第46章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5055更新时间:18/12/26 16:58:32
’Iamreadytogo,’saidAnne,assoonashearrived。 Hepausedasiftakenabackbyherreadiness,andrepliedwithmuchuncertainty,’Wouldit——wouldn’titbebettertoputitofftillthereislesssun?’ Theveryslightestsymptomofsurprisearoseinherassherejoined,’Buttheweathermaychange;orhadwebetternotgoatall?’ ’Ono!——itwasonlyathought。Wewillstartatonce。’ Andalongthevaletheywent,Johnkeepinghimselfaboutayardfromherrighthand。Whenthethirdfieldhadbeencrossedtheycameuponhalf-a-dozenlittleboysatplay。 ’Whydon’theclasphertohisside,likeaman?’saidthebiggestandrudestboy。 ’Whydon’theclasphertohisside,likeaman?’echoedalltherudesmallerboysinachorus。 Thetrumpet-majorturned,and,aftersomerunning,succeededinsmackingtwoofthemwithhisswitch,returningtoAnnebreathless。 ’Iamashamedtheyshouldhaveinsultedyouso,’hesaid,blushingforher。 ’Theysaidnoharm,poorboys,’sherepliedreproachfully。 PoorJohnwasdumbwithperception。Thegentlehintuponwhichhewouldhaveeagerlyspokenonlyoneshortdayagowasnowlikefiretohiswound。 Theypresentlycametosomestepping-stonesacrossabrook。Johncrossedfirstwithoutturninghishead,andAnne,justliftingtheskirtofherdress,crossedbehindhim。Whentheyhadreachedtheothersideavillagegirlandayoungshepherdapproachedthebrinktocross。Annestoppedandwatchedthem。Theshepherdtookahandoftheyounggirlineachofhisown,andwalkedbackwardoverthestones,facingher,andkeepingheruprightbyhisgrasp,bothofthemlaughingastheywent。 ’Whatareyoustayingfor,MissGarland?’askedJohn。 ’Iwasonlythinkinghowhappytheyare,’shesaidquietly;andwithdrawinghereyesfromthetenderpair,sheturnedandfollowedhim,notknowingthattheseemingsoundofapassingbumble-beewasasuppressedgroanfromJohn。 Whentheyreachedthehilltheyfoundfortynavviesatworkremovingthedarksodsoastolaybarethechalkbeneath。TheequestrianfigurethattheirshovelswereformingwasscarcelyintelligibletoJohnandAnnenowtheywereclose,andafterpacingfromthehorse’sheaddownhisbreasttohishoof,backbywayoftheking’sbridle-arm,pastthebridgeofhisnose,andintohiscocked-hat,Annesaidthatshehadhadenoughofit,andsteppedoutofthechalkclearinguponthegrass。Thetrumpet-majorhadremainedallthetimeinamelancholyattitudewithintherowelofhisMajesty’srightspur。 ’Myshoesarecakedwithchalk,’shesaidastheywalkeddownwardsagain;andshedrewbackherdresstolookatthem。’HowcanIgetsomeofitclearedoff?’ ’Ifyouwastowipetheminthelonggrassthere,’saidJohn,pointingtoaspotwherethebladeswererankanddense,’someofitwouldcomeoff。’Havingsaidthis,hewalkedonwithreligiousfirmness。 Annerakedherlittlefeetontherightside,ontheleftside,overthetoe,andbehindtheheel;butthetenaciouschalkhelditsown。 Pantingwithherexertion,shegaveitup,andatlengthovertookhim。 ’Ihopeitisrightnow?’hesaid,lookinggingerlyoverhisshoulder。 ’No,indeed!’saidshe。’Iwantedsomeassistance——someonetosteadyme。Itissohardtostandononefootandwipetheotherwithoutsupport。Iwasindangeroftopplingover,andsogaveitup。’ ’Mercifulstars,whatanopportunity!’thoughtthepoorfellowwhileshewaitedforhimtoofferhelp。Buthislipsremainedclosed,andshewentonwithapoutingsmile—— ’Youseeminsuchahurry!Whyareyouinsuchahurry?Afterallthefinethingsyouhavesaidabout——aboutcaringsomuchforme,andallthat,youwon’tstopforanything!’ ItwastoomuchforJohn。’Uponmyheartandlife,mydea——’hebegan。HereBob’slettercrackledwarninglyinhiswaistcoatpocketashelaidhishandasseveratinglyuponhisbreast,andhebecamesuddenlyscaleduptodumbnessandgloomasbefore。 