第11章

类别:其他 作者:Linda Lael Miller字数:4372更新时间:18/12/26 17:01:03
Josephlefthisstudioandwentdowntobreakfastwithhismother;butPhilippe’sconfessionhadtakenawayhisappetite。HetookMadameDescoingsasideandtoldhertheterriblenews。Theoldwomanmadeafrightenedexclamation,letfallthesaucepanofmilkshehadinherhand,andflungherselfintoachair。Agatherushedin;fromoneexclamationtoanotherthemothergatheredthefataltruth。 “He!tofailinhonor!thesonofBridautotakethemoneythatwastrustedtohim!“ Thewidowtrembledineverylimb;hereyesdilatedandthengrewfixed;shesatdownandburstintotears。 “Whereishe?“shecriedamidthesobs。“PerhapshehasflunghimselfintotheSeine。“ “Youmustnotgiveupallhope,“saidMadameDescoings,“becauseapoorladhasmetwithabadwomanwhohasledhimtodowrong。Dearme!weseethateveryday。Philippehashadsuchmisfortunes!hehashadsolittlechancetobehappyandlovedthatweoughtnottobesurprisedathispassionforthatcreature。Allpassionsleadtoexcess。Myownlifeisnotwithoutreproachofthatkind,andyetI callmyselfanhonestwoman。Asinglefaultisnotvice;andafterall,itisonlythosewhodonothingthatareneverdeceived。“ Agathe’sdespairovercamehersomuchthatJosephandtheDescoingswereobligedtolessenPhilippe’swrong-doingsbyassuringherthatsuchthingshappenedinallfamilies。 “Butheistwenty-eightyearsold,“criedAgathe,“heisnolongerachild。“ Terriblerevelationoftheinwardthoughtofthepoorwomanontheconductofherson。 “Mother,Iassureyouhethoughtonlyofyoursufferingsandofthewronghehaddoneyou,“saidJoseph。 “Oh,myGod!lethimcomebacktome,lethimlive,andIwillforgiveall,“criedthepoormother,towhosemindahorriblevisionofPhilippedraggeddeadoutoftheriverpresenteditself。 Gloomysilencereignedforashorttime。Thedaywentbywithcruelalternationsofhopeandfear;allthreerantothewindowattheleastsound,andgavewaytoeverysortofconjecture。Whilethefamilywerethusgrieving,Philippewasquietlygettingmattersinorderathisoffice。Hehadtheaudacitytogiveinhisaccountswithastatementthat,fearingsomeaccident,hehadretainedelevenhundredfrancsathisownhouseforsafekeeping。Thescoundrellefttheofficeatfiveo’clock,takingfivehundredfrancsmorefromthedesk,andcoollywenttoagambling-house,whichhehadnotenteredsincehisconnectionwiththepaper,forheknewverywellthatacashiermustnotbeseentofrequentsuchaplace。Thefellowwasnotwantinginacumen。HispastconductprovedthathederivedmorefromhisgrandfatherRougetthanfromhisvirtuoussire,Bridau。Perhapshemighthavemadeagoodgeneral;butinprivatelife,hewasoneofthoseutterscoundrelswhosheltertheirschemesandtheirevilactionsbehindascreenofstrictlegality,andtheprivacyofthefamilyroof。 AtthisconjuncturePhilippemaintainedhiscoolness。Hewonatfirst,andgainedasmuchassixthousandfrancs;buthelethimselfbedazzledbytheideaofgettingoutofhisdifficultiesatonestroke。 Heleftthetrente-et-quarante,hearingthattheblackhadcomeupsixteentimesattheroulettetable,andwasabouttoputfivethousandfrancsonthered,whentheblackcameupfortheseventeenthtime。Thecolonelthenputathousandfrancsontheblackandwon。Inspiteofthisremarkablepieceofluck,hisheadgrewweary;hefeltit,thoughhecontinuedtoplay。Butthatdiviningsensewhichleadsagambler,andwhichcomesinflashes,wasalreadyfailinghim。 Intermittentperceptions,sofataltoallgamblers,setin。Lucidityofmind,liketheraysofthesun,canhavenoeffectexceptbythecontinuityofadirectline;itcandivineonlyonconditionofnotbreakingthatline;thecurvettingsofchancebemuddleit。Philippelostall。Aftersuchastrain,thecarelessmindaswellasthebravestweakens。WhenPhilippewenthomethatnighthewasnotthinkingofsuicide,forhehadneverreallymeanttokillhimself;henolongerthoughtofhislostplace,norofthesacrificedsecurity,norofhismother,norofMariette,thecauseofhisruin;hewalkedalongmechanically。Whenhegothome,hismotherintears,MadameDescoings,andJoseph,allfellonhisneckandkissedhimandbroughthimjoyfullytoaseatbythefire。 “Blessme!“thoughthe,“thethreathasworked。“ Thebruteatonceassumedanairsuitabletotheoccasion;allthemoreeasily,becausehisill-luckatcardshaddeeplydepressedhim。 SeeingheratrociousBenjaminsopaleandwoe-begone,thepoormotherkneltbesidehim,kissedhishands,pressedthemtoherheart,andgazedathimforalongtimewitheyesswimmingintears。 “Philippe,“shesaid,inachokingvoice,“promisenottokillyourself,andallshallbeforgotten。“ PhilippelookedathissorrowingbrotherandatMadameDescoings,whoseeyeswerefulloftears,andthoughttohimself,“Theyaregoodcreatures。“Thenhetookhismotherinhisarms,raisedherandputheronhisknee,pressedhertohisheartandwhisperedashekissedher,“Forthesecondtime,yougivemelife。