue,onlypetrifiedhispowersofspeech。ThusithappenedthatJean-JacquesRougetwassolitaryandsoughtsolitudebecausetherealonehewasathisease。 Thedoctorhadseen,toolateforremedy,thehavocwroughtinhisson’slifebyatemperamentandacharacterofthiskind。Hewouldhavebeengladtogethimmarried;buttodothat,hemustdeliverhimovertoaninfluencethatwascertaintobecometyrannical,andthedoctorhesitated。Wasitnotpracticallygivingthewholemanagementofthepropertyintothehandsofastranger,someunknowngirl?Thedoctorknewhowdifficultitwastogaintrueindicationsofthemoralcharacterofawomanfromanystudyofayounggirl。So,whilehecontinuedtosearchforadaughter-in-lawwhosesentimentsandeducationofferedsomeguaranteesforthefuture,heendeavoredtopushhissonintothewaysofavarice;meaningtogivethepoorfoolasortofinstinctthatmighteventuallytaketheplaceofintelligence。 Hetrainedhim,inthefirstplace,tomechanicalhabitsoflife;andinstilledintohimfixedideasastotheinvestmentofhisrevenues: andhesparedhimthechiefdifficultiesofthemanagementofafortune,byleavinghisestatesallingoodorder,andleasedforlongperiods。Nevertheless,afactwhichwasdestinedtobeofparamountimportanceinthelifeofthepoorcreatureescapedthenoticeofthewilyolddoctor。Timidityisagooddeallikedissimulation,andisequallysecretive。Jean-JacqueswaspassionatelyinlovewiththeRabouilleuse。Nothing,ofcourse,couldbemorenatural。Florewastheonlywomanwholivedinthebachelor’spresence,theonlyonehecouldseeathisease;andatallhourshesecretlycontemplatedherandwatchedher。Tohim,shewasthelightofhispaternalhome;shegavehim,unknowntoherself,theonlypleasuresthatbrightenedhisyouth。 Farfrombeingjealousofhisfather,herejoicedintheeducationtheoldmanwasgivingtoFlore:woulditnotmakeherallhewanted,awomaneasytowin,andtowhom,therefore,heneedpaynocourt?Thepassion,observe,whichisabletoreflect,giveseventoninnies,fools,andimbecilesaspeciesofintelligence,especiallyinyouth。 Inthelowesthumancreaturewefindananimalinstinctwhosepersistencyresemblesthought。 Thenextday,Flore,whohadbeenreflectingonhermaster’ssilence,waitedinexpectationofsomemomentouscommunication;butalthoughhekeptnearher,andlookedatherontheslywithpassionateglances,Jean-Jacquesstillfoundnothingtosay。Atlast,whenthedessertwasonthetable,herecommencedthesceneofthenightbefore。 “Youlikeyourlifehere?“hesaidtoFlore。 “Yes,MonsieurJean。“ “Well,stayherethen。“ “Thankyou,MonsieurJean。“ Thisstrangesituationlastedthreeweeks。Onenight,whennosoundbrokethestillnessofthehouse,Flore,whochancedtowakeup,heardtheregularbreathingofhumanlungsoutsideherdoor,andwasfrightenedtodiscoverJean-Jacques,crouchedlikeadogonthelanding。 “Helovesme,“shethought;“buthewillgettherheumatismifhekeepsupthatsortofthing。“ ThenextdayFlorelookedathermasterwithacertainexpression。 Thismutealmostinstinctivelovehadtouchedher;shenolongerthoughtthepoorninnysougly,thoughhisforeheadwascrownedwithpimplesresemblingulcers,thesignsofavitiatedblood。 “Youdon’twanttogobackandliveinthefields,doyou?“saidJean- Jacqueswhentheywerealone。 “Whydoyouaskmethat?“shesaid,lookingathim。 “Toknow——“repliedRouget,turningthecolorofaboiledlobster。 “Doyouwishtosendmeback?“sheasked。 “No,mademoiselle。“ “Well,whatisityouwanttoknow?Youhavesomereason——“ “Yes,Iwanttoknow——“ “What?“saidFlore。 “Youwon’ttellme?“exclaimedRouget。 “YesIwill,onmyhonor——“ “Ah!that’sit,“returnedRouget,withafrightenedair。“Areyouanhonestgirl?“ “I’lltakemyoath——“ “Areyou,truly?“ “Don’tyouhearmetellyouso?“ “Come;areyouthesameasyouwerewhenyourunclebroughtyouherebarefooted?“ “Afinequestion,faith!“criedFlore,blushing。 Theheirloweredhisheadanddidnotraiseitagain。Flore,amazedatsuchanencouragingsignfromamanwhohadbeenovercomebyafearofthatnature,lefttheroom。 Threedayslater,atthesamehour(forbothseemedtoregardthedessertasafieldofbattle),Florespokefirst,andsaidtohermaster,—— “Haveyouanythingagainstme?“ “No,mademoiselle,“heanswered,“No——“[apause]“Onthecontrary。“ “YouseemedannoyedtheotherdaytohearIwasanhonestgirl。“ “No,Ionlywishedtoknow——“[apause]“Butyouwouldnottellme——“ “Onmyword!“shesaid,“Iwilltellyouthewholetruth。“ “Thewholetruthabout——myfather?“heaskedinastrangledvoice。 “Yourfather,“shesaid,lookingfullintohermaster’seye,“wasaworthyman——helikedajoke——Whatofthat?——therewasnothinginit。 But,poordearman,itwasn’tthewillthatwaswanting。Thetruthis,hehadsomespiteagainstyou,Idon’tknowwhat,andhemeant——oh!hemeantyouharm。Sometimeshemademelaugh;butthere!whatofthat?“ “Well,Flore,“saidtheheir,takingherhand,“asmyfatherwasnothingtoyou——“ “Whatdidyousupposehewastome?“shecried,asifoffendedbysomeunworthysuspicion“Well,butjustlisten——“ “Hewasmybenefactor,thatwasall。Ah!hewouldhavelikedtomakemehiswife,but——“ “But,“saidRouget,takingthehandwhichFlorehadsnatchedawayfromhim,“ifhewasnothingtoyouyoucanstayherewithme,can’tyou?“ “Ifyouwishit,“shesaid,droppinghereyes。 “No,no!ifyouwishit,you!“exclaimedRouget。“Yes,youshallbe—— mistresshere。Allthatishereshallbeyours;youshalltakecareofmyproperty,itisalmostyoursnow——forIloveyou;Ihavealwayslovedyousincethedayyoucameandstoodthere——there!——withbarefeet。“ Floremadenoanswer。Whenthesilencebecameembarrassing,Jean- Jacqueshadrecoursetoaterribleargument。 “Come,“hesaid,withvisiblewarmth,“wouldn’titbebetterthanreturningtothefields?“ “Asyouwill,MonsieurJean,“sheanswered。