WhentheyreachedhomeAnnesankuponastooloutsidethedoor,fatiguedwithherexcursion。Herfirstactwastotrytopulloffhershoe——itwasadifficultmatter;butJohnstoodbeatingwithhisswitchtheleavesofthecreeperonthewall。 ’Mother——David——Molly,orsomebody——docomeandhelpmepulloffthesedirtyshoes!’shecriedaloudatlast。’Nobodyhelpsmeinanything!’ ’Iamverysorry,’saidJohn,comingtowardsherwithincredibleslownessandanairofunutterabledepression。 ’O,IcandowithoutYOU。Davidisbest,’shereturned,astheoldmanapproachedandremovedtheobnoxiousshoesinatrice。 Annewasamazedatthissuddenchangefromdevotiontocrassindifference。Onenteringherroomsheflewtotheglass,almostexpectingtolearnthatsomeextraordinarychangehadcomeoverherprettycountenance,renderingherintolerableforevermore。Butitwas,ifanything,fresherthanusual,onaccountoftheexercise。 ’Well!’shesaidretrospectively。Forthefirsttimesincetheiracqaintanceshehadthisweekencouragedhim;andforthefirsttimehehadshownthatencouragementwasuseless。’Butperhapshedoesnotclearlyunderstand,’sheaddedserenely。 Whenhenextcameitwas,tohersurprise,tobringhernewspapers,nowforsometimediscontinued。Assoonasshesawthemshesaid,’Idonotcarefornewspapers。’ ’Theshippingnewsisveryfullandlongto-day,thoughtheprintisrathersmall。’ ’Itakenofurtherinterestintheshippingnews,’sherepliedwithcolddignity。 Shewassittingbythewindow,insidethetable,andhencewhen,inspiteofhernegations,hedeliberatelyunfoldedthepaperandbegantoreadabouttheRoyalNavyshecouldhardlyriseandgoaway。 Withastoicalmienhereadontotheendofthereport,bringingoutthenameofBob’sshipwithtremendousforce。 ’No,’shesaidatlast,’I’llhearnomore!Letmereadtoyou。’ Thetrumpet-majorsatdown。Anneturnedtothemilitarynews,deliveringeverydetailwithmuchapparententhusiasm。’That’sthesubject_I_like!’shesaidfervently。 ’But——butBobisinthenavynow,andwillmostlikelyrisetobeanofficer。Andthen——’ ’Whatistherelikethearmy?’sheinterrupted。’Thereisnosmartnessaboutsailors。Theywaddlelikeducks,andtheyonlyfightstupidbattlesthatnoonecanformanyideaof。Thereisnosciencenorstratageminsea-fights——nothingmorethanwhatyouseewhentworamsruntheirheadstogetherinafieldtoknockeachotherdown。Butinmilitarybattlesthereissuchart,andsuchsplendour,andthemenaresosmart,particularlythehorse-soldiers。O,Ishallneverforgetwhatgallantmenyouallseemedwhenyoucameandpitchedyourtentsonthedowns!IlikethecavalrybetterthananythingIknow;andthedragoonsthebestofthecavalry——andthetrumpetersthebestofthedragoons!’ ’O,ifithadbutcomealittlesooner!’moanedJohnwithinhim。Herepliedassoonashecouldregainself-command,’IamgladBobisinthenavyatlast——heissomuchmorefittedforthatthanthemerchant-service——sobravebynature,readyforanydaringdeed。I haveheardeversomuchmoreabouthisdoingsonboardtheVictory。 CaptainHardytookspecialnoticethatwhenhe——’ ’Idon’twanttoknowanythingmoreaboutit,’saidAnneimpatiently;’ofcoursesailorsfight;there’snothingelsetodoinaship,sinceyoucan’trunaway!Youmayaswellfightandbekilledasbekillednotfighting。’ ’Stillitishischaractertobecarelessofhimselfwherethehonourofhiscountryisconcerned,’Johnpleaded。’Ifyouhadonlyknownhimasaboyyouwouldownit。Hewouldalwaysriskhisownlifetosaveanybodyelse’s。Oncewhenacottagewasafireupthelaneherushedinforababy,althoughhewasonlyaboyhimself,andhehadthenarrowestescape。Wehavegothishatnowwiththeholeburntinit。ShallIgetitandshowittoyou?’ ’No——Idon’twishit。Ithasnothingtodowithme。’Butashepersistedinhiscoursetowardsthedoor,sheadded,’Ah!youareleavingbecauseIaminyourway。Youwanttobealonewhileyoureadthepaper——Iwillgoatonce。IdidnotseethatIwasinterruptingyou。’Andsheroseasiftoretreat。 ’No,no!IwouldratherbeinterruptedbyYOUthan——O,MissGarland,excuseme!I’lljustspeaktofatherinthemill,nowIamhere。’ ItisscarcelynecessarytostatethatAnne(whoseunquestionablegentilityamidsomewhathomelysurroundingshasbeenmanytimesinsistedoninthecourseofthishistory)wasusuallythereverseofawomanwithacoming-ondisposition;but,whetherfrompiqueathismanner,orfromwilfuladherencetoacourserashlyresolvedon,orfromcoquettishmaliciousnessinreactionfromlongdepression,orfromanyotherthing,——soitwasthatshewouldnotlethimgo。 ’Trumpet-major,’shesaid,recallinghim。 ’Yes?’herepliedtimidly。 ’Thebowofmycap-ribbonhascomeuntied,hasitnot?’Sheturnedandfixedherbewitchingglanceuponhim。 Thebowwasjustoverherforehead,or,moreprecisely,atthepointwheretheorganofcomparisonmergesinthatofbenevolence,accordingtothephrenologicaltheoryofGall。John,thusbroughtto,endeavouredtolookatthebowinaskimming,duck-and-drakefashion,soastoavoiddippinghisownglanceasfarastotheplaneofhisinterrogator’seyes。’Itisuntied,’hesaid,drawingbackalittle。 Shecamenearer,andasked,’Willyoutieitforme,please?’ Astherewasnohelpforit,henervedhimselfandassented。Asherheadonlyreachedtohisfourthbuttonshenecessarilylookedupforhisconvenience,andJohnbeganfumblingatthebow。Tryashewoulditwasimpossibletotouchtheribbonwithoutgettinghisfingertipsmixedwiththecurlsofherforehead。 ’Yourhandshakes——ah!youhavebeenwalkingfast,’shesaid。 ’Yes——yes。’ ’Haveyoualmostdoneit?’Sheinquiringlydirectedhergazeupwardthroughhisfingers。 ’No——notyet,’hefalteredinawarmsweatofemotion,hisheartgoinglikeaflail。 ’Thenbequick,please。’ ’Yes,Iwill,MissGarland!B——B——Bobisaverygoodfel——’ ’Notthatman’snametome!’sheinterrupted。 Johnwassilentinstantly,andnothingwastobeheardbuttherustlingoftheribbon;tillhishandsoncemoreblunderedamongthecurls,andthentouchedherforehead。 ’OgoodGod!’ejaculatedthetrumpet-majorinawhisper,turningawayhastilytothecorner-cupboard,andrestinghisfaceuponhishand。 ’What’sthematter,John?’saidshe。 ’Ican’tdoit!’ ’What?’ ’Tieyourcap-ribbon。’ ’Whynot?’ ’Becauseyouareso——BecauseIamclumsy,andnevercouldtieabow。’ ’Youareclumsyindeed,’answeredAnne,andwentaway。 Afterthisshefeltinjured,foritseemedtoshowthatheratedherhappinessasofmeanervaluethanBob’s;sincehehadpersistedinhisideaofgivingBobanotherchancewhenshehadimpliedthatitwasherwishtodootherwise。CouldMissJohnsonhaveanythingtodowithhisfirmness?Anopportunityoftestinghiminthisdirectionoccurredsomedayslater。Shehadbeenupthevillage,andmetJohnatthemill-door。 ’Haveyouheardthenews?MatildaJohnsonisgoingtobemarriedtoyoungDerriman。’ Annestoodwithherbacktothesun,andashefacedher,hisfeaturesweresearchinglyexhibited。Therewasnochangewhateverinthem,unlessitwerethatacertainlightofinterestkindledbyherquestionturnedtocompleteandblankindifference。’Well,astimesgo,itisnotabadmatchforher,’hesaid,withaphlegmwhichwashardlythatofalover。 Johnonhispartwasbeginningtofindthesetemptationsalmostmorethanhecouldbear。Butbeingquarteredsoneartohisfather’shouseitwasunnaturalnottovisithim,especiallywhenatanymomenttheregimentmightbeorderedabroad,andaseparationofyearsensue;andaslongashewenttherehecouldnothelpseeingher。