“ TheDescoingsmanagedtoserveanexcellentdinner,andtoaddtwobottlesofoldwinewithalittle“liqueurdesiles,“atreasureleftoverfromherformerbusiness。 “Agathe,“shesaidatdessert,“wemustlethimsmokehiscigars,“andsheofferedsometoPhilippe。 Thesetwopoorcreaturesfanciedthatiftheyletthefellowtakehisease,hewouldlikehishomeandstayinit;both,therefore,triedtoendurehistobacco-smoke,thougheachloathedit。ThatsacrificewasnotsomuchasnoticedbyPhilippe。 Onthemorrow,Agathelookedtenyearsolder。Herterrorscalmed,reflectioncamebacktoher,andthepoorwomanhadnotclosedaneyethroughoutthathorriblenight。Shewasnowreducedtosixhundredfrancsayear。MadameDescoings,likeallfatwomenfondofgoodeating,wasgrowingheavy;hersteponthestaircasesoundedlikethechoppingoflogs;shemightdieatanymoment;withherlife,fourthousandfrancswoulddisappear。Whatfollytorelyonthatresource! Whatshouldshedo?Whatwouldbecomeofthem?Withhermindmadeuptobecomeasick-nurseratherthanbesupportedbyherchildren,Agathedidnotthinkofherself。ButPhilippe?whatwouldhedoifreducedtoliveonthefivehundredfrancsofanofficeroftheLegionofhonor?Duringthepastelevenyears,MadameDescoings,bygivingupthreethousandfrancsayear,hadpaidherdebttwiceover,butshestillcontinuedtosacrificehergrandson’sintereststothoseoftheBridaufamily。ThoughallAgathe’shonorableanduprightfeelingswereshockedbythisterribledisaster,shesaidtoherself:“Poorboy!isithisfault?Heisfaithfultohisoath。Ihavedonewrongnottomarryhim。IfIhadfoundhimawife,hewouldnothavegotentangledwiththisdanseuse。Hehassuchavigorousconstitution——“ MadameDescoingshadlikewisereflectedduringthenightastothebestwayofsavingthehonorofthefamily。Atdaybreak,shegotoutofbedandwenttoherfriend’sroom。 “NeitheryounorPhilippeshouldmanagethisdelicatematter,“sheurged。“OurtwooldfriendsDuBruelandClaparonaredead,butwestillhaveDesroches,whoisverysagacious。I’llgoandseehimthismorning。HecantellthenewspaperpeoplethatPhilippetrustedafriendandhasbeenmadeavictim;thathisweaknessinsuchrespectsmakeshimunfittobeacashier;whathasnowhappenedmayhappenagain,andthatPhilippepreferstoresign。Thatwillpreventhisbeingturnedoff。“ Agathe,seeingthatthisbusinessliewouldsavethehonorofherson,atanyrateintheeyesofstrangers,kissedMadameDescoings,whowentoutearlytomakeanendofthedreadfulaffair。 Philippe,meanwhile,hadsleptthesleepofthejust。“Sheissly,thatoldwoman,“heremarked,whenhismotherexplainedtohimwhybreakfastwaslate。 OldDesroches,thelastremainingfriendofthesetwopoorwomen,who,inspiteofhisharshnature,neverforgotthatBridauhadobtainedforhimhisplace,fulfilledlikeanaccomplisheddiplomatthedelicatemissionMadameDescoingshadconfidedtohim。Hecametodinethateveningwiththefamily,andnotifiedAgathethatshemustgothenextdaytotheTreasury,rueVivienne,signthetransferofthefundsinvolved,andobtainacouponforthesixhundredfrancsayearwhichstillremainedtoher。TheoldclerkdidnotleavetheafflictedhouseholdthatnightwithoutobligingPhilippetosignapetitiontotheministerofwar,askingforhisreinstatementintheactivearmy。 Desrochespromisedthetwowomentofollowupthepetitionatthewaroffice,andtoprofitbythetriumphofacertaindukeoverPhilippeinthematterofthedanseuse,andsoobtainthatnobleman’sinfluence。 “Philippewillbelieutenant-colonelintheDucdeMaufrigneuse’sregimentwithinthreemonths,“hedeclared,“andyouwillberidofhim。“ Desrocheswentaway,smotheredwithblessingsfromthetwopoorwidowsandJoseph。Astothenewspaper,itceasedtoexistattheendoftwomonths,justasFinothadpredicted。Philippe’scrimehad,therefore,sofarastheworldknew,noconsequences。ButAgathe’smotherhoodhadreceivedadeadlywound。Herbeliefinhersononceshaken,shelivedinperpetualfear,mingledwithsomesatisfactions,asshesawherworstapprehensionsunrealized。 WhenmenlikePhilippe,whoareendowedwithphysicalcourage,andyetarecowardlyandignobleintheirmoralbeing,seemattersandthingsresumingtheiraccustomedcourseaboutthemaftersomecatastropheinwhichtheirhonoranddecencyiswell-nighlost,suchfamilykindness,oranyshowoffriendlinesstowardsthemisapremiumofencouragement。Theycountonimpunity;theirmindsdistorted,theirpassionsgratified,onlypromptthemtostudyhowithappenedthattheysucceededingettingroundallsociallaws;theresultistheybecomealarminglyadroit。 Afortnightlater,Philippe,oncemoreamanofleisure,lazyandbored,renewedhisfatalcafelife,——hisdrams,hislonggamesofbilliardsembellishedwithpunch,hisnightlyresorttothegambling-